No.227680
you know what would be nice? a way to further leave our humanity behind. free from the urges of the flesh, keeping only the love for anime, vidya, music, movies, perhaps food (though i would dispense that one personally). only the basic joys that life offers, the kind that allows me to have them independent of companionship.
in essence, a mecha, a robot, a machine that doesn't seek to harm but it is able to defend itself, enabling a life free from society, free from others, making them completely optional. i know that this is partly possible in human form, as my desire for the opposite sex begins to die down at the level 34.
but as this desire dies, leaving no trace of want or disdain, only cold indifference as the age progresses, a disconcerting peace takes place, along with the existential questions.
where to go from here? driving a car with no destiny, maybe that gives a high. once that is done, now what? maybe watching evangelion for the gorillionth time. making a new food or kicking the ball randomly. i don't know, i guess i am not used to this much freedom.
winning the struggle of the flesh comes with a price after all. "where to go from here?", the question comes up again, along with the image of a child looking up to you, holding your hand.
and that child is you.
No.227681
philosophical almost