/dep/ - Depression

>>284403
I got ECT and took lithium for many years. I regret it. I am definitely not as smart as I once was. That could be from any number of causes but somehow I don't think being shocking into having seizures helped things. As an aside, I really enjoyed the anesthesia, it was like just being turned off for a little bit. I liked the feeling of being turned off, I found it quite pleasant.

>>284406
Weird. Anasthesia for me was like dying. It was a total panic of losing consciousness involuntarily and normalfags are just like "antinatalists should kill themselves!". Okay well if you believe in the ability to overcome instinct then it should logically follow that YOU stop having sex, or even eating every day, Chad.

>>284406
nta but I recall reading lithium is very important for vitamin b12 to function properly, and b12 is extremely important to have adequate endogenous antioxidant levels thus calm

but yeah, actually lithium despite being apparently one of the oldest "psychiatric medications" is still, after all this time one of the least understood. thats so weird

>>284369
the only difference is your furfag BBC enjoyer friend fits into society. People will praise him for that.

Normgroids don't really care if you are gay or weird. just so long as you abide by their social order. This is the entire point of america, perhaps the most normie nation. You can have any religion, be as gay and black as you want so long as you work and not be a weirdo.

>>284476
What's wrong with being black? I guarantee you this site is filled with madthads

>>283813
I mean, if you're are happy being an autistic neet and realize you will never move past that, I'm sure you're happy. I get the feeling OP, and many other users here want something more than that. And just things they can really never achieve. Once you get to your late twenties and missed out on important life milestones, many doors will simply be closed to you forever. I think that is hitting OP hard and many others here…

>>283816
You didn't say he wasn't… He just feels like he can't relate to his old pals, or anyone in general.


Some people just never make the cut.

>>283817
I don't really think bisexuals are failed normies. Unless they are involved in LGBTQ+ spaces, most can live life as the average straight person.

>>283816
Lol what a faggot. The problem is they act like they are better than me and have turned into condescending pricks. Why would I be happy for a guy who lives in a furry matrix when he isn't at work? It's disturbing as fuck.

>>284598
I think you are thisclose to getting b& Stacy!

>>284600
Straights are failed normies too. Anyone who cares about their sexuality is a normie of some sort.

>>284805
Anyone who calls himself a wizard should be repulsed by such an utter dedication to sex and degeneracy.

>>284793
furries, fags, females, trannies, etc. aren't human beings so it's normal to feel repulsed by them.

>>284808
Even if true, there are better ways to express this feeling than typing out some babbling nigger succubus vernacular. "as FUCK" pbbt. What does "fuck" even mean in this context? If you can't think of a simile, the don't try to type one. No wonder you have nothing but gay furry friends on discord. Consider going back to the mental hospital.

>>284814
Cope harder, Stacy

>>284814
you sound mad as fuck defending furries who are objectively trash human beings. You must definitely be one of those discord fuckers.

This thread exemplifies crab mentality beautifully

>>284816
The goalpost wasn't moved, the point was the exact same across both posts. You don't even know what moving the goalpost means, but you've seen that exact image used in other arguments OTI so you reflexively reach for it after you've lost one. Fascinating behaviour, you're clearly not someone who talks much on imageboards.

>>283831
That vow is just a way to cover up the priestly church way of life, i.e. homosexuality and pedophilia facilitated by the church institutions

I've been inpatient for two occasions, around 50 days summed up. It deeply scarred me and I think of my time there every single day. I can't imagine someone being there for 2 years, must be awful.

>>283828
Indeed. I don't know why anyone would be friends online or not with people who are gay. Lgbt freaks can't even be considered human and they actually groom poor little kids online and irl, kids who could grow to become wizards and they trick them into take pills that fuck with their hormones with hopes to turn them into females or braindead soulless creatures that repeat the same satanic gospel. Being a wizkid zoomer must be hell. tiktok, social media, no understanding of real history, shitty modern games, praising niggers as a religion, lgbt agenda, leftist indoctrination in every media they consume, etc.
OP should seek better friends.

>>284821
Eh, like I say the worst thing was the ECT.

>>284822
He's obviously not my friend anymore

>>283810
I believe I have one of the worst and most bewildering lives a person has ever lived. Barring being born into sex slavery, it's near impossible to have a more stunted, frustrating life than I.

>>287327
t. pajeet
no offense though. pajeets have some of the worst lives, possibly only comparable to other third world countries and still are one of the worst.

>>284598
What makes you think I'm okay with my life? What makes you think I don't want to be better and holding a full time job?

I just don't whine about my problems all the time, that's all.

>>287324
Looking back on this, I do admit I likely exaggerated. So I rearrange myself from the bottom 1% to bottom 4%.

>>283810
genuine wizards are very rare. most people do experience relationships sooner or later. So I agree.

>>289088
this is precisely why it's all the more painful…because I really am that rare thing. what strange set of causes brought me into this awful life? it cannot be made sense of…there is no reason to any of it but the extraction of pain.

>>289136
eh virgins are rare enough. but sex doesnt just happen it takes some effort for the man. but friends, they do just happen, drop into the lap of introverts. try going a whole life without 1 male friend ever.

>>289137
are you saying you have gone a whole life without one male friend? I actually have no friends. despairing about this however has done nothing. life really is just torture. figuring out how we got here should be considered the most important undertaking, or rather the second most important, because the most important is securing our release from this hell permanently.

>>289140
tbh i was a better truwiz before i found wizchan, wizchan has made me more concerned about social issues. but i think the only solution to my problems is to be the ideal truwiz. and find a meaning of life outside of people.

the not having friend thing isnt impressive. sure could say the same. how old is the person along though, it doesnt hit the same coming from a 20yo as afrom a 40yo. this place used to be very busy it has been more and less busy over the years. i dont doubt that many the people that were larping here 10yr ago were teenagers or early 20 and have since gone on to have children. felt more keenly by those left behind, i wonder even if any shame do they ever think back how they played the i'm one of you too can totally relate game then now.

the ones that do say youre too negative are generally massive cope lords and have only a very tenuous grasp on their cope coefficient to the extent they cannot afford you dropping any 'negative' read 'truth bombs' into their copium drip.

it's a false economy. truth is the daughter of time. their cope will be exposed in the end how much more painful now this is why many will turn to alcoholism in the end, the cope has run out there are no more distractions only the searing, scathing, obscured reality they had worked so tirelessly to outpace their whole lives it has finally caught up.

its not easy to be a wizard, in many ways it is a very difficult life, and failing to become normal, some outliers their mind fails and they go into the distortion and meld with it, being consumed in the process forever and ever. its frightening to think about.

>>289146
Copes like alcohol, pizza and video games work in your early 20s when you still have dopamine left.

Then time passes rapidly and you realize you are becoming old and decaying, and still trying to get dopamine from the same copes.
It stops working and you finally realize life is empty. And it comes down to one single choice:

Whether to end it fast or ride out a very painful, lonely ride until the natural end.

>>289151
>you still have dopamine left.

You can still get dopamine from activities no matter your age.
The problem I believe most people here and seemingly on the internet as a whole suffer from is overstimulation.

I remember /a/ in 2011, anons would jokingly refer to their computers as 4chan machines. There was talk of how they would have to motivate themselves to watch anime, back then that was unthinkable to me. I understand now that their mind got fried by overstimulation. Why watch a 20 min anime episode when you can get dopamine way faster simply mindlessly scrolling 4chan?

I don't believe the first creator of an imageboard knew what they were doing at the time, but the techs at Google, TikTok and every other modern site/app have ran wild with it.
They want you to stay on their app/site as long as possible, they invest millions into research and hire the brightest minds to trick me you and everyone else to keep being a good consuming monkey.


The best way I've found to combat this is to simply cut out all internet use. Plug the router out if you can, block websites, whatever you can. If you are a NEET and don't need the internet for work this is easier to do.

I used to be one of those guys who believed my brain was fried from internet use, I'm glad to be proven wrong. Imagine you were in a prison cell, you can only stare at the walls for so long before you lose your mind, if someone handed you a mathematics textbook, you'd start flipping through the pages, any stimulation is better than none is seemingly how the brain sees it.

I've started to read books I've been planing to read for years, finished movies and old games in my backlog. I study math everyday, I'm learning languages, exercise everyday, actually walk outside which is unheard of for me, the vitamin D from the sun improved my mood more than I thought was possible.
I feel how I felt when I was a kid or teenager, that energy and curiosity I had as a youth is back.

I'm trying to work my way up to only using the internet one day of the week and then eventually as little as possible. Right Now I can do 3-4 days without the net, and those are without a doubt the best days of the week. I lack the self-disciple to properly regulate myself, once I get access to the net I'm quickly back to my old days.


It might be worth trying out for others who feel their brain is fucked due to the internet, it costs no money, try it out a couple of days, it might surprize you.

when i was homeless i did full desensitization. some of what you say is true to an extent, you can get more productivity out of yourself. its much more involved than just dopamine.

if must say that if your difficulties in life are not enjoying life enough, that is a nice difficulty to have. if you are talking about a brain being truly fried, that's from the long term and things you can't use little hacks like this to fix. all of it is nice advices, possibly i think that people that put such advices have other things in their life they unaware of which let them put this things into practice.

yes nice to try, no not whole picture. some things you need proper input and resources from other people outside your own person to fix.

if you need oxygen, you need oxygen, if you need basic human interaction to not lose your mind, if you need food, then you need it to function. all the desensitization and productivity dopamine business that can come afterward if at all when the most vital things are taken care of.

anyway these things you learn after you spent half a lifetime actually studying and learning and get older and realise dont be hard on yourself, because you are trying to survive likely using surrogate activities and other people that have amazing hacks stand over you talk as if they figure something out, no, rarely, its just lucky. nice home some nice interpersonal interaction, security, safety of finance, a launchpad for the future. many lacking just this, not dopamine

You can tell someone is a failed normalfag if going outside and exercise fixed all their problems

>>289156
If you're poor, the internet is the cheapest way to stay entertained and not be consumed by your horrible life 24/7.

If you don't count a few normie boards, almost all other imageboards are filled with the downtrodden, the autistic, the poor and all kinds of bullied or discriminated people because it's the only social outlet available for them.

Without the internet a considerable amount of people would kill themselves because otherwise you get zero social contact and input. If you try to obtain it in real life, people just shun you which makes the situation even worse through negative reinforcement.

>>289161
Being of healthy and comfortable body and enjoying nature are not traits reserved for normalfags.

>>289172
Not what the other anon said.

>>289156
>>289161
>going outside and exercise fixed all their problems

Who said that here?

I like this website a lot less upon realising how many Indians post here.

>>290619
>how many Indians post here.
proofs

>>290619
I mean, they're half of the world population
Not really, but, pretty much

>>290619
They destroyed the whole internet

>>290861
yes

>>290619
I hate curries too man.

>>290870
Fuck curries