No.296898
>>296897no way, i live with my parents and need to maintain an illusion of normalcy
wizardry is an undercover op for me 8-)
No.296921
Feels like for most of my youth I was treated like an inanimate object or some type of non human animal that was just supposed to be fed and be taken care of as much as possible without any type of consideration for how I might have felt for most of my life. I wouldn't even have had an issue with that, but the consequence of being treated as an object has made me think of other people as objects too, and that can sometimes make it difficult to form relationships with people since I don't have much consideration for anyone anymore.
No.296922
>>296921I feel you, though it was mostly only my dominating mother who I guess had it all planned out like a fairy tale - I was supposed to go to this school, get good grades, then go to that university, graduate, then get that high status job etc. She would get angry when I turned out to be a real, imperfect human, with individual needs and feelings, instead of a studying machine. I was doing well at first, but then I realized that the other kids got rewarded for their efforts, while I didn't get any because "you're smart so it should be easy for you" and "your reward will be 20 years later". Well, it turns out kids (and adults too, who would have thought) like to have fun, and if studying gets me nothing, then I thought fuck it, I'll just bear through the punishments and play whenever I can. Since then, that has kind of been my life mantra - minimum effort, maximum fun, accept suffering as inevitable. Learned helplessness perhaps? Anyway, back to my parents, I'm sure my dad felt some compassion for me, but was suppressed by my tyrannical mother. She acted like a literal nazi sometimes. I'm sure this is one of, if not the main reason for my misogyny.
No.296983
it is an un-usually lonely night for me, there something about seeing everyone joyfully celebrating the xmas and I am just doomcrolling in my dark room, I.G it is about not being a part of it
but on the other hand, at least i do not need to interact with normalfags
No.296989
Seeing holiday post about "ungrateful kids" from parents makes my fucking blood boil. My parents were the type to use that language all the time, just for me wanting the same stuff/opportunities my peers had.
No.296990
>>296989you should be grateful just for bringing you to existence in this wonderful world
(sarcasm)
No.296997
A relative of mine is dating a black guy and her dad is just doing the most cringe jokes about mixed babies every family gathering. It's honestly horrendously vile and makes it awkward and he just refuses to stop. Just jokes about "peanut butter babies" and how his dog with gobble up their future children, mistaking them for peanut butter. Everyone just goes quiet and people tell him to stop, but he refuses to.
I don't know if it's old age causing him to lose inhibitions, or if it's his way of coping with his daughter being a racemixer, or if it's legitimately a deranged sexual fetish of his or if it's a means of bullying to dissuade them from ever having children. Except he does sound pretty accepting of the relationship outside of those guttural jokes so maybe it's a way of coping. It actually might be a deranged sexual fetish on his part because it's a disgusting boomer version of those racial jokes you see on 4chan.
I understand being against interracial relationships, but this is just unnecessarily cruel to the daughter, crueler than saying you disagree with it.
No.297001
>>296997The dad sounds based af
No.297002
>>296997Here's the perfect solution. Next time the dad starts up with that stuff again, join in and start backing him up. Then he'll see how weird it is and stop doing it.
No.297007
>>296997i find those jokes funny
bitch just digs big black cock, that's all there is to the relationship, and peanut butter goblins are absurd because there won't be no children from that relationship, it's temporary and only for sex
the culmination of funny will be when they break up, and they will for sure, and i bet the they will come up with some intricate reason, but the real reason is, your relative will get bored of his dick and look for a bigger one
i would bet like $2000 on this if i could
No.297008
>>297007I don't know, you're probably right to an extent. I don't really give a shit either way. I'm pretty /pol/chud but it's just that you don't care if it's something they choose and it's what they want. And as you said, it's not exactly the average white succubus going out with a black, there's a reason for it.
Every year I make a similar post complaining about how people just have foul mouths around the dinner table. What's wrong with keeping family time PG 13? Why does everyone have to bring sex and shit into everything.
No.297009
>>297008>Why does everyone have to bring sex and shit into everything.because it's disgusting to bring a fuckbuddy to the family table and pretend like this stranger is more than a walking dick and wallet
so of course people would see through the facade and only her father has the balls to point out the obvious
No.297010
The more you strap off the superficiality off any person as in you get to know them better all their faults, deficits and bad sides are revealed. However it's merely a self reflection and it's exactly our own very thoughts materializing in front of us that will burn us alive. Thus the only way is abstraction, as in a re-dematerializing and getting back to thought and then getting rid of it completely. Personally I don't think it's worth it to think about the psychology behind things. This is where reddit is wrong. It's self torture. Conscious committing to the physical, mental and technical world is the way, acting but not moralising, accepting powerlessness as a strength. Don't judge, just commit to action. Getting lost in feelings is never worth it.
No.297012
>>297010yeah don't think about it, mind your own business
No.297047
My dad died in 2020 but only over the past month have I really understood the scope of his selfishness.
The guy made 100K a year by the time I was in 3rd grade and put aside absolutely nothing for me. If he opened a savings account when I was a baby and put in $50 a week I would have had $20,000 when I needed it.
He made like $2,000 a month. Bought his new wife a house. The amount I saw when he died is as much as he made in two weeks.
No.297048
>>297047sorry, but you yourself sound like a selfish bitch
No.297050
>>297047>100k a year>2 k a monthThat's some giga dummy math you got there bud.
No.297051
2014 after failed normie killer publicized it, i found the only place that understands me
11 years later after several grossly unsuccessful escape attempts I am worried about the feeling of calm that I get from visiting this place, tourists be damned
No.297052
>>297051 your father should not have "opened a savings account" for you, what are the complaints?
No.297053
I have very little contact with anyone, but even with such few occasions I have been asked more than once if I'm foreign, despite living in my home country. The first few times I thought I might have an accent since this is not the city I grew up in, but last time the people who came to my house to fix the roof asked me if I spoke the country's language, and they were from the same city as I was. Isolation might have made me barely intelligible.
No.297071
>>297067and anyway, I'm looking after some cats right now and I don't give a shit if my 'beatuiful' worthless death is delayed.
NIGGERS TONGUE MY ANUS
Don't worry about it so much, man.
No.297073
>>297067Dying under a blossoming cherry tree with a fast-acting poison would be my idea of a beautiful death.
Doesn't have to be in Japan, but it would be a plus.
No.297081
How the fuck should I feel when something is announced as "fool-proof" and I fail at it?
No.297143
>>297110I actually tried this, I remember my vision getting black around the edges but I ripped off the bag from survival instinct. It's very hard to actually commit suicide with something that requires so much willpower, so much so that I really have no idea how anyone manages to do it.
No.297145
>>297134Lots of 70iq subhumans also rate good products as 1 star because the UPS mailman was so rude.
The world is full of inexplicably retarded folk.
No.297147
I realized that I fucking hate alcohol and the only reason I drink it is when someone talks me into it. How can I refuse? What words should I say, that would reach through a normalfaggot's thick skull? These fuckers can be incredibly insistent on pulling you into their misery.
No.297151
>>297147>i don't drinkhow difficult is it to say 3 words ?
you're a drama queen
No.297158
>>297147It's your skull the hard one who should matter to you. Saying NO and ghosting whoever insists after that is what would give you some honor after such degrading taunt.
Put those pants on, please.
No.297161
It's not so bad. Things could be worse. I guess. Fuck you.
No.297187
>>297185This is a very common life experience for many people. They have this very same experience in different circumstances and 'levels' but it's essentially very basic.
Also stop caring about 14 years old life's or other people's lifes in general. That's as meaningless as it gets. Maybe read a book I don't know.
No.297205
>>297161I fuck you too man
No.297310
>what's wrong?
>why are you like this?
must I have an excuse to be unhappy?
why can't normies just accept that I don't enjoy what they do?
No.297362
>>294941I was too bored of the same NEET/Hiki routine today, and I decided to give a visit to some distant family members that live nearby, I planned to stay there for 1 hour, I spent a half hour and decided to leave after noticing how much everyone there is giving me "bad vibes", everyone seems to look down at me, I can smell their indirect disgust at me, I felt too scared around them, even the shortest form of talk, was difficult, even thought there were not many people around at all, I still felt too anxouis, everytime one of them passed by me, I was able to sense their passive hatred toward me over being a good for nothing leech, I have to repeat again, the worst part was having to talk to them, it was like a burden on my chest, when I finally decided to leave, I found out the door was locked, and I had to ask the household's man to open it for me with the keys, when he opened it and i was able to leave, I felt relieved.
"just go meet people man" does not work, I feel way more lonely around people then when I am alone at my room. being around people is scary and frusterating for some people.
No.297371
>>297362they have a butler???
No.297388
>>297371no, I meant the head of the family.
No.297390
>>297388oh ok, can you describe what happened when you came, stayed and leaved the house?
No.297392
>>297390They opened the house for me, I entered, sat in the guests room, at first I liked it, going to another house felt so refreshing at first, and i have a bit of nostalgia value tied to that place, but they started to "interact" with me, basic stuff, greetings, shaking hands, they seemed friendly, even offered me tea and snacks as expected, i wasn't hungry, hence, i refused, i kept being greeted by more of them, and it started to cause me more anxiety than i already felt, people who i knew don't like me even if they show don't express it to me in fact, (but i know what they say about me behind my back), so yrd more anxiety and negative thoughs until i decided to leave earlier than i expected with the regret over the idea of ever coming out, if anything i was lucky, there were other people who were absent from the house at that time.
No.297393
>>297151It's not that simple because drinking is a shitty part of my national culture, and a "manly" thing to do. If I say I don't drink, my family will think I'm either a faggot or I have an "alcohol problem" because teetotalers are mostly alcoholics who can't have any or they'll relapse. But I guess you're right, I shouldn't give a fuck and take their stupid shit like a man.
>>297158not easy to ghost a drunk family member who barges into my room and physically drags me out of my chair
No.297511
>>297508Have made the same observation for myself. I usually get up around 7:30-8:00 but tried waking up at 6:00. It was okay during late summer but waking up when it's dark out is just fucking demoralizing.
No.297606
cant stop watching gore