No.300352
I just ordered my SN. Hope it’s of fine quality and will arrive safely. I’m really done with having had consciousness.
No.300355
>>300352you really assume death is the end of consciousness?
are you willing to bet everything on that assumption?
No.300357
>>300355Bet what? It's a gamble, sure, but if consciousness can be get rid of, there is a potential for infinite improvement. And if not, it doesn't matter anyway - any eternity of self-awareness is torture, no matter the decorations.
No.300420
thinking about shooting myself in the head during break at work, there would be about 30-40 people who would see it
No.300421
I have my rope and all but the survival instinct is so much fucking harder than what i expected. I feel like puking when i put it around my neck. This is truly horror
No.300422
if i go to san francisco or some other usa city can you just buy fentanyl of some niggers? or a gun? or they wont deal with a random white boy and will just rob you?
No.300429
>>300421seems like the entirety of you, does not actually want to die.
and that there is just one part in you, that seems to want to die.
that same part also worries of your financial future, or better life circumstances, or hates specific features of yourself.
it feels a need to change at one time, or a need to die at another.
it tortures you every day.
why not kill just that one part in you?
No.300430
>>300421Narcotic + Barbituric = instant painless death
yet society decides that is better to waste millions on mentally ill people trying to keep them alive as much as possible in some mental hospital or ugly hospice
No.300604
fuck it. im done. im either going out by handgun or exit bag. either way ill die so i dont give a fuck how im going to do it. im tired, im fucking tired. i have no plans, no aspirations, all i want to do is to kill myself. i dont know when ill do it, but im going to be gone. fuck this
No.300607
>>300429I don't think this kind of post is helpful, because it minimizes the problems that person is facing. It's basically saying, "hey, why not just solve your problems instead of killing yourself?" Suicide only becomes an appealing option when one feels their problems are impossible to overcome. If it were so simple for someone to "just kill that one part in you", don't you think they would have tried that before tying a noose around their neck?
No.300608
>>300607>when one feels their problems are impossible to overcomeAnd a lot of these feelings of helplessness are misguided, reactionary, impulsive, or themselves driven by factors such as health and nutrition.
>If it were so simple for someone to "just kill that one part in you", don't you think they would have tried that before tying a noose around their neck?Not if they had people online convince them not to try it, of which there seems to be many here (you included).
No.300609
>>300608>Not if they had people online convince them not to try it, of which there seems to be many here (you included).It's interesting how much the locus of control has suddenly shifted. In your first post he's framed as totally responsible for his own feelings, and "just" needs to kill the evil inside him. Simply solve his own problems, try a new diet, it's easy. Now suddenly once you've identified that I'm actually evil it's a larger problem and he's a victim (of me, or of this website). He would solve his problems, if only I wasn't in the way stopping him by criticizing your posts.
No.300610
>>300609I'm
>>300608 and that is my only post ITT. I tried to make sense of your reply by reading up the reply chain but I really can't figure out why you typed what you did.
No.300611
>>300610Don’t worry about it, I’m just another mental case rambling in the asylum. I just get annoyed at self help style advice sometimes and felt like you were moralizing against me for going against it. It comes from a lifetime of being suicidal and hearing the similar things while at the same time there is no real help available. What you said about suicidal thoughts is often true, but I.ve heard similar things from many people with no love for me, when what they really meant was “stop complaining and being a burden on others, get back to work”
No.300644
Any good jumping spots recommended in new south wales?
No.300662
I wanna be dead but I hate the idea of a useless or stupid death. Can't think of an honorable way to die, because none of the usual occupations where that's a thing would hire such a batshit insane person like me. Maybe I could become a fisherman and die trying to save me mateys at sea, I like the sound of that
No.300716
I live in constant physical pain I don't know how to make it stop, hypothetically I could jump from the sixth floor, I hate the human body
No.300718
>>300716observe your wish to make it stop - the thoughts surrounding it.
detach from them.
become the observer of both the pain, and the thoughts of wanting the pain to stop.
No.300719
>>300718My hypochondriac instinct makes it difficult not to worry every time I have pain
No.300720
>>300719try meditation, it helps distance yourself from it, just enough for you to be able to observe the thoughts, as well as that instinct.
you do not need to be desciplined for meditation, and strained effort is unneeded. just find yourself doing what you are already doing, but do the things consciously.
you are ALWAYS already breathing, so start - without adding more effort - to breathe "manually" - consciously.
from outward appearance, no one would be able to tell whether you are breathing unconsciously (deep in thoughts) or consciously, and the switch is invisible as well, to anyone but you.
look at the things you're already looking at, but consciously.
let thoughts exist parallel to these conscious actions.
add observation of how your chair feels under your butt, or how your feet feel on the ground.
let these sensations live parallel to your thoughts.
rotate observation and conscious effort. make it a challenge to sense all and do all at once, but start small.
No.300721
>>300719Constant pain can be interesting observation. If you observe it, try to understand it, you can find a way to accept it and be okay with it, but also - explore it's depths. I don't bother with dentals, since feeling teeth rot can be so entertaining. Eventually they stop anyway, so it's only temporary distraction.
No.301593
Hey wizzies, I got a cheap, accessible, and high success rate method for you
Long Drop Hanging
Get a tow rope from harbor freight, autozone, etc. terminated with a loop at both ends. Get one with at least a thousand or two lb strength, to account for the shock force. $15-$30 depending on length (see below) and location. I'm using the 20ft 6000lb recovery strap from harbor freight.
Find a high place with something strong you can anchor the rope to (rock, concrete pillar, sturdy tree trunk, etc). Choose the anchor carefully as there will be a lot of force on it. Make sure the length of the rope will leave you above the ground at the bottom.
Loop the rope around the anchor and pull the other end through and tight, then push the loop at the free end back over itself to make a loose noose.
Put the noose around your neck, tighten, and jump. Anecdotally it may be more effective if the knot is in the front or side of your neck vs the back.
Thaf's it. Old execution manuals used complicated tables to compute how high the drop should be to avoid decapitation but still break the neck, and numbers were in the 7-9ft range, so I suggest overshooting that with a 20-30ft rope, especially after using a few feet for fastening it. You should probably plan for decapitation to ensure success. If you care that much about family, first responders, etc. you're still too attached to this world to follow through.
Benefits: backup of a drop if the rope/anchor fails, cheap (vs eg gun), plausibly deniable materials (vs eg inert gas)
Drawbacks: more difficult site selection than fall from height due to anchor requirements, not free, can't be done inside house, messier body than poisons
Stay tuned for results when I test it later.
No.301594
>>301593In lieu of a livestream, check the obits in Charlotte, NC for Liam Roeth.
I'll be sure to post again if it doesn't work, so that there's a negative confirmation signal as well as positive
yes yes, I shouldn't be posting here, but I thought the datapoint would be appreciated No.301601
>>301593useful post, thanks
No.301620
Will a belt around the neck kill me fast or will I be able to undo it?
No.301621
>>301620There is no easy suicide. Just keep living.
No.301622
>>301621I'm dying and am not being given access to euthanasia and don't want the pain to continue
No.301629
>>301620belt might not hold your weight. ropes are rated with weights like "max 100kg". Get one at least rated HIGHER than your body weight. Research how to tie knots and hanging places for suicide and ask yourself if you want to do short drop or suspension hanging. you can find pics of succesful hangings on gore sites. fuck this world
No.301630
>>301621There is, but society makes it hard because "life is precious" and all that pro-life bullshit filled with pro-psychiatry propaganda.
No.301631
>>301630It is human nature, and even a common trend of beings with minds to protect human minds.
No.301632
>>301631It makes absolutely no sense to protect the life of someone that wants to die
No.301647
>>301633
I crave nonexistence
No.301658
>>296511fent od is best way if youre in usa
No.301749
>I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?)
Lermontov tier
go eat eggs to replentish your serotonin precursors levels
No.301809
What are best knots to use when hanging?
No.301811
>>301809If you need to ask then you're likely destined to fuck it up and become a vegetable.
No.301815
>>301809i am just gonna leave these links to Evelyn's guide on how to hang yourself since its pretty good as far as i see
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/evelyns-complete-guide-on-how-to-hang-yourself-with-both-partial-and-full-suspension-hanging.175612/be carefull u dont wanna fail this man otherwise it will all be even worse
No.301840
there was this indian family of 10 members who decided to do a collective suicide where they all roped using pieces of clotching as a replacement for rope:
https://watchpeopledie.tv/post/660/burari-deaths-video-mass-suicide No.301861
>>301860I'm glad he's dead.
No.301874
I just want to go to sleep and never wake up
No.301883
>>301594Wizfren are you still with us?? I can't find the obituary
No.301891
if youre gonna die anyway might as well do psychedelics