No.304333
>>296511I would rather live on than end it all out of melancholy and wrath. Life for me could actually be quite peaceful if it weren't for nosy, petty, and simple-minded normies trying to ruin my life constantly. Seriously, I hope these people get what SHOULD come to them. I doubt the world is so justly punitive.
>>296756Wow! That is unequivocally brutal! I'm not even being sarcastic or pettish, I genuinely understand your pain. People are not only apathetic, they're malicious and cruel too. Schadenfreude is one of the prevalent all-too-human characteristics. Life is suffering, mostly without purpose or end.
No.304342
>>297905unironically via your ass is the best way after intravenous
orally and snorting don't have the same absorption rate, whereas inside your ass is nearly as good as with a syringe. someone on the internet said this, maybe double check.
No.304343
why does everything have to be so hard? i want the fruits of suicide, without having to work for it
No.304488
advice for cowards on how to train yourself to have the courage to do it?
No.304489
>>304488My advice is to not do it, because suicide is for fags.
No.304490
>>304489just sobbing in a ball, wanting to do it, but too pussy to do it, is even more fag.
No.304491
>>304377it is possible if u have no tolerance, but mixing benzos with opioids is much more likely. death is through additive respiratory depression
No.304773
>>304330From my research it takes up to 20 minutes maybe even more, an awfully long time for one to panic and call the ambulance, one really need benzos to keep calm.
No.304949
does drinking vodka help build the courage to do it?
No.304950
>>304949yeah when your liver fails
No.304976
>>303508That was Dante and Augustine's fanfiction. Samson and Saul kill themselves in the OT and they're still saved.
No.305024
>>305022Is SN not covered here?
No.305033
>>305024…Did you read the list? Was it on there? If not, then obviously it's not covered.
>>305032Make an honest effort to figure it out and report your findings.
No.305096
Is there a method that does not involve firearms that is easy to pull off without fucking up? I'm worried about making my life worse through a failed attempt.
My only guess is buying as much fentanyl as I can and taking it all at once. Would I need to inject or would oral route be ok?
No.305099
>>303675>Poison sounds like overall the smartest choice.Where the fuck are dweebs like us going to get that shit
No.305148
>>305099No idea.
On the other hand I'm thinking if you have a good spot to tie the noose and start gulping down vodka like crazy, you should lose coordination, fall from the stool and die. But no evidence to support it. I'm just thinking that when hit by vodka you're unlikely to be able to get yourself out of the noose.
No.305149
>>305099Poison hemlock grows everywhere in the wild.
No.305158
>>300267Sorry, I genuinely don't think a human wrote this. Not that it was generated by a bot or something, but that something demonic penned it, or that it was penned under demonic influence, like John Milton's Paradise Lost. That's what I instinctively felt.
No.305159
>>305158you're unenlighened
No.305160
I used to be really suicidal, and maybe I still am in some quiet, lingering way. What keeps me moving forward is this idea of the technological singularity, a future where everything changes so radically that the pain of now might finally lose its grip. I am not clinging to a person or a belief system so much as a horizon, a point in time where the rules of living could be rewritten.
I hold onto the hope that if I live long enough, full dive virtual reality will exist, and I will be able to step into a paradise that feels as real as this world but without its weight. That imagined place is not just escapism, it is a promise that there might be a version of life that does not hurt so much. Even if it is only a dream right now, it gives me a reason to keep breathing and to keep going one more day.
No.305165
>>296511dying and suffering in agony is so lonely. i have few days to do it at most and i still have no clue how to defeat SI despite my life being over for a long time. wish i didn't care about anything and was normal about it like everyone else who just kills themselves cause they failed a college exam. i want to just walk out of here and not see or hear anyone from my family ever. i'm dying from endless diseases, have drug-induced dementia and i'll run out of drugs and get seizures or strokes in a day or two. anyway, my method is and always will be train since i have no home or even room to myself, so i cant do anything at home and im a tard that would fuck up every method that required caoabilities. doesnt get easier than walking in front of a train, im just a coward and ill never change. if i wont do it ill end up in prison mental ward hospital in a loop till im 100 years old or die earlier.
No.305168
>>305149Now that's a Socratic thought indeed.
No.305174
>>305165>wish i didn't care about anything and was normal about it like everyone else who just kills themselves cause they failed a college examDoes that really happen?
t. highschool dropout
No.305175
>>305174Yeah. Though I don't know why you both belittle those people. If the college was their only chance to not live a worthless subhuman life, it's perfectly sensible to suicide.
No.305293
>>305160I've thought the same thing as you, my guy. Lately though, I feel like I came far too early. The technological singularity feels like something that'll be close to happening by the end of my lifetime if I were to keep living.
I envy those who'll be born within at least 2030, because I believe the children born in that time will get to experience it fairly young.
Unfortunately, a lot of us are gonna be stuck here, waiting in a shithole that seemingly moves at a snail's pace when it comes to the technological singularity's arrival.
No.305381
>>305293>technological singularityI feel like tech indeed advanced hard 2000-2015, now there is literally nothing significantly new compared to 2015 unless you count the copy-paste of llms as progress. nothing in everyday life has changed. the fake religion of singularity is based on the fake notion of exponential technological progress. Also if it wasn't for a handful of people at one Dutch company computer hardware would have stalled a decade ago
No.305411
>>305381If anything technology has become more hellish because it's optimized to be addictive. World of Warcraft was called World of Warcrack, but that has nothing compared to the cynical gacha-slop lootcrate goombling industry. Around 2012-2016 I just noticed everyone getting addicted to smartphones, by the time you arrived in 2017 everyone was living online. I used to think of myself as being special in the 2000s for being terminally online, because it was still rare at that time.
Boomers are all literally living in an artificial world, take a look at facebook some time and you'll see they're all just watching AI slop. You see them comment under the videos enraged as if it's real.
I feel that the digital world will stop being as relevant in the future. I think there's serious diminishing returns for user data. Anyone who is addicted to the internet, after a few years, falls into the same habits. And material constraints (oil, copper, etc) will mean that the real bottleneck will be in the ability to buy shit, not in the ability to advertise.
I keep wondering how the internet is free for third worlders. I get how it's valuable to advertise to a first worlder, but an indian living week to week, what's the value of him or his user data?
No.305432
my drugs are running out, last time they did i had stroke like symptoms and ambulanced myself to insanity ward after 16 hours or so cause i couldnt bear it
so i have 2 days to kill myself
guess we will have an answer if train suicide works or not this time
No.305456
I backed out at the last moment last month. When minutes from death I get the most disgusting gory feeling of terror and despair. I believe everyone goes to some kind of involuntary judgement after death and speculation whether you go to hell or heaven is stupid unless you are very evil or very good.
Anyway I realised my SI is a real problem. I see webm's of Japanese schoolgirls jumping to their death without hesitation and I wonder why I as a 30 year old white man can't do the same. I am almost ashamed of it. Getting scared I will never be able to do it and this rot will continue indefinitely.
No.305458
>>305456
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>Anyway I realised my SI is a real problem. I see webm's of Japanese schoolgirls jumping to their death without hesitation"Puberty hits you hard" versus "keeping face" is a painful concept when youre a teen.
Good thing I had something to hold onto, a certain secret outlet to fulfil my need to feel "still managing to deserve to live".
No.305460
>>305456Drugs are the way to go and that's why they limit drugs as an option. It's pathetically easy to kill yourself with cyanide or Nembutal, or opium.
I feel envious of the drug addicts who have access to those means. The ones who can just get a whole dose of heroin to shoot up and have it look like an OD death.
No.305465
https://www.npr.org/2008/05/05/90179759/japanese-turning-to-suicide-by-detergent-death
>In the past year, some 300 people in Japan have killed themselves by deliberately mixing bleach with other household cleaners and then breathing the toxic hydrogen sulfide fumes.Nu-suicide method just dropped. Or old, but it's not that old.
It's funny, at my old job we did curtain cleaning. And I was always warned not to mix the upholstery cleaner with bleach otherwise it released toxic fumes.
Loading up on alcohol and sleeping pills, and putting on a gas mask, then slowly releasing the gas in a steady stream while listening to music, should make for a relatively peaceful death. Even if the mask slips. It'd still fill the room and kill you.
No.305466
>>305465Death before dishonor. Hopefully they fail to delete the info from boards.
No.305481
>>305466It's not hard to find out honestly. All cleaning products have their ingredients on the back.
I think what's important with suicide is that there's no going back, and that it doesn't trigger a death instinct. Swallowing fast acting poison of any kind does that. Your body doesn't associate swallowing something with death.
No.305484
>>305481SCHRÖDINGER'S UR ASSHOLE
I SURVIVED
No.305521
>>305460I meant killing yourself without hesitation I actually tried to hang myself. I agree these junkies have a ridiculously easy way out, maybe the only good thing about that lifestyle.
No.305522
>>305521It's a pleasant way too. What way could be better than just overdosing on opium?
No.305525
>>297905I almost died of fentanyl once, don't remember how and I sure as shit didn't ask for fentanyl, they just put it in the drugs that I did ask for kinda like a kinder surprise chocolatte egg of death. Put me in a coma. So just do drugs and eventually you will win the amazing fent lottery
No.305530
>>305484stupid picture but i can't help having a laugh at the thought of this kitten exacting its revenge on schrodinger.
No.305573
>>305568Mankind is one giant ball of normgroid slop and I wish for nothing but the worst for it