/dep/ - Depression

I wanna be dead but I hate the idea of a useless or stupid death. Can't think of an honorable way to die, because none of the usual occupations where that's a thing would hire such a batshit insane person like me. Maybe I could become a fisherman and die trying to save me mateys at sea, I like the sound of that

>>300607
>just kill that one part in you
Haha I did that, then decades later it comes back to haunt you, much hilarity ensues and by that I mean total fucking horror h-haha

I live in constant physical pain I don't know how to make it stop, hypothetically I could jump from the sixth floor, I hate the human body

>>300716
observe your wish to make it stop - the thoughts surrounding it.
detach from them.
become the observer of both the pain, and the thoughts of wanting the pain to stop.

>>300718
My hypochondriac instinct makes it difficult not to worry every time I have pain

>>300719
try meditation, it helps distance yourself from it, just enough for you to be able to observe the thoughts, as well as that instinct.
you do not need to be desciplined for meditation, and strained effort is unneeded. just find yourself doing what you are already doing, but do the things consciously.

you are ALWAYS already breathing, so start - without adding more effort - to breathe "manually" - consciously.
from outward appearance, no one would be able to tell whether you are breathing unconsciously (deep in thoughts) or consciously, and the switch is invisible as well, to anyone but you.

look at the things you're already looking at, but consciously.

let thoughts exist parallel to these conscious actions.

add observation of how your chair feels under your butt, or how your feet feel on the ground.
let these sensations live parallel to your thoughts.

rotate observation and conscious effort. make it a challenge to sense all and do all at once, but start small.

>>300719
Constant pain can be interesting observation. If you observe it, try to understand it, you can find a way to accept it and be okay with it, but also - explore it's depths. I don't bother with dentals, since feeling teeth rot can be so entertaining. Eventually they stop anyway, so it's only temporary distraction.

>someone called my favorite cooking anime shit
it's over

Hey wizzies, I got a cheap, accessible, and high success rate method for you
Long Drop Hanging
Get a tow rope from harbor freight, autozone, etc. terminated with a loop at both ends. Get one with at least a thousand or two lb strength, to account for the shock force. $15-$30 depending on length (see below) and location. I'm using the 20ft 6000lb recovery strap from harbor freight.
Find a high place with something strong you can anchor the rope to (rock, concrete pillar, sturdy tree trunk, etc). Choose the anchor carefully as there will be a lot of force on it. Make sure the length of the rope will leave you above the ground at the bottom.
Loop the rope around the anchor and pull the other end through and tight, then push the loop at the free end back over itself to make a loose noose.
Put the noose around your neck, tighten, and jump. Anecdotally it may be more effective if the knot is in the front or side of your neck vs the back.
Thaf's it. Old execution manuals used complicated tables to compute how high the drop should be to avoid decapitation but still break the neck, and numbers were in the 7-9ft range, so I suggest overshooting that with a 20-30ft rope, especially after using a few feet for fastening it. You should probably plan for decapitation to ensure success. If you care that much about family, first responders, etc. you're still too attached to this world to follow through.
Benefits: backup of a drop if the rope/anchor fails, cheap (vs eg gun), plausibly deniable materials (vs eg inert gas)
Drawbacks: more difficult site selection than fall from height due to anchor requirements, not free, can't be done inside house, messier body than poisons
Stay tuned for results when I test it later.

>>301593
In lieu of a livestream, check the obits in Charlotte, NC for Liam Roeth.
I'll be sure to post again if it doesn't work, so that there's a negative confirmation signal as well as positive
yes yes, I shouldn't be posting here, but I thought the datapoint would be appreciated

>>301593
useful post, thanks

Will a belt around the neck kill me fast or will I be able to undo it?

>>301620
There is no easy suicide. Just keep living.

>>301621

I'm dying and am not being given access to euthanasia and don't want the pain to continue

>>301620
belt might not hold your weight. ropes are rated with weights like "max 100kg". Get one at least rated HIGHER than your body weight. Research how to tie knots and hanging places for suicide and ask yourself if you want to do short drop or suspension hanging. you can find pics of succesful hangings on gore sites. fuck this world

>>301621
There is, but society makes it hard because "life is precious" and all that pro-life bullshit filled with pro-psychiatry propaganda.

>>301630
It is human nature, and even a common trend of beings with minds to protect human minds.

>>301631
It makes absolutely no sense to protect the life of someone that wants to die

>>301633
I crave nonexistence

>>296511
fent od is best way if youre in usa

On one hand I'm not suicidal anymore.
But the "3rd parties" on YouTube are so fucking insufferable that I can't even joke (to myself) about that one video, by Hinder, where a guy does it with a broken lightbulb…

>I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?)


Lermontov tier


go eat eggs to replentish your serotonin precursors levels

What are best knots to use when hanging?

>>301809
If you need to ask then you're likely destined to fuck it up and become a vegetable.

>>301809
i am just gonna leave these links to Evelyn's guide on how to hang yourself since its pretty good as far as i see
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/evelyns-complete-guide-on-how-to-hang-yourself-with-both-partial-and-full-suspension-hanging.175612/
be carefull u dont wanna fail this man otherwise it will all be even worse

there was this indian family of 10 members who decided to do a collective suicide where they all roped using pieces of clotching as a replacement for rope:

https://watchpeopledie.tv/post/660/burari-deaths-video-mass-suicide

>>296511
kurt cobain

>>301860
I'm glad he's dead.

>>301840
Creepy video. Would have been better with sound.

I just want to go to sleep and never wake up

>>301594
Wizfren are you still with us?? I can't find the obituary

>>301883
He might not be a wiz after all

Looks like he really did 404 though
https://www.youtube.com/live/SQFA7R4EZ3w

if youre gonna die anyway might as well do psychedelics

>>301889
I feel a strange sense of warmth and connection with the ACK victim whenever they actually succeed and I can find their details online. Staring at Liam's experiences at his previous schools/universities and connecting it to his successful ACK is like watching an ethereal portal open up right in front of you, giving you to an opportunity escape this world. It makes me shut out all of the external sensory stimuli around me, as if I'm in a dreamy trance state.

https://thehofstrachronicle.com/75146/features/2019-10-29-the-wizarding-world-of-hofstra-university

Thinking a lot about it lately.
Realized if I'm going to die within 3 months, I may as well do the last "Hurra". You know, finish stuff I think is actually important.
It's art.
Art.
Finish your art.
Then DIE.

Death must be so liberating.
Imagine, all the suffering suddenly gone forever.
All the torment.
The cravigs, the neediness.
You're no longer competing.
You've risen above the game.
You've become nothing and thus you've become GOD

Are there any blackpilled suicide boards or forums? I mean stuff that down right encourages it and non of that hugbox normie shit

>>303381
There's SaSu but it's full of succubi and faggots, although if you only want to use it to kill yourself this shouldn't be too much of a problem.

>>303382
Whats the link to SaSu?

>>303390
Please delete this

>>303392
Why

>>303396
Do not visit crab buckets that's why

>>303410
How do I torture crabs then?

>>303380

If you die by suicide you automatically go to hell and your soul belongs to demons. Some laws can't be broken and no matter how the angels cry your soul will be eternally tortured.

DO NOT commit suicide.

And if God isn't real then you end in a sort of paradox. You can't suffer anymore but YOU don't exist. It's like being all the potential people that were never born. You just aren't.

>>296511
Starvation is much better. It takes more time, but if you make it out of the keto adjustment phase in the beginning and you stay in bed for months, you'll be fine. Jain monks do this when they are prepared to depart from life. It is painful and scary, but its the least painful of all the suicide options. I am considering killing myself through this option if I ever find myself at rock bottom.

>>303511
>>303511
massive CONTRA is, you may end up in mental ward solely for "danger for himself: does not eat" reason (aka "anorexia")

>>303508
>hell
>demons
>soul
>eternity
>God

Nice fantasy bro.

>>303511
You need to be alone else you risk this >>303512 they literally force feed you tying you to the bed with an IV

>>296511
So I bought an Helium tank last week and tried to see how it would work: it was bad.
It lasted 10 minutes and I had to open the valve more two times to make it last those 10 minutes (the tank loses pressure, after a while nothing comes out of it anymore and you obviously can't keep opening it while unconscious)
I've already thought to buy more tanks but if they do not last enough time all it will do is just a permanent brain damage.
So what's the solution?

Anyway, helium is great, it really tastes of nothing and it probably is the best method if you manage to make it work properly.
The last party lol