/dep/ - Depression

>>302299
> Why did nobody bother helping you?

My parents do not want to help me, at all. They guilt trip me into working for them and then refuse to pay me because I'm NEET. They won't give me help finding a job or really doing anything they don't approve of.

Deep down I think they want me to fail. I desperately want to get away from them but they've basically set up a tar pit so I can't even have a hope of leaving.

But the real thing i'm speaking about is mental. Normalfags have normal executive functioning(due to genetics) and I do not. I would legitimately give up a leg at the waist to have normal executive functioning.

>>302300
>I would legitimately give up a leg at the waist to have normal executive functioning.
Yeah I have to agree with you on this part.
I'm slowly getting there, by peeling off every part of what resulted in me, my thoughts and behavior.
Is this lack of executive function really genetic? My father has ADHD, yet thrives, I'm the same, yet I do not.
I refuse to believe that the only way forward is meth.

As for the first thing, about your parents, it really helped me gain some sort of epiphany once both parents described their childhoods in great detail.
I could tell how one trauma shaped the next tormentor that then shaped me and so it could go back the chain for quite a while. I always suspected this, but having it laid out helped.
Consider why they are what they are, realize that normies are beyond changing and move from there.

This sounds like basic, bullshit advice if it even qualifies as that.
Again, I'm not at the "made it out of the tar pit" stage quite yet, but I'm starting to see the way forward.
What helped for me personally is being exposed to eastern thoughts and sensibilities through mostly Chinese novels and their version of manga.
Childish as that may be.
I believe it is much more suitable to the likes of us compared to western/abrahamic stuff many of us default to.

>>302301
>I'm slowly getting there, by peeling off every part of what resulted in me, my thoughts and behavior.

yeah man I'm using crystals to re-align my chakras and it's really helping. Have you heard of Homeopathy?

>>302302
How about you just go off yourself?
I don't understand which part of examining the cause and effect of aspects of your life.
If you don't even know why you are such a mouthbreathing chimp then how do you expect to ever change?
Why are you even here if you are nothing but normal cattle?

>>302303
wow you almost followed the chart perfectly.

>>302304
No criticism was provided. Chart also assumes someone somehow cares about social points on a completely anonymous site?
My reaction is to your lack of any contribution.
I'm in awe that someone sits here ready to take a shit and giggle to themselves.
Congrats retard.

>>302305
you type like a retard holy shit go back to where you came from

I can't cope with being a paria at my work any longer. After almost three years of wageslaving it's finally time to go down the NEET route I guess. I was naive enough to think getting a job would magically transform me into a normie, but it didn't. If anything my mental health has detoriated even further throughout my time here, because I'm being reminded daily how vastly inferior I am to everyone else around me.

>>302323
Halth! for i am here da retardwizard!

>>302304
this flowchar lacks some exit driveways.


say, one can get deeper into "shit we heard before" about vitamins


one can also ask other wizards what has helped to regain SOME composure, at least

and so one

ok, lemme normie you with sum funny advice


>>302287


normie advice: use podcasts dammit! You can listen to podcasts while phoneplaying.

also, get "reading glasses" to leer at a modern FullHD smartphone.

>>301989
ogh boi


they say schizophers suffer from "oneiroid nightmares" which feature a similar awful scary shit.

but, at least, you only had it while full of stims, not randomly. Kinda… lucky you.

>>302363
I don't know why but podcast information doesn't stick in my head.
I have trouble reading as I get off track, get up and fantasize about the book or related stuff, walk around etc every few sentences, but still the information is retained much better reading.

Chemotherapy was years ago and now I have dizziness, narcolepsy, terrible short term memory and random emotional outbursts. Feels like I lost 40% of my brain power.

"but it will go away!!" said my fucking oncologist. yeah it didn't I want to wring your neck faggot.

>>302287
I have started studying introductory math textbooks after years of rotting and it makes me realize how untalented I am and how my progress is too slow for me to ever achieve anything remarkable. It only makes me realize that even if I am not wasting my time on entertainment there's no success story for me to be in. I am mediocre and the maximum limit of my potential is probably something like getting an above average white collar job. There's no finding your calling or life mission. Every path I can take leads to slavery.

>>302367
Interesting.
I was thinking of using math as my crutch into somehow slowly working my way out of the brainrot.
Math was the thing that filtered me in college, but realistically I didn't put in a shred of effort starting from highschool.
I thought if I work myself through k-12 books and then stuff like calculus and linear algebra I would have a foundation to build on.
At least a less damaged brain.

Now your story scares me. Though I have to agree, even after a magical improvement montage I don't see myself living a good life.

>>302366
Doctors have no clue of what medication actually does, they receive orders from big pharma

>>302368
At least it's fun if you don't have low self-esteem and you're not worried about performance or the future. At least I think I may have found an actual hobby now.

>>302375
It's remarkable how dumb doctors are about their field. They're basically electricians but about medicine.

>>302275
I went through an awakening, it had taken me to uncovering repressed memories through 3 layers of intense trauma that took a year, if it was an instant it would have undoubtedly driven me to suicide, and now I find myself confidant and strong but with more psychological pain than I ever had but I can handle it now. Awakening can be very very rough

>>302375
Agreed. I was warned multiple times by the pharmacist that some med combo I was prescribed is lethal so they wont give it to me unless I get another note.
Go back to the doctor and they said "oh well then don't take it".
They don't give a shit.
They prescribe the most insane organ shredding pain killers and nerve numbers or whatever the hell and they don't care about the results.

Actually watched one of those pharma agents go into the doctors office (skipping the line that whore) with a bunch of pamphlets and whatnot.
20 minutes later guess what I was shilled? The exact same nerve medication that bitch was there to shill.
I don't know how this pharma connection works here, must be different from the US, but that memory combined with the many incidents like the one above (lethal med combo) has me doubting them ever since.

During covid I was there trying to get a doctors note for work absence since I had to go to the ER that weekend… anyways some government chick walks in…
Why is it always succubi in these positions btw?
The government chick complains to the doctor that not enough of the newly ordered covid vax is being used (in front of me, I'm still sitting there with a bloodpressure cuff on me) and how unfortunate that is.
Note this was in like 2024 when covid wasn't a thing anymore and I was never vaxxed because I never left my home anyways at the time so why bother?
Anyways next thing you know doctor says in a funny manner that they'll use one for me then since I'm already there etc.
The nurse just gives me a stack of papers to waive all kinds of rights to sign without a word or telling me what it is.
I of course told them to fuck off as politely as possible and left with my papers, but the doctor got so mad at me the old man turned red.

Idk man… had so many weird interactions with doctors because I didn't take the vaccine too at the time.
Had to get a minor surgery (just some abscess cyst thing needed to be drained and closed) and they flipped out that I wasn't vaccinated like I'd murder them.
I told them what the issue would even be as I'm the only one in danger here, the doc and all the nurses were vaccinated so who cares?
Of course they fucking scream at me calling me an idiot and whatnot.
Okay bro…

Ironically my aunt and co had signed up for the vaccine (fathers sister is aunt right? idk) and she ended up collapsing on the way home.
Had some blood cloth in her brain that needed surgery, but was left paralyzed on one side for life.
Had a heart attack later on.
I already had some kind of heart inflammation at the time so I'd probably die from it too if I had taken it I'm sure. Based on random chan stuff I read.

TL:DR; Doctors can't be trusted if they don't absolutely align with common sense.
I had more success following youtube tutorials for spine stuff and the like than going to doctors for years.
If it's not some standard textbook issue you are having you better pray you find a Dr. that gives a fuck.
Most just push you along.

>>302366
Make sure your cancer is 100% gone too. These retards can't be trusted even with that.
I've known a succubus from across the road who was "cured" and after the covid situation they noticed that the cancer was back and she was gone in 2 months…
I wish I had anything positive to say.
Mom has similar issues as you describe and nothing seems to work.

>>302387
false awakening

I am such an unpleasant and bitter piece of shit to be around. Normalfags always turn against me after some time.I think I am the problem. Fuck

>>302388
>Make sure your cancer is 100% gone too

I've skipped my follow up scans. I don't give a shit about living on this wretched earth.

But I appreciate the sentiment wizanon.

One of my parents is seriously irked that I refuse to atune to their schedule.
As though even if they have been on my good side all my life, it's seriously a surprise that life flat out betrays you no matter how much of you heart, soul, blood, sweat and tears you put into something, in exchange for even the simplest respect.

Well take it away, niggerbumpers..

feels like games are boring, anime/tv is too hard to sit thru patiently, biking has too many hills,- only fun thing left stuck in a room is gymnastics i guess…..is this brain rot maxxing?

>>302401
hmmmmm?
whats their schedule?

because you probably live in a room thats too sunny


cheap "blackout" curtains may help you to adapt then

>>302419
all media has become soulless

>>302419
>sit patiently

You know, you don't have to. You put on some background stuff to watch mindlessly/while doing chores, that's why they make "trash" sometimes

https://wizchan.org/jp/res/40464.html

>>302419
>brain rot maxxing
It is genuinely amazing how limited *collectively* zoomer vocabulary has become.

>>302246
>Maybe we just don't hear their stories.
Maybe. I mean, everything gets absorbed into the mainstream/monoculture so fast it's hard to tell. Like how everybody now is somehow autistic (or "neurodivergent" a word that has similar origins to all the neo-pronouns that first appeared on tumblr) despite not being diagnosed or even displaying traits of any sort of mental defect/illness/abnormality.

>>302475
Ew you fucking faggot. Self harm is the most transvestite thing you can do.

>>302476
ok

>>302464
That only applies in the west and only upper middle class whites/asians.

Like Silicon Valley where selective breeding (succubi choosing highly salaried autists) has lead to the prevalence of autism skyrocketing in kids living in that area to 15x higher than the general population.

No such problem in Brazil or Uganda.

>>302481
based and neurodiversitypilled

>>302475
I don't need to hurt myself in comical ways since I'm already in pain 24/7.
Why would you ever want to do this? Attention?
It's clear you don't really want to either with how minor it is. (This is not me egging you on, do not do any further self harm.)

>>302481
>Like Silicon Valley where selective breeding (succubi choosing highly salaried autists) has lead to the prevalence of autism skyrocketing in kids living in that area to 15x higher than the general population.
I was thinking more along the lines of how normalfags pick up labels to make themselves special (I used to know a co-worker who'd claim they're a introverted loner but he'd literally dance on the shop floor making a spectacle of himself), but it's an interesting theory.

I thought I posted a thoughtful and reasonable post on /pol/ but it made people angry for some reason and they ganged up on me calling me a retard lol

>>302515
That entire site is just bots talking to bots. Probably fewer than 1 in 10 posts are made by a human.

>>302516
I wonder how many people are real here with the amount of non-engagement and similar shit flinging.

>>302517
I just realized unless you count bots, it's just me and 6 other posters day in day out

>>302540
fuck my crab life

>>302540
Anonymity is a curse and a blessing at the same time.

I feel sick that the norman scum are appropriating our chan culture to socially elevate themselves even further by being le edgy or media literate whatever. Only thing we were allowed to have and they snatched this too away from us.

Shit like this is such a perfect case of retard boomer parents who believe they never do wrong. Blame chatgpt and ignore the fact that they never developed a connection for their own teenage son to actually talk to them about his problems. What fucking assholes.
I hope the son is in a better place with his waifu.

>>302553
Suicide is an act of self-determination, there is nothing wrong with it, forcing someone to live is torture.

In the ideal society there would be suicide cabins available for everyone.

>>302540
>I just realized unless you count bots, it's just me and 6 other posters day in day out

It's 7

regards, a newcomer

>>302554
i think normies dont like suicide because it offers an escape from being a wageslave, the medical system, social hierarchies and so on. Completely opting out

>>302565
Normies are more stupid than insects, even bees commit suicide if they feel threatened.

>>301989
You're supposed to take stims when doing something useful, trying to snooze with them is a bad idea.