No.301876[Last 50 Posts]
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>>301013 No.301878
>>301876Doing absolutely nothing for hours.
Feeling numb.
Just a normal wizard day
No.301879
>>301876>tried to do the whole /sig/ bit>working out, working, health, etc>stuck in dead end 9to5>get terminal illness>less reps than when I started>still alone with no friends>could've been a cozy neet>could've studied philosophyI should've listened to y'all.
No.301880
>>301879Dunning kruger is a bitch
I was humbled by life back in high school
I said no way am I dumber than a nigger im not going to remedial math in summer
Next semester I get worst teacher ever and fail math
Had to go take summer math with kids who can barely read so I can graduate
Ended up stalling the graduation process until no college besides community college accepted me, felt like I would be "behind" everyone if I wait a year.
End up hating college and dropping out.
Life ruined because I thought I was average.
Turns out I am way down in the depths of retards tier and it was all dunning kruger
No.301881
>have to actually give up pleasurable vices and be disciplined if I want to change
Fuuuuuuck
No.301882
I wish there was some hope in my life.
No.301888
Catching a cold while being depressed is so brutal, it feels like I'm about to die any minute from now
Last time I was sick was years ago but my depression was nowhere near as bad as it is now
No.301899
>>301880maybe the only actual proof of you being a victim of "dunning-kruger" is that you were stupid enough to allow lower measured competence in a single subject (such as math) to dictate to you your entire mental self-worth. that is exampled idiocy. that is without self-awareness operating under an assumed belief of greater intelligence. why must "being bad" at math be a sign of low intelligence? many profoundly brilliant men were not "good at math" but otherwise exceptional in their own studied realms. what of being unusually competent in philosophy, political theory, economic theory, music, classical languages, english, religion, history, logic? i have known more than a few "stem people" who are literal idiot-tier in these departments…to such a degree that it is embarrassing to hear them endeavor even brief discourse broaching the smallest dimensions of these subjects. you need to reform your understanding of which things make a human smart.
No.301972
I hate normies. I hate crabs. I hate wizards. I hate the whole damned human race myself included. I just wish you all died and stopped torturing me. You're disgusting and there is no forgiving you. Die in the boundless pain that you deserve every bit of.
No.301977
turns out, cigarettes irritate my stomach
my doctor literally told me to stop (in the stomach-related context)
ugh
No.301978
Idealizing philosophy was a mistake. It is an empty subject. Ultimately used by normalfags to appear smarter than they are by spouting lavishly worded common sense drivel.
Starting from the basics like Stoicism and Platonism you can see the larp of some egomaniacs.
Classic Renaissance philosophy like Descartes,Hobbes,Spinoza,Locke just sound like charlatan wordsmiths larping.
Hegel,Kant,Hume, Stirner, Nietzsche - all had a very basic understanding of the world. They were the bored nepo babies of today who would live in a mansion and make tiktoks or be grifter breadtubers basically saying nothing meaningful.
So now you just have a bunch of normalfags idealizing what they think philosophy is - (some super duper smart ideas for smart ((read:dumbfuck)) people such as myself).Fuck philosophy.
No.301982
>>301978>>301978Only ones I really agree with you on are Hegel and Stirner. But I've never read kant or hobbes.
No.301983
>>301982>But I've never read kantDefine "read'. Define "never".
No.301985
>>301983Oh my. I can see why you struggled with those authors. A dictionary would help you
No.301989
>take stims
>go lay on the bed
>suddenly heart rate goes up, start sweating like a motherfucker, get cold chills
>start seeing disgusting mental images and dreams, going from asleep to semi-awake
>there was an image of hell with people being constrained in torture machines while forcefully being kept alive
>there was loud banging and screams of WHY AM I STILL ALIVE
>there were different stages of hell with people being transported from one form of torture to the other
>they would eventually be turned into immaterial objects like pellets while still being conscious and shelved in warehouses
>after a very long time they would be destroyed and experience true death except for Satan and extremely evil people which would be tortured forever
>in real life thought i was dying, didnt go to the hospital
>stims wear out, go back to normal, disappointed i am still alive
No.301991
>>301989I don't think you took stimulants.
No.301992
why did i have to be born this world is such a fucking nightmare!
No.302007
>>301978I've engaged with philosophy repeatedly in my 20s, but the last time I remember where I was truly fascinated and blown away by it was when I was still 17-18. Everything after that was just the subtext for the conclusions I've already drawn back then, as I now realise in my 30s.
No.302008
Im fucking dying man. You simply cannot outrun, outsupplement or outtherapy shitty genetics. The inverse is true as well. Those "resilient" and "determined", "motivated" blah blah blah people? god tier genetics making them unstoppable. In truth neither of us has control over our situations.
Every day I get closer to actually killing myself. I cant I cant I cant I cant
No.302011
>>302008>The inverse is true as well.thanks for your support
At least I can re-supply myself with the supplements and real food now.
t. had been fattened cattle-style with "oy, slop…" tier food until hitting 20-something
No.302017
That's it from now on no more emotions.
No.302021
Owning a house is fucking shit honestly.
No.302023
>>302022It's not, all the repairs and property dispute shit fucks me off, I'm too poor to afford this shit. Never buy a property with shared access if you buy a house, it complicates neighbor disputes several times over if you do.
No.302024
>>301978I at least in part believe that philosophy is only an interesting subject for those who had a good life.
If you were screwed from the get go or experienced life off the rail track then you'll likely conclude a lot of the things yourself.
It might be because I only started reading on this topic very late in life, but by then (very late 20s), after all the rejection (parental, societal) and eventually surrender, a decade of rotting I pretty much had all these things figured out.
The only thing different about these thinkers was that they have a much better grasp on language than me.
Other than that, they provide a shallow look for those normal what their thoughts might be like if they got derailed at some point as well.
For me just trying to reconcile my reality with that of others already lead me to "knowledge" shared in these writings.
Might just be me being arrogant or my lack of understanding though.
No.302037
>>302023OH FRICK
>>301982Define "kant".
Context: German Kant is a noteworthy XX centry novelist from DDR
No.302038
>>302021but why would you buy a house when you can buy an apartment instead?
No.302049
Realizing you are ugly or unattractive after being single for 30 years is brutal. I always thought I was average looking at least. Also brutal to realize your self-worth is dependent entirely on how others perceive you.
No.302050
>>302049> your self-worth is dependent entirely on how others perceive you.It really isn't. Stop believing that.
No.302051
>>302049The only bad part about it is that people will treat you poorly and just based on your face assign a ton of negative traits.
Always assuming the worst of you pretty much.
It doesn't really affect my self worth, but it does hurt me quite a bit knowing this.
For example I'm not super skilled and the world is pretty much coming to an end.
Government gibs people judging you harshly due to your appearance or losing job opportunities because of the unfavorable perception compared to young handsome men and succubi is hard to accept.
This extends to doctors or any medical care providers. They will treat you worse or dismiss your issues because you are ugly and want to move things along…
Small things, loss of opportunities add up over the years/decades.
Being single never bothered me, but being friendless with no social net does.
I'll have no one to rely on even for a ride or something simple.
Let alone if my back gives out again and I'll need a cane for a month or so, or get to the doctors/ER again.
Sure these are a result of more than looks, but they did contribute in a major way too.
No.302052
>>302050Any normalfag can just say you achieved nothing so therefore you know nothing and shouldn't be listened to and ignored even if you have some great or even genius ideas. Everyone 30+ starts conversations talking about their wife or kids while you have to chuckle and say you're single which makes them hate you instantly and label you as a subhuman. People in their 40's are gen x and want to only talk about family/work or 70s/80s culture. People in their 20s are zoomers and have shitty interests that I can't relate to or understand as well. Life just feels like I'm drowning on the bottom of the ocean.
No.302053
>>302052Cartoon logic.
>Any normalfag can just say you achieved nothing so therefore you know nothing and shouldn't be listened to and ignored even if you have some great or even genius ideas.They can say these things, but they don't.
>you have to chuckle and say you're single which makes them hate you instantly and label you as a subhumanNo they fucking don't. What mud culture do you come from that would lead to you beliving this?
>People in their 40's are gen x and want to only talk about family/work or 70s/80s cultureYou're free to join in on this conversation
>People in their 20s are zoomers and have shitty interests that I can't relate to or understand as wellOh no! ZOOOOOMIES!!! Guys younger than me!! Better immediately dismiss their interests and personalities as shit merely for their young age and then go on to complain that older generations do the same to me!
>Life just feels like I'm drowning on the bottom of the ocean.And the only person keeping you there is yourself. Humanity isn't out to get you because you have yet to put your penis inside a succubus. Even if they cared, they're not going to treat you any better or worse. You're delusional to think they will because you yourself are ashamed of your celibacy and expect to be treated how you would treat a virgin man if you yourself weren't one.
You're sad because you're a virgin, and you've convinced yourself that people hate you because of it. Elliot Roger.
No.302056
>>302049It's not like I dreamed about becoming a wizard. But I did anyway. And the more I dive into the subject and realize in direct picture format my competition on all the platforms I made my last stand on, I realize I never had a chance to begin with.
I'm literally dysgenic and ugly as fuck. I'm not average looking like I kept telling myself. I'm quite literally a 1/10 and I have compared myself to the competition a lot. I was so delusional to even think someone would have sex with me unless I paid exorbitant amounts of money as a compensation.
No.302057
Sometimes after weeks of having a blank mind I'll get a burst of motivation and become interested in some crazy idea to bust me out of my hikkineet situation.
Of course it fades within a day because the idea is way beyond my ability.
No.302058
>>302049Been there. I saw video of myself after smartphones became common and I think I froze for 15-20 seconds. I had no idea what an awkward mess I was - not what I was used to seeing in the mirror (not great but put together at least).
No.302061
The cost of living crisis is getting insane here. I keep on seeing inflation listed at like 3% a year except the mince I buy has doubled in price in 5 years.
Everything necessary like power and food is going up like 10-20% year after year but I guess because fucking home appliances that you purchase once every 5 years are still cheap, there's no inflation.
>>302056I think ugliness used to just die off fast in the olden days because attractiveness and health have an almost total overlap. Ugly people are all unhealthy in some way.
I'm ugly due to mouth-breathing causing a long ass face with crooked teeth. I'm always going in for dental work, I had to have my nose realigned with a rhinoplasty. I'd have gotten an infection and would've died by now if I lived 150 years ago.
The world in the past was probably so much more beautiful.
No.302062
>>302061No shit. I have 2 hereditary diseases that would've killed me at 12-13 without medicaid coverage, plus I still need daily medication for it so I don't die.
I wouldn't even exist in nature considering I'm 37 now.
No.302063
I've been having weird dreams lately of these disgusting floating heads. They have these orange or brownesque skin color and they are hideous like the face of someone with leprosy or a very old person. They dont say anything, they just make these disgusting facial expressions or sometimes they move their mouth as if they are chewing on something.
No.302066
im nobody. literally. you even dont realize huw much nobody i am
No.302067
>>302061>because attractiveness and health have an almost total overlap. Ugly people are all unhealthy in some way. NTA, but yeah this is rather fucked.
I think about it often nowadays because my body somehow managed to keep it together for the most part until I reached my very late 20s.
Now a few months away from 30 I feel the reaper slowly sharpening his scythe…
Being born 1.5 months premature, I should have died at birth, should have died months later, should have died a dozen times in the first few years of my life alone.
Spina bifida, asthma, allergies, eczema, arthritis, heart issues etc. of course these are just the physical and not even an exhaustive list.
I don't even know what the point of saving me was honestly.
Like you just look at a kid that is born fucked and was supposed to die and you have dozens of people rushing to keep them here.
I mean sure I could have had it even worse…
The collection of inflammation causing autoimmune bullshit as of late are just the icing on the cake and the things I was born with are now collecting their dues as well.
It's rather sad that these traits keep spreading. Like glasses, how many people have them nowadays?
I would be basically blind without them.
This is just a minor obvious thing that is a result of natural selection being removed thanks to medicine.
I'm afraid of death, but I have to question if I really should be grateful to all those life saving surgeries I had in my youth at all.
I'm not much into lookism, because caring too much if you are fucked is just asking for misery.
One thing I notice though and I'm despairing over often is that compared to my parents it's obvious how dysgenic I am.
Shorter than my father and grandfather despite better nutrition, even compared to my sister I'm just about as tall hair pressed down.
I'm noticeably underdeveloped as if puberty stopped halfway.
I don't even care about the "bohoo can't find a succubus" thing as even that somehow never hit me.
I however have to care about shit day to day when I try to learn an instrument and have to realize it's futile because my hands are smaller than my sisters like come on.
How am I supposed to not despair when I'm reminded daily that I was simply not meant to be.
It's not like these things are the only ones that remind one about being inadequate. People remind you too, viciously during youth and then, thankfully more politely, though not any less painfully in adulthood.
It's funny when sometimes even dogs can tell that "something is wrong with this one".
Had a good rant about this nonsense. Thanks.
No.302068
>>302063country bumpkins
can be found among Japanese memes as
"yukkiris"
yukkuri.shii.org
No.302069
I'm beginning to feel like the walls are finally closing in and my copes are going to be taken from me. I don't know if anyone else is seeing things the way that I am but it feels like something bad is going to happen soon.
No.302072
>>302069It's not just you.
The internet has been steadily getting worse and in this year they have ramped it up into overdrive.
Mass censorship, sites are getting purged left and right.
Not just the r34/hentai stuff, but also pirate sites in general. Everything is worse, AI slop flooded every site that hosts any type of user content.
Jobs are scarce and they are disappearing fast. For an unskilled wizard like myself this is a major threat.
No social safety net either, manual labor is out of the question due to health.
Freedoms are being taken away fast.
Even the eastern shithole I live in is seeing migration now, the west is horrifying as the browns clearly eat the weak, and I am a part of the prey caste it seems.
I still had fun on the internet 10-15 years ago, but now everything is fake.
I recall the dead internet theory thread was originally posted here. It's shocking to see it come to this level in my lifetime still.
That thread seems so far away now, back then it felt so distant… and it's here.
The new stuff, new "copes" in terms of media created in the recent decade hasn't suited my taste much already, but now it's pathetic with the payment processors going full mask of in tandem with governments around the world.
Nothing new will ever be created anyways, AI has created a snapshot of humanity in 2022~ and everything after is just going to be a sick remix, a high end mockery of it all.
The lockdowns years ago and the endless wars now combined with the lockstep measures around the world have left me scared.
I'm genuinely trying to come to terms with death as that is the only thing I see in the future as the current ruling class ages out yet refuses to relent.
Top that off with the increasing number of obsolete "useless eaters" it's not far fetched to see a culling on the horizon.
The next generation is both hope inducing and scary. As much as young gen z people demonstrate heightened awareness and willingness to go against or reject the system and powers to be, they show the worst parts as well.
You remember virtue signaling on certain topics? I feel like generations prior took part in the wokeness, because of social pretense.
Gen Z, or a subset of them at least feels like the first generation to have genuinely internalized the New World Order thought.
It is a deeply ingrained part of some of them to the point where it is terrifying.
Not to say me or mine were superior.
Even if I were to survive this age of chaos and be part of the next era I'll be a serf at best. No agency over my life, perhaps no agency over my mind either.
I'm deeply afraid of death, despite never having lived, wasting my 3 decades on this Earth during what was comparatively a golden age.
Before it didn't affect us, or at least me directly, not to this extent, ever.
Now I can feel the demons breath on the back of my neck.
No.302088
The community I've been a member of since its inception (roughly 8 years ago) got popular and is now completely overrun with twitter zoomers, many of whom are underage. It's culture has greatly changed and I feel like an outsider there.
No.302090
>>302078Some tinfoil hats indeed hide something true
For instance, the trails with "chemtrails" moniker aren't normally made of avia fuel stuff
No.302091
Any of you feel resentful towards your family? There’s something’s I can let go because they grew up poor, but there’s things they did that are just plain wrong. It’s like there was no self awareness. I have a feeling im going to move to some cheaper place on neetbux and never talk to them again.
No.302093
>>302091Look.
>There’s something’s I can let go because they grew up poor, but there’s things they did that are just plain wrongI would have an easier time to forgive them, hadn't they been PERSISTENT
context: me mum is highly educated, but can't do X+Y basic math sometimes. And a smoker. And, again, PERSISTENT, as in keeping entering my door right after closing in because "I just wanna say", "I JUST! WANNA! SAY!"
I don't blame my schizo bro for being a schizo; he fell of a tree - got some untreated brain damage, I suppose - SCH manifested.
No.302094
>>302091I grew up feral as a kid. As in never taught to brush my teeth, sent to school without shoes, never bathed or washed, I slept on just a plain mattress and I just shown zero affection. I mean, absolutely -no- affection, I never remember receiving a hug or a word of praise, just constant degradation about how I'm a horrible child and no other parent has to deal with kids like this.
Funnily enough my mum moaned about her mum doing the same thing to her. Never dressing her for school and growing up poor. I see my sister just absolutely treat her son like shit so the cycle just repeats across the generations.
I just feel like my family is anti-social and lacks empathy, me included in some way, I just have some nasty and dark thoughts. Everyone in my family has large chunks of the family they don't speak to out of certain slights, and a lot are in prison for the most horrific crimes. The newspapers with my brother's final arrest (he made national news for his crimes) talked about his complete lack of empathy with clinical psychologists.
No.302095
>>302094>Funnily enough my mum moaned about her mum doing the same thing to her. This is the insane part where I was flabbergasted at.
I listened to my fathers and mothers sob stories many times and I'm shocked they aren't insane from the cognitive dissonance or idk how they avoid it.
Did you ever feel loved or love someone?
I'm sad whenever I realize that some emotions seem to be beyond me in a very weird way.
I can't be a psychopath, because I do feel, I just need to imagine myself as someone else in some made up fantasy scenario to experience certain emotions.
The real life avatar of me is unable somehow.
I'm really curious and like to read the thoughts of someone with similar issues/background.
Please share more of your experience, perhaps day to day, how you feel about people and how you navigate the world if you don't mind.
It would be great to see.
The world is very social despite what people claim after the advent of smartphones. This is a major struggle.
No.302098
>>302072Thanks for your reply, wiz. I am a useless disabled NEET and I live my life mostly online, not even through big tech websites that will mainly be affected but mostly just piracy and a few small imageboards. I'm worrying that govs are looking to funnel everyone into a centralized internet, not that it wasn't already like that but this time it's going to be enforced and smaller sites that can't pay fines or get spammed by CP are going to have no chance and will just be blocked entirely. I hope that I am just thinking of the worst possible scenario, but things are looking grim already.
>dead internet theoryI'm guessing that the constant AI spam is a useful tool meant to justify the deanonymization techniques they want to roll out, the cyberpandemic.
No.302099
>>302098Where do you guys see AI spam? I've never seen AI taking up more than 5% of my algorithm feed and hentai sites that accept AI art lets you filter it very easily.
No.302101
>>302099> I've never seen AI taking up more than 5% of my algorithm feedYou don't notice the AI you don't notice.
No.302102
>>302098You are spot on with the fines for not having the money to implement all the new nonsense laws.
The AI spam is insane on all sites that has user content like boorus too.
>>302099Sure, but it's on youtube, it's everywhere on the "normie web" as well. It's only not here yet because you either don't notice or the site is too small to have them.
AI is doing a lot of unseen harm as well.
The "big tech" AI crawlers are bypassing every measure to prevent crawling and are crashing websites.
They steal all information so if you had a niche site sharing knowledge, now they have it too making you obsolete.
Will you continue sharing knowledge to feed the bigT AI or will you simply stop and nothing ever gets shared anymore?
The attack on smaller sites, or just the open web in general is crystal clear.
It's depressing because much will be lost forever.
I'm also a retard with 30k+ bookmarks instead of any archived content… in the process of getting a NAS, but too many options leave me paralyzed.
No.302105
I think boredom is what eventually gets you in the long run. Depression and anxiety can be managed but I've never found a cure for boredom. It just gets worse and worse and worse.
Now in my mid thirties, I'm just so bored that it feels like physical pain. I begin to really see what "matters" in life. There are times when I'd give up everything just to be able to enjoy things or find something interesting.
No.302106
>>302105Similar problem here, but from a different source.
Somehow I'm quite fine just starring blankly out of my head for hours or days on end.
This is to the point where I often just have my eyes glazed over, mind in some fantasy land while playing a game, watching a video, reading.
I yearn for engagement, but the world doesn't provide. Perhaps I've seen too much already. Not sure.
No.302116
>>302095>Did you ever feel loved or love someone?Not really. I was pretty emotionally distant as a child.
>Please share more of your experience, perhaps day to day, how you feel about people and how you navigate the world if you don't mind.I just grew up in front of the TV and on video games. That's literally what I wasted almost all of my childhood on. My earliest memories are just watching the same VCRs on repeat from the ages of 3-5.
Around the age of 5 I went to school and started to make friends, and go over to their homes and refuse to leave kek. I remember being around 6 years old and I got sent home from someone's house, and I just threw apples through their windows while I was crying. Nothing ever came of it and they didn't have the house repaired for months. I guess they knew I had nothing to go home to.
That went on until I was like 9, I'd have friends be like "you're around every day, we just want to watch TV". I tried living anywhere but home. The one time I had a friend over to stay he was in tears because of my mum.
At school I was the worst behaved student in the class, every day I'd rack up punishments and I was one of the few to earn a suspension. I was just immune to shame and discipline. I actually just felt nothing as I was punished. I got bullied a few times here and there, and was a bully myself at other times. The one or two friends I had also came from broken homes or had problems, one I used to hang with talked about suicide at the age of 10.
I can't actually say my childhood was bad though. I was pretty okay as a kid and reasonably happy overall, literally spending 80% of it in front of screens helped on that front. I wasn't (badly) physically beaten, and all the insults and shaming I got mostly ran off me. I think unless there's chronic deprivation and abuse, kids accept it because they don't know any better. When I was berated badly and brought to tears, I'd bounce back and not care literally 20 minutes later.
Around the age of 12 I started dressing properly and wearing shoes (I never wore shoes before that). I started brushing my teeth, actually showering and bathing.
No.302117
>>302116Thanks for sharing. There are some similarities, some differences.
>I just grew up in front of the TV and on video games. That's literally what I wasted almost all of my childhood on. My earliest memories are just watching the same VCRs on repeat from the ages of 3-5. Overall, this has been true for me too.
I remember I had one of those pokemon cassettes with Entei(?) and those weird squigly line eyes. Watched it a dozen times as well since we had nothing else for a while.
I did overstay my welcome quite often as well for similar reasons, though after I kinda got ostracized in the village I just kept wandering around the forest (entrance was at the end of the street where I lived) all day just wandering around beating bushes with a stick to avoid home.
Despite the often physical abuse I'd say I feel the same about it as you do. Was fine mostly due to cartoons/anime on a bootleg satellite TV and vidya.
Never really cared about getting shouted at, just rolled my eyes internally waiting for the "adult tantrum" to be over with.
>Around the age of 12 I started dressing properly and wearing shoes (I never wore shoes before that). I started brushing my teeth, actually showering and bathing.This sounds crazy to me still. Especially the shoes part. Did none of the other kids parents call this out?
No.302126
>>302106>I yearn for engagement, but the world doesn't provide. Perhaps I've seen too much already. Not sure.And many think we're not trying. I go through games, books, I watch new tv shows, go different places (not many options as a NEET but whatever), try exploring different hobbies. It's all just stale, boring, seen it all already.
i remember some philosopher said something like "Boredom is the least pitiable misfortune". it's really true. everyone takes it like i'm a bad person who wants to be bored. Like I 'm just evil and narcissistic. makes no sense
No.302137
>>302126I accidentally realized the most stale and "overused" pieces of culture are "c&a" though - cute and adoreable.
Say, original 1979 Doraemon cartoon has a powerful retro feel.
So does Eric Coates' music from 1930s - stale, but its *the* stereotypical British string music you wont find on the shelves of "classical" music.
I think you'll find some joy listening to Alla Pugachyova - here in ex-USSR, here songs are "ugh… overused" tier, but if you don't know Russian…
Maybe, listening to Muzak's "40 years young" will also feel pleasant - they don't use Muzak Orchestra or "beautiful music" subgenre anymore, but if you look it up and give it a try…
No.302151
>>301876It's mind-blowing like nothing in my life goes my way since summer 2009. I don't consider myself a human anymore, just of lump of flesh trembling all day without any purpose or support. But I'm too much of a pussy to kill myself, so I probably deserve it.
No.302152
Another cold night, another sleepless anxiety from thinking about how I don't actually exist as a whole, indivisible being and will just perish when I die.
No.302191
It's a double edged sword writing about something which you experience first hand online. It doesn't solve the situation nor does it give you adequate feedback or sufficient information to come up with a solution. It might enhance your reflection of the given reality but that's not really much. Also writing about something and complaining seems weak and evokes feelings of weakness, it's a form of helplessness. Like, you share your thoughts but nobody really cares. You did not act during the situation that lead you to writing something about it and in the moment you write you avoid doing something productive to actually improve the situation.
Also, fuck this ni**** from a few hours ago. Wish I would have smashed his face to the ground and make him eat granite.
No.302196
It's so baffling to me how people deny the reality around them. I take comfort knowing people here seem like they know what the score is in life. Just some bulletpoints:
Consumerism with declining quality of goods. Shrinking job market with stagnant wages (also ties into:) succubus-centric culture, succubi in the workplace, feminism/empowerment, loss of beauty in the world, death of the male provider/male purpose and lack of 2 parent household.
Decline of escapism for individuals, every piece of media is designed with mass appeal and has to cater to every gender and ethnic group.
Loneliness from lack of real socialization and lack of a third place that isn't home and work. Not to go into the whole factors of the billionaires that control every facet of existence. Once you get unjacked from the matrix, there is no going back. Everything sucks, but hey we have netflix, labubus, and dubai chocolate.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hD53yiOI4jE&list=RDhD53yiOI4jE&start_radio=1 No.302197
>>302196>Decline of escapism for individualsman I would kill for some escapism. Only real option left is drugs… I spend half my time sleeping or pacing around my house.
As for the rest of your post, yeah life sucks and gets worse every day. what else is new
No.302198
>>301978You missed Schopenhauer. Actual normalfags hate philosophy and love soyience. They same thought process as you.
You're the normalfag here.
No.302200
>>302198>Actual normalfags hate philosophy and love soyienceNormalfags, especially college-age gay hipster retards, revere "philosophy" and the proto-pseud niggerbabble that prudes such as Schopenhauer spat out in an attempt to impress the lowest common denomination of street peasant.
No.302202
>>302201
This is not depression and breaks the rules (you're implying to want to be with whores). Stfu and get lost faggot
No.302206
>>302200No they don't. They just consoom philosophy memes from Instagram and pretend that they have read those said books. Just like you are pretending right now that you have read Schopenhauer. But you're not original I love soyience type normalfags proudly boast about their philosophical illiteracy so they end up writing bad philosophy.
No.302209
>>302200>prudes such as Schopenhauer spat out in an attempt to impress the lowest common denomination What the fuck are you talking about? You've never read Schopenhauer.
No.302210
>>302209You're clearly not too confident in your own side of the argument if you're sage'ing your post.
No.302211
99% of internet is goyslop nowadays really makes me depressed considering I spend most of the day online
No.302213
>>302209He is a failed normalfaggot. He has read philosophy by consooming memes.
No.302214
>>302213>consooming memesSuch hypocrisy displayed in a mere 2 words.
No.302218
>>302215life is suffering, it's a western misconception that we're born to enjoy life, we can only hope for a peaceful eternal end
No.302219
>>302215opportunity for what?
No.302220
>>302215>22 I don't want to be an ass about it wizbro, but I thought similar things at that age, now at 30 I wish I did something starting at 21. It's way too early to give up. It's never too late to kill yourself, but it's always best to do things now.
I'm developmentally stunted or something, born premature, shorter than my father, obviously oddly proportioned so something is for sure wrong.
I feel like I only gained full sentience at around late 25- mid 26yo.
If I had todays control over myself I would have made my life so much less shit than it is today.
If you are really only 22 then try to make things work.
I genuinely would kill to go back to 22.
Physical health first, financial safety second, mental health fixes itself with age through getting used to it.
At that age I recall saying this was going to be my "last summer" quite often, but things happen.
Don't kill yourself.
The issue is I was also waiting for this magical 3rd act you mention. Do you have trouble with taking action in general?
I do. I still do. I feel like throughout life I never learned how to take action for myself, only when absolutely forced externally.
So I wasted my life. Even during my NEET decade I barely did anything fun, I even kept putting off video games because it's too much effort to get into them, and they only get good once you have mastery over them without thinking much.
I never got an education only pretended going to college so I could coast for years on end.
I let my health deteriorate to an extent where my spine and neck are falling apart, taking the rest of the body (neuropathy) with it.
The third magical act you say is what I used to call my "improvement montage" where I magically send myself or my "avatar" on missions like on games and then poof I get results.
Never happened.
Now I'm 30 and have to slowly learn how to take action. How to wash myself regularly when time seems to slip away days, weeks at a single blink.
I'm trying to learn stuff like asking for meat at the butchers and the like.
I don't even know the name of most things in my mother tongue…
But it is a process.
I'm not going to lie I've been coasting at a job I lucked into the past 2 years. My first ever real job. I barely do anything aside from the 8 hours I'm on the clock, but barely anything also has added up.
I wouldn't be able to recognize myself from 4 years ago. So yeah I'm not trying to sell you on some magic. But if you haven't killed yourself by now you aren't going to do it next summer either.
Try to mitigate suffering and damage because one day you might want to do something only to realize it is too late.
It IS too late for some things. Accepting it is hard. Missing out on milestones at any given age is going to leave a permanent mark.
Once you got bent or broken at some place you are like one of those white plastic chairs with a permanent crease in their leg. Whenever you put weight on it, it will buckle again and again until it breaks.
It might return to looking normal but it isn't.
Starting from zero if you haven't learned things properly, having to go back to grade school level for some common knowledge is shameful, but necessary for some.
You gotta reinforce that plastic shit somehow. Will it magically fix you? No. It will make things less bad.
I really needed to find DESIRES because at some point if you are anything like me you just kept giving up on shit after life punched you in the face for even trying enough times.
Desires are necessary for taking action. Without wants if you are content rotting away you wont do shit anyways because it's fine.
But what is there to do? What do I want? are questions that kept me stagnant. I simply didn't experience enough to even know what I would want or like to do.
Some kids are sent to all kinds of camps and guided through hobbies until they find something that sticks.
If you haven't found anything then you have to go do trial and error like a toddler and just keep tasting things, keep seeing things, keep trying things.
Fuck enough ranting sorry…
TL:DR; Don't give in to these thoughts and rot away for 10 more years before you start. Things WILL GET WORSE. At least do the absolute bare minimum to mitigate damage until you reach the point where you are ready to take some steps.
Find yourself some desires. Some real desires. Not goals.
Even with maximum effort the level you might reach can end up pathetic. I'm aware. My juice isn't worth the squeeze either, but I'm going for it. I can kill myself anytime in the future.
You can too if the juice really tastes rancid at the end of it. Might as well do other shit in the meantime.
No.302221
>>302218That's something I've noticed about the west. This kind of "Stubborn Optimism". This refusal to ever admit life can be a misfortune. it's really sickening, and I mean that literally I feel physically ill when I see it in action
No.302222
you guys need therapy
No.302223
>>302215I'm 22 years aswell, wiz apprentice. I feel the same way. The worst part is that I had dreams. I remember being 13-14 and believing my actions were bringing me closer to my idealized future… only for June 2019 to come around and suffer horribly at the hands of horrible people. I was already struggling before then, but I watched my dreams come crashing down so fast. I came to accept what I lost just a month ago after years of struggling to cope, those days are gone forever now. I do want to commit suicide, the despair is too deep. I want to stay home, but I am perpetually crushed by the sheer weight of my agony. I go outside, and I suffer even more, being around a society of abusers and demons wearing human skin. All the media and anime are all the same, all out to get me and destroy/disrespect my values. Even this website isn't safe.
I'm fucking tired man… I'm so very tired. Being in stillness like a monk is my only option, but enduring the stillness is difficult. Painful.
No.302224
>>302222No real evidence therapy works. It's mostly the placebo effect + People getting better on their own as most normalfags have transient depression and therapists can't do statistics.
No.302225
>>302223Don't kill yourself, you can always do it 10-20-30 years down the road.
Stillness is fine, the pain fades just don't wallow in it.
Once you are ready start doing. Are your dreams now unattainable or are they just further out of reach than before?
Your write like you got assaulted or something. Sorry if that is the case. I had something like that happen when I was a kid.
Time is not always an enemy.
No.302226
>>302225I didn't get assaulted sexually (Im a virgin and grateful lmao) but I met people who were massive emotional abusers. In particular a guy I thought I could get along with, but was such an evil son of a bitch who exploited my insecurities to keep my subservient to his abuse and humiliation. That's what friendship is to a normie. I am 100% sure if I had stayed, he would definitely physically assault me like a standard playground bully that he was. He often took my money (he was my only 'friend' so I was scared to lose him).
I'm trying not to kill myself. The saddest thing is, I dont even wanna die. Even if I dont have dreams anymore, I want to be myself and do things I've always wanted to do. After this period of rest is over, I have hope that I will be 'healed' enough to start living, but sometimes that feels delusional.
No.302227
>>302226Friendships are insanely difficult and at that age, it's pretty much over it feels like.
I always only had 1 friend at a time in my life and even now I'm grateful for the current one. The guy is like a mirror image mentally at least.
The first one I had when younger hurt me in a similar fashion.
He decided it was better to be with the normal crowd so he set me up to meet, all my usual bullies were there and they beat the shit out of me.
It hurts, it's definitely a formative moment.
I hope you'll be able to move on and find a buddy that is truly on the same wavelength.
Some might dismiss your needs for socializing, but honestly? Even being diagnosed schizoid+tism I still desire interaction.
Don't hate yourself either for this. I also fear abandonment as it has happened several times already.
Some posters here made me believe it was wrong many years ago.
>After this period of rest is over, I have hope that I will be 'healed' enough to start living, but sometimes that feels delusional.It's a lesson learned for sure, but if possible don't let this affect your future friendships if you happen upon one, even though saying that is easier said than done.
You might regret having your guard up too much.
No.302228
>>301977Sames. I tried to get into smoking because too bored, just to kill time as a neet, not only I did not enjoy it after the first pack or two (maybe my smoking technique was wrong? No idea if that's possible) but it caused me irritation and reflux.
No.302245
>>302227>The first one I had when younger hurt me in a similar fashion.>He decided it was better to be with the normal crowd so he set me up to meet, all my usual bullies were there and they beat the shit out of me.It hurts, it's definitely a formative moment.
Holy shit. I haven't read a story like that since most millennials disappeared from imageboards and forums died. When the internet was just nerds, geeks, oddballs and other assorted outcasts it used to be awash with stories ranging from being outcast from in-groups to getting your ass kicked for being an outcast. You'd even have articles on big (amongst nerds) sites about it.
I've wondered why zoomers don't have this. I think zoomers have in many different ways internally reframed these experiences as something completely different to millennials.
No.302246
>>302245It was my final year or so of highschool when smartphones became popular and I truly believe those things reduced such violent abuse cases significantly.
In hindsight it was like all of them had their own pacifiers in the daycare now so they didn't bother spending their energy on me anymore.
I assume zoomers 2000s+ especially are born with access to these so I'd think they don't bother either.
A lot of my old bullies probably had too much time on their hand and absolutely nothing to do. Boredom makes these animalistic behaviors surface easier I think.
Perhaps they also reframed it, I can't speak for that.
It might also be that the forums you mention are long gone. I haven't participated in a real forum in I think 10 years or more.
Back then (in my experience) you had kids and 30-40+ adults on those forums (and mmos) at the same time.
Now where do you even interact with zoomers? I don't have discord nor do I play most of the popular online games.
Maybe we just don't hear their stories.
For what it's worth suicide rates are also rising among the youth ever since so who really knows.
No.302254
Another irrelevant post. I'm trying to kill myself today, 24 hours left. Voluntarily going homeless in 3rd world to push myself I don't even have money for water or place to sleep so I'll be forced to attempt. Finally ran out of drugs and when I stop taking them it's seizures heart attack stroke psychosis not to mention lesser things. Either way I'll be dead or retarded for certain so a final goodbye it is.
No.302256
my life is so comically bad it's actually kind of funny. i chuckle to myself sometimes when i think about how fucked everything is forever.
No.302266
Broken carfag here
Finally manage to scrounge the money for an auto electrician. Turns out there's nothing wrong mechanically with the engine, what happened when I swapped out the battery is that it tripped the immobilizer, an anti-theft security feature. And because this car is second hand and the original key with the microchip is long gone, and I'm using a non-chipped key, there's no way to disable the immobilizer.
The auto-electrician had to rip out the entire front panel to take away for a reset. I asked him if I could get the anti-theft device disabled so this doesn't happen again and he was like "well that involves going deeper into the engine and would probably cost another $300-500".
I fucking hate cars, I hate cars so much. As soon as this car is fixed I'm dumping it at an autoyard and bussing back home. This piece of shit has already cost me $2,000 NZ over two years.
But yeah, it turns out chat GPT is actually amazing at diagnosing car faults, chat GPT guessed it first try based on the information I gave it. The only thing is chat GPT assumed I had the original key with the chip, so it had me doing other shit like disconnecting the battery for 10 minutes.
No.302268
>>302267>Going through changesTimeflow and stuff, not anything rule breaking and filthy.
No.302276
>>302275Try letting go of the Abrahamic memes.
No.302277
>>302275There is no god, if an intelligent creator existed he wouldn't allow suffering in its creation
No.302279
I posted here before about having sleep apnea & being super tired all the time & that I had surgery to fix it. I'm now 2 months post op & as tired as before again. Thinking of killing myself now if I have to deal with this bullshit for the rest of my life
No.302280
>>302279Are you fat? I'm losing weight and hope it fixes it, but I have too many other issues that could fuck with my sleep as well.
Did it work prior or did the healing process take 2 months?
No.302282
>>302280>Are you fat?No
>Did it work prior or did the healing process take 2 months?I felt better the first 6 weeks, but that was when I had rubber bands in my jaw which kept my mouth closed during sleep
(keeping your mouth closed during sleep forces your body to open up your airways & it makes your sleep apnea less intense & give you less apneas per hour, so I think this is what happened but IDK yet because I didn't get tested again yet). I hope for you that you will be succesful with your weightloss & get cured of it though
No.302283
>>302266You are really unlucky with cars. I imagine some comedian could use your story to make a decent joke about it. It’s comical to me but I get your frustration man.
No.302284
>>302282>was when I had rubber bands in my jaw Horrifying.
Maybe it's a temporary setback. How did you gauge things before? Just general feelings?
Have you had one of those darth vader machines before or do you currently use one?
Hope for the best for you too man.
No.302285
>>302284>How did you gauge things before? Just general feelings?Yes
>Have you had one of those darth vader machines before or do you currently use one?Had one & it was impossible for me to fall asleep with it.
>Hope for the best for you too man.Thank you
No.302287
I have no skills, no health and no job. I keep numbing my mind with browsing all day. All is rotting away.
No.302288
>>301989Holy fuck. This is literal hell
No.302289
>>302287Same…
Despite the degradation of my spine and neck causing major pain, numbness, neuropathy I'm still unable to force myself to take the action necessary to "improve".
It is a weird thing to watch myself decline so much over the years like it's non of my business.
I can't even begin to imagine what it would take or how I would go about taking action though.
No.302291
>>302285This is nightmare fuel. I’m pretty sure I have it but I gotta do a sleep study in December. Can’t even cope since I’m always tired.
No.302292
>>302287The worst part is I've tried multiple times to get out of this situation and it never works. Like I have to exert 1000000 billion units of effort 1 move 1 unit forward. Meanwhile normalfags exert 1 unit of effort and move 10000 units forward.
No.302293
>>302292normies happen to have rich dads sometimes tho
No.302299
>>302294Not that anon, but people really overestimate personal agency and the correlation of effort+ability to outcome.
This is mostly because of the memes coming from the US/west in the past decades.
I come from meager means, my father is pretty much the only skilled individual in my entire lineage due to mostly life circumstance.
Since he was an abusive absent fag before and after divorce I basically had to make my own way without him.
Yet despite my best efforts, all the achievements I have came as a result of his intervention.
A short internship I got through someone he knew that resulted in me getting my first job later on and a drivers license I only passed because again, the instructor was his friend so they arranged it so even an anxious retard could pass.
Non of my own efforts really panned out. Not like I had much to give or much drive to begin with, but I'm an abject failure.
The only difference is most normies have normal households and social networks to rely on on a greater scale than most of us can even imagine.
Someone I know close to me has a great personal social net and the day they started a hobby (handicraft related) just by posting on social media a lot of locals and her friends and families (wealthy nato people included) started ordering and buying them for quite a bit.
This keeps the motivation going for the average normies, because their efforts are rewarded.
Realistically, if you are this guy:
>>302287 have you ever taken a good long look at your family?
If they are all successful and you are the only failure, why is that? Why did nobody bother helping you?
If you happen to be raised by a single mother who works a backbreaking factory job with no time for anything else and she can't help with much, all she can impart is how to keep your head down and anxiety, then do you really think you could have pulled yourself up by your bootstraps?
Failure is generational and honestly more your lineage+environment than anything you contributed to what you call your life.
No.302300
>>302299> Why did nobody bother helping you?My parents do not want to help me, at all. They guilt trip me into working for them and then refuse to pay me because I'm NEET. They won't give me help finding a job or really doing anything they don't approve of.
Deep down I think they want me to fail. I desperately want to get away from them but they've basically set up a tar pit so I can't even have a hope of leaving.
But the real thing i'm speaking about is mental. Normalfags have normal executive functioning(due to genetics) and I do not. I would legitimately give up a leg at the waist to have normal executive functioning.
No.302301
>>302300>I would legitimately give up a leg at the waist to have normal executive functioning.Yeah I have to agree with you on this part.
I'm slowly getting there, by peeling off every part of what resulted in me, my thoughts and behavior.
Is this lack of executive function really genetic? My father has ADHD, yet thrives, I'm the same, yet I do not.
I refuse to believe that the only way forward is meth.
As for the first thing, about your parents, it really helped me gain some sort of epiphany once both parents described their childhoods in great detail.
I could tell how one trauma shaped the next tormentor that then shaped me and so it could go back the chain for quite a while. I always suspected this, but having it laid out helped.
Consider why they are what they are, realize that normies are beyond changing and move from there.
This sounds like basic, bullshit advice if it even qualifies as that.
Again, I'm not at the "made it out of the tar pit" stage quite yet, but I'm starting to see the way forward.
What helped for me personally is being exposed to eastern thoughts and sensibilities through mostly Chinese novels and their version of manga.
Childish as that may be.
I believe it is much more suitable to the likes of us compared to western/abrahamic stuff many of us default to.
No.302302
>>302301>I'm slowly getting there, by peeling off every part of what resulted in me, my thoughts and behavior.yeah man I'm using crystals to re-align my chakras and it's really helping. Have you heard of Homeopathy?
No.302303
>>302302How about you just go off yourself?
I don't understand which part of examining the cause and effect of aspects of your life.
If you don't even know why you are such a mouthbreathing chimp then how do you expect to ever change?
Why are you even here if you are nothing but normal cattle?
No.302305
>>302304No criticism was provided. Chart also assumes someone somehow cares about social points on a completely anonymous site?
My reaction is to your lack of any contribution.
I'm in awe that someone sits here ready to take a shit and giggle to themselves.
Congrats retard.
No.302323
>>302305you type like a retard holy shit go back to where you came from
No.302335
I can't cope with being a paria at my work any longer. After almost three years of wageslaving it's finally time to go down the NEET route I guess. I was naive enough to think getting a job would magically transform me into a normie, but it didn't. If anything my mental health has detoriated even further throughout my time here, because I'm being reminded daily how vastly inferior I am to everyone else around me.
No.302336
>>302323Halth! for i am here da retardwizard!
No.302362
>>302304this flowchar lacks some exit driveways.
say, one can get deeper into "shit we heard before" about vitamins
one can also ask other wizards what has helped to regain SOME composure, at least
and so one
No.302363
ok, lemme normie you with sum funny advice
>>302287normie advice: use podcasts dammit! You can listen to podcasts while phoneplaying.
also, get "reading glasses" to leer at a modern FullHD smartphone.
No.302364
>>301989ogh boi
they say schizophers suffer from "oneiroid nightmares" which feature a similar awful scary shit.
but, at least, you only had it while full of stims, not randomly. Kinda… lucky you.
No.302365
>>302363I don't know why but podcast information doesn't stick in my head.
I have trouble reading as I get off track, get up and fantasize about the book or related stuff, walk around etc every few sentences, but still the information is retained much better reading.
No.302366
Chemotherapy was years ago and now I have dizziness, narcolepsy, terrible short term memory and random emotional outbursts. Feels like I lost 40% of my brain power.
"but it will go away!!" said my fucking oncologist. yeah it didn't I want to wring your neck faggot.
No.302367
>>302287I have started studying introductory math textbooks after years of rotting and it makes me realize how untalented I am and how my progress is too slow for me to ever achieve anything remarkable. It only makes me realize that even if I am not wasting my time on entertainment there's no success story for me to be in. I am mediocre and the maximum limit of my potential is probably something like getting an above average white collar job. There's no finding your calling or life mission. Every path I can take leads to slavery.
No.302368
>>302367Interesting.
I was thinking of using math as my crutch into somehow slowly working my way out of the brainrot.
Math was the thing that filtered me in college, but realistically I didn't put in a shred of effort starting from highschool.
I thought if I work myself through k-12 books and then stuff like calculus and linear algebra I would have a foundation to build on.
At least a less damaged brain.
Now your story scares me. Though I have to agree, even after a magical improvement montage I don't see myself living a good life.
No.302375
>>302366Doctors have no clue of what medication actually does, they receive orders from big pharma
No.302376
>>302368At least it's fun if you don't have low self-esteem and you're not worried about performance or the future. At least I think I may have found an actual hobby now.
No.302378
>>302375It's remarkable how dumb doctors are about their field. They're basically electricians but about medicine.
No.302388
>>302375Agreed. I was warned multiple times by the pharmacist that some med combo I was prescribed is lethal so they wont give it to me unless I get another note.
Go back to the doctor and they said "oh well then don't take it".
They don't give a shit.
They prescribe the most insane organ shredding pain killers and nerve numbers or whatever the hell and they don't care about the results.
Actually watched one of those pharma agents go into the doctors office (skipping the line that whore) with a bunch of pamphlets and whatnot.
20 minutes later guess what I was shilled? The exact same nerve medication that bitch was there to shill.
I don't know how this pharma connection works here, must be different from the US, but that memory combined with the many incidents like the one above (lethal med combo) has me doubting them ever since.
During covid I was there trying to get a doctors note for work absence since I had to go to the ER that weekend… anyways some government chick walks in…
Why is it always succubi in these positions btw?
The government chick complains to the doctor that not enough of the newly ordered covid vax is being used (in front of me, I'm still sitting there with a bloodpressure cuff on me) and how unfortunate that is.
Note this was in like 2024 when covid wasn't a thing anymore and I was never vaxxed because I never left my home anyways at the time so why bother?
Anyways next thing you know doctor says in a funny manner that they'll use one for me then since I'm already there etc.
The nurse just gives me a stack of papers to waive all kinds of rights to sign without a word or telling me what it is.
I of course told them to fuck off as politely as possible and left with my papers, but the doctor got so mad at me the old man turned red.
Idk man… had so many weird interactions with doctors because I didn't take the vaccine too at the time.
Had to get a minor surgery (just some abscess cyst thing needed to be drained and closed) and they flipped out that I wasn't vaccinated like I'd murder them.
I told them what the issue would even be as I'm the only one in danger here, the doc and all the nurses were vaccinated so who cares?
Of course they fucking scream at me calling me an idiot and whatnot.
Okay bro…
Ironically my aunt and co had signed up for the vaccine (fathers sister is aunt right? idk) and she ended up collapsing on the way home.
Had some blood cloth in her brain that needed surgery, but was left paralyzed on one side for life.
Had a heart attack later on.
I already had some kind of heart inflammation at the time so I'd probably die from it too if I had taken it I'm sure. Based on random chan stuff I read.
TL:DR; Doctors can't be trusted if they don't absolutely align with common sense.
I had more success following youtube tutorials for spine stuff and the like than going to doctors for years.
If it's not some standard textbook issue you are having you better pray you find a Dr. that gives a fuck.
Most just push you along.
>>302366Make sure your cancer is 100% gone too. These retards can't be trusted even with that.
I've known a succubus from across the road who was "cured" and after the covid situation they noticed that the cancer was back and she was gone in 2 months…
I wish I had anything positive to say.
Mom has similar issues as you describe and nothing seems to work.
No.302393
I am such an unpleasant and bitter piece of shit to be around. Normalfags always turn against me after some time.I think I am the problem. Fuck
No.302394
>>302388>Make sure your cancer is 100% gone tooI've skipped my follow up scans. I don't give a shit about living on this wretched earth.
But I appreciate the sentiment wizanon.
No.302419
feels like games are boring, anime/tv is too hard to sit thru patiently, biking has too many hills,- only fun thing left stuck in a room is gymnastics i guess…..is this brain rot maxxing?
No.302422
>>302401hmmmmm?
whats their schedule?
because you probably live in a room thats too sunny
cheap "blackout" curtains may help you to adapt then
No.302426
>>302419all media has become soulless
No.302450
>>302419>sit patientlyYou know, you don't have to. You put on some background stuff to watch mindlessly/while doing chores, that's why they make "trash" sometimes
https://wizchan.org/jp/res/40464.html No.302464
>>302419>brain rot maxxingIt is genuinely amazing how limited *collectively* zoomer vocabulary has become.
>>302246>Maybe we just don't hear their stories.Maybe. I mean, everything gets absorbed into the mainstream/monoculture so fast it's hard to tell. Like how everybody now is somehow autistic (or "neurodivergent" a word that has similar origins to all the neo-pronouns that first appeared on tumblr) despite not being diagnosed or even displaying traits of any sort of mental defect/illness/abnormality.
No.302476
>>302475
Ew you fucking faggot. Self harm is the most transvestite thing you can do.
No.302481
>>302464That only applies in the west and only upper middle class whites/asians.
Like Silicon Valley where selective breeding (succubi choosing highly salaried autists) has lead to the prevalence of autism skyrocketing in kids living in that area to 15x higher than the general population.
No such problem in Brazil or Uganda.
No.302483
>>302481based and neurodiversitypilled
No.302484
>>302475
I don't need to hurt myself in comical ways since I'm already in pain 24/7.
Why would you ever want to do this? Attention?
It's clear you don't really want to either with how minor it is. (This is not me egging you on, do not do any further self harm.)
No.302497
>>302481>Like Silicon Valley where selective breeding (succubi choosing highly salaried autists) has lead to the prevalence of autism skyrocketing in kids living in that area to 15x higher than the general population.I was thinking more along the lines of how normalfags pick up labels to make themselves special (I used to know a co-worker who'd claim they're a introverted loner but he'd literally dance on the shop floor making a spectacle of himself), but it's an interesting theory.
No.302515
I thought I posted a thoughtful and reasonable post on /pol/ but it made people angry for some reason and they ganged up on me calling me a retard lol
No.302516
>>302515That entire site is just bots talking to bots. Probably fewer than 1 in 10 posts are made by a human.
No.302517
>>302516I wonder how many people are real here with the amount of non-engagement and similar shit flinging.
No.302541
>>302540fuck my crab life
No.302542
>>302540Anonymity is a curse and a blessing at the same time.
No.302552
I feel sick that the norman scum are appropriating our chan culture to socially elevate themselves even further by being le edgy or media literate whatever. Only thing we were allowed to have and they snatched this too away from us.
No.302554
>>302553Suicide is an act of self-determination, there is nothing wrong with it, forcing someone to live is torture.
In the ideal society there would be suicide cabins available for everyone.
No.302560
>>302540>I just realized unless you count bots, it's just me and 6 other posters day in day outIt's 7
regards, a newcomer
No.302565
>>302554i think normies dont like suicide because it offers an escape from being a wageslave, the medical system, social hierarchies and so on. Completely opting out
No.302579
>>302565Normies are more stupid than insects, even bees commit suicide if they feel threatened.
No.302580
>>301989You're supposed to take stims when doing something useful, trying to snooze with them is a bad idea.