/dep/ - Depression

>>303736
Landed a junior job meant for 18-20 year olds at the ripe age of 27. My first ever real job.
Been here for 2.5 years and the people that start are better at it after 2 months than I am now.
I made no efforts to better myself.
Didn't finish education despite attending several universities. Never got any certifications in this field either to progress up the ladder or at least solidify my position.
I'm unable to learn. Unable to pursue anything unless circumstances force my hand.
Wouldn't even bother taking a bath daily if I was left to my own devices.

Ironically I'm still willing to pray to never lose this job. I can't imagine doing interviews again praying for something not 1000x worse than this.
At least this is as comfortable as I can ever hope to get.
NEETdom is no longer an option, but I mourn having lost what I had every Sunday. Every weekend filled with dread of the coming workweek instead of providing some relief.

I'm genuinely shocked to see my coworkers do all this while getting an education, having family, children, working towards cars, homes and whatnot with a ton of hobbies and interests that they also pursue.
I don't have the energy for a single hobby. Can't fully pursue anything despite in theory desiring it greatly.

Anyone here managed to spend time on anything fun while being a wageslave?
Anything other than easy consumption hobbies at least like movies, anime, manga, video games and the like. Not trying to hate on those, but to me those are activities I can mostly turn my brain off for.
Interested to hear if someone managed to pursue something that required a bit more effort on their part.

Time is moving faster than ever before as well. I'm shocked to even see I've been employed for this long. Even more shocking is the old man looking back in the mirror at times.
I fear death and running out of time, regrets of never having done anything, yet I persist.
Would I have the energy if I wasn't a wageslave? Did I? I prefer not to answer myself.

Buy Bitcoin for fuck's sake.

Fell for the security meme and they only ever station me at ridiculously dangerous and high alert level locations such as low income/welfare ridden retail stores. Every hour I have some crazy customer trying to fight me and saying he's going to kill me. Been assaulted many times and the boss just asked if I'm going to be ok to still work tomorrow. I thought I was just going to sit inside a booth somewhere and let authorized people inside whilst I browsed the internet on my phone or laptop I was going to buy for this exact purpose. Horrible job I do no reccomend it. I have spoken with industry veterans and they said my ideal description of this job stopped existing 10 years ago for the most part in this country. We are essentially just low level, minimum wage, no power having pretend police officers that everyone hates. I should have known a 4 week course for a job was a bad sign

>>303790
LMAO

>>303790
Are you allowed to fight back and wreck people?

>>303790
The comfy milk run security jobs exists but they're hogged by industry boomers who will not let anyone else have them.

My recommendation is to get on night shift as fast as you can.

>>303793
>they're hogged by industry boomers
"industry boomers" is a strange way to spell "imported brown third-world nepobabies"

>>303794
No, it's white boomers hogging all the milk runs for security here. Jeets get placed on the cuck role outside of jewelry stores standing in one spot for 8 hours a day like a statue.

>>303790
Had the same idea 2.5 years ago before I found my job.
Did the course, they let literal retards pass without study too so idk. I was the only one who stressed about it.
My health was horrid at the time, still isn't the greatest, but I kept seeing retirees and 600 pound can't even walk type of dudes in positions like that so whatever.

Long story short, you are right, it's 100% nepotism and "knowing a guy" type of environment. Not really well suited for our kind.
Also I was hoping for a sitting job at that point, the type you mention, but most of the jobs nowadays that hire openly expect you to patrol around most of the shift and then stand at a spot for the rest.
Absolutely not worth it.

>>303790
become a cop, then.
I mean, your complaint contains that "no power" problem. A proper cop could do stuff a security dude wouldn't.

Dishwasher Wizzie from a few threads back, this is what I dealt with yesterday morning, is it weird I actually enjoy this? It's simple repetitive work that kills normies but I enjoy it, my (white) co workers are also pretty relaxed.

I had a nigger once threaten to stab me while I was taking out the trash once, he was drunk as fuck and living out of one of the cars in the parking lot with 2 other nigs (a whore and a guy) he kept trying to lure me in by saying how I disrespected him by not saying hello or something, sounds scary but it wasn't for the most part, I was just annoyed. I guess you can always tell when someone's faking being dangerous.

Other than that, nothing else to report. I work 3 days a week, 4 hours a day working a simple job like a literal down syndrome retard or some under-the-table wagie but I'm pretty happy with my life circumstances. (for now)

I've been looking for a job for several years now. Honestly, I live in Eastern Europe, and finding a job in a small town is a nightmare. I changed jobs frequently when I was younger, and my work history is, to put it mildly, not very good. Employers, seeing my history, say, "Fuck you!" They think I'm a weirdo and an idiot (although they're right: who would look for a job for four years? And waste time on this website? Only a fucking autistic bastard like me). I don't know about white (first-world) countries, but our laws are against workers: a worker is a loser and a slave to the system. I don't even have any education or useful skills. The labor market in third-world countries is, frankly, a living hell. I hope I die before I'm 30.