/dep/ - Depression

>>303736
Landed a junior job meant for 18-20 year olds at the ripe age of 27. My first ever real job.
Been here for 2.5 years and the people that start are better at it after 2 months than I am now.
I made no efforts to better myself.
Didn't finish education despite attending several universities. Never got any certifications in this field either to progress up the ladder or at least solidify my position.
I'm unable to learn. Unable to pursue anything unless circumstances force my hand.
Wouldn't even bother taking a bath daily if I was left to my own devices.

Ironically I'm still willing to pray to never lose this job. I can't imagine doing interviews again praying for something not 1000x worse than this.
At least this is as comfortable as I can ever hope to get.
NEETdom is no longer an option, but I mourn having lost what I had every Sunday. Every weekend filled with dread of the coming workweek instead of providing some relief.

I'm genuinely shocked to see my coworkers do all this while getting an education, having family, children, working towards cars, homes and whatnot with a ton of hobbies and interests that they also pursue.
I don't have the energy for a single hobby. Can't fully pursue anything despite in theory desiring it greatly.

Anyone here managed to spend time on anything fun while being a wageslave?
Anything other than easy consumption hobbies at least like movies, anime, manga, video games and the like. Not trying to hate on those, but to me those are activities I can mostly turn my brain off for.
Interested to hear if someone managed to pursue something that required a bit more effort on their part.

Time is moving faster than ever before as well. I'm shocked to even see I've been employed for this long. Even more shocking is the old man looking back in the mirror at times.
I fear death and running out of time, regrets of never having done anything, yet I persist.
Would I have the energy if I wasn't a wageslave? Did I? I prefer not to answer myself.

Buy Bitcoin for fuck's sake.

Fell for the security meme and they only ever station me at ridiculously dangerous and high alert level locations such as low income/welfare ridden retail stores. Every hour I have some crazy customer trying to fight me and saying he's going to kill me. Been assaulted many times and the boss just asked if I'm going to be ok to still work tomorrow. I thought I was just going to sit inside a booth somewhere and let authorized people inside whilst I browsed the internet on my phone or laptop I was going to buy for this exact purpose. Horrible job I do no reccomend it. I have spoken with industry veterans and they said my ideal description of this job stopped existing 10 years ago for the most part in this country. We are essentially just low level, minimum wage, no power having pretend police officers that everyone hates. I should have known a 4 week course for a job was a bad sign

>>303790
LMAO

>>303790
Are you allowed to fight back and wreck people?

>>303790
The comfy milk run security jobs exists but they're hogged by industry boomers who will not let anyone else have them.

My recommendation is to get on night shift as fast as you can.

>>303793
>they're hogged by industry boomers
"industry boomers" is a strange way to spell "imported brown third-world nepobabies"

>>303794
No, it's white boomers hogging all the milk runs for security here. Jeets get placed on the cuck role outside of jewelry stores standing in one spot for 8 hours a day like a statue.

>>303790
Had the same idea 2.5 years ago before I found my job.
Did the course, they let literal retards pass without study too so idk. I was the only one who stressed about it.
My health was horrid at the time, still isn't the greatest, but I kept seeing retirees and 600 pound can't even walk type of dudes in positions like that so whatever.

Long story short, you are right, it's 100% nepotism and "knowing a guy" type of environment. Not really well suited for our kind.
Also I was hoping for a sitting job at that point, the type you mention, but most of the jobs nowadays that hire openly expect you to patrol around most of the shift and then stand at a spot for the rest.
Absolutely not worth it.

>>303790
become a cop, then.
I mean, your complaint contains that "no power" problem. A proper cop could do stuff a security dude wouldn't.

Dishwasher Wizzie from a few threads back, this is what I dealt with yesterday morning, is it weird I actually enjoy this? It's simple repetitive work that kills normies but I enjoy it, my (white) co workers are also pretty relaxed.

I had a nigger once threaten to stab me while I was taking out the trash once, he was drunk as fuck and living out of one of the cars in the parking lot with 2 other nigs (a whore and a guy) he kept trying to lure me in by saying how I disrespected him by not saying hello or something, sounds scary but it wasn't for the most part, I was just annoyed. I guess you can always tell when someone's faking being dangerous.

Other than that, nothing else to report. I work 3 days a week, 4 hours a day working a simple job like a literal down syndrome retard or some under-the-table wagie but I'm pretty happy with my life circumstances. (for now)

I've been looking for a job for several years now. Honestly, I live in Eastern Europe, and finding a job in a small town is a nightmare. I changed jobs frequently when I was younger, and my work history is, to put it mildly, not very good. Employers, seeing my history, say, "Fuck you!" They think I'm a weirdo and an idiot (although they're right: who would look for a job for four years? And waste time on this website? Only a fucking autistic bastard like me). I don't know about white (first-world) countries, but our laws are against workers: a worker is a loser and a slave to the system. I don't even have any education or useful skills. The labor market in third-world countries is, frankly, a living hell. I hope I die before I'm 30.

I fell for college meme in my thirties, studied half-remotely during work. Then left my work because it became ultra toxic environment, hopeful that I can find something better with my newly acquired bachelor degree. Boy I was wrong, got a few interviews leading to nothing, out of dozens applications. There is not much to apply to anymore, except for manual labor. Now I continue with a major which is nice, but savings are draining quickly (mostly spent on rent). Will have to resolve this soon.

The witchhunts are over I think at mine, getting chased around for 'violations' and write ups finally stopped. I wish they would have just been honest about downsizing needs and laid a few people off instead of firing and forcing people to quit (I assume it's to avoid paying out unemployment fees to the state). Managers and HR are a special breed of evil.

>>303793
Yep, morning shift at the warehouse is coffee and screwing around on your phone - all 50+ guys that have been there 20 years. Absolute cake job. Just need to do an hourly lot check 8).

>>303804

Town bullies, I've attracted a few. I had one guy yelling at me to quit looking at his wife's ass - he sauntered through the door slower on purpose to block me from going through to start some shit. I just pushed past. Takes a special kind of loser to pick fights with people that are obviously on the clock.

>>303804
>I guess you can always tell when someone's faking being dangerous


non-autist's superpower, congratz on that

I work in pizza delivery. Halloween is tomorrow. We're gonna be swamped man. But i really really want to stop working and take a break but i can't due to our money troubles. Just tired of working. Just tired. Just.

>>303806
Just lie on your CV.

Why are you wageslaving instead of becoming a NEET and living off of benefits?

Let's be real, most countries on Earth have some sort of social welfare net for you to depend on, and most people on this website would probably get diagnosed with autism or some other disability anyway.

>>303861
(0rpt corps willing to "upgrade" my autism to paranoid schizophrenia, lock me up for life "because he's dangerous ooooooh, soooooooo dangerous my spine shivered the moment i saw him"



oh and they don't tend to diagnose adult people with autism here.

>>303861
The gibs for disability in my country are like 70$ a month. It's laughable. I wouldn't be able to afford food.
>>303868
Also this. In Post-Soviet countries, you are diagnosed with autism only in childhood, then you are "upgraded" to schizophrenia. At least it's what my psych told me. That being said, I can get gibs for a physical disability of mine, but again, it isn't worth it.
To get a disability, you need to pay fat bribes to doctors, otherwise they wouldn't even consider it.
Wizzies in shithole countries wageslave for a good reason, the system is rigged.

I'm going to start a night shift next week. Is there any way to do night shifts without it wrecking your health? I heard vitamin D supplements help obviously because of the lack of sunlight and such, but how do I maintain a "normal" sleep schedule and a "normal" (normal as far as people like us are concerned) life outside of work?

I'm no wageslave, because my job doesn't pay me so.

Not sure how to feel, I'm on basically final warning however I'm also in a new higher paid position at the same time.

The warning carried over from my other role even though it was one mistake and the new role is basically unrelated. Still, the other two possibilities were getting fired or getting stuck in the lower paid position forever.

I got a call from the boss asking why I wasn't at work (I wasn't scheduled). Boss works on salary and comes and goes 7 days a week (workaholic) and forgets you can't just run hourly employees in and out all day on whimsy. It's still going to count against me for not being at work lol.

>>303925
I have a random guess they expect to keep you "on hook" - as if they're gonna threaten you here or there into doing something anti-OSHA or some other kind of "barely illegal" stuff.

>>303792
Fighting back is never advised, they're likely to pull a knife. Plus I'd get in trouble with my job and likely the law.

>>303793
You certainly need to know a guy. Those positions exist for rich people to nepotism their kids into so they can just sit around 8 hours a day and somehow get double the pay they should be getting. No chance of me finding it but I'll obviously keep an eye out.

>>303796
We only needed to say we won't attack/defend ourselves. That was literally the only question on the test aside from stuff like "what does a flashlight do?". The course is a racket. My last job I had to stand guard at self service checkout machines with 2 succubi who were giving me dirty looks the entire time. Was an insanely bad day. I need a new job.

>>303802
The average entry, and even mid level cop also has essentially no power in my country. They don't even have guns, only specialized units do. They even get heavily critised if they use a tazer on someone who is actively attacking them with a weapon. Terrible country my friend. Also cops often have to drive a lot, I hate driving so much

>>303861
my country recently made new laws making disabled people have to find jobs lol. unless you have no arms and legs you can't access aid. Let's say someone has paralyzed legs, he still must find a job somehow

>>303995
He who does not work shall not eat

I need some advice from long term wage slaves, like 5 years plus. I'm in it for over 4 years myself now. One thing I really can't manage to do is to do something I enjoy or something that is productive after work. Like I have all these tasks or interests I want to pursue but instead all I do is either nothing, waste time with video games that I hate ( I like video games, but I play the most repetitive brain dead slob) or feel miserable and exhausted and dead inside. I want to break the cycle. Is it even possible? How did you do it?

>>303999
Here's what I would recommend. Get some productivity software. Treat productive hobbies like they are as serious as work. In fact it is more serious. One is working for someone else. The other is working for you to make your life better even if only in a subjective sense. But better and best are subjective anyway so that is the only kind of making life better.

Instead of treating life like an unused rounding error on the side of work, treat work like it is a temporary deviation from life.

I wish I could share the software I use but it's not very self explanatory. But there is other stuff out there. Sure none of it is as good IMO. At least not for what I want to do. But something is better than nothing.

When a business wants an outcome they use software. When you want an outcome for your life you should use software. Which is more important. A business getting the outcomes they want, or your life getting the outcomes you want?

If your life is more important, and it is, then it justifies more and better software than they have.

>>303995
good

>>303995
At least with that you don't have to work most labour intensive jobs that require leg work, like strenuous construction jobs. I mean if your legs don't work, most jobs that are available to you are IT related, working from a computer.

>>303894
Did nightshift for about a year, you'll get permanent brain damage from it and people will think you're a methhead. I'd recommend some blackout blinds, Ikea has some good ones.

Try not to smoke cigs/drink coffee obsessively (good luck) and just go to sleep when you get home instead of trying to 'reset' your sleep schedule.

What's your job anyway?

>>304015
oh yes, night shifts.
I used to believe its nothing until I tried. Night shifts and maybe people who DO ruin your head and maybe your life

>>304018
context: I failed to realize I have VERY sunny windows and no blackout curtains hence no sleep.

It was quite a torture.

>>304015
>Did nightshift for about a year, you'll get permanent brain damage from it and people will think you're a methhead.
Thank God it's just a temporary thing until New Years.
>I'd recommend some blackout blinds, Ikea has some good ones.
I'm a little too broke to get some new blinds right now but I reckon taping some cardboard boxes to my windows should work until my first paycheck hits, I'll keep Ikea in mind though.
>What's your job anyway?
Stocking shelves at a supermarket, they get the night shift workers to stock everything at night apparently so most of the people around the store during the day are just cashiers and people fulfilling online orders.

>>304000
Your answer is very much appreciated.

>Treat productive hobbies like they are as serious as work. In fact it is more serious. One is working for someone else. The other is working for you to make your life better even if only in a subjective sense.

This is so obvious that I think I've forgotten about this when the grinding started. I was always thinking and worried that there is no way I would ever be able to have a job and keep it for a longer because I'm too broken, but I think it's pretty stable right now and I have a secured position and I shouldn't worry about this anymore and can finally start to care about myself again when work time's over.

>Instead of treating life like an unused rounding error on the side of work, treat work like it is a temporary deviation from life.

Very well put and I'm stuck at the first version of this sentence. In fact my private life feels just like waiting for work again. That's not bearable for many more decades.

>Get some productivity software.
>I wish I could share the software I use but it's not very self explanatory.

The way you make it mysterious makes me wonder what exactly you mean. This year I bought a DAW for music composition and mixing but I haven't even used it for 5 minutes. That's what I would start with, I guess that's one option what you meant when talking about productivity software.

>>304035
cardboard? cool.
I have an idea: put "inner" side of the cardboard towards the street and "outer" - the one with the writings - towards the room


why: looks less obnoxious


Frankly, I never realized I could simply cardBOARD my wndows rather than splurge $$$ on blackout curtains. In 2022, however, I got cheap yet efficient blackouties from an online marketplace and not IKEA. They still do the job.

Keep getting headaches at work. I hope it gets so bad that I get a stroke so I can claim benefits, or it just fucking kills me.

>>304056
Make sure to avoid paracetamol tablets overdosing as paracetamol may poison your liver up.

Thats an unironically good reason for you to see a state-paid doctor or start asking Grok/DeepThink for possible causes of your headaches - what if you have a *generalized* headache caused by caffeine overdosing and ruined sleep hygiene? That'll help your employer to brush your "claim" off.

>>304056
>>304062
>Make sure to avoid paracetamol tablets overdosing as paracetamol may poison your liver up.


I mean, it's /dep/, yes, but even that "claim" "benefts" part may fall apart due to judge taking parace'-poisoned liver into consideration.

>>303780
I already bought a shit ton of crypto and I'm out $30k..

FUCK 2024 went by so fucking fast but 2025 is so fucking slow I fucking hate myself.
I fucking blinked and 2024 was over.
What fucking changed for this year to be so fucking slow?
Literally bullshit. Every single day is slow. Every single week is slow. Every single month is slow. Fuck..

haven't posted in wizchan in like 2 years at least. 32 now, no longer a fraud can post here without feeling like an imposter.

i quit what should have been the perfect wiz job 4 months ago after 18 months of working. 100% remote $30/hr 20/hrs a week for tech support and spreadsheet work.

first time in my life my boss would yell at me. abusive and the most unprofessional person I've ever encountered. bad enough for me to quit such a comfy gig.

now i'm a 32 year old with a resume with more gaps than actually work history. no degree, no marketable skillset. still live at home, the thought of being able to make enough money to move out is laughable.

applying to jobs is hell. i got to the final phase of an interview for a very good job and didn't get it. the disappointment was immense. my mom is apparnetly praying for me to get a job at her bible study with 20+ people which is a nightmare.

my existence is so pathetic it's hard to cope. it's hard to pretend in these job interviews I'm a person and not a black hole of a human body.

at a complete loss how to get a job. the 3 jobs i've had were all given to me. despite doing hundreds of apps and at least a dozen interviews i've never gotten a job offer on my own.

is video editing something i can get a job with? i was thinking of trying to learn that as a skill.

>>304108
Warehouser here.
I somehow survived my boss' yell by offering him to solve a massive tech problem with a BYOD method. Basically, I offered him to let me use my old smartphone as a work celly ("it used to be the flagship Sam phone ergo it just cannot have a cheap wacky antenna!")

I am so sorry the yelling ruined your job's comfyness…