/dep/ - Depression

What was the traumatic event that gave you "PTSD"? Unless you were in war hearing your brothers scream as they cooked alive inside a burning tank, it's probably;y something you can overcome without destroying your body and mind with pills.

>>305177
Not OO, but Ive read yesterday (C)PTSD may happen from a) living in a violent-kind-of-"shit" family or B) violent-kind-of-"shit" classmates ganging up against you for ages, C) both ("you gotta ignore them, sonny!") or D) something similar

>>305177
PTSD is often portrayed in movies as something that only affects soldiers who have been through war, with dramatic flashbacks and battlefield imagery. That narrow depiction has shaped how people think about trauma, making it seem like only extreme, life or death situations can leave lasting psychological scars. In reality, PTSD is not defined by the setting where it happens but by how overwhelming and threatening the experience feels to the person going through it.
Trauma can come from many sources, including prolonged bullying in school, emotional abuse, or being trapped in a situation where you feel powerless and unsafe. When PTSD is reduced to a cinematic stereotype, it can make people with less visible forms of trauma feel dismissed or invalidated. The truth is that the nervous system does not care whether the danger came from a battlefield or a classroom, only that it was real and deeply distressing.

Sertraline, a medicine that helps suppress my PTSD, is not some body and mind destroying pill, because before I started taking it I was constantly filled with rage and lashing out at my family and myself, and that caused a lot of damage, while the medication has helped bring that intensity down and given me more control over my reactions.

>>305180
>They changed the definition of PTSD to include how I, as a grown ass man, am sad that some other kids weren't totally nice to me all the way back in school
Pathetic.
>Sertraline, a medicine that helps suppress my PTSD, is not some body and mind destroying pill
Yes, like all of the other mood-altering drugs, this rebranded Zoloft is a chemical lobotomy that is killing your gut biome and diminishing your brain's White matter.
>before I started taking it I was constantly filled with rage and lashing out at my family and myself
You could have just decided to stop acting that way.

>>305181
Were you never bullied in school before? If so, you are lucky. You are blessed and more fortunate than I am, and it feels like you must be living an easier life. When someone has not gone through that kind of pain, it can be hard for them to understand how deeply it shapes a person.

Sertraline keeps me calm and helps me stay grounded. During PTSD episodes, I felt a loss of control over my actions, almost like I was being taken over by something I could not stop. Because of that, it feels insensitive when someone dismisses or minimizes what I went through.

>>305180
No. You just have a terminal case of victimhood.

>>305180
I have an idea: "fake autism" PTSD guys suffer from being stuck between two polar stereotypes

>>305181

I'm extremely against any type of medication unless I'm in a lot of pain. I had a bad ear infection about a year ago and it felt like I was being smashed in the head with a rock whilst being stabbed in the ear.

>>305176
I take pregabalin. It is a bitch but the one I've grown fond of.

>>305181
I understand you are a perfect immortal machine. We are not.

I won't take the jew pills. If things get too bad I'll just shoot myself.

>>305183
My struggles with PTSD from being bullied in school are real, and they are not something I can just turn off or forget. What happened to me left deep emotional scars that still shape how I see the world and how safe I feel in it. When people dismiss my trauma or imply that it does not count, it feels like being hurt all over again. Bullying was not just a few bad days for me, it was a long period of fear, humiliation, and helplessness that rewired how my mind reacts to stress and danger.

You have no idea what I went through behind closed doors or how hard it has been to live with those memories. Those experiences still show up in my thoughts, my emotions, and my body, even when I am trying to move forward. I am not exaggerating or being dramatic, I am describing something that continues to affect my daily life. My pain deserves to be acknowledged with basic respect and empathy, not brushed aside as if it never mattered.

>>305184
Sertraline, a medication that helps control my PTSD, is something I genuinely cannot live without. It gives me back a sense of sanity that I once lost, and it allows me to feel grounded in my own mind again. Before I had it, my thoughts felt chaotic and overwhelming, like I was constantly being pulled in a dozen painful directions at once. With sertraline, that noise quiets down, and I can finally breathe. It does not erase my past or pretend that my trauma never happened, but it gives me the emotional stability to face life without being crushed by it. In that way, it does not just make me feel better, it gives me the ability to function, to feel hopeful, and to experience moments of happiness that once felt completely out of reach.

The people around me noticed the difference even before I fully did. They told me that before sertraline, I was often angry, tense, and filled with resentment, not because I wanted to be, but because I was constantly in survival mode. I was lashing out at the world and at myself, trapped in a state of emotional pain that I did not know how to escape. Now, they say I am calmer, more patient, and more like the person I was always meant to be. That change feels real to me too, like I have been given a second chance to live instead of just endure. Sertraline did not change who I am at my core, but it gave me the stability I needed to finally be myself again.

>>305197
Medicine is just another form of technology, and humans have always relied on technology to survive and thrive. From the first stone tools to modern computers, every step of human progress has been built on creating things that extend our natural limits. We do not shame people for using glasses to see, insulin to regulate blood sugar, or prosthetics to walk, because we understand those tools restore basic function and quality of life. In the same way, psychiatric medication is a tool that helps the brain function in a healthier, more stable way. The brain is a biological organ, just like the heart or lungs, and when it struggles, it makes sense to use the best tools available to support it. Calling medicine unnatural ignores the reality that nearly everything that keeps us alive and comfortable today is the result of human innovation layered on top of biology.

What makes the stigma around mental health medication especially painful is that it treats suffering as if it were a personal failure rather than a medical condition. People are told that needing antidepressants or anti anxiety medication means they are weak, dependent, or not truly healing, simply because the help comes in the form of a pill. That attitude erases how real and debilitating mental illness can be, especially for people who have lived through trauma and developed conditions like PTSD. When a medication helps someone regain emotional balance, think clearly, and feel safe in their own mind again, that is no different from a medical device helping someone breathe or move. Dismissing that relief as artificial only adds shame on top of pain, and it ignores the simple truth that technology, including medicine, has always been one of humanity’s greatest tools for staying alive and finding a better life.

>>305202
>People are told that needing antidepressants or anti anxiety medication means they are weak, dependent, or not truly healing


by trolls who seek self-validation just like most online trolls do so by belittling a very vulnerable person.

>>305197
What pills?
Yes. Those pills aren't just for you, they are for that hard-working economy-moving guy you may whack instead of yourself

>>305201
>The people around me noticed the difference even before I fully did. They told me that before sertraline, I was often angry, tense, and filled with resentment

ugh… in my school, they found these very traits in me only to say "yes you say they make fun of you, but what about you? Fists clenched, eyes full of hate, maybe you should do something with yourself"

Ugh. Good riddance.

>>305176
No I have no formal diagnosis and…
…I am too afraid of misdiagnosis



I swear, it's a double whammy.

My family: cold person, hateful person, certified SCH person, an already fading doing-nothing telly-watching person

My classmates:
L I V E L Y

B U S T E R S

My pain: I never really had this "lively buster" attitude myself so other being little busters of their age to me was being misinterpreted by me as a conspiracy-like hate against me.

See, my classmates used to… well, play obnoxious games with me and then they were all surprised I am not a big fan of games acting all serious and stuff. They WOULD NOT LEAVE ME ALONE.

And then, once I complained how I cannot handle it they were all like "but it's all about you, your fists are clenched…" yes, they said tgat. Shit. No one was vigilant enough to investigate how contrasting MY life was to THEIRS.
* However, my mother came up with a semi-true explanation my classmates are all "rurals", "villagers" while shes a university graduate.

But then again, something happened to me before all of that. A freaking divorce happened. My life has been "cold" for me. It's like I was broken right at the very start of my life - and L I V E L Y people, "normies", were really eager to probe me due to being bored…


Come to think of it, my hate against them was my "and you don't seem to understand / a shame you seemed a honest man" problem. Never really realized little busters of middle schoolers just aren't compatible with someone stuck without normal people in my immediate family.



Oh and THANK YOU FATHER FOR PROMISING ME TO GET ME OUT OF THIS SOUL-CRUSHING FAMILY YET NOT FULFILLING IT ALWAYS TELLING ME I DIDN'T TO THIS OR THAT THAT WAS REALLY IMPORTANT FOR MY SELF-ESTEEM I swear i woke up this morning hiding in the sheets for a hour or two crying from the realization what's the (redacted) where I can be free from this very endless judgement (addendum: and, probably, it's my own super-ego which has a tight grip on me) if I stay unmedicated and proud

>>305209
>maybe you should do something with yourself
I know you couldn't possibly know it as a kid, but all you have to do is to learn to contain your survival mode. Instead of being a monkey and signaling you distress to everyone around, keep it inside, and put a nice boy on the outside. The hardest part is learning to mask the lack of patience. Once you did, you're invincible.

>>305200
Your pain doesnt deserve shit. I dont owe you anything and your emotional baggage is your problem. You're a whining petty victim.

>>305219
Same goes for me so I guess it's just a matter of who shoots first.

>>305212
This very day, my laptop gave an ad for psychological hotline… Red Cross.

Looks like the world of connections and surveying is blooming this days.

>>305176
Sertraline kills your dick. You fucked up.

You wizs need to stop making these damn medication threads. Whatever you have you can fix with a good diet. Unless it's a very major issue and you're about to off yourself don't take kike poison. This shit is going to ruin your health and destroy your lives, like it is currently ruining mine.

>>305243
>you can fix with a good diet
Sure, cap. Thanks for the heads up.

>>305219
Why the hostility? I understand that you do not owe me anything, and I am not demanding validation or sympathy from anyone. I am simply starting a thread about medication to see if there are other wizards out there who are in the same boat as me, people who have had similar experiences and might want to share them. This is meant to be a space for discussion and mutual understanding, not an attack or a plea for attention. If the topic does not resonate with you, that is fine, but there is no reason to respond with aggression or dismissal when the intent is clearly to connect and compare lived experiences.

And yes, considering the bullying I have been through, I am a victim. That is not an exaggeration or a manipulation of language, it is a statement rooted in real experiences that have had lasting effects on my mental health. Being bullied can fundamentally change how a person sees themselves and the world, and dismissing that reality only adds another layer of harm. Please do not gaslight me by minimizing or reframing my experiences as something trivial or imagined. You do not get to decide the weight of what I went through, and asking for that to be respected is not unreasonable, it is basic empathy.

>>305243
You really need to tell your doctor if a medication is not working well for you or if it is causing side effects that feel wrong or overwhelming. Treatment is not supposed to make your life worse, and staying silent out of fear, guilt, or pressure can delay real improvement. Medication is not a one size fits all solution, and what helps one person can be ineffective or even harmful for another. Being honest with your doctor is a crucial part of the process, because they rely on your feedback to adjust dosage, change medications, or explore alternatives that better support your well being.

The goal is not to force yourself to tolerate suffering, but to find a medicine that actually fits you and your body. Many people have to switch medications multiple times before landing on the right one, and that is normal, not a failure. I had to change my medicine several times myself before finding something that worked without causing bad side effects, and that experience taught me patience with the process. Finding the right medication can take time, but when it works, it can make a real difference in stability, clarity, and quality of life, and that effort is worth it.

>>305243
A good diet is important for overall health, and it can absolutely support mental well being, but it is not enough on its own to treat highly stressful and debilitating conditions like PTSD. PTSD is not just feeling stressed or anxious on a bad day, it is a serious mental health issue that can affect thoughts, emotions, behavior, and even physical responses on a daily basis. While nutrition, exercise, and lifestyle changes can help create a healthier baseline, they do not address the full depth of trauma or the neurological patterns that PTSD creates. For many people, professional treatment is necessary, and that often includes therapy and medication working together to manage symptoms effectively.

For me, sertraline is not a poison or something that has damaged my body or mind. It is a medication that has helped me tolerate and live with my past trauma instead of being overwhelmed by it every day. It has not ruined my health or destroyed my life, but honestly the opposite has been true. It has given me stability, emotional control, and the ability to function without constantly being pulled back into painful memories. Dismissing medication as harmful or unnecessary ignores the reality that for some people, medicine is a critical tool for survival and recovery, and in my case, it has been a genuine source of relief and healing.

>>305254
>You really need to tell your doctor if a medication is not working well for you or if it is causing side effects that feel wrong or overwhelming.

AFAIK, it is the matter of trial and error to patch a person's "miseranle little pile" of secretory function, even. So yes, I agree

>Treatment is not supposed to make your life worse

also true, IIRC. I am positive that's the standard procedure now to switch your medicaments to a more interesting cocktail if your current set of meds only hurts you atop of the heartache you already have.

>>305253

>And yes, considering the bullying I have been through, I am a victim. That is not an exaggeration or a manipulation of language, it is a statement rooted in real experiences that have had lasting effects on my mental health.

1. Your victimhood is fake to me and doesn't mean shit to me.
2. How you were 'changed' by bullying is fake and gay. Instead of choosing to change, you chose to be a fat pussy drug addict for a cheap way to get more victim points. Fuck off. You didnt choose to be bullied, but you chose to be a drug addicted pussy. You chose to allow those experiences to override your autonomy. You're a pretentious faggot.

>Being bullied can fundamentally change how a person sees themselves and the world, and dismissing that reality only adds another layer of harm.
>Please do not gaslight me by minimizing or reframing my experiences as something trivial or imagined. You do not get to decide the weight of what I went through, and asking for that to be respected is not unreasonable, it is basic empathy.

Nigger what is this? What the fuck is this? You are such a pussy that my observations threaten your sense of ego. That kind of language validates how absolutely fake and full of shit you are. What layer of harm am I inflicting on you with a bunch of words? I am exposing you. I am confronting you for being a victimhood pearl clutching faker. I infer that's 'harmful' because it threatens your fakery. Its another way to give yourself more victimhood points.

'Weight of what I went through' I can decide it and I will, and I have. Its real because you allowed it to be. You got bullied as a kid, so? You think you're special because of that? Grow the fuck up, get the fuck over it. Let the experiences shape you into a better person instead of this self-pitying individual who employs manipulative therapy-speak.

I dont owe you shit. The world doesnt owe you shit. Nobody owes you shit. You should be ashamed of destroying your body with drugs just to get that orgasmic victimhood validation high. This kind of language is so fucking manipulative and annoying to listen to, I am rotten sick of listening to your kind.

>>305261
I am a victim, and I am asking you not to gaslight me. You could not truly understand what I have been through, because you have never lived my experiences, and everyone’s life is shaped by different struggles and circumstances. Without empathy, it is easy to dismiss someone else’s pain, even when that pain is very real and deeply rooted. This is not reckless behavior or substance abuse. Sertraline is a legitimate medical treatment that helps manage my PTSD, a condition that affected me for years. If I had the ability to let you see or feel even a fraction of what I endured, I would, because then you might understand why empathy matters so much in conversations like this.

I suffered with PTSD for a long time before I finally found something that allowed me to heal and move forward. Sertraline gave me the space and stability I needed to stop being trapped in the past, and I deserve that chance to move on with my life. It has helped me regain control and find peace where there was once constant distress. What comes across in your words feels hostile and dismissive, and that kind of rage is not productive or fair to project onto others. Just as medication has helped me manage my condition, perhaps reflection or support could help you manage that anger. Everyone deserves understanding, compassion, and the opportunity to heal in their own way.

>>305261
The world can be an unkind and overwhelming place at times, full of noise, conflict, and moments that feel deeply unfair. It is easy to become hardened by those experiences, especially when life repeatedly shows its harsher side. Yet unkindness is not the only truth of the world, and it does not have to define every moment or every future. Even within chaos, there are still paths toward calm, understanding, and healing, though they are often difficult to find when pain has taken root for a long time.

Through sertraline, I have been able to discover a sense of kindness and peace within myself, even while the world around me remains unpredictable. It has helped quiet the constant inner turmoil and allowed me to approach life with more patience, clarity, and emotional balance. Instead of being consumed by fear or past trauma, I can now experience moments of hope and stability that once felt impossible. In a chaotic world that does not always offer compassion, finding that peace within has been life changing, and it has given me the strength to keep moving forward with resilience and self understanding.

>>305261
You seem to be approaching this with a sense of fear and suspicion that I do not think is warranted. No one is out to get you, and no one is trying to secretly harm you by prescribing medication. For me, sertraline is not some sinister substance or hidden danger, but a legitimate treatment that has genuinely improved my quality of life. It has helped calm my mind, reduce my symptoms, and bring a sense of stability that I struggled to find on my own. The idea that all psychiatric medication is poison ignores the real experiences of people like me who have found relief, clarity, and even hope through the proper use of prescribed medicine under medical supervision.

If you have taken prescription pills before and they caused you more suffering than relief, that does not mean all medication is inherently bad or malicious. More often than not, it simply means that your body was not compatible with that specific drug. Human biology is complex, and mental health treatment is not a one size fits all situation. In those circumstances, the responsible and recommended course of action is to work with a doctor and switch to a medication that suits your body and brain chemistry better. There are many different antidepressants available, each working in different ways, and finding the right one can take time and adjustments. Dismissing all medication because of one bad experience only closes the door to treatments that could genuinely help.

>>305253
it's jost s0 habbens u r on

https://wizchan.org/dep

and you sound like a guy who belongs to a different imageboard, say, lainchan (although, thanks for visiting us)

See, it's like your case can be fixed easily. Very easily. As in "fix your diet here or there, get some funny blackout curtains, a nicer matress, quit drinking 3 cup mugs of coffee and maybe abstain from dsiry for a month to see if you're mild and calm if you don't eat dairy"


Also, while "drug" =/= "meds" in some areas; in other areas, the very word "drug" is the synonym to medications, all while "narcotics" is the scary word.

>>305263
>Through sertraline, I have been able to discover a sense of kindness and peace within myself, even while the world around me remains unpredictable. It has helped quiet the constant inner turmoil and allowed me to approach life with more patience, clarity, and emotional balance.


Welp!
1. Good for you I guess
2. Well, my fear is, they'll suspect a yet another form of schizophrenia rather than JUST prescribing me a cute and adorable modern drug "because it runs in yer family!" and "well, depression is a symptom of SCH, loony!"
3. I am not sure about the hostile guy here, but he probably had been the bully type due to his *potty*load of problems in his life that made him Wizardchan tier

Desvenlafaxine 50mg, which is good since I've gone down from taking 100mg + two other medication to just one.
Having a routine and exercise has helped me a lot as well.
My 20s were a lot of trial and error with SSRI's and Benzos and other shit. Feel more stable than ever now, still get down moments tho.

>>305176
OP, I eat some pills too.

Multivitamins:
B12 vitamin, x10 the daily dose
+ some other vitamins to compensate for my lent-based diet

Magnesium. Just like in "Disco Elysium". Kinda helps.

Vitamin D.
Well… sometimes. I prefer cod liver

Also, avoid cola. It has caffeine. I cannot sleep. Oh wait I have a nice non-prescription thingy to drink! Bye!

>>305183
Today I learned what NPD is. Your "a terminal case of victimhood" wording can be applied to a person with narcissistic personality disorder. And, well, a disorder's disorder, so there no shame in getting a pill against that.

>>305289
>SSRI's

oh! oh! i remember something.
L-tryptophan is the thing your body makes 5-htp from, and 5-htp is used by your body to make serotonin!

I have some 5-htp sup pills left lying in the kitchen. I get my l-tryptophan from scrambled eggs with ketchup, mostly.

>>305291

>>305254
I disagree… I think doctors are never honest. I recommend avoiding them at all costs, human beings are not meant to take medication. I already posted about this in another thread but I took a few prozac pills and for more than a year after I have had no sex drive and suffer from almost constant anhedonia. It almost feels like being dead yet still alive. That dishonest doctor pretty much accused me of lying too… Unless you truly believe it helps, and it's not just placebo, please throw the pills in the toilet wizs.
>>305255
I hear you, but I think it's important to remember PTSD heals naturally over time. Even if it takes 5 years to heal completely I would prefer that to becoming numb forever because of medication. Glad it helped you at least, that's what matters. These meds are really a cruel lottery.