/dep/ - Depression

>>308084
gooning is watching hentai for hours until your balls hurt.
>The anti-masturbation crowd has nothing interesting to say
anti-masturbation is absolutely based, but unfortunately too hard for most people. trying to argue with them is like trying to argue with Schwarzenegger about gym. on the other side anti-fap guys are usually underage tourists from 4chan who jerk off every second day.

there is no way out of poverty. even on my free day i'm too tired to care.

>>307768
>keep calling GM corporate and delaer ship
>no eta on when part is going to arrive
>we dont have any loaner vehicles lol, you have to rent a gm vehicle for a reimbursement of $44 a day
>oh and the chevy malibus in every rental fleet are on recall for the back up camera
>need vehicle to commute to work (35 mins) and blowing money on uber rides
Im going to go insane

>>308084
Based, if you dont use it you lose it. Ignore nofap retards

>>308084
I've noticed how demonized Masturbation has become with zoomers. How is pleasing your self for a couple minutes the same as being a porn addict who rubs their dick for hours on end?

>>308143
I agree that quick jerking off to get rid of the urge is a much better choice than gooning to porn, but semen retention is real and is a wizardly choice.

>>308128
If you don't use it, you have the power of potency you can apply to everything you do. If you use it, you just waste energy for several minutes of pleasure. It is a choice of normalcattle.

>>308143
Yeah, there’s no tradition of religious proscriptions or other historical anti masturbation social norms in human society over the ages. This is a zoomer thing.

>>308148
That's why most anti-masturbation gurus sound like some mystic chinese alchemist.

"Do not masturbate or you will waste your precious Qi energy, which will make it more difficult to attain immortality"

>>308143
I suppose is a normal backlash of growing on overly sexualized media yet living with almost puritanical values on sexuality.
Theres also the grifter/guru angle that oversells it as not touching your dick will turn you into some uber sigma male or whatever.

itt millennials seethe that zoomers are more strong willed

>>308155
>Generational shitflinging
I rather not. I do think 30/60/90 days noFap is a good exercise for planning/discipline to your average online kid.

my mom and i are once again avoiding each other and not talking
it makes the atmosphere in the house kinda dark
going out of my room to eat and use the bathroom is a little stressful

>>308163
The evolved anxiety for social acceptance is dysgenic. It used to be that being isolated in the wild will kill you. Nowadays in civilized society you can survive just fine without having personal relationships but the fear of rejection remains.

Today I'm constipated and I'm not sure if I should follow a liquid diet until poop comes out, every time I fear to end up with an intestinal blockage

Normies don't care about exchanging information or discussing specific topics. Everytime I think I'm having a good conversation with someone one on one and someone else joins the topic shifts to gossip or bantering and I get left out immediately. It becomes impossible for me to keep up.

>>308210
Autismos can't banter.

friday night and wizchan slows to a crawl…

Wizs, can you all really pretend to be happy?

Today was a bad day at work. FUCK. I hate how I always end up feeling miserable whenever I go out with other people (because of work).

They always look so good — I keep telling myself that everyone has their own problems, but why do they all seem so happy when existence itself feels miserable?

It's always the same conversations: beers, boyfriends and girlfriends, marriage, cars, houses, sons and daughters.

God, I hate it all.
I hate existence.
I wish i was never born.

DAMN!

>>308223
protip: you can just say "no". they're probably shit talk behind your back but at least you don't have to deal with such shit.

>>308223
>I keep telling myself that everyone has their own problems, but why do they all seem so happy when existence itself feels miserable?
Because one core neurotypical trait is to just keep chugging along. They will have moments where the abyss peers deep into their souls but then they just sort of shrug it off and continue to mindlessly consume, party, sportsball, whatever. It rarely gets bad enough that a normal will start questioning the point of doing anything, of their striving, their goals and aspirations in life. I mean that is what it means to be a normie isn't it? To not ask too many questions and just go along with whatever is most convenient. So yes, they experience loss, maybe a life tragedy of some kind but it rarely ever moves the needle in making them introspect

Old friend from high school who is morbidly obese (180kg, down from 200) is now on blood pressure medication and fearing for his life. He had a meltdown about how he likely only has a few years left.

I thought about how although I'm a NEET wizzie, I'm not as bad as him. Old people through my life have always told me "health is everything". And now I'm taking that to heart and just refusing to stress about anything, and I mean anything. I'll just relaxmaxx forever and not care what people think.

>>308223
>I wish i was never born.
same

>>308223
Why is there em dash in this post? AI?

>>308143
>>308148
>>308155
there's a lot of unwarranted zoomer hate in this site but he's right that zoomers like to pretend like they are extremely prude because it's the new thing, when everyone in a generation is a degenerate due to unprecedented internet exposure then pretending you are heckin christian chud crusader is the new cool thing, deep down it's just an act so that they can point the finger at someone and feel better about themselves.

I dont remember the obession with generations 20-25 years ago. Sure it was mentioned but I dont remember seeing it constantly, everywhere. gen z this, millenial that, boomer this and so on. At least from what I remember.

demiurge is a bitch. but i feel nothing. i just want to be gone from here.

haven't visited this site in years.
hello wizzies, i'm a 33 yo wiz.
feels like i went through a time capsule since this lad still feels like a kid, come to think about it, i haven't evolved since i was 12.
i'm eternally 12

>>308243
for the past century there's been lots of unprecedented societal, cultural and technological changes in very short intervals and especially so in the last 50 years, since people born just 10-20 years apart are raised in environments so different from each other they behave distinctively different.

>>308243
I posted about it in-depth elsewhere but old people have always been despised and hated through history. Old men are creepy, exploitative and underhanded in their methods of maintaining dominance. Young men are right to hate them for blocking off opportunity, sending them off to war, all white predating on younger succubi. Younger succubi are right to hate older succubi for just trying to sabotage whatever good things they have going on through malicious gossip out of envy and spite. They're also right to hate older men for being coerced to serve them through history. Although younger normalfag men don't have any better intentions and want to be like the elder patriarchs themselves one day, and as their looks fade succubi become resentful and spiteful too.

There never was a time when old men were respected as wise elders, ever. That's an aspirational myth. They've always been seen as cowardly, cynical, stingy and mean-spirited. Old succubi were always dragged before the village for being deceitful snakes and told to keep their mouths shut. Older men have always been notorious for going after succubi they can't possibly satisfy, in every culture. And if you listen to succubi, it's always men over 50 that are the the ones leering at them at the age of 13.

There's simply a lot of boomers, too much relative to everyone else. It was a baby boom after all, and on both sides of it you have sub-replacement fertility. What kept old people hate under wraps historically was that there wasn't many of them, they were always despised, but people could find opportunities elsewhere. Now much of the economy is asskissing boomers for opportunities, much of which goes to succubi because of course, they have a psycho-sexual competition with younger men and resent their youth.

People talk about race but nobody talks about generation conflict. Boomers in Japan all colluded in the 90s and 00s to freeze employment on Gen X and older millennials during their two lost decades, it's called the employment ice age. Many Japanese normalfag men ended up as NEETs and Hikis unable to start families due to it. And to top it all off, these same boomers peddled the same myths about "muh bootstraps" all while setting the very policies in boardrooms that blocked off opportunities.

Something similar happened in the Soviet Union that lead to its collapse. The "Titan" generation that survived Stalin's purges became fearful of vulnerability from younger co-horts, so they all colluded together as a generation. From Malenkov to Cherenkov, you had a full 30 year rule by the same generation. This era is called the era of stagnation because these geriatrics were too scared of even the simplest of reforms. Only when they started dying in office on dialysis machines did Gorbachev, a younger leader, finally purge the elders entirely.

>>308250
>From Malenkov to Cherenkov, you had a full 30 year rule by the same generation.
On a similar note, every US president since Bill Clinton in 1993 was a Baby Boomer. All of those presidents minus Obama were born in the 1940s.

>>308250
It's wrong to hate anyone.

>>308243
Internet wasn't that big 20-25 years ago

>>308252
False, Biden was Silent not Boomer just like my father who was born before WWII ended.

>>308253
I don't know, hate is a maligned emotion and is necessary to the human experience. I certainly do think "respect your elders" is a huge psy-op. I mean think about it critically, should we respect all of them? The generational conspiracy of frozen employment in Japan has its analogous expression with the DEI freezing of young white men in western companies. Boomers loved keeping diversity hire non-whites and succubi around because it made them shine a little better even at 70 years old.

Young people very much underestimate how much spite and resentment older people have towards them, and how selfishly they exert political power.

>>308252
Yeah a gerontocracy is a naturally forming phenomenon in an over-regulated economy. It's funny, Deng Xiaoping in China instituted policies to prevent the rise of a gerontocracy with the 67 rule (seven up, eight down), which stipulated that if you're over the age of 67 at the party congress you're forced into retirement. They coupled this with people being unable to choose their successor, but instead their successor's successor. So the 65 year old would be picking a 55 year old to inherit power after the 60 year old. This system worked for a few decades….But Xi Jingping, a boomer, broke this rule and entrenched elder rule again.

The Soviet Union is an interesting case because you see rapid change following a generational power struggle. The Gorbachev silent generation (late 50s/early 60s) overthrew the Stalin purge generation (late 70s, early 80s), only to be overthrown by the boomer generation in the early 90s. Yeltsin wasn't himself a boomer, but Putin and all the oligarchs that came into power following the collapse of the USSR were boomers, at the time in their late 30s and 40s. The boomers in the USSR grew up under the Brezhnev era overregulated stagnation in their 20s, hence their tendency towards self-serving corruption.

>>308255
Thanks for the correction. For some reason I keep thinking that Biden (1942?) was born the same year as Clinton/Bush Jr/Trump (1946?), but I couldn't recall the exact year so I lazily specified "1940s" while forgetting that the generations are divided in that decade.

Do benzos work long term for anxiety if I'm not using them recreationally and stay on one dose without increasing? Im on 15mg tranxene

I'm lamenting the end of anonymity of the internet. It's been a slow burn but I'm really starting to feel it. I can't even read manga now on some websites before it stops you and forces you to make an account. Pirating is about dead, everyone just overpays for low quality trash. Even imageboards have some gay discord attached to them. I can't be apart of real society and now online cliques are taking over everything. I just want to enjoy something in peace.

>>308266
I predict it'll come back once the AI bubble bursts and there's just no use for all the accumulated data on everyone. I think the business model of the internet, with free service given in exchange for personal data, will collapse. Things will decentralize back down to private servers or decentralized forums.

Already you're seeing Amazon's business model buckling under pressure now there's no easy money from the fed.

I hate myself and everyone else so much.

I hallucinated God turning himself into a bishoujo and us having a visual novel style date at night.
I have schizophrenia and people laugh or think i'm trolling when I tell them this, while the actual experience is incredibly cruel and painful.

I HATE SEX IT IS EVIL AND OF THE ETERNAL DEMIURGE AND THIS DEMIURGE IS WITHIN EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US

>>308276
AI or not, age verification is likely coming to stay. People care more about a campaign to stop killing bing bing wahoos than their entire activity in front of any electronic device (online or offline) being monitored by the globalist elites in the future. There is more outrage over Goystation making faggy games with trannies and ugly feminists than Goystation requiring you to verify your age to use online features or Goystation introducing DRM in games you buy from now on. I can't look at normgroids and think that they don't deserve this, I actually think the elites are soft-handed with us cattle

I just want to enjoy myself. I just want one thing that I can sublimate myself into. I just want to occupy my frenetic consciousness with a simple task. Why why why can't I find this

Every interaction with another person is miserable. Being drunk by myself is not too bad. 34 years and this is all it came down to. Well

>>308250
That is not really what I highlighted, it is the obesssion of generations, regardless if it is genz, boomer etc. I never remember this obsession 20-25 years ago, internet or not other then the occational thing. It actually appears opposite, the younger generation seems more obsessed than the older.

>>308326
impregnate her again!

realized chronic mild discomfort i've been thinking was bladder cancer or something catastrophic was just me getting fatter and now my underwear is too tight for my fat ass

like that cliche of the frog sitting in water that is slowly brought to a boil…

didn't think my slow weight gain would get to this point… it's very uncomfortable not being able to wear anything at the moment without feeling constricted. but i'm mostly scared i won't be able to make the change and get my weight back down

>>308326
Why would she be devastated over this ?
A 2 weeks lump of cell is not a baby.
It's not like she lost a limb, which is permanent. Now that would be devastating.

Trying is not a huge effort in itself, it's not like she's manually crafting every cell, it's a passive process.
She just gets impregnated and if her matrix is in good condition, the biological program compiles itself.

And why would you be also devastated over a 2 weeks lump of cells ?
Are you a female ?

I'm exhausted.

Officially a wizard for a month or so now.
Let my health go pretty bad.
Just see no point in doing or working towards anything. Never have is the problem.
I did nothing, I do nothing.
There is no feeling of reward to anything, no satisfaction that most others seem to derive from their progress.
Even the physical agonies getting worse don't seem to motivate.
Why?
Terrified of death, panic at the thought of oblivion, yet I do nothing to even delay it.
30 years of life and nothing to show for it.

Recently someone told me unprompted that I need long term goals, but goals stem from desires do they not?
I can't say I have none, but each time I tug at any one of them for more than the duration of a daydream it seems it fades away.
The issue is that it is likely the key to salvation. A goal set to a date so I can split the time until it and work towards it, feel the progress and whatnot… I just can't find one that my brain doesn't pick apart.

Without this I already see weeks, months, years going by in the blink of an eye as I lose grasp on time wageslaving.
All things considered I have it better than I deserve. Still it feels futile…