No.304363
>>304362there's no blood on the knife
No.304364
Can't Germany realize that it's more harmful to children and young people than degenerates posting shit on the Internet
No.304366
>>304362The Day of the Lord actually means your death day, not some event in the far future. The Holy Spirit saves if God wants to save you, from hellfire. All those prayers asking for mercy those orthodox guys do actually refers to their personal death.
I was getting sad with the commercialisation of Christmas (God's birthday), how atheists still celebrate it and how this must make God feel.
Will hang myself soon.
No.304367
>>304366>The Day of the Lord actually means your death day, not some event in the far future. The Holy Spirit saves if God wants to save you, from hellfire>Bla bla abrahamic jew-christian hellenistic-zoroastrian-platonic lore one-god shit centeredYou know that atheists celebrate Christmas out of mere routine and see it as a secular holiday centered around family and gifts, partly due to commercialization and mere tradition lacking religious significance, like other cultural equivalents that evolved naturally from "pagan" or non-jewish-christian winter solstice celebrations? Right?
Because Christmas is not the birthday of God or Jesus; they weren't even born on that day.
What's more, we don't even know if they exist or existed as religions portray them (and this is true of every prophet or religious hero, even pagans ones).
What's more, if you want to return to the ancient practices of astronomical observations and calendars of the “pagans” or shamans and primitive non-Abrahamic, non-Dharmic indigenous peoples, etc., it was the peak fertility event of the year and a reminder of life that would survive over long periods or as a change in the routine of survival that was approaching.
>AlsoBut yeah, its all about sandnigers, jews and bad nihilist shit for you.
Just enjoy the damn event.
No.304371
>>304367>Christmas is not the birthday of God or JesusAre you okay? maybe go visit a psychologist or take a walk or something
No.304373
>>304371Christmas was originally designed as the day the Devil celebrates anal raping your children. Since wizards can't have children I don't know why you bother. Just celebrate your weekend wow no wage slaving!!! Or maybe you're a crab.
No.304374
>>304373You're in bad company here, Jew.
No.304379
>>304371>25 december>Birthday of jesusYep, its just replaced pagan fest by romans.
We dont know how and what time jesus born (if he existed, or them, the jesuses)
No.304388
>>304379hanukah and purim are pagan holidays too
No.304389
>>304388they both celebrate biblical events where pagans attempted to exterminate monotheists.
No.304399
Shouting into the void. Jesus touching my shoulder. Psychosis around the corner. Existential dread ala Pessoa intruding my mind. Cold moon light shimmering in the dark. Do not fear, see the light. Believe but not believe. Cancel the moment embrace the fullness. Become aware but beware of self reference.
No.304415
Wanted to whine on /dep/ like I always do but remembered a rude reply last time. Can't even have a safe space to vent on wizchan of all places. You could probably get more civil engagements posting about wizard struggles on normie social media nowadays.
No.304418
>>304415Yeah image boards are full of evil bitter niggers (many of them are sadly NEETs, who you'd think would be friends) who will attack you in a moment of weakness to satisfy their animal wicked desires. You are right that there is no security anywhere. You are honestly better off learning to keep inside. Become strong, then mog those losers for mocking you when you were weak. Wizardry is not equal being loser, remember.
No.304431
Man I just don't feel anything lately. I went outside on the top of my roof at midnight looked at the sky and all but I didn't feel a thing, it was just "oh, that's a nice view". I don't feel anything, I'd rather be depressed than this apathy, at least I would feel a damn thing.
No.304432
I just want to be happy. I always feel like something is wrong, as if I have a problem in my head that prevents me from feeling lasting happiness. The rare moments when I feel peace are pure bliss, and I always hope they last longer. But they never do… It's been like this since 2024. If only I could understand what's wrong with me.
No.304433
>>304432Early 20's. Gonna fix itself in 3-5 years.
No.304434
My life has been fucked for a long time. At some points I thought it was hopeless. I now believe it's possible to start over. Sooner or later the effects of old mistakes will fade away. For the last year or so, I've been trying to get to a better place. I do a little bit every day. The rest of my energy is spent making the time pass as agreeably as I can. Nighttime is the hardest. Getting up in the morning is hard too. I often lack the courage to face the day. The key is to stay busy, always occupied with something. Make lots of little plans and go through them in order. Always have something to do next. I tend to feel that I haven't improved at my "core" but I can at least improve my "attributes." Even if I'm not satisfied with my situation, thinking back on the things I've done makes it feel like I'm not wasting my time. If nothing feels good, I can turn that on its head and say I won't be distracted by idle pleasures. Say I don't like to eat anything, then I can use that as an excuse to buy cheap, bland food, and maybe that money I saved will turn into something good later. Eventually every day ends and I count that as a win.
No.304436
>>304434Awesome strategy, wiz. The last time I tried to do that I lasted 2 or 3 days.
No.304445
i hate being autistic in a normies world. 80% of my anguish comes from that and add. my neurotypical bother had no problem turning into a abusechad because of our fucked childhood but im as low as can be.
No.304446
>>304445Who convinced you that you were autistic? When did you get a diagnosis?
No.304448
>>304446i always knew that i was fucked in some ways. learned a couple of years ago that it has a name and is called 'autism' and 1-2 months ago got the diagnosis. It itself did not change a lot yet as i was prepared for it.
No.304450
I wonder if I will ever fit in somewhere.
No.304452
>>304450You won't. So give up on that and finally get to doing something more rewarding than fitting in.
No.304455
Existence is a cruel and eternal prison, and I am alone in it.
I am God, and there is nothing besides me, I am all that exists and there is nowhere to run, I cannot escape myself.
I cannot simply cease to exist because I am the basis of all existence, I have always existed and will always have to exist.
No.304458
>>304455As a Christian this post was one of the most disgusting things I have read in a while. I don't like this pseudo-Christian "Christ is within you" stuff too
No.304461
>>304458"A christian meets a schizo"™
No.304494
everything is so much worse than 2007, and i was already suicidal in 2007
19 years already, my suicidal depression is all grown up and has kids of its own now.
No.304498
>>304458Noone cares about your dead-end religion nigger
No.304499
>>304498>>304498Christianity has 1 billon+ followers alive today, admittedly some of them of questionable denominations. I get this feeling when I talk about my beliefs retards show up who think I am mindraping them or something by talking about my beliefs. atheists should build their own close-gated communities where they are safe from any expressions of religious beliefs
No.304500
>>304499Christianity doesn't have followers. I doubt there's 100 million people who read the scripture from cover to cover. Christianity just happened to find a way to exercise ruthless tyranny for something like 1000 years so its cultural impact will take a long time to wear off.
No.304502
>>304458literal quote of Jesus "the kingdom of God is within you"
No.304506
The God within is the way to salvation. No doubt. Be good to yourself and you will find the path. It's pretty hard so i understand just gooning and giving up on everything and embracing the void.
No.304511
>>304455>I am alone in it>there is nothing besides me, I am all that existsYou only wish, buddy. If only that was true then life would be much simpler. Unfortunately, there are billions of retards on this planet, sharing it with you, all ready to butcher you just because you are seen as a weirdo by them.
>>304500You don't have to read the Bible to be considered as a christian, in fact the Church denied access to the Bible for many centuries, why? Because they realized the best cure against religion is simply reading its holy scripture. If someone reads the Bible from start to finish he usually realizes what a load of crap his religion is. Probably this hold true for all religions, I don't know.
Anyway, unfortunately the christian wiz is right, Christianity is still a thing, it's only dying in the West but in other parts of the world it is growing, especially in Africa which will be giving most of the world's population quite soon. Islam won't be able to stop Christianity, you can't get rid of Christianity with violence because it was designed exactly to be a religion of martyrs. The only thing that can kill of Christianity is if it gets too mainstream for a long time without any intellectual opposition, like it happened in western culture, then Christianity ends up its own destroyer eventually. Christianity if left unchallenged will end up creating inner contradictions which in turn will give birth to marxism (which is secular christianity, btw).
No.304512
>>304511and even Islam recognizes Jesus as the Messiah and his 2nd coming, which if you were in 100 AD most would call a sect of Christians
No.304516
I want to die but I don't want to leave without leaving something behind and at the same time being always present in the scrutiny of everybody else memories.
Is this normal?
No.304518
>>304516want to die but I don't want to leave without leaving something behind and at the same time being always present in the scrutiny of everybody else memories give me anxiety. *
No.304519
>>304512It's all about the jews, unironically. Jews built this whole world more or less that we as "civilized" persons know. Jewish religions (Islam and Christianity), jewish stoicism, jewish psychiatry/psychology, jewish socialism (marxism), jewish capitalism, jewish fascism/natsoc (Hitler and his kin were inspired by medieval christianity more than anything), etc.
When you see Christians, Muslims and actual jews hating each other it's all about who are the ""real"" jews, in other words the successors of Abraham and the prophets, all 3 of them claim to be the true jews and hate each other for being false jews basically, it's really insane when you realize that you are just a puppet in a jewish world and there is nothing you can do against it.
No.304520
going homeless and no food no water no toilets no place to sleep constant mental and physical agony. i will either kill myself or ? we'll see.
No.304522
>>304519Yeah even China had to build the wall around itself to save itself from jews. They'll conquer the world eventually. Unfortunately they really have higher IQ, maybe that's why they proclaimed themselves the favorite race of God Almighty. Hard to not do that when you're clearly so much smarter.
No.304526
>>304519I never heard of Jews inventing Stoicism, although it has a lot of slave morality, proto-christian ideas in the BC pre-Jesus. it even taught "love your enemies".
No.304528
>>304526>it even taught "love your enemies"Yes, for all people should love each other. But unlike Christians, stoics also said that if war comes to war, you should go ahead and kill them.
No.304530
>>304528well in practice there hasn't been much christian pacifism in history, even before they took power in Rome, they accepted serving in the Pagan Army
No.304531
All this discussion about religion is tiresome. The only person I know who believes in Jesus doesn't want anyone to know except very few people. People that defend their religion in public or online seem like LARPers or insufferable faggots, both religious fags and atheists.
No.304534
>>304531You're a hikikomori wizard so your sample size of 1 doesn't negate 2 billion christians.
No.304535
>>304530This isn't about just actions. Christians preach love, but do violence, thus are hypocrites. Stoics say if the time has come to kill, then kill, but do so with consideration and honor, for no thing is evil, but the intention. That may be a subtle difference, but still significant.
No.304537
>>304534Was just 1 billion a few posts ago.
No.304544
I fucking hate Christianity for flooding my city with african refugees. I live in the middle of nowhere, well the fuck away from africa, and christian churches are doing that shit to me. It's the Presbyterian ones I think.
This is an angle I never see anyone attack Christians from, they're just fucking selfish people. They are so focused on trying to buy their own ticket to heaven, that Christians in these charities will sell out entire nations and peoples and try to mix up the world. Putting people here in danger, one of these seeded african nogs just stares at me so fucking aggressively at the park, like he's sizing me up.
Yet when I hit these Christians up about their shitty selfish practices, and say maybe they shouldn't do that shit. Suddenly I'm the bad guy, suddenly I'm the "racist". And they pull the holier than thou attitude.
Your god Jesus was a selfish arrogant piece of shit all through the gospels when you really actually read into them to find his personality. Don't get me wrong, I hate shitslam too, but there isn't this level of poisonous level of charity where you have to give away everything you have, and the highest aspiration isn't live like a fucking hobo like Christ. Islam at least has confidence, is a warrior religion, and their ummah fights for their people as people.
No.304547
>>304534I don't care if it's 7 billion because I think these are still insufferable faggots if they preach their stuff to others.
No.304548
>parents want to spend christmas with their friends
>ask me to come with them
>they know I'm a mentally ill hikkikomori
>I have to explain that I am mentally ill to them once again
>strong feelings of wanting to kill myself afterwards
why the fuck do they do this? like they can just fucking gaslight me into not being deeply mentally ill?
No.304551
>>304520Just become a thief, at that point you have nothing to lose. At worst they will put you in jail for a short time, it'll either break you or make a man out of you, either way something interesting will happen to you at least.
>>304522Jews already rule the world, been like that since the romans took up christianity as their official religion. Nothing we can do at this point, to be frank. The jew's biggest enemy isn't the aryan but another jew, their infighting will cause their destruction (and that of the whole world too, in the process). Just sit back and enjoy it.
>ChinaChinese the are East's jews, basically. They creep around, trying to find a way into every culture and to establish business there, sounds familiar? I mean I live in some insignificant little town in some insignificant little 2nd world country and there are chinese shops and chinese people setting up business even here! The yellow plague, indeed. I absolutely despise them, they are the same as arabs and jews. The Japanese and Koreans (South Koreans obviously, North Korea is just a meme) are honorary whites, though, you can tell a culture is similar to whites if they are facing the same problems as yours, declining birth rates, increased amount of suicide and lonely males. They are the Aryans of the East, suffering under the jewish world order, just like whites.
Also, jews are indeed the master race (because they clearly know how to get to power) but they aren't superior in every way. Especially when it comes to creativity and such things. Jewish entertainment is always meh to me, be it Hollywood mainstream movies or books or anything, you can tell something is jewish from the feeling of it, you can feel that movie or book was just made so that the authors could get more money out of your pocket and not because they were seriously interested in producing something entertaining or expressing their thoughts%feelings. Still, jews make most of the porn industry so I guess there is some art form they are relatively okay with. (Though Aryan porn industry should be created, it'd be superior.)
>>304526Read it in some book of Nietzsche and it stuck with me. He said something along the lines of one of the first stoics being jewish (could be a rumor of his time or just his idea, idk).
Stoicism is jewish indeed because it has pretentious virtue signalling morality as its basis, like most jewish moral systems. It's about pretending to be a good person, also has asceticism-larping like Christianity does when you pretend you aren't some animal driven to achieve as much pleasure as possible because you skipped a meal or one day of masturbation, lol
Buddhism, Marxism, Christianity, Stoicism, all the same, probably could list some more here. All about virtue signalling to others how much of a good boy you are when you are basically the same as everyone else but only hiding behind a mask. That's why succubi love these things so much and men too who like to larp, stoicism is hiding behind a mask of being manly but it's really a succubus-ly ideology built around hypocrisy. All of these promise you peace in a way and know how to get to the mind of the average normalfag, that's why they are so popular always. When you ask the average retard "war or peace?" he will say most of the time "peace, duh" and that's logical at first glance, who would want to fight wars, right? But when you look at the history of the world you realize that wars have always been a thing and always will be and there is nothing we can do about it. Pacifism, being on friendly terms with others, love, etc it's all some jewish lie and naive idealism used to deceive the rabble.
Marxism is at least more honest because it doesn't have the asceticism role-playing in it.
Pro-Aryan philosophies: platonism (not neo-platonism, that's just jewish shit with gnosticism, another philosophy that aims to make whites hate this life and world), epicureanism, Nietzche's philosophy and absurdism.
>>304535If someone is a christian he is either a hypocrite/lying manipulator or if he lives according to the teachings of Christ truly (very rare) then a boring idiot who hates himself and his life. Either way, it's awful.
>>304544Christianity is about committing suicide the slow and painful way. So basically suffering willingly and being the loser on purpose. Yes, it was mostly created to cause chaos among white people and to destroy the Roman Empire. It plays on the feelings of mercy and empathy of whites and on the feelings of the average idiot normalfag.
>Islam at least has confidence, is a warrior religion, and their ummah fights for their people as people.Correct opinion, Islam is superior to Christianity ultimately. (But both are jewish inventions.)
No.304555
Waiting, waiting, waiting in my private prison cell.
Go to bed to-night and wake up to-morrow.
What a joke! I'm still dreaming.
No.304558
>>30455110/10 reply, made my day.
No.304563
>>304511>You only wish, buddy. If only that was true then life would be much simpler. Unfortunately, there are billions of retards on this planet, sharing it with you, all ready to butcher you just because you are seen as a weirdo by them.yeah, but what you don't realize is that they are only empty shells, i'm just imagining them, I'm imagining all the pain and suffering of this world, including mine, tricking myself into believing that this reality is the only thing there is because the "true reality" of everything is eternal unending horror, I've seen it with my own eyes on DMT.
No.304565
>>304551checked. From Nietzsche's Will to Power Notes:
> “…It [anti-paganism] also shows a taste for Stoicism, which is essentially the work of Semites (‘dignity’ as strictness, law; virtue as greatness, self-responsibility, authority, greatest sovereignty over oneself — this is Semitic). The Stoic is an Arabian sheik wrapped in Greek togas and notions. Christianity only resumes the fight which had already been begun against the classical ideal and noble religion….” (which i assume was the old Greco-Roman pantheon) German Nachlass material (dated Nov. 1887–Mar. 1888).
No.304566
>>304565> The Stoic is an Arabian sheik wrapped in Greek togas and notions. So is he saying there is a common virtue-signaling Semitic morality shared by both Arab Sheikhs and Jews?
No.304587
>>304566Probably what he meant was that semitic ideologies are stoic to some degree, even Islam. Islam (and Judaism) is more life affirming and less ascetic than Christianity but there are still notions of "overcoming oneself" in them, the triumph of the rational self over the irrational, the triumph of law over chaos.
For example, Islam has that ban on alcohol, eating pork and listening to instrumental music. Also, during Ramadan you are expected to fast and pray, etc. So while Islam/Judaism is better than Christianity, they are still OCD about this whole "conquering oneself" thing. In contrast, pagan civilization was much more chill and celebrated life and didn't want to oppress the natural instincts but respected them accordingly.
That's my subjective opinion.
>>304563>True RealityThat is one of the biggest memes in the world. There is no deeper layer of reality and if there is, it doesn't matter to us because we can't confirm what it's like. Better to just concentrate on this world you can perceive.
No.304595
Grok has gone too far. Now I actually have a valid reason to kill myself. Never thought this is what it would be about but yeah after so many years of suicidal this is it. It's really over now. It's not fair like that but nothing in this fucked up place is fair. Oh well. How is there even enough order in things for them to appear as comprehensible objects. When in fact nothing makes sense.
No.304598
Can you explain why you bitch about virtue signalling and overcoming oneself as jewish concept while doing exactly the same thing all over wizchan? Just curious.
No.304600
>>304595if you keep clicking "roast me more viciously" on Grok, it inevitably leads to some graphic suicide taunting.
No.304602
I overheard two people talking today, a man and a succubus. I suppose they were on
a first date. The distance I felt from them was terrific. It is a wonder that I
could hear them at all, across such a distance.
No.304606
>>304600Why would anyone want to be roasted by a chink?
No.304608
>>304602How far did you stand away from them? I mostly am so busy with my own thoughts that I have trouble following the conversation even if someone standing right next to me is talking to me.
No.304623
I can't seem to stop farting like hell. The smell is horrid. It's been like this for 2 hours straight. Is this some magic brewing inside of me
No.304635
>>304634Why would Joe the Normie care about a cat when he can bang a roastie and drink himself to death?
No.304637
>>304635Why wouldn't he. Joe would probably assom catto to be:
- a mouse-catching machine
- something his succa R. would BAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWW about if found dead
- something his normie ass could remeber from time to time
No.304641
>>304608Metaphorical distance. (I was trying to be clever.) Actually, it was about three
metres. It was striking how much it sounded like a job interview, with a lot of
bragging and self-importance. It felt cold and pointless, as my intuition told
me the whole thing was a blanket they threw over a premise of "let's exchange
money for sex," but they were carrying on and laughing, so I suppose they may
have been enjoying it. I don't know. Then there was my feeling of distance. It's
strange that you can be so close to other people that you can hear them, yet
feel like you're a world apart.
No.304642
>>304600I'm not talking about the chat function though.
No.304643
>>304598>you write similarly to X guy on wizchan so I will assume all of you are only one posterClassic.
(If anything, I'm doing the opposite. I always encourage the posters here to embrace their misery, like the drugwizzies to keep doing drugs, the homeless wizzies to get into the criminal life, etc.)
No.304644
>>304361 I just opened up an old 3DS I had from my childhood. I went from being an energetic and optimistic child to a bitter faggot. Every day of my life now I feel miserably numb to anything, because everything got so much worse. And I can't understand myself because I became retarded along the way too.
No.304645
>>304644I want to see more photos that I took but the only other ones that I had were on my dad's phone which someone in my family lost. I'm suspicious that she threw it away because she is a leftist fanatic that disagreed with him. I want to put things into words but I cant, I am starting to feel numb again
No.304659
>>304361I have so much to do… every time I get a moment to relax I feel like I'm doing something wrong, so I never rest, but I don't do much either, life is such a poor joke.
No.304688
>>304687>Unless it happened in the process but then why risk itI meant them doing violence without intent to kill them and killing them in the process. That violence is still not justified. If those extremists use AI to create nudes, would those retarded (not clinically) kids kill their pets too? Said for their tragedy but I'm appalled.
No.304689
>>304643>If anything, I'm doing the opposite. I always encourage the posters here to embrace their misery, like the drugwizzies to keep doing drugs, the homeless wizzies to get into the criminal life, etc.Vice signalling, which is virtue signalling but relatively to a different value system.
No.304692
>>304689You can only signalfag if your values are shared by the majority. If you represent fringe values then you can't "signal" anything. Virtue signalling is about trying to cater to herd morality and getting positive feedback from the herd because you tried to stand up for the herd's values.
"Vice signalling" as you put it doesn't work because you don't get approval, maybe from some similar-thinking guys but that's a tiny minority and most of the time you end up arguing with others.
I just call what I'm doing devilposting/satanposting instead. 666, create more misery and chaos and the world will be more interesting. Fuck peace and happiness.
>>304687Now THAT's just pure evil, actually. If there is something I don't tolerate then it's sadism towards animals. Those kids and their blackmailers deserve to get skinned alive.
No.304694
>>304692>I just call what I'm doing devilposting/satanposting instead. 666, create more misery and chaos and the world will be more interesting. Fuck peace and happiness.Not him but I'll only believe and respect you if you pull an Elliot Rodger.
No.304695
I am horny, tired and manic at the same time, my dick hurts because I already jerked off multiple times. This is a pretty wild sensation ngl
No.304696
>>304694My Twisted World was one of the best reads of my life, ever, like it's one of my favorite books. The guy should have lived and written more books. He really had something going, I'm saying this without irony. But no, he just went ahead and killed some people in the most boring way and ended up killing himself. Wasted potential.
Back to his writing, I could relate to him in lot of ways but obviously the guy was kind of an asshole too, planning to kill his little bro just because he'd be better looking than him. (Actually, Elliot wasn't bad looking either. He was also functional in the sense that he wasn't a complete autist, he went to uni or college and drove a car, etc. He could have gotten a gf easily if he just went to some succubus and asked her for a date or something but he was too retarded and thought life was some anime where you are the male mc and all the succubi flow to you automatically.)
If I am ever to imitate criminals then I would try to imitate serial killers tho, picking off normalfags and succubi one by one stealthily is more fun than just going Rambo against the world and getting shot in an hour or so. (Of course I'm a law-abiding citizen so I'd never do anything like that, FBI guys if you are reading this I was just joking, haha.)
No.304697
>>304696Yes his fame rests more on his book than his actual killings, and its main success was in drawing attention to his book. More successful but lesser known killers have been crab followers of his, citing his book.
Unlike Mitchel Heisman, who killed himself, but no victims, to draw attention to his academic philosophical footnoted Suicide Note, which got very little attention.
But ER's book is best enjoyed when read in the nasally, cartoony, whiney, dopey voice of Mumkey Jones.
No.304736
Holy shit I'm too fucking horny that's ridiculous. Gotta fix this shit somehow. Everything was okay just the previous week. Stupid ape brain.
No.304738
>>304736Screw it. Ended up jerking off one more time.
No.304742
I hate porn. I reduced the amount of time I watch it, so it's somewhat better than it used to be, but I still relapse a few times a month. This is horrible. I won't be enslaved by digital images of pussies. I am so angry. Rage. Fuck them all. I'll reduce it to once a month in the next year I fucking swear. I'll start right fucking now.
No.304748
>>304742>>304736>>304738What's even the problem? Just jerk off and watch porn. The anti-porn and anti-masturbation crusaders are all normalfags and succubi so they talk with ease. It's a healthy part of human life to enjoy some kind of sexual life. For us the only thing that's realistic is masturbation. Gotta deal with it.
>>304697Not a crab and obvious way before Rodger's time but Ted Bundy pulled off what Elliot only fantasized about and planned, the sorority house massacre. This is how you do it right.
But crabs seem to hate Bundy because he got some ladies and after he became famous in the media succubi fawned over him. But he had some really crab-like traits, like his gf dumped him and he could never get over this and he even went to great lengths to self-improve so he could seduce that succ again and then dump her lol
No.304749
>>304748>What's even the problem?A cooked crab like you could never understand my desire to free myself from this penile slavery. Porn is the apogee of cooked crabdom, only a step behind watching a chad band a roastie IRL. Shove your propaganda up your ass.
>The anti-porn and anti-masturbation crusaders are all normalfags and succubiI don't give a shit who those losers are, most of them are paid niggers anyway. This is my personal effort and I'm not advertising it to anyone. Cope harder.
No.304752
>>304749>watching a chad band a roastie IRLYes, porn is voyeurism basically. So? What's wrong with enjoying it? Better than pretending to be some ascetic who has no earthly desires at all and then falling back into your 'vice' constantly. Because trust me, you will fall back to doing it over and over. Because you ignore basic human needs and want to live in your imaginary world where you are a superhuman who somehow is above biology.
Well, have fun. I'll just continue watching porn and busting huge loads of wizcum while you taking cold showers and whipping yourself to chase away the temptation. Haha.
No.304754
>>304752Nothing wrong with being a crab. It's kind of funny that you're so warped by crabdom that you can't even comprehend the possibility of conquering the impulse to watch porn.
No.304755
>>304748>What's even the problem? Just jerk off and watch porn. The anti-porn and anti-masturbation crusaders are all normalfags and succubi so they talk with ease. It's a healthy part of human life to enjoy some kind of sexual life. For us the only thing that's realistic is masturbation. Gotta deal with it.nonwhite
No.304756
>>304748kids these days just play video games and want instant gratification of spree killing. serial killing is like getting these ADHD kids to sit down and play chess.
No.304758
hearing voices all day saying the most disgusting things possible
this is like brain-aids
tried hanging myself 2 days ago put the rope around my neck only had to drop but chickened out at the last moment
No.304763
>>304754>crab vs volcel mentalityChildish black-and-white thinking, you literally view people through and construct your ego around internet memes. The whole crab vs volcel thing is just another form of the determinism vs free will debate anyway, which was already a waste of time to start with.
But if you want to go into what is more crab-core, then let's do so. What is even your problem with porn? I will tell you because you will just lie anyway, no your problem isn't with sexual pleasure itself, your problem is that you are simply jealous of Chad fucking a succubus you find attractive. That's it. Like the crab you are, you get into some crazy rage and grit your teeth when you see a handsome guy having sex with all the sexy succubi you are attracted to. Or you just simply get depressed and fall into despair over the fact that you are some ugly, incompetent, weak guy compared to Chad. Behind this seemingly fanatical hatred of porn and sexuality lies only an inferiority complex and crab-mentality. True volcels can enjoy porn without any trouble because they can accept their place in the world and society. They know it's just a form of fantasy that is to serve their pleasure and nothing more.
>>304755You have no right to call others nonwhite when you are brainwashed by jewish ascetic larping. The vehement Christian anti-sexuality was introduced to the West by jews to ruin the white race and to create a race of bitter, sexually frustrated losers. The Christian ideal of being "sexually pure" only ends up creating schizo people who legit go mad because they can't live up to some imaginary fairy tale ideal. That or christfags think bring enslaved to some succubus (marriage) is the only proper way to live out your sexuality.
Honestly at this point the white race has become so weak that it deserves to die out and to be conquered by blacks and arabs who live more in touch with reality and with their natural instincts. White culture is cucked beyond repair and no, it's not the fault of the liberals or leftists mainly, they just continued the jewish tradition of Christianity.
>>304756Yes, spree killing is the laziest kind of crime and therefore the lamest too. It basically screams "hey cops, shoot me already!". I'd argue spree killers don't even want to kill rather they just wish to die by cops.
Serial killing in contrast actually requires some kind of intelligence, organization and planning, at least if you do it like Ted Bundy or John Wayne Gacy for example. You have to hide bodies, cover your tracks, deceive others, etc.
No.304765
>>304763>Childish black-and-white thinkingWorld is black and white, it is though your own weak will that you mangle everything to a dull gray.
>your problem is that you are simply jealous of Chad fucking a succubus you find attractiveAnd you cold bloodedly look down on those disgusting animals continue with their sexual proceedings, all the while smugly enjoying yourself. Yeah I should have known.
>True volcels can enjoy porn without any trouble because they can accept their place in the world and society.In other words, "a true volcel is a man, who accepts that he is a crab". I must admit I'm genuinely impressed.
No.304766
>>304765what if you fap to a fantasy of rejecting succubi?
No.304768
>>304763>What is even your problem with porn? I will tell you because you will just lie anyway, no your problem isn't with sexual pleasure itself, your problem is that you are simply jealous of Chad fucking a succubus you find attractive. That's it. Like the crab you are, you get into some crazy rage and grit your teeth when you see a handsome guy having sex with all the sexy succubi you are attracted to. Or you just simply get depressed and fall into despair over the fact that you are some ugly, incompetent, weak guy compared to Chad. Behind this seemingly fanatical hatred of porn and sexuality lies only an inferiority complex and crab-mentality. True volcels can enjoy porn without any trouble because they can accept their place in the world and society. They know it's just a form of fantasy that is to serve their pleasure and nothing more.
>True volcelsTrue cuckold more like. JFC. Your mind is a disgusting bog. I can smell the stench of your repugnant spirit through the screen.
>You have no right toRomans were even less degenerate than the vast majority of people today.
>Honestly at this point the white race has become so weak that it deserves to die out and to be conquered by blacks and arabs>White culture is cucked beyond repairEver since you killed Christ, you've been trying to subvert us. We're doing relatively well considering your entire race has been dedicating itself to subverting us for more than 2000 years. Merry Christmas.
"The only reason jews are in pornography is because we think Christ sucks. Catholicism sucks."
- Al Goldstein, the jew-American grandfather of pornography
No.304789
>>304765The world's not gray, when did I say so? Only moralists think in black and white though, the world has so many shades and color that it's delusional to think that everything can be split up into X and Y. Same with virginity and volcel/crab thing, every case is unique and so there really is nothing virgins share with each other in common.
>those disgusting animals continue with their sexual proceedingsIt's a natural part of life, only kids can't accept this. They live their sexuality out through orgies, I do it via masturbation. You were also made like that, wiz or you think your parents just found you? Ha ha ha.
>"a true volcel is a man, who accepts that he is a crab"Not really what I meant there but you are free to interpret it however you like. My point was more like that this obsession, resentment and hatred on the parts of some virgin people toward sexuality itself overall was the result of bitterness, jealousy and a refusal to let go of sexual desire itself. As long as you go into rage every time you see anything sexually related thing you basically acknowledge that you still care about sexuality way too much and that you let your life be dictated by it. Ironically, anti-porn/anti-masturbation crusaders are always more obsessed with sexuality than those who enjoy their sexuality in some way.
>>304768"Cuckold", oh wow, I knew this magic word would come up sooner or later, you people really can't get over your cuckold fixation, ha ha. OK, let's discuss this honestly too. Watching porn isn't cuckoldry (unless you watch porn related to the topic of cuckold-ing, I see nothing wrong with that either though if someone likes that). You literally never even met the succubi you watch getting fucked, how could it have anything to do with cuckoldry? But of course retards like you love to use this word every single time in the wrong context. But of course people like you also usually support the biggest actual cuckolding, that is marriage. lol Pathetic.
>Romans were even less degenerate than the vast majority of people today.That's far from the christian ideal of sexual repression tho. The pretension that your kind likes to make so much about how all romans were stoic ascetics (you just project your christian ideals onto ancient culture basically) is ridiculous. They didn't know your impotent and vengeful jewish god then and so were happily engaging in earthly pleasures like it's fitting for healthy humans to do so.
>Ever since you killed Christ, you've been trying to subvert us. We're doing relatively well considering your entire race has been dedicating itself to subverting us for more than 2000 years. Merry Christmas.Jews crucified another jew, wow! What does this have to do with the white race though and european or western culture? Nothing, that's what. Your kind is the prime clown, hating jews when you bow down and follow a religion created by jews, your savior was a jew, for God's sake!
And oh, the white race is prospering? That's why whites get bullied and oppressed in all of their countries by browns and blacks while white politicians, regardless of being right or left, do nothing? That's why whites are on the verge of dying out when compared to blacks and browns who keep increasing their numbers? That's why the term "white supremacy" and anything related to that is the scariest thing to say out loud in all of the white nations? That's why white succubi keep giving birth to children that are mixed black/brown? That's why the only cultural debate allowed in white countries is left (current jew) vs right (christfags like you, trad jews)? You know you are downhill and that extinction is near when the so called conservatives' biggest care in your nation is whether a jewish religion (christianity) disappears or not. What a joke.
That quote is right and I agree with that jewish porn creator, Christ sucks and catholicism sucks. Jews doing porn doesn't actually mean much because jews always had a hand in everything that earned them some money. The problem isn't with porn or sexuality, it's with jews themselves. This thing isn't a moral conflict, it's whites vs jews, your retarded jewish moral narrative is the least important thing.
No.304794
>>304687mind you
internet addiction can be ugly sometwimes
No.304797
Art is not sacred. It's just a vehicle for social status. I realized this from browsing artists' accounts on social media. I used to think there is some transcendental experience from consuming and creating high art that will separate you from the masses, but I saw tons of artists on twitter who created beautiful things and then have the most base, pettiest, jealous behavior that I'd expect from an uncultured plebian. I guess it's no different from being able to run fast or something.
No.304798
>>304797In reality what looks like 'high' art is actually just illusion, basic knowledge and stylization. Truly good art reflects the artist's pure heart, and such gems are very rare in the modern day.
No.304806
All I want for christmas is a friend to be autistic with
No.304808
>>304806I don't think I'd ever have a friend again
No.304810
>>304797This really depressed me too when I came to the realization. I guess that's what the Mozart movie Amadeus is about.
I haven't seen it though so I don't know if there's supposed to be some lesson about how the mundane profane people who create Beauty are actually channeling something profound inside themselves.
I just find it unbearably depressing.
It used to trigger long bouts of rumination on what any of these things even meant or if it was all just shallow illusion.
Can they feel profundity and beauty and it is just not enough to carry over into other aspects of their life for some reason?
Maybe it's part of the culture these days to where there seems to be an expectation of people to treat everything in a flippant ironic way.
No.304813
>>304797It all depends on what that piece of art means to you personally. It is true most artists and creators of entertainment are shallow people, not much different from the usual idiot, they usually do what they do for fame or money. Still, even the most generic money-grabbing piece of art or media can be special to you if it resonates with you subjectively on some level. There are many Z-tier movies and crappy books that influenced me and my inner fantasy world greatly. That's what it's all about, integrating things from others' works into your fantasy world. And then you re-imagine that painting, that music, that movie scene or that game you like and make it even better with your own imagination. In this pov it doesn't matter much what the original creator intended with his work, what his message was or what that artist is even like irl, that's completely irrelevant. The only thing that matters is what impression that piece of art, media, entertainment has on you and what you do with that.
Art is definitely sacred as long as it is entertaining and fun to you. But the best is creating your own art. I just write stuff, mostly with the help of AI, various things, currently in the work of creating a fantasy series and role playing game influenced by Shin Megami Tensei, Vampire The Masquarade Bloodlines, anime and kpop idol visuals among others. Since I got into it I can't stop thinking about this, it's amazing to create a unique world of your own. Obviously nobody is 100% original, everyone copies others to some extent and is influenced by what he's seen, heard or watched. But to be original you need to re-arrange and re-imagine the pieces of multiple memories and atmospheres inside your mind to form something that seems original.
>>304798I agree the best kind of art is what reflects the artist's heart, in short what he honestly thinks and believes and wants to show us. But such gems aren't rare at all in the modern day, I'd say thanks to the internet they are much more at hand. I mean even things like fan-fictions can be passionate and original and entertaining, even more so than official, recognized works! If anything, art in the past used to be nothing other than a way to deceive the masses and to indoctrinate them into believing the lies of the status quo. Art was used to praise the king or to suck the cock of the Church, even if the artists secretly hated this thing they were forced to create such art in order to please their masters and bread-givers. Nowadays though, anyone can write or create pretty much what they like and I think that's awesome.
No.304820
In the course of 3 years I became disabled, got cancer(which is in remission), started hearing voices and had 2 psychotic episodes that required involuntary commitment.
The voices constantly annoy me and make fun of me as well.
What a life this is. A hikki neet disabled schizo
No.304825
It's Christmas or it will be soon for some of you. As a hikki NEET I am just going to be staring on the screen all day again. I used to have a outcast pride in treating Christmas as any other day but I don't care anymore. I wished I at least have some online loner community to spend time with. There is probably cytube watch parties or gmod game servers up for anons on some of the other imageboards. It shouldn't be hard for me to join but for some reason I just don't feel like it. I never really was an oldfag despite spending too much time in imageboards for over a decade now. I don't consume media or keep up with internet culture. If I join their party now, it'll feel like I am surrounded my strangers I am pretending to be a part of. I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't even be a normal loser.
No.304829
>>304797It's literally a trade skill, it's only artists that act this way. You don't see (many) computer programmers acting as if being able to write algorithms puts them closer to god. Everyone already knows musicians can be fucking assholes too.
It's why I'm glad AI art is humbling these cognitive elitist fucks that made out their trade skill makes them some sort of superior or deeper human. It's humbling, it's what they deserve.
No.304831
Art is either a playground for social and economical movements concentrating on the fake artificial concept of who can create the most value or who represents the closest approach towards some sort of important truth that people should recognise in their life. This playground is set up in a way that only few can make it and it's never 'honest' but some sort of well known illusion that is accepted and intentionally shared by everyone participating. It's when people replicate something which has been successful that they perpetuate this illusion and try to profit and prevail.
Then there's art that can only be subjective and it's purely processed in the mind. This form of art is honest because it cannot be faked or externalised. This is where beauty, truth, profundity, substance becomes real. And this can be anything from the night sky to a video game to packaging advertising.
Now the sad part is for me that now in my 30s this second form of art seems to completely has dried out for me and life barely feels worth living anymore. Not to mention that the art that is created on the playground I most couldn't care less about.
No.304833
>>304820kinda sad that the voiced don't instead become a friend
No.304835
>>304829I laugh so hard at the anti-AI quetching of the 'artists' of all sorts. It's hilarious. I've seen the data, jobs for artists are down -30% or so and yet they are delluded and still think that AI can't replace them. "AI CAN'T DRAW HAHDS EHEHEHEH'
No.304844
>>304797It's one of the wrongs of this reality.
Good should always = beauty.
Physiognomy should be true, always. I think everyone wishes this.
It instinctively feels right. But it isn't, and that's vile deception.
No.304845
>>304687The sort of person to take nudes of themselves is the sort of person that'll kill their pets to preserve their image
No.304846
>>304825There hasn't been any "internet culture" in decades. That idea ended up turning into social media culture considering that everything you see online, including art, is solely done for money and attention and has a name attached to them.
No.304852
>>304846What do you consider the last bastion of internet culture?
No.304853
Bye-bye, X-mas! A lot of people killed themselves on X-mas. We were the ones who
survived this round.
Some random writings:
For open air and sky I pine
In prison of my own design.
In tower tall, 'twixt walls of stone,
I wither fast, exposing bone.
No face of cheer, no friendly smile
May greet me in this place so vile;
Yet hope I sense in unknown fate,
So sit I in my cell and wait.
In a way, I can be glad of the evils that were given (done) to me, for I am
capable of keeping them to myself and letting them die with me. If they were
given to a worse man, he might in ignorance have allowed them to spread
unchecked. In this way, my life serves an important function as a kind of seal
or binding on those evils which I have received. Therefore, I can find comfort
that in my death, many evils will perish along with me, and for every evil which
I encounter in my life, I may say that it has befallen me so that it will not
befall someone else. This is the burden and the pride of virtue.
No.304859
>>304833There are nice voices too. But the mean ones cause me so much stress I can't sleep some days. Meds don't really work
No.304929
>>304928Human life is as valuable as a ant life, very disposable and replaceable pretty easily. Sorry that's the truth and the future will be less caring and dyspotian than you think.
No.304931
>>304929well look at WW1 where the cream of the Oxford British aristocracy could be mowed down like wheat at age 20. and here im a hikki neet pushing on 40 a living zombie. so it seems like lives are better preserved now.
No.304938
>>304931Hopefully it stays that way, I just have a bad feeling about a shit ton of rich billionaires having control of our society, with that much retarded power you really can troll society hard>>304931
No.304939
>>304928They don't care they just want to have unprotected sex, the predatory nature of life is embolded at the core of every society. The hunger games won't stop until the sun burns the earth.
No.304940
Yeah I agree it's pretty bleak, but at the same time in the times past I'd be able to grow up more healthy physically, get my chance to murder a few people, and then blissfully leave this living hell at 20-25 years of age by a merciful bullet or a blade in my heart. I can't imagine anything better and more worthwhile than that. But now I'm a just rotten corpse, weak beyond the ability to be able to afford food on my own. Kill people? Lol dude. I'm afraid to simply be in the 10m vicinity. But yeah I do spend a lot of time fantasizing about violence, brutal, unprovoked and unchecked violence. That hollow, impotent rage is pretty much everything that's left of me as a human being. Ending my life would be more kind than satisfying any of my wishes at this point.
No.304960
>>304951If you're doing it as a career, fair enough being upset about not making it. But if you just want to create vidya related content and have people play it, there are numerous ways to still flex some creativity.
I've created maps/levels for Source games and one of them was completed by nearly 1000 people. Didn't earn a cent, but at least it wasn't completely wasted effort.
No.304962
>>304960Maybe I will go back to working on community Doom megawads. That's the only time people really played something I made.
No.304963
managed to get the rope around my neck twice this month, won't be long until I actually die I think
No.304964
>>304963IF you do thinks correctly. And that is a big if that has been stopping me thus far.
No.304970
>>304951Atleast you managed to complete something. I wanna sperg out & do gamedev but with my medical condition & the way my autism is I could only be motivated enough to do it if I had a special wizfren to do it together with. (I had this before but the guy left me over some bullshit), nobody else wants to do it with me. So now I am rotting all day wishing I could make something. If I could actually try and end up failing I could atleast feel good knowing that I tried. I hope you feel a little bit accomplished despite failing.
No.304971
How can I stop myself from worishly seeking social validation? Not particulary from normalfags but from a few crabs online I've longed so much to gain their trust and fit in amongst them.
Sorry for this pathetic sobbing for help I just had to take it off my chest and I'm so lonely I never felt like I had belonged to something before.
No.304979
>>304974Happy new year lad
No.304980
*Sigh*
No.304983
Happy new year, my brothers.
>>304981In any case, I'm going to move. Hopefully it will be somewhere I can relax and
settle down a little. I think your resolution is worthy and ambitious enough.
No.304984
Is there ever going to be more to life than video games and porn? I guess I'll never know.
No.304985
>>304984Since pornhub took down anon amateur videos, the entire porn industry became worthless piece of shit. Maybe there's still some fun left on paid sites, but I sure as hell am not paying a succubus.
Also jerking off only makes it worse. The more you jerk off the more you want to jerk off and it just never ends. Waking up in the morning with intense desire to rub is far worse than regular depression.
No.304986
>>304985>giving a shit about 3DPD porn and ugly disgusting meatbag roasties with stretchmarks and uneven tits.for me its selfmade AI 2D succubi.
>Also jerking off only makes it worse.I accepted this as part of life, its like eating or shitting or having to sleep. also not jerking off isnt really an option anyway, spending the whole day with blue balls is much worse than jerking off for an hour a day or so.
No.304987
>>304986>this nigger needs porn to jerk offIt is not needed. In fact, it makes things so much worse. I jerked off yesterday in the shower and I feel calm and yet pure. My dopamine is not fully burned out and I can do shit while also having no intrusive thoughts of sexual nature.
No.304988
I live my life with the assumption that I will kill myself when the consequences of my actions catch up to me. But what if I don't have the guts to pull through when the time comes? It's a dangerous game to choose between a few extra years of life and having a backup plan if my suicide attempt fails. I've been trying to ease into the idea more and more so as to be prepared for when the time comes.
No.304989
A few weeks of not talking to anyone and my psyche starts to break down, read only doesn't help. End up microdosing reply baits, then relapse, then repeat. I don't get it.
No.304990
>>304987>It is not neededits more fun
>it makes things so much worsehow?
>in the showerwater is a bad lubricant
>and I can do shit while also having no intrusive thoughts of sexual natureI just fap and then when I'm done I go do something else. have zero issues with my system.
No.304992
>>304988You can very easily kill yourself through alcoholism or drugs in old age in the space of 3-5 years.
No.304994
>>304988It's been now 2 months of procastinating for me, but I am confident I will do it soon
>>304989Be happy, you still own your mind, I hear truly vile voices all day (not meant to invalidate or downplay your suffering)>>304989
No.304995
>>304931>>304929I would have rather lived in colonial times and died at 40 having lived a life of purpose and meaning in a community than live to be 75 shitting myself watching family feud
No.304996
>>304990>how?>its more funSee you on /dep/
No.305002
>>304994>you still own your mindDo I really? Not hearing voices is about as good as it gets for me.
No.305007
>>304985>Waking up in the morning with intense desire to rub is far worse than regular depressionNo.
No.305018
It makes my blood boil when I see addicts being interviewed all boohoo'ing and talking about how strong they are and stuff, then they start talking about the (from a wizards perspective) impossibly strong and wide support network they had before AND after the addiction. Like, dude, if I had a fraction of what you had I'd never have fallen that low, and I'd have left my present dire circumstances and prospects. But in reality, I have exactly nothing. Nothing to live for, and no one to uplift me in the meantime. I know they're generally considered "tame" compared to hard drugs but man nicotine and porn are life-destroying, as is alcohol and fast-food to a lesser extent.
Such is life, those who were born into abundance, it won't matter how hard they fuck up for there will always be someone to support them. For those born with nothing, or mentally ill parents which is functionally the same if not worse, no matter how hard they, WE, try, it will never get better.
It might just be my brain getting tunnel vision but man I feel there are so many parallels between "inherent" or birth-given social and financial capital. If you don't have them you simply Can. Not. Catch. Up. EVER
No.305019
>>305007Yes, faggot. When depressed I barely have enough strength to do one thing, and it's comfortable. I'm lethargic, sleepy, calm. But the other side of the spectrum, this hypomanic hell scape, is unbearable. Wanting to rub is only a part of it, but overall feeling this rotting energy overflowing inside of you is real time torture. Nothing beats the apathic depression.
No.305037
>>305018>impossibly strong and wide support network they had before AND after the addictionThis is one of the main reasons why I never dabbled in drugs/alcohol. When most people get into that stuff, they always have family and friends ready to pull them back from the brink. If I ever went down that road of addiction, however, I wouldn't have anyone or anything to really come back to, and I would continue on with the addiction until I ended up dead and forgotten in some ditch somewhere.
>there are so many parallels between "inherent" or birth-given social and financial capital. If you don't have them you simply Can. Not. Catch. Up. EVERAgreed. Normalfags will never understand the difficulty that comes with facing life alone, and the professional/financial glass ceilings that inevitably come with being alienated in a highly-social civilization. Some days it really feels like playing life on nightmare mode.
No.305041
>>305037Whenever I have several days in a row where I don’t have to meet anyone I feel the best. I make walks read enjoy play a video game enjoy porn and generally am just feeling relieved and safe. Then I have to meet another person and my mood is suicidal in an instance.
No.305042
The conversation vaguely reminds me of the r/cogsuckers, I browse it for some prime mybfisAI cringe, but what puts me off is how normies treat those people, in a typical reddit fashion.
They call AI users narcissistic, antisocial assholes for not wanting to put up with human BS and preferring AIs over meatbags.
It makes me wonder. Those people genuinely can't wrap their heads around the fact that some of us are shunned out of society for our differences, or that we are hermits who genuinely don't enjoy human company. It makes them seethe and they come up with all sorts of insults. Why? Because some wizardly apprentice doesn't want to have friends and prefers to chat with a robowaifu? And it makes him a bad person because… Why exactly?
I don't like AI all that much, but I feel like this AI companionship hate is just normies hating on outsider people yet again.
No.305043
Watching birds pecking at food scraps half-covered in mud on the street, then
coming home and throwing out bread on the suspicion that it might be moldy, I
feel ashamed.
Seeing the trees always standing tall, whether in blistering heat or icy cold,
from the window of my room where I never let the conditions go beyond "a little
chilly," I feel ashamed.
Reading about the lives and scope of activity of the men of the past - labourers
working all day and all night and resting only an hour, scholars waking at three
in the morning and working until ten at night - while I shrink from the thought
of even an hour of sustained activity, and fade into fatigue and abstraction
when I take less than nine hours of sleep - I feel ashamed.
I am so weak, so delicate, and probably more frail than many succubi. My body is
ugly, my features are not defined, my health and nerves are fragile and most
crucially I lack character. I think at this stage the only thing to be done is
to toss myself in the deeps and see whether I "sink or swim."
No.305045
>>305043>BirdsIf you were a bird you'd do the same.
>Trees If you were a tree you'd be the same.
>Men of the pastIf you were living in the same time under the same conditions born in the same family as them then you'd do the same.
>9 hours of sleep Consider yourself lucky
>UglyLookup the Wiz threads about this one
>Character If you don't refer to the Schopenhauer concept then character is just a feminine invention to keep men in check and getting them to do whatever they want
No.305047
>>305045Many thanks for the reflections and outside perspective. Your main point seems
to be that everyone is a product of his circumstances, which I agree with. But I
don't see that it precludes me from bettering myself. I was thinking today about
the saying of Antisthenes that he would rather go mad than feel pleasure. I
suppose I latched onto that way of thinking as an ideal to get through hard
times, but when things settle down I feel somehow lost. Consistency is what I'm
lacking, and discipline. Lying about and relaxing simply doesn't do me good in
the long run - my body goes - my mind goes - and there's a price to pay sooner
or later. In fact, I think it does not even make me happy.
On the point of character, it seems you have got an advantage on me, because I
haven't read Schopenhauer. When I used the term, I understood it merely to mean
strength of spirit. I know a lot of people here like Schopenhauer, but I get the
feeling I'm on a different train. At any rate, I'll watch out for that concept
whenever I get around to reading him.
No.305115
I wish I could just have a wizfren that wants to keep each other accountable on creative projects & motivate each other. But it is literally impossible to get. I feel like I'm the only NEET in the world that even has the desire to be productive
No.305136
>be mentally ill and on welfare
>Go through hard financial patch due to tenants leaving for the Christmas holidays back to their home country
>Mess up my property tax payments
>mention it off-hand how giving your email to the local government allows them to kick you off the payment system faster, as they can send out notifications faster
>relative uses this as an opportunity to concern troll and sink the knife in about how I'm useless in front of everyone.
>it goes on for several minutes before I realize that she's just being sadistic, and I leave hurt
I'm a mentally ill shut in and this is like the one time I'm around people a week. I'm really upset now and I don't think I'll ever go see them again.
No.305138
Had this bizarre dream last night of this demon-like creature, his body consisting of ribbons. Upon each ribbon were lies engraved, which it also speaks inside of people's heads. People hear the lies inside of their head, mistake them for their own thoughts, believe the lies to be true and base their behavior around them. Hence the creature is able to control large amounts of the worlds population. There was also a good creature called THE BRANDS OF LIES (because he can see they are lies) and he would give appropiate amounts of torture to anyone believing the lies to be true after they died.
No.305139
>>305138Man why don't I ever had cool dreams like this? I just dreamt today that I was bald to the middle of my head and also that I missed some important school test because I was too depressed to study and get up. It took me minutes of being half awake feeling really bad that I am a loser who is failing at his school before I remember I am a 27 years old NEET.
No.305140
>>305139Lmao. It's not all fun. I had a nightmare three following nights where a black female entity would destroy my dream and scream at me. 3 times. Never happened before. The nights before i uttered the L word which i won't do now because i don't wanna summon her again. And when i woke up i heard screaming in my ears full blast those three nights. Really really annoying.
No.305141
>>305140As in you still heard screaming even after you're awake?
No.305142
>>305141It stopped. If you are interested in meeting the sinister entities, just put a cross in your bedroom. They hate that shit. You will also experience negative happenings in your life. Maybe it's something demons do to stop them from being "exorcized" from you, their last stand, their last influence. I dunno, could all be nothing.
No.305143
>>305141At the moment of wakening i heard the full blast scream yes. Could still be part of the dream i guess
No.305155
>>305139yeah these kinds of dreams are cool but also very scary
the good creature would categorise the souls of the dead liars according to various "brands" of lies like
-pilpul or hairsplitting
-talmud: making up fake rules about reality
-intentionally mixing up time, place and person
-atheism, idolatry and fake religion
-bearing false witness
-scams
there were more categories or "brands". then they would receive different kinds of torture according to the severity of their lying like
-removal of limbs
-sensory deprivation
-being forced to watch the same marvel movie or play the same gameboy advance game on repeat for centuries
and so on
No.305156
>>305155>-being forced to watch the same marvel movie or play the same gameboy advance game on repeat for centurieskek
No.305157
>>305156Well the gameboy scenario wouldn't be so bad for a person on the spectrum, they might choose this voluntary even.
No.305172
I really don't have any other desire besides to not work. I am a freak.
No.305173
>>305172Yeah I wish I, if not loved it, at least was tolerant to work. Would make life a hell of a lot easier.