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I have given up on hair (for now).
While I learned how to do it, nothing I created really fit the character I am focused on.

Instead I am using layered textures to give him waves.
This will mean that it will be extremely easy to add hats, head accessories, and head bands to the model without worrying about messing with hair clipping through the props and accessories.

Next session will be dedicated to more edits of the cloths textures.
Really rather have a good baseline of outfits I am happy with in vroid before fully rigging the face in blender. Once I make the blender model it will be MUCH harder to make full outfit edits later.

I am looking for ways to only have to do the facial blend shapes once, and just copy and paste it to any new similar models for the same charcter, because the process is SUPER tedious.

But yeah, still making the vtuber model. Progress is being made.
Though holy fuck balls is blender unintuitive to use. Seems like to do anything involves going through 8 layers of drop down menus and 12 different hotkeys.
Sure, if I stick with it, eventually I will remember where everything is, but for now its very slow going.

>>316791
I can feel eye contact tearing down my AT field and causing me to psychically become one with the other person. Feels a bit like a passionate act to which I did not consent or perhaps some manner of biblically accurate angel is probing my grey matter.

>>317456
That's… an extreme way of putting it, but I get what you mean. And it's unequal too - feels like the longer someone looks into my eyes, the more they know about me, while I get nothing about them, like a barrier of mocking contempt.

A couple weeks have passed and only now have I noticed (or noticed for the second time) that my my headphones have a volume regulator on them. Thought since the wire comes without them, then that's it.

Hour 24 of my hopefully at least 72 hours fast. Wew lad, this gets harder as you age, I remembe my last fast was around September and it was so easy I didn't even notice the first 48 hours but I'm fugging dying rn.

I am now a wizard.

>>317472
Congratulations 🎉

>>317472
Happy birthday!

>>317470
you took a huge break from fasting, it's expected, i know from experience, it's all about the body getting used to it.

>>317452
Found this program called Warudo.
It's soooo much better than VseeFace, like holy shit.
I don't see why this program isn't way more popular with vtubers.
Though now it makes me want to create custom props and 3d rooms…
Which means more grinding in blender.
Blender is not fun to learn or use, but it opens up so many possibilities.
That said I wish I was rich enough that I could just pay someone to do the blender stuff for me.

>>317478
Hour 48. Hunger is gone, energy is mostly back but the palpitations are there. Actually I've never done a *succesful* longer fast, I've fasted for up to 7 days before but I'm pretty sure I had issues with electrolytes and refeeding-syndrome like problems. Right now I just drink water, nothing else. That sucks because since I started fasting every now and then from around 2020 I've noticed that even though the hunger is never a problem per se I can feel my electrolyte levels keep getting worse, how do I know? Feeling light-headed, weak muscles, and specially palpitations. It's all so fucking gay because if you try asking a proper doctor or medicine person you get hit with answers like "errrm ackchyually fasting is a fad and is bad for you", then you go ask normal people and you get hit with a bunch of schizophrenic and shodily researched crap from ketolards or people like Cole Robinson who clearly has gifted genetics. Yes I know the Snake Juice recipe, I also know that there are homemade Oral Rehydration Salts, but I just don't trust either of these fuckers. And nofuckingbody cares enough to do some proper real fucking research on the importance of this despite the potential immense benefits from it. I do eat a fucking lot of spinach, milk and salt already so I know it's not inadequate intake, some people just have a natural tendency to have problems with it is my guess.

I guess I'll have to stop a bit early, like 60 hours. I'm not feeling bad tho, maybe it was the 8 cups of coffee I had before starting this fast lmao.

On a semi-related note you know that clear headedness you get when fasting, yeah? well, it just hit me again and again like a truck, the absolute fucking state of my life, typing this in a dying imageboard as if anyone cares, as if there was any good reason for doing this. I shoulnd't be here. Most of us shouldn't for a myriad of reasons but *I* specially shouldn't be here. No, I'm not a normalfag and I'm not a sexhaver. But to be completely honest I've always FUCKING HATED the escapist lifestyle with a passion. Too bad one needs fucking money for basically everything these days, if it were for me I'd be doing psychedelic drugs all day and composing music but I'd also like a social life with like minded individuals with no weeb interests in-between. It's just bad for the soul you know? You can say whatever you want about that but it is female worship in a way, every fucking chinese cartoon worshipping these demons in some way. Why is it that the more "advanced" a civilization becomes the more it pedestalizes females huh? I read years ago that jewish succubi selected specially for sociability traits, and thus the higher a jewish male was on the social hierarchy the higher the chance he would try pushing this retarded female enabling ideas on everyone else. It's so scary when you think about, the most hellish situation for an asocial and generally hateful male to be in. I genuinely don't think males were built for this.

It matters to me, becoming "succesful" I mean, because I need to get my revenge on some people. Once I'm done with that I think I can kiss life goodbye, because apparently the average individual is too fucking stuck up to realize what is actually going on and where the future is heading towards to. You think things are bad now? You think it's going to get better? Ha! you poor ignorant fool.

>>317476
>>317478
Thank you.

>>317481
I totally hate tranime, I'm addressing a serious problem. Anime is also associated with troons, anime is the pipeline to troondom, All you anime poster are crypto troon lovers, Wizard weaboos are an abomination. These anime troons belong with transsexuals, not with us, Anime is extremely troon coded, all troons started from there.

>>317489
every tranny online has an anime avi or uses anime images on imageboard, cope, anime is tranny-coded.

>>317490
There is a huge overlap in autism and male to female transsexualism. If you google it, even the tightly moderated tranny subreddits agree and there is some scientific literature to support it.

Ever wondered why their pre-op faces look so autistic and why they behave like autists? Well, because they are.
And since their chances of having intimacy and sex as a male is below zero, they do what the ultra-autistic brain logically deduces: "I must become femaIe."

Hour 60+ or so, palpitations are gone, energy going down again and the hunger is kicking in, I'm craving pineapple and cantaloupe and tuna so fucking bad. Ugh, if I make it to 72 I think I could easily make it to 84 or more by sleeping. I had the best sleep in months last night by the way.

>>317488
I was thinking mostly of moeshit and anything with the word romance in it. Non-female focused anime and games are fine by me, the problem is it does feel like the former have completely replaced the latter. Oh man and don't get me started on gachashit. What I'm trying to say is fuck succubi and fuck everything that enables them because yes I do think most anime glorifies being female in a way. I think corporations and government have an interest in pushing that perception because females are social animals so fucking much and that basically means an easier to control and mold population.

>>317493
>they do what the ultra-autistic brain logically deduces: "I must become femaIe."
I think there's more going into it but my brain can't explain it so well right now.

>>317498
Forgot to add, unlike last time I'm drinking as little water as possible, because I read a conflicting theory that drinking plain water flushes whatever electrolytes remain in your body. Could be true, that's what I wanted to say at first like you see people having generally positive experiences with fasting as well as dry fasting but the research is not so good yet, I mean there's research on the effects but not on the ideal way to go about it.

Not like anyone reading this would understand or care about that, not saying it in an offensive way either, just venting my thoughts a bit.

>>317499
It removes electrolytes and salt ions but doesn't completely remove them. Though if you do drink a huge, huge amount of water (like 8 liters in one go) you can die, because it will dilute all the electrolytes in your body close to nothing.

>>317500
Makes sense, I've drank under 1lt for the past 2 days, that's what my body felt like drinking, nothing more. I've heard lemon juice with salt helps but I didn't feel a difference when I tried it last time, going to try it again right now, with a spoonful of salt.

>https://www.reddit.com/r/Frugal/comments/1425bm2/can_i_just_put_some_salt_and_lemon_juice_in_my/
>You need some kind of sugar in order to increase absorption in your intestines. There’s these things called sodium-glucose transporters and without adequate sugar, less electrolytes & water are absorbed.
Fucking reddit making me doubt everything I know. But that's what the WHO Oral Rehydration Salt formula says too.

Hour 72, I'll proceed to eat fruit and milk.

>>317502
That's why gatorade has a tiny amount of fructose besides the salt. Hydration in a sustainable manner isn't as simple as just drinking water, especially during intensive activities that last for hours under direct sunlight.

I wish I had a fellow autistic NEET bestfriend to do gamedev together with & we could escape NEETdom together.

>>317510
99% chance they will just let you down, create friction and make it harder for you

>>317510
same

>>317510
My wizfriend I wish too T_T

>>317510
You again.

Made zero progress I am guessing and trying to bait people to do all the work for your lazy ass again.
You have all the time in the world and have done nothing.

I work full time and still carve out the time to learn and practice new hard technical shit(currently learning motion capture animation and a tiny bit of 3d modeling), and still have plenty of time to enjoy my other hobbies.

Involving other people just creates complications and you will never get what you really truly want. For collaboration requires constant compromise.
The main thing holding you back is yourself and your total unwillingness to do hard work for the sake of what you desire. If you can't do what is needed for the sake of your dreams then why would others work for the sake of your dreams?

>>317517
i think the fantasy is that if you had a special wizfren, it would be easier to do the hard work and you would motivate each other and the work would be 100x more rewarding than doing it on your own.

>>317517
How the fuck do you have the energy to do all that, man?

>then why would others work for the sake of your dreams?
Let me ask you something and please answer me honestly, do you have other people in your life? Anything at all? Can be family, very old friends that you see once a year, anything

>>317521
Blood family sacrifice money and effort for their own because it ultimately advances their genetics (even if with a 10-20 year lag).

It's a gamble which member of the family or extended family eventually procreates so the optimal evolutionary strategy is helping all of them when possible with whatever you can manage, because it also propagates your own DNA and ensures its survival.

Helping out a complete stranger who might permaghost you any day is more or less pointless unless you get paid to do so.

>>317521
>How the fuck do you have the energy to do all that, man?

I make sure to get a decent amount of sleep consistently, I get regular exercise, and I enjoy 1-2 cups of tea a day.


>Let me ask you something and please answer me honestly, do you have other people in your life?
Sorta.
I email my mom to keep in touch around once a month. Mostly to let her know I ain't dead. I also talk to my old martial art's teacher around once every 3 months, whenever he has a new thing going wrong with his health. He gets bored being stuck at home so I think he goes through his contact list to find people to listen to him complain (he is really old).
Other than that it's just casual acquaintances that I intentionally maintain a professional distance from.

Why do you ask?
Are you trying to get me banned?

>>317517
>You again.

>Made zero progress I am guessing and trying to bait people to do all the work for your lazy ass again.
????????????????
I literally only ever made 2 other posts on this website & none of them were about gamedev. So IDK what you are talking about

>Involving other people just creates complications and you will never get what you really truly want.
I don't understand this pessimism & I'm not gonna let it hold me back because there's many things to learn from other ppl & even then if you are afraid of creative disagreements, etc. You can just plan ahead to avoid those as much as possible. The other fren in >>317518 is right though about my intentions. Thanks for the advice anyways

>>317536
It's not pessimism, it's realism and experience.

Fact of the matter is if you can't then you aren't. Nobody is coming to do it for you.

The sooner you get that through your thick skull the sooner you will ether commit to putting real work in or leaving dreams to stay dreams.

>>317515
>I feel kinda bad for Lowtax.
Personally I feel more bad in Lowtax's direction than feeling much for him as a specific person. Tbh the only real memory I have of Lowtax himself was the boxing match with Uwe Boll. I'm sure he wrote some really funny things but I liked other authors more and eventually drifted towards using SA just for humorous LPs of partially-translated Japanese eroges or other nonsense that Lowtax had no interest in or contribution towards.

Lowtax's personal deficiencies, problems and the horrible downward spiral he went into after becoming a father and all the really dark sexual shit with his animator friend–that's all stuff that probably means a lot more to people who used to read his stuff or who really enjoyed Shmorky's animations. It's all bad and I feel bad reading it but in the way that you feel bad reading about anyone who does too many drugs, loses too many friends and hits the ejector seat. It also feels kinda dirty if I try to feel too bad for him since, y'know, I felt nothing for him while it was happening despite sometimes reading some bits of gossip while events were unfolding. The dominant feeling I have is more emblematic of how unsustainable and individually fragile the old internet really was. The way it relied on tentpole personalities and individual site administrators who all turned out to be too mentally ill, emotionally weak, or financially insolvent to operate in that capacity and support themselves in life at the same time. This whole internet mess was never really going to work out.

Model is 80% done.

Still have to finish rigging the face.
But I am satisfied with the overall design I think.

>>317574
On second thought might make a alt outfit that is more outdoors/adventurer themed.

Or I can finish this one and then make a alt-model.

>>317574
>>317575

Put shoe on head

>>317576
Going to be real with you, I don't currently know how to do that, and it would take me hours to figure it out.

So no.

>>317577
Are you using Blender?

>>317510
I'm a schizo wizdev with no social media or discord or anything. Haven't even sent an email in years. I can kind of code and draw and know a little bit of blender. I'm probably too weird and paranoid to be of any help to you.

>>317578
Vroid studio mainly.
I am still learning the basics of blender, and have been using it as little as possible. My newbie workflow in blender is painfully slow as I basically have to look up everything as I go.

I have to set more time aside to just grind tutorials until I get the hang of the program.
Which sucks since I also need to grind video editing skills too since it's been ages since I made proper videos.

So much to do and so little time.

Watching TV. "There's a theory that Giant Hadron Collider destroyed five parallel worlds".

Turns out it's surprisingly easy to run LLMs locally on your own machine. I always thought it would be hard but it's actually simpler than most programs to run. I don't have a gpu either and it still runs well.

A lunar eclipse is beginning. Over the next hour the moon will get darker, then it will go red and darker still. Assuming clear skies, this will be visible across the Americas. Wizards in Europe and Africa can see the moon get darker as it sets, those in Australia and parts of Asia will be able to see it dark as it rises hours from now, but only those in the Americas will be able to see it go blood red.

>>317606
Yeah, I messed around with it too a couple months back.
Though once the novelty wore off I kinda stopped using it and now contemplating deleting it since it most take up a ton of space.

>>317608
Unfortunately there was zero visibility in my area due to extremely cloudy weather.

I fap… to 3DPD loli… with onahola sujiman loli puni… lube is GOJO Orange grit… hard cum but ouch cum… satisfied for now, the neighbourhood kids are SAFE for now

>>317625
I wasn't a fan of the fap thread being disbanded but…
You have made me reconsider my previous position on the topic.

Cringe and gross dude.

>>317626
You are female

>>317633
I am 100% male.

You are disgusting.