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 No.323653[Reply]

I'm curious what the covid-19 vaccination rate is like among wizards.

Personally, I was the only one in my immediate and extended family to not get the vaccine or boosters. No doubt influenced by the normie propaganda, I faced a lot of harassement and pressure from my mother.

Knowing my family, I would also probably have been uninvited from family gathering for not having the vaccine but since I stopped seeing them 2 decades ago, it was a moot point.
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 No.323924

>>323921
>naive teenager back then
Are there no wizards on wizchan anymore?

 No.323925

>>323924
One must surely see the writing on the wall, not shagging by 25 is a trajectory. I was sure of my future in highschool/college.

 No.324046

>>323655
How many unvaccinated do you know?

 No.324293

>>324046
in my own circle i know around 5.

 No.324296

>>324293
Online doesn't count.



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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.307761

>>307628
>Did you experience any degradation in visual imagination after SSRIs?

Yes, but it lessened in equal time in keeping with the betterment of all the other problems I was experiencing (sexual dysfunction, anhedonia. etc.).

This “degradation in visual imagination” has a technical name, which is “aphantasia”, meaning the inability to clearly form mental images. Aphantasia seems to be a somewhat common sequela of many classes of psychiatric medication, not just ssris. There’s an entire sub-reddit dedicated to discussing this issue. Here’s one thread in particular addressing the on-set of aphantasia following ssri usage: https://www.reddit.com/r/Aphantasia/comments/khsot8/aphantasia_as_aquired_after_use_of_ssris/

There is no consensus nonpharmacologic approach for treating aphantasia, but generally any class of meditative exercise that works to reground the eidetic library of the mind should be helpful.

Two examples of these exercises would be:

1. image streaming, where with eyes closed you self-narrate the nature of whatever visual forms first come into your mind, whether it’s darkness itself or some lesser shadow of an idea, essaying to restrengthen the link between your imaginative faculties and speech. this is something to be done a few times a week.

2. image journaling, where you try to be as verbally descriptive as possible in recording the features of your daily environment, retraining your brain to meaningfully engage with imagery. also a weekly exercise.

>with no emotions attached


This zombifying effect is peculiar to the use of all serotoninergic drugs. I remember a friend of mine relating to me how blunted and colorless the whole range of his thinking felt when withdrawing from escitalopram. I also experienced something similar. Ssris seem to induce some type of imprecise broad-spectrum brain injury, whose many symptoms require patience and intelligence to resolve. However be mindful not to ever lose confidence that the injury can be undone and cured (which I know is very hard when you are still injured). Colorlessness and emotional blunting, like aphantasia and anPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.308365

Reminder that SSRIs are jewish poison

 No.308378

Thanks for some of the interesting (scary?) posts you wizzies made in this thread. It solidifies the fact I will never EVER take antidepressants or SSRIs no matter how miserable or shitty my life gets.

 No.308554

>>308378
good choice.

 No.308685

>>308378
I think the motive underwriting the push for prescribing SSRI drugs is the same as for the motive behind projects like feminism and vaccines and abortions – fertility suppression for goyim.



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 No.301895[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.308364

>>308249
Mass-produced soda has all sorts of bad things in it, not just aspartame.

 No.308555

>>308364
I get sick from drinking regular soda now whereas say 20 years ago this was never the case. Something has been changed. I've found this is the case with many of the other foods I used to eat without incident but cannot anymore.

 No.308565

>>308555
My doc told me something about pancreas wearing down throughout years and years of eating sweets. Maybe the pancreas in to blame?

Besides, thanks for the reminder to go to the local doc.

 No.308567

>>308565
Update: aw shucks, lost my medical insurance certificate, fffffffffffuuuuuuuuuu–

 No.308684

>>308565
Limiting or outright removing all wheat and sugar is a simple provable means for halting pancreatic damage. No need to see a doctor for that.


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 No.308091[Reply]

What is everyones thoughts on leaving a suicide note? Is it necessary for closure for others? A way to get everything off your chest before you ack? Or just a waste of time?

I have been staring at my .60 cent retirement plan, and am not sure if I would just like to go out and just have everyone guessing. Or if its right to leave a note. Most of my family thinks I am useless or lazy. However they have no introspection on that they are the ones who raised me.
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 No.308239

>>308091
Not sure. i maybe would but it would be short

 No.308283

>>308091
I'm pretty anti-suicide unless you are suffering physically.
I'd count that if you are being forced to work a physical job with a fucked body or homelessness is on the horizon, otherwise just don't do it.

On the note thing, I'd leave a note I think.
Something that absolves them of any responsibility because honestly I don't give a shit if I'm going out anyways.
I'm beyond hating them at my age.

 No.308675

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If I kms, I'm going to leave a note telling my boomer parents to go fuck themselves for having me circumcised.

 No.308678

do you still feel attached to society?
i might leave one just so people aren't confused what to do with my stuff

 No.308682

>>308675
I was also circumcised by my boomer parents and likely have an acquired arrhythmia because of it (I was crying so much). I have no idea how to overcome this. Or why I was subjected to such life-impairing abuse before I was even a day old. I also don't know why I still talk to them – what kind of parents allow something like that to be done to their own newly-born helpless little child? What complete psychosis and lack of respect for a life.



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 No.314827[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Hitler's thread:
Paintings or things related to him or to national socialism.

- Painting of a castle.
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 No.323959

>>323844
> and have lost all interest in politics

extremely silly and foolish.

 No.323972

>>323959
>extremely silly and foolish.
what is even the point. they all want to make everything locked down and unfun anyway

 No.324145

There's just something 'missing' from his work. It just doesn't draw the eye and I'm not enough of an artgroid to put my finger on why. I'm extending grace on the watercolors just being muddy from age and exposure but still.

 No.324178

>>324145
It's actually quite good.

 No.324295

>>324145
didn't some jew buy the original and paint a rainbow over the middle of the canvas?


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 No.323798[Reply]

Opioids could save many lives. Their only problem is how addictive they are, and the only solution to this is to make them available without a prescription. All the problems you see stemming from opioids and opiates are due to this very reason.


Rus ASL
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>>323816
Yes, get "safe" opioids under the counter from the country renowned worldwide for forcing assisted suicide on people who have broken arms.

 No.323818

>>323817
Assisted suicide is a blessing

 No.323819

>>323818
People who want to die don't deserve blessings. They deserve to wallow in their self-pity until they either grow out of it or bite the bullet. They can fuck off and die on their own without demanding others kill them in a way that funnels more tax money in to the pockets of a bunch of faggy doctors. It's gut-wrenching to be reminding that we walk amongst failed humans who are so infantile and weak that they demand big brother give them either feel-good pills to suck down and become too chemically retarded to feel sad, or a feel-good needle to end their life. That's irrelevant in the case of MAiDs though given that the whole program is an organ harvesting business that targets humans who are completely capable of healing back to full capacity.

 No.323960

>>323807
>Opioids are difficult to access even with chronic pain or more serious conditions because of rightoids and their war on drugs

Jews control "big pharma" and the FDA. The jewish Sackler family was the main force behind the so-called "opioid epidemic" to begin with.

 No.324294

>>323960
jews are trying to force suffering goyim into suicide by denying them normal analgesic medication that's been used by humans for thousands of years.



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 No.305927[Reply]

>be me
>bored
>decide to go for a walk
>the group that used to harass me in high school sees me
>they start shouting embarrassing nicknames they gave me loudly, just like they did in HS
I thought I wouldn't need to deal with that anymore, but it seems like I was wrong. Has anyone here ever experienced something similar? I just want to have some peace.
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 No.308669

>>308667
They do it because they think it's funny, I think if they realize how embarrassed I get we can get a deal. I can also turn on my phone's voice recorder before talking to them, just in case.

 No.308676

>>308660
>the best course of action for me in case I see them again will be offering them some money and ask for them to stop, only if it doesn't work I will rec and fight in the law.
terrible ideas, both of them. The first one will only make them bully you harder, extort you, or both. The second idea, going to the police, won't do anything unless you live in a country where they actually care about stuff like that, even if it's illegal chances are the police/judge will tell you to just suck it up.

The only choices left would be to either leave that place, or stand your ground by mocking them back. If they want to get physical with you in response, you should always carry something in your pockets that makes them think twice about approaching you. If you can't escape from being their weirdo might as well become their unpredictable weirdo.

 No.308677

>>305927
rolling

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>>308676
Mocking them back would hardly work, will just show how much I'm seething. I really want to live in another city though, I hope I don't have to deal with all of this again until it finally happens.
>>308677
Checked.

 No.308681

>>308676

recording the harassment (getting documented video evidence of their abuse) and showing it to someone who could do something about it (whether police or family or friends), absolutely is the smartest course of action.



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 No.323485[Reply]

Since the last decade, there have been sporadic threads here on wizchan and elsewhere around the net regarding dead Internet theory. I read these and brushed them off. I was continuing to have a palatable experience through the early 2020s. I used zero social media, so the bot problem, I felt, barely touched me directly. Not my problem; like a fat boomer grilling while a tornado shreds his neighbors backyard. Somehow, I continued to get something out of the net.

In the past three years or so, the bot problem has been compounded by the AI-generated content problem. The images do not bother me, nor do the videos. The music is just irritating. However, the text is a cancer.

Chatgpt and other LLMs have certain tics that puncture through any prompt intended to rectify these stylistic habits. These are well-known and well-mocked: the overuse of the en-dash, the justification of any hackneyed analysis by the "that's not X, that's Y", certain ways of blocking out text, the list goes on. The point is, after a while one sees these patterns, one hears these patterns when a hack on youtube recites a video essay.

It makes a piece of media immediately uninteresting to me. The content is liable to be depthless and generic, soul suckedout and sort of this same-old crap feel. Content generated by LLMs is all over now and spreading because people are human and lazy and also because bots. It's not hard for a midwit to leverage AI to become a video essayist catering to a bunch of people dumber than him. The result of this compounding is that increasingly it's like the bulk of the Internet's content comes from one hallucinating corporate mind laundered through the mouths (or copy-pastes) of a billion meatpuppets. The Internet is turning into a choir singing with the voice of a singular constructed mind.

There are these useless machine-generated webpages polluting search results with complete waste of time procedural websites. And the search engines themselves put an AI-generated answer before any of the traditional spidered results (the first several of which are predatory sponsored results). And of course, we now have armies of bots armed with LLMs as essentially psyop weapons driving siloed communities to utter detachment from reality, with a wider effect of making many of the actual humans still using the net psychologically rabid abusive cunts.

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 No.323498

>>323485
>bots
I wouldn't say so. Normgroids now just love using llm for everything. They don't give a shit about the — and it's not x, it's y, not just x, but y and other telltale signs of ai slop. They are just that dense.

 No.323505

The end of anonymity as a norm is what ruined the Internet. What was a secluded place for autistic fun is now an endless battleground for image and influence.

 No.324276

>>323505
I think it's a demographic issue.
People used to do what you describe when forums only had usernames.
It's just that people that used the internet before the smartphone apocalypse tended to be more reasonable.

 No.324281

I too mostly survived the Web 2.0 takeover and felt mostly unaffected. The slop on the boards is annoying but I'm hoping people get bored of it like most trends. Sora already shut down (thank the stars) and other trends seem to have a short shelf life (remember the Ghibli image generator ripoff that lasted like a week and everyone moved on?).

 No.324292

>>324276
I don't think "reasonable" is the word for it. There was a different consciousness in humanity before 2015/2012/2010 whenever people typically pinpoint this change.



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 No.228930[Reply]

I've frequented this place before but not as much, and I would go on Kohl instead. You've probably heard of it as the "pedo" chan but it's actually a bastion of free speech and the pedos are relegated to their own generals usually. Anyway I'm here to tell you that I'll be getting a helium tank delivered because I think I've reached an impasse in my life. I don't want to get into it since it kind of embarrassing but I made one very very bad decision and I'm afraid my whole livelihood is at stake. It was indirectly created by my father. But it doesn't matter, nevermind it. There are other things that I'm worried about concerning this life like the rise of AI, UFOs (I personally was contacted by one), life being a simulation, etc. Basically everything. It's just alot of things on my mind and also I'm quite a dysgenic human being having autism and irritable bowel syndrome, I don't think I'll be able to sustain myself for long. I also might've had some trauma early in life since I can't remember much of my life either. I know it was inconvenient for most of it, which is probably why I can't remember it. Or maybe, I'm drinking too much and I've lost too many bracrabls as of late. I've been drinking for 9 years straight. I'm currently 30. Don't have any friends or a gf (in fact never had one), I don't chat with my mother or my siblings either. My family divorced early in my life btw.

In truth, wizards, I do want to die. But what prevents me is not knowing what comes after and I have often told this to those on other forums, especially Kohl, but they were not able to alleviate my worries about it very much. Since I feel like I have no choice now I will be trying to go through it when the time comes but I still need to know what comes after. If any of you have any idea please let me know.
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 No.228946

>>228942
>I'm looking for a guarantee of eternal peace, which cannot be found in this world
you'll find peace when you'll die. for now suffer or die earlier

 No.228947

>>228946
>you'll find peace when you'll die

Is this the truth

 No.228950

>>228930
Fun fact.
My first audible memories about this world is being told being a human is hard. I remember replying that I, nevertheless, want to be a human. Thing is, my older sibling loved talking about existence and death, so it could have been that.

 No.228952

>>228947
>Is this the truth
yes

 No.228953

>>228930
Turned 30 in May.
Whichever way I cut it I've been on the passive suicide train for a while now I think, not consciously.
I let my body decay to the point where I'm feeling it's irrecoverable.
Funny how I used to think I could never get back to "default" or zero no matter what efforts I'd put in, then got infinitely worse and now I might just be correct.

I don't know what prevented me from taking action. It's not like I wasn't an absolute outcast at all stages of life so I never really had to care about optics.
I wish I knew why.

I also don't want to die. I'm desperate about not wanting to "not exist" anymore even though most here probably hope for such a fate.
I just can't fathom this long line of experiencing things to stop.
Just thinking on it causes some primal sense of panic like you are approaching some sort of void and your body cuts of your mind before it gets too close.

Anyways… Weird that I don't want to die yet I'm not exactly doing anything about it. At this point I have so many ailments from inaction it's not even funny.
Disc slipping/bulging everywhere in my spine causing agony and my muscles are close to if not already in stages of atrophy causing various weird painful sensations and issues one might not even expect.
Why am I like this…

I had one dream where I was certain I died and it was not fun. No thoughts, no sensation, yet somehow still aware. Aware but unable to process or experience. Contradictory. Painful. Not physically, but in some soul tearing way.
I don't want that again.



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 No.226692[Reply]

I think I've just realized a good reason to live.

I have /wiz/ardchan tier sex drive - as in very low

During my teens/20s I had stress so high I had no morningstaff (/dep/ tier past) - but I missed the part where I was supposed to end up a "crab".

All my /hob/ are computer-related, I don't really need too many "real stuff". In fact, I like "industrial" design or straight-up "rustical" crude design.

I dabble a little in /jp/ culture - as in 1950s-1980s, not just modern anime/games/both combined (Touhou Project) and pre-1885 times of samurai

and I have my own taste in /music/ - I have utilitarian preferences, such as commercial background music.


I think my consciousness would be quite useful as a template to copy and to install into various robot-like machines… y'know, it happens sometimes - it's VERBOTEN, ZAPRESHCHENO, PROHIBITED to make X, but there's an opportunity to get Y and upgrade it to something that's close to X. So hey, have fun cloning [and patching up?] my mind with additional knowledge, should manufacturing a strong AI from scratch und up prohibited.

Since I do not identify with seggs/gossip/"SUCCial lifey" and such, I have less problems than regular urban person all while I do not have the addendum of the beautiful divine nature of a proper hermit/monk/a high-composure person who keeps masking own feelings, not genuinely lacks them.
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 No.227737

>>227727
>Same for exercising, if you are a schizo loner living the ermit life, what the point of stressing your body into some intense exercice instead of just relaxing all day ?

Before giving you a little piece of hope, a little "glimmer" material. I'll remind you something. Here's how things were done back in the day of saint hermits like Seraphim Sarovsky: into the woods, but not the deep "innawoods", grow food, till the soil, but take some quests from locals nearby anyway.

 No.227738



>If civilisation wants to kill you someday for some reason, because you are consuming ressources or idk, its not like you can resist it anyway, even if you are fit, the modern weapons are way too powerful.


Look, there is a funny thing here that feels like a paradox.

Moravec's paradox (see in W.)
Basically, a human's *intuition* is harder for computers that any formal logic.
* Formal logic can be thrown into a CPU which compares lots of data, bit by bit, 0 vs 1
* GPUs mimic small areas of ones brain

Our generation still has some time by *combining* motorics, physical self-care, several areas of intelligence at once (drama, logic, rhethorics, visual calculus, conceptualization) and there's a room for *hunch*, making suggestions and such.


>>227727
Therefore, excercising to be ready to *fit* into some role of a… say:
* watchtower operator,
* a distant railroad station worker guy
* maybe a night shift security guy who spends his day in a dark box of a rented basement (preferrably vented)…
* maybe a night shift conveyor worker (bakery? Newspapers/magazines/books on demand maybe?) who can dodge coworkers' random small talks with little though-disrupting patterns

 No.227749

>>227727

>Media is no stimulation ? How consuming media is less a mental stimulation than learning new language or instrument, for instance ?


Barely if any, how much mental effort do you invest when you play games or watch some tv show compared to learning an instrument or a language? Everything is getting spoonfed, you can do these activities on autopilot, that reward is just the pleasure you feel at that moment and it's nothing productive.

> And another question for you, why someone who live out of society (socially isolated) since many years would be motivated to learn some new skills or knowledge that mostly only have value and uses in a social context, instead of just chilling consuming his favorite piece of media ?


> if you are a schizo loner living the ermit life, what the point of stressing your body into some intense exercice instead of just relaxing all day ?


You can just pick a topic that is less relevant in social contexts then. Instead of learning a new language, go for history, programming, etc.

As for exercising, you do it to have a better quality of life and stay healthy. And there are lots of solitary activities you can do that these exercises help with, such as cycling, hiking, etc. You'll need to build up your stamina for that.

 No.227750

>>227749
>Barely if any, how much mental effort do you invest when you play games or watch some tv show compared to learning an instrument or a language?
Just as much.
>spoonfed
Ever heard of "gamefication" techniques?



>As for exercising, you do it to have a better quality of life and stay healthy. And there are lots of solitary activities you can do that these exercises help with, such as cycling, hiking, etc.

Cycling is safer both as in free from street/park yobs chasing you AND free from "nice weather, huh? HUH!? HE-E-E-EY!?" thought-interrupting people.

>You'll need to build up your stamina for that

Stamina helps with everything, however, building up stamina also demands intuitive understanding of your body - not wrecking your leg joints, for example.

 No.228951

You probably knew this all along: every time a human consciously makes something, it's always a sin. A demagogue can assure you your mind was manifesting a form of this sin or a subtle well-hidden manifestation of some other sin when you were making a decision between several trinkets in a souvenir store. Good luck knowing your ego is your system of balancing between The Seven Sins without telling anyone.


>>227679
Hope you will make a great robot. Or, one that makes life cozy.


>>227726
Stimulation is not really necessary once you're converted from fleshware into software that won't suffer from "use it or lose it" problem of the flesh and its wetware.



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 No.227944[Reply]

wizards, this is a truly important question. how do you tell your mom, or anyone else for that matter, that you are really not interested in whatever female they think you should "befriend"?

i know you're going to troll me, but i still kindly ask you to find a second and think about what could be the *optimal* solution. the solution that doesn't burn bridges, doesn't create bitter enemies and yet lets you maintain the high ground. i know this is not fully achievable, but there gotta be an algorithm or something.

my brain just crashes in such situations. it's like "idk wtf are you're even talking about???" i need help
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 No.228856

>>228500
Oh wow, you know so much about succubi. Sounds like you're… experienced with them, aren't you, Mr. Crabs?

 No.228859

My mom's oddly perceptive and realized my disinterest earlier than I did, though she assumed I was gay. I respect her enough to be truthful. She initially was sad about no grandkids and worried I'd been molested at some point but she's accepted I'm naturally a mental mutant in different ways than her. The older she gets the more she's glad she has a 24/7 quasimodo butler who enjoys 80% of the media she does.
So, if you decide to be truthful, try reframing it along those lines. Emphasize you telling her the truth is you wanting to be honest out of respect for all she's done as a mother. Female relatives are more accepting of family freaks if they think you respect them as equals.

 No.228882

>>228855
>but not to dismiss them, so as to not hurt their feelings
i am no longer sure i care about their feelings what i care about is constructing the most optimal response, the perfect social mask that will allow me to handle normies in the most efficient way possible, so that i get them to fuck off my way with the minimal possible effort
>you simply do not share the same reality in these matters
true enough. it still angers that me i am the one who has to model *their* reality and try to find an optimal response, while they just freely keep harassing me with their petty proposals.
>They do that because they care about you and are concerned
they do that because they are programmed to do so. if they cared about me i wouldn't end up a hobgoblin.
>>228859
that's great i should say.
>Female relatives are more accepting of family freaks if they think you respect them as equals
my experience differs unfortunately. i'm sure the ones i know would trade pity for me being nice to them, but i don't think they would be accepting in any way. i mean they would only grant me the most basic courtesies.

 No.228894

>>227944
my mom's dead so I don't have to worry. It's more about my dad and me being his sole sun. That he's already hooking up with another succubus and insisting I go into therapy and go onto medication to put up with her that directly effects my ability to masturbate just makes me don't give a fuck any more

 No.228948

>>228241
Gesture language varies between nations.

Good luck deciphering a bloke as myself.



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 No.33619[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Has anyone read 5e's fucking Ravenloft?
Just some of the horrid shit in it:
>Strahd's played off as what amounts to Buffy the Vampire Slayer's Angelus levels of edge, literally feels nothing and seemingly has no interests above the usual, though not for the same Bram Stoker's Dracula tier reasons, Literally just wants Tatanya as if a meaningless trophy on his belt
>These dumb faggots made it so that Strahd wants to turn whatsherface not into a vampire bride, or hell, even a true vampire, BUT VAMPIRE SPAWN (You know, sniveling wall crawling nosebleed assface monster vamps?)
>Tatanya's a nigger
>The reincarnation is a nigger
>Strahd's wives are niggers
>Nigger Mayor of a town surrounding the land
>Evil white "everything is fine man"
>Strahd's a Bisexual sodomite degenerate with two male consorts to boot
>Made Barovians "Diverse"
>Made Strahd's conquering of the land sound tyrannical as fuck and less just
>Made it so that Some have Barovians have souls and some don't because of 5e's ravenloft being in a private demiplane, stopping newborn bodies from getting souls, in a piss-poor attempt to mimick the Old demiplanes of dread thing where some residents are literally just NPCs made by the powers, even though this makes no sense to anyone who's had to deal with Gulthias in 3.5 and Ashradorn in the whole Soul font thing with the ban on unborn souls in lore, so these people should be getting souls, because otherwise the demiplane would have to deny all positive energy for this shit to even remotely work
>All done because they're too lazy to redo the demiplanes of dread just like before,
>Strahd now heals for 20 in his fast heal
>Mongrel Men are the results of Racemixing past the half-race stage suffer for it, check their description and it's fucking played off as a good thing despite them being ugly mutants beyond redemption in their racial descriptions, the self-unawareness is real

This is why warhammer roleplay and castle drachenfels will always be superior
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 No.70679

this looks fun

 No.70680

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>>70678
Hello anon!

>About the game, I quit about 5 months ago and it was a mistake. I miss it more than I hated it.

Ah, sorry to hear that. I'm sure you had good reasons to quit after so long.
Have you ever ran your own game, or thought of doing so?

>Happy to know you started your own game. How is it going?

I have stopped running it, mostly due to the reasons I mentioned. My motivation dried up, and at some point it started to feel like a chore.
It lasted long enough, and the players were certainly enjoying it, if I'm going by their near perfect attendance, engagement during play, and long sessions often ending later than reasonable on week nights. It was also the best campaign I ever ran, having perfected my methods from previous ones, and that was good. But I lost the spark eventually, and sooner than I expected too.

>Even if things don't go smoothly here or there, who gives a fuck, right? At least that's how I see it as a player.

That's my issue as a GM, I'm too autistic about running the system rules-as-written. It makes for a rewarding and meaningful experience for the players, and while I'm good at running it this way, it's a lot of work. I could certainly gain from being more flexible, but even as a player, when things are too loose or when I sense the GM is cutting corners, I tend to lose interest because it stops feeling like a game with strict rules I can win or lose at.

Anyway, like yourself, I have been reading stuff again, old gaming magazines from the 80s. The spark is never completely dead.

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>>70680
There wasn't a good reason, it's just that I tend to focus on the negative side of anything I'm doing. I quit because I thought I was going to dedicate myself to reading more books, but of course, in the end, I barely read shit anyways and now I'm outta game. I'll probably find a new group on Roll20.

How long did it take you to call it quits with your campaign? I hope you had fun with it. Maybe it's best to have shortish games that end after some months so people can recharge, instead of turning it into a fucking religion the way me and the guys were doing. The first couple of weeks after I left I truly felt like I had escaped from a cult. And now I want back into the fold. I'm almost inclined to give a hollow laugh.

I prefer strict rules myself, but I'm not dead set on them. I do very strongly prefer no fudging to save the characters, no matter what. You can only have true consequences from your decisions if the world is not conspiring in favor of the PCs.

>>70679
It is fun. It's way better than any video game out there, that's for sure.

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>>70682
>How long did it take you to call it quits with your campaign?
It ran for about 6 months, and when I really got tired of it I gave myself another session to see if my motivation would return (as it often did), but it didn't. And the funny thing is that the campaign was at a point where it could expand to the overworld and such, with lots of opportunities for development, but after each session, I was getting less and less enjoyment from the whole thing.

Now I'm thinking of doing some solo adventure, playing as one of those yeti monsters (>>70680) and dwelling in a dungeon, looking for human encounters to devour their brains and gain their powers.

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>>70685
That's a respectable run. You can get a lot done in six months. Most online games don't last four sessions, let alone several months.

Man I tried solo games but I just can't do it. The wealth of bizarre shit that happens when five nerds get together to play these games just can't be matched by solo play. At least not for me. In many ways solo is the best way to play it because you don't depend on others. I really like that part. It's basically a video game. Pick up and put it down whenever you want. If only I could get into it.

Anyway, I already caved and found another group. We'll be playing through a module this time, about 20 sessions, so about the size of your campaign. Not enough time for me to start hating on rpgs which is good. I can't wait to delve into musty corridors and throw some dice. We start next week. I'll report back.


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 No.308343[Reply]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

Previous: >>307210
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 No.308657

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>>308654
Same, been that way for as long as I can remember. It always lingers in the background as a constant sense of anxiety. It's not a good feeling, I wish I could be one of those people who doesn't fear death. I'll try to become one

 No.308670

I have been publicly humilliated in all spheres of life I tried to thrive.

 No.308672

Misunderstanding at work, coworker thought I was staring at her but I was just zoning out like I always do. She did some crazy harassment dance for the cameras and people nearby and everything. I'm just hoping the cameras back me up as buzz lightyear'd out and I don't get sent to harassment class or something. It's getting me down, lost some sleep. I know it shouldn't, I wasn't in the wrong. I don't need this.

 No.308673

>>308670
I hear you. Been there.

 No.308674

>>308672
It'll be alright. Fired or not. Whether they side with you or not. Hated or forgiven in the end nothing matters.



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 No.306545[Reply]

I am not even that horny, a lot of the days I force my self to do it while not even being in the mood for it, it's just the most effective way for me to cope, masturbation is free, gives you instant pleasure and can burn for you many hours at the time, there are times when i find my self touching myself just so I can use it as a way to distract my self for my anxieties and negative thought loops, as soon as i start touching myself all my anxiety and negative emotions start to dissolve as much as i hate and it hate how much i overdo it, i can't deny it makes getting through my days easier when i can just touch my self for many hours instead of just sitting there being miserable feeling hollow bored to tears and empty or anxious and overthinking at worse, my point here is that I believe the addiction for me is a mere sympotom, something I use to escape my negative feelings and the emptiness of my daily life, thanks for reading my blogpost
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 No.308390

I did no fap for 70 days once but now I realize that was fake it didn't interrupt the addiction. I now genuinely have lost all interest and don't think about it at all and even when stumbling upon random material when browsing the web it doesn't do anything. Not sure if this will go on but it's the first time for almost two decades that I'm not prone to pornographic material. Certainly it's liberating I even play single player video games again.

 No.308596

I was able to escape my porn addiciton by learning meditation and mindfullness.
Mostly it teaches you to observe your cravings with detachment and you will eventually lose interest in porn

 No.308597

yuki

 No.308633

>>306545
I have the opposite problem, I've done it so much my dick doesn't even care anymore, I just ignore the feelings now because it'd be too much effort to make anything happen physically.

 No.308671

>>306545
Reaching full week of edging. Didn't quit fapping entirely but it's a start.



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 No.324033[Reply]

I don't think AI will be around for long, and not for the reason people think.

AI is very old technology, the LLMs utilized are from the 1950s. When computers were first invented they tried using artificial neurons that learnt (the Perceptron). The problem was back then memory and scaling, you could get one node to learn but by the time it went to the next it started to forget. The hardware wasn't there. Because of this AI bots relied on binary tree if/else statements and weren't programmed to learn for decades.

All that happened in the 2010s was that hardware became available to stack LLMs on top of each other. The technology behind AI is veeeeery old, it's a hardware problem. If you're some nerd that reads into tech innovations you'll find the same is true for most inventions. Wood pulp paper wasn't suddenly eureka invented in the 19th century, it's that the steam engine made the processing of wood through mulching possible. The automatic threshing machine wasn't eureka invented, it's that there were dozens of invisible small innovations that fed into it that went unthanked, like the complex mathematic epicycloid calculations that went into the gear functions that some mathematics nerds and clockmakers perfected decades ago.

Anyways, the actual supply chains that are currently feeding the current top of the line GPUs and chips are unsustainable. They're spread across so many countries and it's like a precarious inverted pyramid, each part of the chip fabrication is a monopoly because it's stretching human ingenuity and ability to its absolute limit. And for every part of the input (the lenses, the robotic arms, the chemical acids, the light diodes for the lasers, etc) there's like another 5,000+ companies making bespoke tools for specialists. It's quite literally not cost effective or arguably even possible to scale production further. Like the Concorde and other supersonic jets, the rising costs are not due to economic constraints, but human. The concorde went out of service, and likewise AI will too.

The AI bubble will burst once they try to recuperate costs, once they find out that businesses don't want to pay $100,000 for the slop, they'll get a government bail out. The government will bail it out thinking they're getting a palatinr tier surveillance engine. This will turn out to be a white elephant because the AI data centers built will require replacing every 3 years due to the GPUs burning out, costing hundreds Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.324055

>>324052
African. And they better get smart about it before that continent is just one big building for servers.

 No.324212

The latest nodes of semiconductor manufacturing have escaped monopolisation despite certain attempts to limit production.
This tech isn't going anywhere.
There's also lots of experimental tech beyond EUV.
Worst case nothing beyond EUV becomes cheap enough to mass produce and the eternal spec sheet escalation grinds to a halt.
AI is software and suffers from scamming/bad marketing. Still you can't deny it's at least slowly advancing even if it isn't the revolution it's marketed as.

 No.324214

More like taiwan will fall under chinese control over the next years, the US will not be able to compete and will become like an african nothing country where crime and rioting is a common thing, needless to say it will not be able to fabricate at the level of china

 No.324247

it's funny that AI vibe coding is encouraging sloppy coding that eats more RAM, while simultaneously costing more RAM. Eventually this is going to be like the oil market where it will become economical for new players to enter and undercut everyone. That's probably what China is working on.

I don't think this bubble will burst. The rich will make it go the way of self driving cars, quietly forgotten. They got way too much invested and don't dare admit they made a dumb decision. China doesn't have to win militarily, they just gotta take advantage of this dumb shit to crash our economy.

 No.324277

>>324035
What about China?
The got everything they need on paper.

>>324033
Maybe I'm a retard and missed your point entirely, but again, why would the whole world or AI in general go the way of the dodo?
Consumer grade hardware which is plenty and has a wide market can run insane stuff now.
The whole palantir thing doesn't need as many resources as you seem to think either.

I could see chip making as a whole being hit if a couple big companies get hit in some major war or something.
Idk I'm just some retard anyways. Don't see this happening.
Even if ASML and taiwan as a whole gets obliterated I think a lot of other companies now have the means to produce such hardware.
Maybe not top0.00001% level, but at this point isn't computing already way stronger than we need anyways?

Smart people can just come up with better code, better math etc.
Chinese are already trying to kill USA AI with their own free/open source stuff and they seem to be succeeding in some ways showing people that paying USA companies to hand them all your business data might not be a good value proposition…



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 No.323901[Reply]

No politics or religion in the crawl thread, please.

>Ambient sounds to wash away distraction

https://asoftmurmur.com/
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 No.324211

>>324199
Why, cooking rice is easy why do you need teflon coated crap to cook it

 No.324216

Made my second comment on Viber chat of one TV channel and the host read it aloud. Thought he'd say name and first letter of a surname like sometimes, though now I remember that it wasn't always a case. I used my father's second phone so his name was used. I knew that phone number, e-mail, full name and city won't be mentioned. YouTube creators responding and liking my comments, one literally mentally ill person posting blogs using a few phrases I added to Wikipedia (I think I even undid his edits), now this. Though the mentally ill man doesn't mention my nickname or surname, just the phrase in his hyoergraphia diarrhea of the same shit all over again.

The TV host botched some lines, though he recovered and agreed that compulsory exams in Maths constitutes a form of violence (it's not the only idea of my post, he read everything). I saw it twice on live stream on YouTube too and it's not a local channel. I hid that chat (my posts without talking to anyone, just replies on topic) by a password
For now, I won't remove it from the list of chats. New achievement unlocked. Not that life's worth living, but a nice bonus.

 No.324240

>>324216
I told a loli artist his drawing was nice once and he replied with the Japanese word for "thank you"

 No.324266

People eat way too many proteins, americans eat a lot of meat and eggs every day which is so unhealthy, they don't get better muscles they just ruin their liver and kidneys

 No.324275

>>324266
Obsessed o algo



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 No.228410[Reply]

I've come to terms that this is my life, but she won't accept that I'm no longer that smart quiet kid who had potential to become a doctor or lawyer.
I clearly have the symptoms of https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder#Signs_and_symptoms except the bad ones.
>Psychotic symptoms such as delusions or hallucinations may occur in both manic and depressive episodes; their content and nature are consistent with the person's mood.[4] Approximately 60–75% of people with bipolar I disorder have experienced psychosis.
I'm part of the lucky 25% I guess, but I'm not normal. I tried to adjust so I can function in society, but I'm still a fuck up, and I'm not alone, many people have mental health problems for whatever reason.
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 No.228453

>>228437
yeah I know

 No.228923

Where I live, "bipolar" used to be a meme given how easy it is to self-diagnose if you abuse coffee and "cheap dopamine" computer media

 No.228924

>>228450
Terry must have had absurdly high intelligence to make that entire system by himself. I guess you really need to study it to understand it's meaning

 No.228927

>>228924
Serenity OS is arguably more impressive, but nobody outside of techies talks about Andreas Kling because he's not memeable.

 No.228940

>>228927
it are 2 very different systems with Temple having this religious/schizo themed experience and Serenity being more centered around FreeBSD/Unix like personal computing
I don't think you really can compare the two
also becoming a meme isn't very good for the person himself I imagine



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 No.63562[Reply]

I'm interested in rpgmaker games in general, I feel like there's some gems out there ready to be discovered. digg in! as they say haha
I also like to know the games you've played and your opinions on it.
Don't forget to share some gems, wizards!
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 No.63569

I've played some of the more popular ones
Off the top of my head, I really liked Yume Nikki, OneShot, OMORI, Your Turn to Die, .flow, The sigcorp series and LISA The painful.
I'm midway through Yume 2kki so that'll occupy me for quite a while

 No.63570

>>63569
I'm playing Ruina:fairy tale of forgotten ruins right now. it's enjoyable so far

 No.63571

>>63569
>Off the top of my head
Off

 No.63572

>>63570
Nice, have fun
>>63571
It's on my backlog!

 No.63573

>>63572
did you already play ruina?



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 No.306585[Reply]

I am not in a position to move out and I always have to listen to complaints about everything I do
Its affecting my happiness quite a bit, its a good day when I dont have to interact with anyone for a day
As if I dont know im a failure
The complaining never stops
I was a Neet I got cried to alot for that, now im a student and I still get talks about finding a part time job the same way, despite me getting money
Its so tiresome
I once worked full time for over a year, it was such a bad time to me, I dont have the energy like normies do
The worst part about it all is my mom telling me I should move out if I dont like it
I want to move out very badly, but how can I when the few hundred I get a month is barely enough to live?
Even with a part time job it would not be enough
I dont see the situation changing anytime soon
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 No.308307

>>308305
I felt pain reading this since I use AC all day every day basically I cannot imagine sleeping without it during summer

 No.308308

>>308307
Honestly, it really is quite crazy, not only that it's just while it gets very bearable outside in the night (although not anymore due to urban heat island effect) but the houses made of RCCs radiate heat till the morning, honestly, sleep deprivation is the worst part of it and has cumulative effects like while driving a car or riding a moped or simply the fact that you're not likely to pay attention when crossing the road. I have just come to terms with the fact that most important thing in life is just money, it's now how you look or what not, it's about having money.

I mean you try to sleep at night and you somehow manage to sleep for 2 hours and then you wake up and your entire neck is drenched in sweat and the t-shirt near the neck literally feels like someone poured water on it and no matter which position you sleep in it starts eventually burn your body and things get so bad that even if you do go to AC after it, you still feel incredibly hot and it feels like heat is literally in your bones. And it makes you angry and pissed off which further makes it extremely hard to sleep. Heat really is the biggest killer. I just hope some magic happens and heat goes to 60C wet bulb and I die instantly.

 No.308310

>>308308
It has become extremely difficult to earn a good amount of money in a short period of time, you can't just go around selling stuff and become somehow wealthy everything is saturated including social media and marketing if you're lucky they will just give you an average income, it's like the entire world has been enslaved and accessing wealth is similar to accessing an exclusive legacy of privileged individuals who own real eastate, businesses and positions. Expect every summer to become hotter and southern states to become like desert in the future as we go through the hardest climate crisis the world has ever experienced since ice age.

 No.308311

>>308310
Absolutely, and there is this weird thing that even if you do get a job, the employers act as such that you have to prove your loyalty to them and their test is to give you a wage where you can't live, I mean just to give you an idea, I would be more than happy if I could earn just 200USD a month from the internet. But I mean earning online is honestly a race to the bottom and even there you have to grind and even after that there is no guarantee, but yeah I mean it's actually kind of crazy how heat feels like it feels like my bone is heating up and pricking up the meat around it. Death can't come sooner tbh.

 No.308666

>>308305
>Fuck this world man, I literally only wish I had money and I have tried so much to earn money but to no avail at all.
Honestly, my job was a huge leap of faith to get (a decent job disguised as shit job)

>I cannot wait for this moron to collapse as quickly as possible and the thing is this heat terrifies me because it heats up my laptop and my phone. It is going to kill my electronics prematurely


Honestly… In my experience, its the dust that accumulates in one's laptop, not the just heat.



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 No.302164[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.308591

>>308590
Why not just drink fruit juice it tastes better

 No.308593

>>308590
It's equally accessible here but you might be right that beer is more common in certain countries.

 No.308646

>>308590
Try a sparkling rose wine. It's almost fizzy like a soda, and often has fruity tastes. Also Ciders are a great option to explore more flavors whilst maintaining beer level alcohol. Sadly the multi pack ones are shit, it's the single bottles that are like 5 dollars that taste nice

 No.308658

Alcohol has been driving me rabid over the last couple of months. I don't know why.

 No.308665

>>308658
Alcohol delirium is soon, m8

Avoid quitting cold turkey too.


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