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 No.322915[Reply]

Based God has finally gotten around to killing Fred Brennan, who should never have been born at all to begin with
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 No.323212

>>323191
420 was run by hotwheels?

 No.323213

>>323212
Freddy never *ran* anything. He only ever rolled his wheels over things. 420chan's owner killed himself so Freddy, being a druggy liberal, took over paying for the hosting. Now that he's dead, that niggerhell website will finally die two. A true Christmas miracle.

 No.323214

>>323213
>killed himself
damn whats wrong with imageboards? looks like only m00t and hiro managed to be succesfil and an fulfilling life

 No.323299

>>323178
I didn't twist your words. You said I should go to whatever e-brothel I came from. Since I was from Wizchan, I said that Wizchan is not an e-brothel.
>raport building appeal
Cherry picking, ignoring rest of the arguments, overfixation on whores that live rent-free in your head based on your seething lunacy. (guess)
>pornhub
I already said that I don't support sex for pay. Why should I give them views?

I responded to you to promote views among other lurkers and users. Views against sexual exploitation and its support irl. Convincing rape apologists and other scum was never my intention. It's futile.

 No.323314

>>323214
moot is dead.

He basically disappeared after he went into google.


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 No.306157[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
ice cold edition
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 No.306869

>>306848
Appreciate it. I have the Tao Te Ching and tried reading through it a few times but apart from a few verses I am mostly at a loss what it means or what I'm supposed to do with it. I am also interested in Taoism as I find some of its attitudes towards life peaceful. I have been trying to get into Chen Tai Chi through YouTube videos and it's been … perhaps not fun exactly but an experience. Trying to focus on your breathing and moves made me lose track of time, perhaps akin to something like a flow state but not quite there yet. I wish to be able to move with the grace and focus of those practitioners.

 No.306877

Many people also refuse to acknowledge a decent guy can simply fail despite putting in the effort for years, and then decide the rollercoaster of pointless suffering is not worth being on. You can simply piss off normalcattle by not pretending the ride is really cool, beautiful and fun anymore. "Bright new dawn right around the corner" hope-fags have too shallow an understanding of this world, and youth is something that only is allowed to exist in a certain window of time here; they give no real solutions, just insist you don't stop your own suffering when you're going to die anyways.

 No.306881

>>306877
it's typical human pattern. when you're in a good mood you want everyone else to be so too, when in bad mood, again the same thing. normies convinced themselves life's cool and shit so they get pissed off when you disagree. anyway i'm sure you suffer the same malady it's extremely hard to avoid for some reason

 No.306882

>>306848
>>306869
>Tao Te Ching
It's shrouded in mystery by nature. The existence of many differing translations and an even greater variety of interpretations on top of the fact that the book is likely an anthology makes it nigh impossible to understand with just raw reading. You might find this website to be of some use: https://www.taoistic.com/taoteching-laotzu/taoteching-01.htm but remember that inevitably it's still just another interpretation (although a comprehensive and analytical one at that). The best course of action would be to first learn about Taoism through a different source like >>306848 suggested and then study a variety of essays and translations of the text itself. Of course, knowledge of Chinese would help but that's a luxury few can afford.

 No.306939

>tfw mentalcel so can't join the military (not amerikike), get a master's degree for free, rise rank as a soldier, and serve as a revolutionary leader in service of my people in my later years

Kill me


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 No.306923[Reply]

I feel an immense disgust with the fact that I inhabit a human body. It manifests most acutely when I must face a physical process in action. Examples being; having to urinate or defecate, or having an erection. Defecating is particularly bad. I become aware that I am a worthless ape. I feel suicidal when I must wipe shit from my anus. Maybe you laugh at reading such a sentence, but it is truly horrible. I feel particularly demoralised and depleted when I realise that normalfags get to experience reality free from this burden. They do not fixate on the weight of their body, the terror of possessing a spine. They are not reminded that they are nothing but an animated flesh puppet when they face sexual arousal. It all feels like a cruel joke.

 No.306924

Unintelligent evolution put consciousness into a flesh body, normalfags don't feel this burden because they are like bugs they are fit to the evolutionary machinery.

 No.306925

I can't relate cuz I really like pooping.

I do hate having a physical body though, but mostly because meatspace is so cumbersome. Having to move around, all the tiny complexities of real life that make things a hassle, tripping, hitting myself against objects in my house, things falling out of my hand, spilling drinks… I also hate how vulnerable my body is, one poke with a sharp object and I'm probably dead, all the gooey stuff just leaks out.

I would much prefer to be a glowing orb of light or some shit, no physical body, just pure MIND. Maybe soon, after I finally rope.

 No.306938

I am incompatible with living on a very deep and fundamental level. I am 30 and I feel like human bodies after this burst of youth and vitality in the teens and twenties are just slow rotting flesh machines which aren't worth living in. To maintain this rotting machine you must waste away at some job for most of your existence. Why should I bother if I can just hang myself ?
You receive this psychological hostility from other humans with lies, gaslighting, petty torment etc. Why shouldn't I just leave ? Finally there is everyday life, everything is dirty, noisy, unpleasant. I can't say I'm unhappy that I am hanging myself.


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 No.306449[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

What is the average wizard's relationship with religion like? No religious person has ever been able to give me a good argument for why God, if he is out there, is not the most maximally evil being in the universe simply by the virtue of creating suffering when he could have chosen not to. Saying "suffering builds character" and derivatives of is just a manifestation of their stockholm syndrome for this vile entity

>I form the light, and create darkness. I make peace, and create evil. I YHWH do all these things - Isaiah 45:7
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 No.306929

>>306927
>I can’t choose what to believe in
brain automatically believes whatever has the least perceived contradictions.

 No.306930

>>306928
>I don't believe you are your physical body
try touching your chinchin

 No.306933

>>306449
US, born Protty. got interested in Buddhism (Zen) as a teen but never actually became a full-fledged practitioner, got back into some weird fundamentalist bible-only version of Protestantism in my mid-twenties. Got baptized/chrismated into Eastern Orthodox Christianity in my early thirties but can't deal with the constant self-imposed mental anguish of having to fret over every single thought and beg "God" to tell me what I need to tell a priest I've done wrong this week so I can get "absolved" Still early thirties, but now I think I largely agree with certain tenets of Zen. Namely what happens, or rather doesn't, when we shed this mortal coil. just like the wave is water, and the water is the wave, one wave manifests and crashes, then another wave manifests. I may not subscribe to the religiosity of Buddhism insofar as the tales about the Pure Lands, but rather like what they aspire to-but I can appreciate the practice of mindfulness

 No.306935

>>306886
"Atheism" isn't an idealogy, it's literally just not being Theist- the more I learn the more I understand Theists who are not being purposefully disingenuous about what Atheism is and isn't are really just brainwashed and ignorant.

 No.306937

>>306935
It's obvious what I meant. The word "atheism" can refer to this "denomination" which commonly includes evolution, a couple of specific arguments which get repeated over and over again and certain figures like Richard Dawkins. So basically you are full of shit


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 No.306131[Reply]

Never look for psychiatric help, expecially as an addict. It was the worst mistake I ever made in my life. I got addicted to ultra high doses of xanax 8-10x over maximum, and when I tried to get help, instead of tapering me which is what they do in every civilized country, they took me from 30 to 0 in a day. I had stroke symptoms, 60/40 bpm, i was teleporting in real life, i couldnt talk think or know what day it is, function or do anything. I spent 3 days falling on my knees under the doctor's office in the psychiatric hospital and got treated like an annoying fly. I wanted to call an ambulance to take me out of there, i called an ambulance on myself because I thought I had a stroke when I ran away out of my drugs, but nobody ever checked nor was interested in anything. My doctor was an ukrainian piece of shit that treated me like shit under his shoe. After 12 days in psychiatric prison i barely escaped by pretending to get better, and spent 3 weeks in a psychosis despite taking antipsychotics and antiseizure meds, i felt 24/7 heart attack, stroke and epilepsy symptoms. I also lost feeling in my body, i had visual, auditory, time perception problems, became and invalid that couldnt move or pick up a paper, eat, swallow, feeel thirst, pee, lost ability to control my muscles. If i took a bath i would swallow all the water and not feel it, i hit my head on everything and didnt even feel it, i could punch walls and not feel if i broke my bones. When I went to a private psychiatrist to get help, she saw me and said she doesn't deal with this and kicked me out the door after 30 seconds without letting me explain a single thing. I lost my mind, it has been completely destroyed and ruined to the point there's nothing left. After 5 weeks of this treatment and choking on water I thought i'll die anyway so I went back to my drugs and after taking 1 pill I got a better remission and improvement than over a month of their psychiatric treatment. I could actually feel things and i wanted to cry from happiness. But it was all temporary, and in the end i went back to my old habits, but now, they ruined it so that I get every single side effect from the drug that I never had before despite taking the same amount for a year straight. My physical health has also completely collapsed, I was unable to take a bath for a month, shave, eat, think, time moved 100x times slower and I experienced hell on earth worse than being torturted alive with worst cia methods. Now I have nothiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.306245

>>306132
not even the 2000th worth story if you browse benzo withdrawal forums

That he's still alive to post on the net is a miracle, you don't cold turkey people taking high dose benzos.

 No.306248

>>306245
Completely agreed.
But what do you expect from modern doctors trained in the (((Rockefeller))) model of medicine? They're vicious fucking brainwashed idiots generally without any sympathy for the "patients" they're tasked with seeing.

>My doctor was an ukrainian piece
Are you sure that "ukrainian" doctor wasn't a kike?

Psychiatry in particular is a nasty jewish fraud whose tricks ensnare well-meaning but naive people (ie, they're unfamiliar with the pharmacologic grade of the drugs they use, they're unfamiliar with the consequences both immediate and chronic of these drugs, they don't understand that most psychiatrists are conditioned communistic stewards of the state without any real curative intent in their thoughts, etc.).

>I want to murder people that did this to me but the only person I can kill is myself.

Definitely do not do this. Regain yourself to a calmer state of mind and perceive that this would be a wrong choice.

>My physical health has also completely collapsed, I was unable to take a bath for a month, shave, eat, think, time moved 100x times slower and I experienced hell on earth worse than being torturted alive with worst cia methods.

Are you familiar with akathisia? This is a common sequela for those that taper too quickly off of tranquilizers/anti-anxiety meds like benzodiazepines. It can be bettered with time and nutrition. Do not despair. Your brain may be able to restored to its original healthy condition. I've personally had success with recovering from ssri usage (mostly through time, taking of anti-serotoninergic agents, better diet, exercise). I trust you can have the same.

 No.306250

>>306131
Your too far gone. any solution that we could propose to you will be ridiculous.

 No.306381

I went through Xanax addiction and quitting cold turkey all at once. I think that was 10yrs ago now. It's the worst thing I ever experienced in my life and nothing else even comes close. Hell on earth is the correct description. I experienced most of what you described here, although not everything. I remember the teleporting, the lost memory, the blanks in my memory to where I had no idea what I did or where i had been for entire days at a time. I remember being so scared too scared to move to do anything.

I felt like a tiny mouse in a wide open field with no cover and a hawk flying overhead, knowing it was going to swoop down and devour me. The fear was the worst part, fear I would have a seizure fear I would die, fear that escalated to the extent of being pure biological, neurochemical dread. I lived in a public facility at that time surrounded by criminals. I was too scared to eat or even urinate because I'd have to go to the public shared bathroom. I burned myself severely during that time on the arms intentionally, they're still visible now, 10yrs later. I got through it in the end. It's very dangerous to quit cold turkey though, it can cause permanent brain damage and effects that don't ever go away. Basically the shock to your body is so intense it just breaks you. This is being studied and documented now, after they reviewed several cases of people who even long after physical withdrawal symptoms should have subsided, were still suffering greatly. The worst nightmare is that in some cases even resuming benzodiazepine use did not help them anymore. The damage was already done.

I did experience permanent changes but thankfully nothing so debilitating. I wish I had hope to offer you. But it'd be a lie. All I can say is I sympathize strongly with you, if you're still around.

 No.306936

This horrifies me, I have had chronic pain since birth due to sever sleep apnea since birth (was never checked for it even though I have both asthma and pectus excavatum). I have been tortured every single night since I was a kid with constant choking during sleep (AHI = 70), which has ruined my entire life, literally everything, but the worst is the constant pain. Even pain killers stopped working over time.

Even after sleep apnea treatment at 30 years old (too late), I still have constant pain and the only thing that has helped me so far is benzos, I have taken 1.5 mg bromazolam every night for a year now and pain has been mangeable.

I have tried stopping for a few days but I am then simply unable to sleep for 3 days straight, and the pain comes back just like it was before, no improvement at all, literally torture

I do notice it losing its effectiveness. I would have never tried nenzos at 20, but at 30+ my life is over anyway. I think I will just gradually increase my dose (hopefully only + 0.5 mg every year will be enough).

At some point I will just have to kill myself.


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 No.319536[Reply]

I suffer from social anxiety IRL but I also feel little need to socialize.

I've always had 0 friends on Steam. Never been on Discord.
I always avoid joining guilds in MMOs. I turn down friend requests in other games. I have no online friends/contacts.

The only downside is that I am missing out on multiplayer games that require team coordination but I just can't stomach having to speak on a mic.
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 No.323260

>>319536
I don't think you are missing much considering how petty and political some online communities are. If I can't enjoy the game while people exchange bantz then I have no interest in socializing.

 No.323309

It helps to avoid any media that involves friendships. Anime and kids cartoons are notorious for this sort of propaganda. It affects anyone even if they're aware of it. Single player games that aren't story focused generally don't have that issue.

 No.323310

>>323309
I read a post a while ago that called anime "friendslop" kek

 No.323312

>>323246
same

 No.323313

I also have empty steam friends list essentially. It's probably social ignorance for me more than anxiety. I observe discord groups for guilds in mmos and there's all this madness going on and these cliques and established people with their strange hierarchies led by histrionic types. I think is it really worth the effort to try to relate to this alien soup? So far it has not been. I have been my whole life constantly disappointed by people.


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 No.68877[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

All you need to begin drawing is a pencil and some paper

Feel free to post any drawings of yours in this thread. Illustration, doodle, traditional, digital - anything goes. Discussion on skillbuilding techniques and fair critique of other wizards' work is welcome.

Videos:

Tyler Edlin - https://www.youtube.com/user/TylerE2284
Proko - https://www.youtube.com/user/ProkoTV
Sinix - https://www.youtube.com/user/sinixdesign
Scott Robertson - https://www.youtube.com/user/scottrobertsondesign
Matt Kohr (CtrlPaint) - https://www.ctrlpaint.com/library
Aaron Blaise - https://www.youtube.com/user/AaronBlaiseArt
Vilpu (Anatomy) - https://mega.nz/folder/9Pw1lYaS#Me7LSwlSg59lNGmkj9tt4w/folder/lPoXEYxS

Poses/Gestures
QuickPoses -https://www.quickposes.com/en
PoseSpace -https://www.posespace.com/posetool/default.aspx
https://x6ud.github.io/#/ Animal Head Reference Finder
https://anatomy360.info/anatomy-scan-reference-dump/

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 No.70460

>>70459
>models in CSP
what does that stand for?

 No.70461

>>70458
also how hard is too draw without the wrist?

 No.70462

>>70460
Clip Studio Paint

 No.70463

>>70458
The tip about drawing with your whole arm really helped me a lot
Like I always wonder how people drew perfect circles but I couldn't then I finally realize the problem it was that simple….I always drew with wrists not with my whole arms!

But seriously thank you man!

I started to draw because of a incident where someone drew some fucked up stuff of fictional character I really love and care about and I want to sleep knowing I can draw and do better than that piece of shit and thanks to you! I got closer to my goal of making something amazing and I will make this year at all cost!

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 No.219448[Reply]

After hitting 30 this feeling has been eating me and I don't know how to resolve it. I started watching different youtube channels and it made me realize how much time I wasted staring at a screen when I could be experiencing the world and creating things. The 21st century offers so many possibilities and yet all I did was sit at home play video games and read inane garbage online. Now I always had depression, anxiety, social autism, adhd, average iq etc. that lead to me being an underachiever but nowadays it feels like I was just the right self-help book and meds/supplement combination and some effort away from solving all these issues.

I could start now but after hitting 30 I feel this sense of hopelessness after experiencing aging. I felt like shit in my 20s but now I realize I actually felt good. Now I tire easily and years of sitting made my body feel rusty. I feel like the youth shield is gone and I can't take the future for granted anymore and expect it to make it even to 40. Every time I experience a new pain or sensation I imagine it to be the start of something serious.

How do you deal with this? It feels like modern technology amplifies winners so if you are a loser it feels extra bad because there is such a big contrast between living with your parents and riding the bus and eating mac and cheese and living in a multi-million dollar mansion with a beautiful view and driving a ferrari and eating at 3 star restauraunts.
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 No.228051

As someone who recently been diagnosed with what might be a terminal, possible life threatening disorder, I don't have those thoughts anymore. Knowing that the end might be around the corner gave me a boost, so to speak, I just want to get something done and see if it will matter. I got goals, I got priorities, I am already getting things done. It's not the end of the world, you can still start living even at 30. Doubt I will live to 50, let alone 60+ so I certainly don't have much of a choice.

 No.228052

Every day since I was a young boy I stare at the screen all the time, I even quit school to keep doing that, according to normalfags I wasted my entire life, but I feel like I did what I enjoyed the most

So I regret nothing

 No.228064

It helps me to cope by thinking that I never had opportunities or potential. I was destined to fail and there was nothing I could do to prevent this outcome. Letting go of high hopes is liberating.

 No.228070

>>219448
>The 21st century offers so many possibilities

Not for you because

>I always had depression, anxiety, social autism, adhd, average iq etc.

Get off the internet and figure out how to make money in the least painful way tolerable. Then start getting as mentally and physically healthy as you can.

I wish it was that easy otherwise I'd not be reading your post nor posting here. But that's what we've got to do. Best of luck.

 No.228204

Lol a wasted life. The society wants you to be a productive circuit in the circuit board. Look at this society of murder and injustice. It is a hateful entity to be disregarded in terms of motivation. You see wasted or failure only when relating yourself to the entity that imprisons you. Winners losers? Treadmill bait.

When you die your universe is obliterated so do what makes you happy not what makes you a "winner" in the eyes of a society of conmen.


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 No.306888[Reply]

Hey mages, wizards, posting this here so some may see it instead of just throwing it in a doc somewhere.

I love life. For a period of about two to three years I was empty and melancholic with constant suicidal thoughts. But now I can't hate the world, the struggle of life moves my soul; the clouds, the sea, the stars, flowers, the wind, it all is so amazing to witness. Most of all I love people, for what they can be, seeing the rare phenomenon of a genuine person, be it in person, through their words, or through something they made, tugs at me like nothing else. And it's not like my life has materially gotten much better, I got out of my nagging bitch aunts house but otherwise not much has changed.
But this transformation has only made everything hurt more, going out amongst the normgroids deeply upsets me because they squander themselves for nothing. But even then I cant bring myself to hate how much it hurts.
If you're reading this mage it'd mean a lot to see you chase your dreams, I don't believe in that crap about humans only being able to care about a certain number of people.
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 No.306919

>>306918
ah i see. well i should've anticipated that you have special needs, so i will help you out. this board, dear mister, is called /dep/, which is a shorthand for Depression. in the english language Depression means, in simple terms, that you're not feeling well. so please kindly go to /lounge/ and be happy there for as long as you wish.

 No.306921

>>306917
I agree with you I highly doubt they're happy either, however is not just trolling some of them truly believe this stuff, we have unironical pro-lifers on wizchan who follow the american religious ideology of magatards.

 No.306922

>>306921
>The only people who aren't chronically depressed and want to bring others down are MAGA
Love it

 No.306931

I don't think this board is for threads like these

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 No.223091[Reply]

Hi I'm a wizard with agoraphobia, semi neet, I just study English.
Psychology don't help me, parents are sick of me, I'm not depressed because I learned to deal with this thanks to Christianity.
I have an strong regression and I am very exhaust.
I thinking in use mental health drugs, but the problem is I'm very addictive person, I don't want any addiction in my life. I hate psychology, i don't have any another psychological problem, just agoraphobia.
I can accept all bad things and manage it, but agoraphobia is hard.
I really don't know what to do. I'm using porn for deal with this, i know is a sin but…
I'm not addicted to porn, I just want to beat agoraphobia.
Help Wizards, psychologist don't help me.
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>>223093
to be said with the 4 noble truths perhaps?

 No.228175

>succubus in the op pic
Wizchan 2026

 No.228178

>>223091
"Psychology" and "psychologists" will never help you. They will only hurt you. Why do you think they're "the rapists"? Because of what they do to your mind. Don't be dumb

 No.228180

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Find the root problem.
The people themselves are probably not the problem, judgement might be the cause. Try to discover what the root cause is. For me it is the fear of others exploiting mistakes i make.

I found the root cause by writing down my thoughts. It helped me focus on my thoughts and easier process, and get back to them later. I write about everyday experiences, annoyances, things that make me happy etc. Almost everything significant is written into a Joplin document with timestamps on my phone.

After writing down what makes me uncomfortable or happy i look for ways to enjoy the joys without the fears crashing down on me. I like sharing my thoughts but fear the judgement I may face if i express myself too carelessly. That is why i am now trying to socialize online, games specifically, because there i can share my thoughts but not have to worry about judgement (since i mostly interact with randos). Enjoying what makes me happy through alternative methods i can avoid triggering my fears and through it i also program my brain to stop associating what i like (socializing) with what i fear (judgement). The root problem for me was not RECIEVING judgement, i handle it quite well, but the POTENTIAL for judgement therefore i do not even have to avoid judgement, i just have to stop fearing judgement or disassociate judgement from what i want to do.

You could try to follow the same methodology. I can not yet say that i have overcome my anxiety but i no longer fear the idea of talking to others like i used to. I still worry about judgement i may face but i don't directly pair that with people and socializing. Writing was a huge help for me. I probably have some mental disorder, my thoughts always feel like short bursts that will always disappear before i can pick up the important bits. Writing them down lets me catch the important things and focus on them.

It was not a quick process but I've changed so much and learned so much about myself after i started writing 6 months ago.
You'll get there and don't avoid the things you love.

 No.228202

>>228175
newgens smdfh


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 No.228060[Reply]

I'm in my 20s and I really want to change, not for society, for me and my fathers.
I see some NEETs in their 30s in this place, exists NEETs in their 40s?
I don't want to be a NEET for more time, but I want to know who is oldest NEET in Wizchan
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 No.228132

How do I get autismbux? Not OP. Sorry if wrong thread.

 No.228134

As long as you can generate sufficient passive income.

 No.228135

>>228132
hospitalizations

 No.228136

>>228132
i had a psychotic break down and they diagnosed me as schizophrenic, but to tell you the truth i think it was a one time deal. but no one believes me. they make me take anti psychotics, and thank god there is no major side effects. buti also get SSI now

pretty sure you have to be mentally or physically ill to get the bux

 No.228201

You can be a NEET at any age as long as you're (N)ot in (E)ducation, (E)mployment or (T)raining.
You can only be a Wizard if you're still a virgin past your thirtieth birthday.

t.lvl 33 mage


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 No.228184[Reply]

how often do you beat of? i have to force myself to do it a couple of times a week im not fat but not muscular either no way that the testosterone dips this fast? im 30 i never feel hornyness anylonger

 No.228200

once a day, I'm in my thirties as well I can't manage any more than that tbh


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 No.303736[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.306427

>>306153
yeah I've heard about one story about a cop being denied promotion for "being too high iq"
the hierarchy isn't based on merit and they like to shove it in your face

 No.306516

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when you have to hear that coworker who bitches about never having money babble on about the vacation they took

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Dishwasher faggot from a few threads back here if anyone remembers me.

I got a job at a sheet metal-powder coating business, so far it's alright but I'm still so disgusted at working full time; it's suicidal inducing to just spend 40 hours a week staring at the decaying walls under the flouresent lights.


The pay's good, and the co-workers are older (youngest is 30) white guys; I just can't help but feel like I'm wasting my life and I have nothing to live for, like being in a waiting room for years or something.


Just a slow grinding decline into madness and bitterness.

Pic rel is a pic I took at work.

 No.306538

>>305095
the music they play alone…

 No.306932

my life exclusively consists of doing some odd jobs then poorneeting for as long as i can. this is pretty soulless to be honest


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 No.228142[Reply]

im 18 and the sex is a idea that make me feel disgusting. I don´t have relation with succubus. I think that the sex is a form of engage with the word.
And while more i think i can see that my life is a fucking disaster for be thinking about have sex and be with a succubus all day.
But i dont want humilieate me and be some desesperated. also im ugly shitskin and low iq and social skills (coomer to)
in deep of my heart i believe that lose my virginity will make me happy, that a succubus listen my problems, and scare me the idea that while more times goes on the succubi have more experience and i stuck in back.
I know a contradiction. My point is that i wanna be alone and be happy alone.i dont wanna be part of that twisted system and circle what life is, but my wish chase me.
What recomendation give me? above all the wizard more olders. I think go to a psychiathrist to give me pills and practice some sport, but i dont wanna go to gym because i hate thats machines touch by all world and are many sucubus dresses like whore.
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 No.228173

>>228142
Anons. Do you remember the pdf that posted in here called *how to be alone" by a middle age? repost please

 No.228174

>>228173
*middle age wizard

 No.228176

>>228164
>overlap
reminder that most lainchanners are edgelord normies/failed normies and don't belong here.

 No.228183

Have zero expectations

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>>228148
>maybe the physical distance from the sickness of society could be the answer but idk, never tried it.
I have, it's a temporary solution in some ways and just creates new problems in others. In a human body there's no escape from dependencies, it's part of the soul-trap; the only change out innawoods is it's not other people/society entrapping you, it's your body and brain. Maybe for some equatorial australopithecus it's doable, feel free to try if you really want, though. Basically my point is the entire realm we're in has inherent issues that we have no clear solution to, and even if we did, the rest of the population would just be conditioned to reject it and anyone suggesting it.

Anyways, lucid dream sex is an option for separating fantasy from bodily limitations. I just wish it were easier to do, more consistent. Keeping sexual desire channeled into a mental space I think has potential, especially if you avoid touching your dick and choose visualization over the typical visual media.


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 No.227944[Reply]

wizards, this is a truly important question. how do you tell your mom, or anyone else for that matter, that you are really not interested in whatever female they think you should "befriend"?

i know you're going to troll me, but i still kindly ask you to find a second and think about what could be the *optimal* solution. the solution that doesn't burn bridges, doesn't create bitter enemies and yet lets you maintain the high ground. i know this is not fully achievable, but there gotta be an algorithm or something.

my brain just crashes in such situations. it's like "idk wtf are you're even talking about???" i need help
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 No.228122

>>228015
Clearly you haven't spent enough time around people to understand that insults only land if people take them seriously on some level. For succubi in particular, nothing that a man below her own perceived social status says will ever land, she just automatically dismisses it all as you lashing out. She will not even try to process what you say if she doesn't look up to you in some way.

 No.228189

>>228122

succubi often insult others to get attention (conflict usually does not have consequences for them and if it does, they will quickly play the victim to avoid consequence) and to learn how they are regarded by others so when others insult them, they know it comes from a place of weakness, of seeking undeserved attention because that's what they are doing all day.

 No.228190

>>228189
yeah but unless she views you as a significant male playing piece, even if she gets momentarily upset by your insult, which she likely will, she will shrug it off in a matter of hours or maybe a day at most. your insult will just sink into the bottomless mire of succubus's soul and disappear. this is important to keep in mind. unlike males, succubi are specifically designed to handle verbal insults. they just don't process them like males do.

 No.228196

>>228190
>significant male playing piece

i'm a significant male, i don't think it would matter to a succubus if i insulted her, she would be too delighted that i validate her existence by talking to her. she would not even listen to a single word i say and just bathe in my "attention".

females are naaaaaasty

 No.228197

>>228196
well that's the other side of the coin


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 No.228138[Reply]

Stepped on the scale today and realized that despite the initial "push" from a medical crisis a year ago, I basically regained all weight I lost (minus 5-10kg).
I also realized I've been working for almost 3 years now, going to be 30 the same week I'll hit my 3 years of work too.
3 years… of wages wasted.

I don't even know what the fuck I spent most of it on. It just escapes me.
Still live with mom and all my necessities are taken care of she takes nothing from me.
I had a blessed opportunity these past 3 years to save up for the dogshit future that hit the world now and I wasted it on toys and basically indulging all I couldn't as a NEET with no money.
The worst is that since I'm an impulsive retard I mostly have nothing to show for it either.

Health is even more fucked then ever before since I never took action.
Rather every action that didn't prove fruitful or flat out failed resulted in my absolute surrender for another month or three or six…
Absolutely defeated at the starting line basically.

To get to the point of this thread. Those of you that live a decently structured, responsible and stable life, how?
I barely have a sense of time. Kinda like when I was a NEET, just instead of 12-16 hours of sleeping and then PC stuff I'm forced to work a rather easy, blessed job.
Once it passes I just feel like I'm teleported to the next shift until I get to sleep through a weekend and months pass.
Even chronic pains don't make me act much. What does one even do to live?

The worst part really is that so many years went down the drain and I really have nothing to show for it. Not even memories.
I want to at least look back on SOMETHING fondly when I'm dying someday.
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 No.228159

>>228138
I'm in the process of kicking some addictions which took up decent amounts of my day so I had to learn new ways of spending my time. I have some hobbies I neglected that I wanted to pick up again such as the guitar and drawing but I'm still too lazy for that. I recently had some inspiration to want to create a game world for myself. I don't know anything about 3d modelling, game development and so on. So I started doing 15 minutes of either Godot or Blender tutorials every day. I have this hour long tutorial that I've been working on for a week now and I got maybe 15 minutes into it because I always stop and play around with whatever feature he shows off. It's a long and arduous journey but I think I'm slowly starting to enjoy it, maybe. I think the main thing is to start small. Infinitesimally small steps. But to write down whenever you did it with a time and date. Whenever I log my daily session and see all the days I've been keeping at it, it makes me feel a little proud I think. I started doing the same thing with 10 minutes of daily exercise, just some jump rope usually. The goal for now is to literally just get used to doing things that I wasn't doing before so that I can slowly increase the "dosage" and some day get the results I'm looking for. But if you're starting out you need to find the lowest possible amount you would be comfortable to do daily and learning to live with that voice in your head that will inevitably berate and mock you for it.

 No.228193

instead of trying to live for some moment on your deathbed when you can "look back", why not try to focus on the here and now… your daily actions and engagement with it

> "I don't see the future I'm doing stuff for so why would I bother"
this is a key piece. If this is the belief in your heart-of-hearts when you wake up in the morning… good luck getting out of bed with any vim and vigor…

personally im not really at the point of structured life… similarly live at home with basic needs taken care of. Sometimes fall into depressions with weeks/months of gaps in anything productive

for me meditation and boredom can be powerful cus if i sit still, two things happen: i either process whatever i'm feeling (but it can often spiral into rumination…) or I have thoughts about what i want to do… if i'm only allowed to sit and stare at the wall, doing work or starting a creative project finally feels like a path of least resistance. Staring at the wall more than 20 minutes starts to get really difficult and then if you put a task in front of you, the mind will be more likely to instantly engage. Takes a certain discipline and will, though… so often it's just #1. Ruminating about my parents dying soon, fear of being on my own, etc… but that can also be a bit motivating because I'd *LIKE* to be a strong wizard capable of supporting myself…

 No.228194

at some point in your wizarding career, you just gotta stop thinking about those pesky concepts like "the future". you have to accept that "it's over" and really feel it in your body. acceptance feels like unclenching your jaw after holding it for decades. you're not a meaningful player in the normalfag dominance hierarchy, none of it applies to you so just chill out.

your goal should be to find engaging activities that make time fly. losing yourself is the best you can hope for as a relatively content wiz.


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 No.227891[Reply]

Why don't you have a tulpa, anon?
You can cheat yourself out of loneliness by fostering a loving relationship with an imaginary friend.

Benefits of a tulpa,
>You can choose any shape or form for her.
>You will never feel alone.
>She will always show unconditional love.
>She will always follow you around.
>You can have sex without losing your virginity powers or contracting STDs.
>Costs absolutely nothing.
>Basically the 'ultimate' form of a waifu.
The only negative is the social stigma, which you can easily avoid by not revealing your powerlevel.

It was the best decision of my life. It feels so good to have someone take care of you, compliment you and physically comfort you.
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 No.228022

>>228008
Keep up the good work, anon.
>I try to personality force, but I think it's too early.
It's never too early to personality force.
However, I find that tulpas naturally gravitate to how you expect them to act the more time you spend with them either way, simply because the entire process is about conditioning yourself into thinking you're interacting with something autonomous.

 No.228181

Is having a photograph of a succubus helpful? Someone whom I project onto my tulpa? Or, is it preferable that this is pure imagination? Or, is there not a superior method?
Do I have to talk out loud to my tulpa? Will I hear her respond? Or, will I need to close my eyes and focus?

 No.228182

>>228181
You shouldn't be asking these things. You should be doing these things and then figuring out for yourself if they work for you or not.

 No.228191

The great part of having a tulpa is that your mind reacts to imagination like it's real life, so if you vividly imagine cuddling with her, feeling her touch, smell, warmth etc. your brain literally releases oxytocin as if it's a real person. When I discovered that, it truly felt like a cheat code, like I found a button inside my head that I can press to feel good instantly. For a while, it was really addicting, I'd spend hours every day daydreaming and pressing that button. It's especially addicting if you never felt those "love" chemicals, cuz suddenly your brain is like woah, keep doing that, we're on to something. Made me realize how lonely and sad my life was up to that point, because not a single real person ever made me feel that way, and I was a grown ass man in my 20s at that point. I've felt more love for my tulpa than I've ever felt for real people. More genuine connection and intimacy with a thought form, than with the supposedly sentient naked apes around me LOL

Too bad you can't do the same thing with like an imaginary hamburger, I can imagine the taste and it's nice, but it still lacks that physical satisfaction, your brain still thinks its hungry. Maybe it's possible, maybe that's what those anorexic monks do that manage to starve for months. There is a lot of power hidden in the mind.

 No.228192

>>228191
>There is a lot of power hidden in the mind.

ya it's fascinating what it's capable of
and this whole thread brings into focus the blurry line
between reality and perception


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 No.323217[Reply]

anyone living in the basement? how it is like? to you live near the washing machine? (lol) is it comfy? how many times you leave your basement?
The basement seems the perfect retreat room for a wizard. it's like our ivory tower. basically, you reash the basement to your taste and make it comfy.
The Wizard's dweller..

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>>323217
It's nice during the summer when it's hot, and there's relatively more privacy compared to having a room upstairs with the rest of the family. But you're closer to the water in-line and appliances so the humidity is higher that elsewhere in the house. This is a problem if glowniggers are contaminating your household water supply with microbes, because the basement basically turns into a gas chamber. In such a situation, you are breathing in contaminated humidity like a Jew in a gas chamber

 No.323239

im reading a book about sunlight in human health currently, im only in the second chapter of 12, maybe i paste some highlites in a few days or weeks.

do bother to look into what an earthsip is op. it is like a basement in the sense that it is mostly underneath the earth (for temperature reasons) but it is built to be flooded by sunlight. also it has a greenhouse builtin as a zone of insulation with the result that you almost don't have to heat in the winter. completely offgrid, it produces its own electricity via solar, collects rainwater, treats its own sewage using plants, produces food in the greenhouse.

it is way better then a house.

you might also enjoy dome homes and underground tunnel houses. if i don't forget i link my favorite videos later.

 No.323240

>>323239
Sounds like an ill-advised hippie fantasy. The sewage especially. Plants can't desalinate urine and human fecal enzymes will eat through most greenery. Sewage needs to be treated before it can be "treated" by plants.

 No.323306

>>323240
shit is good for fertilizer

 No.323308

>>323306
…The feces of omnivores and carnivores contain acids and enzymes that prevent the growth of vegetation. Without these, our small stomachs and fast metabolism wouldn't be able to break down greens and seeds quick enough to extract their nutrients. If you or your dog defecates on the lawn, the grass around it dies. Your dog's piss burns the grass yellow in an hour. With their slower and less aggressive digestion, scat from ruminant animals retains uncollected nutrients from what they've eaten which can be absorbed back in to the soil to propagate growth.

No soybeans or hemp is going to sprout from your KFC and Takis diarrhea, Manuel. It's not rocket science.


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 No.305228[Reply]

I think age 31-32 was the point where I realized I'm too autistic and weird to ever have 'normal' things in life.

I will die either institutionalized or in some shitty rental with nothing to my name. Nothing that I dreamed about will ever become true.
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 No.305307

Three days ago was my birthday. I realized it when my mom hugged me and said, “HB, honey!” After that, I started thinking more — and I ended up cursing my own existence.

It feels impossible for me to live the life I wanted. I can’t isolate myself to read books or study music, math, and philosophy. I don’t even know if I would call that life a dream — maybe it is one. It feels so fucking annoying and utopian when I stop everything to think about it.

I think I’ll die in some stupid loneliness I once believed in. I stopped cutting myself, but I no longer take my meds for depression, schizoid personality disorder, and misanthropy.

Like another anon said, “We’re not born to be happy.” If that’s true, maybe all I can do is sit down and watch my whole life turn to dust in the wind.

Fuck.

 No.306870

>>305228
You just need dopamine. Take amisul pride at 200mg or less. Future is pointless. Dopamine makes present moment good. When present moment is good future doesn’t matter

 No.306871

no, not anymore. my final cope that carried me over the years was this notion that i could just change myself, figure out how i actually tick and reverse engineer myself into a normal human being. it never really worked out, but there was always this hope that i could stumble on it one day and make everything make sense, like a persistent puzzle. what broke me was realizing that i never had a chance in the first place, that biologically i was predetermined to end up where i am, regardless of my personality or psychology. there was nothing to change, i AM my body and circumstances, my mind is just a mirroring of that. there was no other way i could've turned out. people treat you based on what they see, how you make them feel, and i consistently brought out indifference or revulsion in others. as i grew into my final genetic form, people started openly being hostile to me in public and i was mocked before i could open my mouth. this fantasy that i could just change my feelings and fix everything no longer fit my lived experience. the world was inherently against me and there was nothing realistically i could do to change it. there was also nothing worth living for, as idealistic notions of "love" and "friendship" increasingly seemed to me like banal biological processes, people like you because you help them release the feel good chemicals. the most evil criminals had tons of friends and lovers because they had the right body shape, despite being scum that never had a metacognitive thought in their life, they enjoyed life, people went out of their way to help them because "there was something to them".

i'm all out of copes and suicide really seems to me like the only meaningful choice i could make. either suffer and endure for another 30-40 years until my disgusting body gives out, or i end it when it makes sense to end it. the world is evil and i cannot adapt to it because i'm weak. why shouldn't i just give up and roll the dice again?

 No.306872

>>306871
You hit the nail on its' head. We are predeterministic animals just like all other mammals or apes in nature.

Would you tell a deformed or weak ape if they just work enough on their personality they will get lots of females and sit in hot springs all day instead of the apes who happened to be born with good genetics?

No.

Would you tell a lion born with down syndrome he is going to overthrow the strongest lion in his territory if he is just determined enough?

We need to stop this self-improvement bullshit right here. The vast, vast majority of neurodivergent wizards will never mask to the point normies will accept it.

 No.306909

>>306883
>Dignity Act
Dignity for who exactly?


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 No.306585[Reply]

I am not in a position to move out and I always have to listen to complaints about everything I do
Its affecting my happiness quite a bit, its a good day when I dont have to interact with anyone for a day
As if I dont know im a failure
The complaining never stops
I was a Neet I got cried to alot for that, now im a student and I still get talks about finding a part time job the same way, despite me getting money
Its so tiresome
I once worked full time for over a year, it was such a bad time to me, I dont have the energy like normies do
The worst part about it all is my mom telling me I should move out if I dont like it
I want to move out very badly, but how can I when the few hundred I get a month is barely enough to live?
Even with a part time job it would not be enough
I dont see the situation changing anytime soon
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 No.306621

I had awful parents, they "complained" about everything and when I gave in and tried to adapt myself to them they would complain more, gaslight, change their story etc. Eventually I realised their goal was simply to torment and I broke off all contact. You might consider they are'nt being serious and just want to bully you, I've also heard of other people having similar parents to often calling them narcissists.

 No.306811

>>306621
thats the truth, there's always a new dragon to chase. I was NEET after highschool. got nagged into studying which gave me 1 week of peace, then nagged to finding a job which i couldn't even find for over a year which was horrible times. anyway once i get a job its again peace for another week. then it's when am i doing more hours and/or getting promoted.

Majorly insane I hate it so much. I've since anchored myself down in my routine of over 10 years now. I work 4 days, dont go out, dont do a lot of things and the nagging has finally stoped aside from once every 6 months about how i should really try get married LOL.

stupid parents should have had 3 or 4 kids. you can't play 1 game of poker and get mad you didn't win, play a few more then call it a night/life if it all failed.

 No.306849

>>306811
I feel like some parents don't view you as your own person, more like a toy or a doll they own. Some people also simply live to torment others. If I had known my life had turned out this way, I rather wished I had never come into existence in the first place.

 No.306878

>>306849
You're definitely subject to deception and not being given the whole story as a spirit convinced to incarnate here in the first place. This shitty realm just needs to be quarantined, a big sign put by the entry point, because only hell-spawn and the extremely lucky can enjoy it here long-term.
My parents are retarded normalcattle with very high functional IQ, unable to understand their comfortable lives were a product of a very specific time and conditions, and too retarded to do anything but try and corral me into being and thinking like them. I was developing stress way back in middle school, thinking about the pointlessness of wageslaving, and they just berated me, like, 'fuck you little philosopher guy, how dare you question the world I forced you into' – people like this will always deny realities they don't like, instead of using it as a basis for preventing more problems in the future. Then they're surprised things get worse when the foundations for anything are based on wishful thinking and delusions.
This life is hard enough as it is, we shouldn't have had to be given the shitty "guidance" of such people from a young age, inevitably floundering in early adulthood, then just becoming old and experiencing aging without even having a real adulthood first.

 No.306893

>>306878
I'm sorry you had to live through that parenting. I totally understand. Not a single day of kind words from my parents throughout the entirety of high school for me. Just endless hostility and confrontation. Feel like my entire youth was stolen by these pieces of shit.


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