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For the longest Time i had none other than my Parents to share my problems with and they Would Always say stuff like:
"Everything Will be alright, just be positive"
And for The longest Time i believed that was bull shit, to think our thoughts could influence reality and our outcomes in life, and lately After another conversationv with my father where he said the usual stuff of "everything Will be alright for you as Long You remain positive and optimistic"
I thought to my self why don't i become positive and optimistic just in order to relieve my present anxities? even if maybe it's all dogshit and the universe is indifferent about your thoughts and such, but of course when you are a life Time pessimist, it's not easy to change your mindset, even if it's just wanting to delude my Self.

So wizzies who are familiar with this stuff, is it worth the time and effort? From what I've read most of the darknet or darkweb or wtf is just dead sites, with occasional illegal things here and there. As someone who is just curious and want to pass the time, is it worth the risk of checking out? How do you even find stuff there? WHAT IS EVEN THERE? What are your experiences with it?

I need a new hobby.
I play video games and watch anime, but those are getting boring.
What do you wizards do all day? Please don't say jacking off.

what kind of clubs did you had in school/high school/uni? dis you attend it?
in my high school, there was a japanese culture/manga/anime club and a chess club. I'm dumb, should have joined them, anyway, what about you?

anyone else watching dr jiang xueqin's lectures? they are quite inaccurate but engaging and fun, he reminds me of the terrorist leader from deus ex

I don't have hobbies or at least I haven't found one and I think if I keep wasting my life stuck on the internet doing absolutely nothing (because I don't even have friends here to say that I have a good time) or watching movies not interesting enough to show off my taste in the movies or something like that lol and letting my ass deform for spending so much time stuck to the mattress anddddd I don't remember how I was going to finish this post but it was going to be glorious..

Beowulf is the Old English text most cited regarding aspects of Anglo-Saxon heathenry/paganism. However, Beowulf itself is actually a distinctly Christian epic poem. This is most plainly visible in the deployment of Christian morality in the story, categorizing Beowulf himself as "good" and the antagonist Grendel as "evil." But this good-evil dichotomy is actually generally alien to Aryan forms of paganism.

This being the case, it is possible to apply Nietzsche to Beowulf in order to deconstruct the text and uncover lost aspects of Anglo-Saxon heathenry. Specifically, Nietzsche's distinction between good and evil and good and bad as expounded upon in the Genealogy of Morals:

>This, then, is quite the contrary of what the noble man does, who conceives the basic concept “good” in advance and spontaneously out of himself and only then creates for himself an idea of “bad”! This “bad” of noble origin and that “evil” out of the cauldron of unsatisfied hatred — the former an after-production, a side issue, a contrasting shade, the latter on the contrary the original thing, the beginning, the distinctive deed in the conception of a slave morality — how different these words “bad” and “evil” are, although they are both apparently the opposite of the same concept “good.” But it is not the same concept “good”: one should ask rather precisely who is “evil” in the sense of the morality of ressentiment. The answer, in all strictness, is: precisely the “good man” of the other morality, precisely the noble, powerful man, the ruler, but dyed in another color, interpreted in another fashion, seen in another way by the venomous eye of ressentiment.

With this in mind, it can be understood that the characterization of Grendel as "evil" is actually Christian smearing of what is good. Consider two descriptions of Grendel from Beowulf itself:

>… the other, miscreated thing, in man's form trod the ways of exile, albeit he was greater than any other human thing. Him in days of old the dwellers on earth named Grendel

>Every nail, claw-scale and spur, every spike and welt on the hand of that heathen brute was like barbed steel. Everybody said there was no honed iron hard enough: to pierce him through, no time proofed blade that could cut his brutal blood caked claw

This is, in fact, almost identical to the way Oyashiro-sama is mischaraPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Has weed changed or have I changed?
Weed used to make me feel great, now it just makes me feel sad and quite uncomfortable with myself.

i am so miserable, and i would like to speak of why and how my severe mental imbalance came to be. little about me: my mom was born in sweden in sweden half swedish and she is/ was pretty, nice facial structure, good cheekbones and extremely smart, she learned four languages before turning 20. and here comes my idiot father whom a part of me despise. idiot iranian with 90 to 100 iq, my retard mom decided to go for some fucking moron instead of aiming high like the bitch she is not thinking. fyi she also suffers from soe sort of mental imbalance which could have aided her idiot choice. the only good genetic properties my dad has is he is a mindless twerp at times which is not entirely his fault and he is relatively tall 5.10. he comes form a shit hole in iran from some bum fuck village where half the dudes probably are inbreed and all looks the same except varying heights. well, anyway, a good thing about him is that he carries tall genes which is nice his brother is 6.5 plus, which is the only good thing i can think of right now ,hes not directly dumb but miles from my mom or any higher thinker. and i am 6.3 which is the only daving grace i have. back to what happened, these two idiots decided to have three fucking children me included like the absolute mindless dogs they are (i would never have chiildren with a idiot like my mom could have gotr a smart rich whiute guy but instead she chose some fucktard miles below her). yea, and my father growing up in iran where he most likelyt went through hunger and just messed up crap at times didnt really se the need to be super much in his kids lifes, and by the way did i mention how my mom was twenty and my dad was like twenty nine when he impregnated her, or even thirthy that fucking bastard. if i could i would travel back in time and clobber him in the end with a hammer so he never ruined me myt siblings and my mother. and yes i know that would remove my exicstens which i would gladly accept. well however these years where actually great, and i remember how i truly during that time loved my father like crazy. i would also like to add how i was born truly pure which most children are but i was born a little bit more sensitive than others, i was very shy and recluded and just needed a little bit more guidence. well these times as i mentioned where uneventful. but we moved to another city which i didnt think much of and already then i started to see my father less, he still lived in the original city, and such so aPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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