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Be weird, be (You).

Most wizards at this point have probably already figured out, understood, that this material existence is an illusion. That none of this human shit matters in the slightest.
Stay gold, stay true. You're gonna make it, Wiz.

I am a former atheist. I decided to convert to the protestant faith and abandon all nihilism and pessimism in favor of salvation in the hands of Christ. now I pray daily and read the bible my goal is to achieve salvation through Jesus christ It might have started as a response to a general sense of nihilism, but talking to a priest didn't help move me anywhere in that regard. It might have started as a cry in a moment of despair, but when I did that, there was no response. It might have started as an acceptance of philosophical arguments, but while I find some of them viable, I don't think they're compelling enough to move me from one category to another. It might have started as an outpouring of welcoming from religious people, but I'd always received that welcoming.

Maybe I decided that religion (in its broadest sense) is intrinsic to humanity, and in order to have a human existence that made any sense, I'd have to give this religion thing another shake. Maybe I decided that, even if we are cosmic orphans, it is the role of the orphan to long and cry out. Maybe somewhere in the depths of my humanity, somewhere immeasurable and small but more there than anything else, my cries received a response and I have never been as happy and content as I am right now in my life faith is comfy
Anybody here has any similar experience with faith and religion?

what is your guys taste in music?

I used to mainly listen to rock like linkin park in highschool then began getting into orchestra music and movie scores. Then when I got into anime I started listening to the OP/ED even though I don’t understand a single word.

After I started listening to hip-hop because one song was stuck in my head. I hated the genre at first because the music had no lyrical substance then I compared it to anime music and how I never understood a single
line so I decided to put my ego to the side and I have been listening to it the most now.

I mostly listen to the rappers like lil uzi vert, kanye, kid cudi, and juice wrld . It feels weird when I see fans discuss the music on forums online and it’s mostly teenagers or young adults.

…and the japanese are out to cure them.
https://www.helprx.info/blog/schizophrenia/schizophrenia-research-cave-fish

>The blind cave fish Mexican tetra exhibits similar characteristics to humans with schizophrenia. The species as a whole is solitary due to a lack of natural predators. They have no need to join protective schools and are instead able to independently navigate underwater using variations in water pressure and vibrations.
>Despite their safety in the dark recesses, they remain anxious and restless. The fish repeat behaviors incessantly without sleeping.
>The fish show the closest behaviors of any animal researched so far to human schizophrenia. In fact, the fish seem to have about 90 percent of the genes with known risk factors for psychiatric disease.
>Yoshizawa has attempted to quell the natural erratic behaviors of the cave fish with fluoxetine, commonly branded as Prozac, and clozapine.

According to wikipedia, they are eyeless and have taste buds all over their head.

They are closely related to surface, social, normie fish. It's quite interesting. Perhaps it's really hard to lose sociability once it's been evolved, and the best natural selection for asociality can do is fucking your shit up.

Completely honest post, does spirituality (a less cheap version than the one in the picture) have any single meaningful thing to contribute to a man's life other than a false sense of well-being for some hours? Why do people irl get into shit they don't understand and defend it to their core?

What is there to gain?

A thread for evil (but not bitter) wizards. What’s your latest diabolical plan?

Long time ago there was a thread here with old youtube videos. Instead of saving them properly i saved the link to that thread due to lack of mental strength at the time, unfortunately.

Would you like to share some of old youtube videos to relieve the memories of the past long gone?

RUSSIAN OIL PLANTS ACTUALLY BLEW UP ON THEIR OWN. GOLD STANDARD TO RETURN, RUBBLE DOUBLES IN VALUE. DISNEY HAS THEIR MICRONATION STATUS REVOKED. MAJOR STREAMING SERVICES REPORT SUBSCRIBER LOSSES FOR FIRST TIME EVER, STOCKS DROP. MUSK BUYS TWITTER, TRUTH SOCIAL RANKED #1 ON APP STORE.

Previous thread: https://archive.ph/NjswH

As someone on the A cluster of personality disorders, life is very unmanageable and diminishing
i remember before my illness i was a different person, i used to not care much, i was pretty alpha.

Currently in life i've been more of a victim to my surroundings, admittedly because of me, but also because i'm an easy target.
I've increasingly become envious of cluster B more specifically dark triad or these days it's updated. I exclude BPD and histrionics those aren't beneficial (my sister has bpd)

I've done drugs to alter myself, i watch gore, i don't respond much to shocking imagery because of shizoid tendencies i have, but i do have feelings. I'm kind to animals etc.
My problems in general are of a social nature, i feel fine by myself, but anything with other people is no fun at all, i don't like people.
I would call myself a nihilist and a misanthrope but also a coward, i understand anxiety, i wish i would wake up as a genuine psychopath.

It sounds edgy and you can suggest i should top myself, but hear me out, in our society psychopathy is very beneficial, it's almost a cure all.

psychopaths have reduced connections between the ventromedial prefrontal cortex (vmPFC). The part of the brain responsible for sentiments such as empathy and guilt, and the amygdala, which mediates fear and anxiety.
the neuroscientist James Fallon, he himself is a psychopath and he discovered this by reviewing scans of criminals brains. Abuse and bad upbringing is the difference between a pro-social and antisocial one. But also genetics. NOT solely upbringing.

I was always interested in psychology, if i was smarter i would've have studied it with criminology, it's just interesting. I'm not glorifying murderers, in a sense i think people should pay for their crimes.
All of this is meaningless anyway, but i just came to the conclusion in order to break the cycle of a abuse, the abused becomes the abuser, psychopathy CAN be the answer in certain situations.

Lobotomy, brain damage, drugs, callousness and exposure to violence, killing animals, it can all amount to advancing the spectrum of psychopathy. I guess i'm just a weak individual looking for a way out.

How the fuck do I curb my internet addiction? Im online every hour I'm awake. I browse my phone until I fall asleep, I wake up and browse, I watch porn on my phone, I use my phone to listen to music while I shower.
Its everyday every single day. I can't take it anymore. They purposedly make everything addictive so you get trapped in the shithole that is the internet and they get fat checks and bonuses because ad revenue went up.
Please help me, I get insanely bored offline. I tried greyscale and uninstalling apps but I always go back