/lounge/ - Lounge

I'm going to change things, or at least get close enough that it melts my wings.

>>323237
Omg it's like Icarus! And the cat's name was Icarus! I'm going completely insane!!!1!

>>323194
I'm turning 30 in a month and I wish I knew man.
I let my health decline to a ridiculous degree.
Let myself rot both in mind and body.
I'm a man of inaction and similar to you I have voyeuristic tendencies. I used to just observe people too, I liked watching, doing not so much.
I'd be fine as a spectator. Or at least that is what I tell myself.

>>323197
Feel this too. I tried getting rid of as much as I could recently. I'm burdened by a lot of digital hoarding as well. Not just physical items.
It was a great relief every time I cut out something.
One less thing to manage or worry about keeping around.



One of my childhood dreams was to someday have enough money to buy a small house in a village and have a rose garden and just chill for the rest of my life. No work.
At the time it seemed attainable. Today, not really short of a miracle.
Even if you "own" stuff you have to maintain it, things go bad, gotta buy it again and many things are extremely pricey. Imagine having to buy a fridge every 5 years if you "retired" with no income.
Or a washing machine etc.
Just sustaining yourself also comes with a bunch of recurring payments. It's a pain. The grind never ends.

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>>323287
I let my health decline to a ridiculous degree.
Let myself rot both in mind and body.
I'm a man of inaction and similar to you I have voyeuristic tendencies. I used to just observe people too, I liked watching, doing not so much.
I'd be fine as a spectator. Or at least that is what I tell myself.

have you ever listen to the cassette programm "psychology of achievement" by brain tracy? if not you have been missing out.

>>323287
>t's like forces above just don't want to let people live.

it really does feel like that but i like to think those people are even more miserable then me. i always felt these people envy me and i never envied them. the direction of envy clearly flows in my favor and i have all their envy and they have none of mine.

i still think you should get healthy and hope that a miracle happens. being healthy is nice. it doesn't make what you describe go away but it makes everything way easier.

pine: this is the only silver lighting on the e-ink horizon. for some reason costs 600€ in the europe store currently while 400$ in the us. the company has wronged me already and did not give a fuck, which is too bad, otherwise i might have waited for this one and gave it a try. what bothers me is they have microphone built in but i am sure i would be able to remove them, the pine stuff is built to be accessed by the user, i assume it would be as easy as removing cables from the connector to get rid of it.

Any good ereaders around 8" that have long battery and SD cards?
Would like to load some manga on there too not just books.

>>323277
>Any good ereaders around 8" that have long battery and SD cards?

depends on if you want a colored e-ink display. i don't know in what fileformat the manga come though.

the biggest color e-ink on a kobo is the kobo libra colour with an 7 inch display and 32gb internal memory and no sd card. assholes took the sd slot out apparently. they say the battery lasts for weeks.

if you don't insist on colour, you can find an older kobo for cheap that has a 6 inch screen and an sd card slot.

i didn't know the newer ones don't have sd card slot, that's quite disgusting behavior by the manufacturer. costs them literally nothing to include an sd card slot in mass production and is imensely useful to whoever uses the device.

>>323280
Yeah couldn't find one with SD card either in the 8" range is why I asked just in case.
Feel like 6" is too small for manga.
32gb ain't much for manga either, it's not horrible, but I'd rather not have to make due.
I'll reconsider if I want one for purely reading.
I don't care for color. Feels like another layer of complexity that could go wrong and is more expensive.

>>323285
>I don't care for color. Feels like another layer of complexity that could go wrong and is more expensive.

i'm hoping for one to be released this year (by kobo, assuming they don't enshittify and keep letting users use a device without account and internet) that is big and uses color so that i can use it for pdf files. some books i can only find pdf versions and converting them to other formats seems like a nightmare. i could use them to look at jamie oliver cookbooks, which are colorfully illustrated and i always enjoyed looking at when i was younger. though it is kind of silly because i don't eat cooked food anymore…

if it comes with a pen i wouldn't mind, maybe it is fun to doodle on the actual pdfs i am reading, that looked pretty cool in videos i have seen about their current biggest reader, something like a ~10inch display.

>>312958
Maybe i need to learn breathing more deep or something.

>>312958
What do I use this information for?
I also highly disagree with the open minded part like some others mentioned:
>>314615
>>314616 exactly. I feel like if you selected creative/art options it gives you this which is retarded.

I really wish someone elaborated on why this matters at all or how this could be utilized for?
Best example gemini gave me is a job mismatch fix.
"if you are a sales guy and took a test that says you are an introvert you should get a new job"
Wow… magical…

>>323226
Then I'd rather have some kind of Assistance in Living, but realistically MAiD is more likely to come around.

>>323226
>It's a program designed to kill people instead of curing their ailments
Things don't get better and if you try, some talking head will discredit you.

Just pass MAiD and things will begin to start to get better… maybe.

>>323261
It's funny, the bootlicking rightists all wish that we "undesirables" would just fuck off and die, yet make it illegal for the state to help us do so painlessly

>>323263
>rightist
True right has never been in power since like Third Reich and even they weren't as right as they could be.
If you mean zionist gop jewlicking scum under the, they need their taxpaying goyim of all kinds to be alive and suffering.

I think the worst is the food. Buy a brown bread without checking the label and you get this greasy 7 percent seed oils loaf, which gives me acid reflux. Some supermarkets where I live don't even sell real bread anymore. The very basics of life become inaccessible with this race to the bottom

This is more of a /dep/ post hence I apologize in advance for that: I have been a Hiki/N.E.E.T for nearly 15 years by now and it in the past few years it has been getting unbearable, the boredom and monotony are agonizing, does not help that i have nothing to do and I don't have any money for hobbies at all, I might be dumb but I don't believe wageslaving would be worse than this, I feel like I am getting crazier by each day, sometimes I start punching walls just from the sheer unbearable borodom that I am facing, it makes every atom of my body boil, I am envious of all comfy and happy N.E.E.Ts out there, I have all the free time anyone could dream of, but totally nothing to do with it, I hope you all have it much better than me, thank you for reading and sorry again if it comes off as a whinny or negative post.

>>323175
Have you tried to make up imaginary characters in your head and let them debate over something? It takes a lot of effort to sustain those mind animations, it's really satisfying.

>>322679
I wonder what kind of people calls NEET/hiki 'parasite'? are they jealous of NEET and hiki or it's something else?

>>323175
>it has been getting unbearable, the boredom and monotony are agonizing
funny that you say this because wagecucking for a couple years has the same result.
shitty work becomes monotone, unbearable and agonizing and you are counting the seconds until you can go home. by the time you are indeed back home you notice you are too tired to do anything that requires effort so you doomscrool jewtube and play videogames for an hour and then its off to bed so you can wake up and spend another day counting down the minutes and seconds until you can go home.
yeah and money? forget about money, as a lowly wagecuck you are just as poor as a neet.

>>319697
OP, if you are stuck with Internet, try setting up a set of 90s/00s used not-so-electronics like radio/tape player

and do chores while blasting music, I dunno, an Internet radio will also do

>>322103
Fixed a boombox for my brother


A real 1999 boombox, 7kg 60cm wide spacey-looking stereo

He praised the sound quality. This is the first time in q5 years he hears radio in high fidelity with proper bass.

>>319697
digital is the way

Need to get off the computer but I've been connected for so long the sudden isolation of not having access makes me feel alone and vulnerable. A whole world I've always lived in is suddenly cut off from me. It's like I am doing life sentence in prison but the world outside the prison is the digital world while the prison building is real life.

>>319697
I've been on my PC every waking moment I could do so for the past 24 years or so.
For me, a recent thing is trying to embrace phones and a tablet I got for further consumption and comfort.
Never was addicted to a phone since I was at a PC all day, why bother right?

I don't mind it too much, I'm on it to numb myself. I often just stare at the screen as of late, not even scrolling any manga, let alone doing the gargantuan effort of playing games.

The only issue I have is with digital hoarding. I know the internet as I knwo it is coming to an end so I should really start hoarding.
Having so much unsorted JUNK I saved over the years is causing me mad anxiety too.
I need order, but pic rel is unsortable… can't let it go either.

I got about 6TB of SSD space open for once I start scraping the 35k bookmarks I hoarded over the years as well.
Mostly manga, doujins, r34 pics, audio/voiceworks crap like that that isn't really worth it, but would give me peace of mind to have my own offline library. Wish I wasn't so retarded about it and knew what to do.
Was looking into lanraragi and hydrus but they aren't exactly plug and play and idk what would happen to those hoards if I had to move drives to another PC that might not be windows in the future.

TL:DR; digital hoarding gives me mad anxiety
I considered purging most if not all I have currently downloaded and questioning how much I should even hoard considering I might not even be able or desire to jerk off much now that I'm 30.

What would I even do with my time without it? I can't imagine it. I have a tiny 2x5m room. I tried hobbies like mini painting, carving, drawing etc. but failed at acting on them in the long run.
I'd just put the stuff in front of me and stare at it like it's a screen. Fucking hell…

>>322988
Cringe ive known plenty of lv 2/3's poc vs "aspergers" whites

How the hell do you survive as a NEET in that part of the globe? I am from the first world and without NEETbux it's very very difficult to make your family support you for longer than 1 years or 2, I have heard of some third world NEETs whom their families have been supporting them for long years, maybe they are really wealthy for their national standards.

I wageslaved for a year at a gas station for 280 U.S.D a month, it was a hell on earth.

>>323051
Some of us fucked up and are barely getting neetbux at 40, a neet had an SSI case going 8 years

It's a hell on earth.

>>321031
>>321032
Would/10, I'd save so much money by doing so. Sadly it's practically illegal where I live.

>Of course you don't have a bathroom you will have to rely on gyms to wash yourself

This is not necessarily true. Only if you are planning on doing the stealth urban camping thing do you need to rely on public toilets. If you are in the woods you can either just shit right in the woods or bring a little bucket toilet with a liner and shit in that then you just throw your shit in the garbage like it is dog shit. I got a privacy tent that pops up plus a little collapsible toilet.

I also got a bucket shower. They are just a pump on the end of a hose with a shower head attached to it. Quite cheap. You heat up some water put it in a bucket then put the pump in there and it works like a shower. Can also be used with the privacy tent I have. Might not be fully legal because they want everyone to collect all their grey water, but if you're not using soap you're not actually hurting anything. When you do need to actually use soap to wash your hair or something you can actually collect the water into a basin.

I got 4 5 gallon water jugs. One of them I am planning to use for grey water, the rest for fresh water. I figure I should be able to go 1-2 weeks and get one shower out of that. 1 shower per week is about right when living in a car.

>>321031
I'm not trying to put down wizards that are FORCED into this situation.
This entire van-life or living out of your car meme spread across the internet in recent years and it is for privileged normies that havent had to face a real challenge in their life.
Basically well off retards dream of this so they can have their own struggle.
That or autists that like to think of how to utilize small spaces.

Even then I'd much rather live in a tiny apartment. My back just hurts thinking of having to live like this.
Are you young and healthy? Well not for long if you do this and if you aren't you are just setting yourself up for suffering.

There is this guy dbdr/hatflying on youtube that talks about his experiences.
Just listening to it second hand sounds miserable.
Imagine getting a UTI and having to piss every 5 minutes for a week during a cold winter. Terry Davis killed himself after living in his car for a while too.

It beats roughing it outdoors if you are homeless I'm sure, but not something to yearn for.

>>323087
One guy who lives in a suv said that his lifestyle was a choice between debtslavery/wageslavery and freedom, but yeah it's a shit life in its own way

There are almost no good choices if you aren't rich, if you want to be free you gotta be rich

>>323087
>and it is for privileged normies that havent had to face a real challenge in their life

generally i can't really see the validity in your perspective. watch this dude for example

https://www.youtube.com/@CheapRVliving/videos

vanlife is
>a great way to escape the nightmare of being a renter in a parasitic economy and being wise with what little money you have
>a way to stay active in old age and live the DIY lifestyle instead of throwing money at every problem
>connect to your nomadic hunter-gatherer roots, constantly travel and spend more time where you would like instead of where you ended up
>be more in nature

seems like you did not take great care of yourself when you write

>My back just hurts thinking of having to live like this.
Are you young and healthy? Well not for long if you do this and if you aren't you are just setting yourself up for suffering.

that's what you get when you live like a fool and mock the healthy people…

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Hianime was shutdown

>>323127
Anime streaming sites going down is a third-world problem. Learn to pirate properly.

the best option is to keep using VPNs for as long as it's useful and allowed
once that doesn't work anymore it's time to just quit as much of the internet as possible
it was good while it lasted

>>323143
I've been listening to Baby's First Game theory lectures which gives quite a neat answer.

The main strategy of the aristocracy is to consolidate power, by cheating the system, through collusion, that's difficult to detect, and enforcing discipline within their own ranks.

And I mean *specifically* the aristocracy, people with intergenerational wealth and institutional power who can make decisions that nobody else without the use of violence can overturn. Not the interchangeable faces used to keep the police cars on the road and the Colombians in the fields. Anyone in this position knows that resorting to violence invites instability, which is the only thing that is a proven credible threat to their positions.

Maintaining the criminality of $x in an extreme form, a transgressor from the in-group can be publicly punished and their agency removed - without any particular suspicion.

So say party A fucks up in a money laundering operation as part of said aristocracy and as a result, party B loses enough money to notice it. What course of redress do they have?

The courts? That runs the risk of some clerk gunning for promotion finding the link between A and B

Assassination? Immediately all sorts of attention is turned on the activities of the victim, same problem.

PR/MSM blasting? That may have worked once but not so much any more.

As such it's in the aristocracy's interest to maintain a form of punishment that is humiliating, life destroying, and completely erodes credibility. One that the majority of people without capital or connections finds distasteful so it's self reinforcing is ideal.

Hence.
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>>322387
China is under jewish control.

The only "peril" attaching to China is whether the jews in control of that country choose to pivot it against any one of their western puppet states (US, UK, etc.).

WAKE UP WIZARDS!

https://big-lies.org/jews/how-jews-took-over-china-josh-2021.html


Jews trigger wars based on 30-year saturnian revolution cycles. WW1 (1910s), WW2 (1940s), Vietnam (1970s), Iraq (2000s)…We are fast approaching another goyish sacrifice party aka war.

>>322389
Meanwhile I feed my family of retired people

>>322117
Fucking kikes..
Good observation. I was just watching the movie the other day.

https://www.reddit.com/r/shittymoviedetails/comments/l02tzx/in_the_departed_2006queenan_says_that_the_united/


USA is under a jewish dictatorship
Russia has been under total jewish control since 1918
Ukraine is obviously the Jewkraine
China fell many decades ago (as above proved)
Iran fell to (((CIA))) in 1979.

Jews need to be stopped. They are playing the goyish nations against each other like mindless drones.

I like China, they're an old civilization

I dislike the US on the other hand

Also I like ali express

>>322320
It depends, like half intermarry with white people and assimilate over the course of 30-60 years. The other half literally live self-segregated lives, insist that their social circles and families remain pure Chinese, have a belief in the one drop rule for racial purity, and will be loyal to mainland China over their host society.

A half Chinese guy I know who gets confused for Chinese tells me that they are constantly talking shit about white people.