No.287879[Reply]
As someone on the A cluster of personality disorders, life is very unmanageable and diminishing
i remember before my illness i was a different person, i used to not care much, i was pretty alpha.
Currently in life i've been more of a victim to my surroundings, admittedly because of me, but also because i'm an easy target.
I've increasingly become envious of cluster B more specifically dark triad or these days it's updated. I exclude BPD and histrionics those aren't beneficial (my sister has bpd)
I've done drugs to alter myself, i watch gore, i don't respond much to shocking imagery because of shizoid tendencies i have, but i do have feelings. I'm kind to animals etc.
My problems in general are of a social nature, i feel fine by myself, but anything with other people is no fun at all, i don't like people.
I would call myself a nihilist and a misanthrope but also a coward, i understand anxiety, i wish i would wake up as a genuine psychopath.
It sounds edgy and you can suggest i should top myself, but hear me out, in our society psychopathy is very beneficial, it's almost a cure all.
psychopaths have reduced connections between the ventromedial prefrontal cortex (vmPFC). The part of the brain responsible for sentiments such as empathy and guilt, and the amygdala, which mediates fear and anxiety.
the neuroscientist James Fallon, he himself is a psychopath and he discovered this by reviewing scans of criminals brains. Abuse and bad upbringing is the difference between a pro-social and antisocial one. But also genetics. NOT solely upbringing.
I was always interested in psychology, if i was smarter i would've have studied it with criminology, it's just interesting. I'm not glorifying murderers, in a sense i think people should pay for their crimes.
All of this is meaningless anyway, but i just came to the conclusion in order to break the cycle of a abuse, the abused becomes the abuser, psychopathy CAN be the answer in certain situations.
Lobotomy, brain damage, drugs, callousness and exposure to violence, killing animals, it can all amount to advancing the spectrum of psychopathy. I guess i'm just a weak individual looking for a way out.
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>>292290psychological projection is very real, but irl psychopaths and narcissists especially, will most likely think there's nothing wrong with them because psychological labels are for "crazy" people
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>>287879>my problems in general are of social nature>anything w other people is not fun at allPlease do not take that as a problem. You are just on a way towards better types than those you are used to frequent
>envy of cluster BWhy? Such creatures are only to be caged and tortured, when not merely frustrated by stonewalling
>psychopathy is very beneficialThat's mostly due to some others doing nothing to make it fail, while the cattle falls for the tricksters.
>psychopathy can be answer in certain situationsWell, sometimes fools are to be paid with their own coins, aren't they? Just be sure they do not know where it came from, to stay safe yourself.
>I am cluster ACome on! This site was designed for you. What are you ruminating so deep to not be shared with these comrades?
>easy targetSo they are. The trick is to not be seen, while attacking always critical points in such a way that they may never recover. I think you are just being too merciful towards someone around… cluster B hates something the most: to be shown impotent and endangered publicly, without knowing what to do.
>>287888I was also bullied. Until decided that it was me the one to put the rules while discarding normos away due to their foolishness and vanity. It worked better as I went on improving details about it.
>probably deserved most of itMaybe, but not under their hands.
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The research on dark triad shit shows that they're perpetually unsatisfied with life and suffer from boredom more intensely than everyone else. The people with the light triad are the ones more satisfied with their lot in life.
The poor impulse control that usually gets packaged results in drug abuse. And because they think they're "special", they ignore all the bad aspects of their drug abuse and live in a lala land of thinking they're immune to the worst effects. This is especially common with bpd succubi who go from pretty and pristine to toothless meth addicts within a decade.
Their intrigues often fail because they're not as smart as they think they are. You can see this with Kiwifarm weens doing little gayops on retarded individuals that often blow up in their faces. The bad ones perpetually burn through jobs and really are only found in high risk, dangerous industries with high staff turnover rates. They get fired, burn through relationships and just keep on starting over again and again.
ASPD is heavily correlated with low intelligence. The "le smart ones don't get caught" is a cope because juvenile delinquency happens before they get smart and is when most are detected. The prisons are filled to the brim with ASPD tards that test between 80-95 on a test. It's a dummy's disorder.
>>289527When given a podium and interest, they love to play up their disorder and make out there's no downsides. It's part of the need to feel superior and impressive. ASPD people have a tremendous amount of negative emotions. They're perpetually jealous and sensitive to criticism. You know the old people that put razor blades and screws through slides on kids playgrounds? That's them when they get old and close to their death, they're so vindictive and jealous of kids they just want to destroy their health.
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>>292713You're probably right about how they downplay the negatives, it's part of their disorder.
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>>287879((Personality disorders))