>How do I increase my attention span?
The question framed in this way considers attention span as just an isolated abstract variable which can be increased and decreased like a gauge on a machine. In reality, attention is the result of meaningful interaction with the environment. I'm assuming your goal isn't to just have the ability to stare at a plant for hours on end, it's about attention being used in a specific meaningful context.
>my attention gets interrupted in about 15-20 minutes, and I wish to look for something more compelling, which I fail most of the time.
There's nothing wrong with your attention. "Practicing" attention only builds the habit of ignoring inner experience, which in this case would lead you further away from the real problem and wouldn't be particularly useful to you. The key question here isn't attention, but what you find "compelling". Your goal of "increasing attention" is logical, but fails to consider the broader context. You do not find anime or games to be "compelling", why would you want to stare at them further? You don't find the way you spend your attention as meaningful and hence you drift away in search of something else.
The problem space in this situation is much broader. Your conscious goals are directed towards keeping stability in a previous state where you could enjoy anime and games, but a part of you is satiated by these things and wants something more. This is a chance to grow by focusing on your inner experience, listening to "yourself" (all parts of yourself) and understanding what your true needs are, where you "attention" might serve a better purpose or parts which you have neglected.
The alternative is "practice" which is a blunt tool in my opinion. Even if you manage to force yourself to focus, you're just doing yourself a disservice because this would only logically simply build ways of ignoring this part of you that needs something more "compelling". This is a misguided approach as, like I said, your goal isn't simply to increase "attention span" but to be meaningfully engaged with the world. It's not hard to understand how you're shooting yourself in the foot by ignoring inner experience which is a prime tool for understanding that which we actually find meaningful.
I've never even considered this. Thank you for this post.
But I don't think there is anything else for me to do aside from watching anime, playing vidya, or reading. As I've stated in the earlier posts, my computer is the only difference between me and a prisoner who lives in solitary confinement, and I don't think there is or there can ever be something more compelling than what I'm doing.
I'm just lost and helpless right now. I don't think I can obtain that meaning no matter what I do.
I know it's a radical idea but…. ever thought of just turning off your jewphone?
Ever thought of moving outside Alaska?
pay more attention duh