I just spent 40 minutes receiving continuous pain getting 2 fillings from my female dentist (looks to be in her 30s) and 60 minutes prior to that getting a cleaning (scaling of hardened plaque known as tartar) prior to that from a female hygenist (looked to be in her 20s). Since I am a virgin and don't even date or have any female friendships, this is pretty much the most intimate interaction I've ever had with succubi, and it is very strange to me.
Particularly because I haven't been to the dentist in about 10 years and only got around to it recently because of getting my NEETbux and seeing visible cavities in the mirror and feeling pain and realizing I don't want to lose my teeth because I don't want to restrict my options of eating or losing jaw stability in case I get punched during some supermarket chimpout.
I think this falls within the guidelines of rule 2. This isn't romance, this is paid professionals doing their job and me trying not to choke on my own saliva and mucous (I started a horrible throat/nose cold yesterday) or couch and get a hole punctured through my cheek.
That said… some of these pros do have decent mannerisms and even though I realize they must detest me, some primal part of me does kinda buy into it and feel relaxed and cared for. I believe it is part of their training to ask questions, get people to feel at ease, feign interest in their clients. I know that consciously but I have a very active imagination which runs away with me when I'm bored (for some reason they put Ellen on the TV and I'm not assertive enough to ask them to change it) which I think influences subconscious reactions to them.
What was embarrassing to me is casual questions they ask are kinda triggering for my being shamed for society about my lifestyle. She asked if I had plans after my appointment and I said no… then if I was working and I said no…
I think my shame is reducing though because in the past when people would ask me if I was working, I would be misleading and say I was a "temp worker" which is technically true (I worked for a temp agency about 6 years ago) but it implies I work for them recently, which I haven't, because I was late and got fired and I've been too embarrassed (or maybe lazy or prideful to work at minimum wage) to ask my agency if they'd led me try working again…
But since I simply said I wasn't working now, I think I've just gotten more comfortable (lPost too long. Click here to view the full text.