I feel like I've finally hit an impassable wall when it comes to gaming. My actual time spent playing anything has taken a steep nose dive this year and I'm not sure if it'll ever recover. Days, and even weeks, go by now where I don't play anything at all. I also become fatigued while playing far more easily than usual, which is something I could usually endure/ignore, but now I can't even do that. I feel like I've been fighting a losing battle since the beginning of 2014, which is precisely when I'd say gaming started to really sour for me and ever since it's been more a struggle that I force myself to do, versus something I actually want to do for its own sake.
In my case, this has just as much to do with my autism/OCD as it has to do with simple anhedonia/burnout. There's still a gigantic amount of games out there that, as of this moment, I could very easily torrent/emulate and get to playing if I really wanted to. The sorts of games that I'm still interested in and that I still would like to get to at some point. The problem is that I can't enjoy anything and trying to motivate myself to sit down with a game and actually play it feels like pulling teeth, or having to drag my ass to some job I fucking hate. I honestly could care less what the current state of video games are. You see people whinging about it on here all the time, but, personally, I think it's really overblown and it's clear to see how there are still tons of games that come out that are still good and more than decent enough to play and enjoy. In the end, the problem just comes back to me, which is exactly what I'd argue is the case with anyone else who complains about the "state of gaming today" (that being, that it's ultimately their own problem), and the fact that, for me, I can't motivate myself to play anything I actually want to play.
I've been grappling with gaming burnout and anhedonia for a long time now, but I've kept forcing myself to keep at it because there's just nothing else for me to do, aside from watching random stuff like films/anime/shows, which I should really just focus on as a sort of break, or whatever, from gaming for a little while, or for however long it takes, instead of constantly forcing myself along like I need to meet a fucking work quota for the month of games finished. The thing is though is that, while some might think it ridiculous, I'm actually of the firm belief that society will probably collapse, or at the very least become muchPost too long. Click here to view the full text.