>>308363>SchizoidHey that's me! And I agree completely with what you say to be honest, at least I'm not depressed anymore, if I was, college would have actually made me commit suicide.
It's been horrible to be honest, I can mask well enough to where people have no mayor issues working/interacting with me (they do know I'm not normal, and I've been told so a couple of times by normies) but I'm kinda masked and dissociated during and after class, genuinely I have to lay down for a good chunk of time, utterly defeated and tired after I get home from that shit.
Not only that, due to the anhedonia and apathy I don't give a shit about my degree (forced to get it by parents, I won't lol) and not only is my career hard as shit (medicine), it's super social so I'm genuinely dying, the worst part is of course I'm not built for this career or higher education in general (always hated studying and the education system as a whole) but my parents really want me to get a degree and I'm a leech in a third world country, so what can I really do, not like it matters too much when I'm home as I just bury myself in my hobbies, I don't really derive much pleasure from them mind you, like barely a bit here and there but they're a good way to burn time till I eventually die, and overall better than watching paint dry while I daydream.
Anyways, I relate to what you say, college ain't built for people with certain mental illnesses, especially if they have no drive/desire for that education to begin with, but well, not like we can do much, and working isn't particularly better, we genuinely are not built for society as you say, fuck this is so tiresome, good luck wizard, hopefully we'll both have a good ending, I'm definitely flunking one or two classes this semester, maybe my parents will finally get the memo and allow me to work or something.