>>229249I'm in a similar position that I haven't escaped so…
I don't think this will help, but I've reached a conclusion (at 30 now) that it is time to focus on output and limiting, heavily curating input.
A lot of the things you mention are still input oriented. So for example the productive hobby you mention being programing, what did you create with it?
Language, what information did you convey using it and to whom and why?
If the answer is nothing, then you just consumed information for no reason. Might as well have jerked off at that point.
I feel like personally all my bandwidth mentally has been taken up by consumption, because there is just so much stuff out there that even if I no longer get a "high" from it, it's just easier and more comforting to live in fantasy land why scrolling through manga.
Reading stuff on here is also still mostly input with no action taken based on it.
Every day there is so much stuff that gets filtered through my brain that I have absolutely no use for.
I'm trying to limit it heavily and focusing more on action, utilizing knowledge, only learning more about something if I need to and only as much as I need to get to where I want to be.
I'm also now trying to create and share my creations with others instead of just consuming what others have created.
I guess a TLDR would be that it's easy to feed endless input/information into your brain daily while barely if at all processing it into anything useful.
I feel like a lot of more competent wizards that have this weird anhedonia/burnout thing might relate. Then again, this is mostly just my subjective experience, don't want to paint you with my brush or whatever the saying is.