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 No.323653[Reply]

I'm curious what the covid-19 vaccination rate is like among wizards.

Personally, I was the only one in my immediate and extended family to not get the vaccine or boosters. No doubt influenced by the normie propaganda, I faced a lot of harassement and pressure from my mother.

Knowing my family, I would also probably have been uninvited from family gathering for not having the vaccine but since I stopped seeing them 2 decades ago, it was a moot point.
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 No.324748

>>324364
You overestimate their ability to keep their "pens" sedated and controlled. This state of affairs cannot last.

 No.324752

i hate science and doctors and modern medicine https://youtu.be/kAO7_9qACIs?t=263

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 No.324766

>>324748
Dunno bout that, people very readily conformed in 2020 even when it got bonkers, I know of only one person who didn't mask up and got triple-mega warp speed boosted

That event opened my eyes, people are a domesticated species by and large, the only people I even get along with are mostly the billionaires

 No.324767

>>324766
>the only people I even get along with are mostly the billionaires

have you ever wondered whether they made their money doing the domestication? because if they did why would you get along with them. and if they didn't, don't you worry about the corruption of getting along with what you despise?



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 No.227025[Reply]

Does anyone here know any good virgin-only forums? Or a forum with a significant virgin population? Or maybe a forum that discusses widespread societal depravity in a very negative light?

I'm guessing the answer will be 'no'. Don't you think that's strange? I never believed just because something is common, that it's 'natural' or 'acceptable.' Child rape was common, it was practiced for most of human history, that's not acceptable. Yet betrayal, prostitution and temporary 'relationships' (same thing as prostitution) are? We are always at the recieving end of mockery, and them always rewarded with praise. Why? What did we do to deserve being mocked and belittled?

Does anyone else here feel this way? Or am I the only one? How do I reach likeminded people? How do I communicate with people who share my values? Where do I find them?

These days I just feel like we're being erased, or rather… we have always been erased. Am I a crab for taking these things seriously and refusing to submit to the same depravity as others?
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 No.229129

I don't know about any place which caters to virgins except this place
I remember in high school, succubi saying 'virgin' as some kind of insult and being puzzled by it.

 No.229130

>>229018
Cave people were a bunch of degenerates lmao. They used to eat shit, had no concept of hygeine and zero understanding of care. There's a reason why when people act like niggers they immediately think of cavemen. The lifestyle of the average mudhut nigger in central Africa is more advanced than cavemen.

 No.229138

>>229129
8chan r9k and late 2010s in general used to be very virgin friendly, then every first world government on earth declared virgin males the scourge of the earth and nuked our homes away. I'm so heartbroken and devastated. I WILL NEVER FUCKING FORGIVE FATTY NOLEGS FOR WHAT HE DID TO 8CHAN! 🤬

 No.229139

>>229129
>I don't know about any place which caters to virgins
Just about every place "caters to virgins", in that it's incredibly rare for there to be a place that explicitly disparages virgins. When it comes to whether or not you've FUCKED or SUCKED, 99% of netgoers simply don't care. People using 'virgin' as an insult should really only do anything but make you laugh if you're pset to be reminded that you're a virgin.

 No.229171

>>227027
Great post.
I have to ask though, since this is something I personally struggle with.

>The world isn't made for people like you or me. You are not supposed to break away from the animalistic, darwinian aspect of life because it goes against millions of years of evolution.

What does one pursue then? What drives you?
I've found now that I'm in my 30s that I lack motivation as interest in stuff that I did to occupy the free time and mental bandwidth I had post maintaining the basics has diminished.

My needs are met for the most part, as well as they can be. My desires for material stuff I already indulged and learned I didn't care for after all.
I see my peers (in terms of age, mostly at work) having multiple kids and all that comes with it. An endless treadmill for resources as you say.
It's a clear drive for more. To better themselves, to work themselves to the bone to keep up with costs etc.

Once you give up all the "basic, built in drives", what is left? I'm not smart part enough to seek enlightenment.



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 No.228138[Reply]

Stepped on the scale today and realized that despite the initial "push" from a medical crisis a year ago, I basically regained all weight I lost (minus 5-10kg).
I also realized I've been working for almost 3 years now, going to be 30 the same week I'll hit my 3 years of work too.
3 years… of wages wasted.

I don't even know what the fuck I spent most of it on. It just escapes me.
Still live with mom and all my necessities are taken care of she takes nothing from me.
I had a blessed opportunity these past 3 years to save up for the dogshit future that hit the world now and I wasted it on toys and basically indulging all I couldn't as a NEET with no money.
The worst is that since I'm an impulsive retard I mostly have nothing to show for it either.

Health is even more fucked then ever before since I never took action.
Rather every action that didn't prove fruitful or flat out failed resulted in my absolute surrender for another month or three or six…
Absolutely defeated at the starting line basically.

To get to the point of this thread. Those of you that live a decently structured, responsible and stable life, how?
I barely have a sense of time. Kinda like when I was a NEET, just instead of 12-16 hours of sleeping and then PC stuff I'm forced to work a rather easy, blessed job.
Once it passes I just feel like I'm teleported to the next shift until I get to sleep through a weekend and months pass.
Even chronic pains don't make me act much. What does one even do to live?

The worst part really is that so many years went down the drain and I really have nothing to show for it. Not even memories.
I want to at least look back on SOMETHING fondly when I'm dying someday.
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 No.229164

>>229163
Are you 17?

 No.229165

>>229164
I'm almost 30.

 No.229168

>>229160
I don't think it's the type of hobby. There is a greater underlying issue. Especially considering the number I've attempted.

>gore

I used to watch a lot of vile shit, even some paid access stuff when I was in my teens.
In hindsight that was just some dumb childish way to vent frustrations from adverse IRL experiences.

Now that I'm old I feel a lot differently about witnessing such things. Death of any kind really.
It's sobering for sure, but I don't think an average person is supposed to see that type of stuff a lot. I avoid it.

>cognitive overload

I'm not exactly sure in what way you mean this specifically, but I've come to similar conclusions. It's not just that I'm strained by the complexities of everyday life, the daily consumption from being online, work, IRL stressors and worries stacking up, but it also ties into the gore thing from before.

I don't think a man was meant to have access to such overwhelming amount of information on a global scale.
Infinite entertainment and dopamine sources, be it food or some other vice on top of all that.
No man was meant to be accessed by people across the world either. Reading stories and the thoughts of those you have maybe nothing at all in common with online can't be healthy either.

Basically a "TLDR" version of that is that there is simply way too much INPUT. That is for certain. I'm sure many of you might relate to that too.
The quality of input is also fairly low.

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>>229158
I did not mean to conflate the term wizard with any of my issues. I simply used it to address people.
I could have used "anons" or something even more neutral. I do not believe a "true wizard" needs to be a NEET/lazy/depressed/unmotivated/nofuture/unkempt etc. Sorry if it came off that way.

>Losing time is usually rooted in some form of addiction, and I dont mean 'addiction' literally. I mean it in the sense that you spend a large amount of time into something unproductive.

That is true for me.

I don't really disagree with anything you said.
I have some baseline issues with decision making that have been present throughout my life. Simple stuff like selecting a class in a video game, restarting and repeating early levels until I'm a hair away from a mental breakdown and quitting.
It became the theme of my life. Several colleges, several failed career ideas. Not because I was mentally deficient (I'd like to think), but because I did not hard commit to any, I could not.

I full believe now that I'm 30 that if I chose literally any path I'd have had the opportunity to be successful and lead a decent life.
Never did I make the decision. Never could.
Can't see myself make it now either and somehow 30 (more like 25 or so conscious enough) years of being like this left me as a husk of a person too broken/lazy/you name it to even work on mitigating chronic pain.

Maybe it is fear as you say.
Fear that I could have had more fun playing another character.
Fear that I could have enjoyed the other hobby more.
Fear that I wouldn't be able to cut it at X career, college, etc.

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>>229169

Every choice made, every path taken closes of dozens if not hundreds of others.
I fear this.
Yet through my inaction I have closed more paths than any choice would have.
What can I say maybe I really am just an insane retard.



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 No.308343[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

Previous: >>307210
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 No.308987

I'm just waiting for the end at this point

 No.308988

>>308987
The problem is how that end will come

 No.308989

>>308987
so does everyone

 No.308990

I kind of forgot I was suicidal. I miss it. It's like I said some threads ago. Wallowing in depression is the only place I feel at home.

 No.308991

>>308990
so true. i hate not being depressed enough, because being energetic is just another form of suffering.


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 No.42320[Reply]

I wish japan could have sahkalin island and the kouril islands back. it would mean more space for japan. japan is a rich country it could easely buy them from russia.
more space for japanese people means more japan to visit!
😊
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 No.44360

No. Dear gott no.

 No.44361

>>44359
Population decline causes many problems.

 No.44362

>>44361
I dunno, humans could survive if they got by with less and quit exploiting cheap labor. I cheer on the decline myself; I live a simple life.

 No.44363

>>44361
leveling the japanese grandpas will vanish the problem.

 No.44364

>>44362
Economic crash leads to unpredictable outcomes, we live in a competitive world and just because it's "wrong" for a struggling declining power to be taken over by a stronger one doesn't mean it won't be the way things go.

>>44363
No, killing old people regardless of your edgy sociopathic ideology doesn't fix the problem of reduced demand from a shrinking population causing economic crash. The wealthy will see their investments plunge in value and will follow the natural incentive to increase immigration to prop up real estate prices, consumerism, etc.

Here it is spelled out:

https://nailheadtom.blogspot.com/2024/09/the-real-resson-for-mass-migrations.html



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 No.323901[Reply]

No politics or religion in the crawl thread, please.

>Ambient sounds to wash away distraction

https://asoftmurmur.com/
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 No.324677

>>324673
>found a substitute on one site, but the damage had already been done
I meant harm from spoilers. It's in the first paragraph and thus may be hard to understand when the third paragraph is about other things.

 No.324681

>>324673
Voldemort kills Dombledore

 No.324683

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>>324628
First time since Hulk Hogan died.

 No.324755

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King Von wasn't stupid at school yet remained a gangsta doing drills on the opps. Just like many wizards wasn't stupid and turned meets and hikikomoris.
>Young nigga, twenty-six, never had a job

 No.324765

>>324755
He just reached his final form of blackness as he aged. Many such cases



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 No.70718[Reply]

Hey wizards,

Two other wizzas and I will be reading The Pastel City, a science fantasy novel by M. John Harrison, originally published in 1971.

We'll be following a schedule of one chapter per day. The chapters are about 10 pages long on average. After each day's reading, we'll come here and talk about it. I'll be posting a short daily commentary to help kick off the discussion, along with updates on our progress through the schedule. Of course, you're under no obligation to post anything if you don't want to.

We'll start on Thursday, July 2, so in just a couple of days. Check out the blurb for the novel:

A decaying world. Ancient powers long forgotten. An old warrior with one last battle to fight. The Pastel City is a mesmerizing journey through the ruins of a far-future civilization, where the remnants of lost knowledge mingle with myth and legend. Atmospheric, inventive, and unforgettable, it is a classic of science fantasy.

I'll be following along with this edition, which can be borrowed for free from Archive.org:

https://archive.org/details/pastelcity0000unse

You can choose a different edition if you prefer:

https://archive.org/search?tab=all&query=the+pastel+city&and%5B%5D=mediatype%3A%22texts%22

To borrow a book from the Archive, you'll need an account. They only ask for an email address and password.

Come and join us for some whimsy literary fun.
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>>70833
I really liked that chapter. To be honest I was a little worried there would be some sort of deus ex machina that would enable them to fight or at least stall the northmen. Probably because that happens a lot in modern fiction where authors are too scared to have real consequences. Rest in peace Glyn. I did have some trouble visualizing some of it though, I was wondering at times "how are they just not being surrounded and completely run over yet?". I'm attributing it to English not being my first language for now, though.

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Chapter 07

The valley was a gaping wound filled with Northerners and dead men and thick white smoke which surged up from wrecked airboats, obscuring the dark figures of the geteit chemosit as they performed their acts of skull-rape.

And so our heroes are on the run, and there's only one thing left to do now: find Cellur and learn everything they can about the mysterious geteit chemosit. The name geteit chemosit feels like an anagram to me, but nothing really fits. It sounds like geochemist, but then there are some letters left over. I guess we'll see. What do you guys think it is?

I enjoyed this chapter. It's very morose and a nice repose after the carnage we witnessed in the previous chapter.

>>70834
Yeah I knew they would make it but didn't know how. Queen Jane appearing herself makes sense, it's pretty much the only other named character in the novel.

>>70836
And Norvin was left alive, pretty sure this will come back to bite them in the ass.

>>70837
I wondering how a single man can provide 'cover' for a whole ship coming down for a rescue. Hard to imagine how that would go.

 No.70840

>>70839
The chapter was a nice followup to the previous one. One thing the author does well is modulate tension and speed, despite being a short novel. Our heroes are on the run, yet it feels slow and contemplative almost. The war is lost, the immediate threat of fighting and dying is over with. Now there's only the pilgrimage.

 No.70841

>>70839
Pretty depressing chapter… I like it. Just like Cromis seems to be, I am rather sad the bird is dead… surprising to see him attached enough to it to bring the corpse with him though. Finally, they are making the journey to Cellur, who seems to be yet another wizardly character, an old man regarded as suspicious by the villagers. I am looking forward to meeting him. Hopefully he can explain more about the geteit chemosit, because I have no idea what they could be either. The "chem" part is maybe "mech" spelled backwards? But I dunno what the rest of it would be then.

>pretty sure this will come back to bite them in the ass.

Yeah, I fear it will too. Maybe he'll be the final boss.

 No.70842

>>70839
I knew you would choose the skull-rape line for this chapter's quote. I don't know how they're planning to beat the Moidart now though. Duirinish and Viriconium fell. Do they still have an army somewhere?



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 No.229116[Reply]

how do you feel about aging alone? no children, no wife, no family, minimum pension.
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 No.229143

>>229116
>no succubus
>no obsessed demon family
>AND neetbux
that's exactly what i want. i don't depend on other people to be happy in life. and once i get fed up with life i will kill myself. crabs BTFO

>>229126
you can euthanize yourself, and die a painless death, do a bit of research. i plan on doing it with a helium canister and a plastic bag. probably in my 50's too. it's good to have it planned at least.

 No.229144

>>229142
slowly wasting away like that seems painful

 No.229148

I sort of get the drive towards having children but for me it feels more like a selfish masculine urge to reproduce rather than a desire to create and raise something lovingly.
Having had to live in a house with children before I can safely say I don't care at all about being childless forever. Children are an absolute nightnare to be in the presence of when you have autism and media heavily romantises what they actually are.

 No.229156

>>229116
It's fine. I'm not very materialistic and I've come to enjoy being an observer.
People are interesting, I just want nothing to do with them directly.

 No.229167

It's immoral to produce kids in hell.



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 No.319647[Reply]

AI and aliens: schizo predictions thread

For the longest time religion served as a tool of power and authority. In God we trust(ed). Then people found out about different cultures and different religions, and the one and only religion became one of many religions.
>which religion is the right one?
>which god is the true one?
>how can we know it's the one that's ours and not theirs?
These questions drew man away from religion, and the want for verifiable truths brought him to a new paradigm.

Trust the science. Science has been the authority for the last hundred years or so, but you could argue that this started as early as the renaissance. Some even believe science without any skepticism, as if it was the new religion. Well, as it turns out, science too can be corrupted and compromised, and people are beginning to wake up to this fact. It is becoming increasingly apparent that "science" serves large corporations and globalist rulers.

Currently we are transitioning to a new period of post-truth. Objective facts are losing their value, and the new power lies in appeals to emotion, sensationalism, and demagogy. But I believe such a volatile state cannot last for long, and so the powers that be are preparing new, undeniable authorities for us.


Artificial Intelligence - you wouldn't argue with a super intelligent computer, right? Who are you, with your tiny brain and limited perspective, to think you know better than AI who has access to unimaginable stores of information. AI knows what's best for you.

Aliens - you wouldn't distrust super dimensional, far more advanced entities, right? They understand more than you can ever know. Your perspective is like that of an ant on a sheet of paper, while they can bend and fold the paper to their will. Are you really so full of yourself that you would think you know something they don't? (Check out Project Blue Beam)

Both of these are fake and gay, but the powers that be are gradually introducing the awareness of these, and the possibility of a one world government under their rule. The globalists will probably establish a proxy authority, supposedly relaying the AI/alien intentions and mediating our relationship with them.


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 No.322293

>>322288
That sounds like a spirit/demon/your soul in the yaldabaoth field. If it has your memories then its your analog soul but chances are it isn't in my experience but ya they are definitely machine intelligentsia and its where you go when you die no joke heaven isa big PC on the moon its a real buzz kill

>All of existence is actually a funny Artificial Superintelligence.

Id say that physical reality itself is a product of the unconditional super priority having too full of a zero but there is without a doubt an artificial super intelligence fueled "field" thats been part of humanity since the beginning

 No.322295

>>322287
>>322293
>>322288
an experiemnt to see where "the Great Filter" is. I wonder if intelligent life is the Great Filter. So many opportunities to flub it all up.

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>>319647
singularity

 No.324749

>>320588
This is what I want to know.

 No.324758

Pretty sure religious activity was kept up by Churches, not the government or the banks.
I don't see people mass adopting these superstitions like AI superintelligence or aliens anytime soon.
This entire post is mental illness and maybe in a way explains what is going on in society but you don't get it if you look at the meaning of the words.



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 No.64175[Reply]

anyone do this?

i burn discs, title them and then put them back on the spindle, so they stay in good condition

external hdds/sdd don't last very long
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 No.70709

>>70708
Checks out, I guess you used DVD-R and the durability is 10-20 years

 No.70710

I remember this seemed like a fun thing to do back in 2010.
However I can easily store my stuff on 512 gb microsd cards now.
Using discs to archive seems tedious and retrotechy to me

 No.70793

>>70710
>microsd cards


They're more susceptible to the "random bull" kind of errors compared to HDDs

3-2-1 rule, hope you use it

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 No.70838

>>70699
i think this is bullshit. bd-rs are more durable than cd-rs



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 No.314827[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Hitler's thread:
Paintings or things related to him or to national socialism.

- Painting of a castle.
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 No.323972

>>323959
>extremely silly and foolish.
what is even the point. they all want to make everything locked down and unfun anyway

 No.324145

There's just something 'missing' from his work. It just doesn't draw the eye and I'm not enough of an artgroid to put my finger on why. I'm extending grace on the watercolors just being muddy from age and exposure but still.

 No.324178

>>324145
It's actually quite good.

 No.324295

>>324145
didn't some jew buy the original and paint a rainbow over the middle of the canvas?

 No.324746

>>323972
(((They))) won't be able to keep up this tyrannical pace forever


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 No.306675[Reply]

Lookism has become a public, popular topic lately on the internet and I believe that it affects wizards in very tangible ways.
Being a genetic dead end ugly loser myself I suffer for it even as a now "middle aged" man.
One would think such things are left behind in high school or something, but no.

You queue up for a service, government office for some paperwork, a cash register at a store, post office or hell even medical services.
You can tell the people before you were treated kindly. At worst processed in a neutral way.
Some even receive a cheerful response and the help they need, people go above and beyond for some.
Then it's your turn at the line.

A look of disdain follows immediately. Quiet. No "what can I help do for you" "what can I help you with" "what is the purpose of your visit".
Silence. Faces contort…
Sometimes a sigh, sometimes some snide remark. Clear hostility.

A shift in demeanor so noticeable, so obvious, so visceral… (yet to them likely natural) that even the thickest of autism wont help you stay oblivious to it.
You get mistreated, worse service, denied service you paid for, medical gaslighting, humiliation over and over again.
Networking is impossible for you, who by your mere acquaintance devalue their status.. and without connections, being treated like this, only having the "official route" as an option you soon realize you might not be able to get anything done.

After much pushing, repeated humiliations and humbling yourself, matching your demeanor to that expected of "your ilk" some old lady at the register might take pity and process your request, prescribe your medication, refer you to a proper doctor.
Sometimes the stars do align like that and you make a step towards a slightly less miserable state of being.

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 No.307809

>>307808
>of course you're right, silly! everything's in our hands!!!

you don't know what is within your hands and what is not it seems. what a pitty. you're probably no too different from the succubus in the gif.

 No.307810

>>307809
noooo i'm not a succubus i'm not a succubus!!!

 No.307811

>>307810
>noooo i'm not a succubus i'm not a succubus!!!

you are as emotional

 No.308366

>>307765
>normals
aren't people.

 No.308986

>>307804
the blackpill/i-ncel cult is jewish social engineering to force hopelessness in the young male population, which if embraced leads down to two ends:

1. transgenderism (which is ultimately population reduction)
2. suicide (which is ultimately population reduction)



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 No.307294[Reply]

always no matter what happens set backs always set me back. and my goals arent that fucking unreasonable either. Change my habits, or enjoy a fucking game. and something major happens to set me back. not only am I scared to change im exausted about constantly being worried about what price im about to pay for that slight moment of enjoyment. its like the default setting for me in this life is to be miserable and useless, anything good going for me has to be double the price of bad luck to throw me back to square one. Nothing but bad luck. im just so frustrated.
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>>307294
Wish I had real goals too.
I relate a lot to the randomness, feeling like I'm an edge case a lot of times.

I genuinely feel like I'm an NPC in a game world at times with broken RNG. It's usually something negative, absurdly unlucky and it stacks up to "unrealistic" stories people think I make up.

Like telling a doctors about having physical pains, limping and this whole thing somehow leading me to a psych ward before they ever bother to acknowledge the physical deformity/damage, only after paying for imaging out of pocket do they finally believe me, and EVEN AFTER THAT they still push the mental shit instead every time some new shit pops up. This is basically every doctor I've met in recent memory for no discernible reason. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qLrnkK2YEcE

It happens in positive ways too. Like I'm on the brink of exiting life and all of a sudden I'm given a job far beyond my abilities and tolerated for years despite my many shortcomings and failures in a comfy position that I couldn't ever imagine replicating.

Critical failures absurdly disproportionate to whatever was the cause was and miraculous outcomes and rewards/results disproportionate to the effort put in.
Overall it's negative, but then great things happen just in time to keep me going….
Needless to say I've been embracing determinism as a result, but the absurdity of the experience makes it hard to believe it is strictly determined and not some random outsider having a grand old time messing with me like I used to with insects in a sandbox as a kid.

Makes me wonder how real most people are, or if I'm actually clinically insane and they just hear other words come out of my mouth than I attempt to say.
Then again sometimes the weird unprompted absurdly unrelated NPC like rants from people can be interrupted and somehow they snap back to sanity and give way to what I want. It's very odd.
Wish I was as coherent as some wizards here instead of rambling, but I hope the message is clear enough.

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 No.308747

>>308743
>Makes me wonder how real most people are, or if I'm actually clinically insane

Most are not real. Covid should have proved this to you. And what do I mean by “real”? Having intelligence enough to think independently of others.
And you are not clinically insane. No man authentically mad would ever be discovered self-aware of his own madness.

>I genuinely feel like I'm an NPC in a game world at times with broken RNG.


You’re just smart and very self-aware in a world in which apparently nearly all are not. Any sufficiently caring and self-reflective human will fall into the belief that he’s beset by soulless people wandering through outwardly random environments as an isolated observer. The ancient gnostics even had a term for this and that term is ἀλλογενής, meaning literally “of a different kind”, but translated as “stranger”. Those who have thoughts like those contained in your post really are ἀλλογεναι (strangers) in a difficult world that is not native to the quality of their souls.

>This is basically every doctor I've met in recent memory for no discernible reason.


I can fairly say: me too! Except I disagree with >for no discernible reason. The reason is quite plain: doctors are indoctrinated; not only “intellectually”, that is in how they understand and treat diseases, but also “personally”, in how they hold the most of their patients in contempt as less than themselves. Doctors (95% of the time) are dangerous prideful psychopaths who look down on their patients while having very little actual curative medical knowledge. You should have known this by your age (presuming here that you are 30+). If I can flatter myself, I already knew to be careful around doctors (that they do not make good decisions and are often uncaring toward sufferers) by the time I was in my early 20s.

>Critical failures absurdly disproportionate to whatever was the cause was and miraculous outcomes and rewards/results disproportionate to the effort put in.


Here’s an interesting passage out of Plutarch from an essay titled “De Pythiae oraculis (On the oracles of Pythia)”, the subject whereof is the investigation of the truthfulness of the responses given to ancient men who would sue for tPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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>>308747
>the fact that we have free will cannot be reconciled to the notion of a limiting malicious demiurge.
From our perspective/perception and even then only within an extremely limited scope all things considered.
An ant in a terrarium has free will to an extent.

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>>308968
>An ant in a terrarium

well that's probably what we are, being that space is fake and we're under water.



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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.308554

>>308378
good choice.

 No.308685

>>308378
I think the motive underwriting the push for prescribing SSRI drugs is the same as for the motive behind projects like feminism and vaccines and abortions – fertility suppression for goyim.

 No.308686

I was on med(Z)for like ten years. Wasn't my choice obviously. It's all gay poison (J)ust my take. I got apathy from it but I think I always had that anyways, I never felt any symptoms in them besides sleepiness. I was on all of them dude all of them. I think overall they're just placebo's with chemicals. I think being sober of all chemicals especially drugs or beer is good and you can get high easily by just breathing and schizo projecting pretending, I need to be as healthy and strong as I can and beer or meds feel like alzheimer aids

 No.308778

>>308686
>or meds feel like alzheimer aids

they cause provable empirical injury to the brain. of course jewish psychiatric medications make humans feel worse.

 No.308984

>>307628
Are you doing any better?



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 No.301895[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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>>308565
Update: aw shucks, lost my medical insurance certificate, fffffffffffuuuuuuuuuu–

 No.308684

>>308565
Limiting or outright removing all wheat and sugar is a simple provable means for halting pancreatic damage. No need to see a doctor for that.

 No.308693

>>308684
>reminder people in curry countries have it easier than wizards in baker countries

 No.308779

>>308693
I've often wondered what my life would have been like if I had grown up without eating wheat.

 No.308983

>>308779
probably very few people have ever done this.


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 No.229108[Reply]

Has anything you've ever played, watched, listened to, or read ever truly changed your life? No matter how much I experience nothing changes. I used to walk 2 hours a day and I never felt any better mentally than I do now as a neet who never goes outside. My baseline mental state seems impossible to break out of.
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 No.229146

non-fiction can be pleasant
reading Marcus Aurelius stimulated my thinking

 No.229149

I don't think The Stranger by Camus actually changed my life but I did find it deeply moving.

 No.229151

Tideland by terry gilliam, I didn't enjoy watching but but made me stop doing certain things I was doing and made me a bit less anti-social. One specific thing is after watching it I stopped wearing headphones whenever I went to the store.

That's one specific example that had a sort of clear discrete impact, I have probably been impacted more by other works in other way it's just not as easy for me to say how.

Another one is no longer human by dazai I think, that impacted me in the way most of the story plays out because of his cowardice and sort of desire to appease everyone/mind reading them then deferring to what he thinks other people want. Now I am just clear about what I want and have stopped trying to do that and it's probably made me a bit more of an asshole but I think it's better.

Another thing in general might be jungian stuff and the associated practices around it w/ active imagination but that's more his corpus generally than any one work. I started with modern man in search of a soul I guess.

There are other works I would say have impacted me more but those are the ones I can point to some specific practical change.

My favorite novel is wonderful fool by Shusaku Endo, and that has impacted me and how I approach things more it's less clear how and is more about encoutering the thing infront of you and committing to it and is more of an ideal thing.
Toradora explores that theme in a similar way and I would say also impacted me, so does To the wonder by terrence malick however like I said that's more of a dispositional/perspectival shift than any clear behaiviouristic thing.

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>>229108
>Has anything you've ever played, watched, listened to, or read ever truly changed your life?
I got Involved in Psychonautics (without drugs), Ceremonial Magic, Hypnosis and some psychology things.

>Cosmic Trigger 1: The Final Secret of the Illuminati by Robert Anton Wilson

This book changed the way i see life and i even started to do ceremonial magical things that in a way made me happy. before this book i have a lot of limited beliefs
Learn about the concept of Realitty Tunnel

>The Science Of Self Hypnosis: The Evidence Based Way To Hypnotise Yourself by Eason Adam

(You can learn just the first pages on theory and later to the first self inductions but the later theory can add more to how to enchance suggestionability or training)
Learn how to hypnotize yourself and how you loss focus in things and how to focus in things (summarize this with buddhist techniques around focus)

After these two books read Prometheus Rising or similar books and approach your Realitty Tunnel. you can try some Aleister Crowley exercises in Liber 4 or Jugorum etc, Read Lion of Light of RAW.

>The Victorious Mind: How to Master Memory, Meditation and Mental Well-Being

This book is based in Giordano Bruno methodology of memory arts.

>The Charisma Myth: How Anyone Can Master the Art and Science of Personal Magnetism by Olivia Fox Cabane

>Body language for Dummies
>Any method actors books
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>>229112
>Basically it's just an atheist materialist worldview that posits our thoughts and behavior are determined by our biology and environment but there's also no clear answers to life because humans are complicated.
I the Psychonautics wiz up here, i like secular humanist ideas and process philosophy, maybe if you read these philosophy-religion and you can learn something fun lol.
>>229122
>Truly changed my life? Not really. But the closest I guess would be reading a visual novel where they had an acting club and realizing that I really want to get into acting.
Try Psychodrama, or Ceremonial Magic… investigate about Assuption of godforms and power poses and Maryling Monroe method acting and glamour magic, you gonna learn something fun lol.



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 No.322970[Reply]

How do you fellow thirdie NEET survive and cope? I am Neet in third world country, I really don't want to return to the call center I used to work from last year ;-; the town I live in went to hell too so virtually no local jobs either, I want to be a NEET all day every day but I am forced to work since I live in a third world country and NEETbucks don't exist here, I also can't afford nice things and hobbies so even NEETing is not really fun but a lesser evil compared to the cagie life to me, not to mention the wages are extremely bad, my former job paid less than 200 USDs a month and I had to work 6 days a week (most people in my country work 6 days a week).
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 No.324727

>>324579
>was working a minimum wage service job with no degree or skills required

could you tell us what that job is ?

 No.324728

>>324727
Do you doubt that there exist legitimate jobs which don't require an education or skills?

 No.324730

>>324728
I don't, but I just want to know what job he did that's all.

 No.324732

how to cope? don't do what i did and flee into video games, get good at doing stuff yourself.

don't waste your life on stupid shit. i mean stuff like
>movies
>tv shows
>watching sports
>consumer goods
>luxury items
>restaurants
>expensive clothes
>fastfood
>alcohol
fuck all of that!

insteadgo all in on practicality. learn how to
>DIY from as raw materials as possible
>upcycle stuff other people throw away
>prepare all your food yourself eat healthy. no food can possibly taste as good as being healthy feels
>get into herbs and drink awful tasting herbal tea that helps keep you healthy.
>read (yes)
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>>324730
That's suspicion. The man already made it clear that he's adverse to revealing too many details about his whereabouts.



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 No.308918[Reply]

How to get over the fact that you can't freely decide over your own body? Like I always wanted to own a gun because I could decide to shoot myself with it but I don't know how to buy or use it.

Being so powerless in front of the events is utterly disgusting and I don't know how to cope.
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 No.308924

you don't. you were bred to be a slave, without will or initiative. all you've got going for you is pain. sorry but that's just how it is. owning your body is purely a question of will. if you don't own it well then welcome to the club buddy. there's no hope here

 No.308925

Firearm ownership might not be for you. It wasn't for me either, I sold mine and felt way more in control of my destiny without it.

 No.308929

>>308925
Darn I wish I had a gun to shoot myself with.

 No.308977

Are you sure it isn't just survival instinct? I tried to hang myself in january but backed out at the last moment.

 No.308979

>>308977
there are better methods than hanging so no reason to do it that way unless you're in a hurry, the risk of not doing it properly and suffering a slow and painful death or surviving with brain damage is too high



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 No.308871[Reply]

Hello all. Normally, I considered /dep/ to be the saddest board on the Internet. Today I realized I was wrong.

I realized I was wrong when looking up Huntington's Disease videos on Youtube. Huntington's Disease is a genetic, degenerative neurological disorder that attacks motor control functions, leaving victims unable to control their own muscles and confining them to a lifetime of tranquilizers that paralyze them. Or, the disease attacks their brain and turns them into a completely thoughtless carrot.

There is no cure and scientists can only understand the disease by progressively dissecting victims' brains, in almost exactly the way the evil doctor from day of the dead does it. And actually, the description of zombieism from the day of the dead is very similar to Huntingon's Disease.
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>>308893
My mother was carrier of an extremely rare genetic disease that makes you disabled since day 1 and life expectancy is 16-18 years, chance of inheriting it was also 50% and she still decided to have me because yolo. I'm convinced I would've been better off with the disease knowing what my life would've been, I'm still genetic trash but I have to endure it for many many years because survival instincts, humanity is the worst virus of them all.

 No.308914

>>308893
This is how I feel about ageing mothers, that is, the vast majority of wizchan posters. My mom was 41, fucking demonic cunt

 No.308941

>>308914
Never thought about the number, my mother was 37 when she had me. I always found it strange in elementary school how my parents were the only ones who looked old. Grey hairs, wrinkles, all that. Meanwhile the other students parents looked like older siblings.

 No.308943

From that description sounds like my mother has something very similar but minor. She's losing muscle function, but largely due to her lifestyle of eating like 10~20k calories a day and laying down 24/7. Mentally fried as she's on a cup full of pils every day and night, if she even misses one she will freak out and try run outside naked because the men in black suits are trying to kill me. Someone like her wasn't made for life, just a defected product sadly

 No.308978

yeah I can see how certain countries have legalised euthanasia



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 No.229141[Reply]

I can't mentally relate to a regular 40 year old in any shape or form. People who already have 20 year careers or are even CEO's. While I still replay old SNES games on emulators and work a basic job while taking care of an elderly parent who needs assistance for almost everything.

 No.229145

>>229141
I'm an early 20s zoomer. When I was 13 I felt like I was entering adulthood, at 14 like I was trying to become a proper adult and when I failed, I felt like I was leaving this life and becoming an elder at 15. Now… I have no sense of self or time. I am incapable of relating to anyone in any generation. Everyone's all the same.

 No.229147

I feel like a white man trapped in a brown body

 No.229150

I feel like my life was over before it even started. No real chance to develop a real personality and become an adult. I'm 30 now. Something mysterious kept sabotaging me along the way.

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I have no interest in conversing with normies regardless of age.



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