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 No.228142[Reply]

im 18 and the sex is a idea that make me feel disgusting. I don´t have relation with succubus. I think that the sex is a form of engage with the word.
And while more i think i can see that my life is a fucking disaster for be thinking about have sex and be with a succubus all day.
But i dont want humilieate me and be some desesperated. also im ugly shitskin and low iq and social skills (coomer to)
in deep of my heart i believe that lose my virginity will make me happy, that a succubus listen my problems, and scare me the idea that while more times goes on the succubi have more experience and i stuck in back.
I know a contradiction. My point is that i wanna be alone and be happy alone.i dont wanna be part of that twisted system and circle what life is, but my wish chase me.
What recomendation give me? above all the wizard more olders. I think go to a psychiathrist to give me pills and practice some sport, but i dont wanna go to gym because i hate thats machines touch by all world and are many sucubus dresses like whore.

 No.228143

Create a little pony tulpa. Fap only to magical furry cartoon quadrupeds. Lift weights in your bedroom while blasting anime OSTs. Go for walks at nigh and kick over trashcans. This has worked for many men before.

 No.228144

>>228143
how i do it? every itme when i have sexual desires or wish of jerk off i see 2D and i only forced me think in 2d.
Make me audios to hypnotized me saying that 3D is shit and i dont need sex.
How???



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 No.4744[Reply]

Wizards, please share and discuss classical music in this thread. Hopefully some of the wonderful contributors from the previous thread are still around.
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 No.10656

>>10101
lo, apparently I was gaslit by multiple listenings. I pitch-shifted it two years ago and it sounded like garbage. I think he was just a second-rate Max Reger (who in turn is a second-rate Bruckner) who realized he could permute certain musical elements and blend them with chaotic nonsense to convey a sense of profundity.

 No.10676

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0mvRf7dvO0

Anyone got anything similar to this or Claire De Lune

 No.10894

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12 of the same notes for midnight

 No.10896

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2yZEkjrD5Qc

Exceptional track that doesn't really get attention, from 2:00 onwards especially.

 No.10908

I like Cherubini. Supposedly Beethoven once said he was the best composer.



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 No.227827[Reply]

This is a thread to discuss God and religion. One I didn't see created.

What are your thoughts and views on God, if any?

My relationship with Him is complicated, as I used to be Christian but have far strayed and no longer worship Him to a certain extent.
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 No.227879

>>227861
i did this once

 No.227880

I am of the opinion that that even if some "creative" (even this word comes charged with far too many human connotations) force exists in the universe that might resemble our notion of a God exists, it is not possible for us to have any meaningful understanding of it. Our situation as conscious entities in this existence is just so extraordinarily bizarre and nonsensical that it seems the height of hubris to suggest that you might possess unique knowledge regarding reality. To use a poor analogy, it would be like expecting a tiny screw or piece of metal within a computer to be able to understand its position and function within the broader whole of the computer. Relative to our perspective you can zoom in with a microscope and observe swarms of bacteria in everything, writhing around and reproducing, given the vastness of the universe from our vantage point it seems completely plausible that in a way we are no different from those bacteria. From the perspective of a large enough spectator there would not be any meaningful difference at all. Our planet may a singular molecule in a churning ocean of a larger plane of existence, which in turn may prove to but another molecule in the grander chain of reality. I understand this statement is somewhat ironic given I am here communicating my position on the world. Here I am positing my own absurd metaphysical propositions that are of course myopic and false. That's why I default back to "We don't know".

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>>227880
Im sorry. Couldn't actually feel you…

 No.227882

>>227881
I'm not sure what you mean.

 No.228139

>>227827
i cant think about the god´s idea



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 No.306157[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
ice cold edition
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 No.306781

>>306780
Fuck me… all this shit could have been summed up as:
>bad experiences result in crippling negative thought patters
>lack of good experiences also cause such issues in an entirely different way
>you need to both reopen the old wounds and heal them properly this time all the while using the same damaged/healing body to progress
So on one hand you gotta fix your shit to get to the starting line, but also somehow move beyond the starting line at the same time.
Sounds even more retarded whatever…
Maybe chatgpt could summarize…

 No.306782

>>306780
>>306781
You've done me the courtesy of engaging so i'll give you the non-augmented response :)

Pre-AI I was looking into the concept of ego-depletion, which, broadly, is the idea that willpower and self-agency is a non-renewable resource, essentially derived from the brain sugars. In a very real sense who you are is a product of your metabolism - if that theory holds true.

(so add childhood malnourishment into the mix lol)

Cognitive load shedding wise, what i've read/heard from my own studies is the adoption of a framework - *any framework* - against which to determine the applicable attributes, because you've outsourced thoughts that you then don't have to rediscover from first principles and can put your brain sugars to use in something that has outcomes. The Big Five personality traits are a good one, 15+ years ago I introduced the "Countries of people" by Mark
Gungor into the family dynamic (It's a pop-sci reduction of the same concept) and it genuinely made a difference. Literally overnight both I and the family had the shared vocabulary to express who we were and what made life worth living for us, so we had clear shared goals and could spend our brain sugar working out how to achieve them instead of burning it up in negotiating what "Good" even looked like. Turning this just on yourself is achievable - so long as you can be honest about it.

In the fine words and eloquently delivery of Major Partagaz;
https://youtu.be/wxEjpT3d0G4?t=60

PICK ONE.

Even if it's a *lie*, even if it's only true enough to answer 30% of the problem, the idea that you have the obligation and capacity to solve all your problems from position zero with what you've got is poverty driven, wrong and conceptually impossible - because by the time you've solved them odds are the context has shifted anyway. So shed the cognitive load, by any means necessary - limit your thinking to minimum necessary survival, one specific line of inquiry and improvement, and whatever the fuck makes life bearable for you as a form of refreshment and nourishment - to Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.306792

emotionally significant experiences just stop happening so you kinda live reliving those few cool things from back when you were a happier neet.

 No.306793

>>306792
Damn, so concise yet so painful…

 No.306794

>>306157
i wish the pain ttanslated to death, i wish i didnt exist at all


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 No.228138[Reply]

Stepped on the scale today and realized that despite the initial "push" from a medical crisis a year ago, I basically regained all weight I lost (minus 5-10kg).
I also realized I've been working for almost 3 years now, going to be 30 the same week I'll hit my 3 years of work too.
3 years… of wages wasted.

I don't even know what the fuck I spent most of it on. It just escapes me.
Still live with mom and all my necessities are taken care of she takes nothing from me.
I had a blessed opportunity these past 3 years to save up for the dogshit future that hit the world now and I wasted it on toys and basically indulging all I couldn't as a NEET with no money.
The worst is that since I'm an impulsive retard I mostly have nothing to show for it either.

Health is even more fucked then ever before since I never took action.
Rather every action that didn't prove fruitful or flat out failed resulted in my absolute surrender for another month or three or six…
Absolutely defeated at the starting line basically.

To get to the point of this thread. Those of you that live a decently structured, responsible and stable life, how?
I barely have a sense of time. Kinda like when I was a NEET, just instead of 12-16 hours of sleeping and then PC stuff I'm forced to work a rather easy, blessed job.
Once it passes I just feel like I'm teleported to the next shift until I get to sleep through a weekend and months pass.
Even chronic pains don't make me act much. What does one even do to live?

The worst part really is that so many years went down the drain and I really have nothing to show for it. Not even memories.
I want to at least look back on SOMETHING fondly when I'm dying someday.
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 No.321660[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

PALESTINE OFFICIALLY RECOGNIZED AS A STATE OR WHATEVER. U.N RECOGNIZES THE INVASION OF THIRD-WORLDERS UPON EUROPE. YOUTUBE ANNOUNCED IT WILL BE RE-INSTATING CHANNELS BANNED BY BIDEN'S ORDERS DURING COVID AND 2024 ELECTIONS. ANTIFA DECLARED A TERRORIST SECT. ISRAEL "ONLY NATION CAPABLE" OF PLANTING CELLULAR MASS-DISRUPTION DEVICES OUTSIDE OF UN GENERAL ASSEMBLY. TIKTOK TREND SHOWS PREGNANT SUCCUBI DOWNING THERAPEUTIC LEVELS OF TYLENOL IN PROTEST OF ANNOUNCEMENT THAT DOING SO CAUSES AUTISM IN CHILDREN

Previous thread: https://archive.is/JfDla
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 No.323159

>>323158
Things are going to (be made) so much more expensive (on purpose by people who believe a bunch of sandniggers killing eachother will make it easy to get away with jacking up prices).

 No.323161

>>323159
Bro one fifth of the oil in the world is gone now. Oil drilling facilities also got hit and will take time to be rebuilt even if the strait reopened.

 No.323272

>>323158
At least you got to own the libs though right?

 No.323273

>>323161
Two fifths of the world's remaining oil is located outside of the desert but Liberals won't drill in to it over fake environmental concerns. They made us dependent on a bunch of goatfuckers and then bombed those goatfuckers.

 No.323276

>>323273
Well tell Trump that oil is high and to start investing in offshore oil because I want my offshore oil stocks to go up


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 No.321588[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

No politics or religion in the crawl thread, please.

>Ambient sounds to wash away distraction

https://asoftmurmur.com/
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 No.323259

>>323220
>The actual metaphysical idea of predetermined vs spontaneous events doesn't really contradict human decision-making or effort
Humans are not some special woo-woo, we're made of the same matter that composes the universe. Therefore if the universe is deterministic all our choices are pre-determined.
Consciousness is an artifact of the brain that develops reality from neural inputs and our choices are neural outputs processed by this machine.
The idea that we somehow get to decide our choices in some magical way is completely wrong.

 No.323265

>>323220
It is all just a movie for God.

 No.323266

>Predeterminism is real if you go by my personal definition of that word

 No.323267

ghosted everyone again

 No.323269

>>323267
Now haunt them through a sockpuppet account


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 No.228060[Reply]

I'm in my 20s and I really want to change, not for society, for me and my fathers.
I see some NEETs in their 30s in this place, exists NEETs in their 40s?
I don't want to be a NEET for more time, but I want to know who is oldest NEET in Wizchan
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 No.228115

The oldest NEET here is probably in his 70s. That's old enough to retire and live off of social security bux.

 No.228132

How do I get autismbux? Not OP. Sorry if wrong thread.

 No.228134

As long as you can generate sufficient passive income.

 No.228135

>>228132
hospitalizations

 No.228136

>>228132
i had a psychotic break down and they diagnosed me as schizophrenic, but to tell you the truth i think it was a one time deal. but no one believes me. they make me take anti psychotics, and thank god there is no major side effects. buti also get SSI now

pretty sure you have to be mentally or physically ill to get the bux



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 No.68877[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

All you need to begin drawing is a pencil and some paper

Feel free to post any drawings of yours in this thread. Illustration, doodle, traditional, digital - anything goes. Discussion on skillbuilding techniques and fair critique of other wizards' work is welcome.

Videos:

Tyler Edlin - https://www.youtube.com/user/TylerE2284
Proko - https://www.youtube.com/user/ProkoTV
Sinix - https://www.youtube.com/user/sinixdesign
Scott Robertson - https://www.youtube.com/user/scottrobertsondesign
Matt Kohr (CtrlPaint) - https://www.ctrlpaint.com/library
Aaron Blaise - https://www.youtube.com/user/AaronBlaiseArt
Vilpu (Anatomy) - https://mega.nz/folder/9Pw1lYaS#Me7LSwlSg59lNGmkj9tt4w/folder/lPoXEYxS

Poses/Gestures
QuickPoses -https://www.quickposes.com/en
PoseSpace -https://www.posespace.com/posetool/default.aspx
https://x6ud.github.io/#/ Animal Head Reference Finder
https://anatomy360.info/anatomy-scan-reference-dump/

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 No.70458

>>70457
You are doing great job!
I would suggest to not press the pencil so hard against the paper. Your lines are too thick and I can see smudges where you erased the lines. Ideally, it shouldn't happen.
You should hold the pencil lightly and not press too hard. It should glide against the paper, only barely touching it and your movements need to be fluid. I can imagine you making small, hactic movements with your wrist and basically grinding the pencil against the paper.
Before studying anatomy, try drawing circles, elipsed or random shapes but draw with your your whole arm starting with the elbow, not the wrist. Let your pencil glide on the paper and don't press to hard.
But I see you are doing great job, your art is very soulful and I like the design. Please post more in the future.

 No.70459

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>>70443
I maybe be a fucking scumbag cheater piece of shit, a literal cancer on everything artistic, but I just either use 3d models in CSP or already drawn hands/stamps as basis. If it is 3d model, I first trace hands fluidly so they aren't stiff. Because I am tired to see the grubby paws instead of delicate hands and I am too lazy to grind them for 1452355345 times like some gook motherfucker who has been drawing for 18 hours everyday nonstop for years.

 No.70460

>>70459
>models in CSP
what does that stand for?

 No.70461

>>70458
also how hard is too draw without the wrist?

 No.70462

>>70460
Clip Studio Paint


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 No.306726[Reply]

I have a horrible mother who criticises me just as much when I do something good as when I do something wrong. I remember having a lot of traumatic experiences with her, and even today she’s still the same. For example, I started being more hygienic and washing my hands before eating, and she started using that habit as a weapon against me. She also criticises me for not going out with my ‘friends’, but when I do leave the house, she keeps insulting me Any advice on how to get free from her? makes me unhappy
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 No.306740

>can you? is it feasible for you?
For now, no

 No.306753

Some parents just want to torment their children. I've read a lot of stories like this and this is sad that this is seemingly common. I've broken off all contact with my parents.

 No.306783

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>>306738
>She simply doesn't like you. Move out.
I can’t move out on my own just yet, but I can go and live with my dad because my parents are divorced. I love my dad very much; he’s a good person and helps me with my problems. My mum is always criticising him for not having a steady job, but he’s an honest worker.

 No.306790

>>306783
>I can’t move out on my own just yet
I think you can and you should give it a shot while you still have the safety net of both parents.
>my parents are divorced
>posted alongside sad_breakcore_tranny_drug_meido_discordreaction.png
Hehe

 No.306791

>>306790
I am not him but this junkie anime wench existed long before trooncore



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 No.53707[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is a thread for sharing free game deals you find on the Internet.

Currently Control is free on the epic games store.
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 No.62757

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The free demo for Half Sword is available on steam. I downloaded it today and it's actually pretty fun. It's a medieval tourney simulator more or less, with a lot of weapons, armor, and different match variants. The demo has both a 'gauntlet mode' where you progress through the ranks, or a free play mode where you pick what rank of armor/weapons you want to play with and just enter matches freely. There are no horses or ranged weapons (unless you want to throw your weapon) and there's no online in the demo in case you were curious about that. As far as the gameplay goes it's a bit chaotic and whacky at times, but I that's part of the fun for me personally. Controlling your weapon can be tricky, so I would recommend turning down the mouse sensitivity, pretty much at minimum. Also, depending on your hardware you may need to run 'Low' graphics but it's still decently optimized for what it is I guess. Certainly worth a try if your into medieval combat.

 No.63473

House Flipper 1 is free to keep if you claim it on Steam before the 6th

 No.63474

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https://autobioarchitech.itch.io/headsrest

Played only a bit, but it was good.

It's a surreal rug maker game sorta, like Gingivia.

Also, it is obscure as hell. Practically no one knows about it.

 No.63476

>>63474
Dude thank you!

 No.63477

>>63476
no problem


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 No.306675[Reply]

Lookism has become a public, popular topic lately on the internet and I believe that it affects wizards in very tangible ways.
Being a genetic dead end ugly loser myself I suffer for it even as a now "middle aged" man.
One would think such things are left behind in high school or something, but no.

You queue up for a service, government office for some paperwork, a cash register at a store, post office or hell even medical services.
You can tell the people before you were treated kindly. At worst processed in a neutral way.
Some even receive a cheerful response and the help they need, people go above and beyond for some.
Then it's your turn at the line.

A look of disdain follows immediately. Quiet. No "what can I help do for you" "what can I help you with" "what is the purpose of your visit".
Silence. Faces contort…
Sometimes a sigh, sometimes some snide remark. Clear hostility.

A shift in demeanor so noticeable, so obvious, so visceral… (yet to them likely natural) that even the thickest of autism wont help you stay oblivious to it.
You get mistreated, worse service, denied service you paid for, medical gaslighting, humiliation over and over again.
Networking is impossible for you, who by your mere acquaintance devalue their status.. and without connections, being treated like this, only having the "official route" as an option you soon realize you might not be able to get anything done.

After much pushing, repeated humiliations and humbling yourself, matching your demeanor to that expected of "your ilk" some old lady at the register might take pity and process your request, prescribe your medication, refer you to a proper doctor.
Sometimes the stars do align like that and you make a step towards a slightly less miserable state of being.

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 No.306785

>>306778
>Therapy _when done right_ is a form of cognitive load sharing, which is to say explaining whatever problems are in play to someone to think through the causes & effects and construct useful interventions.
Therapy, ideally, is much more than that. But you are referring to client oriented therapy which is indeed is quite popular and boils down to the therapist just listening to the client's emotional diarrhea and nodding wisely. Which isn't a one fits all solution. Other modalities help with certain conditions better. Unfortunately, most therapists just use that approach of nodding and asking follow up questions since it's easy and doesn't require much thought. They promise that the therapeutic alliance is healing on itself, but really, it isn't that different from venting to a trusted friend (which most wizzies doesn't have anyway), or, yes, unloading to ChatGPT (which a lot of people humanize and get attached to).
>Big Thought Advantage is going to become the bare minimum in our life time I have no doubt. And in the generation following _that_, I fully expect that big thought advantage will be a tradeable commodity in some way. Without getting too dramatic in the visualisation, mind control is next - because what is mind control but providing instructions from the external system to act on, and why would a mind develop beyond basic survival functions when what's broadcast or single cast from outside is *better* than anything the mind can concoct. I'm not talking about peasants who, lets be real, don't actually matter in the grand scheme of things, I'm talking about the people who make decisions that affect them.
You are referring to my thought spiral idea? I don't consider it an advantage. It's the opposite of action. I make a divide between pondering and ruminating. And I was referring to rumination, the action killer. Pondering gives you wisdom and inclines you to act. Rumination just paralyzes you and gives you depression. Most normies can't ponder, but they can ruminate.
>Now as to therapy and its legitimacy, it worked for me *because* I was living with the outcome of specific multi-generational disasters that did not prepare and equip me for life effectively. This being WW2.
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 No.306786

>>306785
>>Therapy, ideally, is much more than that. But you are referring to client oriented therapy which is indeed is quite popular and boils down to the therapist just listening to the client's emotional diarrhea and nodding wisely.

If that's what therapy is in USA then no fucking wonder shit's gone to shit.

If the practice of psychological intervention, lifestyle management, *unfucking fucked up perspectives* is held in contempt and billed as a pacifier, then sure - fuck that. That's not what i'm talking about.

>>Let's not throw the trauma word around.

I can and I will. Trauma is "Beaten unconscious and your food stolen at the age of 6." Trauma is "Lost a limb due to the collapse of the only living space you've ever experienced." Hell, trauma is "Being assaulted in a hospital bed by a mentally disturbed man." That was real, that happened, it fucked people over and maladjusted them in competition with the folks who *didn't* have to subject themselves or the children they raised to the warped value structure that no longer meshed with either the world that was bombed to fuck, or the one that was built in the ruins.

And tying back to the original point of the thread, facial reconstruction in ww2 (and ww1 for that matter) was motivated in a big way from the awareness at the time that folks who had been so disfigured couldn't adapt to normal civilian life, because combat technology could maim and disfigure visibly but not kill, something genuinely new.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Harold_Gillies is the relevant starting point.

>>Like it or not, we are still hunter-gatherers biologically, and our brains are wired to that life. The life of violence, scarcity and hardship. It's a modern invention that our lives should be violence and cruelty free. We all endure a certain amount of hardships, and yes, some people develop reactions to it, but who is to say that those reactions are pathological?


Your landlord and your employer or equivalent persons who determine how much of the fenced in farmed over foraging ground you are allowed to benefit from.

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 No.306787

>>306786
Okay, I'm sold. Can you tell me more about how you ysed CBT to your benefit?
I tried it myself with a workbook, even posted about it here, but it wasn't all that much successful for me since I hit roadblocks even starting with BA.
I like the concept of BA and here where the cognitive part rears its head.
Basically,
>I should take a shower for mastery points
>Wait, why should I take a shower, I'm disgusting one way or another
Basically, my rumination prevents me from starting acting. I don't know what to do first: behavioural or cognitive changes.
That's where a therapist should be helpful, but as I've mentioned…
>If that's what therapy is in USA then no fucking wonder shit's gone to shit.
That's what it basically is in my country, but I'm not from the US. It's a bunch of succubi having a mid life crisis and jumping into therapy to earn a quick buck. Most of them just complete a basic course on some BS and just provide the venting type of therapy. I know because I tried eight times, from trainees to supposedly the best there is. Ironically, only that green trainee yielded some results, and yes, we did CBT. But I don't want to contact her again for various reasons.
>If the practice of psychological intervention, lifestyle management, *unfucking fucked up perspectives* is held in contempt and billed as a pacifier, then sure - fuck that. That's not what i'm talking about.
Exactly! But those are hard to come by, isn't it?
Anyway, going back to my question. What did you do? Have you did CBT with ChatGPT or a real therapist? I don't have the means to try a real therapist though. I guess even budgeting to find one would be bad for my mental, since funneling all my money into a therapist would make me unhappy since I will end up broke in the process. And no, getting a free therapist is not an option where I'm from. Or, well, it's an option only for veterans and other certain groups of people.

 No.306788

Holy derailed…

 No.306789

>>306787
>>Okay, I'm sold. Can you tell me more about how you ysed CBT to your benefit?

I went in thinking "oh this is what it's like on TV, I just have to talk about my feelings" and what I *got* was a 20 page work book with a checklist of cause & effect and an event tracker diary to determine what went wrong, when and why. First session was essentially the therapist telling me the scope of the project, the type of interventions that they could provide or refer and the explicit end goal.

First step was identifying the root cause of the Catastrophising habit I had, which is "Things are shit, I am shit, anything I do is shit, why try" which, largely was because I had lived in abnormal (statistically significantly so) adverse situations. The therapist back then did a basic assessment of what I did, why I responded to specific problems the way I did, and we eventually built up a literal checklist and decision tree that I still refer to from time to time that stops the habitual fear/endure and shut down response into "Think calmly, assess using the tools you have developed, respond accordingly". That took about 10 weeks of conscious practice to get to that point, but it got me out of bed and into an upper quartile wagie lifestyle which I know for sure i'd never even attempt, never mind achieve in my old configuration.

>>Basically, my rumination prevents me from starting acting. I don't know what to do first: behavioural or cognitive changes.


Of all things it was the Pickle Rick therapist in Rick and Morty that gave me an answer that's stuck for years:

"I have no doubt that you would be bored senseless by therapy, the same way I'm bored when I brush my teeth and wipe my ass. Because the thing about repairing, maintaining, and cleaning is it's not an adventure. There's no way to do it so wrong you might die. It's just work. And the bottom line is, some people are okay going to work, and some people well, some people would rather die."

So the question I suggest _you_ answer is, do you hate *maintenance*, or do you actually and genuinely hate *work*.

If it's the later, I'd expect 2:1 odds that it's because outside context problems have demonstrated to you - either rationally or subconsciously - that the fruits of your work can be taken Post too long. Click here to view the full text.



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 No.59447[Reply]

Almost every single game that I played in 2023 was a game made in Japan. Mainly JRPGs. Now I can't barely play western games, which I found dull and ugly.

when Japan became the best game developer?
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 No.62024

>>62022
where to find the indie japanese games anyway? I want to see what kind of game they do make

 No.62025

>>62024
I haven't looked too much into the Japanese indie scene but for example here's a Japanese website for "free games" https://www.freem.ne.jp/
Admittedly most of it seems to be more like RPG Maker kind of stuff though.

 No.62026

>>62025
indeed. thnk you

 No.63463

>>59447
>western games, which I found dull and ugly
Japanese studios are often allowed more creative freedom than their western counterparts. Western devs for whatever reason care about public perception and what groups like PEGI thinks.
>we can't have attractive npcs in our games, the PEGI will raise the age rating!
>we can't make a game about the battle of Fallujah, war vets feel offended by it!
They gave a childish game like Skyrim an age rating of 18+. war vets don't give a flying fuck if they offend you, so you shouldn't give a flying fuck if you offend them.
Freedom of expression is a thing, what are they going to do? Sue you for making attractive 3d-models and basing a game on a recent war?

 No.63475

My favorite real game, SMT IV (I don't like Apocalypse) is indeed Japanese.
Katawa Shoujo is also my favorite game , if you count VN's as real games, but it is unclear where it is from if development was even concentrated in one country.
I feel like Japan is unmatched in gaming compared to every other country, so many genres, innovations and cultural aspects.



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 No.302844[Reply]

And say something about it if you want. I'm scared of my dad so I'm drawing a monster (him?)
I didn't know we could draw. Why isn't this done more often?
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I made a wizzard, he is sad, tired and strating to get older

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 No.306761

>>306508
i like the drawing style

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I'm tired and angry



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 No.323017[Reply]

Recently I feel like the large corporations that run everything have really been dropping the ball. The end user experience for shopping at walmart of Amazon or wherever used to be almost flawless and you could understand how they got to be practical oligopolies. Today though? The experience is so amazingly shit. You can tell none of these corporations gives a shit about the day to day. They have some apps managing everything and they just punish the slaves when some app tells them to. It is such a lazy form of decay.


Anyone else noticing this? Almost across the board in every realm of life it seems like the system is more full of bugs and random failures. Everything works just barely well enough to still keep functioning but at the same time it's decaying and degrading. I think there's not enough actual competition anymore in society. All the power structures are set and all the lowest worms in society have wriggled their way to the top of them.
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 No.323230

>>323226
Then I'd rather have some kind of Assistance in Living, but realistically MAiD is more likely to come around.

 No.323261

>>323226
>It's a program designed to kill people instead of curing their ailments
Things don't get better and if you try, some talking head will discredit you.

Just pass MAiD and things will begin to start to get better… maybe.

 No.323263

>>323261
It's funny, the bootlicking rightists all wish that we "undesirables" would just fuck off and die, yet make it illegal for the state to help us do so painlessly

 No.323264

>>323263
>rightist
True right has never been in power since like Third Reich and even they weren't as right as they could be.
If you mean zionist gop jewlicking scum under the, they need their taxpaying goyim of all kinds to be alive and suffering.

 No.323268

I think the worst is the food. Buy a brown bread without checking the label and you get this greasy 7 percent seed oils loaf, which gives me acid reflux. Some supermarkets where I live don't even sell real bread anymore. The very basics of life become inaccessible with this race to the bottom



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 No.306449[Reply]

What is the average wizard's relationship with religion like? No religious person has ever been able to give me a good argument for why God, if he is out there, is not the most maximally evil being in the universe simply by the virtue of creating suffering when he could have chosen not to. Saying "suffering builds character" and derivatives of is just a manifestation of their stockholm syndrome for this vile entity

>I form the light, and create darkness. I make peace, and create evil. I YHWH do all these things - Isaiah 45:7
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 No.306739

>>306736
incredibly smart response thanks

 No.306745

>>306449
When I was watching Time Bandits, I like the ending where god justifies why he made evil. It was out of the need to give man free will, a power even angels envy man has. It raises a lot of ethical and philosophical questions what free will means. I wish the Matrix movies talked more about why humanity willing rejected a paradise. Of course everything has this judeo-christian tinge and mythology to it that makes it easy to discuss. But when it comes to things like executions out of crime or necessity, man will resort to drawing straws or some game of chance, as if the power of choosing who lives are who dies is a universal cultural taboo.

Of course, my beef with religion is the belief the world is 10000 years old because some ancient men say so, despite god literally creating evidence around you challenging this.

Anyway I find the "why did god allow the holocaust" justification for why he doesn't exist kind of a weak moral argument. It ignores the fact the universe could perfectly function without any self awareness for billions of years, it didn't require a magic sentient genie to wish things into existence.

But I am interested in religion's notion of the devil. It's like they think the devil is like a sentient entropy and does give some life lessons on why you need to steer away from hedonism and why getting your hearts desire may not only be without cost, but can bring about an even worse hell than you had before.

 No.306765

>>306745
>despite god literally creating evidence around you challenging this.
>despite god literally creating evidence around you challenging this.
Maybe he's a liar and not good. have you considered that?

 No.306766

>>306765
>>306745
didn't mean to quote you twice sorry

 No.306777

>>306669
The Christian religion affirms the existence of evil, and a strong rejection of evil is a core part of it. His argument sounds a lot like the atheist "God isn't real and if he was real he can't exist because evil exists". If he really is an ex-christian he followed a very strange doctrine.



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 No.306545[Reply]

I am not even that horny, a lot of the days I force my self to do it while not even being in the mood for it, it's just the most effective way for me to cope, masturbation is free, gives you instant pleasure and can burn for you many hours at the time, there are times when i find my self touching myself just so I can use it as a way to distract my self for my anxieties and negative thought loops, as soon as i start touching myself all my anxiety and negative emotions start to dissolve as much as i hate and it hate how much i overdo it, i can't deny it makes getting through my days easier when i can just touch my self for many hours instead of just sitting there being miserable feeling hollow bored to tears and empty or anxious and overthinking at worse, my point here is that I believe the addiction for me is a mere sympotom, something I use to escape my negative feelings and the emptiness of my daily life, thanks for reading my blogpost
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 No.306768

>>306545
I loathe this habit and my inability to quit for good. I keep nofap most of the time but it always ends with me gooning to h-games for like 12 hours straight. I am accepting my relapses more now so they don't end in a week of selfhatred. But it is still unpleasant waste of energy that could be put to something better. Also even if you don't believe in semen retention or benefits of nofap, resetting your sensitivity by abstaining from jerking it is a way to make it feel better.

 No.306769

I'm only 30 and I wish I could do it as much as I used to.
Maybe I got desensitized, but in general I feel like I'm less horny as well.
Doesn't help I ruined my arm and elbow after a decade or so of overuse.
Even the more slippery slope hardcore stuff doesn't do much for me anymore. Sometimes I still peruse material, but eh.
Kinda really have to want to do it to do it.
No longer an urge I act on, more like something I could schedule to do if I wanted to hilariously enough. From random boners in youth and jerking it 5 times a day or more to this.
Time bit me in the ass. Probably being unhealthy amplifies it too.

 No.306770

Remember the good old days I could spend an entire day jerking off… of course with some breaks between sessions.

 No.306771

>>306769
>>306770
nostalgia pretty painful huh
cus back then things were probably a bit better, or at least it felt better than now when it's dulled.
i feel the same with so many things
like gaming binges when i'm really INTO it, invested, chasing the win, or genuinely immersed.
now i play just out of routine/familiarity *occasionally* get hooked enough that i wanna play all day, but it coincides with deep depressions where that's literally all i live for. either that or porn. but then i come out of it eventually… everything loses its luster… but then i give up and stop everything, and it slowly comes back… the glimmer of hope or interest in things again

it's all dopamanurgic… and that's why they say to focus on a task and when you take breaks, do nothing: stare at a wall, and your brain recovers dopamine (and especially at night with good night's REM cycles…)

it's well known if you disable a rat's dopamine circuits, it won't even eat; it starves to death without dopamine.

idk if i have a point. just that dopamine resistance is also a thing…

 No.306772

>>306771
I'm genuinely starting to worry that at some point recovery will be impossible.
I've gone through the cycles you mention and for the past couple years it's all been gray I feel.
No matter how much a break I take from anything.
Might be depression or whatever idk.
Even things I'm "supposed to enjoy" no longer give me any pleasure. I simply let dust cover everything. Let my hobby items rot etc.

There is a manga series I've stopped because I don't want my current mental state to taint it if that makes any sense.
Been saving it for a day where I've regained my senses so I can fully enjoy it with my whole soul in it even though it's kinda trashy.
That "someday" is not coming it seems.
Idk…
I feel like being in what I'd call a personal state of failure while the world around you is also heading towards a cataclysm of sorts might just do this to you.
Sorry to OP for the off-topic rant.



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 No.306061[Reply]

I got summoned to jury duty. I am depressed and socially anxious, probably have avoidant personality disorder. It is asking me if I have a disability that prevents me from completing jury duty and I honestly don't know how to answer that. If I couldn't handle college and I can't handle employment because I'm too mentally ill, why would jury duty be any different? I kind of feel like it would be possible just unpleasant, but then I also wonder if I can physically force myself to show up and that I'm less sure of.

I have to ask my doctor to tell them I'm disabled though and then that would be weird. How are you supposed to know if you just have mental illness or if you are disabled by that mental illness?
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 No.306130

>>306061
Never go to the psych ward or be blatantly honest with a therapist. These people are quick to deem you mentally adjudicated (incompetent) and will fuck you over for life.

Just because society socially ostracizes you doesn't mean you're mentally ill necessarily; it's a negative feedback loop.

All they'll do is gaslight you and project onto you. If you do need to seek out help from them, attempt to be as relatively neurotypical and politically correct in a nuanced way as possible, and pretend that their shit advice is somehow a groundbreaking revelation of self-awareness.

 No.306138

I think this is obvious unless you are truly delusional, or too retarded to realise you are retarded. I would avoid this jury stuff anyway, even when you interact with the court system in a good way these things somehow always bring bad stuff in your life

 No.306193

I know I must be developing schizophrenia. I am seeing plenty of visual hallucinations such as animals like cats and dogs that don't belong to me playing in my house, seeing massive spills of juice on the floor then it fades away after a minute. However the thing that gets me are the little things that aren't interesting enough to be noted as fake, such as hearing a knock on the door or a phonecall which really irritates me. At least I'm not seeing demons and believe the government is trying to kill me like my mother gets

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>>306193
I’m schizoaffective and also suffer with hallucinations. I have subtle hallucinations such as the ceiling fan sound can merge with voices, it gives off the feeling of being in the interrogation room from COD: Black Ops.
I have hallucinations where I can telepathically hear people’s inner monologue. There’s plenty other stuff but what makes it worse is that I lost my inner monologue after using copious amounts of psychedelics, so I’m stuck with these voices and intrusive thoughts without any room for my own.

It’s fucking over

 No.306763

>>306061
yo i just got summoned too…

how did it go with you OP if you ever return?

My plan is gonna be just being honest and tell them i have a lot of anxiety and would really prefer not to participate, but I'm here if they literally have no one else in the system willing to take my place…. (my anxiety of having follow-up calls or getting in trouble for not showing up is wayyy worse than going… cus i've done it before and never even got selected or had to make an excuse)



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 No.305362[Reply]

I miss being a proper neet so much and im jealous of people who can be
I miss just being able to play some stupid game 12 hours a day and watch videos on the side
i still dont have friends or a gf so what am I doing
everything is worse
my body
my mind
my freedom
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 No.306668

>>306667
you should try dmt or some other psychedelic, they dont mess with your body physically.

 No.306685

I am the opposite of you, i have too much free time that i don't know what to do with it

 No.306718

>>305362
OP, had a neetbucks and be happy

 No.306724

I was a neet then a wagie now half and half. The only good thing is money. I wanted to move to SEA after grinding but nope. Just find small joys.

 No.306762

>>306667
if you want ultra intense like the other wiz said, DMT. but personally i think controlled doses of LSD and working up to high doses where you can handle the intensity is what i'd recommend. I only had borderline overwhelming experiences when i got up to 4-5 hits which i think made them more profound since i worked up to that intensity, because i was able to be present and not just tripping out of my gourd



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 No.301325[Reply]

>Join discord server
>Too nervous to talk to anyone and make friends
>Become a lurker and feel sad when I see others make connections and friends
>end up leaving the server

Any tips to help stop this dilemma?
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 No.306672

Okay, I tried Discord AGAIN, and I believe it's not for me.
The go-to advice for making friends is "just joing a niche hobby discord sub bro!"
It's all nice, but the biggest hurdle for me was the small talk and off topic discussions.
Basically, you are walled off from the most of the server until you prove you are a chill guy, and only then you are allowed to see the hidden channels.
I did just that, tried to build my cred on one of the servers by participating in some stupid bullshit discussion in the off topic chat only to find that nobody posts in the hidden channels (aka on-topic channels) and like 95% of discussion is some benign shit about the users' day or some latest meme or whatever.
I hate hate HATE that I have to participate in small talk, my sped brain hates small talk.
I tried the same strategy with different subs, even purely technical ones, but they are mostly dead and nobody talks there.
Just join discord, my ass.

 No.306719

>>301325
>Discord
Discord is a shit place to make friends

 No.306723

That's insane. Just use a throwaway account

 No.306746

>>301325
If you don't need money, then get friends is not a need. I've tried being friendly and nice with people but always think that being a good guy to them is being weak so they surprise when I don't tolerate their injustices over me and automatically they consider me a threat to their environment so unless that I need money or stuff like that, I don't have any interest to know new people. At least until I get a friend that don't want to use my kindness to mock me around or use me.

 No.306755

>>301325
It took me awhile to find friends on discord. If you play video games you gotta find them in the games you like. Popular games are easier to find people but not high quality, high quality meaning good match for you. I found a friend while i was living in a hotel playing dark souls remastered on switch like 5 years ago and still play with him to this day. He found more people and they became my friends too. I also found friends playing pubg. I think for men and especially autistic men which i was very autistic before, it’s better to have a shared goal or objectives and the small talk is just a ctach up or time occupier inbetween gameplay. This could also be applied to a mens shed or something where you go to build objects or whatever else. When you’re socially awkward it’s better to have something to focus on objectively until you gain enough levels to tolerate and then later enjoy small talk. It took me years but now i enjoy myself with random people from good discord groups. I count myself lucky. I could have easily never recovered.



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