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 No.308537[Reply]

A while back some of my classmates found a private account of mine where could express my offensive views (i am 18 years old, last year of high school). Now everyone in my class hates and ignores me, not to mention the fact that they have reported me to faculty who in turn also reported me to authorities for "radicalization" (hate speech is illegal where i live)

I know all of this is the fault of my own stupidity which i am greatly ashamed of but i dont know what to do, i feel like i have ruined my life possibly forever considering the negative aspects of having this written down could have.

 No.308538

your reputation is a very place specific, unless you're an e-celeb of some kind. when you go to university, or just get a job somewhere, no one will know about the embarrassing things you did in high school unless you tell them.

out of curiosity, what's the worst thing you wrote?


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 No.308391[Reply]

we must accept it. we are losers and society mocks us no matter what we do. we're not cool. we think we're cool because we are in a website where only virgin males are in and we circle jerk together. That's why we think we're superior to normalfags while in fact we're seen has failed people. you may feel as much superior as you like on wizchan but once out of the internet, you'll be mocked for being 30+ virgin male behind your back.
It sucks; being mocked and being. alower human being. even non-white are more successful than you and being racist doesn't change that. I think racism is a kind of cope people are because they're frustrated.
You can be as much succesful as you can be (rich, good job, house, beautiful car,etc…) like every other normalfags but at the end of the day when they'll ask you if you have a wife or a gf, and after you said never, they'll think something's wrong with you or you're gay.
Some wizards donnt give a fuck because they feel above all of that but those are, according too me, a übermensch bit it is a very rare case. so don't think you're one to please you're ego. I think the wizard übermensch has everything a normalfag has in life but is morally superior to them. those who uses this power to trashtalk others isn't a übermensch according to me because he does the same shit normalfags do to others to feel better. There's a lot of wizards who mock normalfags to feel better but at the end of the day it makes them look like as bad as normalfags. the übermensch is a rare case and I am 100% sure there's no übermensch wizard on here (or maybe 0,1%).
Anyway, I'm not making a thread about the wizardmensch because it would fit most on /wiz/ than /dep/. I'm making this thread on /dep/ because I'm sad and depressed being a failure. even failednormalfags mock us.
We're ugly and dumb. feel free to delete the thread mods, I don't care I'm sad. I don't want to push my narratives unto others. I know many wouldn't agree because they live a good life and don't care about what other people think or say about him, but I know most of the wizards suffer and that's why there's a /dep/ board…if it wasn't the case, tbis board wouldn't exist. wizards are sad. in fact I don't know why they're sad because they just have to live life luke anybody else; it's just they don't have a wife and kids but live life like everyone else on this earth. so why wizards aren't happy? Most if the time is life struggle like money or shitty job.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.308508

>>308507
i guess wizards might develop superiority complex to cope, but it's likely going to be tightly coupled with a comorbid inferiority complex.

but i'm not sure how it's related to disengaging from society, i think it mostly comes from society being crap.

maybe >>308454 is just mad

 No.308532

>>308507
neeting isn't superior to being a cucked normie autohumiliating for the system is what the OP is saying
neeting is obviously superior in every way

 No.308534

>>308532
Neeting is superior if you have inheritances or large monthly assistance payments from parents in addition to the state assistance.

Living purely on state assistance is rarely a life worth living even in the west.

 No.308535

>>308534
If you're already locked in in min wage jobs it's a realistic option in some European countries.

 No.308536

>>308535
Yeah. From what I've heard for a lot of people working one of those shit paid jobs makes no sense if you can collect welfare from the government instead. I think you need to game the system to also get cheaper housing, maybe some additional benefits somehow, idk. If you don't need much to live it can be a decent arrangement I guess.


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 No.228628[Reply]

I just wanted to know how did you get rich or got enough money to fulfill your dreams. Or is it you don't need money and are content with your current life and your meagre bank account
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 No.228683

>>228682
wizchan.org seemingly

 No.228761

>>228631
I sort of agree with this post. I haven't given up on the dream of moving out, getting a better job that teaches me real skills, etc. but I'm turning 27 this year and can see the boat out slowly sliding away from me. Youth is such a big bandage on failure. It's nice for older adults to feel like they can mentor someone younger – so not knowing much at 25 is okay. It was okay. But I'm 27 now, it's less cute. Soon I'll be 30, and if I remain at this dead-end job, what will happen to me?

All that said I haven't given up on life. I am settling in my own way while still dreaming of a future. I want to go out of the country this year… France or Japan or something. Just walk around for a week, have a piece of my dreams even if I can't experience them in full.

 No.228786

>>228677
>and wait 20years
>what worked in past will work in the future!
The way the world is going, twenty years from now your index fund won't be worth shit.
Maybe buy defense-industry stocks.
A new world war seems to be on the menu, so Lockheed and Raytheon will surely be profitable.

 No.228788

>>228786
This is unironically good advice. AI itself cannot create gunpowder or explosive materials. These companies will be ultra relevant just like food producers.

 No.228861

>>228628
80% Blind Luck
I grew up in a trailer park, my dream of success was to live in a city and work in a big office with a shirt and tie.

I did that, it was fine, got boring and expensive, so I live in a small village now instead. Very seriously i'm starting to think it would be more cost effective from an ROI perspective to move to a trailer park.

Some dreams were installed in you through advertising; conditioning even. Others are - I think - subconscious signals for things you would like to try/experience one time.

My dreams - outside of work - were to eat enough food, read good fiction books and nap whenever I wanted; because living in a precarious environment where wild work shifts and home instability prevented any of that from happening made them so much more appealing.

All this to say, bad luck getting difficult dreams and bad luck getting dealt a hand that can't achieve them; some people get luckier.

Because you can do everything right and still lose, and do everything wrong and win because someone else lost and you were in the right place at the right time.


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 No.305401[Reply]

Does anybody else live with family who have seemingly not a care in the world to be careful with your belongings?? It's incredibly annoying and often blood boiling. I have a lot of collections, and attempt to make models like tanks/planes/warhammer stuff and quite often my parents will "inspect" my room for whatever retarded reason and often break several items. I internally call my dad "The grabbler" he picks up delicate items with his full fist, all fingers perfectly alinged - like a special ed kid grabbing a pencil. As you can imagine, this often BREAKS anything even remotely fragile.

This has been an issue I've dealt with my entire life. I'd have my pokemon cards on a playing mat in my room, parents barge in and walk right on them despite them being able to walk around it, and I wasn't even in the way. Or other times where they would grab my school work with greasy/chocolate coated hands and get stains all over it. Also they love coughing and sneezing without any attempt to cover their mouths. You will see spit and mucus stains EVERYWHERE in the house. Especially on the shared computer screen, utterly disgusting.

I have tried everything to get them to be less dirty and more respectful and mindful but they just don't care, my mother is literally too stupid to understand, my father just doesn't care. I don't really want to move out either as it's not a possibility on my wages unless I want to live in a car or next to criminal social housing with even more disgusting people.

The list goes on and on about all the dirty behaviour they get up to. I might even jot down some greentext stories if I'm bored later
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 No.308490

this sounds very gross and subhuman
there is no other way out but run away somehow

 No.308498

>>308433
I can see that working for some things, but for my current setup with what I have it's just not really possible. I much prefer my bait tactics which are working. Just the whole kid being let into my room to open all my closets and cabinets with NO supervision and breaking all that shit. Something I can't fix though. The door I have can't have a lock placed on it, even if it could, parents would break it.

>>308444
I know it doesn't sound like much, but that is irritating as hell. My mom would always put cups of her coffee over my artwork and leave a disgusting coffee mark that cant be wiped off. Idk why or how she did this, but her cups were always overflowing so the outside of the cup was wet with coffee. Disgusting stuff.

>>308490
I've weighed it all up and I still ultimately prefer living here, just barely. Also sounds rude and greedy but If I cut contact I wont get inhertence

 No.308502

>>308498
>If I cut contact I wont get inhertence
It's the natural order, nothing to be ashamed of. I'll get a bit when my parents pass someday, not much though because they bought annuities instead of investing (facepalm).

 No.308530

>>308498
Try buying a Harry Potter themed "snitch" battery-powered decor, 7$ a piece.

Put it into an old glass pc case.
Instant distraction.


Besides, you could buy a semi-busted 20$ tape player with some chill, sleepy, lullaby-ish tapes…
…and a voice-activated outlet (12$ or so)

And attach some empty can full of steel nuts (0-2$) to your door so the loud "clang" would activate the outlet.

 No.308533

>>308502
>nothing to be ashamed of.
it is


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 No.228719[Reply]

I want to talk to you about fate: does it exist or not? Honestly, I don't know. I won't claim to believe in it unconditionally, but I looked at my natal chart (Shoutout to my astrologer friend from the other thread! I know you're reading this). During this time, I've talked to magicians, psychologists, internet freaks, and even talked to AI. And, of course, I've tried to start my life from scratch many times. I've tried to find a job many times, but I've lost it. And now I'm 28 years old, guys. I just want to throw everything away. I'll be 30 in two years. I have no education, I've never really learned anything in my entire life, and I've spent half of it living off my parents. I'm literally a loser, a nobody. The older you get, the more clearly you realize: trying to start over doesn't work when you're in poor health. Let's be honest, many of us have lousy health; many of us rarely even go outside. Besides, there's no money for education, not to mention the strict regulations, the need to pass exams, and other difficulties. And I ask myself: did I even have a choice in how to live? Or was my life built from the very beginning according to some divine plan, a supercomputer, or something similar? After all, if you think about it, all my decisions have always turned out to be wrong. I constantly did the wrong thing, made mistakes out of stupidity or naivety. So, is everything predetermined? I'm still tormented by this question. If I were to get up tomorrow and say, "That's it, I'm leaving this life and I'm no longer a burden," I still wouldn't be able to change much. I won't become a doctor or a scientist at 30. External factors influence us too much. Does that mean that even my decision to change something tomorrow was already made not by me, but by someone else? And I just play out this scenario over and over again, and there was no real freedom of choice. But you know what's the scariest thing? It turns out that no matter what we do, we can't jump above our heads. As the saying goes: "Play stupid games, get stupid prizes" or "You can't teach an old dog new tricks." Actually, I want to ask you: do you believe in fate? Are we really destined to suffer our entire lives? I looked at myself: I'm 28, I haven't learned anything, and I just wasted this life. I wish I'd never been born.
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 No.228781

>>228773
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I still don't understand why I had to be born into this poor hellhole.
you were born into such a place to save it! It is your fate

 No.228804

>>228719
loooool. thanks for the laugh makes me feel better about myself.

 No.228825

>>228804
huuuh but why are you here mister lainon?

 No.228854

>>228773
Moroccans in my country are infamous for dealing drugs and other criminal activity. It doesn't surprise me their country is a shithole.

 No.228860

>>228854
Low IQ coupled with aggression always leads to violent crime or drug dealing.

You look at immigrants like the Chinese, they work 16 hours a day in their own business, they put their second gen children into elite schools, they sacrifice their own life for their kids and grandkids to climb the social ladder.

It all comes down to predisposition and genetics. Some people are dumber and more violent than others genetically.


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 No.227944[Reply]

wizards, this is a truly important question. how do you tell your mom, or anyone else for that matter, that you are really not interested in whatever female they think you should "befriend"?

i know you're going to troll me, but i still kindly ask you to find a second and think about what could be the *optimal* solution. the solution that doesn't burn bridges, doesn't create bitter enemies and yet lets you maintain the high ground. i know this is not fully achievable, but there gotta be an algorithm or something.

my brain just crashes in such situations. it's like "idk wtf are you're even talking about???" i need help
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 No.228504

>>228503
Yeah, it was pretty crabish post. But the fact is the fact.

 No.228505

>>228504
>But the fact is the fact.
It doesn't matter if it's factual or not. You could be speaking out of your ass or you could be posting peer-reviewed statistics. You could be defending succubi or calling for their bloody murder. What's wrong with the post is that this is the only place on the internet where you're supposed to disregard them as a whole. Can men not have one place on the internet to talk about things without sex-obsessed outsiders coming in to post about "top 10 reasons I love succubi" and "All succubi are shallow whores and why that makes my PP sad"?

 No.228855

>>227944
I don't know if you're still here OP, but I'll put my two cents in: We both know that there's no chance that they'd understand your real stance on the matter, even if you did have the time to explain it. Therefore the only goal is to make them stop but not to dismiss them, so as to not hurt their feelings.

What you can say is this: "I appreciate you looking out for me; I'd like to navigate this myself, if you don't mind." or the adequate normal-speak equivalent thereof.

>>228030 is going to call this outrageous because we know by experience that following through with their "help" would only make things worse.

However the key word is "we;" normies like the people that try to get you to "befriend females" can't imagine things going wrong because that's not their experience - you simply do not share the same reality in these matters. They aren't privy to the things >>228030 described.

What I assume >>228023 meant, is that it's the intent that you should be thankful for. They do that because they care about you and are concerned. Keep that in mind, when phrasing your response. It'll go a long way.

 No.228856

>>228500
Oh wow, you know so much about succubi. Sounds like you're… experienced with them, aren't you, Mr. Crabs?

 No.228859

My mom's oddly perceptive and realized my disinterest earlier than I did, though she assumed I was gay. I respect her enough to be truthful. She initially was sad about no grandkids and worried I'd been molested at some point but she's accepted I'm naturally a mental mutant in different ways than her. The older she gets the more she's glad she has a 24/7 quasimodo butler who enjoys 80% of the media she does.
So, if you decide to be truthful, try reframing it along those lines. Emphasize you telling her the truth is you wanting to be honest out of respect for all she's done as a mother. Female relatives are more accepting of family freaks if they think you respect them as equals.


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 No.223082[Reply]

How do you genuinely just stop caring about everything shitty in your life? I just want to become numb to it all. People always say you shouldn't, but whenever I let myself feel any small amount of happiness the feeling of sadness/depression that I'll inevitably feel later is so painful it makes me wish I just didn't feel anything at all in the first place. Meditation has gotten close to this and I like the peace it gives me but I wish I felt that peace all the time.
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 No.228768

>>228763
Sure, this shitty illness is hell (and similar conditions or even just symptoms by themselves) so if anyone can find some solace in my posts or at least finds them interesting then that’s cool with me, not like I have anything better to do anyways, first I’ll admit I’m not currently officially diagnosed but not due to a lack of trying, I’ve been trying to find what’s wrong with me for a good chunk of time now and sadly despite my various treatment periods with professionals (psychologists and psychiatrists) they always refuse to diagnose because “we should focus on treating symptoms” it’s a noble way of seeing it as some people can actually be worse if given a diagnosis but that’s not my case so it’s just annoying, anyways that could be different where you live or at least there might be someone specialized in PD’s maybe even Szpd specifically, with that little thing out of the way.

Anyways I suppose now I’ll talk about my own experience as someone who obviously has this shit since that’s probably what interests you, honestly this probably developed during my teenage years due to trauma, the generic things you know, the economy of my country went to crap so my largely “middle-class” life crashed down as we descended into almost poverty, my parents would fight constantly and sometimes badly, I had no escape, life felt meaningless, school felt meaningless, I started masking my pain away (dissociation and derealization kind of) while on school because I didn’t want people to know my home issues etc, due to all of that and more I developed a depression (like I mentioned in my previous post) and while I didn’t realize when I was younger I started developing some symptoms/traits of Szpd, so my depression (what for years I saw as my only issue) developed concurrently with the disorder or at the very least the symptoms, behaviors etc of the disorder (since there is the dimensional model from the ICD-11 where Szpd and the other PD’s don’t exist but rather their symptoms), if anything looking back those symptoms, probably developed before the depression because I can somewhat remember being really numb, apathetic and such before actually starting to experience depression, anxiety and eventually suicidal ideations, this makes sense too as it’s sometimes considered on the literature regarding Szpd that most people who develop it have a defense mechanism thaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.228779

>>228768
Thanks for sharing all that! You say that you rarely feel anything, but you also say that you try to enjoy life. What do you do? Do you consume any media, play video games or read books? If so what kind? Do you force yourself to have a hobby? Do you feel excitement? I don't feel happiness or anything close resembling it but I can still get excited about some things.
Regarding "professionals" I never went to a psychologist because they can't help people like us. We are too messed up and never be normal. Therapy is designed for normal people, not for us.

 No.228780

>>228779
Hi fellow wizard, I’ll greentext your questions this time as to force myself to be more organized and therefore answer your questions on a better way (I do tend to ramble on text).

>You say that you rarely feel anything, but you also say that you try to enjoy life. What do you do? Do you consume any media, play video games or read books?
Indeed, even if I can’t really feel emotions I do somewhat enjoy some specific things, mind you it’s such a vague thing that I could easily stop and do nothing and it would be almost the same (and I sometimes do that), essentially I try to not let the apathy/anhedonia win since I do believe I might just end up developing another depressive episode if I allow it, that would be quite crushing.
Regarding what I do it’s mainly consuming media, daydreaming and sometimes writing (internet posts and overall journaling, this post is an example of that), those are the closest things I have to hobbies and I do get a vague sense of enjoyment or fun (I’m not even sure if it would count as an emotion vague as it is, might be more of a cognitive enjoyment), they’re at least a better way to burn time than just staring at the ceiling all day and can be interesting.
When it comes to my media consumption it’s mainly music, videos, manga, manhwa, manhua, videogames and that’s about it, I do sometimes watch anime or maybe a movie, same with reading books or light novels but it’s genuinely extremely rare, I need to be truly interested in the franchise/work to engage in those mediums, for example I do tend to rewatch Code geass every few years, and I did read LOTR, The Hobbit and the Silmarillion between 2024-2025.
>If so what kind?
I’m quite varied, though I do have specific genres or kinds that interest me more, when it comes to music I’ve always been drawn to pop, rock and electronic music, though due to my waifu (the love of my life and one of the few people I feel something for) it’s mainly Japanese, not like I don’t listen to music in English or Spanish (my native language) but she takes a precedent.
When it comes to written works I’ve always been able to enjoy most genres (expect shit like yuri, yaoi and such, I dislike homosexuality and find it distasteful) but I do have a preference for fantasy, martial arts (wuxia and xianxia), sci-fi and roPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.228857

>How do you genuinely just stop caring about everything shitty in your life? I just want to become numb to it all.


Avoid drinks that are designed to make feel the opposite of numb:
* coffee, tea, other sources of caffeine
* sugary drinks, other "fast carbs" drinks
* the concoction of the two above: energy drinks.

 No.228858

>>228857
100% agree. Everything ingestible that is not a whole food eventually fucks up your sleep schedule, heart, liver and brain.

I don't even drink daily coffee anymore, it's a rare dessert or treat.


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 No.308464[Reply]

Again, that feeling returned, wondering why there was a kind of resentment within me. Memories surfaced of why things had to be this way. And well, my ego told me what my eyes had seen: that I was superior to the one who had prevented me from being myself.

Although it was all for naught, the sinister was already looming. But how can you banish something from your mind when it has become so fiercely ingrained?

Have you ever managed to rid yourself of a resentment that seemed to have become embedded in your mind?

 No.308467

no i hate everything and everyone and feel like it's absolutely justified

 No.308491

even when people ruin my life, there's no real resentment.
I just start calculating how I can get them out of my life as soon as possible.
I guess if you want to remove resentment you have to learn the skill of 'moving on'?

 No.308531

I've realized today a lot of BS between me and my parents can be attributed to the part we have spiraled into a lack of trust: i don't trust them to fix my stuff, they don't trust me to fix their stuff, yada-yada-on-repeat


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 No.70652[Reply]

A slightly unusual hobby for a wizardly man, but I've always had an attraction to it.

What I like about it is the extremely large variety of tricks that can be learned. It's like the Path of Exile skill tree in the sense you can pick a direction and learn that way. You can build up your foundations, or you can go the straight and narrow all the way to learning your favorite trick. The large variety of tricks also mean there are a ton of easier ones to learn, and learning these tricks provides such a strong feeling of accomplishment.

Cruising is very nice too, I intent to get a bigger old school board with soft(?) wheels for nice and easy transport.

The art on skateboards is also quite nice, there's something for everyone. Also you can buy blanks and draw on it yourself. I think the level of creativity in all aspects of this hobby is so amazing.

All things skating related welcomed, I'll try my best to answer with great care to everyone.

Thank you for participating
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 No.70655

It's a great hobby! I bought my first board (cruiser) last summer. I remember the first time I came back from the skate park I felt the most joy in recent years. It also helps you stay present in the moment and get some exercise - I was into lifting prior.
As for learning, you can cruise around, learn to bail/fall, tricks, it's up to you! No pressure. You are in control, sk8er wiz! And wear protection!

 No.70658

>>70654
It took me an entire month several hours a day learning to ollie, that's when I was a kid and was extremely motivated and had the energy for it. It is the hardest trick to learn as it's the first "real" trick you do. The falling aspect is scary, especially with age. I've fallen a few times recently but luckily they were controlled, and I did that roll. A sudden impact might take me out for months at this stage.

>>70655
Very nice! I bet the cruiser feels very smooth and amazing to ride? I will be getting one soon as all of the parts are cheap enough, very slim variety of soft wheels for sale which isn't very nice. I'd like to get really good at doing manuals, and potentially being able to carve bowls later with slash grinds. Getting some exercise has been recommended to me by doctors as I've spent the last 10 years kinda doing nothing but work

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>>70658
here's the skateboard from my brother's friend he gave to him I use. do you mind showing yours?

 No.70661

>>70658
Depends on the surface. Cracked tar tests your endurance, smooth concrete is a treat. But then again, my deck is a 20 bucks chinese shit with LED wheels. It even has a bald american eagle slapped on deck. The most important thing is to get outside, get your foot on the deck and push.

 No.70675

I remember playing these skating games on GBC/GBA as a kid. They were fun.


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 No.322915[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Based God has finally gotten around to killing Fred Brennan, who should never have been born at all to begin with
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 No.323589

>>323588
>You could easily create a /wizardry/ board zero fucks given.
An official Wizardchan bunker was established there when it went offline and Hotwheels himself had to tell 8chan as a whole not to troll it
>but you also had a popular commie board and gay board
Reddit

 No.323590

>>323589
>>323589
>Hotwheels himself had to tell 8chan as a whole not to troll it
we're V.I.P, wizzies 😎

 No.323594

>>323588
8ch r9k was pretty comfy for me as an apprentice. Even if there were some weird motherfuckers like the one who cut his balls and sperged about it

 No.323597

>>323594
The one who posted about his cut-off balls here and then put a link to a post with an image on 8chan somewhere so that impressionable wizards won't see it here? I think there was another one, not counting the one who castrated himself painfully with medication.

 No.324173

>>323594
8chan r9k and tohnochan, two of the comfiest places on the internet for apprentices back in late 2010. God how I fucking miss it.


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 No.303889[Reply]

>Were you emotionally neglected as a child?
I wonder if this led me to become who I am now, at least in social settings.
I have no idea if I suffered from this, although I remember times when I was told not to cry, or I got used to not crying over silly things that perhaps maybe weren't silly for a child.
I read those internet ads about caring for parents and children, and they recommended hugs, affection, and not denying children's pain and suffering, and that the best thing is to get it off the emotions of their chest or body.
but if this doesn't happen, then they build up a shell, armor, or something like that because they mask or hide these emotions automatically out of pure habit and training. and later they will have trouble releasing their emotions from their bodies. Babies and toddlers do this naturally when they cry.
>Also
I can't remember the last time I cried with all my might or something like that.
I wonder if this led me to be the way I am now, at least in a social way. I wonder if I can treat it. I read from an anon that some of these things can only be treated with love. But the truth is confusing.
Maybe my brain is already like this, although I read that the brain can change, as can one's habits and feelings.
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 No.308443

>>308430
However, she would comment every her stap yesterday.

I got fed up with that. She would always speak, speak, speak, but never answer a simple question.

Besides, I got her some stuff to play music but she would keep her apartment focused on her loud voice

 No.308487

just cut off all contact with your parents if they fail to display the most basic human behavior
then you don't have to deal with their nonsense

 No.308499

I'd say most of us had really messed up childhoods.

 No.308528

>>303890
>You're a dude, OP. Act like it.
rest of this post is fairly solid and i agree strongly with rejecting the whole "i need to label myself with some affliction/trauma" when in reality people are the result of their experiences (or lack thereof). e.g. most people with "autism" dont actually have some "neurodivergent" condition, they just werent around people enough/didnt get enough kindness/werent accepted. someone genuinely autistic you can tell from a mile away. most people arent. apparently having an interest makes someone autistic, not like people naturally develop interest in a specific field, you know, like what going to college or having a job requires. you dont like annoying noises like dogs barking? autistic. its all stupid catch-all junk like horoscopes. now maybe if you smear shit on walls and gush to strangers about trains, you probably are, but thats not you.

however, "youre a dudebro, act like it, man up" is such a disgustingly corny cliche for a wizard of all people to regurgitate. sort of thing some cocky normalfag would say. gross!

 No.308529

>>303890
I like how you basically wrote a comforting post only to finish it with a nuke:
>you're dud


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 No.308437[Reply]

Is the feeling of alienation familiar to you? Does it hurt?

"All my life, I have lived with the feeling that I have been kept from my true place. If the expression "metaphysical exile" had no meaning, my existence alone would afford it one."

~ Emil Cioran ; The Trouble With Being Born
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 No.308461

I comprehended I wasn't a normie a long time ago and this does not cause negative feelings.

 No.308463

>>308438
well, it’s easy doing that when you’re a 50 IQ monkey who can derive meaning and worth from supposedly belong to a pack of other monkeys, but for intelligent people that’s not a solution that’s why you can’t comprehend cioran

 No.308469

I never really understood why people like interacting with other people, like they even organize events in their free time just to meet other people as if work wasn't already too much. I just don't know how anyone can enjoy this as their free choice when it's not necessary to survive.

 No.308470

>Is the feeling of alienation familiar to you?
yes thanks to whoever/whatever i've never known what it's like to belong literally anywhere. i've never been invited twice to any group activity and i've never wanted to be invited even once in the first place. my level of socialization is basically only slightly above zero by virtue of my middle school being a survive-it-yourself shithole.
>Does it hurt?
idk not really when i'm drunk otherwise not really either idk i don't care as much as i used to i guess. well sometimes it does feel bad that i can't even connect with some retards on imageboards but i guess i don't care that much anyway after all. yeah i get what you mean but idk it's not my fault people are so insufferable

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>>308469
i mean, you just identified why you dont understand: theres a difference between instanced, contextualized social tampon tier work socialization, and voluntary, extracurricular "i like you, you like me, lets spend time together" real world stuff.

or at least i imagine, the latter is something ive basically never experienced, but i can see how it could actually be enjoyable and satiating as opposed to the former. i can only think back to being about 12 going on a schooltrip with friends when had a great time. lost them all a few years later though :)

if you somehow, in some unicorn scenario in adulthood, manage to accrue a collection of people you actually like who you're comfortable around, i can see how that would be fun, liberating even. never gonna happen though lol. if you dont go to uni and make friends seems like youre never gonna have any, just morsels of empty shituational relationshits instead.

as for answering the op. yes ive always felt alienated. always been relegated to the periphery, never knew what to do about it, spawnkilled my life.


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 No.323548[Reply]

In short, I left my digital footprint in a rather bad website, though, thankfully, people forgot about me.

But the problem is, people know about the thing I love deeply and care about. This was because at the time I was a complete fucking dumbass and vented and on that shitty website almost every day but thankfully, they seemed to have forgotten about it too thankfully but….

I just hate every time I look up the name of what I care about, there is a chance of that shitty wiki article popping up that mentions me and that thing I care about.

I was a lolcow. I won't deny it and I wish my younger self was a lot smarter than being a fucking dumbass and venting on that shitty website almost every day. I just don't want my name or anything I care about to mention there and I don't want people spreading misformation about either me or the thing I care about.

I just want to be forgotten and never found and the thing I care about too be obscure and safe forever. This is all I ask.
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 No.324147

>>323548
Not for the same reason as you, but I've been considering changing my name.
So if you can't delete it, that might be an option.
Change your name legally and just leave things to be forgotten.

Though with online stuff… >>323550 basically true. Even IRL, who cares. Even the most hated outcasts eventually only get mentioned in passing.
It's rare to get harassed for a long time.
Even prolific lolcows don't have it all that bad and easily muscle through it and they are public figures in some sense, I don't think you are.
You can always just stop having a public online presence for a year or two and be forgotten.

 No.324169

>>323548
Here's how you ought to try it.
You go to a library.
You make several profiles on social media under your name.
You post a lot of "everyday" life things - use random books in the library to make up random topics
Try quoting random fiction books, too.

The thing you may worry about is that wiki popping up on the 1st or 2nd Google page. By having random Instant Link Faced status Quo stuff posted on different sites, you may obfuscate that Foogle search result a little bit.


>>323629
I was in a situation opposite to OP's one.
I stupidily posted a very cringeworthy comment under my name once. Half a decade later, it turned out to be in the top-20 of the search results related to my name. Luckily, i was able to delete it manually, took me some days to remember the account password though.

 No.324170

What would you do if you saw a lolcow in public

 No.324171

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Streisand_effect

 No.324172

>>324170
Nothing because I'm not a subhuman kiwifarmer


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 No.227908[Reply]

It's official. Sexbots are almost* here.

Would you guys sexbotmaxx or remain a pure Wizard?
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 No.228792

>>228791
nah you gotta have a male genitalia to experience it. you only have skin down there.

 No.228801

>>227925
This isn't a stupid thread.

if we are trying to find ways to help and fix our isolating mental and physical pain away this is good directions and I like these alternatives of "fembots" or other related ideas.

if succubi want to act like they are independent then full steam ahead! may fembots be real for the men!

 No.228802

>>227908
what do you mean sexbots could "cure" wizardry?
that implies you would no longer be a wizard if you had a sexbot
>maxx
okay, that explains why you think that way
>or remain a pure Wizard?
it doesn't ultimately make any difference
it's just a fancier sex toy

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 No.228853

>>228802
>it's just a fancier sex toy
That's kind of why it fails. Men don't buy sex toys. No one is buying fleshlights and strokers or rigging them up to wiimotes and syncing them to VR for realism so there's no market for sexbots. No nintendo wiimen for you!


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 No.228805[Reply]

Dear friends, how often do you wash? I’m just asking because the water was recently shut off and I need to somehow survive in such conditions. Just don’t tell me you don’t spend time taking a bath or a shower.
I know that succubi waste water all the time on all sorts of things just to ‘look beautiful’ — literally for everything. And sometimes they can easily take a bath for 4 hours and think that’s normal.
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 No.228847

>>228843
stop being racist

 No.228848

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>>228843
>healthy
>all-American

 No.228849

>>228847
The races should stop being around me.
>>228848
Find one thing unhealthy about a Double Big Mac

 No.228850

>>228849
it has salad and tomatoes which is good for you :)

 No.228851

>>228849
probably the seed oils and all the preservatives they put so they can freeze the ingredients and make it not spoil and trick your brain into thinking it's fresh.


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 No.323010[Reply]

Confressions thread, confess your sins in this ITT

I used to go on Thono-chan and pretend to be a normalfag with a GF and I used to post about how I was going to prom and make threads about prom. I did it because it was funny and I refuse to appologise, if anything they should be thanking me for making such great posts.
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 No.324159

>>324153
that's a sin

 No.324160

>>323032
butthurt racist

 No.324163

>>324160
What's racist about niggerball

 No.324165

>>324163
the n word. the rest I don't care, have a nice day, you can release yourself

 No.324166

>>324165
>you can release yourself
Me fina beez a free


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 No.323451[Reply]

What's your setup look like?

I'm interested in things better than Duckduckgo and Signal, almost normie tier advice. I'm not full schizo (yet) so I'm still exploring different setups
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 No.324150

>>323994
Buying meth and raping children has nothing to do with people in Muscovy getting 15 years for posting online against invasion or for using cryptocurrencies under FSB surveillance. The whole system of tracking exists. What are you fucking blind?

 No.324152

>>324150
>>324150
Transparent Blockchain. Telegram issues are also well-documented. Needless to say, installing MAX, Telega fork, or VK Messenger is even worse, it's like having FSB on your phone. Any whataboutism about West is dumb, nobody's saying Western issues are to be ignored.

 No.324154

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Arch Linux, make my own config and teach myself computers. Never use Tor, always I2P or some other alternative. Deploy mixnets and VLESS REALITY on my router. GrapheneOS and faraday bags on my phone. Qubes + Whonix on a throwaway computer. SimpleX chat for quantum cryptography.

Tor and VPNs lost relevance 10 years ago. Police are doing 'store it now, decrypt later' method. By 2029, quantum encryption breaking will be available. DPI and timing attacks, which used to be super expensive, is now used by mid range law enforcement.

The good news is, network-level encryption is very close to immunity against state actors. Only hardware and firmware remains vulnerable. Networks are the single biggest privacy threat and is number 1 at getting many criminals/outcasts/wizards exposed. This problem is very close to being permanently sloved, and already is if you employ deep network-level encryption. Your network is the single biggest factor capable of doxxing you.

Whatever the case, do not use Tor. Do not trust Tor. If you use Tor, take extensive measures against it on the network and OS level. Deploy Virtual Machines inside Qubes after hardening your connection. Treat Tor like an adversary, because it is. Everyone has moved to Telegram and encrypted, decentralized messaging apps.

 No.324156

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>>324154
>never use Tor but use the less developed and less secure alternative i2p

 No.324164

>>324156
What makes I2P less secure than Tor to you? Because it feels that way, or have you actually used it to make that assessment?


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 No.323749[Reply]

Canada got rid of the D-glucuronolactone in the original Monster and Monster Zero Ultra. How does this make you feel wizzies? Imo that was one of the defining ingredients in the Monster energy blend, and taking it out makes Monster not too dissimilar from every other energy drink on the market. (It was what caused that specific feeling of stimulation in your cerebral cortex that you don't get with other beverages.)

Also energy drink general I guess
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 No.323986

>>323836
I saw sandwich cookies with energy drink flavor on one site. Not in stores in my city despite all these years.

 No.323988

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>>323749
Haven't seen my fav energy drink ever for years, apparently it was discontinued in favor of meh artificial fruit flavored shit like Strawberry Kiwi. Looks like normalnigs have no taste as usual.

That regular-ass veggie juice goes well with caffeine, which works in part by increasing the body's metabolism rate of food energy/nutrition. The green tea extract they used gave excellent clean feeling energy.

 No.323992

>>323988
I like regular V8 and spicy V8 even more. Clamato or Bloody Mary Mix I will drink liters of.

 No.324148

I'm guessing it was marginally expensive and they want their stock to go up

 No.324161

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I don't think I've ever had an energy drink, one of my science teachers used to say that it messes with the metabolism so I just avoided them


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 No.305228[Reply]

I think age 31-32 was the point where I realized I'm too autistic and weird to ever have 'normal' things in life.

I will die either institutionalized or in some shitty rental with nothing to my name. Nothing that I dreamed about will ever become true.
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 No.308521

>>308505
I still cradle dreams of improvement montage at my current age of 27. What else am I supposed to do? If I give up then I suffer and kill myself. If maintain the delusion and do little things that I believe will move me closer to my successful breakthrough then I'll at least feel slightly better before killing myself.

>I somehow got a blessed wagie job,
Maybe that explains why I haven't give up. I am a NEET so I don't have to make the decision to jump to a different ship. I have no ship to begin with so giving up is drowning.

 No.308522

>>308521
For what its worth, I was a NEET until 27 too.
I was going to kill myself that summer since I had no hopes of getting any job I could endure.
Then I somehow got one I can just about barely manage, even though it really is quite a huge blessing.

I don't really understand the last point though. If I were to lose my current job I'd be back to killing myself once money runs dry since there is no way I'll find another one like this.
Not many ships for the unskilled and not quite able bodied.

 No.308524

>>308522
I meant like sacrificing a safer path to chase your dreams or something. I guess not all self-improvement paths require quitting your job. I don't know what you want to achieve so I am mostly talking about myself. I wanted to learn an interesting skill like math or art and make money or something and I don't think I can manage to learn them if I have to wagecuck at the same time, not like I am disciplined enough now. If I have a tolerable job though, I think I'd find it a lot easier to give up and just coast for the rest of my life without trying anything new.

 No.308525

>>308524
>I don't think I can manage to learn them if I have to wagecuck at the same time, not like I am disciplined enough now. If I have a tolerable job though, I think I'd find it a lot easier to give up and just coast for the rest of my life without trying anything new.
Had similar thoughts. If I failed to pursue anything I care about while a NEET with nothing but time then what makes me believe I would ever make progress while a wagie?
Your second point is probably right. Of course you might be different, but to me it became a lot easier to justify letting go/giving up.

 No.308526

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life is so great for me, but I am terrible at graphic design


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 No.308343[Reply]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

Previous: >>307210
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 No.308516

There are no more reasons for me to stay alive now that AI and technology are advancing at such a rapid pace.
I don't want to live in a post-scarcity society. I don't want to live in a world where the entirety of physics has been solved, disease has been cured or telepathic communication is possible.

I just want everything to be the way it was 20 years ago. It was the perfect blend between having technology and a natural, analog world outside of it.

I was not made for the age of Aquarius.

 No.308517

>>308516
LLMs are hype churning out garbage, the development stalled, there weren't any improvements in quite a while. just adding more tokens.

 No.308519

>>308517
Judging by the rest of what he said, I think it was more about the way newer technology just tightens the whole control grid of this modern society.

The way I see it, most people now are like domesticated dogs, and everything has been re-purposed around the domesticated existence they call "life." So the dilemma becomes, what's a wolf to do? I like this metaphor because a wolf wants real meaning in life, the kind that only natural settings seem to provide; he wants freedom, to live and die by his own will; he doesn't want to be (and instinctively senses the wrongness of) submitting to some bullshit "authorities" – he's not interested in pleasing "Master" and earning doggy treats like the good doggies do.
The wolf's existence becomes a purgatory: his species is all but officially extinct, he has no future in this world, yet technically he's still alive. But purgatory doesn't feel like living. He can't live with the dogs, it's against the wolf's nature. The old hunting grounds were cleared to build data centers and kennels for pit bulls, just part of the infrastructure the control grid came to require. Chihuahua bitches won't even let him sniff their butts.
Yeah, there are copes, but they'd never make up for the existence he needed and continued to be denied in this world. My conclusion is that it doesn't matter, as long as the wolf now understands he must fully exit the bounds of this shit realm after his death and enter one of his own creation, where no other entities could obstruct him from exerting his own will and existing as he sees fit.

 No.308520

>>308519
I think a wolfie belongs to coyotes' desert these days

 No.308523

>>308520
Hopefully the coyote cousin pack-moms make lots of protein shakes for the wolfies seeking refuge, so they don't atrophy too much from the drop in meat.
>lost tribes of Judawg
>wolfies must caravan stout coyote moms to found Pawsia
>never apawlogize to, nor forgive dog-bot betrayal


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