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 No.70434[Reply]

Sorry bad English.
Hi wizards I have a new hobbie, the retro gaming you know crt tvs ps2 etc.
I fun learn to hack the ps2 and play games in this console, this hobbie have its problems but with patience and a bit of money you can beat it.
I strongly interested in the way to fix our dystopian world, i have never can try a dumbphone bocouse in my country people are obsesed with apps so the only dumb thing who I can have in my life is a crt tv with a PS2, I feel like I'm save of the spirit of this decade with this, my smartphone is boring when I have a PS2…

 No.70435

>>70434
smartphones have destroyed the brains for many people. Retro gaming is preferable.
>I feel like I'm save of the spirit of this decade with this
The modern gaming scene could use this. At least in the ps2 era most devs tried cared to make quality work. Now it's maximum monetization. Make a game with dozens of skin dlcs or loot boxes.



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 No.296810[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Does any of you get irritated with family gatherings or when guests come to visit you in your family's house?
I am 24 years old, little to not school education, no job, whenever I am with some relatives or in some family gathering I can sense how much they look down at me for being a massive loser, even if they almost never express it directly at all, since I was a child I would always be asked by them questions like "how are you doing in school?" or "are you getting any good grades" Of course they no longer ask me such question, But I still feel a lot of shame when I am around them, I try to avoid sitting with them like the plague
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 No.305745

>>305744
I know exactly how you feel and I know what the cause is for me: inflammation. My whole body remained in an inflamed state from eating plant matter and carbs for years in the past, preventing me from growing, being healthy, being happy. I lost 7-8 years of my adolesence doing things I could've stopped. I could've eaten better. I could've said no. I was 166cm aswell for several years but I'm 169cm now after making some improvements, but I feel that it's all too late. I'm 23 years old.

The past was an act of robbery against me, I know everything that I lost, all my dreams, my time, the happiness, the opportunities, they are all gone permanently. There is nothing that can be done to compensate for them, nothing that can be done to replace them. I suffered emotional distress and pain from abusers, on top of poor habits built from the kind of environment I was forced to exist in, just to lose the most crucial opportunities forever. I'm angry, I'm angry at my family for giving me garbage to eat and abusing my metabolism, I'm angry at myself for being so weak, I'm angry for being poor. I'm angry.

 No.305746

chillax dudes yer never gonna compete with the 181cm chad no matter how hard you try if you're not 182cm which i for one sure as hell am not. it doesn't destroy your *whole* life, only a part of it. you still can earn money enough for spell ingredients

 No.306011

>>298779
Uh yes? Autism means you are pathologically socially retarded and that destines you to be a loser unless some insane level luck happens to you.

 No.306124

>>305744
I hated NEET life so much, to the point I somewhat prefer being a full time wagie. After 18 my parents would nag me nonstop, wake me up in the middle of the night to remind me to look for jobs in the morning. I was already going too. Then they'd walk away muttering how useless I am. I was ready to end it all. I've estranged myself from my entire family now aside from my parents as I live with them, and we've come to terms now. Hopefully there are no future hiccups, but I'm sure there will be.

 No.306151

>>306124
>Then they'd walk away muttering how useless I am
Was in a similar situation. The twist was that this made me snap at them. Tried to get a long-term job but was rejected. Only manage to get a few temp jobs. Parents got irritated by this and blame me for not trying hard enough.
Eventually had enough of this and screamed at them. told them if they wanted me to have a job so badly then they should do more to help get one! they got angry and responded that they didn't owe it to help me.
Told them they then can shut the fuck up, if they didn't want to help me, that I wasn't interested in hearing what they had to say then . Openly told them to shove it up their asses so I didn't need to hear their retarded nagging.
Their only comeback was that I wouldn't get very far with an attitude like this. that this would only ensure that in the future when people see me do bad, no one will bother to nag/lecture me to do better. If this is how I respond when people complained about me. Told them I could figure thing out for myself and didn't need their dumb nagging and lecture. My dad just said fine see what good that will do you.
While I'm still unemployed, my parents have stopped nagging all together, which did a ton of good for me mentally.


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 No.227680[Reply]

you know what would be nice? a way to further leave our humanity behind. free from the urges of the flesh, keeping only the love for anime, vidya, music, movies, perhaps food (though i would dispense that one personally). only the basic joys that life offers, the kind that allows me to have them independent of companionship.

in essence, a mecha, a robot, a machine that doesn't seek to harm but it is able to defend itself, enabling a life free from society, free from others, making them completely optional. i know that this is partly possible in human form, as my desire for the opposite sex begins to die down at the level 34.

but as this desire dies, leaving no trace of want or disdain, only cold indifference as the age progresses, a disconcerting peace takes place, along with the existential questions.

where to go from here? driving a car with no destiny, maybe that gives a high. once that is done, now what? maybe watching evangelion for the gorillionth time. making a new food or kicking the ball randomly. i don't know, i guess i am not used to this much freedom.

winning the struggle of the flesh comes with a price after all. "where to go from here?", the question comes up again, along with the image of a child looking up to you, holding your hand.

and that child is you.
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 No.227693

>>227692
Stop getting dopamine too fast then. Go do a challenging hobby or something.

 No.227695

>>227690
how can you tell?

 No.227696

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>>227680
>where to go from here?
there is nowhere to go and nothing to do.
and if you look at humans from an outside perspective you can see that it doesnt really matter anyway.
a human gets born, consumes resources and then eventually dies and thats it.
what he does between birth and death is pretty much meaningless be it rotting in a room watching youtube until he expires or being a normalfag wagie with a wife and kids and then croaking in some nursing home later.
its completely irrelevant what you do or dont do. its all meaningless and you can fill this time with whatever you want and I know this is easier said than done as someone who doesnt give a shit about anything and doesnt want anything. its difficult to find ways to burn some more lifetime.

logically speaking it makes sense to minimize suffering and try to enjoy the few good moments like a good meal or a shower or shit like that.
if you at some point run out of things to do thats basically it, you saw everything you wanted to see and now you just wait for that last part of death to finish your life's story.

 No.227857

>>227692
Back in my days, 1990s super-trippy-graphics DOS games were a very good way to get some dope.

This and "let the music be your dope" idea.

 No.227858

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Yes, OP.
THAT hopefully would be nice. I experienced a nice beautiful feeling of almost not wishing for anything lately and that perfect. Perfect. Every single minute detail.



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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.305756

>>305405
Vitamin A is also a helpful addition to combating pssd. Canned pumpkin (for instance) is an excellent source of this vitamin and something that could help you.

 No.306146

I gave up mirtazapine nearly two weeks ago and i’ve only been able to mastubate twice. Does this mean i have pssd now? I think i will start to get vitamins when i get paid

 No.306148

>>304430
>I was on prozac for a while and I'm pretty confident it made my memory worse but most of all it killed my dick. I almost want to kill the doctors that prescribed it to me before I die
Tsk-tsk-tsk. Sounds too crabby for wizardchan.

>>306146
Nah, I took a vacation this Christmas and had a similar very relaxed mood… naturally, not medically. I doubt you have it.

 No.306149

>>306146
once a week is pretty wizardly to be honest. you're fine

 No.306150

>>301262
>It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

If you won't, you can always pull of a following move:

1. Install Honkai Impact 3rd or Honkai Starrail
2. Install Arknights or its Endfield same-universe game or both
3. Ashphalt series mobile games
4. ??????
5. You now have several dopamine-releasing games to pass your time
6. Audiobooks to play in the background.



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 No.305927[Reply]

>be me
>bored
>decide to go for a walk
>the group that used to harass me in high school sees me
>they start shouting embarrassing nicknames they gave me loudly, just like they did in HS
I thought I wouldn't need to deal with that anymore, but it seems like I was wrong. Has anyone here ever experienced something similar? I just want to have some peace.
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 No.306028

>>305928
>not even worth thinking about
t. never been called names in his entire life

i can't believe some people have such low self awareness as you do. not bothering about shit is a decades long process of internalizing complex self knowledge and even then it's only a conscious construct that has to continuously keep the unconscious in check.

 No.306098

>>305927
yes bully memories still haunts me after more than a decade.

>Being me

>got a job
>everything is ok for the first time in my entire life
>speak to coworkers
>after some months coworkers begin to act WAY too familiar. like, a lot

>begin to throw shit at each other, me included


>one of them point out a delicate situation about me not going to work past week


it hurts
he laughs
everyone laughs
i fucking wish him to shut the fuck off
got so much shit inside me so I cant figure a way of resolving this withouth violence

my instincts are telling me to throw a punch as revange for all those years being bullied in highschool
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 No.306126

>>306098
1. You probably should switch your current job to night shifts.
Your excuse: "traffic jams finally got me".

2. If fails, switch jobs, but only once your "night shifts" plan failed.

Your excuse: "past jobs was about night shifts. Unfortunately, the windows get too much sunlight in the morning and I just cannot sleep from all the light and heat."

 No.306141

>>305927
Not quite like this, but yeah, I get the general sentiment.
Abused kid, everyone knew about my situation, small village, was bullied as a result, like, major life changing stuff at multiple points in life.
Was a nervous wreck, never quite adapted. Never quite got a fresh start either.

I changed schools 3 times by the time I was 18 and always there was at least a few people who "followed me" as they also changed schools.
These people often weren't the bullies themselves, but soon enough they told my tale and presented me as a social offering to the new tribe if that makes any sense.
They used my past torment and my weakness as a gateway to fitting in themselves. So I never really had a chance on my own merit.

To this day I'm haunted, it happens at at work too if you are unlucky. Contrary to popular belief the "bad bully" wont be your subordinate and you the boss later like my mom used to say.
A loser stays a loser because of the learned behavior patterns and developed character. The bullies are socially apt, they usually rise up.
Ironically enough I had the misfortune of meeting some when I was forced out of neetdom. You can guess how that went.

>>305940
This here is probably the worst of it.
Life is just one eternal highschool. I'm glad to have read your post. Said well and concise.
My mother is the same as me and lived through much humiliation too.
When I was younger I didn't understand why she was so nervous about how we present ourselves, but yeah later on this happened to us too and now I get it.
In an apartment complex you can get screwed in so many ways if the others sense blood in the water, weakness or whatever.
If there is a pre-existing clique and you make one mistake at work as well, you'll suffer. Same everywhere.
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 No.306144

>>305927
God I fucking hate people from HS



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 No.323017[Reply]

Recently I feel like the large corporations that run everything have really been dropping the ball. The end user experience for shopping at walmart of Amazon or wherever used to be almost flawless and you could understand how they got to be practical oligopolies. Today though? The experience is so amazingly shit. You can tell none of these corporations gives a shit about the day to day. They have some apps managing everything and they just punish the slaves when some app tells them to. It is such a lazy form of decay.


Anyone else noticing this? Almost across the board in every realm of life it seems like the system is more full of bugs and random failures. Everything works just barely well enough to still keep functioning but at the same time it's decaying and degrading. I think there's not enough actual competition anymore in society. All the power structures are set and all the lowest worms in society have wriggled their way to the top of them.
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 No.323068

>>323065
You can't have both quality and quantity, imagine the market as a lake: if the lake is full of fish companies will put no effort into fishing, instead if there is no fish companies will have to improve their tactics in order to eat.

 No.323071

This post >>323027 isn't too far away.

>>323017
>All the power structures are set and all the lowest worms in society have wriggled their way to the top of them.
Free speech is used to justify things that aren't really speech and that's just one kind of corruption ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 No.323075

>>323068
I don't know why I even try to reason with stupid people

 No.323077

>>323075
>Talking past each other haha
Why don't you just use the damn lake to explain it to him?

>>323065
Do you watch dystopian fiction?

 No.323080

>>323075
Woah brother I did not insult you. I only made an example to explain my concept. I will give you a more detailed response.

>There can be only 1000 people in society but if there is only one store then will it have just barely enough customers to sustain itself and try hard? No obviously not. It will only try hard if there is another store it has to compete with for customers.

My point is that there aren't only 1000 people in society but a growing unhealthy amount, the planet is a fixed environment and can only host a limited number of stores so the equation more people = more competition is false. Instead there is no limit to the quantity of people that can exist.

I will make another example:
Can everyone become a doctor? No, so there is a limited number of doctors based on performance and results.
Do you think a doctor will give you more attention if he has to handle 100 patients or 1000 patients? I will let you answer my question.

Since OP was talking about the enshittification of everything I pointed out the real problem: the mass consumption societies of globohomo.



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 No.219200[Reply]

>"No one owes you their kindness"
>"No one has to have a reason not to like you"
>"You're not entitled to friends"
>"Thinking people have to like you is narcissistic"

All said by people who haven't experienced a lifetime of rejection, social ostracization and involuntary isolation. All said by people who haven't tried every way possible to be likable, but their autism still showed through.

I hate when normies say shit like this, and their stupid "boundaries" of not "owing people shit" which translated is usually; I'm going to act terrible to anyone I see as less than myself in a way that makes me look righteous.
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 No.226784

>>226497
How much RAM you got? Tried running a 8B parameter model with 16GB, it works okay but I think that's as far as I can go RAM wise.

 No.226786

>>226784


16 or 32gb RAM, I should check

it's definitely not 8 gb, though

 No.226800

>>219200
Here's thing

All the "just intelligence, no social adaptation" sperg-friendly jobs got outsourced to cheap countries

 No.227855

>>219200
>"No one owes you their kindness"

most people are way to high on the "enlightenment" than they would want to help. or more so just because they have a heart , they assume they aren't heartless.
they help people who they want to help just because it feels nice , but anything else beyond that is something that needs to be forced out of them.
they are fine with this , because they trust that whatever forces them to do stuff is a good person.

doesn't really help that people really have to hide thier intentions, you are still alowed to see people as degenerates that need to be perpetually opresed and purged. but you are forced to hide it.
at the end of it , is just them thinking your are entitled because they lack genuinenedless.

but like , I am not a wizard, I just saw this treath on my sea of tabs. don't even remeneber why its here , and was interested by this.

my apologies if this just seems to surface level.
or just too wrong in a offensive way.

but I think the core of a lot of this people , is more so a form of evil enlightenment and inner peace about thier situation.
they just see stuff like this is a necesary tax , I don't even think they necesarely don't see you as a person , in particular.
its more so that they see everything as not a person. and persohood is just something , things force into them.
like everything is about forcing for them.

 No.227856

Reminder "tech geeks" aren't talked about much anymore



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 No.322970[Reply]

How do you fellow thirdie NEET survive and cope? I am Neet in third world country, I really don't want to return to the call center I used to work from last year ;-; the town I live in went to hell too so virtually no local jobs either, I want to be a NEET all day every day but I am forced to work since I live in a third world country and NEETbucks don't exist here, I also can't afford nice things and hobbies so even NEETing is not really fun but a lesser evil compared to the cagie life to me, not to mention the wages are extremely bad, my former job paid less than 200 USDs a month and I had to work 6 days a week (most people in my country work 6 days a week).
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 No.323033

>>323030
Not a Thirdie but I am NEET who is preparing for the homeless life, currently I am almost 40 and I gave up on getting a job, I have almost no money the last amount I had was used for me to buy a pair of sports shoes and a tent, it's simply inevitable for me, I do exposure therapy where I sleep outside everyonce in a while in order to make my mind used to that lifestyle and not fear it too much, I also walk long distances every single day, hence why I bought a pair of sports shoes, homelesness implies the need to walk long distances daily to find food, so I am making my body used to such thing already while I can, I accept my fate and I am preparing for it.

 No.323038

>>322988
Cringe ive known plenty of lv 2/3's poc vs "aspergers" whites

 No.323051

How the hell do you survive as a NEET in that part of the globe? I am from the first world and without NEETbux it's very very difficult to make your family support you for longer than 1 years or 2, I have heard of some third world NEETs whom their families have been supporting them for long years, maybe they are really wealthy for their national standards.

 No.323074

I wageslaved for a year at a gas station for 280 U.S.D a month, it was a hell on earth.

 No.323079

>>323051
Some of us fucked up and are barely getting neetbux at 40, a neet had an SSI case going 8 years



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 No.63453[Reply]

Shmups are the quintessential wizzy game, what are you guys playing?

GOAT genre for social recluse.

There's nothing like the feeling of turning into an attack helicopter in Ketsui, shredding through bullets, and feeling like you're in total control of your destiny.

https://youtu.be/wT8bzE940F4?si=r3R_Gyk1fKHH_h3t

And the soundtracks are ALWAYS bangers.
https://youtu.be/8ndRNfWYfDw?si=wx9-RqnlcvzHU_sV
https://youtu.be/0Lqj427yef4?si=g5r8L38sgIpwL2hh
https://youtu.be/MCkUSJFmKsQ?si=gNHcFxDlUAhihbFI
https://youtu.be/6A0oCtFGl80?si=8vBP3JCbYSLSYNKD

 No.63454

>>63453
Best shmups for new players:
>Crimzon Clover - Novice Difficulty
>Mushihimesama - Novice Difficulty
>DoDonPachi Resurrection (DaiFukkatsu) - Novice Difficulty

https://youtu.be/956XrCwP3RU?si=Q4ynI_NtlQ9Swl05



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 No.314827[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Hitler's thread:
Paintings or things related to him or to national socialism.

- Painting of a castle.
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 No.322880

>>322763
"Covid" does not exist. It is strictly merely a psychological concept purposed by jewish pharma to get drugs into the arms of dumb goyim.

 No.323013

>>322571
exactly right. just imagine how different things could have been without jewish interference.

 No.323064

why did Netanhayu said Hitler did nothing wrong and that he was not planning to genocide jews?

>Benjamin Netanyahu claimed that Haj Amin Al-Husseini convinced Hitler to exterminate the Jews instead of deporting them.

 No.323073

>>323064
>why did Netanhayu said
This is an English website.

 No.323078

>>323064
I think this is a new jew tactic. They're lining themselves up with 'based' takes and with right-wing positions to co-opt it and control them. They're manipulating the jew argument, using the jewish question as bait, to influence people into doing certain things and keep them blind.


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 No.323014[Reply]

>I hope to keep the site operating long enough for people to backup what they deem valuable and migrate elsewhere. I cannot give any specific date yet. Hopefully people can do organized effort on this, like a specific sub-section. There are other communities like this that can welcome you as long as you respect them in kind.

https://allthefallen.moe/forum/index.php?threads/about-closing-down-the-site.125821/=

The situation in the booru "seems" to have stabilized and they are allegedly getting taken under Catbox, whereas the forum is 100% gonna get nuked. If you guys have content you like posted there SAVE IT, this is your last chance.
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 No.323053

>>323050
Yeah prison don't want lolicons because they're not criminals lol. Loli really trigger some people for some reason.

 No.323054

>>323050
You will never be as desirable as a loli. Cope and seethe. Go back to crystal cafe and hate on how much men dont want a fat ugly troglodyte like you.

 No.323061

Damn just as I got the urge for a skyrim oneeshota mod too

 No.323063

Why should I care if some loli shota porn site and its forum gets shut down. Nigger, get a fucking life and do something good for yourself instead of masturbating all day to cartoons.

 No.323067

>>323063
it’s a direct attack on free speech by normal groids, if you don’t care about this you gay porn forums may be next, that’s how genocides start



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 No.224780[Reply]

Should I take the Catholic pill?

They seem to genuinely respect Wizards and have a tradition of hermits. Their priests are a celibate ruling class.

I didn't grow up around Christians but it seems like the difference between them and other Christians is that they're the original church together with the lesser known Orthodox Church.

I don't get all the rules they have though. You shall attend Mass on Sundays and holy days of obligation and rest from servile labor. You shall confess your sins at least once a year. You shall receive the sacrament of the Eucharist at least during the Easter season. You shall observe the days of fasting and abstinence established by the Church. You shall help to provide for the needs of the Church, each according to his or her own ability.

I'm overwhelmed. I get why people just go with the DIY protestant approach but it seems like if the Catholics are one of the original churches Jesus said was legit then it's a safer bet.

Look I don't get how there can be a miracle like resurrection either and frankly all the Abrahamic religious miracles seem really underwhelming compared to the wild stories of Hindu gods. But so many people believe in Christianity from a Pascal's wager perspective it seems like I might as well consider it.

At least it'll make me feel like I'm less LARPing some fantasy wizard and instead I'll seem like a faithful religious hermit which gets more respect points
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 No.227818

>>227817
>I am just saving myself for marriage.
Get. Out.

 No.227819

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>>224780
Mother Mary's apparition was spotted over Egypt in 1968. This is a rendition of her face taken from the photos.

 No.227820

>>227819
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Our_Lady_of_Zeitoun

Note there were reports of blind people being able to see after witnessing the apparition. One persons finger was healed from gangrene.

 No.227845

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Nah, it's the same shit, I grew up catholic
Everyone hates going to church and everyone wants to have sex since a young age

 No.227854

wtf why has a thread leading with a post with a picture about "relationship stability" not been locked yet? This is clearly a crab thread.



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 No.306061[Reply]

I got summoned to jury duty. I am depressed and socially anxious, probably have avoidant personality disorder. It is asking me if I have a disability that prevents me from completing jury duty and I honestly don't know how to answer that. If I couldn't handle college and I can't handle employment because I'm too mentally ill, why would jury duty be any different? I kind of feel like it would be possible just unpleasant, but then I also wonder if I can physically force myself to show up and that I'm less sure of.

I have to ask my doctor to tell them I'm disabled though and then that would be weird. How are you supposed to know if you just have mental illness or if you are disabled by that mental illness?

 No.306063

>How are you supposed to know if you just have mental illness or if you are disabled by that mental illness?
If you're cognizant enough to ask this, then you're very likely not mentally ill. The entire prospect of 'mental illness' is not being able to introspect and be concerned with ideas related to your own capability or the consequences of being placed in an uncomfortable situation. You can try to claim some sort of social disorder such as social anxiety, but that's a learned disorder not inherent to some sort of physical ailment of the brain, so the government might not care. Don't fall for the "I'm forever helplessly mentally ill because I don't particularly enjoy being in crowded places" ruse. By all means fake it to get out of jury duty, but don't willingly lower your own expectations of yourself because some memelords online have convinced you that you're braindead in spite of you proving yourself able to communicate functionally.

 No.306130

>>306061
Never go to the psych ward or be blatantly honest with a therapist. These people are quick to deem you mentally adjudicated (incompetent) and will fuck you over for life.

Just because society socially ostracizes you doesn't mean you're mentally ill necessarily; it's a negative feedback loop.

All they'll do is gaslight you and project onto you. If you do need to seek out help from them, attempt to be as relatively neurotypical and politically correct in a nuanced way as possible, and pretend that their shit advice is somehow a groundbreaking revelation of self-awareness.

 No.306138

I think this is obvious unless you are truly delusional, or too retarded to realise you are retarded. I would avoid this jury stuff anyway, even when you interact with the court system in a good way these things somehow always bring bad stuff in your life



/dep/

 No.306131[Reply]

Never look for psychiatric help, expecially as an addict. It was the worst mistake I ever made in my life. I got addicted to ultra high doses of xanax 8-10x over maximum, and when I tried to get help, instead of tapering me which is what they do in every civilized country, they took me from 30 to 0 in a day. I had stroke symptoms, 60/40 bpm, i was teleporting in real life, i couldnt talk think or know what day it is, function or do anything. I spent 3 days falling on my knees under the doctor's office in the psychiatric hospital and got treated like an annoying fly. I wanted to call an ambulance to take me out of there, i called an ambulance on myself because I thought I had a stroke when I ran away out of my drugs, but nobody ever checked nor was interested in anything. My doctor was an ukrainian piece of shit that treated me like shit under his shoe. After 12 days in psychiatric prison i barely escaped by pretending to get better, and spent 3 weeks in a psychosis despite taking antipsychotics and antiseizure meds, i felt 24/7 heart attack, stroke and epilepsy symptoms. I also lost feeling in my body, i had visual, auditory, time perception problems, became and invalid that couldnt move or pick up a paper, eat, swallow, feeel thirst, pee, lost ability to control my muscles. If i took a bath i would swallow all the water and not feel it, i hit my head on everything and didnt even feel it, i could punch walls and not feel if i broke my bones. When I went to a private psychiatrist to get help, she saw me and said she doesn't deal with this and kicked me out the door after 30 seconds without letting me explain a single thing. I lost my mind, it has been completely destroyed and ruined to the point there's nothing left. After 5 weeks of this treatment and choking on water I thought i'll die anyway so I went back to my drugs and after taking 1 pill I got a better remission and improvement than over a month of their psychiatric treatment. I could actually feel things and i wanted to cry from happiness. But it was all temporary, and in the end i went back to my old habits, but now, they ruined it so that I get every single side effect from the drug that I never had before despite taking the same amount for a year straight. My physical health has also completely collapsed, I was unable to take a bath for a month, shave, eat, think, time moved 100x times slower and I experienced hell on earth worse than being torturted alive with worst cia methods. Now I have nothiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.306132

Dead internet theory, seems made up. Stay off drugs if true.

 No.306134

>>306131
You're the guy who kept suicide baiting last year about how you only have 1 or 2 days left to live and you're gonna die. Dunno if you're the same guy but I keep seeing these xanax suicide posts that all revolve around the same themes.

 No.306136

Are you the benzo guy?
I am dying too and I found out in my last days I just look for some sense of peace and warmth, even if rage is justified.
your post reads like a typical drug addict death spiral.



/jp/

 No.44209[Reply]

Lolicon is a highly controversial subgenre within anime and manga that centers on the sexualized depiction of young or young-looking fictional characters. The term is derived from “Lolita complex,” which itself traces back to Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov, though the original novel explores very different literary and psychological themes. Discussions around lolicon often revolve around the tension between fiction and real-world ethics. Some people argue that because the characters are fictional and no real children are involved, it falls under artistic expression and freedom of fantasy. Others strongly disagree, expressing concern that sexualizing childlike imagery, even in drawn form, can normalize harmful attitudes or blur moral boundaries. Legal approaches vary widely depending on jurisdiction, with some countries regulating explicit drawn depictions and others focusing strictly on material involving real minors.

Culturally, lolicon exists within broader debates about censorship, artistic liberty, and the social impact of media. In parts of Japan’s niche otaku culture, certain stylized or exaggerated character archetypes developed within specific subcultures, though acceptance is far from universal even there. In Western societies, the subject often generates intense criticism and emotional responses, reflecting different cultural norms about sexuality and protection of minors. Conversations about lolicon frequently expand into larger philosophical questions about whether fictional media can influence real behavior, how societies should define harm, and where the line should be drawn between personal freedom and safeguarding vulnerable groups.

What are your thoughts on loli?

 No.44210

Threads about loli are currently open

>>>/lounge/300892



/dep/

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 No.302164[Reply]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.306030

>>306008
OR you could strive for the /wiz/dom of being moved to a robotic prosthetic body. Hope they'll add artificial moods into such bodies too!

 No.306034

For everyone asking "why drink bro? lol" you sound like normies anyway here's a simple answer:

It stops the self hate and voices in my head, it puts me in a state of relaxation

 No.306045

>>306034
actually if you didn't drink you'd simply die inside and not need substance to cope.

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>>306034
>and voices in my head, it puts me in a state of relaxation

Auditory hallucinations kind of voices or endless inner monologues kind of voices? It's not my field, just kinda learned a factoid recently: "auditory hallucinations happen in 4 out of 5 SCH havers".

As for shy people, welp, I remeber reading in some book how some shy people tend to drink "because it helps to be less shy" and BAM! Alcoholism due to tolerance (that's why resolving life issues makes a person a less of shut-in)

 No.306135

I'm pretty lucky I'm such a total lightweight. Liqour is prohibitly expensive due to taxes but I'm able to get properly drunk on beer, doesn't even take a lot. It's probably in large part due to weighing only 57KG (180 cm tall). I just skip meals by sleeping 14 hours a day.
Anyways, I strongly recommend homebrewing. Super cheap to get into and you're able to get ~15% abv drink and get wasted for a dollar or two (less than a dollar for me).



/wiz/

 No.227799[Reply]

Do you want to change your life?
Do you really want to change your life?
MEDITATE
Wizzies, meditation is highly famous but seldom practiced seriously. The results from meditation takes time. It's like exercise. During the first day it will be hard to stay still and concentrate, but as you practice it, your body and mind start getting used to it. The benefits are immense. To mention a few:
>it improves concentration a lot
>it quiet your inner monologue, reducing it to 96% or even 100% depending on how well you are praticing it
>it increases the size of your pre-frontal-cortex which is responsible for making decisions
>increases gaba, which is the chemical that makes you calm
>it sharpens your sense making colors look brighter and sounds sound more vivid
>it gives you insights
>it makes you live in the present moment, since you are not ruminating the past or thinking about the future
>it reduces anxiety

And if you want to make it more meaningful, I advise practicing Buddhist teachings, even if you don't indetify as a Buddhist (that's irrelevant). You can still continue being a Christian and still follow Buddha's teachings for a happier and sober life.

I speak from experience. I've been meditating for 5 months almost everyday and now I'm starting to reap the fruits of my efforts. If I could dedicate my life 100% to spirituality and become a monk, I would, but where I live there's barely any monasteries. I don't mind though. I'm happy. I could be happy anywhere as long as I could practice meditation and the teachings of the great Buddha.

Just do it. Do it today or tonight. If silence is a problem, put on a whine noise sound on your headphones (I do that). Do it for 20 minutes. If it's too hard for you, reduce it to 10, but no less. You first session is always special. You will get out of there thinking: "what the hell, this shit really works".

Good luck, guys!
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 No.227802

>>227799
Is it possible to meditate with tinnitus? Even if it's severe?

 No.227803

for me it's Ainslie Meares Stillness Meditation

 No.227804

>>227801
There are several different methods. Focusing on your body sensations, on your breath, on sounds and so on and so forth. The method that works best for me is stillness meditation. Get in the lotus position and focus on your breath. It's easier for beginners than stillness meditation.
>>227802
YES, absolutely. I have that.

Also, I meant white noise in the OP post. I'm on my phone. Sorry for all the grammar mistakes.

 No.227850

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>>227799
OP I did a thread about this long time ago but maybe more magic focused, check this out for more techniques, books and etc.
https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303398.html

 No.227853

Don’t get sucked into this crap, I tried meditating myself for awhile and felt no different other than the feeling that I’d wasted my time.



/wiz/

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 No.227827[Reply]

This is a thread to discuss God and religion. One I didn't see created.

What are your thoughts and views on God, if any?

My relationship with Him is complicated, as I used to be Christian but have far strayed and no longer worship Him to a certain extent.
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 No.227830

Nobody can truly prove it exists, so what's the point in believing in God? Moreover, how can you, in the time of science-based knowledge, believe in something that cannot be proven? And even if we assume God exists, does he really care about humans?

 No.227834

The archons are our believe systems, the demiurge is us. Those are right path are antinatalists. Doesn't matter what you, if you don't birth consciousness = redemption.

 No.227841

If God exists, he's not changing stuff based on what you say to him and anyone who thinks he is is fucking insane.

 No.227849

>>227828
Wonder if there's a large number of Angels nevertheless, even if our planet is one of the many.

 No.227852

A vast majority of religious people are LARPing. If they truly believed they were going to heaven when they died they wouldn’t give two shits about money or their health or most things in life. I’d take up free solo rock climbing to get around the no suicide rule.



/games/

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 No.60983[Reply]

>build cheap PC to play the same old games i've been playing since i was 13
>PC died
>score a free new one from dad's friend who for some reason wanted to give me his high end PC for free
>rated as UFO on PC benchmark
>download tf2, l4d2, gmod, and a few other unnoteworthy, 10+ year old games
>Realize i can play any modern game at high settings
>wow, MK1.
>but its shit.
>doesn't look fun at all, looks even worse than the last
>in fact. all games look like shit
>load up gmod.
>yep. thats gmod.
>play for 12 mins.
>bored.

I've even thought of stooping to trying out anime games. Why is gaming so dead, bros? Everything is just chasing the shadow of the original IPs of the 2000s (halo, cod, gears, far cry) minus the soul, community and meta that made them good. Modern gaming is a sterile, soulless, monetized no-funfest.

How much longer can i play the same games? Where is the hope?
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 No.63430

I just realised I feel comfy enough to launch GTA:SA and drive some burgundy Tacoma sedan through the highways of Red Country or just roll around Grove Street

 No.63446

Watched Real Housewives of New Jersey and realized TV is shit
Read 50 Shades of Grey and realized books are shit
Listened to Cardi B and realized music is shit
Played new Assassins Creed and realized all video games are shit

 No.63447

>>63446
>Watched Real Housewives of New Jersey
>Read 50 Shades of Grey
>Listened to Cardi B
Get the fuck out of here succubus.

 No.63448

>>63446
>layed new Assassins Creed and realized all video games are shit
Ubisoft video games are shit*

 No.63449

>>63447
>>63448
>The joke
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/music/

 No.9786[Reply]

I like to sometimes listen to sad music and have a good cry. It feels cathartic. When I search for sad songs understandably a lot of the recommendations are songs about heartbreak which I can't relate with and I feel like there is too much focus on lyrics only and not the overall mood of the song.

For me this is my favorite because the overall mood is very melacholic and the vagueness of the lyrics, like the trick psychics use, lets you apply them to your personal situation For me for example:

Oh
1.Can't anybody see
2.We've got a war to fight
3.Never find our way
4.Regardless of what they say

1.I see myself in being isolated so no one sees what I am going through
2.being at "war" with myself, feeling like everything takes so much effort
3.not fitting in society, not finding a path in life
4.people saying "it gets better", "you will find your path eventually", "you will know once you get older" etc.

"I got nobody on my side
And surely that ain't right"

Again very relatable the feeling of being all alone and no one truly understand you.

Finding a song you can emotionally relate to is obviously something personal so I am not expecting someone to relate to my experience and I am not asking anyone to post an "objectively" sad song. You also don't have to analyze or relate to the lyrics. Just share songs that you personally connected with.
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 No.10867

Don't know if this is my fave all things considered given ska punk is a lil upbeat. But I highly relate to the lyrics and it always comes to mind in this context.

 No.10889

I like to play it when I go to mountain

 No.10891

this whole album really. paradoxically it's my go-to depression album but it's also the kind of album where if it's speaking to you, that's a major red flag and a sign you're not okay. Manson wrote it at his absolute lowest point of self-destruction and self-loathing, ideas that he flirted with earlier in his career in the 90s but didn't truly experience/live out until this point. he's described it as being (paraphrasing) "so low that when I look up all I see is shit, that's how low I am" – one of the songs even has the line "I have to look up, just to see Hell". it's one of the least popular albums of his discography and part of that is that most people who listen to it aren't in the same state of mind and can't really understand what he's talking about or trying to convey through the music. that's also a fair criticism to levy because most artists are capable of translating their emotions/feelings like this in a more universal way to where even if you didn't go through the same thing they did you could still feel the same thing. over the years listening to it i think Manson was just so low (and the periods i was so low i could finally not just hear but understand what he was talking about) and trying to capture that specific feeling he didn't care if people got it or not. it probably would have been more critically received if he had done that, but he was creating art, not so much a product, he was trying to convey how he felt, he didn't care how well the album charted or what music critics thought of it.

>My pain is not ashamed to repeat itself…



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