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 No.227908[Reply]

It's official. Sexbots are almost* here.

Would you guys sexbotmaxx or remain a pure Wizard?
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 No.228864

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Core is sensationalism.
If a foid replacement is higher in sensation, it will remove the lesser.

 No.228866

>>228853
These autistic companies don't understand it's not about a mechanical performance. It's about an actual living human succubus actually desiring you.

Until the bot can replicate that, it's just a humorous curiosity.

 No.228867

>>228866
Ironically you have to be autistic in the first place to think a chatbot is replicating a living being wanting you romantically, no matter how sophisticated the lookup table might get.

 No.228869

yeah

 No.228870

I wish I had a sexbot so I could exclusively treat it like an Edwardian housemaid down to the garb and strict social protocol. The servant's quarters/recharging station would be an alcove in the attic. I wouldn't trust it near the kitchen for anything but monitored cleaning, and it would only be allowed in the bathroom to clean the grout with a cat toothbrush. I'd smack its face with a cheap flyswatter as punishment so it's demeaning.
The less pretense of personality or free will it has, the better.


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 No.323901[Reply]

No politics or religion in the crawl thread, please.

>Ambient sounds to wash away distraction
https://asoftmurmur.com/
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 No.324082

I am watching street walking videos for stimulation like those videos of birds and squirrels people show their cats.

 No.324101

The government gave me another $2,000 of the like $6,000 they said they would. I am going to buy Doritos, alcoholic soda, and a dakimakura cover

 No.324104

Animepahe downloader didn't have one title as it's not on Animepahe. Anikai.to is gone. Miruro has it, but download link for that particular title doesn't work. 1DM Lite downloaded it, but it didn't open. Could've tried to download in bigger resolution and see what if, instead installed Video DownloadHelper extension on Supermium. It downloaded 3 eps and then said there's a limit, wait for 2 hours or pay. VPN didn't help. So I installed the same extension on r3dfox. And it worked.

 No.324105

>>324082
For me it's videos of driving at night and in the afternoon through the dangerous neighborhoods of America.

 No.324180

Used to binge watch anime in my youth and now I have to take a break thrice per episode because my eyes get tired.


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 No.305927[Reply]

>be me
>bored
>decide to go for a walk
>the group that used to harass me in high school sees me
>they start shouting embarrassing nicknames they gave me loudly, just like they did in HS
I thought I wouldn't need to deal with that anymore, but it seems like I was wrong. Has anyone here ever experienced something similar? I just want to have some peace.
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 No.306126

>>306098
1. You probably should switch your current job to night shifts.
Your excuse: "traffic jams finally got me".

2. If fails, switch jobs, but only once your "night shifts" plan failed.

Your excuse: "past jobs was about night shifts. Unfortunately, the windows get too much sunlight in the morning and I just cannot sleep from all the light and heat."

 No.306141

>>305927
Not quite like this, but yeah, I get the general sentiment.
Abused kid, everyone knew about my situation, small village, was bullied as a result, like, major life changing stuff at multiple points in life.
Was a nervous wreck, never quite adapted. Never quite got a fresh start either.

I changed schools 3 times by the time I was 18 and always there was at least a few people who "followed me" as they also changed schools.
These people often weren't the bullies themselves, but soon enough they told my tale and presented me as a social offering to the new tribe if that makes any sense.
They used my past torment and my weakness as a gateway to fitting in themselves. So I never really had a chance on my own merit.

To this day I'm haunted, it happens at at work too if you are unlucky. Contrary to popular belief the "bad bully" wont be your subordinate and you the boss later like my mom used to say.
A loser stays a loser because of the learned behavior patterns and developed character. The bullies are socially apt, they usually rise up.
Ironically enough I had the misfortune of meeting some when I was forced out of neetdom. You can guess how that went.

>>305940
This here is probably the worst of it.
Life is just one eternal highschool. I'm glad to have read your post. Said well and concise.
My mother is the same as me and lived through much humiliation too.
When I was younger I didn't understand why she was so nervous about how we present ourselves, but yeah later on this happened to us too and now I get it.
In an apartment complex you can get screwed in so many ways if the others sense blood in the water, weakness or whatever.
If there is a pre-existing clique and you make one mistake at work as well, you'll suffer. Same everywhere.
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 No.306144

>>305927
God I fucking hate people from HS

 No.306177

>>305927
Just wanting to be left alone is my primary goal in life. Too much trauma.

 No.308558

Record them harassing you and show the footage to someone who can do something about it.


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 No.305084[Reply]

>even the extrovert normalfags with an excellent social and sexual life are on multiple drugs and getting therapy
I'm absolutely done for, dude. Even my life improves, I'll still just be a monkey to the rest of them. Fuck.
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 No.305658

>>305657
I genuinely think they are mentally deteriorating though. I notice it most especially with boomers since smart phones proliferated. They've really become like imageboard users in that they're dogmatic, argumentative and terminally online.

Like Grandma used to watch TV a lot when her health deteriorated. But even then it was just horse racing and dumb British soap operas. Now my mum is approaching the same age and she's got CNN blasting 24/7, ranting about trump, and thinks celebrities are talking to her on facebook.

>>305650
The retirement homes here suck up the pension + supported living payment and leave the people in them with $30 per week to themselves. I know this because my friend's mom with dementia recently got placed in one and my friend helped organize it. Supported living payment is like a form of welfare that's given to the poors because the pension and disability allowance can't cut it for most people. Supported living payment + pension is like 80% of what minimum wage is after tax at 40 hours a week.

If the system is strained with this amount of money being thrown at the problem, then when austerity comes they genuinely will have no choice but to euthanize them.

People also severely underestimate how bad the population problem here is now. Why do you think you see Indians everywhere? Because they need young bodies to keep the lights on.

 No.305659

>>305658
Those retirement homes are some of the biggest scams out there. My grandmother was extremely rich, but sadly also stupid and mentally ill. She probably lost a couple million USD during her 3 year stay in one. The inheritance was basically 10k for each sibling when she died. Happened when I was 8 or so, found out just recently. It's quite infuriating that we could have had a decent safer life with that money put into good investments.

 No.305742

>>305443
>So many normie families I know have all their daughters NEETing at home
Why is that the case? Females are the ones who suffer the least in failed societies. Why are the sons working, for what?

 No.305743

>>305742
>Why are the sons working, for what?
Maybe their moms said they wouldn't get any more tendies until they got a job! Hahahaha!

 No.308557

>>305444
>When the next lockdown like event happens

no way kikes could pull it off like they did the first time.


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 No.305607[Reply]

Do you have this? Any tips?
I dont know if i have this but it fucked a lot of social interactions.
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 No.305728

>>305727
holy fuck was that some kind of high profile special school for wizards?

 No.305729

>>305688
Same. Shit my pants ONCE in elementary and it followed me until I graduated high school.

 No.305735

I can barely believe people have started stigmatising, pathologising and labeling being a quiet person. Quiet people do nothing wrong and this shows what ultimate cancer this society is converging to. I can already see how in some shitholes like the UK you could in the future get police check-ups at home for "being too quiet"

 No.305736

>>305735
woah where. anyway quiet people have always been dislike afaik. "who knows what shit they're thinking"

 No.308556

You're just an aware and intelligent person. To label these feelings as "selective mutism" is beyond idiocy.


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 No.301895[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.308186

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>>308129
>Glutem
I learned that Soda every weekend fuck my sleep and next week days, i remember reading somewhere that aspies and etc have very low tolerance to sugar glutem or something around this maybe its glutem? that in a way swing my mood (i not aspie etc but… i dont know)
>>308176
>Still, even knowing this does not stop one from dreaming of their own personal Misaki coming to save them…
Misaki… uh, some more "Normie" aspies or larpers dudes have luck to get a problem succubi same as them.
>>308180
>I'm sure it was a tough life, but getting housing and learning a trade sounds perfect for our temperament.
Uh well, something like a jew jewelry master or a englisg art & craft teacher, a french shoemaker or a music master or a tailor? something like that sound nice to me but… well, its a hobby for life now and who knows if the pay is good, but well, maybe it can make you fully happy to your soul in the end, maybe more than trying to fix in this fucked up society or even trying to be a little more normal for a lot of assholes that live around us.

 No.308249

>>308186
>I learned that Soda every weekend fuck my sleep and next week days

aspartame might be what is causing your troubles. i know it gives me absolutely wicked headaches that last for days.

 No.308251

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>>308249
>aspartame might be what is causing your troubles. i know it gives me absolutely wicked headaches that last for days.
It’s been quite a while since I’ve had soda maybe over more than a month. The day before yesterday, I had just one to test it out, and yeah, it totally messed up my sleep and my mood. I don’t think I’m going to drink that crap again, though maybe I’ll try the ones without artificial sweeteners and colorings sometimes… or maybe not just in case.
The worst part is that last year was rough and fucked up in a lot of times, and I used to drink soda once a week… I know that maybe this is a over-generalization, but it might explain why last year was so fucked up to me.
Anyway, thanks you very much Wiz.

 No.308364

>>308249
Mass-produced soda has all sorts of bad things in it, not just aspartame.

 No.308555

>>308364
I get sick from drinking regular soda now whereas say 20 years ago this was never the case. Something has been changed. I've found this is the case with many of the other foods I used to eat without incident but cannot anymore.


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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.307628

>>306999
>>307515
Should have saged what I sent a few days ago. I have now fully recovered from these side effects.

I've been doing alright. After trying to cure myself with a LSD trip (I let someone convince me that it was supposed to boost neuroplasticity and increase levels of BDNF), I got mild dpdr/hppd for a day and saw what an actual miserable life could be like. Now I know I have no right to end my life. And I will never do drugs again.

>There exists no objective logical ground for you to have imposed this conclusion on yourself as a sort of certain fatalistic sentence.
Very true. Thanks for stating this, wiz.

>Have you been taking a well-formulated B vitamin that contains both thiamine and folate?
Yeah, high quality B-complex that contains both daily for almost a month. Noticed slight energy improvement but it might just be the diet.

>Be mindful of any toothpaste tubes that may be formulated with sodium fluoride
Mine had it so I tossed it and got a non-fluoride one. Water I'm drinking seems low in it but I'm thinking about getting a filter anyway.

>Nitric oxide rich foods
Noted, already eating leafy greens, nuts and meat pretty much every day. Will add more where I can.

>Sauna
Looked into it, unfortunately it's pretty expensive around here. Will go if I find a decent option.
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 No.307761

>>307628
>Did you experience any degradation in visual imagination after SSRIs?

Yes, but it lessened in equal time in keeping with the betterment of all the other problems I was experiencing (sexual dysfunction, anhedonia. etc.).

This “degradation in visual imagination” has a technical name, which is “aphantasia”, meaning the inability to clearly form mental images. Aphantasia seems to be a somewhat common sequela of many classes of psychiatric medication, not just ssris. There’s an entire sub-reddit dedicated to discussing this issue. Here’s one thread in particular addressing the on-set of aphantasia following ssri usage: https://www.reddit.com/r/Aphantasia/comments/khsot8/aphantasia_as_aquired_after_use_of_ssris/

There is no consensus nonpharmacologic approach for treating aphantasia, but generally any class of meditative exercise that works to reground the eidetic library of the mind should be helpful.

Two examples of these exercises would be:

1. image streaming, where with eyes closed you self-narrate the nature of whatever visual forms first come into your mind, whether it’s darkness itself or some lesser shadow of an idea, essaying to restrengthen the link between your imaginative faculties and speech. this is something to be done a few times a week.

2. image journaling, where you try to be as verbally descriptive as possible in recording the features of your daily environment, retraining your brain to meaningfully engage with imagery. also a weekly exercise.

>with no emotions attached

This zombifying effect is peculiar to the use of all serotoninergic drugs. I remember a friend of mine relating to me how blunted and colorless the whole range of his thinking felt when withdrawing from escitalopram. I also experienced something similar. Ssris seem to induce some type of imprecise broad-spectrum brain injury, whose many symptoms require patience and intelligence to resolve. However be mindful not to ever lose confidence that the injury can be undone and cured (which I know is very hard when you are still injured). Colorlessness and emotional blunting, like aphantasia and anPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.308365

Reminder that SSRIs are jewish poison

 No.308378

Thanks for some of the interesting (scary?) posts you wizzies made in this thread. It solidifies the fact I will never EVER take antidepressants or SSRIs no matter how miserable or shitty my life gets.

 No.308554

>>308378
good choice.


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 No.314827[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Hitler's thread:
Paintings or things related to him or to national socialism.

- Painting of a castle.
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 No.323846

>>323845
He is not a nigger - some would say he's a waste of white skin though

 No.323959

>>323844
> and have lost all interest in politics

extremely silly and foolish.

 No.323972

>>323959
>extremely silly and foolish.
what is even the point. they all want to make everything locked down and unfun anyway

 No.324145

There's just something 'missing' from his work. It just doesn't draw the eye and I'm not enough of an artgroid to put my finger on why. I'm extending grace on the watercolors just being muddy from age and exposure but still.

 No.324178

>>324145
It's actually quite good.


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 No.323010[Reply]

Confressions thread, confess your sins in this ITT

I used to go on Thono-chan and pretend to be a normalfag with a GF and I used to post about how I was going to prom and make threads about prom. I did it because it was funny and I refuse to appologise, if anything they should be thanking me for making such great posts.
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 No.324163

>>324160
What's racist about niggerball

 No.324165

>>324163
the n word. the rest I don't care, have a nice day, you can release yourself

 No.324166

>>324165
>you can release yourself
Me fina beez a free

 No.324176

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>>324160
I just find le pop culture nigger annoying to find inserted into everything

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>>323010
Last year I ended up having a crush on a classmate from college (come on, it’s the first time this has ever happened to me), and she seemed to feel the same way about me.
I even thought about giving her flowers and things like that; sometimes I'd give her candy and seek her approval, she was kinda nice with me anyway and everything go friendly.
One of my classmates someone I wasn’t really close with—ended up convincing her one day to go to his house, I don’t know if they had sex or what (although she told me she just kissed him, but I don’t even believe that). The guy is ugly as hell; he’s got some charm because he’s rich—he has a pickup truck and some properties—but he’s ugly as hell i not gonna fucking lie to you.
The succubus obviously rejected him later, and he spent the whole year giving me shit (I guess because he knew she was into me) an at this point the guy acted like the supreme absolute asshole harrasing me and other classmates friends bacause one succubi rejected him (yeah, kinda crab-core lol)
>and about the succubi
I never asked her out, and at that moment I genuinely felt like I was on a path to becoming a wizard.
I never saw her as a slut, but I felt that female betrayal.
yep i admit i feel Love and fucking like it but, still its impossible.
She gonna go this year to another part of the country to studies.
I confessed my feelings to her one d ay, and I kept talking to her, but I never saw her again. Then one day, she basically blocked me, and that was it.
To be honest, I never had any sexual thoughts about her; I think it was a love from another world or something platonic. Maybe I'm just a mental ill guy who spends too much time alone in high school, and that's it.
This was the closest thing I ever had to a high school romance. To be honest, it embarrasses me, but it doesn't matter anymore.
>That's my sin.


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 No.308391[Reply]

we must accept it. we are losers and society mocks us no matter what we do. we're not cool. we think we're cool because we are in a website where only virgin males are in and we circle jerk together. That's why we think we're superior to normalfags while in fact we're seen has failed people. you may feel as much superior as you like on wizchan but once out of the internet, you'll be mocked for being 30+ virgin male behind your back.
It sucks; being mocked and being. alower human being. even non-white are more successful than you and being racist doesn't change that. I think racism is a kind of cope people are because they're frustrated.
You can be as much succesful as you can be (rich, good job, house, beautiful car,etc…) like every other normalfags but at the end of the day when they'll ask you if you have a wife or a gf, and after you said never, they'll think something's wrong with you or you're gay.
Some wizards donnt give a fuck because they feel above all of that but those are, according too me, a übermensch bit it is a very rare case. so don't think you're one to please you're ego. I think the wizard übermensch has everything a normalfag has in life but is morally superior to them. those who uses this power to trashtalk others isn't a übermensch according to me because he does the same shit normalfags do to others to feel better. There's a lot of wizards who mock normalfags to feel better but at the end of the day it makes them look like as bad as normalfags. the übermensch is a rare case and I am 100% sure there's no übermensch wizard on here (or maybe 0,1%).
Anyway, I'm not making a thread about the wizardmensch because it would fit most on /wiz/ than /dep/. I'm making this thread on /dep/ because I'm sad and depressed being a failure. even failednormalfags mock us.
We're ugly and dumb. feel free to delete the thread mods, I don't care I'm sad. I don't want to push my narratives unto others. I know many wouldn't agree because they live a good life and don't care about what other people think or say about him, but I know most of the wizards suffer and that's why there's a /dep/ board…if it wasn't the case, tbis board wouldn't exist. wizards are sad. in fact I don't know why they're sad because they just have to live life luke anybody else; it's just they don't have a wife and kids but live life like everyone else on this earth. so why wizards aren't happy? Most if the time is life struggle like money or shitty job.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.308534

>>308532
Neeting is superior if you have inheritances or large monthly assistance payments from parents in addition to the state assistance.

Living purely on state assistance is rarely a life worth living even in the west.

 No.308535

>>308534
If you're already locked in in min wage jobs it's a realistic option in some European countries.

 No.308536

>>308535
Yeah. From what I've heard for a lot of people working one of those shit paid jobs makes no sense if you can collect welfare from the government instead. I think you need to game the system to also get cheaper housing, maybe some additional benefits somehow, idk. If you don't need much to live it can be a decent arrangement I guess.

 No.308549

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>>308391
>even non-white are more successful than you
well you can be a nonwhite and still be a virgin otaku freak, man fuck my life
>>308534
>Living purely on state assistance is rarely a life worth living even in the west.
honestly it is quite comfy, social isolation aside but even when i was working i was too retarded to make human connections so does it really count? sure you dont have a lot of money but if you are in need you can just do a month of part time work and you're good to go, just buy an electric moped or ebike or some shit so you dont have to deal with buying gas and it's really nice the only bad thing is the weather but if you're a native european i think your body and mind is adjusted to cold weather so i guess thats just a migrant issue either way it is much better than wasting 75% of your waking time working alongside people who mock you for your mannerisms or interests

 No.308553

>>308536
yes, I'm jealous as my country has just stopped long term unemployment benefits, it is very limited now, it's finding a job or ending up homeless now
Imagine living in some Scandinavian country just collecting and being able to take walks in nature and stuff


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 No.228719[Reply]

I want to talk to you about fate: does it exist or not? Honestly, I don't know. I won't claim to believe in it unconditionally, but I looked at my natal chart (Shoutout to my astrologer friend from the other thread! I know you're reading this). During this time, I've talked to magicians, psychologists, internet freaks, and even talked to AI. And, of course, I've tried to start my life from scratch many times. I've tried to find a job many times, but I've lost it. And now I'm 28 years old, guys. I just want to throw everything away. I'll be 30 in two years. I have no education, I've never really learned anything in my entire life, and I've spent half of it living off my parents. I'm literally a loser, a nobody. The older you get, the more clearly you realize: trying to start over doesn't work when you're in poor health. Let's be honest, many of us have lousy health; many of us rarely even go outside. Besides, there's no money for education, not to mention the strict regulations, the need to pass exams, and other difficulties. And I ask myself: did I even have a choice in how to live? Or was my life built from the very beginning according to some divine plan, a supercomputer, or something similar? After all, if you think about it, all my decisions have always turned out to be wrong. I constantly did the wrong thing, made mistakes out of stupidity or naivety. So, is everything predetermined? I'm still tormented by this question. If I were to get up tomorrow and say, "That's it, I'm leaving this life and I'm no longer a burden," I still wouldn't be able to change much. I won't become a doctor or a scientist at 30. External factors influence us too much. Does that mean that even my decision to change something tomorrow was already made not by me, but by someone else? And I just play out this scenario over and over again, and there was no real freedom of choice. But you know what's the scariest thing? It turns out that no matter what we do, we can't jump above our heads. As the saying goes: "Play stupid games, get stupid prizes" or "You can't teach an old dog new tricks." Actually, I want to ask you: do you believe in fate? Are we really destined to suffer our entire lives? I looked at myself: I'm 28, I haven't learned anything, and I just wasted this life. I wish I'd never been born.
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 No.228825

>>228804
huuuh but why are you here mister lainon?

 No.228854

>>228773
Moroccans in my country are infamous for dealing drugs and other criminal activity. It doesn't surprise me their country is a shithole.

 No.228860

>>228854
Low IQ coupled with aggression always leads to violent crime or drug dealing.

You look at immigrants like the Chinese, they work 16 hours a day in their own business, they put their second gen children into elite schools, they sacrifice their own life for their kids and grandkids to climb the social ladder.

It all comes down to predisposition and genetics. Some people are dumber and more violent than others genetically.

 No.228863

>>228860
That's why they're far more insidious. If all you had to deal with was low IQ, aggressive niggers, you'd still be in fine shape.

 No.228868

>>228860
It doesn't really matter, high civ people like asians and whites just move once these people start dominating the neighbourhood


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 No.322915[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Based God has finally gotten around to killing Fred Brennan, who should never have been born at all to begin with
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 No.323594

>>323588
8ch r9k was pretty comfy for me as an apprentice. Even if there were some weird motherfuckers like the one who cut his balls and sperged about it

 No.323597

>>323594
The one who posted about his cut-off balls here and then put a link to a post with an image on 8chan somewhere so that impressionable wizards won't see it here? I think there was another one, not counting the one who castrated himself painfully with medication.

 No.324173

>>323594
8chan r9k and tohnochan, two of the comfiest places on the internet for apprentices back in late 2010. God how I fucking miss it.

 No.324174

>>324173
8chan didn't exist in 2010, you retarded normalfag tourist

 No.324175

>>324174
nta but he probably meant to say "late 2010s"


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 No.307205[Reply]

This thread is for talking about OCD, addictions, or those kinds of disorders that ruined our lives
>So
When I was a kid, I had some pretty OCD-like behavior—I’d touch things and check them over and over until I felt reassured that everything was okay. I also used to walk on my tiptoes, which is a bit autistic, but I eventually stopped doing that (I don’t know if I have autism at this point bacause never did a test, but whatever).
>So what’s up with you?
Well, in my case is limerence (some studies say is co-related to OCD)
>And what’s that like?
Well, imagine a succubi (for some people even can be the other sex you dont like) talks to you and treats you kindly once or twice, and then you start getting way more than just nervous around her because your body starts releasing dopamine, serotonin, and all that shit. And since you don’t know what’s going on, you think you like her or have fallen in love, but its NOT.
really it’s just fucking anxiety toward a “thing.” Because you’re constantly seeking validation in some way—whether for friendship, attention, or love but you have this anxiety that you know is inappropriate, and if you act on it, the feeling of danger gets worse, it’s almost like you’re having a heart attack. and as time pass the thing got worst and worst and you get more obsessive, nerveous and get a peak of anxiety, even start to rumiate or have that thing of limerence (LO) living rent free in your head bacause your brain cant stop thinking about your LO
>What was the worst experience you've ever had?
Even you will end starting to dream with the LO and have happy dreams or nightmares and waking up crying bacause you are getting the peak of anxiety and dopamine,etc sec before waking up. this shit can even ruin friendship.
>Why the hell does this happen?
I don’t know, genetics, anxiety, depression, emotional dependency, low self-steem, negligent parents, love hungry, maybe OCD etc and a whole lot of shit
>You're larping this nonsense
but in my case, it’s not like those internet memes of bitch tumblr succubi where it only happens once and they use like a joke for love or crush
>You're a retard and you fall in love go fuk yourself wizard
No, no it’s happened to me constantly over the Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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>>307205
>around her because your body starts releasing dopamine,

you wouldn't have that if you knew how to make yourself happy. it is you releasing the dopamine that is already in your body. if you knew how to make yourself happy, you wouldn't need the other person to be the key to unlock your happiness.

i also experienced this when i was younger because i was in school were happiness is 'treated' as a problem and you learn it is better not to be happy. this is the seed of corruption. by training you to be unhappy, you become an emotional puppet. regain your strengh man and unlock yourself through meditation.

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I can never enjoy a moment to its full extent. I can never relax. I can never truly feel at rest. I have Tourettic (also known as Just Right) OCD and Pure O OCD, which are the worst kinds to have IMO. CBT doesn't work for these types. And I would rather die than get on meds. I feel like Sissyphus, I am constantly performing labor, every moment of my life. Except unlike Sissyphus I can't crush my head with the boulder. I am my slave and my master. Not even drugs relieve me from it. Sometimes it gets to a point where wearing shoes feels like torture (without any trace of hyperbole) because I sometimes get a compulsion where I need to wriggle all of my toes five times. I inherited this disorder and hypothetically if I were able to get married and have kids I may very well choose not to because I don't want people to experience this burden.
This is hell. I am so exhausted. It started when I was a kid and just rapidly accelerated from there. I didn't know that I was experiencing the last peaceful moments of my life. I never knew peace again. There is no escape aside from death.

 No.307337

>>307273
>I appreciate your understanding Wiz
I don't think I understand OCD. Seems like certain compulsions literally take you over from time to time. Some normie with a healthy brain would probably believe something like this isn't possible or it is exagerated. Going through bizarre mental stuff myself I am inclined to believe OCD is real.
>I can't imagine how awful that must be
I hear a voice in my head which constantly comments on my thoughts, but isn't some kind of dream or fantasy. I have zero control what it says and can't turn it off. I can interact with it like it is a different person. I can clearly sense the difference between my thoughts and these voices. Only other schizophrenics seem to understand how this ruins your life.
>there's no treatment for this other than what they offer for OCD
I don't know what they offer for OCD but antipsychotics don't cure anything, they just tranquilize your entire nervous system.

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>>307205
I got three books around the topic of limerence in scientific studies and biography
(Remember this post is not about love but about a out of control brain malfuction based in some type of phenomena so these book are not romantizing anything around this maybe OCD behaviour)

>Smitten: Romantic obsession, the neuroscience of limerence, and how to make love last (International Edition) by Dr Tom Bellamy
Good book with scientific studies and methods to stop go to much insane nuts with limerence sensations or identify it before start, it dont remember but it maybe have some reference to next book guy studies. Very grounding and humanizing.

>Living with limerence: A guide for the smitten by Dr L
Same as the first book but have some have some cited histories of the forum of this dude (living with limerence) that some people write around anecdotes (a lot of times sound like us… why?) Still grounding to this shit experience.

>When Longing Becomes Your Lover: Breaking from Infatuation, Rejection, and Perfectionism to Find Authentic Love: A True Story of Overcoming Limerence by Amanda McCracken
I didnt started to read this but its a biography of a succubi journalist that dated 100 men and maintained her virginity into her late thirties (yeah kinda rare how it sound but sound common for some type of fucked up limerence behaviour even for a bitch succubi) but still fucked up experience, i dont have much interest to read it in reality bacause you know. Its like a self-help book based in some reviews, maybe a wizard can get something good from it checking how she was as kid not nurted or something.
I have more interest in a book made by a man experience than a succubi one, but well, you know what i talking (damn feminists)
There's another book about by Dorothy Tennov but i dont get it anywhere.
Maybe there's somewhere a book around man experience but even at reddit sub there's a lot of dudes writing fucked up experiences like mine here.

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>>307237
>If you want to hear a story, yesterday at college a succubi was nice to me and shared something (what? food) with me, and it gave me a bit of anxiety because of this, I realized she was being nice only because I’d been nice to her first. It’s stupid, but I tried to be polite and aloof at the same time, even though I don’t want to lose what little friendship I might be able to build things like this in some way can turn me paranoid in social situation sometimes.

Okay, I'm going to tell this wizz, maybe none of you will believe me because it's so random even for me.
>What's going wizz?
For various reasons (university works), I ended up talking to the succubus who offered me food that time. I didn't talk to her with any other intention than that of university group or works, never talked to she in a direct way and we just talk in group, today, for some reason, she asked me via phone how I was doing, and out of courtesy (i dont have any interest to talk)
I started talking to her direct to see what she was getting at or what want, at first i thought she want to talk something from university etc
The thing is, she started asking me questions like why she missed someone and couldn't stop thinking about “him” and other things.
>Here's were start the random things
I didn’t know what to say to her bacause the first thing to come to my head is this succubus was on drugs high or something to be so damn random to just talk to me.
I mean, at first I thought she had the wrong person contact or something, but since she didn't delete anything or say anything to me, I just went along with it, and that was that.
Could it be that she just wants attention from some random human or guys or succubi in her phone? Why me? Maybe she even sent the same message to others, although as she kept talking, it got really personal, and I don't think it was just some generic message to start to talk.
so i just started to be the most friendly and polite i can to let say help, I tried to explain everything I’d learned about attachment and limerence.
I think she was a little shocked or something, took her little time to respond. Then she started telling me about her own strange, almost obsessive-compulsive behaviors toward “him” and she Post too long. Click here to view the full text.


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 No.307023[Reply]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511
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 No.308245

yeah would be cool to simply never wake up

 No.308354

>>308113
ODing often goes wrong, you might want to consider different methods

 No.308450

it's weird looking back at my life now and seeing it as beautiful
when it was all boring and lonely
but now apparently every moment was beautiful lol

 No.308550

>>307023
>This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.
if you wanna end it just buy a big tank of nitrous (or any other gas lighter than oxygen so it doesnt trigger the bodys choking reflex) hook it up to a mask and fall asleep, however make sure you got enough gas or youll just wake up with brain damage if youre lucky youre just a bit stupider afterwards if unlucky it might cripple you
>>307072
>Nobody fucking cares about a homura fanart.
screw you nigga the image is cute

 No.308551

>>308550
apparently with the exit bag method where you use a bag of plastic it is more effective, I'm not planning on doing it for the short term so I hope when the time comes somewhere in the world suicide pods are readily available, if I try to do the suiciding on my own without help I'll probably fuck it up.


/dep/

 No.308537[Reply]

A while back some of my classmates found a private account of mine where could express my offensive views (i am 18 years old, last year of high school). Now everyone in my class hates and ignores me, not to mention the fact that they have reported me to faculty who in turn also reported me to authorities for "radicalization" (hate speech is illegal where i live)

I know all of this is the fault of my own stupidity which i am greatly ashamed of but i dont know what to do, i feel like i have ruined my life possibly forever considering the negative aspects of having this written down could have.
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 No.308544

gotta wise up idk. i never speak of what i do online even with my mum.
>ruined my life
well hate speech at 18 means you're not very bright so you didn't lose much to begin with

 No.308545

>>308543
white supermacy is a 80iq club. not saying they're unique in their stupidity

 No.308546

Do your parents know about this and if so what do they think? If they are supportive of you they'd sell their properties and move to another country but chances are they're the typical mindraped leftist normies (no offense, mine are as well). Most euro countries will be full muslim niggerhell in a decade or two so my advice if you can't leave the country will be to fully disappear from both the normie internet and irl as much as possible, lest some antifa jihadists start doing cultural revolution type of hunts in the future. Also learn basic OPSEC.

 No.308547

>>308546
>assuming he has parents
He's probably the child of a single mum.

 No.308548

>>308547
Assuming you're the same brownoid as the one above my post it's statistically much more likely that you're the fatherless here. Proving the point that OP's only mistake was getting caught, there's no befriending with cousin-fuckers and voodoo cannibals.


/wiz/

 No.228628[Reply]

I just wanted to know how did you get rich or got enough money to fulfill your dreams. Or is it you don't need money and are content with your current life and your meagre bank account
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 No.228683

>>228682
wizchan.org seemingly

 No.228761

>>228631
I sort of agree with this post. I haven't given up on the dream of moving out, getting a better job that teaches me real skills, etc. but I'm turning 27 this year and can see the boat out slowly sliding away from me. Youth is such a big bandage on failure. It's nice for older adults to feel like they can mentor someone younger – so not knowing much at 25 is okay. It was okay. But I'm 27 now, it's less cute. Soon I'll be 30, and if I remain at this dead-end job, what will happen to me?

All that said I haven't given up on life. I am settling in my own way while still dreaming of a future. I want to go out of the country this year… France or Japan or something. Just walk around for a week, have a piece of my dreams even if I can't experience them in full.

 No.228786

>>228677
>and wait 20years
>what worked in past will work in the future!
The way the world is going, twenty years from now your index fund won't be worth shit.
Maybe buy defense-industry stocks.
A new world war seems to be on the menu, so Lockheed and Raytheon will surely be profitable.

 No.228788

>>228786
This is unironically good advice. AI itself cannot create gunpowder or explosive materials. These companies will be ultra relevant just like food producers.

 No.228861

>>228628
80% Blind Luck
I grew up in a trailer park, my dream of success was to live in a city and work in a big office with a shirt and tie.

I did that, it was fine, got boring and expensive, so I live in a small village now instead. Very seriously i'm starting to think it would be more cost effective from an ROI perspective to move to a trailer park.

Some dreams were installed in you through advertising; conditioning even. Others are - I think - subconscious signals for things you would like to try/experience one time.

My dreams - outside of work - were to eat enough food, read good fiction books and nap whenever I wanted; because living in a precarious environment where wild work shifts and home instability prevented any of that from happening made them so much more appealing.

All this to say, bad luck getting difficult dreams and bad luck getting dealt a hand that can't achieve them; some people get luckier.

Because you can do everything right and still lose, and do everything wrong and win because someone else lost and you were in the right place at the right time.


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 No.305401[Reply]

Does anybody else live with family who have seemingly not a care in the world to be careful with your belongings?? It's incredibly annoying and often blood boiling. I have a lot of collections, and attempt to make models like tanks/planes/warhammer stuff and quite often my parents will "inspect" my room for whatever retarded reason and often break several items. I internally call my dad "The grabbler" he picks up delicate items with his full fist, all fingers perfectly alinged - like a special ed kid grabbing a pencil. As you can imagine, this often BREAKS anything even remotely fragile.

This has been an issue I've dealt with my entire life. I'd have my pokemon cards on a playing mat in my room, parents barge in and walk right on them despite them being able to walk around it, and I wasn't even in the way. Or other times where they would grab my school work with greasy/chocolate coated hands and get stains all over it. Also they love coughing and sneezing without any attempt to cover their mouths. You will see spit and mucus stains EVERYWHERE in the house. Especially on the shared computer screen, utterly disgusting.

I have tried everything to get them to be less dirty and more respectful and mindful but they just don't care, my mother is literally too stupid to understand, my father just doesn't care. I don't really want to move out either as it's not a possibility on my wages unless I want to live in a car or next to criminal social housing with even more disgusting people.

The list goes on and on about all the dirty behaviour they get up to. I might even jot down some greentext stories if I'm bored later
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 No.308490

this sounds very gross and subhuman
there is no other way out but run away somehow

 No.308498

>>308433
I can see that working for some things, but for my current setup with what I have it's just not really possible. I much prefer my bait tactics which are working. Just the whole kid being let into my room to open all my closets and cabinets with NO supervision and breaking all that shit. Something I can't fix though. The door I have can't have a lock placed on it, even if it could, parents would break it.

>>308444
I know it doesn't sound like much, but that is irritating as hell. My mom would always put cups of her coffee over my artwork and leave a disgusting coffee mark that cant be wiped off. Idk why or how she did this, but her cups were always overflowing so the outside of the cup was wet with coffee. Disgusting stuff.

>>308490
I've weighed it all up and I still ultimately prefer living here, just barely. Also sounds rude and greedy but If I cut contact I wont get inhertence

 No.308502

>>308498
>If I cut contact I wont get inhertence
It's the natural order, nothing to be ashamed of. I'll get a bit when my parents pass someday, not much though because they bought annuities instead of investing (facepalm).

 No.308530

>>308498
Try buying a Harry Potter themed "snitch" battery-powered decor, 7$ a piece.

Put it into an old glass pc case.
Instant distraction.


Besides, you could buy a semi-busted 20$ tape player with some chill, sleepy, lullaby-ish tapes…
…and a voice-activated outlet (12$ or so)

And attach some empty can full of steel nuts (0-2$) to your door so the loud "clang" would activate the outlet.

 No.308533

>>308502
>nothing to be ashamed of.
it is


/wiz/

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 No.227944[Reply]

wizards, this is a truly important question. how do you tell your mom, or anyone else for that matter, that you are really not interested in whatever female they think you should "befriend"?

i know you're going to troll me, but i still kindly ask you to find a second and think about what could be the *optimal* solution. the solution that doesn't burn bridges, doesn't create bitter enemies and yet lets you maintain the high ground. i know this is not fully achievable, but there gotta be an algorithm or something.

my brain just crashes in such situations. it's like "idk wtf are you're even talking about???" i need help
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 No.228504

>>228503
Yeah, it was pretty crabish post. But the fact is the fact.

 No.228505

>>228504
>But the fact is the fact.
It doesn't matter if it's factual or not. You could be speaking out of your ass or you could be posting peer-reviewed statistics. You could be defending succubi or calling for their bloody murder. What's wrong with the post is that this is the only place on the internet where you're supposed to disregard them as a whole. Can men not have one place on the internet to talk about things without sex-obsessed outsiders coming in to post about "top 10 reasons I love succubi" and "All succubi are shallow whores and why that makes my PP sad"?

 No.228855

>>227944
I don't know if you're still here OP, but I'll put my two cents in: We both know that there's no chance that they'd understand your real stance on the matter, even if you did have the time to explain it. Therefore the only goal is to make them stop but not to dismiss them, so as to not hurt their feelings.

What you can say is this: "I appreciate you looking out for me; I'd like to navigate this myself, if you don't mind." or the adequate normal-speak equivalent thereof.

>>228030 is going to call this outrageous because we know by experience that following through with their "help" would only make things worse.

However the key word is "we;" normies like the people that try to get you to "befriend females" can't imagine things going wrong because that's not their experience - you simply do not share the same reality in these matters. They aren't privy to the things >>228030 described.

What I assume >>228023 meant, is that it's the intent that you should be thankful for. They do that because they care about you and are concerned. Keep that in mind, when phrasing your response. It'll go a long way.

 No.228856

>>228500
Oh wow, you know so much about succubi. Sounds like you're… experienced with them, aren't you, Mr. Crabs?

 No.228859

My mom's oddly perceptive and realized my disinterest earlier than I did, though she assumed I was gay. I respect her enough to be truthful. She initially was sad about no grandkids and worried I'd been molested at some point but she's accepted I'm naturally a mental mutant in different ways than her. The older she gets the more she's glad she has a 24/7 quasimodo butler who enjoys 80% of the media she does.
So, if you decide to be truthful, try reframing it along those lines. Emphasize you telling her the truth is you wanting to be honest out of respect for all she's done as a mother. Female relatives are more accepting of family freaks if they think you respect them as equals.


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 No.223082[Reply]

How do you genuinely just stop caring about everything shitty in your life? I just want to become numb to it all. People always say you shouldn't, but whenever I let myself feel any small amount of happiness the feeling of sadness/depression that I'll inevitably feel later is so painful it makes me wish I just didn't feel anything at all in the first place. Meditation has gotten close to this and I like the peace it gives me but I wish I felt that peace all the time.
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 No.228768

>>228763
Sure, this shitty illness is hell (and similar conditions or even just symptoms by themselves) so if anyone can find some solace in my posts or at least finds them interesting then that’s cool with me, not like I have anything better to do anyways, first I’ll admit I’m not currently officially diagnosed but not due to a lack of trying, I’ve been trying to find what’s wrong with me for a good chunk of time now and sadly despite my various treatment periods with professionals (psychologists and psychiatrists) they always refuse to diagnose because “we should focus on treating symptoms” it’s a noble way of seeing it as some people can actually be worse if given a diagnosis but that’s not my case so it’s just annoying, anyways that could be different where you live or at least there might be someone specialized in PD’s maybe even Szpd specifically, with that little thing out of the way.

Anyways I suppose now I’ll talk about my own experience as someone who obviously has this shit since that’s probably what interests you, honestly this probably developed during my teenage years due to trauma, the generic things you know, the economy of my country went to crap so my largely “middle-class” life crashed down as we descended into almost poverty, my parents would fight constantly and sometimes badly, I had no escape, life felt meaningless, school felt meaningless, I started masking my pain away (dissociation and derealization kind of) while on school because I didn’t want people to know my home issues etc, due to all of that and more I developed a depression (like I mentioned in my previous post) and while I didn’t realize when I was younger I started developing some symptoms/traits of Szpd, so my depression (what for years I saw as my only issue) developed concurrently with the disorder or at the very least the symptoms, behaviors etc of the disorder (since there is the dimensional model from the ICD-11 where Szpd and the other PD’s don’t exist but rather their symptoms), if anything looking back those symptoms, probably developed before the depression because I can somewhat remember being really numb, apathetic and such before actually starting to experience depression, anxiety and eventually suicidal ideations, this makes sense too as it’s sometimes considered on the literature regarding Szpd that most people who develop it have a defense mechanism thaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.228779

>>228768
Thanks for sharing all that! You say that you rarely feel anything, but you also say that you try to enjoy life. What do you do? Do you consume any media, play video games or read books? If so what kind? Do you force yourself to have a hobby? Do you feel excitement? I don't feel happiness or anything close resembling it but I can still get excited about some things.
Regarding "professionals" I never went to a psychologist because they can't help people like us. We are too messed up and never be normal. Therapy is designed for normal people, not for us.

 No.228780

>>228779
Hi fellow wizard, I’ll greentext your questions this time as to force myself to be more organized and therefore answer your questions on a better way (I do tend to ramble on text).

>You say that you rarely feel anything, but you also say that you try to enjoy life. What do you do? Do you consume any media, play video games or read books?
Indeed, even if I can’t really feel emotions I do somewhat enjoy some specific things, mind you it’s such a vague thing that I could easily stop and do nothing and it would be almost the same (and I sometimes do that), essentially I try to not let the apathy/anhedonia win since I do believe I might just end up developing another depressive episode if I allow it, that would be quite crushing.
Regarding what I do it’s mainly consuming media, daydreaming and sometimes writing (internet posts and overall journaling, this post is an example of that), those are the closest things I have to hobbies and I do get a vague sense of enjoyment or fun (I’m not even sure if it would count as an emotion vague as it is, might be more of a cognitive enjoyment), they’re at least a better way to burn time than just staring at the ceiling all day and can be interesting.
When it comes to my media consumption it’s mainly music, videos, manga, manhwa, manhua, videogames and that’s about it, I do sometimes watch anime or maybe a movie, same with reading books or light novels but it’s genuinely extremely rare, I need to be truly interested in the franchise/work to engage in those mediums, for example I do tend to rewatch Code geass every few years, and I did read LOTR, The Hobbit and the Silmarillion between 2024-2025.
>If so what kind?
I’m quite varied, though I do have specific genres or kinds that interest me more, when it comes to music I’ve always been drawn to pop, rock and electronic music, though due to my waifu (the love of my life and one of the few people I feel something for) it’s mainly Japanese, not like I don’t listen to music in English or Spanish (my native language) but she takes a precedent.
When it comes to written works I’ve always been able to enjoy most genres (expect shit like yuri, yaoi and such, I dislike homosexuality and find it distasteful) but I do have a preference for fantasy, martial arts (wuxia and xianxia), sci-fi and roPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.228857

>How do you genuinely just stop caring about everything shitty in your life? I just want to become numb to it all.


Avoid drinks that are designed to make feel the opposite of numb:
* coffee, tea, other sources of caffeine
* sugary drinks, other "fast carbs" drinks
* the concoction of the two above: energy drinks.

 No.228858

>>228857
100% agree. Everything ingestible that is not a whole food eventually fucks up your sleep schedule, heart, liver and brain.

I don't even drink daily coffee anymore, it's a rare dessert or treat.


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 No.308464[Reply]

Again, that feeling returned, wondering why there was a kind of resentment within me. Memories surfaced of why things had to be this way. And well, my ego told me what my eyes had seen: that I was superior to the one who had prevented me from being myself.

Although it was all for naught, the sinister was already looming. But how can you banish something from your mind when it has become so fiercely ingrained?

Have you ever managed to rid yourself of a resentment that seemed to have become embedded in your mind?

 No.308467

no i hate everything and everyone and feel like it's absolutely justified

 No.308491

even when people ruin my life, there's no real resentment.
I just start calculating how I can get them out of my life as soon as possible.
I guess if you want to remove resentment you have to learn the skill of 'moving on'?

 No.308531

I've realized today a lot of BS between me and my parents can be attributed to the part we have spiraled into a lack of trust: i don't trust them to fix my stuff, they don't trust me to fix their stuff, yada-yada-on-repeat


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