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 No.228410[Reply]

I've come to terms that this is my life, but she won't accept that I'm no longer that smart quiet kid who had potential to become a doctor or lawyer.
I clearly have the symptoms of https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder#Signs_and_symptoms except the bad ones.
>Psychotic symptoms such as delusions or hallucinations may occur in both manic and depressive episodes; their content and nature are consistent with the person's mood.[4] Approximately 60–75% of people with bipolar I disorder have experienced psychosis.
I'm part of the lucky 25% I guess, but I'm not normal. I tried to adjust so I can function in society, but I'm still a fuck up, and I'm not alone, many people have mental health problems for whatever reason.
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 No.228440

>>228437
thing is I'm not a schizo, I noticed that I happened to get repeating digits too often on 4chan/x/, or I would post at 11:11 (accidentally, I auto-hide the Windows taskbar) but I don't know what I'm supposed to do, or how I'm supposed to study the higher mysteries.
maybe if I met the right person, but I'm a loner who keeps polite distance from everyone, while the Internet is full of LARPers.

 No.228441

>>228435
cool theory wiz
the schizos I know say the disease is hellish and I read somewhere schizos have a 10 percent suicide rate
but sometimes you have these very creative schizos like Terry

 No.228450

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>>228441
I don't know what he saw in those "tongues", are these random words supposed to have some meaning?

 No.228453

>>228437
yeah I know

 No.228923

Where I live, "bipolar" used to be a meme given how easy it is to self-diagnose if you abuse coffee and "cheap dopamine" computer media


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 No.44281[Reply]

Currently, I’ve watched quite a bit of NGE, I’m on episode four. I was wondering if I should finish it, or if it’s just overrated garbage. Please let me know. Thank you.
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 No.44313

>>44311
>Hasn't been watching old anime long enough to even know the basics of finding torrents
>Immediately wants Evengelion
Proof that this trash anime is an entry point for tourists

 No.44314

>>44312
>>44313
I can only find the subbed version on internet archive. It's a grainy vhs rip though.

 No.44315

>>44314
Well then I'm glad to see that gatekeeping isn't even necessary if this is the level of entrants we're dealing with. You can't even find the gate. Not that the gate protecting bad-on-purpose garbage like Evengelion is worth keeping, but in time actual good anime may fall victim to the "suddenly popular with gay emo normalfags" treatment and when that happens I'll be thankful that most of them don't actually know how to use a computer well enough to acquire anime.

 No.44333

>I think being "in the known" can't be a net negative
See that's the notion that I both agree with personally yet still believe is kinda jarring. On one hand, if you try going around without watching the most well-known shows that are so popular and blown out of proportion that people might give you weird looks if you tell them you know nothing about them, it might be tough, but on the other… There are far too many shows that fall into that category and everyone knows about them but that don't deserve that cult classic status and are boring and a waste of time. and I don't know if I should be bothered to actually put effort into watching them. What's the solution here?

 No.44335

I was reading through https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Royal_Space_Force:_The_Wings_of_Honneamise and found this quote touching,

"In modern society, which is so information-oriented, it becomes more and more difficult even for sensational works to really connect with people, and even so, those works get forgotten quickly. Moreover, this flood of superficial information has dissolved those values and dreams people could stand upon, especially among the young, who are left frustrated and anxious. It could be said that this is the root cause of the Peter Pan syndrome, that says, 'I don't want to be an adult' … If you look at the psychology of anime fans today, they do interact with society, and they're trying to get along well in that society, but unfortunately, they don't have the ability. So as compensatory behavior, they relinquish themselves to mecha and cute young succubi. However, because these are things that don't really exist—meaning, there's no interaction in reality happening between those things and the anime fans—they soon get frustrated, and then seek out the next [anime] that will stimulate them … If you look into this situation, what these people really want, deep down, is to get along well with reality. And what we propose is to deliver the kind of project that will make people look again at the society around them and reassess it for themselves; where they will think, 'I shouldn't give up yet on reality.'"


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 No.324033[Reply]

I don't think AI will be around for long, and not for the reason people think.

AI is very old technology, the LLMs utilized are from the 1950s. When computers were first invented they tried using artificial neurons that learnt (the Perceptron). The problem was back then memory and scaling, you could get one node to learn but by the time it went to the next it started to forget. The hardware wasn't there. Because of this AI bots relied on binary tree if/else statements and weren't programmed to learn for decades.

All that happened in the 2010s was that hardware became available to stack LLMs on top of each other. The technology behind AI is veeeeery old, it's a hardware problem. If you're some nerd that reads into tech innovations you'll find the same is true for most inventions. Wood pulp paper wasn't suddenly eureka invented in the 19th century, it's that the steam engine made the processing of wood through mulching possible. The automatic threshing machine wasn't eureka invented, it's that there were dozens of invisible small innovations that fed into it that went unthanked, like the complex mathematic epicycloid calculations that went into the gear functions that some mathematics nerds and clockmakers perfected decades ago.

Anyways, the actual supply chains that are currently feeding the current top of the line GPUs and chips are unsustainable. They're spread across so many countries and it's like a precarious inverted pyramid, each part of the chip fabrication is a monopoly because it's stretching human ingenuity and ability to its absolute limit. And for every part of the input (the lenses, the robotic arms, the chemical acids, the light diodes for the lasers, etc) there's like another 5,000+ companies making bespoke tools for specialists. It's quite literally not cost effective or arguably even possible to scale production further. Like the Concorde and other supersonic jets, the rising costs are not due to economic constraints, but human. The concorde went out of service, and likewise AI will too.

The AI bubble will burst once they try to recuperate costs, once they find out that businesses don't want to pay $100,000 for the slop, they'll get a government bail out. The government will bail it out thinking they're getting a palatinr tier surveillance engine. This will turn out to be a white elephant because the AI data centers built will require replacing every 3 years due to the GPUs burning out, costing hundreds Post too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.324053

>>324052
Beyond Reddit Spacing

 No.324055

>>324052
African. And they better get smart about it before that continent is just one big building for servers.

 No.324212

The latest nodes of semiconductor manufacturing have escaped monopolisation despite certain attempts to limit production.
This tech isn't going anywhere.
There's also lots of experimental tech beyond EUV.
Worst case nothing beyond EUV becomes cheap enough to mass produce and the eternal spec sheet escalation grinds to a halt.
AI is software and suffers from scamming/bad marketing. Still you can't deny it's at least slowly advancing even if it isn't the revolution it's marketed as.

 No.324214

More like taiwan will fall under chinese control over the next years, the US will not be able to compete and will become like an african nothing country where crime and rioting is a common thing, needless to say it will not be able to fabricate at the level of china

 No.324247

it's funny that AI vibe coding is encouraging sloppy coding that eats more RAM, while simultaneously costing more RAM. Eventually this is going to be like the oil market where it will become economical for new players to enter and undercut everyone. That's probably what China is working on.

I don't think this bubble will burst. The rich will make it go the way of self driving cars, quietly forgotten. They got way too much invested and don't dare admit they made a dumb decision. China doesn't have to win militarily, they just gotta take advantage of this dumb shit to crash our economy.


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 No.70652[Reply]

A slightly unusual hobby for a wizardly man, but I've always had an attraction to it.

What I like about it is the extremely large variety of tricks that can be learned. It's like the Path of Exile skill tree in the sense you can pick a direction and learn that way. You can build up your foundations, or you can go the straight and narrow all the way to learning your favorite trick. The large variety of tricks also mean there are a ton of easier ones to learn, and learning these tricks provides such a strong feeling of accomplishment.

Cruising is very nice too, I intent to get a bigger old school board with soft(?) wheels for nice and easy transport.

The art on skateboards is also quite nice, there's something for everyone. Also you can buy blanks and draw on it yourself. I think the level of creativity in all aspects of this hobby is so amazing.

All things skating related welcomed, I'll try my best to answer with great care to everyone.

Thank you for participating
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 No.70658

>>70654
It took me an entire month several hours a day learning to ollie, that's when I was a kid and was extremely motivated and had the energy for it. It is the hardest trick to learn as it's the first "real" trick you do. The falling aspect is scary, especially with age. I've fallen a few times recently but luckily they were controlled, and I did that roll. A sudden impact might take me out for months at this stage.

>>70655
Very nice! I bet the cruiser feels very smooth and amazing to ride? I will be getting one soon as all of the parts are cheap enough, very slim variety of soft wheels for sale which isn't very nice. I'd like to get really good at doing manuals, and potentially being able to carve bowls later with slash grinds. Getting some exercise has been recommended to me by doctors as I've spent the last 10 years kinda doing nothing but work

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>>70658
here's the skateboard from my brother's friend he gave to him I use. do you mind showing yours?

 No.70661

>>70658
Depends on the surface. Cracked tar tests your endurance, smooth concrete is a treat. But then again, my deck is a 20 bucks chinese shit with LED wheels. It even has a bald american eagle slapped on deck. The most important thing is to get outside, get your foot on the deck and push.

 No.70675

I remember playing these skating games on GBC/GBA as a kid. They were fun.

 No.70683

>every kid on my block has a solid skateboard that glides effortlessly.
>everytime I get a skateboard it wobbles like crazy and stops after 3 meters.
what fucking parameters am I picking wrong? Is $80 for a board just something I should expect?


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 No.305401[Reply]

Does anybody else live with family who have seemingly not a care in the world to be careful with your belongings?? It's incredibly annoying and often blood boiling. I have a lot of collections, and attempt to make models like tanks/planes/warhammer stuff and quite often my parents will "inspect" my room for whatever retarded reason and often break several items. I internally call my dad "The grabbler" he picks up delicate items with his full fist, all fingers perfectly alinged - like a special ed kid grabbing a pencil. As you can imagine, this often BREAKS anything even remotely fragile.

This has been an issue I've dealt with my entire life. I'd have my pokemon cards on a playing mat in my room, parents barge in and walk right on them despite them being able to walk around it, and I wasn't even in the way. Or other times where they would grab my school work with greasy/chocolate coated hands and get stains all over it. Also they love coughing and sneezing without any attempt to cover their mouths. You will see spit and mucus stains EVERYWHERE in the house. Especially on the shared computer screen, utterly disgusting.

I have tried everything to get them to be less dirty and more respectful and mindful but they just don't care, my mother is literally too stupid to understand, my father just doesn't care. I don't really want to move out either as it's not a possibility on my wages unless I want to live in a car or next to criminal social housing with even more disgusting people.

The list goes on and on about all the dirty behaviour they get up to. I might even jot down some greentext stories if I'm bored later
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 No.308530

>>308498
Try buying a Harry Potter themed "snitch" battery-powered decor, 7$ a piece.

Put it into an old glass pc case.
Instant distraction.


Besides, you could buy a semi-busted 20$ tape player with some chill, sleepy, lullaby-ish tapes…
…and a voice-activated outlet (12$ or so)

And attach some empty can full of steel nuts (0-2$) to your door so the loud "clang" would activate the outlet.

 No.308533

>>308502
>nothing to be ashamed of.
it is

 No.308645

>>308502
the inheritence I will be getting (if they dont waste it or give it to someone else) will carry me into NEEThood for life

 No.308648

>>308645
whao your parents must be rich. do you have brothers and sisters

 No.308652

>>308498
>I've weighed it all up and I still ultimately prefer living here, just barely
living with such people never works out in my experience


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 No.319696[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

this thread is for Hikikomori and N.E.E.Ts.
use this thread as an exchange between hiki and neet and share what you think is worth sharing.
here's a website that sell hikikomori themed magazine in japan. the website has some interviews of hiki around the world. if you'd like to check it, here's the link: https://www.hikipos.info/
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 No.324200

>>324032
Part-timing?

 No.324201

>>324196
will you working again?

 No.324228

>>324201
It's almost impossible for me to work. Looks like hanging myself is my only option.

 No.324235

>>324228
can't you do something you like before?

 No.324242

>>324235
no, I don't like anything about living and don't really have this drive to gather resources to stay alive, it's more by coincidence I stayed alive for so long
if there is an afterlife I hope it is better than this


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/wiz/

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 No.226924[Reply]

Today is my 30th birthday. I've been on this site since 2013/2014 until I left in 2023. I feel this chapter has been closed.
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 No.228913

1d99

 No.228918

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>>226927
>>228910
>>228912
>>228913
You gotta type it between square brackets [ ], no spaces.

 No.228919

roll 1d99[ 1d99 = 63 ]

 No.228920

congratulations

 No.228922

I cast fireball! 8d6[ 8d6 = 32 ]


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 No.316606[Reply]

Are you disabled wiz? Mentally or physically? I'm talking actual diagnosis. I got pretty bad OCD and PTSD.
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 No.321885

>>316606
Type I Diabetes since childhood.

 No.324190

I have scoliosis, not sure if that counts as disability or just a minor deformity. I don't get any government gibs for example, not even allowed in those sweet sweet blue parking spaces.

 No.324220

I hear voices and have some epileptic symptoms but I avoid psychiatry altogether, doctors can't really help you anyway.

 No.324239

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My disability is that I have high I.Q. I haven't been officially tested but I just know it. It's hell on Earth. Total pain. I try to enjoy things, but I'm just too smart. I try to watch an anime (Japanese animation), and I just feel bored because I'm too intelligent to laugh and clap like a normie would. Even anime made for high I.Q persons, such as Neon Genesis Evengelion and Serial Experiments Lain, are just boring to me. I even tried video games such as The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim, but I find myself simply outsmarting the enemy A.I and so the whole game is just boring. When I was in kindergarten I was so bored with how easy the easy schoolwork was that I instead just played with the Link-n'-Logs while the mundanes struggled to learn basic phonetics. The school system caught on to my intelligence so they prescribed me Xanax and Zoloft which I have been taking daily for 25 years. They wanted to keep me from being too smart, but it failed and I'm still too high I.Q to enjoy things. Why must life be so boring? Why must I be too smart to smile? Happiness is truly a fabrication by liars. A cope by unintelligent commoners who only believe that they are happy, when the reality is that they are suffering from being low I.Q. Sigh.

 No.324241

>>324239
>high IQ
But apparently not street smart enough to hide it. What did you think was going to happen once people found out? This is probably bait anyways.


/wiz/

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 No.228138[Reply]

Stepped on the scale today and realized that despite the initial "push" from a medical crisis a year ago, I basically regained all weight I lost (minus 5-10kg).
I also realized I've been working for almost 3 years now, going to be 30 the same week I'll hit my 3 years of work too.
3 years… of wages wasted.

I don't even know what the fuck I spent most of it on. It just escapes me.
Still live with mom and all my necessities are taken care of she takes nothing from me.
I had a blessed opportunity these past 3 years to save up for the dogshit future that hit the world now and I wasted it on toys and basically indulging all I couldn't as a NEET with no money.
The worst is that since I'm an impulsive retard I mostly have nothing to show for it either.

Health is even more fucked then ever before since I never took action.
Rather every action that didn't prove fruitful or flat out failed resulted in my absolute surrender for another month or three or six…
Absolutely defeated at the starting line basically.

To get to the point of this thread. Those of you that live a decently structured, responsible and stable life, how?
I barely have a sense of time. Kinda like when I was a NEET, just instead of 12-16 hours of sleeping and then PC stuff I'm forced to work a rather easy, blessed job.
Once it passes I just feel like I'm teleported to the next shift until I get to sleep through a weekend and months pass.
Even chronic pains don't make me act much. What does one even do to live?

The worst part really is that so many years went down the drain and I really have nothing to show for it. Not even memories.
I want to at least look back on SOMETHING fondly when I'm dying someday.
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 No.228644

>>228138

good genetics. mine are a fuckin dumpster fire. 93 Iq, 5 ft 6 in, not a succubi, weak , messed up knees and shoulders from a car wreck as a kid.

i got jack shit.

And, will sometimes run across some dude, exactly like me…… BUT 143 Iq,

life is sweet, life is cream, cause of 50 IQ point boost, makes 6 figs.

if someone is like us, and livin it up
they were lucky in genetics someplace. i was dealt all BS

 No.228646

>>228644
I can't disagree, but it's also one of those things you just can't accept else the rope becomes the only real answer.

I'm just about 5'6" in shoes. Funny thing you point out not being a succ, probably got called "male" or "man" in a derogatory tone before too huh?
Wasn't blessed with smarts either. I managed to avoid major accidents, but head injuries from beatings and being born a month premature don't exactly result in the healthiest of dispositions.
Especially if you manage to inherit a bunch of debuffs as well.

I'm still hopeful that I'm some special wisdom / conclusion away from a decent life.
I recall one of the wizards was some wheelchair bound cripple and he seemed to be more competent and at least happier too.
I'm sure there are wizards who are worse off yet managed to get better. I'd like to believe I'm just missing something by being dumb/lazy/self-absorbed or whatever else.
Accepting that the reason for failure is something I can't change fills me with the same dread as thinking of death/oblivion.

 No.228762

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>Reasons why I think my life is "decent"

I have some money saved up after a few years (2) of living at home. Perhaps 30k, some is invested, and I make 54kish a year. I do pay my mother rent at a flat rate of 900 a month, and I help out in other ways monetarily, and this is all partially because she takes me to work on the days I do work in office (I am luckily working a hybrid schedule). I have a degree (CS). I am slowly gaining hobbies, working on correcting bad habits, etc…

>Share some wisdom
Ultimately….. what keeps me going, in all honesty, is my lack of a safety net + my desire for worldly things. Not too original I know but that's it. I can't rely on my mom to coddle me because she kicked me out at 18 once she saw me attempting to sink hours into MMOs, and I had to scrape my way into college and that degree and rough it out for 7 years in a little roach-infested apartment, eating rice and beans and barely passable meat every day. I will never ever qualify for NEETbux. She will kick me out again if I lose my job. And I love air conditioning and the internet. I want to go traveling. My mother is "poor" (living off savings and what I give her) and my father is a dead bum. I can only rely on myself.

I also feel living in that shitty apartment and eating terrible food, surrounded by crackheads and old, old people living in subhuman conditions because they didn't plan for being old really scared me straight. The human body is so resilient. I'm sure you, like me, never thought you would live past 20. But here we are. Unless a freak accident happens we're going to see 60. We need to prepare for that.

>More "wisdom"
I also think you just need to get a GOAL. That isn't helpful maybe but goals really do help. Go "I want to visit [x] country before I get too old and my health starts failing and I don't want to visit it as a pauper" or "when I eventually move, I need to move cities, and I never need to return" or even "I want other people to see this idea within me – let's study art, programming, polish our writing skills…"

When it comes to spending, seriously consider if you need whatever you want to buy. Or try saving 50% of your paycheck and just blow the rest on whatever you please. Even saving 25% of your paycheck will build up fast.

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 No.228915

>>228762
Do relate to material desires, but even that got old for the most part.
The only remaining "desires" I might still pretend I have feel unattainable (monetarily, world situation, personal options etc.) and are also related to what you mention in part.
Safety. Ironic because I don't do anything for my health… anyways.

>I also think you just need to get a GOAL. That isn't helpful maybe but goals really do help.
I agree.
I agree.
I agree.
So, why not? I feel like the very world is mocking me with this. I know. I fucking understand this. I distilled this myself. No goals, no point to anything. Not hard at all.
I don't get why the world is rubbing my face in this for some reason. Like elderly doctors completely fucking unprompted giving me this lecture.
Normies bringing it up completely at random even though they know zero things about me, it's weird. Either some cosmic influence thinks this is how to motivate me or it's literal demons mocking me.
I know. I get it.
Goal, split it into manageable parts/steps and follow through. Not hard.

Never managed to find a goal that didn't feel made up and artificial. It's hard to strive for something genuinely if you know it's some fake nonsense.
Following through, taking action hasn't been my strong suit either, but I'm firm in belief that it is related to the former lack.

I'm grateful for your response, it's just tiring. I don't know what I'm expecting here at all.
I'm not going to magically care about shit.
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>>228915
Upon sleeping 3 hours and waking for my wagie job I had a thought that perhaps I my situation, as in, body, mind, environment are all simply not conducive to having dreams or aspirations.
I'll simply have to force myself to act until the base conditions are met.
Health, skills, resources all need to be improved through rather obvious means without a guiding star of a goal until I reach a baseline where dreams at least seem possible again.

>>228762
>But nobody can save you but you, and nobody is coming to save you. Nobody cares so you have to care.
This is still rather obvious I was just hoping to unlock some magical thought patterns that would enable me to do so without this constant resistance akin to tooth pulling.


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 No.323901[Reply]

No politics or religion in the crawl thread, please.

>Ambient sounds to wash away distraction
https://asoftmurmur.com/
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 No.324205

>>324199
Rice and soy sauce taste awful and are really poor for the health. At least corn chips and vodka root bees taste good.

 No.324210

>>324188
magnet links are so convenient

 No.324211

>>324199
Why, cooking rice is easy why do you need teflon coated crap to cook it

 No.324216

Made my second comment on Viber chat of one TV channel and the host read it aloud. Thought he'd say name and first letter of a surname like sometimes, though now I remember that it wasn't always a case. I used my father's second phone so his name was used. I knew that phone number, e-mail, full name and city won't be mentioned. YouTube creators responding and liking my comments, one literally mentally ill person posting blogs using a few phrases I added to Wikipedia (I think I even undid his edits), now this. Though the mentally ill man doesn't mention my nickname or surname, just the phrase in his hyoergraphia diarrhea of the same shit all over again.

The TV host botched some lines, though he recovered and agreed that compulsory exams in Maths constitutes a form of violence (it's not the only idea of my post, he read everything). I saw it twice on live stream on YouTube too and it's not a local channel. I hid that chat (my posts without talking to anyone, just replies on topic) by a password
For now, I won't remove it from the list of chats. New achievement unlocked. Not that life's worth living, but a nice bonus.

 No.324240

>>324216
I told a loli artist his drawing was nice once and he replied with the Japanese word for "thank you"


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 No.305955[Reply]

Its hard being bad at everything, even the things you do for yourself
Whatever I touch usually ends up ruined
Its very hard on me because I allready expect to fail at whatever I try nowadays
Maybe bad luck is real, but whatever I lay my hands on usually ends up more damaged then fixed
Id like to say electronics are a hobby, but i have destroyed more then I repaired
I have no talents no ability to put any Idea I have in my mind into reality
It doesnt matter if I prepare, if I practice
My fingers dont do what I want them to
Something unexpected happens
I couldnt even fix a carburator on my bike
And I couldnt get the replacement to work either
There are very few times I have tried something and got positive results
I have been fired from every job i have ever gotten quickly
I have been learning japanese for 3 years now and I have seen other people become fluid but despite the time I poured in I still suck
Its very hard to explain to other people, they will say "you have to try more or try something different"
But I am trying and failing
Its not that im just seeing the negatives, when I actually succeed at something it makes me very happy but its a rare feeling for me
I try things, even follow tutorials and it never turns out well for me
I have ruined many things I love by trying to fix an issue and breaking them irrepairably
I just want a bit of sucess in what I do
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 No.308629

>>305957

>I know exactly how you feel and I want to tell you, I was in the same spot but I learned quickly.
Never been the case for me.

>I realized, very early on, that I can only succeed if I fix things on my own terms. Something in my mind just refuses to cooperate if I adhere to a 'correct standard' set by others, I must have total control over the medium I'm working with and I must be the one to set the architectural rules


You explained what I always hateld about my degree, basically. Thanks!

 No.308631

>>306013

people will read and instantly dismiss you sayin you are cursed.

As a person who sincerely believes am cursed myself.

Try to take a bath in salt water. It helps if its sea salt.

 No.308644

I buy warhammer models. I fucked up even the most basic assembly. A soldier with 5 fucking pieces, how the hell would I not fuck up a big model with 100+ pieces?

 No.308650

>>308644
I bought a legit Stormbird. I'm probably never going to assemble it let alone paint it.

 No.308651

>>306021
I hear voices and will hang myself


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 No.303736[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.308638

>>308635
If your dad was mindful, he wouldn't have had you in the first place. Education and distance from you allows doctors to be dispassionate about your weakness. Ignorant people who are close to you and close-minded are never going to be able to accept objectivity.

 No.308639

>>308638
I tell him everyday he shouldn't have made me and he agrees with me, he sentenced himself to a life of wageslavery just to feed me and my mom, not a great move.

 No.308642

>>308587
I have 2 uncles that were older gen X, but had AMAZING job offers, they knew all the right people. Nope they became party boys and got drunk EVERY DAY. They were on the type of money that both of them were able to buy brand new flagship cars imported from the USA. Now one is dead, the other is basically homeless and travels on his broken bike everywhere. Abusing everyone he finds. Calls me a lazy loser for working and not being able to afford a 200k+ car

 No.308647

>>308628
They let me have one because they think I don't listen to them when I have them both on. I don't mind it though.

Again, I am not sure that the checklists would help since I am not sure if I'd even check them. It is also a problem with complex procedures when I'd have to make really advanced checklists to cover all possible mistakes.

I thought that I might be spacing out simply because of anxiety over wasted time and people watching me. Perhaps I'll try to drink some mint or whatever when I'll be at work next time. At least I'll be less upset when I'll fuck something up.

 No.308649

>>308642
People back then thought the good times would last.


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 No.324068[Reply]

I dont know how to cope that old internet is not coming back and that it will get worse for each year that goes by
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 No.324107

>>324099
Norman Norbert Norman Normandy XDDDDD

 No.324136

Today the internet is so boring people prefer to chat with bots

 No.324207

Are you sure it's just the internet?
Both real life and virtual space seem to be accelerating towards a singularity of soullessness and meaninglessness.
I guess finding small or niche places with original content is the best you can do, but it still doesn't really bring back this 'old internet' feeling.

 No.324208

Bad Platforms, with bad concepts, administered by bad people.
Social Media CREATED these people, with intent.
We as a society didn't look through their scheme and have let it happen.

Good platforms with good intent draw in the right people, and will raise next generations better.

 No.324229

>>324207
>Both real life and virtual space seem to be accelerating towards a singularity of soullessness and meaninglessness.
Because they are the same space now and have been for a while.

>>324208
>and will raise next generations better.
The damage is done and cannot be undone. The moment that line between real life and the internet finally disappeared in the very early 10s was the end. To "return" would mean that whole thing would have to somehow collapse.


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 No.228246[Reply]

ive come to a conclusion normies operate on a subconscious level. They still worship a yehweh like being but they dont like to admit it. They talk about how indifferent god is but praise nature for being a provider. when nature is a practical way of explaining a god. You talk about how cruel nature is, and pagans will justify it by saying its supposed to be like that while believing we should use nature as a basis of our sense of right and wrong. Kind of like what christians do when you talk about the indifference about their god. Regardless what belief a normie puts themselves as. it comes to the same conclusion on their thought process.
>the system I support is infallible
>the system I support is perfect
>whatever harm that comes from said system is ment to happen or is justified as the lesser evil in someway
>but we are the ones that fight for progress wven though we dont want to see the flaws in our system to fix the issue.
>but blame those who see the problem in the first place

normies seem to have this mentality that likes to support this Saturn like system in the persuit of "beauty" or "progress" when its nothing more than a dog chasing its own tail. What's worse is people believe im obligated to participate in a dying system they support, or a rebellion that would replace the same concept they swore to fight against. Im simply tired and wish to not exist, wishing this whole thing wether its nature, yehweh or even politics would just fade away. We were fine without experience. We were at peace. But there is that primordial ambition that constantly likes to put itself in the way of everything like a clumsy flamboyant retard stumbling in the room with its utmost redundant suggestions like that filthy serpent that suggested eve to partake in the fruit of knowledge. Or god himself that brought light into darkness to antagonize the peace.
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 No.228338

>>228310
okay

 No.228339

Why remain within the Abrahamic framework if this is your belief?

 No.228341

>>228311
>God is evil because he allows free will and personal agency
Satanism is the ultimate brainrot, if they really are arguing this

 No.228916

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god does a bunch of evil things like kill people but when he does it it's "divine providence" and it becomes objectively a good thing that we can't question

god told abraham to kill his child, for no reason, and as god's faithful servant, he didn't question it at any moment. he was perfectly willing to murder his child like every god-fearing person would. faith in god must be absolute, regardless of how his commands would sound like madness to any rational person.

there is no victory against an omniprescent, omniscient god. absolutely anything he says and does is unquestionable because he is god. a satanist recognizes this and accepts the futility of disobeying regardless. satanism is very similar to existentialism if we only replace God with eg. the cold indifference of the universe. is there a point in rebelling against god? no, but we'll do it anyway. smite me down, god, but i will not murder my child for you.

 No.228917

>>228916
i don't actually have a child obviously. that was rhetorical. thought i should make that clear


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 No.63562[Reply]

I'm interested in rpgmaker games in general, I feel like there's some gems out there ready to be discovered. digg in! as they say haha
I also like to know the games you've played and your opinions on it.
Don't forget to share some gems, wizards!

 No.63563

>>63562
>I also like to know the games you've played and your opinions on it
A whole lot of goonshit throughout the years. It's not good for your brain, avoid it.

 No.63565

>>63563
can you share some goon games you've played, please? black souls 1 and 2 I guess?

 No.63566

Wadanohara

 No.63569

I've played some of the more popular ones
Off the top of my head, I really liked Yume Nikki, OneShot, OMORI, Your Turn to Die, .flow, The sigcorp series and LISA The painful.
I'm midway through Yume 2kki so that'll occupy me for quite a while

 No.63570

>>63569
I'm playing Ruina:fairy tale of forgotten ruins right now. it's enjoyable so far


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 No.227908[Reply]

It's official. Sexbots are almost* here.

Would you guys sexbotmaxx or remain a pure Wizard?
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 No.228905

>>228897

fellow old person here, id do any to go back to 1990s.

for people who experienced 1990s, its really hard to describe how Normal it was compared to this fucked up decade,

main i remember of 1990s vs 2020s. Everyone, almost everyone, would be willin to talk. bartender, politician, bus driver, teacher, succubus who didnt find someone attractive, etc….

Thats all swept away now, and you need like a presence or brand (see LinkdIN) to get social interaction. Or it definitely wont happen, it constantly diverts back to online, and online if you re un attractive, your interaction will boil down to: eeeewwww

 No.228906

>>228902
But such discussion directly contradicts the subtitle of the board. Why can't anyone, wizard or otherwise, be allowed to have a single online space in which crabs and other whiny faggots aren't permitted to infect with their whining about succubi's sexual references? This board was made from the ground up to be a place free from that single subject.

 No.228907

>>228902
Au contraire this thread is proof that you can't.

 No.228909

>>228907
We aren't insulated from normie retardation. In fact I have to deal with it daily at work because my country has no
neetbucks.

 No.228914

>>228896
>id debate it, if it worked, but, i dont have time, money, and key word Privacy
Privacy? How come?

>>228891
>A soulless robot is arguably even worse.
I'd argue that it's in the execution. A VR overlay on a BJ device is the same as real sex, has greater potential for customisation and better than physics stimulation. No one is going to fuck a cream colored CRT monitor. I still think that building an MVP >>228886 would be something /pol/ worthy. Anything else is just vapor, not even vaporware. We've had "holodecks" for decades now so there's no point posting what-ifs into IBs and social media.

A lot of men would do better with robots than succubi. I think >>28870 is a robo-man.

>>228897
>>228898
>>228900
>>228905
>>228909
Normies FOMO-bomb each other and social media and dating apps dialed the aggression to 11. Most men are unattractive because they're FOMO traps.

This is the sexbot thread, maybe discuss the normfags on a normie discussion thread?


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 No.302164[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.308589

>>308588
you can do it, alkie!

 No.308590

>>308575
How does wine taste better than beer? Beer is much more accessible.

 No.308591

>>308590
Why not just drink fruit juice it tastes better

 No.308593

>>308590
It's equally accessible here but you might be right that beer is more common in certain countries.

 No.308646

>>308590
Try a sparkling rose wine. It's almost fizzy like a soda, and often has fruity tastes. Also Ciders are a great option to explore more flavors whilst maintaining beer level alcohol. Sadly the multi pack ones are shit, it's the single bottles that are like 5 dollars that taste nice


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 No.308419[Reply]

I got a very sad event and started to write things out of nowhere, like poems and short shitty ironic funny stories in my language, even some are sad or deppresive or even dramatic histories.
Sometimes i like to draw calligrams.
I shared it sometimes with randoms or people i know and they enjoyed it.
I doing this now like two weeks and i feel kind calm and in some way at times little happy after reading or laughing at my shitty work, i dont know why but i like it feels more fulfilling than doing nothing or focus much in fixing my sadness bacause sometimes i even got some smirk or laugh of people seing my art and they looks happy to me and that's everything to fill my day with their little spontaneous bacon of sunlight in this abyss.
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 No.308468

sounds fun, you should do this more often if it makes you happy

 No.308634

When i try to do it, cannot begin without getting sad and i end up crying

 No.308640

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>>308468
>i don't want to ruin your peace but i'll just feed you this thought that you should keep yourself prepared for when your brain starts returning to the baseline and thinking rationally again. maybe it'll never happen, but just in case.
No, i chill out now. i start the day writing or doing one of these thing like picrel and strangely elevates my mood a lot.
Maybe just the expression of art is therapeutic in a lot of ways. i know that this fix anything but the way elevates my mood is magical to me.
I stop a little with poems but i have a lot on a note i use it to write calligrams or time to time i re-read these to make a mind-laugh smile or something like that.
Its kinda evocative, its like i recalling a emotion from other time.
>thinking rationally again.
Maybe i think rationally everytime trying to get something healthy to my brain. staying everytime in the sad or deppresive mood of pure apocalyptic dissaster never gonna give anything good in the long run. the end of the race its the same, but its worth suffering to much during the race? some damn bad people just want the perpetuation of suffering.
>>308634
>When i try to do it, cannot begin without getting sad and i end up crying
I started in same way, use it, start writing sad things and later laugh off of your shit, you can read some poems of others and little by little start to find more laughable things or try more to write shitty poems. its not the result but the doing the thing, i never used crayons or color pcrabs as kid (just black pencils and etc) and in a way painting and writing with colors make me joy.

 No.308641

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>>308640
I like these other very random or geometrical, look magical in a lot of ways.

 No.308643

I like to make random pieces of art and blogpost randomly online and then get those accounts banned or deleted. making the art helps me not drastically ruin my life more, but keeping a catalog of those things would keep me mentally insane.


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 No.33619[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Has anyone read 5e's fucking Ravenloft?
Just some of the horrid shit in it:
>Strahd's played off as what amounts to Buffy the Vampire Slayer's Angelus levels of edge, literally feels nothing and seemingly has no interests above the usual, though not for the same Bram Stoker's Dracula tier reasons, Literally just wants Tatanya as if a meaningless trophy on his belt
>These dumb faggots made it so that Strahd wants to turn whatsherface not into a vampire bride, or hell, even a true vampire, BUT VAMPIRE SPAWN (You know, sniveling wall crawling nosebleed assface monster vamps?)
>Tatanya's a nigger
>The reincarnation is a nigger
>Strahd's wives are niggers
>Nigger Mayor of a town surrounding the land
>Evil white "everything is fine man"
>Strahd's a Bisexual sodomite degenerate with two male consorts to boot
>Made Barovians "Diverse"
>Made Strahd's conquering of the land sound tyrannical as fuck and less just
>Made it so that Some have Barovians have souls and some don't because of 5e's ravenloft being in a private demiplane, stopping newborn bodies from getting souls, in a piss-poor attempt to mimick the Old demiplanes of dread thing where some residents are literally just NPCs made by the powers, even though this makes no sense to anyone who's had to deal with Gulthias in 3.5 and Ashradorn in the whole Soul font thing with the ban on unborn souls in lore, so these people should be getting souls, because otherwise the demiplane would have to deny all positive energy for this shit to even remotely work
>All done because they're too lazy to redo the demiplanes of dread just like before,
>Strahd now heals for 20 in his fast heal
>Mongrel Men are the results of Racemixing past the half-race stage suffer for it, check their description and it's fucking played off as a good thing despite them being ugly mutants beyond redemption in their racial descriptions, the self-unawareness is real

This is why warhammer roleplay and castle drachenfels will always be superior
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>>68419
Hello again anon! It's been a year, how are things going in your game? Still playing with that GM and that other guy?

>I spend most of the week despising it
>Then it's gaming night and all is forgiven. I have a great time, I get to talk with other human beings I don't actively despise
>Then it's the next day and nausea returns
I have started my campaign again and as the GM, I've been having the opposite reaction. I enjoy preparing the game during the week, stocking the dungeons and moving the gears of the world, but on game night I can feel my tank emptying in real-time, and by the end, I tend to be slightly dissatisfied. The players are engaged and definitely seem to enjoy the whole thing, and I think I've found a pretty good risk/reward balance that makes the game meaningful. So I don't know what else I'd want really, yet I usually get more fun preparing the game than actually running it. After the game, I spend the rest of the evening being negative and mulling over minor things that could have gone more smoothly, not feeling the raw satisfaction you'd expect, or being excited about what the players did in the game.
But then, on the following days, I get motivated again and enjoy devising new things for the players.

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>>70266
Hey there. It's been a while since I checked this thread. Apologies. About the game, I quit about 5 months ago and it was a mistake. I miss it more than I hated it. Now I'm reading the books wishing I was playing. I'm beyond fucking pathetic, what else can I say. I don't feel like going back to my old group, I fear they think less of me for quitting. Now I'm thinking about finding another group, I don't know.

Happy to know you started your own game. How is it going? I'm sure your players are enjoying it. Players that are at all worth their salt always appreciate their DM. You're basically doing hard work for their enjoyment. Even if things don't go smoothly here or there, who gives a fuck, right? At least that's how I see it as a player.

 No.70679

this looks fun

 No.70680

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>>70678
Hello anon!

>About the game, I quit about 5 months ago and it was a mistake. I miss it more than I hated it.
Ah, sorry to hear that. I'm sure you had good reasons to quit after so long.
Have you ever ran your own game, or thought of doing so?

>Happy to know you started your own game. How is it going?
I have stopped running it, mostly due to the reasons I mentioned. My motivation dried up, and at some point it started to feel like a chore.
It lasted long enough, and the players were certainly enjoying it, if I'm going by their near perfect attendance, engagement during play, and long sessions often ending later than reasonable on week nights. It was also the best campaign I ever ran, having perfected my methods from previous ones, and that was good. But I lost the spark eventually, and sooner than I expected too.

>Even if things don't go smoothly here or there, who gives a fuck, right? At least that's how I see it as a player.
That's my issue as a GM, I'm too autistic about running the system rules-as-written. It makes for a rewarding and meaningful experience for the players, and while I'm good at running it this way, it's a lot of work. I could certainly gain from being more flexible, but even as a player, when things are too loose or when I sense the GM is cutting corners, I tend to lose interest because it stops feeling like a game with strict rules I can win or lose at.

Anyway, like yourself, I have been reading stuff again, old gaming magazines from the 80s. The spark is never completely dead.

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>>70680
There wasn't a good reason, it's just that I tend to focus on the negative side of anything I'm doing. I quit because I thought I was going to dedicate myself to reading more books, but of course, in the end, I barely read shit anyways and now I'm outta game. I'll probably find a new group on Roll20.

How long did it take you to call it quits with your campaign? I hope you had fun with it. Maybe it's best to have shortish games that end after some months so people can recharge, instead of turning it into a fucking religion the way me and the guys were doing. The first couple of weeks after I left I truly felt like I had escaped from a cult. And now I want back into the fold. I'm almost inclined to give a hollow laugh.

I prefer strict rules myself, but I'm not dead set on them. I do very strongly prefer no fudging to save the characters, no matter what. You can only have true consequences from your decisions if the world is not conspiring in favor of the PCs.

>>70679
It is fun. It's way better than any video game out there, that's for sure.


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 No.306545[Reply]

I am not even that horny, a lot of the days I force my self to do it while not even being in the mood for it, it's just the most effective way for me to cope, masturbation is free, gives you instant pleasure and can burn for you many hours at the time, there are times when i find my self touching myself just so I can use it as a way to distract my self for my anxieties and negative thought loops, as soon as i start touching myself all my anxiety and negative emotions start to dissolve as much as i hate and it hate how much i overdo it, i can't deny it makes getting through my days easier when i can just touch my self for many hours instead of just sitting there being miserable feeling hollow bored to tears and empty or anxious and overthinking at worse, my point here is that I believe the addiction for me is a mere sympotom, something I use to escape my negative feelings and the emptiness of my daily life, thanks for reading my blogpost
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 No.307854

>>306545
If I have something to do and am sleeping well I don't do it for months without even thinking about it. If i'm not sleeping and I can't focus on anything it's hours a day

 No.308390

I did no fap for 70 days once but now I realize that was fake it didn't interrupt the addiction. I now genuinely have lost all interest and don't think about it at all and even when stumbling upon random material when browsing the web it doesn't do anything. Not sure if this will go on but it's the first time for almost two decades that I'm not prone to pornographic material. Certainly it's liberating I even play single player video games again.

 No.308596

I was able to escape my porn addiciton by learning meditation and mindfullness.
Mostly it teaches you to observe your cravings with detachment and you will eventually lose interest in porn

 No.308597

yuki

 No.308633

>>306545
I have the opposite problem, I've done it so much my dick doesn't even care anymore, I just ignore the feelings now because it'd be too much effort to make anything happen physically.


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