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 No.305874[Reply]

If I were living inside a virtual simulation as a kind of player inhabiting this world, I would start wondering whether the point of the simulation might actually be to experience suffering. What purpose would that serve? Maybe it exists because a limitless state of existence would quickly collapse into emptiness. If I somehow became godlike one day, able to feel endless pleasure without risk or resistance, I might saturate myself instantly and render pleasure meaningless. Without contrast, sensation would flatten, and awareness would have nothing left to react to. In that state, boredom would not just be occasional but absolute, because nothing could surprise me or matter in any real way.

So perhaps I would deliberately choose limitation and pain, not out of cruelty toward myself but out of a search for novelty and significance. By placing myself inside a constrained life with uncertainty, struggle, and consequence, experiences could regain weight and texture. Suffering would then act as the mechanism that restores intensity to existence, allowing effort, growth, attachment, and value to exist at all. In that sense, the simulation would not be about punishment but about creating conditions where meaning becomes possible, where I could care about outcomes again instead of drifting through a perfect but empty infinity.
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 No.305894

>>305877
This, trying to grasp the mannerisms and thoughts of a god using human intelligence is inherently paradoxical since humans will always be weighed down by their biological burdens and mortal limitations. If you were a good you wouldn't care about pleasure and suffering or any human notion for that matter.

 No.305895

>>305894
otoh think about how bad op feels. here he brought something he thought was enlightening thoughts and now he has to face my cynical responses.

ironically such responses were what killed me inside so i guess i'm just returning to the world what i received from it or whatever.

now i kinda feel like a bad person, guess i'll go ruminate or something

 No.305919

>>305874
You're essentially describing a gnostic position – that we are by origin gods wrongly bound into material shells by some lesser deceiving demiurgic deity. "ει θεος: you are a god" is one of the original pythagorean dicta cluing the young learner into the knowledge that he is a mortal god entrapped inside an aesthetic counter of true reality, or what we in modern language call a "simulation".

>So perhaps I would deliberately choose limitation and pain, not out of cruelty toward myself but out of a search for novelty and significance

You're attempting to form reason for the suffering of our human lives. I applaud that, as it is not easy nor in any way logically intuitive. For my own part I have no strong answer. Even the traditional four-way theological parting of – good god (theism), idle god (deism), no god (atheism), evil god (gnosticism) – seems explanatorily incomplete to me.

>would be to abandon omniscience, to step inside a fragile and limited perspective.

This is thematically similar to plato's dialogue "Meno" where knowledge is said to be latent (that is, "hiding") in our transmigrating souls but still susceptible of being teased out to its original fullness by a competent teacher. The pythagorean concept of metempsychosis also qualifies this notion of our lives being broken up intervals between which we are bound to make connective sense.

>In that state, eternity would blur into stillness. Without risk, loss, or change, pleasure would lose its meaning and collapse into a constant background noise. You would exist, but never move forward, never discover, never grow.

This reminds me of some character's answer in morrowind (a computer game about gnosticism fitted to a narrative stage of knights and medieval times) touching on the question of why Lorkhan (the elder scrolls' version of the demiurge) created material reality (tamriel) and his answer was something like “because he found the peacefulness of the aedric realm to be unexciting and dull”. This then graduates into the familiar problem of whether the demiurge himself is evil or not…and I think in original platonism the demiurge was never assigned a clear moral color of good or evil (which accounts for why plotinus attacked Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.305925

>>305874
>If I were living inside a virtual simulation as a kind of player inhabiting this world, I would start wondering whether the point of the simulation might actually be to experience suffering


The Great Filter Theory: there is something that kills life on every other planet save for ours, but not the universe.
We're *put* here into this uncozy simulation to see if The Great Filter lies somewhere in our lifetime.

So far, Stanislav Petrov is the only just-a-human hero credited as the literal saviour of the world

 No.305944

there are a couple of "ideas" like aliens, new age, simulation and so on which is just fake religion in disguise. I believe Seraphim Rose wrote a book about this


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 No.305937[Reply]

Every time I think of death, the end of my self I can feel my brain fighting it, pretty much actively trying to shut down.
It's a weird sinking feeling, thinking of the unimaginable.
People have died around me and I felt nothing, but then again I'm not an overly emotive or emotional person.

I still can't cope with death as a concept. I don't want to cease experiencing. I'd genuinely prefer hell to oblivion.

I screwed myself, my health because of a lack of attachments and care for things in general and I'm at the age where recovery is getting harder even if I try.
Mitigation is a more realistic goal if I don't already have something terminal, hopefully. (29)

How do you guys cope? I see so many people here talking about suicide and I just can't fathom it.
I suffer from many chronic ailments, pain, tinnitus (really severe) and much else. I had many absolutely horrid experiences during childhood and youth.
I have no real connection to my broken family, no connection to pretty much anyone or anything. Never loved or felt loved by anyone, not even family.
I don't pursue hobbies I'm a man of inaction. I can't even force myself to do things I supposedly enjoy.
I have one friend I talk to online exclusively in text and meaningless time wasting activities, consuming media, manga/manhua mostly.

It's a pointless life. Wasted.

Based on all of this I should probably be suicidal, but I'm the opposite. I'd be content being a specter just observing things too. I just want to persist.
I don't want this to end, I don't want to end.
I'm terrified. Sure I'm sick, in pain, constantly depressed or anxious, generally a failure, but I don't want to be gone.
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 No.305941

>>305937
>I still can't cope with death as a concept
I kinda disagree with your concept of death, I dont believe that you live only once, then die, and thats it for all eternity.
I think its the other way around…
you die, you instantly "observe" the universe from some other new point of view as some new lifeform and this goes on for all eternity.
so "death" is just the moment between respawns.
>It's a pointless life.
if you think about it all life is kinda pointless, if life forms naturally as part of whatever process the universe goes through then this means the game is everywhere the same.
>I'm terrified.
both concepts are shitty in their own ways, not existing forever vs. endless existence. sucks both and it sure doesnt look like "life" is voluntary no matter how you look at it. suicide is also not a solution, its a reroll but the reroll can and most likely will be worse.
to me this endless existence version seems overall more likely. I know my story isnt much proof but even as a little child I kinda felt old, it was as if I knew this is not my first time being alive and I still feel that way.

 No.305942

Part of growing up is experiencing loss and the inevitability of death. I like to think most people are afraid of death because it can be sudden. You never know when your day comes.

 No.305943

IDK how can you be scared of death, it is literally the condition you were in before you were born

I'm scared of life, of the endless pain and torture taking place on this planet, it just seems absolute hell to me, I know you said you prefer hell to death but perhaps you don't suffer enough to say that

The very fact that you have this survival instinct while being mortal is another part of the torture


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 No.305927[Reply]

>be me
>bored
>decide to go for a walk
>the group that used to harass me in high school sees me
>they start shouting embarrassing nicknames they gave me loudly, just like they did in HS
I thought I wouldn't need to deal with that anymore, but it seems like I was wrong. Has anyone here ever experienced something similar? I just want to have some peace.
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>>305930
>social status
This carries some risk, since I don't walk to places that far from home, so there's always a chance someone I know might be nearby. I also have no idea if they'd be brazen enough to do it if they saw me with my family.
>At least it isn't that bad to the level of them recording you, stalking you, etc
Well, yeah. I think it could be worse.
>Do you stand out bad enough…
Unfortunately, yes.
>keep some distance
My eyesight is terrible. I'm usually spotted first, not the other way around.
>>305931
>you have to be very quick once they start doing this
I was too autistic to realize it back then. Now I just try to get out of where I am quickly if I see them.

 No.305933

Encountering people from school was a deep fear of mine too until I wake up realizing I am 26 and my high school memories is 8 years old. We're probably unrecognizable to each other now. Some probably already has a family. The dynamic that existed when we're both 18 can't exist anymore even if we want it to.

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>>305933
It seems like you had more luck than me.

 No.305935

I had this happened with school bullies never went to high school if only family was rich maybe but no stuck in this shithole to die

 No.305940

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>>305927
My neighbours have harassed and talked shit about me and my mother for 3 years straight now too, God knows for long they've actually done it before I started to notice. They have great social standing so they effortlessly spread shit about me, basically turning me into an even more of a pariah.
You won't find any peace until you move out and take note of what made you gain those nicknames in the first place. If your new neighbours notice that you're lacking on one of the many developmental milestones like driving they'll begin to tease you and scalate until you give them a real reason to stop, being on your own emboldens them.
I'm sorry anon but if you can't move out your only options are violence or to endure, don't even try to reason or find out why they're still doing it, animals don't think like that.


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 No.304361[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html
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 No.305921

Delved deep tonight and found myself really seeing no point to living.
Suicide becomes reasonable.
Everything is utterly shallow and meaningless.
No relationship holds any value.
Looks are 99% and the last 1% "personality" is just a bit of noise that isn't all that different person to person.
Personality is worthless, every person is essentially the same on the inside. Maybe 20 different personalities max per gender.

 No.305923

>>305921
So you see no point in living n account of the fact that you're too ugly to get sex for free?

 No.305924

>>305923
I don't even think relationships would do anything.
We're all ending up like South Korea.
Everyone is going to chase having the same face and body, endless plastic surgery.
And it's all going to be the same couple of dozen "personalities".
People aren't any more unique than animals.

This is why the elite is coping so hard with occultism.
It's all a cope for how meaningless everything is.

 No.305926

>>305924
It is meaningless, yes. But who cares if it's meaningless? A meaningless world means a care free world to me, be who you want to be, or don't, its meaningless right?

 No.305938

I have a Discord server with 5 other accounts. All 5 are me. I've been talking to myself across these accounts for about 10 years and now the server has a million messages. Discussing things that have never happened. Enjoying friendships with people that don't exist. Sometimes I get up and walk around the house "talking" to them and "going places" and it's always a genuine shock when I realize, oh, no. It's just me here. I'm so lonely.

I hate my job. Jobs are a blessing in this economy but most of my coworkers despise me. It's because I'm "too quiet". I've had several people tell me I'm the quietest person they've ever met – that's a common thing for me. But I don't want to talk because I don't do anything. What is there to talk about? And I don't do anything because I don't want to. I hate this city, this state. I realize I've desperately insulated myself against reality all this time… I do the bare minium to get through it unscathed. I try not to absorb any outside information. I've been telling myself, "I'll live my life when [x] happens!" But is [x] ever gonna happen?

I'm 27 soon. The economy gets worse and worse. I have about $19,000 saved but apparently that won't last me any time at all in a nicer city. I'm so autistic that I can barely pass phone screenings when I do get them. It all comes back to money. I feel guilty that I ONLY have 19k saved despite living at home still. I guess I do pay rent and help with bills and buy groceries but I feel there should be more money??

I'm picking up art again… Having wrist pains because I lack an "ergonomic" setup. I don't want to spend more money to buy that. God damn it I have to start considering student loans too. Not too in debt but there is DEBT.

All over the place but I just needed to be sad for a bit. I don't have anyone to talk to. Nobody gives a shit. Why should they? I swear I try. I got a degree that I thought was solid (CS), I'm trying to "upskill" and get a cert because my current job isn't teaching me anything (I've been here for 2 years at this point). It just feels like I have to be Superman to get anywhere and it's so frustrating


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 No.322020[Reply]

Is the future for men just sports, stripping and being like 3% of the population?

Is the future post male?

Picrel is Sailor Muntarou by Maharajan, music related.
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 No.322882

>>322873
>Everyone is a succubus
You just proved the OP and the lyrics

 No.322883

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>>322882
I'm not sure what point you think you're trying to prove.
>I-I totally owned you!!
No.

 No.322884

>>322883
>You didn't own me
You weren't contrarianfagging so you weren't owned but you did prove the point by replacing the soldiers with succubi. The lyrics are about fake heros and the other anon said you need men for war which exists because of men.

The future is 90% succubi and 10% men. All jobs become basket weaving in the end anyway and men need a lot of cool stuff and protein which is unsustainable.

The 10% men will be waging war through hi-tech ball games and be in elite condition.

>>322877
This is what feminists want, end of gender and an end to beauty.

 No.322896

>>322036
>post males with them shorts at the post office

>>322847
>males against each other

Deleted posts.

Yeah, gender war feminists are making fan service illegal, the manosphere is full of dirty /pol/fag muck and there are rumors of Klarna and OF making a deal to create more debt. Fertility rates are low because babies are being eaten and no this is not /x/.

The world could have been a luxury spa but there are trolls creating unfinished jokes with no punch lines.

 No.322907

>>322884
I'll take the basket weaving job, thanks


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 No.322906[Reply]

Have you ever had to report someone to HR before, and what was that experience actually like for you from start to finish? I’m curious about how you felt leading up to it, whether you hesitated or second-guessed yourself, and how the process unfolded once you decided to go through with it. Did the situation resolve the way you hoped, or did it end up being more complicated or emotionally draining than you expected?

Looking back now, do you feel confident that reporting it was the right choice, or do you carry any regrets about getting HR involved? I wonder if it ultimately brought relief, closure, or positive change, or if it created tension, awkwardness, or unintended consequences afterward. In hindsight, was it worth it for your peace of mind and boundaries, or would you handle it differently if you had the chance again?

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 No.227025[Reply]

Does anyone here know any good virgin-only forums? Or a forum with a significant virgin population? Or maybe a forum that discusses widespread societal depravity in a very negative light?

I'm guessing the answer will be 'no'. Don't you think that's strange? I never believed just because something is common, that it's 'natural' or 'acceptable.' Child rape was common, it was practiced for most of human history, that's not acceptable. Yet betrayal, prostitution and temporary 'relationships' (same thing as prostitution) are? We are always at the recieving end of mockery, and them always rewarded with praise. Why? What did we do to deserve being mocked and belittled?

Does anyone else here feel this way? Or am I the only one? How do I reach likeminded people? How do I communicate with people who share my values? Where do I find them?

These days I just feel like we're being erased, or rather… we have always been erased. Am I a crab for taking these things seriously and refusing to submit to the same depravity as others?
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 No.227699

>>227698
>The only virgin men in the world are those who were REJECTED BY SCOIETY LIKE ME, and CHRISTCUCK TRADFASH /POL/TURDS

We've been over this, Rodriguez… This isn't a crab site. If you're not a virgin by choice then at the very least keep it to yourself.

 No.227700

>>227699
I just don't pretend that I'm a virgin because sex is immoral and I'm a paragon of justice. That is the most transparent sour grapes in the world. I look down on all those types who are using their virginity as a pathetic source of narcissistic supply. Needing to feel superior to others is just another form of normalfag weakness.

 No.227705

>>227699
What are you a branigger? Why are you tone policing here? Fuck you.

>>227698
You're not a crab for complaining about normies being shit to you.

 No.227706

>>227705
>Why are you tone policing here?
It's always good to put a crab back in the bucket. No hard feelings.

 No.227761

>>227700
Not to mention the typical user of this site "rejecting" sex is like a hungry homeless man "rejecting" to have Wagyu steak at his Manhattan penthouse.

You never had a chance to begin with so you can't reject something that is physically impossible in your circumstances.

I'm virgin because I don't physically appeal to anyone, succubus, man or trans. And that's fine, nobody owes me anything. I don't hate anybody. Though I will say it's not how I imagined life would go down when I was a kid.


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 No.63216[Reply]

Games you played that were not as good as the mainstream masses/reviewers would had you believe.
Also games that were recommended by "patricians", that turned out to just be games that cater to their autistic taste.

While I didn't find the gameplay or aesthetic of borderlands bad. The writing is so god damn cringy, it's like a boomer trying to write something he thinks modern teens like. After 2 hour I just couldn't stand it anymore. Gearbox were veterans and they had the backing of 2K a major publisher, this was the best writer they could get?
The deigns of banished isn't bad. It just that it felt like doing homework instead of playing a fun game. Many hours of planning, trail and error. Only an autist could think about spending the weekend for this.
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 No.63368

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>>63278
>doge rolling

 No.63369

Clair Obscur: Expedition 33
If other wiz tried this, i hope you were able to enjoy it.
I did not. It caused a rage response before I even got to the "gameplay" so I dropped it and looked up the story and spoilers.
Very glad i didn't force myself to keep going based on what i read. And everything else surrounding this "videogame" is slimy and weird.

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>>63216
The Borderlands series is definitely over-rated. I could not get into it.

I hated every Bethesda game I've played. I hated Fallout 3, 4 and 76
Can we talk about over-rated movies too? If so, I really thought the story of Interstellar was a little convoluted.

 No.63384

>>63370
>Can we talk about over-rated movies too?
Why not? like games, many popular movies are over glazed due to nostalgia or pretty visuals. Even if I liked the Thing movie. People talk as if it's the most mind blowing idea ever.
The Idea of the Thing is very similar to skin walkers and wendigos. But people act like the ideas in the movie was super revolutionary. Must had been all the special effect and monster transformation that captivated people back then.

 No.63432

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Praised by old people as a must play from the early 2000s. The game is carried by it's comic book cut-scenes, bullet time gimmick and writing. The level design was kinda mid.
It was fun for the first few hours but it became boring because it overstayed it's welcome. Only finished it because I wanted to see how the story ended.
While not bad, not the masterpiece old people make it out to be. They must had been so mesmerized by the bullet time gimmick and the noir atmosphere so much they forgave the boring gameplay.
The ideas wasn't the issue, it was the execution. Gunfights are repetitive after a while and sometimes they are straight up annoying. In the later part of the game you are suppose to shoot some ropes to get a spire to crash into a helicopter within a time limit. While doing this the game spawns in enemies just to annoy you. The task felt like a chore.


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 No.227751[Reply]

The world is increasingly becoming more and more hostile to wizards, non-neurotypicals, hermits, the disabled etc. and public opinion in the west practically desires salt mines or concentration camps for such human beings in a very veiled passive-aggressive way.

How are you dealing with the monster planet? I have a gut feeling I have less than 10 years before shit hits the fan. With the economic recession, even otherwise somewhat sane normies are openly posting their wishes of killing off marginalized people. And these people are a large political voting block.

 No.227753

Eh, It's not just random normies where I live (Europe).

Even my own parents are spouting right wing drivel and saying I'm basically unfit to exist (THEY created me and got me an autism diagnosis at age 6 and if I bring it up they simply say nothing and change the subject back to how I'm just lazy)

I definitely notice a change.

 No.227755

Welp. My own father have ruined my day yesterday because some of some investment advice.

 No.227756

I wouldn't mind being euthanized to be honest.

 No.227759

>>227756
There is a reason why it wont be legal and why suicide (very ironically) was a capital crime for thousands of years.

You are denying tax revenue and labor to the sociopaths who think they own you, like anonymous cattle to be farmed.


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 No.322862[Reply]

I played that Charlie UK game from Prevent. You know, the one with Amelia where you get referred to Prevent/Channel if you agree with the goth succubus saying chud shit. The game emphasized it was all "voluntary" several times, which made me a bit suspect. Seems like a weird thing to emphasize.

Then I did some reading on the Soviet system of crushing dissent at schools during the Brezhnev era, and compared it to the referral system they have in place in the UK for schools, and found it functioned basically the same. It even has the same name, and even repetitively called itself a voluntary referral.

Profilaktika (пpoфилaктикa) roughly translates to Prevent. The Brits were too fucking lazy to even use an original term. But just like Prevent in the UK, the Soviets for their kids had a "voluntary" referral system. Referrals were sent from the school, and the KGB would bring them in for a "voluntary" meeting. Except if you declined then another government department would come down and force an involuntary intervention. Often with a psychiatric angle I might add, you'd land a diagnosis of sluggish schizophrenia and they'd pill you into retardation. I went through a few of the websites associated with Prevent UK and they were emphasizing the association between political extremism and psychological deficiency (low self esteem, recent trauma, ect). So it seems to be converging on the psychiatric abuse as well, or at least has the potential to.
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 No.322866

They should make a game like this where the goal is to de-radicalize dangerous crabs to be peaceful volcel wizardchan users who accept their role in life.

 No.322867

Wow a stupid game everyone make fun of? This is just like that time in the soviet union where they kill people!

 No.322868

>>322867
It's like the time in the Soviet Union when they decided to stop killing people. This started in the Khrushchev era and became more refined and mellow during the Brezhnev era. The only two eastern bloc countries that didn't really rely too much on their respective Prevent systems were Romania and East Germany. East Germany leaned into Zersetzung (Decomposition/Disintegration), where they'd gaslight and abuse dissidents until they psychologically fell apart. Romania kept the Stalinist model and just had the Securitate turning up and threatening people directly.

It's not so much the game, it's more the other reading materials and propaganda for Prevent/Channel UK. There's an absurd emphasis on mental health and how it relates to political extremism. They like to imply that "radicalized" individuals are psychologically deficient in terms of self esteem, and they're just following a peer group to belong. They also link it to bullying and past traumatic experiences. It's pretty much the same way the Soviets framed it in that individuals are always influenced by an outside ideological contagion, although the mental health angle is a little different. I'd say the Soviet psychiatric abuse was a lot more sophisticated. The Soviets implied that "delusions of reform" were goo-goo gaa-gaa utopian thinking, and that the dissident suffered obsessive compulsive impulses that made him obsess over these utopian fantasies. They tied that to the obsessive thinking that is associated with early onset schizophrenia to imply that the dissident was going to further deteriorate into schizophrenia, and then forced a medical intervention that way.

The way this was revealed was westerners noticing that schizophrenia diagnoses in eastern bloc countries were significantly higher than everywhere else. The system was kept secret from the public until after the wall fell. Prevent referrals have been growing exponentially in number over the years, and in the UK it's 43% far right chuds getting done for being too spicy. Thinking immigration numbers are too high is considered a sign of political extremism in the UK now.

 No.322904

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>>322862

Have you played the expansion?

;)

 No.322905

Lemmings gonna lemming, 2020 corona hysteria proved to me that there is no hope for the great majority of humanity, they're gonna kill themselves and that's the end of it, you can laugh or cry about it it's up to you, I've been having a lot of yuks


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 No.296511[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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 No.305815

Bleach method sounds like that 4chad crap with crystal that would fuck your eyes and stomach but keep you alive in even more agony than already are my dream is sneaking into train tracks with headphones at max volume to avoid mutilation or failure at the last moment

 No.305916

Wild how on here 6 years ago during a depressive episode I tried to kill myself through freezing myself to death. I drove up the mountain with two bottles of vodka. This was during covid lockdowns.

I had a change of heart and was terrified and praying to god as I was driving back down. As the road was that slippery and I was sliding all over the ice.

It's wild to think that if I crashed and got stuck I probably would've died. I purposely went with no mobile phone and was only wearing a shirt and shorts.

I posted about it the whole time on here hysterically and got laughed at as a troll/attention seeker/whatever. I wanted to die at the time and was in pretty deep depression and terror.

I'm older now, I still feel suicidal but it's more in a "one day" sort of way. I've had a few cycles of getting close and then freaking out at the last minute.

 No.305917

>>305916
>I tried to kill myself through freezing myself to death
Your body would start shivering out of control, it is a terrible way to die.
>I drove up the mountain with two bottles of vodka
Alcoholic coma sounds much more comfy.
>I purposely went with no mobile phone and was only wearing a shirt and shorts.
Scary.

 No.305920

>>305022
Is "Gunshot of head" like a basic handgun to the head?

 No.305936

>>305920
reminder to never EVER shoot yourself on forehead like media bastards show it will fuck your face but you will still be forced to live by normies


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 No.34725[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Maybe this belongs more on /hob/ and if the mods agree I would hold no ill will for them for moving or deleting it but I recently got around to watching Serial Experiments Lain and wanted to find some other wizzards with good reccomendations for /dep/ anime. The ones of course given are succubi last tour and Lain. I would personally not count Watamote as it seems quite shallow and everything turns out fine in the end and whatnot. So what are some other anime, manga or light novels dealing with actual depression or schizophrenia and not in the mainstream boohoo am so sad way.
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>>44154
>I recommend Neia Under 7 if you want a more grounded but slightly upbeat anime.
I should. I've been meaning see more from Ueda and ABe's portfolios, but good art sort of intimidates me. It's hard to explain. I think part of it is knowing that once it's over that's it, and there's one less thing to look forward to.

>I also really love the suicide pact episode of Paranoia Agent/Shonen Bat.
It was a really good episode. There's an episode like it in Welcome to the NHK with similar themes too.
I still think about how nice the experience would be

>Perhaps my all time favorite anime would be Haibane Renmei. I rarely feel strong emotions but this one made me cry for days after watching it.
Haibane Renmei really is incredible. Reki in particular inspired me greatly for a long time and I still get that feeling when rewatching it. It's my second favorite only behind SEL, and I couldn't claim to place one above the other objectively. They're both masterpieces.

 No.44172

This theme haunts me from a time when I was a failure and no one could sympathize with me.

 No.44173

>>44146
a streamer was marathoning this one night and it looked so interesting but the shit I had to do at the time prevented me from following it. I was disappointed when I found it one of those animes that just end at a cliff hanger and refuses to elaborate.
>>44153
I like Texhnolyze vibe, but I could never get into this series. It's such a slow burn with odd visuals and weird jump cuts all I could follow is that it was about a boxer pinening after some succubus.

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Hold on but what about anime and manga that aren't just depressing but also try to convey something important? I mean, lain isn't pure depression, it's also trying to relay some ideas to you. Granted, I may still have no frickin clue whatsoever what the hell it is that it's trying to tell you, but there's definitely a message in there.
So yeah, what about anime or manga that both fits the atmosphere and the symbolism?

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>>44172
what changed?


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 No.41620[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

I see a lot of people being hyped about this anime. what makes it good? what males people watch it?
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>>44013
wtf is this nig talking about flat

 No.44023

>>44021
I mean look, I'm not a fan of the show and most modern animes are just crap to me, even if I like the character designs, but with Frieren, she's not just made to look sexy, she's not just made to look kawaii either, she actually makes you use your two bracrabls to try and find a reason why she looks the way that she does and blandness in terms of not being visually poppy is not always a bad thing and in many ways is a good thing if the character is still well designed regardless. Which is to say, it's a good thing (if there's actual subtlety) because the design isn't crude and obnoxious. Eventually the eyes get tired of all the bright colors being overused etc. She's a beautiful character and she's the only reason I have the slightest interest in that anime, is the characters visual designs and animation overall. A lot of modern animes are well drawn even if boring as hell

Although let me be clear, it's not just modern, most anime is boring asl, it's just there have been some insane leaps in quality that mostly happened in the 90s, I don't actually discriminate in time. Koe no Katachi was pretty good and really fucking well drawn.

TL;DR most/all modern anime is crap and the only REAL value of it is the visual art and Frieren is one such example of really great visual character design.

And for me she's the most cool for the fact that she's understated. Doesn't even look beautiful at first glance, but the more you look the more you appreciate. That's rare and almost never seen in anime. Like a succubus who you first thought was meh, but the more you look at her, the more you see something beautiful there. It's a real life phenomena, that's almost never replicated in fiction. Frieren captures it very very well.

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>>43501
>>43504
>>43508
>>43770
>>43777
>>43932
Thank you, Frieren. For teaching us about friendship. And racism.

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This scene was so strange

 No.44196

>>43500
It doesn't deliver on any of these promises at all. Everytime I hear praise about Frieren from a Frierenfag they sound like they're reading from the ad copy.


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 No.226692[Reply]

I think I've just realized a good reason to live.

I have /wiz/ardchan tier sex drive - as in very low

During my teens/20s I had stress so high I had no morningstaff (/dep/ tier past) - but I missed the part where I was supposed to end up a "crab".

All my /hob/ are computer-related, I don't really need too many "real stuff". In fact, I like "industrial" design or straight-up "rustical" crude design.

I dabble a little in /jp/ culture - as in 1950s-1980s, not just modern anime/games/both combined (Touhou Project) and pre-1885 times of samurai

and I have my own taste in /music/ - I have utilitarian preferences, such as commercial background music.


I think my consciousness would be quite useful as a template to copy and to install into various robot-like machines… y'know, it happens sometimes - it's VERBOTEN, ZAPRESHCHENO, PROHIBITED to make X, but there's an opportunity to get Y and upgrade it to something that's close to X. So hey, have fun cloning [and patching up?] my mind with additional knowledge, should manufacturing a strong AI from scratch und up prohibited.

Since I do not identify with seggs/gossip/"SUCCial lifey" and such, I have less problems than regular urban person all while I do not have the addendum of the beautiful divine nature of a proper hermit/monk/a high-composure person who keeps masking own feelings, not genuinely lacks them.
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>>227729
>"meat rots teeth"

Actually start eating meat first that isnt contaminated by industrial carcinogens and then make this comment.

 No.227737

>>227727
>Same for exercising, if you are a schizo loner living the ermit life, what the point of stressing your body into some intense exercice instead of just relaxing all day ?

Before giving you a little piece of hope, a little "glimmer" material. I'll remind you something. Here's how things were done back in the day of saint hermits like Seraphim Sarovsky: into the woods, but not the deep "innawoods", grow food, till the soil, but take some quests from locals nearby anyway.

 No.227738



>If civilisation wants to kill you someday for some reason, because you are consuming ressources or idk, its not like you can resist it anyway, even if you are fit, the modern weapons are way too powerful.

Look, there is a funny thing here that feels like a paradox.

Moravec's paradox (see in W.)
Basically, a human's *intuition* is harder for computers that any formal logic.
* Formal logic can be thrown into a CPU which compares lots of data, bit by bit, 0 vs 1
* GPUs mimic small areas of ones brain

Our generation still has some time by *combining* motorics, physical self-care, several areas of intelligence at once (drama, logic, rhethorics, visual calculus, conceptualization) and there's a room for *hunch*, making suggestions and such.


>>227727
Therefore, excercising to be ready to *fit* into some role of a… say:
* watchtower operator,
* a distant railroad station worker guy
* maybe a night shift security guy who spends his day in a dark box of a rented basement (preferrably vented)…
* maybe a night shift conveyor worker (bakery? Newspapers/magazines/books on demand maybe?) who can dodge coworkers' random small talks with little though-disrupting patterns

 No.227749

>>227727

>Media is no stimulation ? How consuming media is less a mental stimulation than learning new language or instrument, for instance ?

Barely if any, how much mental effort do you invest when you play games or watch some tv show compared to learning an instrument or a language? Everything is getting spoonfed, you can do these activities on autopilot, that reward is just the pleasure you feel at that moment and it's nothing productive.

> And another question for you, why someone who live out of society (socially isolated) since many years would be motivated to learn some new skills or knowledge that mostly only have value and uses in a social context, instead of just chilling consuming his favorite piece of media ?

> if you are a schizo loner living the ermit life, what the point of stressing your body into some intense exercice instead of just relaxing all day ?

You can just pick a topic that is less relevant in social contexts then. Instead of learning a new language, go for history, programming, etc.

As for exercising, you do it to have a better quality of life and stay healthy. And there are lots of solitary activities you can do that these exercises help with, such as cycling, hiking, etc. You'll need to build up your stamina for that.

 No.227750

>>227749
>Barely if any, how much mental effort do you invest when you play games or watch some tv show compared to learning an instrument or a language?
Just as much.
>spoonfed
Ever heard of "gamefication" techniques?



>As for exercising, you do it to have a better quality of life and stay healthy. And there are lots of solitary activities you can do that these exercises help with, such as cycling, hiking, etc.
Cycling is safer both as in free from street/park yobs chasing you AND free from "nice weather, huh? HUH!? HE-E-E-EY!?" thought-interrupting people.

>You'll need to build up your stamina for that
Stamina helps with everything, however, building up stamina also demands intuitive understanding of your body - not wrecking your leg joints, for example.


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 No.39502[Reply]

Official thread for all things Rozen Maiden related, don't forget to talk about the best succubus, desu!
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Desu thread? In my 2025? It's more likely than you think

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>>39660

Jealous… as in longing for attention from her beloved son?


Welp, me mum is longing for attention too, however, when I do give her attention, she goes mad ("too much"/"wrong time" in layman terms).

 No.44165

>>43946
suiseiseki…….
>>42089
suiseiseki……

 No.44167

>>41440
thank you for warning me the Alice game is dull crap.

>>43946
YA RLY

 No.44194

>>41440
shut up


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 No.227513[Reply]

BRAZILIAN POLITICAL PARTY WILL USE ESOCHANNEALOGY!
Do you remember Esochannealogy? The esoteric channer system? Developed by Anonymages?
If you don't remember: https://wizchan.org/b/res/1029560.html

I have good news for all of members of this forum! A Brazilian political party "Missão" (Mission) will use our system to promote Renan Santos in Brazilian presidential election!

https://missaoapoio.com.br/noticia/ascensao-esochannealogia-guerra-memetica

We did it!
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 No.227635

In the news again:
https://mysterylores.com/news/seven-masks-social-engineering-tools/

 No.227652

Based!

 No.227717

See it: Russia and China actually study Esochannealogy

Https://m.vk.com/wall-227641631_9574

https://propreparer.com/%E8%87%AA%E9%97%AD%E7%97%87%E5%8F%98%E8%A3%85%E7%9A%87%E5%90%8E%E5%A6%82%E4%BD%95%E6%89%93%E9%80%A0%E5%90%8D%E4%B8%BAesochannealogy%E7%9A%84%E5%85%A8%E7%90%83%E6%94%BF%E6%B2%BB/

We are in other news around the world too:

https://mysterylores.com/news/brazil-missao-esochannalogy-presidential-election/

https://mysterylores.com/news/seven-masks-social-engineering-tools/

 No.227722

The future is our.

 No.227744

>>227740
We are in a global lulz. If you aren't in it, you are a fucking normie.


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 No.222413[Reply]

So I'm "lucky" to live with my parents and leeching them off as a pathetic NEET.
If I go to work, how will that benefit me?
I won't be able to afford a new PC since it costs a shitton of money. Okay maybe I could afford a laptop for a black day when my PC dies.
I wouldn't be able to move out. I wouldn't be able to afford anything life-changing (education, flat, car).
Basically I wouldn't be able to afford anything. And additionally, I'd be incredibly suicidal like most of the day because i'm an autistic weak mentally pathetic NEET who can't survive society and work in the first place, anyway.

What are the pros towards trying to find a job as a 30+ years old NEET as opposed to trying to kill myself painlessly?
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>>227711
check out recent ssd and ram prices. hafta wait till the ai bubble is pricked.

 No.227713

>>227712
Either way commodities will probably not go down, they'll go up in price

 No.227715

>>227713
well in general it looks like we were born to live in dark times, but i'd really like to play some games with >15 fps before natural selection weeds me out. so yeah a computer is more important to me than commodities since i've no chance of survival anyway

 No.227718

>>227715
Well if you want to make money you should buy silver

I don't really play demanding games, I'm playing neo scavenger now, I only upgraded for more ram, I wanted to run my OS in ram completely, my PC from 2016 still works and it's in storage as a backup. Generally I build and configure my PCs to last 'on case of apocalypse scenarios' lmao

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>>227715
Random wizard here.
Look, just in case: 96 gb … no, 32 gb of DDR5 RAM apiece cost quite some money now, while games rarely use 96gb at once. Inb4 you dabble in big data AI, huggingface and such


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 No.8907[Reply]

Post soothing or calming BGM tracks from visual novels. It may have tones of joy or melancholy.
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Worms Feasting on Filth

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/games/

 No.63406[Reply]

I’ve come to believe that getting too emotionally invested in a video game can actually be risky. The more seriously you treat it, the more room there is for anger, frustration, and stress to creep in, especially when things do not go your way. What starts as entertainment can quietly turn into something that feels like an obligation or a test you are constantly failing. Playing casually, on the other hand, strips away most of that negativity. You still get the fun, the immersion, and the enjoyment, but without tying your mood or mental state to outcomes you cannot fully control. When the goal is simply to relax or have a good time, losses sting less, mistakes feel lighter, and the experience stays healthy instead of becoming emotionally draining.

This is why I now think it is better to avoid ranked modes or using video games as a way to prove skill for the sake of self worth. I used to play League of Legends extremely seriously, and at the time I genuinely believed that my rank said something meaningful about me as a person. The higher my rank climbed, the more validated I felt, and the lower it dropped, the worse I felt about myself. That mindset turned the game into a measuring stick for my value, rather than something I played because I enjoyed it. Looking back, it is clear how unhealthy that was, because no number on a ladder should have the power to define confidence or self respect. Keeping games casual helps maintain a clear boundary between who you are and how you perform in a virtual space, and that separation makes the experience far more positive and sustainable.

 No.63409

>>63406
this can even happen when you are not serious about the games you play. Many people who plays MMOs don't really enjoy them. It's either out of habit or sunk cost fallacy.
MMOs are built around this to retain players. But you can feel this dread from even non-MMO games. Think of all the games you bought in your life. Did you finish all of them because they were fun? Were there any games you finish because you see it as waste if you didn't? There were some games I bought that I only enjoyed for a few hours, then they starts to become boring but I force myself to finish them, because I already bought them.

 No.63431

Theres a fictional theory (Pelevin, "Batman Appolo" book) that our world isn't just built for loosh harvest but also involves improved loosh generation by making videogames and supereasy-to-access unsettling news


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 No.60983[Reply]

>build cheap PC to play the same old games i've been playing since i was 13
>PC died
>score a free new one from dad's friend who for some reason wanted to give me his high end PC for free
>rated as UFO on PC benchmark
>download tf2, l4d2, gmod, and a few other unnoteworthy, 10+ year old games
>Realize i can play any modern game at high settings
>wow, MK1.
>but its shit.
>doesn't look fun at all, looks even worse than the last
>in fact. all games look like shit
>load up gmod.
>yep. thats gmod.
>play for 12 mins.
>bored.

I've even thought of stooping to trying out anime games. Why is gaming so dead, bros? Everything is just chasing the shadow of the original IPs of the 2000s (halo, cod, gears, far cry) minus the soul, community and meta that made them good. Modern gaming is a sterile, soulless, monetized no-funfest.

How much longer can i play the same games? Where is the hope?
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 No.63411

If you have a powerful PC get into VR gaming. It literally transports you inside the game world giving you a sense of scale and you get actual depth perception. That is a game changer.

 No.63412

>>61013
why do you have an open book instead of reading it?

 No.63413

>>63410
1080 with 96gb of ram is such a waste

 No.63414

>>63413
Not as much as your life

 No.63430

I just realised I feel comfy enough to launch GTA:SA and drive some burgundy Tacoma sedan through the highways of Red Country or just roll around Grove Street


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