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 No.306157[Reply]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
ice cold edition
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 No.306222

>>306221
A respected musician and person. Not famous. Not wealthy. Respected… Probably sounds silly. Chronic illness makes this dream very blurry.

 No.306241

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Born with a learning disability(was hiki after dropping out of highschool), got cancer in my late twenties and then 12 infusions of chemotherapy over 24 weeks. 2 years later(in remission) I start hearing voices. Went into psychosis and after 7 different antipsychotics I ended up with my brain completely fucked. None of them helped me and I still hear voices occasionally.

I'm so fucking stupid now it's tragic. I don't know what to do wizzie. I can't remember shit. I can't do basic math. I can't read because I forget instantly whatever I put in front of my eyes. Tried to explain this to my therapist (parents asked me to go) and she just said "Hmm, perhaps you're self-sabotaging"

Voices still pop up randomly to call me a faggot or to say they will torture me for eternity. Tried to get a job online but focusing for more than 10 minutes wipes me out and I fucking fall apart.

Numb, can't jerk off. Can't feel my fucking dick. Can't focus, think, or even brush my teeth or take a shower. It's so fucking hopeless.

 No.306242

>>306220
>A hard fact to realize
takes twenties to get used to it

 No.306256

>>306218
I think thinking of yourself and human beings as cattle is destructive. This modern model of just getting a job and living month to month is anti-human and I don't see why society imposes this on itself. I don't get why the suicide rate isn't like 20 percent.
>>306222
Sounds nice. It's sad how sickness can suddenly rob you from your life.

 No.306264

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I absouletly have 0 idea on what to do, I only have confusion inside of my head, I do nothing aside of doomscrolling and masturbation the entire day, I even considered getting a job just to distract myself from the voice in my head and the soul crushing boredom.


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 No.305797[Reply]

I have a degree yet no work or even an internship called me, I have -3$ in my bank account, I tried even to think about relocating to another city to try work there yet no work there called me, And my family is very poor.

I don't even know what to do anymore
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 No.306259

>>306258
I don't even have a bare minimum as a dropout then. At least I always hated my field and knew I'd never work there, the only cope I got.

 No.306260

I did a year of math in uni and got quite high grades before intentionally dropping out and seeking neetdom. Also had some health issues. There is nothing you can do with a math degree except teach at high school or uni. The meme of some quant guy making lots of money is just a meme and is rare and requires further specialisation after getting a maths degree. Anyway I just avoid working altogether and will hang myself if I get into trouble, money or health wise

 No.306261

>>305797
hone your artist skills and draw gratuitous and conspicuous stuff

 No.306262

>>306260
How old are you?

 No.306263

>>306260
>There is nothing you can do with a math degree except teach at high school or uni.

You used to be able to get software developing jobs pretty easily with a Math degree during the boom periods, but I think that's gone now.


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 No.227944[Reply]

wizards, this is a truly important question. how do you tell your mom, or anyone else for that matter, that you are really not interested in whatever female they think you should "befriend"?

i know you're going to troll me, but i still kindly ask you to find a second and think about what could be the *optimal* solution. the solution that doesn't burn bridges, doesn't create bitter enemies and yet lets you maintain the high ground. i know this is not fully achievable, but there gotta be an algorithm or something.

my brain just crashes in such situations. it's like "idk wtf are you're even talking about???" i need help

 No.227945

>>227944
My parents especially my father always thought I was super weird and he thought I was gay too. I explained to him clearly at some point that I wasn't, showcased some of the tamer parts of my 2D collection too.
So later on at family gatherings whenever the topic came up I'd just casually said "oh I'm gay actually".
Then my parents would deny it and explain it away as a joke because I'm not "at the stage of my life to care".

My extended family and everyone we know is extremely homophobic, considering it's eastern europe so dropping that really made people uncomfortable since shit talking fags, minorities or jews is what most talks devolve into once people had their fill of local gossip.

I'd make remarks about the men present if someone tried to pester me to make them uncomfortable.
I guess if you do it in a flat tone, stone faced they get the message and drop the issue.
Some present would later rib the ones I mentioned about it. So if you didn't want to be the next potential target of the losers affections you'd shut the fuck up about it.

I don't really know what they think or what my parents later told them because everyone stopped mentioning shit like this to me.
I haven't been disowned or denied help either it just became clear that the topic is taboo. So no bridges burnt.

This obviously requires that your family at least somewhat cares about you or has to maintain an outward appearance of such. Basically saving face.

 No.227946

>>227945
>Some present would later rib the ones I mentioned about it. So if you didn't want to be the next potential target of the losers affections you'd shut the fuck up about it.
i'm dum and didn't get this part at all


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 No.227929[Reply]

Norms, notions and behaviors they have that annoys you.

>Never argue with your critics or openly dismiss them
Their blood seems to almost always boil when you openly disagree or argue back against their point of view. They seems to just expect you to just nod along and agree(even if it's dishonestly).
Even if they deliverer their criticism rudely they expect you to still be polite with them.
Been told that snarky responses to people's criticism like
>I don't care go fix it yourself if you have a problem with it!
>Rich coming from an amateur like you, I like to see you do better!
>Who cares about what you have to say? Shove it up your ass!
>If you don't like it then do something else!
Will just ensure no one will bother to be honest with you, if they see you do something that is bad/wrong they will keep their mouth shut or lie saying you're doing great and hope you sabotage for yourself.
For a while I bought this. However, it just lead to people daring to be more rude with me. Eventually lead me to snap and revert to my old behavior. Then people started to choose their words more carefully when they talk to me.
Most of the time their criticism isn't even constructive, it's just them wanting you to cater to their preferences. So far this "antisocial" behavior haven't cause me any harm.
This is just some bollocks normies made up, because they don't like when people disagree or argues with them. They just want to be "right" without any push back.
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 No.227934

>>227932
then don't? shove your shits back into your ass and fuck off.

 No.227940

>>227934
it's more interesting to let you know that i don't don't give a shit about your obsession with "normies".

 No.227941

>>227940
You can keep your shit inside your ass forever, for all I care.

 No.227942

>>227941
sorry i spilled some of it in your thread accidentally. ironically, this is a normie behavior i hate. i'm such a bad person…

 No.227943

>>227933
They value only their perspective
"freedoom of my speech" Normies are very self centered. They blindly conceive themselves as the base of everything


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 No.305691[Reply]

Every single place is dominated by "dis why you don't have a succubus or a toilet or whatever". Every single place is dominated by toilets, simp men (across the political aisle), and normies in general.

There are extremely few only-male places left. They invaded anime, gaming, F1. And their only accomplishments is being pretty and having a blown-out hole in between their legs. Because of which they coast through life in tutorial mode.

Now, as much as we don't like involuntary celibates or crabs here, the bottom line is they were an all-male community for the most part. And yet they have been banned from every part of the internet.

And very few only-male places actually survive. This is an example of that but the problem is this chan is more or less nearing death and if not there aren't many people here.

Half of the crab websites have being pulled down. And one that exists most of it userbase say that they are "more racist than misogynist", so here we go again there aren't any male-only places left and which are left are STILL dominated with other forms of intra-male competition.

And guess what there are very few men left who don't worship succubi, sure not all are "liberals" but even most conservatives worship succubi in their own way. This is genuinely horrible. I have no place to go.

I have legitimately no idea why normies thought that it was a good idea to let succubi out of their house. Fuck them. Fuck succubi. Fuck men. Fuck simps. And Fuck 99% of the planet.

I hope that mutts, slavs, jeets, chinks, kikes, crackers, niggers, faggots, all start launching their nuclear weapons and put an end to this bull shittery that's been going on. Put an end to this faggotified planet. There's literally no place left for me to go.
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 No.306236

>obsessing over normie culture instead of disengaging and getting comfy with anime/video games or neeting

 No.306238

>>306236
Anime is mainstream now, and so are video games. Those hobbies are pretty normie coded now, since nobody gatekept enough.

 No.306251

>>306238
thank you for informing me. last anime I watched was ElfenLied, an early 2000s anime. Had to hunt down an uncensored version. I can hardly imagine normies being into this kind of stuff. I bet they watch only the most "top of the iceberg" stuff like Attack on Titan and those shitty westernised "animes" on Netflix.

 No.306252

>>306251
https://www.netflix.com/tudum/articles/anime-on-netflix

l m a o

 No.306257

>I hope that mutts, slavs, jeets, chinks, kikes, crackers, niggers, faggots, all start launching their nuclear weapons and put an end to this bull shittery that's been going on. Put an end to this faggotified planet. There's literally no place left for me to go.
I feel this to my core. Been waiting for the nukes to drop since forever. Yet I'm still here. Starting to think they never will. Clown world continues unabated while I grow older and more miserable. Sigh.


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 No.322915[Reply]

Based God has finally gotten around to killing Fred Brennan, who should never have been born at all to begin with
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 No.323021

>>323003
Seconded

>>322995
>>322996
>Crabs
Wizards come from anime and channer culture and crabs come from failed male feminists who got bitter over years. The identity was invented by a feminist.

Calling men in male spaces crabs judges them by womens standards and is crab itself.

 No.323056

he made the 2010s more fun for me that's for sure. Seemed he turned into a freaky piece of shit, to be expected really. I was in high school during the 8 chan founding and saw so many graffiti about it there lol.

Also that carl sherbune guy died, he was an attention whore but i sure did love how angry he'd get the normies

 No.323057

>>322996
>Crabs choose to be a virgin. It's a choice
>crabs choose not to have a gf and sex

sounds like you're retarded

 No.323119

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Its now weeks later and I'm still elated over learning the news about doorstop's demise.

 No.323120

>>322915
People who don't like Fred Brennan are not white. If you happen to be white, then your white status gets revoked! You are now a honorary non-white!


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 No.306232[Reply]

You guys ever feel like you fucked up somewhere a long time ago,

and now you're living the bad version of the live you were supposed to have?
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 No.306244

I think this is my final path. the aeons before i choose lust, the chase, religion, ego. But this path, it is absolute rejection of this reality. No coming back to the false light. So no, i've arrived.

 No.306249

>>306234
Lol back in 2010 90% of people laughed at Buttcoin for being a retarded idea. You have to remember it wasn't advertised as a store of value, libertarian types were genuinely wanting to use it to buy pizza and drugs and other shit.

The reasoning was that if it ever got big as a currency, the federal government would shut it down as being an illegal competing currency (like they did to liberty dollar, they shut that down hard in 2009).

 No.306253

not even a bad version, completely stolen by health problems and gross people
only really started to comprehend what i would do with my life near the end, which is coming soon by suicide
at least i'm not like those gross people

 No.306254

>>306234
This is why I'll never touch crypto.
I had the same opportunity.
Sites were giving it away for free basically or for seeding shit.
I ignored it.
I have been signaled by life in so many ways to get on it, but I too was way too defeated by then.
I could have had a golden life if I put in a TINY bit of effort. If I too a summer job during my college larp decade instead of bedrotting.

Oh well. Those 10k+ hours of league of legends ruining my body is a close second too.
Both give this sinking feeling in my stomach whenever I think of it. Kinda feels like a losers version of ptsd.

 No.306255

Complete waste but to be fair all life is a complete waste so there's nothing to gain but nothing to lose. Death is the big equaliser and maybe one should be more humble about it but that's difficult in a world full of people without any intent or capability of introspection and self entitled know-it-all system apologizing normalfags.


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 No.42254[Reply]

I haven't watched the Pokemon anime in a long time, is there anything truly worth going back to, or is it all just blind nostalgia? I'll occasionally read news about the series, like how Ash finally won the Pokemon league, and has at long last been written off the show. Honestly, I lost interest in the anime after the infamous XYZ meltdowns and subsequent Sun and Moon seethe. Nothing will ever top that.
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>>43974
>What's up with these in Japanese media recently? Back then there were blacks in media that were just black.
You get it when even The Boondocks are a more real and human form of supposed black media portray of black-americans.
The portray of blacks in media its more like a racist joke than the boondocks at this point lol

 No.44037

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>>44034
lmao what'd you name Dawn though. Is picrel is the right choice?

 No.44038

>>44037
She was only 10 you sick fuck! She had only JUST set out on her Pokemon adventure!

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I was almost in my mid-30s when I realized Team Rocket's bumbling obsession with catching Pikachu was the "cat and mouse game" trope

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>>42254
Anyone think Ash's mom and Mr. Mime explored each other's bodies?


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 No.322107[Reply]

Recently, a bunch of CCP bugs have been flooding my country and subverting everything. Literally every house in the Canadian real estate market is owned by these bug people and they straw buy these houses as a front for their fentanyl drug money laundering so that Canadians can't buy homes. Not only that but more of them are lobbying our governments and taking jobs from Canadians. We're literally having a chinkpocalypse right now.
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 No.322389

>>322387
China is under jewish control.

The only "peril" attaching to China is whether the jews in control of that country choose to pivot it against any one of their western puppet states (US, UK, etc.).

WAKE UP WIZARDS!

https://big-lies.org/jews/how-jews-took-over-china-josh-2021.html


Jews trigger wars based on 30-year saturnian revolution cycles. WW1 (1910s), WW2 (1940s), Vietnam (1970s), Iraq (2000s)…We are fast approaching another goyish sacrifice party aka war.

 No.322429

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>>322389
Meanwhile I feed my family of retired people

 No.323111

>>322117
Fucking kikes..
Good observation. I was just watching the movie the other day.

https://www.reddit.com/r/shittymoviedetails/comments/l02tzx/in_the_departed_2006queenan_says_that_the_united/


USA is under a jewish dictatorship
Russia has been under total jewish control since 1918
Ukraine is obviously the Jewkraine
China fell many decades ago (as above proved)
Iran fell to (((CIA))) in 1979.

Jews need to be stopped. They are playing the goyish nations against each other like mindless drones.

 No.323114

I like China, they're an old civilization

I dislike the US on the other hand

Also I like ali express

 No.323118

>>322320
It depends, like half intermarry with white people and assimilate over the course of 30-60 years. The other half literally live self-segregated lives, insist that their social circles and families remain pure Chinese, have a belief in the one drop rule for racial purity, and will be loyal to mainland China over their host society.

A half Chinese guy I know who gets confused for Chinese tells me that they are constantly talking shit about white people.


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 No.306131[Reply]

Never look for psychiatric help, expecially as an addict. It was the worst mistake I ever made in my life. I got addicted to ultra high doses of xanax 8-10x over maximum, and when I tried to get help, instead of tapering me which is what they do in every civilized country, they took me from 30 to 0 in a day. I had stroke symptoms, 60/40 bpm, i was teleporting in real life, i couldnt talk think or know what day it is, function or do anything. I spent 3 days falling on my knees under the doctor's office in the psychiatric hospital and got treated like an annoying fly. I wanted to call an ambulance to take me out of there, i called an ambulance on myself because I thought I had a stroke when I ran away out of my drugs, but nobody ever checked nor was interested in anything. My doctor was an ukrainian piece of shit that treated me like shit under his shoe. After 12 days in psychiatric prison i barely escaped by pretending to get better, and spent 3 weeks in a psychosis despite taking antipsychotics and antiseizure meds, i felt 24/7 heart attack, stroke and epilepsy symptoms. I also lost feeling in my body, i had visual, auditory, time perception problems, became and invalid that couldnt move or pick up a paper, eat, swallow, feeel thirst, pee, lost ability to control my muscles. If i took a bath i would swallow all the water and not feel it, i hit my head on everything and didnt even feel it, i could punch walls and not feel if i broke my bones. When I went to a private psychiatrist to get help, she saw me and said she doesn't deal with this and kicked me out the door after 30 seconds without letting me explain a single thing. I lost my mind, it has been completely destroyed and ruined to the point there's nothing left. After 5 weeks of this treatment and choking on water I thought i'll die anyway so I went back to my drugs and after taking 1 pill I got a better remission and improvement than over a month of their psychiatric treatment. I could actually feel things and i wanted to cry from happiness. But it was all temporary, and in the end i went back to my old habits, but now, they ruined it so that I get every single side effect from the drug that I never had before despite taking the same amount for a year straight. My physical health has also completely collapsed, I was unable to take a bath for a month, shave, eat, think, time moved 100x times slower and I experienced hell on earth worse than being torturted alive with worst cia methods. Now I have nothiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.306136

Are you the benzo guy?
I am dying too and I found out in my last days I just look for some sense of peace and warmth, even if rage is justified.
your post reads like a typical drug addict death spiral.

 No.306176

Never try Xanax, not even once

 No.306245

>>306132
not even the 2000th worth story if you browse benzo withdrawal forums

That he's still alive to post on the net is a miracle, you don't cold turkey people taking high dose benzos.

 No.306248

>>306245
Completely agreed.
But what do you expect from modern doctors trained in the (((Rockefeller))) model of medicine? They're vicious fucking brainwashed idiots generally without any sympathy for the "patients" they're tasked with seeing.

>My doctor was an ukrainian piece
Are you sure that "ukrainian" doctor wasn't a kike?

Psychiatry in particular is a nasty jewish fraud whose tricks ensnare well-meaning but naive people (ie, they're unfamiliar with the pharmacologic grade of the drugs they use, they're unfamiliar with the consequences both immediate and chronic of these drugs, they don't understand that most psychiatrists are conditioned communistic stewards of the state without any real curative intent in their thoughts, etc.).

>I want to murder people that did this to me but the only person I can kill is myself.

Definitely do not do this. Regain yourself to a calmer state of mind and perceive that this would be a wrong choice.

>My physical health has also completely collapsed, I was unable to take a bath for a month, shave, eat, think, time moved 100x times slower and I experienced hell on earth worse than being torturted alive with worst cia methods.

Are you familiar with akathisia? This is a common sequela for those that taper too quickly off of tranquilizers/anti-anxiety meds like benzodiazepines. It can be bettered with time and nutrition. Do not despair. Your brain may be able to restored to its original healthy condition. I've personally had success with recovering from ssri usage (mostly through time, taking of anti-serotoninergic agents, better diet, exercise). I trust you can have the same.

 No.306250

>>306131
Your too far gone. any solution that we could propose to you will be ridiculous.


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 No.224780[Reply]

Should I take the Catholic pill?

They seem to genuinely respect Wizards and have a tradition of hermits. Their priests are a celibate ruling class.

I didn't grow up around Christians but it seems like the difference between them and other Christians is that they're the original church together with the lesser known Orthodox Church.

I don't get all the rules they have though. You shall attend Mass on Sundays and holy days of obligation and rest from servile labor. You shall confess your sins at least once a year. You shall receive the sacrament of the Eucharist at least during the Easter season. You shall observe the days of fasting and abstinence established by the Church. You shall help to provide for the needs of the Church, each according to his or her own ability.

I'm overwhelmed. I get why people just go with the DIY protestant approach but it seems like if the Catholics are one of the original churches Jesus said was legit then it's a safer bet.

Look I don't get how there can be a miracle like resurrection either and frankly all the Abrahamic religious miracles seem really underwhelming compared to the wild stories of Hindu gods. But so many people believe in Christianity from a Pascal's wager perspective it seems like I might as well consider it.

At least it'll make me feel like I'm less LARPing some fantasy wizard and instead I'll seem like a faithful religious hermit which gets more respect points
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 No.227875

>>227872
>Some obscure breakfast question
I heard a guy got permabanned by the jannies for posting too many gems on corruption

 No.227876

>>224780
I entered the Church back in like 2018 though I haven't gone that consistently because I can't handle being around people. I started going as a neet who had 0 exposure to religion at all before that. All the rules and stuff can seem pretty overwhelming but in catholicism they require you take like a year of sort of introduction/classes before you join, if you are curious go they make sure you only join if it makes sense you won't get pushed into it.

The rules generally make sense once you go back, just as an example I haven't gone in a bit but because of the things like confession and the specific ritualized practices of when you should go and what you ought to do it gives you a normal to return to. Even if I'm not going I have a clear direction of the baseline I ought to be doing.

For Catholicism in particular what interested me about it is the idea we can sort of come up with our own theology by reading something makes no sense, the only way you could have a coherent revelation if it wanted to be understood is through an authority who maintains it, because language is not actually that determinate.

 No.227885

>>224780
it's one of the world's oldest ponzi schemes, so would probably appeal to the gullible shutins of this board

 No.227886

God's first command to humans was "go forth and multiply". By being wizards God already hates us.

 No.227926

>>227886
God is a nigga


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 No.227891[Reply]

Why don't you have a tulpa, anon?
You can cheat yourself out of loneliness by fostering a loving relationship with an imaginary friend.

Benefits of a tulpa,
>You can choose any shape or form for her.
>You will never feel alone.
>She will always show unconditional love.
>She will always follow you around.
>You can have sex without losing your virginity powers or contracting STDs.
>Costs absolutely nothing.
>Basically the 'ultimate' form of a waifu.
The only negative is the social stigma, which you can easily avoid by not revealing your powerlevel.

It was the best decision of my life. It feels so good to have someone take care of you, compliment you and physically comfort you.
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 No.227916

>>227915
>I've heard it takes months to develop one
The language around development is always unclear. "Develop" may mean making first steps, it may also mean getting to a point where you're comfortable with calling yourself someone who has a permanent tulpa.

 No.227917

>>227916
Makes sense. Lots of guides are rather criptic and full of quasi Buddhist woo woo, and some of them make tulpamancy more confusing than it actually is. I found the process rather straightforward even if it feels like I'm crawling in the dark since I don't have a benchmark to compare myself to.
Anyway, I also should mention that I can sense her and actively force her only when I'm semi-conscious in bed, otherwise I can't feel her in my daily life. I tried to get up and drink some water during my forcing session, and I wasn't able to feel her in the kitchen even though her presence was strong when I was all comfy in bed.

 No.227918

>>227917
Yeah, I don't like the woo, either.
It's relatively obvious that tulpas are just self-hypnotisation.

She'll definitely develop more autonomous as you go.
In my case, she can catch me off-guard if she wants to.

 No.227920

>>227907
On the "wizards" in this very thread trying to conjure up fantasy succubi to love them?
Every guy here trying to sub-partition their brain to turn into a female apparition?
Sure I'm projecting.
I'm projecting the image of a bunch of pathetic crabs in my head right now.

I guess violating yourself isn't really rape so my bad. Reminds me of all the japanese cuck fantasies of being the savior of some sex slave that then develops "true love".
Probably the most pathetic usecase for this tool if you are going to bother at all regardless.

 No.227924

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This is basically glorified imagination masturbation. Im glad a wiz like me has the means to get over these things.
Now getting on topic a better tulpa would be one that can change and do anything at command, dont bother yourself with giving it shape or anything.
A tulpa that can change voice and image along personality 100% solos low diff any other tulpa even if they are just pretending.
See imagine one like a big net of dots representing neurons and stuff, imagining floating over me always present in the background but i look up there it is. And stimulate it to make it bigger and complex, like developing a brain, since you cant develop yours. It would be cool to get insight from this creature. Im aware that they can make you feel stuff at will so i guess its hundred percent possible and capable of accessing brain emotions. Im 60% sure all of this is possible. This is so wow. Tulpas are gods basically. Although im more concerned on if they are capable of observing bodily functions since im busy dissolving pressure on my brain and tension on my body so if they can help with developing sensibility on my energy system that would be a plus.


/wiz/

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 No.226854[Reply]

How's aging going on for fellow wizards?
Do you feel more tired, slow, fatigued, depressed?
What are some changes you've noticed besides the physical, changes in your lifestyle or way of thinking?

Pic related, the AVGN
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 No.227890

>>226854
I recently turned 30, it's alright, mentally I am a lot better than as a teenager or in my early twenties. I'm ok with existence of waging and spending most free time on video games, I don't really get bored that much. I fear more for the future, like if my health deteriorates and I wouldn't be able to sustain myself financially anymore.

I'm starting to go bald but it's kinda whatever because it's not like it matters. I have started to develop some heart related problems but it's recently in remission after I quit caffeine.

 No.227904

>>227869
I've never seen such a young man!

 No.227921

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>>227883
I'm short, usually when I go to the inner city I wear a hoodie and always have my old school backpack filled with stuff I might need, or in case I need to carry something home that I buy.

Usually in this region some classes require some school/groups to move to a gym or an outdoor football field or something so they walk through the city in a line with 2 people / row if that makes any sense.
Teacher usually at the front and at the back herding them.
So whenever they go the same route I do they just pass me because I'm slow.
Now due to my height even current zoomer middle schoolers let alone high school kids are taller or my height.
Well that used to be the case, but lately I notice even most young succubi are taller than me.
Idk what they put in the zoomers school lunch if they still get any.
Well anyways…

I had on more than one occasion been mistaken by teachers as a straggler kid.
At one point one succubus just shouted at me "don't fall behind" and grabbed me by my arm at or under my elbow and started dragging me.
Then she looked back and got visibly shaken seeing my patchy unkempt beard and whatever else I shan't describe.
Her face was like 30cm away from mine at that point too.
I reckon a haunting memory for her as well.

Not only do I have to suffer a grim reminder that my body is full of ailments, never having experienced the spark of life and the joys of youth as I spent it all frivolously rotting away…
I also have to suffer such humiliation because of an underdeveloped body.

 No.227922

>>227890
>I'm starting to go bald but it's kinda whatever because it's not like it matters. I have started to develop some heart related problems but it's recently in remission after I quit caffeine.
Just turning 30 in 2 months and same here.
I quit caffeine after a bp emergency a year ago too.

I worry about sustaining myself in the future since I can't really do labor jobs and the world looks kinda grim.
Not really sure how I will go about finding my next job if this inevitably goes away eventually. Hope I can still last a year or two here.
This is the worst part of being a wizard I think.

Normies have their families and friends too that check on them and people they can rely on like kids after their decline.
I have a pretty fucked back and neck, especially the neck part.
One of my fears is that if the herniated disc slips and I end up paralyzed nobody will even find me until I starve to death or rot in my own piss before I pass…
I set up this "hey google" spyware thing just in case such a thing happens. It can make a call at least.

Do you plan to end things if you can no longer sustain yourself or will you just go homeless and see how that goes? I don't have the balls to even think of dying for too much myself.

Oddly enough I'm also mostly at peace with what I got and what my life amounted to. It's just that future suffering on the horizon is getting ever clearer.

 No.227923

>>227922
>hey google" spyware thing
good idea


/dep/

 No.301895[Reply]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.305773

>>305763
the point is that these options are not prepared pasta types continent of wheat or arsenic-laden rice. carbohydrate-dense repasts set together from non-wheaten non-rice sources are fine but not always easy to identify or make…and in any case the eating of pig or the skin of a pig is never healthy.

 No.305795

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binge drinking recently broke me out of a pretty bad depressive episode.

 No.305828

>>305763
AFAIK, "carb heavy" foods differ in terms of digestion speed though.

 No.306074

>>305795
don't over-do.

 No.306247

>>304793
Do you follow this diet?


/dep/

 No.306246[Reply]

39chan is a fucking shithole lol lmao even
Fucking vocaloid degenerates fuckin troons

/hob/

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 No.65927[Reply]

Here we discuss and speak of dreams that we had or the kind of dream that we would want.
We don't discuss of lucid dreaming.
I wanted to make this kind of thread as i do control them in how they will work but once inside i let the dream go and work his own doing.
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 No.70326

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Had a dream

one of the picrelated kept looking at me with her signature look - "cold, piercing, but if you get to know her you'll know its not coldness at all".

She said something "normal", small-talky to me, but I didn't rush to a notebook to write it down so now… I have to say - I don't remember.

 No.70399

Any notable dreams from childhood? I probably had this dream when I was around 4.

I was alone on this deserted island made out of ice/snow. It wasn't cold, and I wasn't worried. I was alone which I loved. It started raining toys, and at the time I was extremely into my matchbox and hotwheels cars, also had water guns falling from the sky. Had to have been the best dream I've ever had

 No.70402

I sometimes get these dreams where I'm a giant spider crawling around old victorian mansions and stalking random people there. But I always wake up before I get the jump on someone.

>>70326
Comfy

 No.70437

Nightmare. Cute 2d happy succubus was dancing some classic dance solo at the stage. I was looking from the crowd. She looked like Saber (not exact). The crowd was cheering. It looked like she won something. Then a sofa appeared, it was there unnoticed. A man who looked like a pirate or some filthy baron from France of some past century with dark hair and maybe whiskers with a boner sat there and said something about liking her. Next I saw her standing bended over with her arms in the air incapacitated by a rope or something. She's crying in the dark near a window or a hole for a window while it's implied that's she's getting raped. Her first time too. It was gut-wrenching and painful to watch so I woke up.

 No.70438

I had this weird dream years ago where I was in this large pit kind of area, I was looking for a way out. The sky was red above, everything was basked in this dysty red glow. There was a dog with me that had a shiny mirror like coat of fur, i felt glad that he was there, he told me his name was 'murky' and it seemed important to remember his same for some reason

I think he talked to me telepathically but he was able to alter reality in the dream and I was able to escape thanks to that


/wiz/

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 No.227908[Reply]

It's official. Sexbots are almost* here.

Would you guys sexbotmaxx or remain a pure Wizard?

 No.227909

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 No.227910

>THE CURE FOR WIZARDRY
>implying wizardry is an ailment, not a choice

 No.227911

I'd rather just have a robot maid to mutely clean up after me then quietly go back to its closet when it's done the housework.

 No.227914

i am my own sexbot mister i-cant-do-magic

 No.227925

stupid thread


/lounge/

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 No.321588[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

No politics or religion in the crawl thread, please.

>Ambient sounds to wash away distraction
https://asoftmurmur.com/
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 No.322902

>>322897
>The normies on social media are fucking lying to each other
I agree but what hurts the most is the lack of rational thought these beings have, you cannot criticize life without being targeted as a pessimist/mentally ill/deranged person, pro-suicide thoughts are straight up banned or censored

 No.322967

Not sure if this is the right thread because it's porn related, but jesus christ, the combination of porn and social media has basically broken people's brains.

 No.323115

CamScanner — empty gaps between letter elements. Vflat — no such thing but the letter elements can get merged making a figure that's not a letter. OCR would make a different look. In the end, it's either: 1) compression leads to noise around the text; 2) Microsoft Paint fucks up tifs so that they don't open no more and can't be changed to other format neither manually nor online (happened after I somehow managed to edit 4 MB tif received from ScanTailor); 3) no compression — more than 50 MB for a 403-paged book; 4) using CamScanner means editing manually due to no autofocus with edits being visible when it's pdf, or 5) 300 dpi setting leads to shitty quality.

Huge weight, shitty quality, no opportunity to open the file. Having a scanner may be an exit, mine is dead. Polarization through GIMP using BIMP leads to bad shape of signs, binarization through BookRestorer has more black dots and stuff to edit. Asking my mother to grab the books could lead to her being fired even though everybody does that, but in this case it would mean piracy scandal (negligence about family member's piracy). I don't remember if results after BookRestorer were of bad quality or huge weight conundrum. I did it before with the same result. Should've mote it down as a reminder not to waste my time. Adobe Scans — same shit, geometrical straightening is needed afterwards unlike with CamScanner and Vflat. The latter is the best but for personal use, just like all of them.

 No.323116

>>323115
Using GIMP to edit instead of Paint still leads to noise after compression or big weight. I tried putting polarized photos from CamScanner and it was not much noise and good compression and I could use GIMP to edit. However, the edits were of shitty quality due to CamScanner being worse and me making visible manual edits. Also that would take much time. Why did it previously worked fine with CamScanner, then polarization, then binarization through ScanTailor, then pdf, then further compression is a mystery to me. Perhaps the resolution ended being higher. I'm sure I tried the same with vflat using GIMP instead as Paint was impossible (uploading tif would show error). To no avail, either big size or shitty quality. Now that I think about it, I might've been just lucky with the files I had checked as tifs. Hence why all of them worked without an error. Another coincidence is that it's the same as the last time: I edit big file with freezes on my old laptop in MS Paint, next time uploading tifs shows error. Different things were done about it. Resizing jpgs in GIMP would turn them grey, compressing a would give them white stripes. To the extent that I found necessary to resize and compress.

Vflat has Deblur that is a pid feature. The letters slightly got some white gaps in between them. But I have 403 pages and that's just one book out of 10-15 (children's encyclopedias). Even if I get a cracked version that maybe would work, it uses AI which is bad for ecology especially with the images. It took long for one image too. And the quality/size aspect would be the same problem. 600 dpi output was better than 300 dpi. For some reason, I notice it with vflat but not with CamScanner polarized photos. Perhaps due to initial resolution being bigger.

 No.323117

>>323116
*paid. I could do the same thing to vflat to have almost the same thing as with polarized photos to have a bigger resolution. I did that and the quality of lettering was worse than in vflat images before polarization. It wasn't sharp, it was "torn". Whether I did pdf creation and compression, I don't remember. But the results were bad. I thought about making 75% as default (later 50,3%) after opening, but it was very bad and very visible. On the side note, I installed something from Microsoft official site on my pirated Windows 7 and it didn't crash (unlike when I updated pirated Windows XP from SP2 to SP3). It was necessary to run ScanTailor which means previously I used an earlier version of it. Today, on this final decision day, after God knows how many years, Acrobat Reader updated itself successfully on my laptop. Hurrah! After all it's failures throughout the years.


[Last 50 Posts]

/dep/

 No.306061[Reply]

I got summoned to jury duty. I am depressed and socially anxious, probably have avoidant personality disorder. It is asking me if I have a disability that prevents me from completing jury duty and I honestly don't know how to answer that. If I couldn't handle college and I can't handle employment because I'm too mentally ill, why would jury duty be any different? I kind of feel like it would be possible just unpleasant, but then I also wonder if I can physically force myself to show up and that I'm less sure of.

I have to ask my doctor to tell them I'm disabled though and then that would be weird. How are you supposed to know if you just have mental illness or if you are disabled by that mental illness?

 No.306063

>How are you supposed to know if you just have mental illness or if you are disabled by that mental illness?
If you're cognizant enough to ask this, then you're very likely not mentally ill. The entire prospect of 'mental illness' is not being able to introspect and be concerned with ideas related to your own capability or the consequences of being placed in an uncomfortable situation. You can try to claim some sort of social disorder such as social anxiety, but that's a learned disorder not inherent to some sort of physical ailment of the brain, so the government might not care. Don't fall for the "I'm forever helplessly mentally ill because I don't particularly enjoy being in crowded places" ruse. By all means fake it to get out of jury duty, but don't willingly lower your own expectations of yourself because some memelords online have convinced you that you're braindead in spite of you proving yourself able to communicate functionally.

 No.306130

>>306061
Never go to the psych ward or be blatantly honest with a therapist. These people are quick to deem you mentally adjudicated (incompetent) and will fuck you over for life.

Just because society socially ostracizes you doesn't mean you're mentally ill necessarily; it's a negative feedback loop.

All they'll do is gaslight you and project onto you. If you do need to seek out help from them, attempt to be as relatively neurotypical and politically correct in a nuanced way as possible, and pretend that their shit advice is somehow a groundbreaking revelation of self-awareness.

 No.306138

I think this is obvious unless you are truly delusional, or too retarded to realise you are retarded. I would avoid this jury stuff anyway, even when you interact with the court system in a good way these things somehow always bring bad stuff in your life

 No.306193

I know I must be developing schizophrenia. I am seeing plenty of visual hallucinations such as animals like cats and dogs that don't belong to me playing in my house, seeing massive spills of juice on the floor then it fades away after a minute. However the thing that gets me are the little things that aren't interesting enough to be noted as fake, such as hearing a knock on the door or a phonecall which really irritates me. At least I'm not seeing demons and believe the government is trying to kill me like my mother gets

 No.306227

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>>306193
I’m schizoaffective and also suffer with hallucinations. I have subtle hallucinations such as the ceiling fan sound can merge with voices, it gives off the feeling of being in the interrogation room from COD: Black Ops.
I have hallucinations where I can telepathically hear people’s inner monologue. There’s plenty other stuff but what makes it worse is that I lost my inner monologue after using copious amounts of psychedelics, so I’m stuck with these voices and intrusive thoughts without any room for my own.

It’s fucking over


/lounge/

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 No.305804[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Discuss the Christian faith (or theology in general).

How has God helped you in your life?
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 No.322856

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>>305804
I Study Western Esoterism as hobby and Christianity is in all places in same way with Judaism, and Islam sometimes.
I dont read the bible but sometimes i like to read the no-faith academics of the bible and atheists.
I like the critical theory method scholars and the orange-german school of the bible.
>So you're a atheist
No, maybe a agnostic.
I dont believe the modern church of the pope or the modern protestant churchs are the true and original ideas of jesus, if that dude existed as the book portray him (or various jesuses, ignoring that people have genuine belief that the guy existed like its a historical perfectly portrayed guy or just have faith)
To me jesus was a human that supersticious humans divinized and make a too magical history to turn his life more epic, later in life of the cult the romans turned this into a memetic weapon.
To me the modern Christianity its a invention of Paul of Tarsus group, the trinity dont make sense to me, a lot of things in modern Christianity to me are superfluous and dont make sense for the original jewish ethos of the jesus to me, too much greek and pagan to me.
All of the Jesus followers died in a city siege in a war, the people that existed after this war are the pagans and non-jewish related to traditions of tarsus.
>So what church…
i like the non-trinitarian sometimes and the universalist, i find oddly that these guys sometimes make contact with secular humanist and deists and go away with dogmas.
I dont believe in the tribalistic jewish hero king-priest and son of god history.
To me the logic of son of god is a error of the jewish ethos based on the pagan gentile ethos of the hellenized people, all are sons of god in the jewish mystical logic.
>But you re too much jew
I dont remember that jesus destroyed the old jew laws in any way, even his brother (let say it existed as his portrayed) still keep praying to the temple and do a lot of jewish things after he died.
The separation of judaizant practices are a later thing, thing that at times make me dude if primitive christianity its not just a died thing and the modernity its juts a political mask of a old dead religion.
Sometimes in the bible history are neoplatonic and symbolics thing thatPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.322859

>>322856
I liked message of the stars by max heindel

 No.322870

>>305804
Friendly reminder that the ONLY actual evidence for resurrection of Jesus is that the bible said so. There is no evidence from his time of that happening outside of the bible. And if Jesus didn't resurrect, then it's all just a scam and placebo effect.

 No.322887

>>322870
they dont need evidence, lad. They conveniently have this idea that just having faith is all you need. its like a mind virus that lets them resist any challenge.

 No.323113

>>322856
>To me jesus was a human that supersticious humans divinized and make a too magical history to turn his life more epic
Ironic. To me the biggest reason why I can't be Christian despite wanting to be religious all my life is the opposite.
It's not fantastical enough for me.
Jesus and all bible stories read like down to earth tribal history mixed with some slight fantasy.
At best it's some tall tale told by a village elder in a way to pass on some wisdom to the masses, at worst it's just some story about a handful of villagers/tribesmen doing mundane crap slightly exaggerated.


Too many real things in it that can be mapped onto things we experience in real life so you know by instinct what parts might or might not be bullshit.
Too many historical claims or truth/fact claims that can be proven false or at least attacked.
To me something like tao/daoism depicted in Chinese fantasy novels is a more believable/acceptable religion because they are so far removed from our own realm and reality.

I really don't understand why or how it spread so far and wide and how people can willingly subject themselves. Perhaps surface level aesthetics and a lack of curiosity to dwell deeper. Idk.
Most Christians don't know much aside from what was fed to them by curators of their denomination it seems. Not that I blame them, to most normies it's just another thing to do with the group like painting eggs for the easter bunny.
It's still crazy to me that so many people venerate those that aren't even remotely their kin.
My country was converted to get a dude crowned 1000 years ago and now it's a great part of "our" identity somehow. Crazy stuff.

To be fair I'd buy into it based on aesthetics alone if it was more fantastical/philosophical without the history part so I can't really blame anyone else.


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