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 No.308772[Reply]

I’m starting to question who I really am; I feel like I’m losing my mind as memories of my painful past come flooding back. I don’t know who to talk to—who I can actually trust. It feels like no one understands what I’m going through. They tell me I’ll be fine, but I don’t feel fine at all. Every day, every moment—it feels like an endless, vicious cycle. I’m exhausted by all of this, yet I try to appear strong so no one sees me as weak. I know it’s frustrating; I hate everything—the past, the future, everything. It’s all the same; nothing ever changes.

 No.308773

>>308772
sorry you're in the depths right now and it's hard (or impossible) to see a light at the end of the tunnel where you have relief.

Do you have fluctuations in this feeling are there days that somehow you feel back to normal, even if it's fleeting?

Do you want more questions, advice, or something in particular? I can say i relate to the vague yet pervasive existential dread you're experiencing, but i also know being in the thick of it is hard to listen to advice or anything.

Like the fact that there's a grain of truth in what people have said: "you'll be fine" - cus in a sense you got through yesterday's battle - you were technically fine. So what's really going on?

 No.308782

no one will help you
you can trust no one
normies are semi-retarded
the body is a parasyte feeding off the real you
isolation, distrust, paranoia and suicide are good things

 No.308786

It's as if you're crawling in your skin, yes? And the wounds… They will not heal, yes? Maybe go outside. Find something to hate that actually needs to be hated instead of hating yourself.

 No.308791

it'll go away in a few years. the torment never stays the same. something else will give you pain instead


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 No.308788[Reply]

If you're feeling depressed, come listen Music to Sidney Gish "Impostor Syndrome" (best part only).
Link:
https://youtu.be/skJDWv0bGtM?si=5FDhGyhNcn6vNDkx

lyrics:
Just watch me, moving far away
Nobody even knows my name and
No one suspects that I'm not fine, and
Nobody outs behavioral Frankenstein'
Just look at Victor in L.A
And Syd with the "y" at U of A
And all the majors at the labels
Rebooting soon as I am able
Every other day I'm wondering
What's a human being gotta be like?
What's a way to just be competent?
These sweet instincts ruin my life
Every other day I'm wondering
Was it a mistake to try and define
What I'm certain's mad incompetence?
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 No.308789

Are you a God-damnmed female?!?

 No.308790

>>308789
No im Male


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 No.227025[Reply]

Does anyone here know any good virgin-only forums? Or a forum with a significant virgin population? Or maybe a forum that discusses widespread societal depravity in a very negative light?

I'm guessing the answer will be 'no'. Don't you think that's strange? I never believed just because something is common, that it's 'natural' or 'acceptable.' Child rape was common, it was practiced for most of human history, that's not acceptable. Yet betrayal, prostitution and temporary 'relationships' (same thing as prostitution) are? We are always at the recieving end of mockery, and them always rewarded with praise. Why? What did we do to deserve being mocked and belittled?

Does anyone else here feel this way? Or am I the only one? How do I reach likeminded people? How do I communicate with people who share my values? Where do I find them?

These days I just feel like we're being erased, or rather… we have always been erased. Am I a crab for taking these things seriously and refusing to submit to the same depravity as others?
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 No.227763

Well, I personally think that most of us, ugly and all, can get laid and find a relationship. Is it worth it? Fuck no.
Relationships and sexxx are only worth it if you are attractive or at least average.
I know several people, both attractive and not, men and you-know-who, all of them are in relationships. The beautiful ones get to fuck other beautiful people (if we are talking about hook ups) and they are in long term relationships with people who treat them with utmost care and tebderness.
While the ugly ones are fucking miserable. The men are oofy doofies with no dignity and you-know-whos never get even a crumb of romance.
I've seen it all. My brother is a chad, unlike me, and his ex was a fucking 10/10 who worshipped the ground he walked on. He, in turn, showered her with affection.
Meanwhile, I have an old college acquaintance. He is fucking hideous but got married. I never saw a sadder relationship in my life. They don't even pretend to love each other.
What am I saying? Any wizz here can find himself a landwhale who will nag and bitch and be fucking annoying, but is it worth it? No. It's never worth it if you are hideous. But yes, you do can get laid. You just choose not to. Because you have an ounce of dignity and would rather be alone than stay in a loveless relationship only because of your face. That's what I did. I'm not stupid and I see the world around me, and I know that uglies are always devalued and degraded in relationships.
Basically, think oofy doofy, but I'm not talking about money, no. I'm taking about emotional validation that normal, non-ugly people get out if relationships. You will never, ever, ever get it.

 No.227770

>>227763
But these attractive people, their relationships don't last and didn't last. I'm not advocating for relationships (because lol wut), but I'm seeing a contradiction in your post.

You claim your 'chad' whore brother was showering his bipedal hole with affection, but they're not together. And all the 'happy relationships attractive people have' you mention are all street-whore shit. In your own words, its not just uglies who settle for less, the same 'attractive' people cant make their own relationships work out and are constantly switching relationships like underwear. Doesn't sound very successful to me, it sounds insecure, malicious and gravely unhappy.

 No.227771

>>227761
That homeless man analogy is very insulting to me. I'm not some thirsty crab faggot like you who wishes to get laid or goons in front of a screen. Virginity is the steak I am eating.

I dont really care what you chose to be or how you ended up a virgin, but the insult laced into the analogy wasnt lost on me.

 No.227772

>>227770
I get where you coming from, but think of it this way:an attractive person can change partners like gloves until they found "the one." They don't put up with their shitty gfs, they just kick those bitches out and find someone nicer and hotter. Same with womanoids, they have a roster of men who they pick and choose depending on their weird standards. Attractive people can have standards and break up with someone over being vegan, smoking or giving "the ick." Can you say the same about an ugly man? No, he just finds one succubus and sticks with her flaws that he despises only because he can't do better. You are right to point that out, but you are looking at the carousel of relationships wrong.

 No.229018

>>227772
>Can you say the same about an ugly man? No, he just finds one succubus and sticks with her flaws that he despises only because he can't do better. You are right to point that out, but you are looking at the carousel of relationships wrong.

Oh. Yeah. Thanks for reminding me I always believed the very idea of relationship carousel is abhorrent since its notorious of… well, spawning things.

>>227770
Apparently, cavemen had something called "serial monogamy" - a subtle way of telling Grug was nowhere near modern mr. Rogers or McConnell clan of ranchers and their cereal monogamy traditions.


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 No.228116[Reply]

In short, my vision is fucked I especially notice this when I am wearing glasses.

In short, when I wear glasses they overlap on top of each other. I think the drawing I made might explain more than just words.

And no, it's still not just a problem with glasses I have even when I don't use them, but with glasses it especially makes this worse and, on top of that, I can't see without them that much.

And another thing is how my vision works. For example, if I focus on my hand instead of the box, the box will appear double, while if I focus on the box instead of the hand, the same thing will happen with my hand.

The image explains better

In short, I just want to know what my problem is and what the solution to it. Please help. I don't want to take it anymore. Please
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 No.228625

Do you expect some medical doctor with a specialisation in eye medicine to come to your help on this forum?
I hate doctors but in these cases they are your only realistic solution other than the rope.
Best people on here can do to help you is tell you to go see an eye specialist.

 No.228769

You're seeing double. This is due to a nerve problem behind your eye, preventing your brain from properly controlling it. Also known as a "lazy eye". You should see a doctor regarding this because it cannot be fixed with glasses. Sometimes it can be fixed with surgery.

 No.228770

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relevant doctor video

youtu.be/T8YSalMRR6w?list=PLYYNxJ44FD1Z55Y_IiXbu–2ygR2l4F68&t=1542

This is often a result of head trauma, like from an assault or a car accident. You should go to a hospital and have it checked.

 No.228771

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There are a lot of ways one can develop a lazy eye. Anything that straps one or more of an eye's rectus muscles for blood, especially during childhood, can cause it to lag behind the other muscles and stay small enough to constantly pull the eye in one direction. Oppositely, spending a lot of time with your eyes pointed in one direction can cause one of the muscles to grow stronger and throw your eye movement off balance. Deep nasal and ear infections can harm the nerves to these muscles. The eyes can be slightly oval shaped and not sit straight in their socket. You could simply be predetermined to see off-kilter, as decided by the Demiurge. Both eyes can actually be perfect but in their own special way (if you're a LIBERAL!). The important thing to know is that there's no fix for it!

 No.229017

>>228771
Bump with a random idea I had lately:
1) buy/make sunglasses with swappable lenses of different colors
2) cover one eye with a super-deep black glass while keeping another eye covered with a moderately tinted lense


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 No.219200[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

>"No one owes you their kindness"
>"No one has to have a reason not to like you"
>"You're not entitled to friends"
>"Thinking people have to like you is narcissistic"

All said by people who haven't experienced a lifetime of rejection, social ostracization and involuntary isolation. All said by people who haven't tried every way possible to be likable, but their autism still showed through.

I hate when normies say shit like this, and their stupid "boundaries" of not "owing people shit" which translated is usually; I'm going to act terrible to anyone I see as less than myself in a way that makes me look righteous.
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 No.228107

>>225351
I have the right to kick a dog when he bites, will I be able to kick your face when you fail to behave humanely?

 No.228123

>>228026
>I've never met someone who had anything against friendless virgins.
I would not entrust a known friendless virgin with any responsibility at work and I am a friendless virgin (a wizard, even) myself. Society absolutely looks down on us, and it is for good reason. It is a very strong indication of failure, of inadequacy, of some sort of mental dysfunction. Moreover, you KNOW that this will be used against you, so any competent person will take care to hide or at least not advertise this. Anyone who is publicly found out as such is therefore doubly incompetent for failing to keep this failing of theirs out of the spotlight.

 No.228279

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>>219200
Once you realize that they are correct, and accept it, perhaps even indulge in it. You will realize the profound, and paramount hatred that normies spew from their draconic mouths, and feel free from it.

 No.228288

>>228279
The truth is NTs collectively hate outcasts more than you as an individual could be hope to be racist/bigoted/etc. as an individual

 No.229016

Bump with a reminder the geek subculture has been ruined by the "Big Bang Theory" series so the "geek" geeks are not really happy with expressing themselves as geeks, heh.


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 No.228999[Reply]

When I was 14, I had to give a speech in front of the class; I was laughed at by everyone. That year was the worst of my life; I was constantly mocked and humiliated at school because my family was poor and struggled to afford my education. I felt utterly defeated, and my father only made things worse—he was always fighting with my mother. The worst happened when I was 18; I was bullied at my new school after finishing elementary school, and my family didn't seem to care. My father was an alcoholic who was constantly angry and fighting with my mother. For three years, I felt trapped, unable to find a safe haven. Just as I was about to graduate from junior high, the COVID-19 pandemic hit; schools closed, and we all had to stay home for online learning. I spent two years studying online at home during the transition from junior high to high school, finally returning to in-person classes once the pandemic ended.

My class had been split up; during the pandemic, we were divided into three groups—1A, 1B, and 1C—and I was in 1C. When we returned to face-to-face learning, class 1C was dissolved and its students were distributed between 1A and 1B; I ended up in 1B. My high school classmates were kind to me and liked me. Eka, who had originally been in 1B (unlike me, who came from the split class), had to drop out because he couldn't afford the fees. While I was popular with my classmates, Ryan—who was an original 1B student like Eka—was jealous that I was well-liked despite coming from the split class. Everyone was hiding their true selves, and their kindness was often a lie. I had a best friend in high school named Andito, but our friendship didn't last; it eventually fell apart. When I gave a speech about COVID-19 in class—an assignment where we each had to take turns presenting—my classmates later shunned me, thinking I was the "bad guy" for talking about the virus. Yet, considering the endless news coverage and trials surrounding the Ferdy Sambo case—where a police officer shot another officer—surely I wasn't entirely the villain, right? After all, even though a high school friend filmed me giving that COVID speech and labeled me the bad guy, the news about the virus was eventually overshadowed by that police scandal; strangely enough, the police case was declared resolved right around the time I gave my speech. Now that I’ve graduated from high school, I constantly feel lonely. At night, I’m haunted by my dark past, and every day feels tedious; the enPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.229002

>>229001
That’s even more embarrassing. But I’m proud you made it through.

 No.229003

I don't get you, is it sad or what?

 No.229006

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>>229003
It's not always like that.

 No.229007

Wdym

 No.229015

>>228999

>When I gave a speech about COVID-19 in class—an assignment where we each had to take turns presenting—my classmates later shunned me, thinking I was the "bad guy" for talking about the virus. Yet, considering the endless news coverage


Just in case you think this hurts because its unfair and random, "a part of conspiracy":


No. Back in 2020, people here were full of angry comments online. Instead of "we're doomed" pain, everyone had a silent scream.


See, some trolls (and maybe satanists from the Æ site) as in people who were busy call vaccinated ones "the sheeple" - were really busy spreading "ahaha get chipped, sheeple" bullshit. The same types were busy spreading bravado over the idea the virus is about whack a bunch of boomers so all the quarantines were enforced by sheepish boomers trying to increase their old frail boomer bodies' chances of survival.

I am not mad, back when I was 20 years old, I *still* didn't know people hate discuss a yet another doom they personally can't do much about.

Tl;dr - you has poked a sore wound. They tried to tell you enough's enough, basically.


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 No.323451[Reply]

What's your setup look like?

I'm interested in things better than Duckduckgo and Signal, almost normie tier advice. I'm not full schizo (yet) so I'm still exploring different setups
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 No.324154

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Arch Linux, make my own config and teach myself computers. Never use Tor, always I2P or some other alternative. Deploy mixnets and VLESS REALITY on my router. GrapheneOS and faraday bags on my phone. Qubes + Whonix on a throwaway computer. SimpleX chat for quantum cryptography.

Tor and VPNs lost relevance 10 years ago. Police are doing 'store it now, decrypt later' method. By 2029, quantum encryption breaking will be available. DPI and timing attacks, which used to be super expensive, is now used by mid range law enforcement.

The good news is, network-level encryption is very close to immunity against state actors. Only hardware and firmware remains vulnerable. Networks are the single biggest privacy threat and is number 1 at getting many criminals/outcasts/wizards exposed. This problem is very close to being permanently sloved, and already is if you employ deep network-level encryption. Your network is the single biggest factor capable of doxxing you.

Whatever the case, do not use Tor. Do not trust Tor. If you use Tor, take extensive measures against it on the network and OS level. Deploy Virtual Machines inside Qubes after hardening your connection. Treat Tor like an adversary, because it is. Everyone has moved to Telegram and encrypted, decentralized messaging apps.

 No.324156

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>>324154
>never use Tor but use the less developed and less secure alternative i2p

 No.324164

>>324156
What makes I2P less secure than Tor to you? Because it feels that way, or have you actually used it to make that assessment?

 No.324385

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>>324164
Not anon but I2P is not a good piece of software.
Pic is the mods from the most famous darknet forum.

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>>324285
And this.
Darknets are not good to run 24/7. They work, but you have to assume they can and WILL be exploited. You should always treat them with a 20 foot long pole. As in: only use them for actual shady stuff, and never from a network associated with you.
Using them because of some perceived social commentary you want to do even if you do perfectly normal stuff is stupid, no one cares and it's a NSA-made network that let the public use so they can keep traffic ambiguous anyway.


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 No.227116[Reply]

TL;DR AI got several points for me and I finally felt that the future is here! pleasant shiver


Quoting:


''The question "aren't you lonely" is considered rude because it implies loneliness is a negative state to be avoided, when some people are content being alone, and it can feel like a judgment on the person's social life. It also ignores the important difference between being "alone" (physically by oneself) and being "lonely" (feeling isolated emotionally). The question assumes a lack of social interaction is undesirable, which can be an uncomfortable and presumptuous assumption to make about another person.
It's an assumption of negative feelings: The question assumes loneliness is a universally undesirable state. However, many people are happy and fulfilled when they are alone, finding it to be a valuable time for rest, self-reflection, and connection with their "true self".
It ignores the difference between alone and lonely: There is a significant difference between being alone and feeling lonely. Being alone is a physical state, while loneliness is an emotional response. The question conflates the two, failing to acknowledge that a person can be physically alone but not emotionally lonely.''
''It can be a judgment on one's social life: Asking "aren't you lonely" can feel like a direct criticism of a person's social choices or life circumstances, whether they are single, have a smaller group of friends, or simply choose to spend more time alone. It implies their social life is lacking and that they should feel sad about it.
It overlooks the quality of relationships: The question focuses on the quantity of social interaction rather than the quality. A person may have many friends but still feel lonely, or have very few friends but have deep, meaningful connections.''
It is often perceived as a judgment on life choices: The question is particularly pointed when it comes to lifestyle choices like being single. Many people prefer to be single than to be in a relationship that is unhealthy or unfulfilling.

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>>227116
>The question focuses on the quantity of social interaction rather than the quality. A person may have many friends but still feel lonely, or have very few friends but have deep, meaningful connections.'' It is often perceived as a judgment on life choices: The question is particularly pointed when it comes to lifestyle choices like being single. Many people prefer to be single than to be in a relationship that is unhealthy or unfulfilling.

The first time i feel a connection with someone was when i played with a little succubus (two years before me, i have 13 years old here) with toys, tennis and other games, we just play alone in the countryside in solicitude without technology just being kids.
You know the later of the story, all got fucked and never happened again or talked.
>Also
The other time was with a asperger guy (they dont call like this anymore) cool guy, he wave to me sometimes at christmas times. We dont talk much, may he be happy.
>Warcraft
I made a friend of my country in a wow wotlk server, he's far away. We talk sometimes, a nice guy but dont talk to much of personal life.
>TF2
I was kinda loved as a personality in a TF2 community server, i enjoyed these times talking or helping others. Fun times.

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>>227118
thanks for sharing!


picrandom

 No.228995

I am not "lonely". I cannot trust people. I keep expecting them to spring at me at random.

I cannot experience loneliness if I simply never feel safe around people.


>Asking "aren't you lonely" can feel like a direct criticism of a person's social choices or life circumstances, whether they are single, have a smaller group of friends, or simply choose to spend more time alone. It implies their social life is lacking and that they should feel sad about it.

Why would I feel sad if most of the time, I am alone and well? It's the chance of getting a random weird pain and never having it diagnosed that bothers me.

 No.229011

this is pure bullshit
someone could genuinely be surprised
like asking someone who works alone in a remote place or something
the question by itself gives no information to where it's used
looks like AI is already crashing out on the most basic text analysis

 No.229014

>>229011
Unfortunately, you failed to realize asking "I hope this job doesn't make you X" is much milder in tone as opposed to straight up asking "aren't you X"

The dreaded "aren't you lonely" toss is like pitching a person into a fork of 2 opinions:
1. You are "lonely" and the person is keen to remember you as one, probably dumping unasked advice to run away from such "jerb"
2. If you aren't… "how come you aren't lonely?"


In layman terms, "aren't you X" is on same spot as "Told ya", "Drop this shit job", "oh frick, you must be crazy working this BS" and maybe even a sudden lifetime memory of "hey, Mac, we got a new office center opening up, you totally should join our crew instead" question out of blue


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 No.323548[Reply]

In short, I left my digital footprint in a rather bad website, though, thankfully, people forgot about me.

But the problem is, people know about the thing I love deeply and care about. This was because at the time I was a complete fucking dumbass and vented and on that shitty website almost every day but thankfully, they seemed to have forgotten about it too thankfully but….

I just hate every time I look up the name of what I care about, there is a chance of that shitty wiki article popping up that mentions me and that thing I care about.

I was a lolcow. I won't deny it and I wish my younger self was a lot smarter than being a fucking dumbass and venting on that shitty website almost every day. I just don't want my name or anything I care about to mention there and I don't want people spreading misformation about either me or the thing I care about.

I just want to be forgotten and never found and the thing I care about too be obscure and safe forever. This is all I ask.
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 No.324169

>>323548
Here's how you ought to try it.
You go to a library.
You make several profiles on social media under your name.
You post a lot of "everyday" life things - use random books in the library to make up random topics
Try quoting random fiction books, too.

The thing you may worry about is that wiki popping up on the 1st or 2nd Google page. By having random Instant Link Faced status Quo stuff posted on different sites, you may obfuscate that Foogle search result a little bit.


>>323629
I was in a situation opposite to OP's one.
I stupidily posted a very cringeworthy comment under my name once. Half a decade later, it turned out to be in the top-20 of the search results related to my name. Luckily, i was able to delete it manually, took me some days to remember the account password though.

 No.324170

What would you do if you saw a lolcow in public

 No.324171

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Streisand_effect

 No.324172

>>324170
Nothing because I'm not a subhuman kiwifarmer

 No.324384

If it's a hobby website (imageboards, forums, matrix servers) you just mail the admin and ask for the data associated with your IP or account to be removed. You'd be surprised at how many admins actually reply and do this.
If it's a website under a corporation take a look at your existing privacy laws. If you're in the EU you can find some GDPR mail copypasta that you can send to the website data retention address to pressure them to immediately remove your data. I did this and almost every time they complied because they are required by law. The only company that didn't is wizards of the coast, probably because they are american and (mistakenly) think they have to apply american laws to european user data.


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 No.227831[Reply]

I think that today, autistic and witchy people have a huge advantage over neurotypical people. We have extensive knowledge on a wide variety of subjects, we are determined in the face of adversity, and even if we are socially awkward or find it difficult to talk to people (this is my case, I am socially isolated) we can come together in these spaces and stop forcing social contact with neighbors or parents who ask us for the umpteenth time why we still don't have any friends or a girlfriend. Personally, I'd rather go online to investigate the Epstein case than have friends, and I think that's the case for many of you here. The others are completely ridiculous with their social codes to follow. They restrict themselves in terms of intellectual capacity in a completely stupid way to appear socially acceptable because the norm prefers a dumb athlete to a brilliant intellectual. That's why most people prefer athletes like soccer players or basketball players to Gregori Perelman, who solved Poincaré's conjecture. This whole circus is completely ridiculous. People make fun of their neighbors when they themselves are stupid, but to reassure themselves, they say that others are stupid and criticize us because we are not “within the norm.” We do not accept the social contract imposed by popular dogma, which wants us to we criticize to reassure ourselves without accumulating knowledge. Also, do people really compare their time spent on TikTok or Instagram to the knowledge in books, articles, and other sources before criticizing others? Maybe we should look in the mirror and accept that we are trash in order to change and follow a virtuous path that respects others. That's why we're here discussing this: we need to create a close-knit community and distance ourselves from the idiots who criticize us, keeping only those who understand us.And besides, it's not AI that's going to save these idiots. They need to rediscover what it means to read books, to dream, and to use their brains.
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 No.228990

>>228988
>behavior disctinct from that of normal people
>behavior disctinct
>normal people


Implying normal people are all uniform, eh?

 No.228991

>>228986
Because back in 1930s the cases of autism were ruled out to be a form of early presented schizophrenia

Only in late 1940s, *they* realised a rather peculiar form of weirdness among kids, that goes without hallucinations
DOESN'T REALLY ALIGN WITH
the mental illness that comes in many types yet is known for causing hallucinations, "voices in your head", and alike.

 No.228992

>>227831
>Personally, I'd rather go online to investigate the Epstein case than have

The 1990s "•f•r•i•e•n•d•s•" staple of topics to discuss is long gone from being hot, mate

Basically, the "we should fix the society somehow" motto is already enough to make friends. It used to be the case in 2000s Russia, in a sense.

 No.228993

>>228990
I'm talking about multiple characteristic behaviours and traits on the same person, not only a few.

 No.229013

>>228993
Multiple? Heh. Zero, despite being an even number, is not a natural number.


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 No.64175[Reply]

anyone do this?

i burn discs, title them and then put them back on the spindle, so they stay in good condition

external hdds/sdd don't last very long
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 No.69621

>>69571
the nice thing is that for me a normal 4.7 dvd has the right size for either 2x12 or 1x24 episodes anime in h.265, so a normal season (which has around of 25-35 series i end up watching) fits comfortably in 15-20 dvds.

the only downside is the organizing. it's an eternal fight between putting 2 thematically close series that came in the same season in the same disk for then to find out that 2 seasons later the second season came out and now you have them separated.

Sometimes i keep series in my hdd for years because i'm sure a new season is gonna come out sooner or later but it ends up dead, like log horizon, and stuff that has no reason getting a second season comes out of nowhere, like the vending machine one.

 No.69852

>>69553
I had to give away a PS4 since it wouldnt install Linux

 No.70129

>>64175
I did that for awhile but now switched to usb sticks because they are cheaper and larger capacity
plus nobody sells dvd burners anymore

 No.70132

>>70129
IIRC optical disks are immune to "digital rot" aka sudden switches from 0 to 1 from space radiation (weak, but random) so they are a *niche* data savers now

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Here's a research paper from the Canadian government about the longevity of various types of laser discs. CD-Rs are rated as the most durable, even with the most common dye made today (azo dye, 20-50 years). Dye is extremely important and yes, you guessed it right: it was better 20 years ago.
Laser discs are more durable than the rated longevity of hard disks (SSDs and flash drives are not even worth considering).
https://publications.gc.ca/site/eng/9.882573/publication.html


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 No.70176[Reply]

Discussion about the lucrative, dangerous, and interesting hobby of Dumpster Diving.

High priority finds: Anything worth $$$, duh. Here's some examples:
-PC/Electronic equipment
-Sealed products, boardgames, clothing etc
-Food(sealed and safe)
-Anything you can use

Every day at my job I throw away several thousands of dollars of supermarket goods that are still good but we cannot legally sell them. Sometimes the seal is slightly broken and if anyone gets sick from that, that's a 6 or 7 digit number we get fined, so it's easier to avoid that altogether and claim insurances. Every single night people raid our dumpster. It makes sense.

I also used to use this method to survive decently while I was homeless.

Please post your thoughts and experiences
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 No.70690

>>70689
Why are CRTs popular now, those things give off radiation and are noisy, that whine used to give me a headache

 No.70693

Back in my days, dumpster diving had SOVL

You could find an antique, a curo or a rare vase, not some discarded board game…

 No.70694

>>70689
good for you

 No.70695

>>70690
1. Useful to play 1990s games, say, PS1 graphics used to get smoother from the "color bleed" effect of CRTs

2. Instant feedback
(Its important for platformers, I think)
In fact, you cannot play Duck Hunt without cheating if you use LCDs.

 No.70698

It's illegal in my country. Everything you put in the trash is automatically considered property of the town/State and they even put trash bins with government issued smartcards to open them.


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 No.305598[Reply]

Nostalgic tiktok zoomer here, I hate being one but i don't want to lie you.(sorry bad English)
I hate who smartphones and ai, it is changing society for worse, literally i can't see a 2000s anime without feeling trash, i hate have and smartphone in front my eyes 24/7.
Technology is amazing, the problem is the fucking steve jobs with his fucking iphone changing 2000s animation/gaming culture for fucking apps!!!!
I hate being addicted to my smartphone(I can manage it but I'm not 100% free) I hate who normalized is for society being addicted to smartphones.
I don't want this ai future where everything is DEGENERATED PORN with lazy people using ai for being more stupid.
I hate want to use tiktok or ai, I hate fight with my phone. I really hate this fucking world.
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 No.305904

>>305893
I think you may have far-sighted eyes. Which means you need reading glasses.

Regards, a near-sighted person who needs regular glasses.

 No.308749

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I have finally realized something. The Internet now is overwhelming in terms of making a myriad of small decisions every time you want to do something poorly decined. Say, every time you just want to watch a *tube video to pass some time or scout for *something* that's interesting, you have thousands of videos to choose from and they're all "interesting".

The digital rabbit hole is real.

Next time you go to a computer, you make a short idea of what are you going to watch.

"Just spending 20 minutes watching 1 old short comedy movie from 1970s" or
"I need to look up how to sync up my old pc and new laptop"

If you want to try a new recipe, you may try to go to a nice bench near your local shop, and look up some recipes when you're near a store, not in the comfort of your home. (That's my guess, though, not a serious tested idea of living)

 No.308759

>>308749
>to do something poorly decined
>decined

Both "poorly defined" and "poorly decided" $(confused_smile_here)

 No.308776

>>305598
I recommend you to do what I do - watch old movies, play old games, read old books. Forget that the world around you is in the 2020s.

Watch youtube videos about the 20th century western world or Japan. Read old VNs. As long as you aren't a wagie, living in the past is possible.

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>>305598
Same as most others here I suggest you just try and emulate the lifestyle of that era for yourself. Use modern tech only as much as you have to. I have a smartphone but it pretty much sits unused in a drawer, I only still own it because I'm forced to have a 2FA app for my bank. My computer screen is almost two decades old, small compared by modern standards and not even 1080p resolution. The last AAA game I played was Battlefield 4 and my PC probably wouldn't even run any of the modern Unreal Engine type shit even if I wanted to. The books and novels I buy these days are mostly pre 2010s, many even pre 2000. I really enjoy reading stories set in those times, before the internet was mainstream, when people still used flip phones or phone booths. Where the cops can't just look up someones location history or track them through CTV, where people can just disappear by buying a plane ticket in cash to nowhere. Also, a lot of modern writing just feels off to me a lot of the times. I think it's the internet-lingo seeping into stories and settings where it has no place and ruin the immersion.
I still use the computer more than I'd like, I watch a lot of shows idly. My goal is to spend more time learning to draw or reading or fuck, just sitting in the garden and zoning out. But I definitely understand your feelings regarding this. The modern technology age is too overstimulating, fast paced, addictive, overproduced. I'm also just sick of technology being put into everything because of the still prevailing notion that anything and everything is better by having a computer or touch screen in it. Self-check outs, order kiosks, the lack of buttons and dials in cars and so on. So in essence, only use technology you absolutely have to in order to survive, anything else you have to be extremely selective about.


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 No.55235[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This year most of my plants (zucchinis, strawberries, cucumbers) got messed up with the heat waves, tomatoes are really the only thing I have left. I don't want summer to end, going back to eating store vegetables and fruit is soul crushing. Not much money so no fancy organic food.

Do you garden? How long? What plants?
How do you deal with having to go back to tasteless store vegetables during winter?
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 No.70664

>>70663
what do you want to grow?

 No.70665

>>70664
tomatoes, potatoes, pepper so yummy , salad, cucumber, squash, pumpkin, corn (maybe), melon, ginger, aromatic plants, strawberries, peaches, cherry, green tomatoes, cabbage, leek, onions, blueberries, raspberries, blackberries, apple, carrots, pear, eggplant, wallnut, nuts, almonds, olives, mango yeah!, and seasonal vegetables and fruits.

 No.70672

>>70663
I bet you would get some visit from some gov egghead enforcing regulations fining you for not exclusively eating GMO food from the supermarket

 No.70696

>>70672
>I bet you would get some visit from some gov egghead enforcing regulations fining you for not exclusively eating GMO food from the supermarket
If it's on his/his parent's property, I would assume there's nothing they can do? That being said I'm assuming he's in the usa. If he's in a cucked country like uk, yeah they just make shit up from what I've heard.

 No.70697

>>70696
>If it's on his/his parent's property, I would assume there's nothing they can do?
If only you knew how bad things really are. ALL of the seeds are GMO now. They are modified to inflict these modifications on to other plants. They were made to be diseased and spread that disease.


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 No.222647[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

I figured I've already experienced everything junk food, chocolates, cakes and ice creams can offer as an experience.
They no longer give me dopamine, just bloating and an overall sense of unwellness & brain fog.

Life is very short and I'd like to be in shape even if just once during my existence. So far I lost 12 pounds, which is an okay start but not great.

I aim to work out 3 times a week, and on the 4 other days light cardio such as walking for an hour.

Diet has been redesigned to involve a lot of lean meat, fresh produce, eggs, walnuts and water instead of sodas.
If I crave something sweet, it's gonna be a banana or berries, maybe a kiwi or orange.

What do you think? Have you tried to live healthier or are you already healthy?
So far I haven't lost motivation but it's only been 6 months. I find it has had a moderately positive effect on my depression too. If I can pull it off I'll keep the rhythm up for the rest of my life.
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 No.228981

>>228977
Yeah well, since I got zero other dopamine sources in life I reverted to eating immediate reward carbs and fats and my body is back at square one too. I had a manic bout of energy when making this thread but that only lasted a few months.

Keeping up the constant healthy living would only be possible if I had other sources of joy.

 No.228983

>>228981
>since I got zero other dopamine sources in life I reverted to eating immediate reward carbs and fats and my body is back at square one too

looking for sources of things, that is female thinking.

you are the source.

 No.229000

>>228983
Tell that to the 430 000 people who starve to death annually. Nobody is an island and everything depends on other people. Even a complete hermit like Unabomber can and did get fucked over by strangers.

 No.229010

>>229000
>Tell that to the 430 000 people who starve to death annually.

no i will not tell that to starving people, i am talking to you who isn't starving. you are a complete minion, learned helplessness damsel in distress looking for someone with strong arms to rescue you so you can sit on the couch and become fat and ugly while other people do the work for you.

 No.229012

>>229000
>a complete hermit like Unabomber can and did get fucked over by strangers
The "strangers" being his brother whom Ted dumped all of his feelings on enough to be identified by his choice of words in the manifesto that Ted wanted everyone to see. "Fucked over" but not as badly as the university kids and employees who got fucking exploded. Ted was the source of his own capture.

>430 000 people who starve to death annually.
>Nobody is an island and everything depends on other people.
Those 400,000+ "people" are Africans and jungle-dwellers who can grow food and raise cattle, yet they chose to mope around waiting for cloud-colored people to bring them free food. The source of their starvation is their own inaction… Not the occasional delay in action by the charitable people.


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 No.308091[Reply]

What is everyones thoughts on leaving a suicide note? Is it necessary for closure for others? A way to get everything off your chest before you ack? Or just a waste of time?

I have been staring at my .60 cent retirement plan, and am not sure if I would just like to go out and just have everyone guessing. Or if its right to leave a note. Most of my family thinks I am useless or lazy. However they have no introspection on that they are the ones who raised me.
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 No.308734

>>308732
Not having memory of the traumatic event doesn't prevent your neurons from their huge dose of shock though. Come to think of it, this practice could have been inspired by people who put plants through stress to stimulate growth.

 No.308744

>>308728
>>308730
I’ve written this before somewhere on the boards of other fora, but I’ll repeat it here as I think it has some worth in sufficing the truth:

Judaism “works”, that is — it is psychologically effectual — because the entire system is rooted in trauma conditioning. I would even go so far as to say that Jewishness or Yiddishkeit (yiddish for jewishness) is properly speaking a series of codified trauma reflexes affixed into the receiving mind at an age when the mind cannot make critical sense of what it is learning. Here’s an adumbrated list showing my thinking:

Circumcision: learned trauma reflex

Exodus (where evil goyim are persecuting you): learned trauma reflex

Holocaust (which we can agree here without any charge of anti-semitism was/is a dramatized historical event): learned trauma reflex

Contemptible goyim who hate you causelessly: learned trauma reflex

Yirat Ha’Shamim (hebrew for “fear of the skies/heaven”, the essential underpinning point of their “education” system, if you can call it that): obvious learned trauma reflex

Mesirah (the halachic precept that is the reflexive antitype of a mafia code enforcing punitive measures against jews who inform on jews to goyish authorities): learned trauma reflex

Kashrut (hebrew for propriety, meaning obviously properness in one’s dietary practices): learned trauma reflex that like circumcision binds the mind of the believing jew into a state of fear and self-chosen exclusion.

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 No.308777

>>308744
interesting take

 No.308780

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>>308744
The problem of all religion and cultures is tribalism, bitch attention whore behaviour and absolute self importance with late victimism.
All of these things lead to shit nationalism or destruction of self identity or individual identity into the power of political power like "them" against "us"
There's no more "you" just Us.
This allow tribalism and identity identification without reasoning.
Thing like Jew or Nazi or gay or lesbian or Kekguy or Wiz or Crab lead to absolute total acceptante and reduction of Human condition to a artificial tag like these mask or identity or tribals structure, absolute destroying individuality and Human condition.
A mere simulation of ideal forms that never achieve a psychalystic form in the world of matter.
This is the pure manifestation of eucledian logic in modern world, an antinatural thing that lead of destruction of human condition if it got into power or even in the condition of democracy or totalitarian scheme. Its not about diversity, race, racism, inclussion or pride. Its not about nationalism, religion or political ideas. Its about power in the costume of identities.
There's no middle or "no" or "maybe" just the "this is this and its all".
Non-eucledian logic can turn you into a more human and healthy behaviour against this new artificial robot existence of retarded monkey trowing shit against each others based in stupid identities or "i that thing or" "i good and you bad".
When you achieve non-eucledian logic mindset, you achieve a shield against extreme stupid ideas and can get a big panorama of the real existence from matter world.
That the big "Maybe" in the power of human side, this maybe is the ego-death and dual mind in favor of human side against the robots of the future.
Bacause life and human is a process and not a rigid line of tribal and social machinery.

 No.308785

>>308678
why even care what happens with your stuff


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 No.228138[Reply]

Stepped on the scale today and realized that despite the initial "push" from a medical crisis a year ago, I basically regained all weight I lost (minus 5-10kg).
I also realized I've been working for almost 3 years now, going to be 30 the same week I'll hit my 3 years of work too.
3 years… of wages wasted.

I don't even know what the fuck I spent most of it on. It just escapes me.
Still live with mom and all my necessities are taken care of she takes nothing from me.
I had a blessed opportunity these past 3 years to save up for the dogshit future that hit the world now and I wasted it on toys and basically indulging all I couldn't as a NEET with no money.
The worst is that since I'm an impulsive retard I mostly have nothing to show for it either.

Health is even more fucked then ever before since I never took action.
Rather every action that didn't prove fruitful or flat out failed resulted in my absolute surrender for another month or three or six…
Absolutely defeated at the starting line basically.

To get to the point of this thread. Those of you that live a decently structured, responsible and stable life, how?
I barely have a sense of time. Kinda like when I was a NEET, just instead of 12-16 hours of sleeping and then PC stuff I'm forced to work a rather easy, blessed job.
Once it passes I just feel like I'm teleported to the next shift until I get to sleep through a weekend and months pass.
Even chronic pains don't make me act much. What does one even do to live?

The worst part really is that so many years went down the drain and I really have nothing to show for it. Not even memories.
I want to at least look back on SOMETHING fondly when I'm dying someday.
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 No.228968

>>228967
Weirdly relevant. After I made this post >>228921 I took a bunch of idk what size cardboard cards and started something similar.
Each card has "desired outcome" with a few checkboxes to see on which days I actually did something to move towards it.
Enough space to make small notes of what exactly needs doing as a next step.
I plan to reflect every 7 days on these.

Splitting things into what can be done by not doing, so passive stuff and things that need me to act.
Avoiding things should be easier to start with. ie. don't stuff your face, don't rip your hair out etc.
Hope it gets the ball rolling with that + small actions.

I do prefer to be pacified through daydreams and entertainment though.

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>>228968

i hope the cards work as good for you as they did for me.

whenever i complete a card, i put it on a discard pile in my shelf and the little discard pile has reached impressive height in the ~7 month i have been using the cards so this now has reached the point where just looking at the pile i feel motivated and able.

there is an old audiobook from the cassette era called "the psychology of achievement" by the author named Brian Tracy. these days you can find full versions on youtube, though i'd rather look on piratebay for a copy. the reason i mention this old audiobook is that the dude has good ideas about what he calls goalsettings. for example he says it is best to review your goals every evening and then make a plan for the next day in the evening. i do believe little cards are more practical for a beginner then writing out a new list every evening but all his ideas about this topic are solid and well worth a listen as is the whole audiobook. maybe you find some good ideas to improve your own system but i think it is amazing that you do this, hopefully you get as good as an experience as i have had.

i just write everything i want to have happen on the little cards and i look at them often and then subconsciously good ideas grow that help me realize them and next time i look on the card, i might find the small step necessary to bring it into reality. what i learned from this the most is how short a day is and how limited the resource called time is. good luck to you, i'll probably read the entire thread and if i think of something interesting i try my best to be short about it and not write an entire wall.

 No.228970

>>228968
>I do prefer to be pacified through daydreams and entertainment though.

that to me sounds like the gravity of your escapist habits trying to weigh you down. i hope you reach the point where you make your actual real life so enjoyable that you don't want to flee it anymore but i am nobody to give this advice, every few weeks or months i take a few days and binge some strategy or management pc-game, which is partly fleeing from my life for a short while but also kind of mental training i believe.

 No.229008

I think all those people you see doing "hard" or "boring" goals are still doing exactly what they want. It's just that their unique psychology is structured to make productive tasks coincide with their wants. Like the chad who grows up in a sports family and his father always talks about discipline or whatever. He builds up this model of physical hard work. He ends up becoming this fitness freak, again doing exactly what he wants.

Then there's wizards. they are doing what they want already. It just doesn't usually coincide with what a normie calls "productive." we are not machines. so you can't just be like: these goals i will achieve no matter what. in reality, you'll only do the things you really want. So like, people who lose weight… maybe they end up having others look down on them to such an extent that the desire to prove them wrong is greater than the desire to eat pizza. Still, doing what you want. I don't think human can really do anything outside of what they want. you need a reason that isn't bullshit. most people don't have any reason to do stuff so they just stagnate.

anyway, my reason is to hurt niggers, and thats what keeps me going.

 No.229009

>>229008
>I don't think human can really do anything outside of what they want. you need a reason that isn't bullshit.

being healthy isn't bullshit. your proud tradition of living outside of responsibility is though.

just think it through all the way and experience it once and you will know that being healthy is worth the price of admission. no pizza tastes as good as being healthy feels, no candy can come close to being thin and feeling light as a feather. the feeling of ability outshines every tasty treat that the factory can come up with.

you just live your life wrong and you will say everything not to look like the fool that you are behaving like. probably the advertisement that filled your brain with wrong images. like good-looking thin people eating garbage, that's one of the worst images that is clouding your perception because outside of advertisement, the unhealthy food is eaten by people who are visibly unhealthy and this would otherwise repel you if you weren't drip-fed lies by advertisement how there are healthy people eating trash. there aren't, those are actors.


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 No.322725[Reply]

i've seen a few wizards who don't seem healthy.

is too bad because being healthy is easy once you know what matters.
the practice of being healthy i have reduced to managing of habits:

you constantly manage your habits. you find out what they are by doing the opposite of being in autopilot. manual flight. then you imagine the long term consequences of each habit. then you decide if you want those, the development of a desired state. keep the desirable habits, reduce all those you don't want through constant attention on your habits.

as you do this you might stumble upon ways to improve upon the desirable habits. this is almost already doing the next thing, which is finding good new habits to practice and slowly wondering when you have time to do them.

it is up to you to be healthy, it is an option, you can make this happen if you so choose. health is one choice away.
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 No.323831

I have awful habits, I eat snack foods like chocolate and consume nicotine products. Persistent attempts to change this all have failed.
Don't be like me wizards.

 No.323832

>>323831
You can probably buy nicotine chocolate to knock your two bad habits down to one on a technicality.

 No.323833

>>323831
>Persistent attempts to change this all have failed.

is nice that you try. took me a while to get there, i hope you still have a few attempts left in you.

>>323832
>You can probably buy nicotine chocolate to knock your two bad habits down to one on a technicality.

-_-

chocolate is a particularly unfortunate thing to buy. i buy raw cocoa powder and mix it into smoothies.

nicotine i don't have that much experience with but i do know that if you smoke to get it, it is likely to cause problems.

 No.323870

>>323832
nicotine chocolate doesn't exist,
chocolate-flavoured nicotine products do however

 No.324383

i did not drink (and eat) enough for a while and was walking around way more then i usually do. i must have sweat a lot walking about 15km or more every day in a mountainous area with constant uphill and downhill.

turned out this made me dehydrated and i probably did not eat enough. felt very weak and i just slowly got worse. could not concentrate, cold and flu like symptoms, at one point it felt like i was coming close to the light… until i realized that i needed to rest more, eat more and most importantly drink more. then i witnessed my healthy body regenerate itself and deal with the hardship that i caused. took a few hours and this feeling of curtain-closing/ heading towards the light stopped and my body switched back on.

i am not sure but i may have accidentally neared something like a 'dry fast' by having calorie and fluid deficit every day. i do have experience in fasting and specialized restrictive eating so i guess my natural thirst and hunger signals are a bit worn down and unreliable. i explain it to myself like this: my body has seen what a good job i do putting food in so it would not assume that i don't eat enough by mistake. my body thought i was pro, still i did not eat and drink enough to adjust for the higher calorie need. the human body is a fascinating and honorable vehicle.


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 No.308343[Reply]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

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 No.308761

>>308687
The voices are real beings. They just only lie and make up shit in order to harass you.

When I started ignoring mine completely rather than entertaining their shit they lost their mind and started screaming and repeating the same sentences over and over. Like a robot that glitched out.

Anyway, normalfags will never entertain these ideas because The Science(tm) says it's not possible.

 No.308763

>>308761
my voices don't seem like a coherent being at all, while I sometimes get this unexpected stuff like this metahallucination, they mostly deliver this unbelievably disruptive and lame commentary upon my thoughts. Any attempt at interaction I get these annoying lines like saying one thing then the opposite the next. Sometimes replying to themselves.
I understand our voices can be very different and it's a big mistake to just assume other schizos have similar voices

 No.308768

>>308715
>I don't know what to say to him and I hope I didn't say anything wrong because I don't understand social cues. I hate being autistic so much because I'm scared I will say something wrong or be rude and I don't understand what to say to comfort someone or cheer them up.

Made me reflect on my own behavior because I often feel this way, but is it "autism" or just a lack of social experience of not being in contexts where you can emote and also genuinely not knowing what to say? What can you even say to someone with a chronic, debilitating condition like that? I'm sorry? That's horrible? Would a real person hug them and say something like "We'll get through this."?

I usually default to logic rather than emotion and try to ask questions and problem-solve; not that I can as they're mostly unsolvable. Most guys do this because we're told to not show emotion and experience situations where doing so usually backfires or effects no response so we stop, or like most wizzies never belonged nowhere and never had an environment where they could open up, so you don't learn, or unlearn, that feature.

Put any prototypical person in that context and they'd end up mostly the same, displaying "neurotypical" traits like a cold, flat affect and awkwardness. This isn't necessarily "autism". And this isn't related to anything you wrote, just that it's a pet peeve of mine. I hate the catch-all frivolous labelling of anyone slightly socially maladjusted (which can be attributed to all kinds of 1+1=2 type scenarios not necessarily some neurotic condition: a bullied kid will naturally be quiet, a friendless loner will naturally be uneasy around people). Othering people who naturally behave in certain ways due to their own particular lived experiences making them behave that way as neurodivergent alien-people is ass backwards imo. Imagine telling some young kid who didn't get a good start in life he's officially a broken weirdo down to his very genomes and he should expect a life of alienation and social faux pas for the rest of his days - how encouraging! Why not give him some ADHD meds too?

If you genuinely can't read social cues then maybe, but clearly you can, as you're concerned enough to write this post and didn't want to say the wrong thing and display enough empathy to worry if you offended him, e.g. you'rePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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>>308761
>The voices are real beings.
You claiming this is an even bigger sign of schizophrenia, if you keep feeding these delusions it might get worse before you realize so cut it out.

 No.308784

The weight of subjectivity is too much to bear. The indifference of objectivity offers no support to carry this weight. The cruelty of reality (vivid connection of subjectivity and objectivity) pushes the weight and repeatedly crushes it on a cemented surface.


/dep/

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You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

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>>308764
on the odyssey of a wizard, one shall be handed : The Tao

https://ia800507.us.archive.org/33/items/TaoTeChing/Tao_Te_Ching.pdf

 No.308771

>>308764
No one has ever achieved anything, whatever they did will be erased forever soon, people only think it matters because of the limited existence of humanity, but truly there’s nothing you can do with your life, “achievements” are a lie.

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>>308771
>No one has ever achieved anything
You don't actually believe this.

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>>308764
>23
you're still a toddler

 No.308783

Currently doing an IT internship on some government office.
Coming from having very tight schedules on previous jobs, two breaks of 15 mins and 30 mins for lunch, to a very fucking lax atmosphere is really shocking, as if my mind can't be convinced jobs like this really exists.
Guess that's government jobs for you, they don't last when administration change tho.


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