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 No.321660[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

PALESTINE OFFICIALLY RECOGNIZED AS A STATE OR WHATEVER. U.N RECOGNIZES THE INVASION OF THIRD-WORLDERS UPON EUROPE. YOUTUBE ANNOUNCED IT WILL BE RE-INSTATING CHANNELS BANNED BY BIDEN'S ORDERS DURING COVID AND 2024 ELECTIONS. ANTIFA DECLARED A TERRORIST SECT. ISRAEL "ONLY NATION CAPABLE" OF PLANTING CELLULAR MASS-DISRUPTION DEVICES OUTSIDE OF UN GENERAL ASSEMBLY. TIKTOK TREND SHOWS PREGNANT SUCCUBI DOWNING THERAPEUTIC LEVELS OF TYLENOL IN PROTEST OF ANNOUNCEMENT THAT DOING SO CAUSES AUTISM IN CHILDREN

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 No.324017

>>324014
Afghanistan, all of Kashmir + Ladakh, Pakistan, and then Iran under one nation and flag. Pretty nice. Aksai Chin is made the sole exception, enjoined to China.

 No.324025

USA | EU | Greater Israel VS Greater Iran | RU | China

Camp A, Camp B.
A strives to curate Greater Israel.
B responds via Greater Iran.

Greater Israel is an addition of Cyprus, then the eastern portion of Turkey transformed to Kurdistan, Alexandria in Egypt plus the Sinai Peninsula, Yemen, Iraq, Saudi Arabia, rest of the GCC all rolled into one. Capital's in Jerusalem.

Greater Iran is an addition of Afghanistan, Kashmir excepting the Aksai Chin, and Pakistan all rolled into one. Capital's in Gilgit, Baltistan, quite the mountainous place.

Georgia, Armenia, Azerbaijan form together as one block that's then absorbed into Russia.

Russia thus borders the EU, Greater Israel, Greater Iran, and all the way east China, Korea and Japan, while at the same time hovering over Central Asia and Mongolia. Hahaha.

Greater Iran's pretty much mostly 99% supported by China, ends up China's only transparent ally, and becomes its barrier from the west.

The soviets transformed Central Asia to their own safe-zone. Failed with Afghanistan, but they got all the others. So, China will try their own version of this with Greater Iran, trying to make up for the failure in Afghanistan there. In this way, you have balance. Truly the Tang Dynasty. Naturally, it can't begin unless and until the situation with Kashmir is permanently resolved and India is sealed away.

 No.324045

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I sometimes wonder what the upper hierarchy among the Jesuits think of today's current state. Their ultimate objective is the formation of a Holy United Europe and in their rank are men who certainly have conviction in the reality of the supremacy of the children of Israel. Further, the Jesuits likely have an objective of creating a one-nation-empire birthed from whatever was left of the Aryan bunch elsewhere ( see Greater Iran above, which I'll supplement includes Tajikistan ). They are, in essence, a collective far removed from any Mongoloid association and no doubt regard the entirety of that grouping either as savages, not even human, or something somehow lesser still. Notwithstanding this contempt, from time to time, it becomes necessary to propel a certain force upwards for a cause the result of which is determinable only at an exceedingly later date. No doubt, the Jesuits have had to induce similar empowerments elsewhere across the world during the past 500 years, but this time, we're seeing that empowerment play out in a totally foreign territory far removed from the lands and peoples oft spoken by God, to whom they the Jesuits see themselves an extension and natural part of, and to whom they regard as truly special. At any rate, in each session of empowerment, one sees a rippling result wherein the empowered body is extolled and praised as virtuous, kingly and superior to all other existences and practices throughout the lands. This time, being that the body is the foreign China–into which lies dominant the completely incongruence notion of atheism, an unusual material-technology worship, and above all the people themselves-this same China, is being regularly hymned, together with their kind. This means, a purely parallel force infinitely removed from everything pertaining connotatively, symbolically and literally of what the Jesuits stand for and would be recognized for is being slobbered over not only as superior to everything prior, but what ought, in principle, lead the entire world. Whether it's all a temporary design or no is beside the point. The question is, in the flux before the next stage, what do the Jesuits think? During the Nazi theatre, they could at least laugh or weep or rejoice at or have their interest captured on account of the fact that men from similar if not identical background were at the forefront of all. This time, it just feels sorta like cuckoldry, seeing at how it involves aliens, mongoloids. Jesuit loyalty is rPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.324048

The 12 stars of Europe, The 12 Olympians, The 12 hours on the clock face, the 12th equal temperament, and the 12th chapter. Considering the perfection of 12, I cannot imagine a 13th star to >>323991, meaning one nation will have to absorb the other, and the most likely is Greece absorbing Asia Minor. Every power must possess a distant, corresponding island to complement it. For Europe, that's neither Ireland nor England nor Scotland, but Iceland. For China, that's Taiwan. For Russia, that's Sakhalin. For India, that's Sri Lanka. For Greater Israel, that's Cyprus. For Greater Iran, though primarily a mountainous force, that's still Qeshm. For America… well, Cuba/Dominican Republic's pretty shitty compared to Greenland, so let's go with Greenland, despite all the above. For Australia, there's New Zealand. Everything balances itself out in the end.

 No.324049

>>324048
And well, there's Madagascar too. Maybe after the Bantu Expansion gets flipped and becomes the Bantu displacement (read: eradication), the African continent will become something somewhat capable and make good use of it.


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 No.323653[Reply]

I'm curious what the covid-19 vaccination rate is like among wizards.

Personally, I was the only one in my immediate and extended family to not get the vaccine or boosters. No doubt influenced by the normie propaganda, I faced a lot of harassement and pressure from my mother.

Knowing my family, I would also probably have been uninvited from family gathering for not having the vaccine but since I stopped seeing them 2 decades ago, it was a moot point.
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 No.323851

>>323850
When you sign up for the Hakurei mailing list and Men's fitness club, there's a field requiring you to explain why you hate youkai. You're not allowed to leave it blank.

 No.323921

I took it because I was a naive teenager back then and they also forced us to take it it in my europoor uni anyways, ever since I did so I've noticed my breathing has slightly worsened and it's very noticeable when exercising. I'm not very attached to life so i don't care that much but if I suffer a heart attack in the future I will know why.

 No.323924

>>323921
>naive teenager back then
Are there no wizards on wizchan anymore?

 No.323925

>>323924
One must surely see the writing on the wall, not shagging by 25 is a trajectory. I was sure of my future in highschool/college.

 No.324046

>>323655
How many unvaccinated do you know?


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 No.306675[Reply]

Lookism has become a public, popular topic lately on the internet and I believe that it affects wizards in very tangible ways.
Being a genetic dead end ugly loser myself I suffer for it even as a now "middle aged" man.
One would think such things are left behind in high school or something, but no.

You queue up for a service, government office for some paperwork, a cash register at a store, post office or hell even medical services.
You can tell the people before you were treated kindly. At worst processed in a neutral way.
Some even receive a cheerful response and the help they need, people go above and beyond for some.
Then it's your turn at the line.

A look of disdain follows immediately. Quiet. No "what can I help do for you" "what can I help you with" "what is the purpose of your visit".
Silence. Faces contort…
Sometimes a sigh, sometimes some snide remark. Clear hostility.

A shift in demeanor so noticeable, so obvious, so visceral… (yet to them likely natural) that even the thickest of autism wont help you stay oblivious to it.
You get mistreated, worse service, denied service you paid for, medical gaslighting, humiliation over and over again.
Networking is impossible for you, who by your mere acquaintance devalue their status.. and without connections, being treated like this, only having the "official route" as an option you soon realize you might not be able to get anything done.

After much pushing, repeated humiliations and humbling yourself, matching your demeanor to that expected of "your ilk" some old lady at the register might take pity and process your request, prescribe your medication, refer you to a proper doctor.
Sometimes the stars do align like that and you make a step towards a slightly less miserable state of being.

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 No.307808

>>307807
of course you're right, silly! everything's in our hands!!!

 No.307809

>>307808
>of course you're right, silly! everything's in our hands!!!

you don't know what is within your hands and what is not it seems. what a pitty. you're probably no too different from the succubus in the gif.

 No.307810

>>307809
noooo i'm not a succubus i'm not a succubus!!!

 No.307811

>>307810
>noooo i'm not a succubus i'm not a succubus!!!

you are as emotional

 No.308366

>>307765
>normals
aren't people.


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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.307513

>>306999
>>307254
Thanks for your wise words anon. I truly appreciate you taking the time to write all this, actually I read this a few days ago but I felt so terrible at the time even writing a reply felt like too much, sorry about that. But sincerely, thanks for this.

~95% is amazing. I found myself thinking earlier than if I recovered my anhedonia, even by 10 to 20% life would be worth it. As I said before I don't really care for lust, although it is a driving force in life when weaponized.

>this seems near totally impertinent to the restoration of a former normal chemical balance within your brain
I am such an idiot, I took too much lsd because I read that it could help me, I was deluded. I am having pretty severe side effects from that. I am right now in such a bad state, I can't reply all your post. I'm not sure if I can be saved anymore.

 No.307515

>>307513
Keto is great. I felt light and energetic. I loved it. But beware of carbo sensitivity after a while on keto. Include carbos slowly and don't diet for a long time and it's pretty good.

 No.307628

>>306999
>>307515
Should have saged what I sent a few days ago. I have now fully recovered from these side effects.

I've been doing alright. After trying to cure myself with a LSD trip (I let someone convince me that it was supposed to boost neuroplasticity and increase levels of BDNF), I got mild dpdr/hppd for a day and saw what an actual miserable life could be like. Now I know I have no right to end my life. And I will never do drugs again.

>There exists no objective logical ground for you to have imposed this conclusion on yourself as a sort of certain fatalistic sentence.
Very true. Thanks for stating this, wiz.

>Have you been taking a well-formulated B vitamin that contains both thiamine and folate?
Yeah, high quality B-complex that contains both daily for almost a month. Noticed slight energy improvement but it might just be the diet.

>Be mindful of any toothpaste tubes that may be formulated with sodium fluoride
Mine had it so I tossed it and got a non-fluoride one. Water I'm drinking seems low in it but I'm thinking about getting a filter anyway.

>Nitric oxide rich foods
Noted, already eating leafy greens, nuts and meat pretty much every day. Will add more where I can.

>Sauna
Looked into it, unfortunately it's pretty expensive around here. Will go if I find a decent option.
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 No.307761

>>307628
>Did you experience any degradation in visual imagination after SSRIs?

Yes, but it lessened in equal time in keeping with the betterment of all the other problems I was experiencing (sexual dysfunction, anhedonia. etc.).

This “degradation in visual imagination” has a technical name, which is “aphantasia”, meaning the inability to clearly form mental images. Aphantasia seems to be a somewhat common sequela of many classes of psychiatric medication, not just ssris. There’s an entire sub-reddit dedicated to discussing this issue. Here’s one thread in particular addressing the on-set of aphantasia following ssri usage: https://www.reddit.com/r/Aphantasia/comments/khsot8/aphantasia_as_aquired_after_use_of_ssris/

There is no consensus nonpharmacologic approach for treating aphantasia, but generally any class of meditative exercise that works to reground the eidetic library of the mind should be helpful.

Two examples of these exercises would be:

1. image streaming, where with eyes closed you self-narrate the nature of whatever visual forms first come into your mind, whether it’s darkness itself or some lesser shadow of an idea, essaying to restrengthen the link between your imaginative faculties and speech. this is something to be done a few times a week.

2. image journaling, where you try to be as verbally descriptive as possible in recording the features of your daily environment, retraining your brain to meaningfully engage with imagery. also a weekly exercise.

>with no emotions attached

This zombifying effect is peculiar to the use of all serotoninergic drugs. I remember a friend of mine relating to me how blunted and colorless the whole range of his thinking felt when withdrawing from escitalopram. I also experienced something similar. Ssris seem to induce some type of imprecise broad-spectrum brain injury, whose many symptoms require patience and intelligence to resolve. However be mindful not to ever lose confidence that the injury can be undone and cured (which I know is very hard when you are still injured). Colorlessness and emotional blunting, like aphantasia and anPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.308365

Reminder that SSRIs are jewish poison


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 No.301895[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.308180

>>308132
Too bad the apprenticeship model is gone. I'm sure it was a tough life, but getting housing and learning a trade sounds perfect for our temperament.

 No.308186

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>>308129
>Glutem
I learned that Soda every weekend fuck my sleep and next week days, i remember reading somewhere that aspies and etc have very low tolerance to sugar glutem or something around this maybe its glutem? that in a way swing my mood (i not aspie etc but… i dont know)
>>308176
>Still, even knowing this does not stop one from dreaming of their own personal Misaki coming to save them…
Misaki… uh, some more "Normie" aspies or larpers dudes have luck to get a problem succubi same as them.
>>308180
>I'm sure it was a tough life, but getting housing and learning a trade sounds perfect for our temperament.
Uh well, something like a jew jewelry master or a englisg art & craft teacher, a french shoemaker or a music master or a tailor? something like that sound nice to me but… well, its a hobby for life now and who knows if the pay is good, but well, maybe it can make you fully happy to your soul in the end, maybe more than trying to fix in this fucked up society or even trying to be a little more normal for a lot of assholes that live around us.

 No.308249

>>308186
>I learned that Soda every weekend fuck my sleep and next week days

aspartame might be what is causing your troubles. i know it gives me absolutely wicked headaches that last for days.

 No.308251

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>>308249
>aspartame might be what is causing your troubles. i know it gives me absolutely wicked headaches that last for days.
It’s been quite a while since I’ve had soda maybe over more than a month. The day before yesterday, I had just one to test it out, and yeah, it totally messed up my sleep and my mood. I don’t think I’m going to drink that crap again, though maybe I’ll try the ones without artificial sweeteners and colorings sometimes… or maybe not just in case.
The worst part is that last year was rough and fucked up in a lot of times, and I used to drink soda once a week… I know that maybe this is a over-generalization, but it might explain why last year was so fucked up to me.
Anyway, thanks you very much Wiz.

 No.308364

>>308249
Mass-produced soda has all sorts of bad things in it, not just aspartame.


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 No.307689[Reply]

I am losing my motivation im gonna fail out of Uni
I dont really want to quit, but I have less and less energy
I am in a state of constant burnout despite doing nearly nothing
im such a failure
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 No.307751

>>307739
>you can do that any time
you almost made it

 No.307762

>>307751
Why does that statement bother you?

 No.307764

>>307739
Excellent post. I graduated (((university))) but not without an attempt at suicide and additional fighting against constant depression.

 No.307775

>>307762
Because it's gay

 No.308363

>>307739
college is the ultimate neurodivergent filter. it doesn't test your intelligence, of course, it tests your ability to do things you don't like (work) and your sociability. this is true for the whole educational institution, but especially college. this makes it the final filter for autists, schizoids, and antisocial people in general. the educated echelons of society and their jobs hinge on socialization, networking, collaboration, etc. this becomes clear when you're in college.

i've been in college for two years now and i am certain i will not finish, i stay because it's free and i get a number of benefits. but finishing many obligatory classes involves socialization, working with people in projects, and this is unacceptable to me. I'm also required to write a research paper to get my degree, and this is not happening as it requires discussions with teachers, classmates, etc. ultimately my conclusion from college is that people like me don't have a place in functional society.


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 No.308343[Reply]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

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 No.308348

>>308346
and do you ever try to face the silence during the day?

sometimes i get sick of the bickering voices filling my head from podcasts and youtube and i take a break during the day… it's even more harrowing than at night because i am asking myself "OKAY NOW WHAT DO I DO?" when i stop distracting At least at night i know the answer is "try to sleep"

 No.308349

>>308346
>>308347
>>308348
I feel you guys so hard, but for me it comes with the small variation of distracting myself endlessly online by opening thousands of tabs, sometimes my browser crashes and the session fails to recover.

And in the dead silence of the night I realize ive been getting excited and looking forward to, what could you call them? Inane crap? Spooks? Literally nothing? Idk, I try to remember if there was a single tab amongst thousands worth saving, reading or delving into and I find no answer, its just noise to distract myself from my painful reality

 No.308355

>>308346
i see the post nut clarity hit hard there wizanon…

 No.308356

Boredom is one of those human ailments that isn't given proper consideration. Being depressed, lonely, poor, sick, these are "real" human problems, but being bored is just ignored. No one takes boredom seriously, despite the large amounts of human suffering it causes.

People spend much of their time trying to find a way to flee from boredom, and yet many don't even realize they ARE bored, like a society of people who are on painkillers 24/7, nobody would recognize that they are in pain. You only need distractions if you are, in fact, bored, and yet so few people admit to being bored, while at the same time actively running away from it! It's fucking absurd.

I'm extremely bored, and I find that being bored is one thing that can't be defeated with any amount of ingenuity or creativity or money or entertainment. It destroys the human soul.

 No.308362

>>308356
Boredom is the cause of a lot of drug and alcohol addictions. It's why it's the most impulsive normies most prone to boredom that get hooked.

Autists seem to have a very high tolerance to boredom and that's why they're in some sense blessed. I knew a guy years ago who said he was jealous about how I could just lose myself in a subject while he couldn't.

Schopenhauer is the one philosopher who gives boredom a proper place in his analysis, and sees it as basically the root of essential suffering. When we have satisfied every desire, boredom creeps in, it prevents us from actually ever being truly satisfied permanently, and sets in motion action.


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 No.303736[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.308352

>The Subjective Happiness Paradox

>One of Hurst’s most striking findings was that despite their employment dropping and many of them living at home with their parents, this group of men reported being happier on average than the same demographic did in the early 2000s.

>This creates an invisible economic drag. Because the digital world provides cheap, high-yield dopamine, it subsidizes a lower standard of living. People become content with lower economic performance because their primary source of satisfaction is digital and virtually free.

Turns out being a terminally online loser NEET makes you happier, who knew.

 No.308353

>>308352
I'd rather have been one back in the early 2000s even with dial up and no DSL.

 No.308357

>>308353
You say that but the boredom would have killed you. Torrenting took longer, Youtube wasn't around until 2006, 4chan was still kind of slow in 2004, and nothing on tv during the week except trash.

 No.308360

>>308352
where is this from?

 No.308361

>>308360
"We find that younger men reported in
creased happiness during the 2000s, despite stagnant wages, declining employment rates and
increased propensity to live with parents/relatives. This contrasts sharply with older men,
whose satisfaction clearly fell, tracking their decline in employment. We see this as suggestive
of a role for improved leisure options for younger men"

One major innovation in the mid 2000s was taking social interactions in general, and
video gaming in particular, online. Facebook, started in 2004, grew from 12 million users in
2006 to 360 million by 2009. Likewise, a generation of new video game consoles introduced in
2005 and 2006 allowed individuals to interact with others online.

https://www.nber.org/system/files/working_papers/w23552/w23552.pdf

It's argued that being chronically online makes NEETs happier, basically.


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 No.223082[Reply]

How do you genuinely just stop caring about everything shitty in your life? I just want to become numb to it all. People always say you shouldn't, but whenever I let myself feel any small amount of happiness the feeling of sadness/depression that I'll inevitably feel later is so painful it makes me wish I just didn't feel anything at all in the first place. Meditation has gotten close to this and I like the peace it gives me but I wish I felt that peace all the time.
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 No.228704

Get a job and interact with the normals, you'll become first anxious, then mad, then eventually your brain adjusts and you become numb to their pecking and yo life in general.

The reverse is also possible, any extended period of isolation will rewire your brain back its original state and you'll start caring again.

 No.228754

>>228704
This is accurate.
Exposure to normies and work in general numbs you to a lot of bullshit.

 No.228756

I don’t recommend numbness at all wizard, mind you I am mentally ill (Szpd) so do take what I say with a grain of salt.

Numbness on paper sounds great and I used to wish for it back when I had a comorbid depression, so not only I couldn’t feel any “good” emotions (happiness, excitement, joy etc) I could only feel pain, depression, agony etc, but in reality numbness is a sort of quiet hell that I wish on no one, even after getting cured of my depression and getting to feel emotions normally for some time, my body eventually defaulted back to its primary defenses dissociation, numbness and such (schizoid defenses in nature) and so I’ve been living as a numb fuck for around 3 years now, I’m content and at least those few brief moments every few months were I get to feel it’s almost always completely positive emotions, but outside of those bright moments everything is nothing.

Now, you might consider that sounds kind of decent (especially if you’re currently depressed or anything similar) but its not, emotions are the primal reason for humans to move, by this I mean motivation, goals, desires etc, all of that comes greatly from emotions, sure cognitive reasoning will give you reasons for but it wont give you the natural drive to strive and actually want/act for things, especially since trough a sustained numbness you’ll reach a state where “nothing matters”, even if like me you are overall content and want to live as long as possible you won’t actually have the drive for that because there is no emotion to back that cognitive desire, when there is no seeming pleasure or enjoyment from anything (not even pain, or at least not one I can feel) nothing matters, and so you end up drifting aimlessly trough life, mind you I don’t have an issue with this because I genuinely can’t care even if I want to (I only care about like 3 things/people in the world) but the world isn’t made for people like me, you need money, and for that you need employment, if you want a decent job that actually nets you enough to live like a human being (the bare minimum, 3 meals, water and electricity, clothes, a roof etc) you will need some sort of training or degree, achieving all of this requires sustained effort and desire, cognitively I want to exist and live, but in practice nothing really matters because I’m numbed the fuck out and therefore I don’t do shit essentially, I’m fine with that but again, I’ll eventually go homeless you know, and if that doesn’t happen it’Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.228763

>>228756
Can you tell us more about the schizoid personality disorder? Have you tried therapy? I suspect I have the same disorder because everything fits in the description even the indifferent to praise or criticism part.

 No.228768

>>228763
Sure, this shitty illness is hell (and similar conditions or even just symptoms by themselves) so if anyone can find some solace in my posts or at least finds them interesting then that’s cool with me, not like I have anything better to do anyways, first I’ll admit I’m not currently officially diagnosed but not due to a lack of trying, I’ve been trying to find what’s wrong with me for a good chunk of time now and sadly despite my various treatment periods with professionals (psychologists and psychiatrists) they always refuse to diagnose because “we should focus on treating symptoms” it’s a noble way of seeing it as some people can actually be worse if given a diagnosis but that’s not my case so it’s just annoying, anyways that could be different where you live or at least there might be someone specialized in PD’s maybe even Szpd specifically, with that little thing out of the way.

Anyways I suppose now I’ll talk about my own experience as someone who obviously has this shit since that’s probably what interests you, honestly this probably developed during my teenage years due to trauma, the generic things you know, the economy of my country went to crap so my largely “middle-class” life crashed down as we descended into almost poverty, my parents would fight constantly and sometimes badly, I had no escape, life felt meaningless, school felt meaningless, I started masking my pain away (dissociation and derealization kind of) while on school because I didn’t want people to know my home issues etc, due to all of that and more I developed a depression (like I mentioned in my previous post) and while I didn’t realize when I was younger I started developing some symptoms/traits of Szpd, so my depression (what for years I saw as my only issue) developed concurrently with the disorder or at the very least the symptoms, behaviors etc of the disorder (since there is the dimensional model from the ICD-11 where Szpd and the other PD’s don’t exist but rather their symptoms), if anything looking back those symptoms, probably developed before the depression because I can somewhat remember being really numb, apathetic and such before actually starting to experience depression, anxiety and eventually suicidal ideations, this makes sense too as it’s sometimes considered on the literature regarding Szpd that most people who develop it have a defense mechanism thaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.


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 No.308271[Reply]

Would you trade autism/trauma/neurodivergency/lifelong depression/emotional neglect/whatever else that makes you a visitor of this forum to physical disability?

like you wouldn't be socially and emotionally stunted but instead didnt have one leg? or you were deaf? or blind? would you take that instead?
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 No.308290

I would happily trade one of my legs for permanent neetbux, don't care much about the autism stuff.

 No.308291

>>308279

I just listen To People. I remember what they say and react To something 1% of the time. I get positive reactions. This is a lot better than being silent 100% of the time. I was In a work outing yesterday. Was silent 99% of the time. Just listened.

 No.308292

>>308290
If you're in the first world you can get any job, then have a serious accident on it and get hurtbux for life. You can then work for cash under the table when you need to upgrade your gaming PC.

 No.308358

>>308292
lol if it was only that easy. The first world isn't this magical land of wealth, mainly because too many of you turd worlder flocked here and put a strain on all the resources.

 No.308359

>>308358
Just let him live in his delusion because he ain't getting out of it anytime soon


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 No.227929[Reply]

Norms, notions and behaviors they have that annoys you.

>Never argue with your critics or openly dismiss them
Their blood seems to almost always boil when you openly disagree or argue back against their point of view. They seems to just expect you to just nod along and agree(even if it's dishonestly).
Even if they deliverer their criticism rudely they expect you to still be polite with them.
Been told that snarky responses to people's criticism like
>I don't care go fix it yourself if you have a problem with it!
>Rich coming from an amateur like you, I like to see you do better!
>Who cares about what you have to say? Shove it up your ass!
>If you don't like it then do something else!
Will just ensure no one will bother to be honest with you, if they see you do something that is bad/wrong they will keep their mouth shut or lie saying you're doing great and hope you sabotage for yourself.
For a while I bought this. However, it just lead to people daring to be more rude with me. Eventually lead me to snap and revert to my old behavior. Then people started to choose their words more carefully when they talk to me.
Most of the time their criticism isn't even constructive, it's just them wanting you to cater to their preferences. So far this "antisocial" behavior haven't cause me any harm.
This is just some bollocks normies made up, because they don't like when people disagree or argues with them. They just want to be "right" without any push back.
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 No.228760

I hate that they sometimes refuse to say things outright. At work, I was tasked with training a normie coworker. It was entirely optional. The boss made it very clear that it was "just in case" I wasn't around.

Did this coworker say, "Nevermind, I'm good."
Did he go, "Oh, I actually have to do something else [make an excuse]…"
No. He groaned and rolled his eyes and sighed very heavily. At the time I didn't realize these were signs he was uninterested but looking back, I'm annoyed that he wasted his time and mine.

They expect you to read their social cues instead of just saying what they want or need. And then they assume that you too are playing this game and so your autistic apathy or natural monotone voice/expression/demeanor registers as rudeness or disrespect because that's how they are. Exhausting shit.

 No.228764

>>228760
>Nevermind, I'm good
but then he would look cocky and that's a bad look!
>Oh, I actually have to do something else [make an excuse]…
but then your coworker would be a liar, how would he justify in his own mind that he is still a "good" person?

I noticed that many normies have a degree of narcissism and thinks too highly of themselves. It's all about appearance and how they are perceived.
It's mainly a thing among normies who are nobodies. Those who have nothing going for them and done nothing notable. Noticed how those who brags and act cocky tends to look like average joes, while typical gym goers and actually successful people don't behave like that?

 No.228765

>>228764
Yeah, definitely. Even if it's due to workplace professionalism, I've met people that make seven figures a year by being very good at their jobs that are quite humble and willing to share credit with others. Meanwhile I've also met self-aggrandizing dipshits who think they're God's gift to humanity because they won some local junior sports competition one time more than two decades ago, or they're slightly better at a videogame than the average player.

 No.228766

>>228764
>actually successful people
Trump is an obese narcissist who has made America his bitch, but he ain't no normie. He's an original.
>>228765
The world is more complicated than just pure money. Fixers who are movers and shakers might not actually be that rich but have outsized influence. Epstein wasn't that wealthy on paper.

 No.228767

Their whole rat race culture. They all rush out of their homes simultaneously on Monday, doing whatever they can to be 'first' then every Friday scramble home despite the exact same weeks BEING THE EXACT FUCKING SAME. It's pointless being in a hurry when you're on the same time schedule as everyone else, every Monday and Friday will be identical, yet it's as though their brain erases all data from the prior week and they commence their shitty hurried behavior. Literal fucking npcs.


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 No.39161[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

In this thread we say we love our waifus.

Today is Lynne-chan's birthday! She hopes everyone is doing their best!

Last thread from 2017 >>>/jp/22727
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it was in this world of lies that i found her

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Amazing they can make her so badass and so cute at the same time

 No.44310

>>44306

What do you think of her beta design compared to her official one?

 No.44319

>>44022
This made me think about my constant struggle against my own mind torturing me in a different light. The idea that my waifu isn't the innocent and pure has been an intrusive fear for a long time that manifests itself in different ways, no matter how small any random detail I managed to interpret as a sign that my fear was true, like her clothing choices being kind of traditional dresses.
At the end of the day Im responsible for those thoughts and they arent reality, I have been trapped for so long that my fears became more real to me than reality.
Its hard to look at her the same way I used to, I hope to return to that.


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 No.324033[Reply]

I don't think AI will be around for long, and not for the reason people think.

AI is very old technology, the LLMs utilized are from the 1950s. When computers were first invented they tried using artificial neurons that learnt (the Perceptron). The problem was back then memory and scaling, you could get one node to learn but by the time it went to the next it started to forget. The hardware wasn't there. Because of this AI bots relied on binary tree if/else statements and weren't programmed to learn for decades.

All that happened in the 2010s was that hardware became available to stack LLMs on top of each other. The technology behind AI is veeeeery old, it's a hardware problem. If you're some nerd that reads into tech innovations you'll find the same is true for most inventions. Wood pulp paper wasn't suddenly eureka invented in the 19th century, it's that the steam engine made the processing of wood through mulching possible. The automatic threshing machine wasn't eureka invented, it's that there were dozens of invisible small innovations that fed into it that went unthanked, like the complex mathematic epicycloid calculations that went into the gear functions that some mathematics nerds and clockmakers perfected decades ago.

Anyways, the actual supply chains that are currently feeding the current top of the line GPUs and chips are unsustainable. They're spread across so many countries and it's like a precarious inverted pyramid, each part of the chip fabrication is a monopoly because it's stretching human ingenuity and ability to its absolute limit. And for every part of the input (the lenses, the robotic arms, the chemical acids, the light diodes for the lasers, etc) there's like another 5,000+ companies making bespoke tools for specialists. It's quite literally not cost effective or arguably even possible to scale production further. Like the Concorde and other supersonic jets, the rising costs are not due to economic constraints, but human. The concorde went out of service, and likewise AI will too.

The AI bubble will burst once they try to recuperate costs, once they find out that businesses don't want to pay $100,000 for the slop, they'll get a government bail out. The government will bail it out thinking they're getting a palatinr tier surveillance engine. This will turn out to be a white elephant because the AI data centers built will require replacing every 3 years due to the GPUs burning out, costing hundreds Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.324034

so you're saying the world will regress one day?

 No.324035

>>324034
I'm saying yeah, very likely. A globalized vertically integrated supply chain struggling to break from a market monopoly, with literal superpowers economically unable to condense the entire production within their borders, yeah, it's unsustainable.

A single major geopolitical crisis would topple that fine inverted pyramid of expertise and it'd arguably take another 5-10 years to scale back up again once collapsed, even if it could scale up again. And even if it doesn't collapse, it's flatlining. The shit about "specialized architecture" is just computing reverting to how it was before the silicon chip got invented and they focused on universal scaling. Moore's law is well over at this point and the 2nm-3nm shit isn't true for the entirety of the chip's wafer length, it's just specific parts and it's used to market improvements that don't exist.

Economic specialization is like an onion, one machine tool leads to the production of finer machine tools. This is likely the final reach.

 No.324041

>>324033
>as tech will regress to about 2012 level hardware.
I'd be okay with this if it also led to a push for optimisation on the software side. Most theoretical performance improvements I'm supposed to see from newer hardware don't translate to real world usage because operating systems and apps have become more bloated and gobble up the overhead.

 No.324044

I believe AI is the ultimate enslavement of humanity…
https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/crrpggegwe0o
I don't trust them at all


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 No.307023[Reply]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

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 No.308114

>>308113
you won't die with these, just turn yourself into a braindead drooling retard. Why do you want to end your life?

 No.308115

>>308114
>Why do you want to end your life?
>>308114

 No.308240

>>307698
>i just want to kill myself
same. would also like to die in my sleep.

 No.308245

yeah would be cool to simply never wake up

 No.308354

>>308113
ODing often goes wrong, you might want to consider different methods


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 No.322610[Reply]

happy new year and all of that.

treat yourself to some sesame paste if you never head any. i regret learning about this so late, i can't help but want to warn others on not missing out on this goodness. it is just one ingredient crushed industrially into paste: sesame seeds.

when you buy it in the store it is separated and the separation is strong. when you stick a spoon in and try to stir, the bottom is so strong that the spoon can not stir. and you have to shake it and keep it in a shook state.

the sesame paste hides behind a bit of effort but the reward is worth the extra work.

the taste is amazing. mild and nutty. the nice thing about this is that it has a high fat content but it is not as impossible to digest as oil is. it still has it's fiber.

i use this to make sauces without oil. i just put tomatos and herbs into a blender and then i add a few tablespoons of this stuff and it turns into a nice creamy sauce but a sauce that the human organism has the chance to actually digest reasonably.

this stuff is so good, i wonder why it is not sold in regular supermarkets, i bother to go to the muslim markets just to get this goodness.
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 No.323912

>>323903
>what is more surprising there isn't any relevant information on what each foodstuff does to the body compiled already
>no current research either
>all you can find in medical papers is nutrient x correlates with condition y

you have reached the point at which you can see the inferiority of a system that is based on money and violence in which a a few disproportionately influence what the many get to hear based on the whims of psychopaths and their secret world of 5d chess.

the solution to this is look for the information yourself. in this case i believe it means: you have to know how each type of food is digesting in your human body.

in the beginning you might not be able to know all the details like ph-values about everything but you are equipped with everything to solve this puzzle. you can tell how long something travels through you, how it makes you feel, if you feel tired, hopeless and depressed or strong, optimistic and full of life. meanwhile advertisement and convenience try to seduce you.

>last significant discovery in nutritional science was the discovery of the vitamins in the early 20th century

don't limit yourself to science if you are so far as to understand that science is but the expression of the inferior system. science found the lymphatic system in the brain only a few years ago while others knew this for a long time. recently they (the science bitches) found the brain converts glucose to fructose.

 No.323914

>>323912
>you have reached the point at which you can see the inferiority of a system that is based on money and violence in which a a few disproportionately influence what the many get to hear based on the whims of psychopaths and their secret world of 5d chess.
Yes
>the solution to this is look for the information yourself.
There's not much you can do except toying with different kinds of foods and diets and see how you feel. If a certain routine causes cancer in the long term but makes you feel good in the short term there's no way to know this.
>you are equipped with everything to solve this puzzle.
best case you find some routine which works for you, nothing really compensates for this lack of information and presence of misinformation
>science is but the expression of the inferior system.
The modern way of doing science was invented in Western Europe a couple of centuries ago in a society very different and unlike our current system. Science itself is not tied to the system and people's outside of the system also engage in investigation, speculation and collection of knowledge.

 No.323941

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HOLY CRAP U TURKISH OR SOMETHIN?:3

 No.324042

>>323914
>There's not much you can do except toying with different kinds of foods and diets and see how you feel.

not much? to me that is a lot. when you eat everything at once you never know, if you only eat the same you know after a few days.

>If a certain routine causes cancer in the long term but makes you feel good in the short term there's no way to know this.

there is no reason to be completely dismissive of foreign information, until you find a way to know for sure whether something is good for you or not which usually is something easily attainable.

>best case you find some routine which works for you, nothing really compensates for this lack of information and presence of misinformation

yeah you slowly go towards the stuff that works and away from what harms and you get your routines. time management ability and self-respect ability to break and create habits is important in this.

>Science itself is not tied to the system and people's outside of the system also engage in investigation, speculation and collection of knowledge.

i guess the term science is too imprecise then. there should be one term to describe the artform of individuals gathering knowledge to solve problems or improve situations and the craft of wearing a labcoat and getting rich producing papers to "prove" how softdrinks aren't the problem.

 No.324043

>>323941
>TURKISH

i recently learned that tahini is hard to find when i look in regular muslim supermarkets, i must have been lucky that my local turkish store not only sells it but sells it in such amazing quality.

a few days ago i bought the first tahini i could find from a local hygene store (after trying ~7 muslim non-turkish food stores) that also sells some more expensive health conscious food and it tasted horrible. really bad i am not making this up. i didn't know quality can be this bad.


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 No.324001[Reply]

greetings wizzerds, i hope you are doing good. i am currently in south africa for a holliday because i was hoping to find nice places to live in case europe becomes uninhabitable and unlike many of you i generally do not feel hatred towards the negro but i am willing to admit that there is truth to the common criticisms.

>rough place to live
>everybody lives behind automatic gates, high walls, except for the people in the slums, i walked through there which was nerve wrecking. it is very difficult to avoid them because there are always just few roads to choose to go some place.
>infrastructure is far behind though the most important stuff functions
>water could be drunk from the tap in theory but the system often is often brekaing down and dirty water comes out the tap until they fix it.
>no toiletpaper or soap in the library bathroom
>the university is built like a prison, security checks everywhere, cameras everywhere
>people give me dirty looks, they are way more scared of me then i am of them (thanks to meditation, i kid you not, i repeat i kid you not)
>people do scam me every chance they get, it feels awful and it is so obvious but i don't know how to deal with it i just give them more and don't mind but it demoralizes and saddens me
>guard dogs everywhere, barking all night, human guards everyhwere
>i have seen less then 10 white people in the whole town and they were all fat and dead inside
>there are a lot of aggressive females the same way i know it from europe but there are also quiet peaceful succubi, many of them wear the fake hair which looks ridiculous
>there is an abundance of affordable food but the people eat stuff that is very bad for them, a lot of overweight people

still my heart goes out to the the people and i gently smile at them. they did not deserve to be colonized by english people and now they have all the typical disadvantages of an english speaking culture.
the one nice thing is that the weather is real. there are no chemtrails in the sky and no strange looking mechanical demoralizing cloud formations.
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 No.324030

>>324029
I mean is it really that out there compared to the homeless in Japan thread?

 No.324036

>>324028
heh oh wow, no plans so far. i didn't know there were race maps of places good googely moogely!

 No.324038

>I feel like it should be unexpected but solo backpacking isn't that uncommon of a pastime probably.

packpacking would probably be too hard for a hermit like me. to never have any place to hide when people become too thirsty sounds courageous and heroic to me but it would drain my social batteries very quick because people always wanna meet me wherever i go.

>Have nice trip OP.

thanks mang

 No.324039

>>324030
>I mean is it really that out there compared to the homeless in Japan thread?

there is this one guy on youtube who just goes to places to be homeless there and live off bread and hummus and in one episode he was in japan, slept in a bamboo forrest his first night. what a badass.

don't be comparing me to badasses like that, rude, i am but a simple hermit who will outlive you consumer smoothbrains by decades.

>duckface.jpg

 No.324040

just had a fun encounter. went to the store i go to to buy water. they did not have the big water bottles. muslim guy who doesnt work there tells me they sell them at the barber shop as i grab a package of smaller waterbottles. i say i can't go there because i want to be loyal to this store …

…and also i don't believe in barbershops as i slightly lift my headgear to let my otherwise hidden long hair fall out just a bit before i quickly tuck it back in so that the female at the checkout couldn't see who was busy with her stupid phone as the muslim guy and one other guy were laughing


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 No.63216[Reply]

Games you played that were not as good as the mainstream masses/reviewers would had you believe.
Also games that were recommended by "patricians", that turned out to just be games that cater to their autistic taste.

While I didn't find the gameplay or aesthetic of borderlands bad. The writing is so god damn cringy, it's like a boomer trying to write something he thinks modern teens like. After 2 hour I just couldn't stand it anymore. Gearbox were veterans and they had the backing of 2K a major publisher, this was the best writer they could get?
The deigns of banished isn't bad. It just that it felt like doing homework instead of playing a fun game. Many hours of planning, trail and error. Only an autist could think about spending the weekend for this.
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 No.63543

>>63542
It's people who never grew out of their teenage phase who usually do this, when you're an adult with the mind of an adult you don't attach yourself into a piece of media so much that not only you're incapable of judging it for what it is but also in some cases dudes into their 30s and 40s will get emotional with online strangers for it, it's just a piece of media made for consooming like all videogames and there's nothing wrong with that.

As for overrated videogames, I will say TES IV Oblivion and Fallout 3. Both of these games are made in the same engine and have many similarities, most particular is that they're a bugfest far beyond any other game in their respective franchises. I will admit I didn't play Fallout 3 for more than a few hours before tapping out but that's because I found everything about the game unfathomably boring: the gameplay, gunplay, the empty atmosphere and the storyline. Fallout 4 gets a lot of well-deserved bad rep that this game also deserves, at least f04 had multiple endings, better gunplay and the atmosphere and exploration felt much better, it wasn't a good rpg but it's a good action-adventure game unlike fallout 3, a bad game.

Now with Oblivion, this one I'm 100 hours in and only have the DLCs and some minor quests left, for its time it might have been a better game but it lacks the atmosphere that Morrowind and Skyrim had, where every piece of the map is memorable and recognizable, meanwhile Oblivion's outer world is just trees trees trees. The fact that the game lets you tp to any capital city after finishing the tutorial is Bethesda's confession to exploration not being worth it. The dungeons all feel the same and they're usually just there for filler, Morrowind and Skyrim's dungeons again are memorable and recognizable in comparison, and more fun to explore. The questlines are alright, only the Dark Brotherhood really caught my attention but I haven't started Shivering Isles yet. Lore is again less interesting than the one is Morrowind and Skyrim, especially Morrowind. But my biggest gripe with this game is that the leveling system is so badly made that you're discouraged from leveling up, I just ended up playing the game in god mode to go through the game as quick as possible. The game has its charm and I don't think it's bad, just overrated.

 No.63544

>>63223
>Masochistic combat is gay and lame and waiting for enemies to do their cool moves while you walk around and dodge for 50 years like a cuck to hit once or twice is boring as fuck.
Pretty much why I never got into Monster Hunter, back when that was the big thing on PSP.

>>63299
>>63301
I've never played Skyrim, but from what I've heard elsewhere, it sounds like a high quality sandbox for mods more so than a high quality game. Cyberpunk 2077 is basically its spiritual successor in that regard.

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>>63542
>Maybe a game was good at the time, and your fading memory made them even better, but that does not mean these games are flawless masterpieces.
You nailed it. I tried games that old gamers(those born in the 80s) always recommend, just to see why they always hype them so much. Most of the time they aren't as good as the old gamers claim them to be.

half life despite being a shooter, also tries to be a puzzle-platformer. The puzzle-platforming sections aren't even good, at best they are boring at worst they are annoying. they take up like half of the game. I know Valve added these sections to have variety and preventing the game from feeling repetitive. Still you can't just turn a blind eye to it, if you want to judge it fairly. As a whole the game is just decent. Not this amazing game that BTFO modern shooters. Old gamers will have you believe this is a game you can't miss out on. They are wrong, you are not missing out on anything special if you skip this game.

 No.63548

>>63546
Yes, Half-Life is a perfect example. Its main claim to fame is that it pioneered this sort of seamless narrative storytelling in an FPS game where set-pieces unfold and characters monologue to you in real-time instead of in cutscenes, and the game never takes control away from the player. It also had decently immersive environments and good graphics for its time. At the time Half-Life was a solid experience. Other shooters were absolutely more primitive in that regard, I mean look at a game like Turok (1997) and then compare that to Half-Life, it's obvious why it made a splash when it came out.
The problem is that when you divorce it from the time period in which it was released, the game really is nothing special. The graphical wow-factor certainly isn't there, and the seamless narrative stuff is something that's basically standard now.
I don't understand why people can't just say "yes, at the time it was doing unprecedented things, but compared to modern games it's very dated" -that doesn't mean the game is bad, or that you can't like it, but why do we need to build this whole cult around it where its immune to criticism?

 No.63549

>>63548
>this whole cult around it where its immune to criticism?
Fanboyism. They want to believe that their favorite game is "special" for whatever reason. Timeless classics that still BTFO modern titles.
Deus ex have this cult fan base that praise the game for predicting the future. The devs themselves probably didn't try to predict anything. They were like "hey let's make a world where Illuminati is actually real and all these conspiracy theories being true". The idea of a futuristic dystopian police state already dates back to old novels like brave new world and 1984.


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 No.308328[Reply]

There's been several major deaths in my family over the past few years. People that actually respected me and whose company I enjoyed. They're all gone now. Tomorrow, I will have to call some of them and finish up some things I've been putting off for almost a decade now.

I tried to find a picture of something happy. Here is a picture of an ice cream cone.

 No.308329

>>308328
My condolences wiz. After a decade, getting that stuff done will be a weight off your shoulders I imagine. My gran is getting worse too, she has dementia, I think. Despite her having been a huge part of my childhood though, the prospect of her dying doesn't make me feel any particular kind of way. We haven't had much contact for a decade and I guess childhood is far enough away at this point that it feels like a different life entirely. Yet I do not look forward to the arrangements and all that and I'm terrified of something happening to my mom.

 No.308331

>>308329
>Despite her having been a huge part of my childhood though, the prospect of her dying doesn't make me feel any particular kind of way
That's the normal human adult male response. You can weep for the tragedy of an untimely demise that obliterates any hopes you had for good times together in the future. You can shed tears of joy and the good memories you've shared. It makes no sense however to cry for someone who lived long enough to expire naturally. Someone whose existence has become tiresome, and who can no longer create good times for themselves or their family, ought to have their life cheered as opposed to having their death grieved.

 No.308333

>>308331
I suppose that might be part of it. As cruel as it sounds, it has become tiresome to talk to her on the phone and always having the same conversation. How her friends are slowly decaying around her, how her nausea is better/worse than last time I called, how cute my cousin's newborn is. And always the phrase that "everyone wants to grow old but nobody actually wants to be old.". But strangely enough, my mother told me about her colleagues dog being diagnosed with a terminal lung tumor over the weekend and that wrenched my heart. I suppose because in my mind it felt more shocking that this big, kind, fuzzy creature should perish all of a sudden, no longer being able to experience the simple joys of being a dog with a loving family.
How is it for you anon? How close were you with your family? You say they respected you and you enjoyed their company but how does the loss actually feel for you?

 No.308351

life is temporary

memento mori


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this thread is for Hikikomori and N.E.E.Ts.
use this thread as an exchange between hiki and neet and share what you think is worth sharing.
here's a website that sell hikikomori themed magazine in japan. the website has some interviews of hiki around the world. if you'd like to check it, here's the link: https://www.hikipos.info/
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 No.323255

>>323175
>it has been getting unbearable, the boredom and monotony are agonizing
funny that you say this because wagecucking for a couple years has the same result.
shitty work becomes monotone, unbearable and agonizing and you are counting the seconds until you can go home. by the time you are indeed back home you notice you are too tired to do anything that requires effort so you doomscrool jewtube and play videogames for an hour and then its off to bed so you can wake up and spend another day counting down the minutes and seconds until you can go home.
yeah and money? forget about money, as a lowly wagecuck you are just as poor as a neet.

 No.323949

>>323255
those words are true. to become rich, you need to make an ambitious video game by yourself like notch

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Nowadays everybody on Twitter who isn't working a 9-5 but makes money otherwise calls themselves a "NEET". For me you are only a neet if you either live of welfare or your parents. If your parents die and you inherit their money you aren't a neet anymore even if your life stays exactly the same. You cant be neet and have wealth, be a landlord, cryptobro, trader or whatever, that is at least my definition of it.

 No.323965

>>323961
Your definition is quite irrelevant because it's patently incorrect. NEET is an acronym standing for 'Not in Education, Employment, or Training'. It's not related to one's source of income at all.

 No.324032

I've been a NEET for 9 months now. I'm at that point where the boredom and lack of enjoyment of my hobbies is starting to hit. Yet the memories of how bad wageslaving was are also fresh enough to not want to go back to that so I'm kind of stuck in limbo.


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Stepped on the scale today and realized that despite the initial "push" from a medical crisis a year ago, I basically regained all weight I lost (minus 5-10kg).
I also realized I've been working for almost 3 years now, going to be 30 the same week I'll hit my 3 years of work too.
3 years… of wages wasted.

I don't even know what the fuck I spent most of it on. It just escapes me.
Still live with mom and all my necessities are taken care of she takes nothing from me.
I had a blessed opportunity these past 3 years to save up for the dogshit future that hit the world now and I wasted it on toys and basically indulging all I couldn't as a NEET with no money.
The worst is that since I'm an impulsive retard I mostly have nothing to show for it either.

Health is even more fucked then ever before since I never took action.
Rather every action that didn't prove fruitful or flat out failed resulted in my absolute surrender for another month or three or six…
Absolutely defeated at the starting line basically.

To get to the point of this thread. Those of you that live a decently structured, responsible and stable life, how?
I barely have a sense of time. Kinda like when I was a NEET, just instead of 12-16 hours of sleeping and then PC stuff I'm forced to work a rather easy, blessed job.
Once it passes I just feel like I'm teleported to the next shift until I get to sleep through a weekend and months pass.
Even chronic pains don't make me act much. What does one even do to live?

The worst part really is that so many years went down the drain and I really have nothing to show for it. Not even memories.
I want to at least look back on SOMETHING fondly when I'm dying someday.
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 No.228642

>>228641
That's what life is for people like us.

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>>228641
If you are about to get a degree you are at least that much ahead of me in terms of capacity to act and stick to something.
So look at it as a positive. I spent many many years going to colleges as a way to mask my NEETdom, but never really bothered since I was unable to focus on something I cared nothing for.
You have proven to yourself that you can force yourself to do things, or at least competently accomplish something if forced by external circumstances.

>I don't even feel like I have a personality.
This however is something I couldn't crack no matter how much time I spend with my thoughts.
It was something of a revelation to me a couple years back too. I don't really have a defined character like many people seem to have.
I adapt, I tend to mirror the most recent person I interact with or observed pretty much, but when alone I'm just a bland mass of nothingness.
It's hard to be something if you were never challenged, you never had to make hard decisions, you never did anything of note or got attached to anything deeply.

If a persons character is a sum of their choices, then what does that make of me, who chose inaction, who chose nothing at every step?

Not really a fitting place to discuss this, but I wonder how much of this is just simply lacking any goals, long term or short. From your short posts I reckon you got railroaded into some computer science degree because "hey he spends his time on the PC all day so surely…" or something along these lines. Just going with the flow.

Most normal people have a clear goal of self development for the purpose of eventual reproduction, then provision for offspring.
This key base thing is like gravity that keeps them on track if nothing else.
Take such goals/drive away and even self preservation becomes optional.

This is what makes me deeply envious of wizards on here that seemingly have it all together and managed to self-actualize without the most obvious driver of life.
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 No.228644

>>228138

good genetics. mine are a fuckin dumpster fire. 93 Iq, 5 ft 6 in, not a succubi, weak , messed up knees and shoulders from a car wreck as a kid.

i got jack shit.

And, will sometimes run across some dude, exactly like me…… BUT 143 Iq,

life is sweet, life is cream, cause of 50 IQ point boost, makes 6 figs.

if someone is like us, and livin it up
they were lucky in genetics someplace. i was dealt all BS

 No.228646

>>228644
I can't disagree, but it's also one of those things you just can't accept else the rope becomes the only real answer.

I'm just about 5'6" in shoes. Funny thing you point out not being a succ, probably got called "male" or "man" in a derogatory tone before too huh?
Wasn't blessed with smarts either. I managed to avoid major accidents, but head injuries from beatings and being born a month premature don't exactly result in the healthiest of dispositions.
Especially if you manage to inherit a bunch of debuffs as well.

I'm still hopeful that I'm some special wisdom / conclusion away from a decent life.
I recall one of the wizards was some wheelchair bound cripple and he seemed to be more competent and at least happier too.
I'm sure there are wizards who are worse off yet managed to get better. I'd like to believe I'm just missing something by being dumb/lazy/self-absorbed or whatever else.
Accepting that the reason for failure is something I can't change fills me with the same dread as thinking of death/oblivion.

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>Reasons why I think my life is "decent"

I have some money saved up after a few years (2) of living at home. Perhaps 30k, some is invested, and I make 54kish a year. I do pay my mother rent at a flat rate of 900 a month, and I help out in other ways monetarily, and this is all partially because she takes me to work on the days I do work in office (I am luckily working a hybrid schedule). I have a degree (CS). I am slowly gaining hobbies, working on correcting bad habits, etc…

>Share some wisdom
Ultimately….. what keeps me going, in all honesty, is my lack of a safety net + my desire for worldly things. Not too original I know but that's it. I can't rely on my mom to coddle me because she kicked me out at 18 once she saw me attempting to sink hours into MMOs, and I had to scrape my way into college and that degree and rough it out for 7 years in a little roach-infested apartment, eating rice and beans and barely passable meat every day. I will never ever qualify for NEETbux. She will kick me out again if I lose my job. And I love air conditioning and the internet. I want to go traveling. My mother is "poor" (living off savings and what I give her) and my father is a dead bum. I can only rely on myself.

I also feel living in that shitty apartment and eating terrible food, surrounded by crackheads and old, old people living in subhuman conditions because they didn't plan for being old really scared me straight. The human body is so resilient. I'm sure you, like me, never thought you would live past 20. But here we are. Unless a freak accident happens we're going to see 60. We need to prepare for that.

>More "wisdom"
I also think you just need to get a GOAL. That isn't helpful maybe but goals really do help. Go "I want to visit [x] country before I get too old and my health starts failing and I don't want to visit it as a pauper" or "when I eventually move, I need to move cities, and I never need to return" or even "I want other people to see this idea within me – let's study art, programming, polish our writing skills…"

When it comes to spending, seriously consider if you need whatever you want to buy. Or try saving 50% of your paycheck and just blow the rest on whatever you please. Even saving 25% of your paycheck will build up fast.

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