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 No.301895[Reply]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.306247

>>304793
Do you follow this diet?

 No.306619

>>305499
Any authentically calm space will do. You don't always need to be on the floor to meditate, you know.

 No.306994

>>306619
Being outside is excellent for meditation. I actually like to vary my spots. What is your favorite?

 No.306997

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WAVING GOODBYE WAVING GOODBYE WAVING GOODBYE WAVING GOODBYE WAVING GOODBYE WAVING GOODBYE

WITH SOARING EYES

 No.307004

>>306997
i cast a supportive spell at you hope that works and take care



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 No.306545[Reply]

I am not even that horny, a lot of the days I force my self to do it while not even being in the mood for it, it's just the most effective way for me to cope, masturbation is free, gives you instant pleasure and can burn for you many hours at the time, there are times when i find my self touching myself just so I can use it as a way to distract my self for my anxieties and negative thought loops, as soon as i start touching myself all my anxiety and negative emotions start to dissolve as much as i hate and it hate how much i overdo it, i can't deny it makes getting through my days easier when i can just touch my self for many hours instead of just sitting there being miserable feeling hollow bored to tears and empty or anxious and overthinking at worse, my point here is that I believe the addiction for me is a mere sympotom, something I use to escape my negative feelings and the emptiness of my daily life, thanks for reading my blogpost
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Porn is terrible but without it I have no idea how to cope with the stress in my life, it's so pathetic when porn is your only cope and escapism.

 No.306885

>>306545
i have been banned!

 No.307001

>>306545
It's a fucking addiction and I hate it. It destroyed everything in my life and takes me many hours of my days only to after masturbated 3 times one after other, I feel destroyed and without energy. Many times I wish to suicide myself in that state after masturbate for the low level of energy that I had. Wish the best of luck to everyone trying to left this evilness.

 No.307002

>>307001
Just stop fapping.

 No.307003

yeah fapping too much is bad, but not fapping at all is too mentally draining. it's pathetic, but it can't be helped.

i agree that porn is ugly



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 No.306449[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

What is the average wizard's relationship with religion like? No religious person has ever been able to give me a good argument for why God, if he is out there, is not the most maximally evil being in the universe simply by the virtue of creating suffering when he could have chosen not to. Saying "suffering builds character" and derivatives of is just a manifestation of their stockholm syndrome for this vile entity

>I form the light, and create darkness. I make peace, and create evil. I YHWH do all these things - Isaiah 45:7
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 No.306951

>>306947
According to the other guy this isn't atheism and "you're applying your particular belief set to atheism" but i will take a bite.
"We're only matter" is not what modern science claims, rather there exists a list of laws of physics expressable in mathematical language which all matter obeys. These laws themselves are immaterial. Basically all matter obeys the laws of gravity and electromagnetism, but these laws themselves are immaterial concepts only expressable in mathematics. You can make a similar argument where all living beings are formed through the principles of evolution, but this principle itself is an immaterial concept. Can you grasp the laws of physics or evolution in your hand or tell me where they are located? They surely are immaterial. Yet all living beings obey them. This is what I mean that atheism is filled with logical fallacies, and if they are being honest with themselves, what I just described is their impersonal God.

 No.306953

>>306951
Gravity and electromagnetism are properties of matter, which is also energy, an electromagnetic field is literally a microparticle oscillation like every wave that exists in nature. Gravity is how matter interacts with space, it bends space towards itself. There is no immaterial rule or intelligent design rather a very local and clumsy reality where deformed atrocities murder each other.

 No.306956

>>306953
human beings die because their body touches their passenger

 No.306964

I've been a Satanist forever. I avoid other satanists though. I've found a lot, in general I like the path I'm on. I've tried Orthodox Christianity, for 2 years. I like a lot from it, I suffered a lot but orthodoxy helped me be glad and not worry during it. But it's hard. I never got baptized I couldn't even after a year, the priest wouldn't let me.

It has useful insights. But don't get locked down and forced to defend ideas/people you normally wouldn't

 No.307000

>>306449
I used to read the bible to know what in the past was normal and have some kind of guide. It helped me understand that the evil and destructive of humans it's not nothing new, but something periodic and only changes in what kind of evilness they practice. Religion as an answer to everything I think that it's pretty limited from a human being to process the real world and the environment and most people are closer to the church than god so that makes me think that they sin from the immaturity and the same bad behaviors that the great majority has. I don't think that religion is for everyone and most of wizards here want answers, not consolation. My family and most people only tried to comfort me when bad things happened in my life, and that makes me feel worse because I want the "why" happened that so I can evade it or learn from there,etc,etc because I feel comfort when I know why x or y stuff, good or bad, happened. But that's my case. The most majority only wants to remove the emotion and continue without knowing why happened and that's what religion is a good answer for a great amount of people. Not in my case and I see that not in yours.


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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.306219

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>>305405
>>305756
Hey anon, me again. Not sure how long I will manage to live with this illness… I am very close to suicide. It worsened recently and I am unable to feel sleepy, hungry, thirsty… My body and my mind are deteriorating. I lost my identity. I lost the ability for deep abstract thought, analysis, ability to recall facts or learn new skills… I don't even have the strenght to try anymore. Stopped working out and eating healthy, I am slowly rotting and have no more will because my situation doesn't seem like it will ever get better. If it improves, that will be in many years. Completely ruined life. Apparently David Foster Wallace died because of ssris withdrawal I'm afraid it's my fate too.

What do you think of TRT, reinstatement… or something else? I have been told to do keto diet. I really feel like the best thing would be to microdose shrooms, lsd, ket or meth but I'm a retard that cant find them online asides from lsd but my card wont work on the damn site right now. I don't want to die like this. I don't know what I did to deserve this.

Picrel is the doctor that got me on ssris telling me I'm a liar, hope it makes some lurkers realize how its all so devilish. You dont wanna end up like me, I took the poison for a month and now more than a year after I stopped taking it I have severe anhedonia, numb penis, no libido, no feelings from ejaculation, worse cognitive function, hard time imagining things in my head, and what I wrote above… I think about ending my ridiculous existence every day. People used to tell me I was good in a field, people praised me as a kid and I even skipped a grade, I was the kid constantly in existential crisis. I met fascinating people. but now it's all over.

I wanted to trust the world, doctors, my parents and look how miserable I am now. If you see a miserable fuck whine about this condition on 4/x/ its me.
Never be too kind or you will be eaten alive by this cruel and devilish world.

 No.306223

>>306219
You should never immediately trust someone because of their status or credentials.

They might have status or credentials but they are still human and as such you can never trust their intentions until you've proven them.

 No.306224

>>306223
I know. I even knew it was poison. But I was in a dark place, very young, and didn't have enough life experience to realize how much this stuff could destroy me. And most of all, I wanted to make my mother happy.
>They might have status or credentials but they are still human and as such you can never trust their intentions until you've proven them.
You are very correct.

 No.306225

>>306148
Didn't mean to sound so dramatic. I hate crabs and their brain dead ideas. The truth is that I could never kill a human being.

 No.306999

>>306219
>Stopped working out and eating healthy, I am slowly rotting and have no more will because my situation doesn't seem like it will ever get better. If it improves, that will be in many years.

It’s perfectly okay to feel this way sometimes. You don’t have to feel bad for feeling this way. However there exists no objective logical ground for you to have imposed this conclusion on yourself as a sort of certain fatalistic sentence. In my own case, I managed to (mostly, ~95%) cure my pssd within about 1.5 years of its on-set. I feel that you should be able to do the same if you remain diligent in your diet and (just as importantly) trusting in your private mind that you can be bettered and ultimately returned wholly to where you were before the ingestion of ssris.

>What do you think of TRT, reinstatement… or something else? I have been told to do keto diet. I really feel like the best thing would be to microdose shrooms, lsd


I don’t think your problems are related to circulating levels of sex hormones, especially not at your age. I know after having taken ssris and encountering genital impotence and anesthesia that my own serum levels of testosterone were essentially unchanged from the year before (suggesting that the drug had not materially altered them). I cannot speak to “microdosing shrooms” as this seems near totally impertinent to the restoration of a former normal chemical balance within your brain; if anything I would imagine introducing heavy psychogenic drugs like shrooms would only further confuse an already-confused neurochemistry.

But as to what I do think might be helpful:

1. Recall that prozac being a fluoride-based ssri will particularly lower blood levels of folate (vitamin B9). In addition to everything I already recommended above in earlier posts, I would like to advise you to make sure you are getting sufficient amounts of folate into your body everyday (preferably through a well-made and well-reviewed B-complex supplement). This will combat the likely chronic folate-lowering effects of the offending drug.

“Depressed individuals often exhibit low levels of serum and red blood cell folate.”

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.



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 No.4744[Reply]

Wizards, please share and discuss classical music in this thread. Hopefully some of the wonderful contributors from the previous thread are still around.
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 No.10894

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12 of the same notes for midnight

 No.10896

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2yZEkjrD5Qc

Exceptional track that doesn't really get attention, from 2:00 onwards especially.

 No.10908

I like Cherubini. Supposedly Beethoven once said he was the best composer.

 No.10910

Found out about this Welsh composer after reading The Mabinogion.

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 No.306959[Reply]

I have a lot of faults of my own, perhaps my current predicament is entirely my fault. I have no friends. No one to talk to. But things are worse, I was born and currently live in a really hated country on this planet but regardless it could've always been worse, I could've been a prisoner in North Korea or on the menu in Africa for a good hearty meaty meal.

The true tragedy is I am significantly over than 21, I have a very rocky relationship with my parents, who abused the hell out of me, and I literally shake and tremble in fear when my parents are angry, I can feel pain in my heart. But guess what I am over 21 years of age and they are not bound by any law to take any care of me at all but they still do, they have also helped me a lot, while I don't wish them harm, I do wish I lived away from them.

And of course I am unemployed, to a great extent, I get talked down on daily basis, while I am grateful for what my parents have done for me, I am grateful for what normies have done for me by making wonderful things like mobiles and games. I do not like the fact that my father has a carte blanche to say anything to me and do anything to me, I am grateful for society for giving me mobiles and games, as I said. But I don't like how my value is only derived from what I earn.

If I don't earn, I am a pest, a drain on resources, my parents treat me like I am disposable, with no respect, at all. And why should they cause love isn't unconditional because if they loved me unconditionally, maybe I would've abused them instead. No such thing as that.

I just want to die but I am terrified of dying without living for once. I live in an honor culture mixed with Western Style liberalism and as an unemployed person, I am the lowest common denominator in them. Money has somehow turned out to be more important than I expected it to be, I mean money is water, money is food, and money is roof. I knew that but I didn't knew how.

I have never spent a day of my life that wasn't in constant anxiety and worrying about something, not a single day in my life where I could claim that 'Yes, it was a good day.'. Perhaps I am like one of those weird females who don't want solutions to their problems but they just want to be heard, when they talk, if you know what I mean. And it surprises me that I have an iota in common with succubi.

As I said a lot of fault lies with me, I have tried for jobs, and tried for online ways to earn. But pePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.306965

getting a job won't stop your parents from abusing you. the real reason you are the punching bag is because you are weak and they can get away with it. there are no consequences to verbally or physically abusing you. and to top it off, you also believe you rightfully deserve it, so they don't even have to fear you hating them or feel guilty.

this is not your fault. the real problem is life itself, society is built up on these chains of abusers, power structures dictated by biology, customs, even ideas. your father gets yelled at work by his own boss, the boss gets yelled at by his shareholders or clients, and so on. each of them copes with their frustrations by exercising power on those weaker than them. many wizards that live with their parents earn money, they're worth their weight and then some, but did the abuse stop? of course it didn't, the parents still see them as weak and subservient, so they exercise what little power they have and yell at them for having fun on the computer or not reaching so-and-so milestone or whatever, they can always find something.

you should try to gain power in this relationship. when your mother or father berates you for something, make sure you do the opposite. if they say be careful with so-and-so, make sure you deliberately fuck it up and have them witness that it was to spite them. eventually they will think twice before speaking up. then, make sure that you are always enjoying yourself and being happy (even when you really aren't). if they come home from work and they are demonstrating or complaining how tired they are, tell them about your day where you did absolutely nothing and make sure they understand that they are fundamentally under you. they slave while you stay at home and enjoy yourself, guilt free! initially, this might anger them, but if you stay on that anger and hold your ground, they will give up, because they are fundamentally also weak. they are fighting on another front already, they lack the energy, they will eventually say, ah, let him be, there is nothing to be done. and that, is when you win. when you morally defeat them and turn the suffering on them.

you shouldn't feel guilty about being a leech, wiz. it's your one source of power. you have no money, no friends, you don't even have peace in your own home. you should use it, make your parents suffer, make them regret the pleasure they had while fornicating, let them regret the sweet act that brought you into this worPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.306967

I used to feel like this, now I just want to hang myself, no longer trying to get better.
There is something fundamentally lame about living anyway, you spend like 95 percent of the time struggling, suffering, surviving, for what exactly? This slow rotting and dying is inevitable and your dream existence is never coming. Might as well just get it over with.

 No.306972

I didn't read any of that but the solution is to take daily action start with something small and then gradually build up. Stop thinking so much and writing blogposts.

Get a skill, you may have to go to uni, or a trade school, or military. You already want to die, probably because you are paralyzed and not doing anything and self-hating on that account. Just do something SUSTAINED.

 No.306993

I can relate.

I'm exhausted of being paralyzed, that's either due for being so slack or become instantly petrified at imminent danger.

Breaking this addictive cycle is so damn hard, plus, you have to withstand your peers actually arousing to action and surpass you in every way while life goes on. It's tiresome.



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 No.306970[Reply]

I've seen this discussed in many threads so I made a thread for it. Many wizzies had had their life destroyed by psychiatric medication be it SSRI's, antipsychotics, benzodiazepines or others. A psych ward stay tends to leave you worse off. Some people get abused in psychiatric institutions. Mentioning you are sad and thinking about suicide to a doctor or nurse can get you forcefully restrained and tranquilised.
I'm suicidal but I avoid any medical help precisely for this reason.
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 No.306978

never took pharma, but i fell for the psychotherapy meme and it made me gaslight myself my entire life that something was wrong with me. in reality, it's this society and human nature that's fundamentally sick. the-rapist's job is to make you question your own instincts and make you believe that you're defective and need 20 years of being talked down like a baby to get better from some retarded foid or homosexual that couldn't hack it as a real doctor.

all psychotherapy and pharma treatments are placebo at best. they're all equally useless because they're not affecting the actual cause of people's "disorders", namely biology and society itself.
https://coherencetherapy.org/files/dodo-bibliography.pdf

 No.306981

>>306974
>>306976
smelly normalnigger

 No.306990

>>306977
This doesn't surprise me one bit, being aware of the history of psychiatry's use of lobotomies.
The need for some medical treatment to be better than placebo just doesn't hold for psychiatry.
I don't think it's just money, normies truly love abusing mentally ill people.

 No.306991

anti-psychiatry thread you say?
and yet no mention anywhere discovered of the jews who invented the very discipline of psychiatry? of the jews who own the pharma companies? of the jews who manufacture and countenance the prescribing of dangerous drugs? of the jews who weaponised "psychiatry" in (((soviet))) russia as a brutal means of enforcement and murder against any goy who was able to soberly perceive the new foreign (((communist))) tyranny of his nation and could not bear the weight of the lies of his government? psychiatry is jewish fraud.

 No.306992

>>306990
>psychiatry's use of lobotomies.
I believe (((Walter Freeman))) was the principal villain behind this trend. He even had a lobotomy truck called a "lobotomobile" in which he would travel just murdering as many goyim as he could.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-leading-edge/202505/a-dark-chapter-in-psychiatry-the-lobotomobile

https://allthatsinteresting.com/walter-freeman

This satanic freak died in the jewish city of Berkeley CA at a very advanced age. in infernis comburat aeternaliter.



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 No.314827[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Hitler's thread:
Paintings or things related to him or to national socialism.

- Painting of a castle.
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 No.323124

>>323092
So I here just wanted to say I got done reading a book written in a foreign language dated from about 700 years ago which caused me to feel like I had been submerged backwards in time so that now when I am returned to the affairs of the modern day through contact with this website I am reborn in my mind at imagining what men from the late 1300s-1400s being restored to this earth would have thought at witnessing the current corrupted state of information and knowledge and politics and wars and species of belligerent tricks like fake pandemics and fiat money and false flag attacks and all the other lesser kindred classes of deception under which humanity has suffered owing to the fact that we have since become enslaved by venetian jews. It was quite the feeling I had; just imagine telling someone from 1350 that judeomasonic occultists will have by the year 1969 convinced the greater generality of mankind that they are moving around the sun on the surface of a sphere in outer space!! Who could have imagined this; not even the original mystical-oriented Pythagoreans could have been led into the trust of such a dreamworld attaining reality. Or that (((Venetians))) will have successfully captured all the earth and after having realized shared rule over all nations are now busied in the marketing of ghost plagues because in virtue of this stratagem they have learned they are able to get depopulating drugs into the bodies of the dumb goyim whose numbers they've nominated as an excessive slave class meriting only of suppression. Who would have believed that one group (judeo-venetian finance) would have risen to such a tier of rulership that they could orchestrate whole wars and fake pandemics between multiple nations mutually under their power and that they could do this repetitively one time after the other with total impunity for centuries on end! To view the condition of our current day (wherein all monarchies have fallen, all kingship has fallen, all true nationalism has fallen, all mercantilism has fallen, all financial legitimacy has fallen) from the imagined vantage of a man living in the early 1400s is to invite a state of total disbelief into one’s mind.

But again to resume the above argument: what has happened over the course of all these years? How did we deign the world to degenerate to this? A greek verse broke into my mind when thinkingPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.323231

>>323110
nukes are fake but jews controlling governments and playing the goyish nations against each other in eternal war games is not.

 No.323236

>>323124

where is the subscribe button, i can't find the subscribe button to this post, i can't believe i wasted this day when i could have instead contemplated this post for hours (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

 No.323257

what a strange time is ours that the pro-monarchists will have become the revolutionaries now.

 No.323340

>>323124
>for when kikes will trigger another false flag strike

There's no way the goyim would fall for such a thing this time.


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 No.321588[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

No politics or religion in the crawl thread, please.

>Ambient sounds to wash away distraction

https://asoftmurmur.com/
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 No.323331

>>323330
I ate minced fish and there were bones parts in it I have no way to filter it so I swallowed it all, AI says they are edible

 No.323332

>>323331
yeah, it's probably fine. just don't move around too much. hopefully the fishy bone doesn't poke your hemmorhoid on the way out lol

 No.323333

>>323332
you're a funny whiz kid

 No.323334

>>323333
it's not funny, you stupid fuck. you swallowed a foreign object. you are going to fucking DIE. go to the emergency room right now lmfao

 No.323338

>>323331
It's fine if they're really small. If it's small enough to be swallowed without feeling anything out of the ordinary then it's obviously safe.


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 No.322725[Reply]

i've seen a few wizards who don't seem healthy.

is too bad because being healthy is easy once you know what matters.
the practice of being healthy i have reduced to managing of habits:

you constantly manage your habits. you find out what they are by doing the opposite of being in autopilot. manual flight. then you imagine the long term consequences of each habit. then you decide if you want those, the development of a desired state. keep the desirable habits, reduce all those you don't want through constant attention on your habits.

as you do this you might stumble upon ways to improve upon the desirable habits. this is almost already doing the next thing, which is finding good new habits to practice and slowly wondering when you have time to do them.

it is up to you to be healthy, it is an option, you can make this happen if you so choose. health is one choice away.
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 No.323302

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>>323301
>I am always drunk to cope

ALWAYS? that sounds like a lot.

 No.323303

>>323302
ok, most of my spare time

 No.323304

>>323303
in fact I am drinking right now

 No.323305

>>323303
>ok, most of my spare time

i look at the people around me who drink a lot and i see how badly they age. the intention for why you drink (what you call cope) is most honorable: you try to make yourself feel better. but it is a unfortunate trade. to endure discomfort you trade short term weak dullness (what some spiritual-minded people describe as a level BELOW consciousness) for longterm bad health.

i am at the point where i see someone drink one beer after work and i worry they will slippery-slope into being an alcoholic.

hopefully you find more ways of making yourself feel good because they do exist.

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reading in the sun habit is coming along nicely. i did go for a short run in the sun today, i even sweat a tiny bit. despite it being spring, i keep dressing like it is winter so i sweat more easily while running.

currently drinking juice that i made from:

2 big red beets
4 big celery stalks
1 pineapple
1 orange
1 grapefruit

plus i threw in the thicker stalks from 1 bunch of dill herb.

turned into 1500ml of an alarmingly red looking juice. tastes pretty neutral. if i had left out the dill herb, this would have almost tasted good to a normie. the harsher taste of the beets is balanced by the pineapple and the citrus. the somewhat harsh taste from the pineapple is balanced by the citrus.

one thing i forgot to throw into the slow juicer was burdock. i bothered to go to the asian store to get a long piece of this root, longer then the distance from my shoulder to my longest finger.

for a long time i enjoyed store-bought (pasteurized) dead juice but for the same price i can just buy the fresh fruits and vegetable and make my own living juice. next week i begin a juice fast, juice fasting is the healthiest thing a person can do i am convinced. i've been doing it for 8 years now. i don't think there is a person who wouldn't do it if they knew what the result felt like. while regular fasting is technically even healthier, it is also way harder. up until now i did it kind of a hybrid way of drinking a bit of juice but not enough to keep my body weight from going down significantly, making me look like a skeleton after a few weeks of juicefasting. this time i want to do it for a long time (~40 days is the goal) without losing significant amount of weight by drinking 4-8 liter of juice per day. according to naturopath legend, this will make my body maintain most of it's weight while i shit myself empty. i combine it with more exercise, meditation and sunbathing. i keep getting older but because i do more of the healthy stuff, i rarely feel my age.

picture attached is the juicer i am using. this is a modern beginner model that is very easy to clean compared to other juicers i have used. it works good. i wasn't going to pay 8 times as much for the top of the line juicer, juicer business is quite greedy.



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 No.306157[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
ice cold edition
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 No.306985

>>306983
material existence is an illusion. it's atoms bumping into each other. what each soul does or doesn't is ultimately determined by pure chaos, random chance of material circumstances. any random person is 2-3 bad decisions away from becoming those he hates and pities and condemns to a cage. once you die and you wake up from this nightmare, you'll realize how ridiculous it all was. "i was this tiny little insignificant creature with needs and urges, and i fought the other creatures to get the right atoms in my stomach for fuel and we chased and raped slightly tinier and curvier creatures to keep our sexual urges at bay and then we got even tinier creatures that we felt compelled to take care of. man, that was insane. i see now that i was all of these creatures at once, but i was split and i did not know it. anyway, last time i take a hit from the cosmic creation bong. time to get back to PURE INFINITE ETHEREAL BEING or whatever the fuck i was doing before."

 No.306986

oh god i am so fucking tried

 No.306987

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>>306985
Are we really 2-3 bad decisions away from becoming the next Josef Mengele?

 No.306988

>>306987
trip -> break your arm -> get opiod prescription for the pain -> get addicted -> become a fent zombie that pimps out his own mother for cash

actual evil is much more banal and common place than jewish history fan fiction.

 No.306989

>>306988
>trip -> break your arm -> get opiod prescription for the pain -> get addicted -> become a fent zombie that pimps out his own mother for cash
Sounds like you're a victim of medical malpractice rather than an evil person

Actual evil is when you're mentally sane and rationally decide to cause suffering upon someone else


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 No.305879[Reply]

I wake up every day in disgust, fear and anguish of my existence. I have left no pride nor confidence in my confused brain. Every day I wake up and I loathe the person that I am and my world instantly.
I wish to go back to sleep. Sleep. I just wanna sleep and not take place.
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 No.305909

>>305896
>idk about that. think about how we live in an industrial world. we're like cats locked in a flat. you know actually unless you sterilize your cat it'll go insane locked in the house. same with dogs for that matter. i think that's what's happening to people. you can't live like this unless you're castrated, but castration isn't an option is it. so yeah for us at least it's just suffering out there

I knew it.

>you can't live like this unless you're castrated, but castration isn't an option is it

It's not an option here because it's "untraditional".

 No.306154

i feel the same way. i hate who i have become. i am truly disgusting

 No.306161

>>306154
I think society is way more disgusting than any of us.

We owe nothing to the world.

 No.306173

>>306161
Fully agree. I may be a worthless jack of shit, but humans are spawns of the Devil. I don't regret not taking part in their grotesque play.

 No.306969

>>305879
>I wish to go back to sleep. Sleep. I just wanna sleep and not take place.
it's so real. I feel that way many times lately. I also feel deeply alone when i wake up in the morning. idk what i have to do to feel better I tried so many things :/



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 No.305797[Reply]

I have a degree yet no work or even an internship called me, I have -3$ in my bank account, I tried even to think about relocating to another city to try work there yet no work there called me, And my family is very poor.

I don't even know what to do anymore
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 No.306289

>>305797
Do you have any coverage from welfare schemes or unemployment schemes or something, I hope you do, you used the "$" sign so your country is likely developed and I hope that you make it.

 No.306291

>>306282
if robots do everything we will reach levels of efficiency where most things would be free, there’s no need for universal basic income if all necessities are produce at near 0 cost. this is the only hope for humanity, the other option is simply civil war and mass extinction

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>>306282
>>306291
Ironically once we reach that point is when hell on earth is going to start.
Despite what many people think in the modern age, not all is equal and not everyone is some global citizen.

The second we reach that level of automation is the second the forever wars start.
To cull the useless eaters, to keep the people in line that no longer have to worry about the rat race that kept them in trance, to fight with other countries for the resources needed to maintain this "utopia".

Conflict will be the way of life. 1984 style. They are already laying the groundworks for it with the internet lockdowns, IDs for internet use to ensure no freedom of information, major geofencing with the EU trying to make a Chinese firewall (I work at a major ISP and it's been in the works for a while now, pretty much every ISP knows about this), so is the US.
A second aspect is the AI nonsense that flooded the web, further smoke and mirrors in the golden cage.

You wont even know what is really happening. You already don't. I'm scared as fuck. Misery will be the new norm since that is the best way to control people in this post-scarcity world.

 No.306293

>>306292
Well at least i hope with the massive culling things will be peaceful

 No.306968

>>305800
hahah loved that pessimistic acceptance



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 No.323322[Reply]

I’m posting this through a triple-layered weird VPN. I don’t have much time before the "bozkurtlar" trace the packet. If you’re reading this, your mind hasn't been "re-indexed" yet.
I was taken during a routine "Shift" change in a coastal city. They didn't ask for my passport; they scanned my orbital bone structure and my pulse. They said my "Source Code" was corrupted by "Latin sentimentality." I was tagged with a cold iron plate around my neck and thrown into a "Stasis Wagon"—a cage on rails that felt like it was designed by a clockmaker from the 1800s but powered by something nuclear.
We crossed into the Caucasus under a sky that never turns blue. It’s a permanent, artificial violet haze.
I was processed in Arslankale. I saw the Asena Division there—succubi in those terrifying 1930s French Gendarme uniforms, their faces as motionless as porcelain. They don't speak; they just tap on glass tablets. If your data turns red, you’re "extracted."
I was sent to Floor 101 of the Tower of Thulé.
They call it the "Sanatorium," but it’s a meat-grinder for the soul. The architecture is a nightmare—obsidian concrete molded into sharp, gothic spires that seem to slice the clouds. Inside, everything is white tile and blinding blue surgical light. You lose your sense of time because of the Shift. There is no "night," only 12 hours of white light and 12 hours of violet light.
It vibrates in your teeth. They tell you that your name is a "bug," that your past is "Goyslop," and that only the Vatkrat is real.
They weren't talking. They were just watching the bodies fall into the incinerator pits below, as if they were watching a private screening at a film festival.
Adsihan isn't just a politician. He’s a Showrunner. He’s turning the planet into a 24/7 horror movie where we are all uncredited extras waiting to be edited out.
Your history has been "Fixed."
Don't let them scan you!!! - Anthony

 No.323323

You have to be Jewish, LGBT, or from certain ethnic groups in order to be arrested, if I understand correctly. But it’s not only succubi. Most are men: the gray wolves and I remember them because they wear a red hat, you see, like the Turks used to do, like

 No.323324

ON THE OTHER HAND, YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND THEY’RE WITH YOU TO SORT OUT YOU TO KILL YOU I’VE SEEN PEOPLE DIE, LIKE A BLACK MAN SHARED MY CELL, THE GRAY WOLVES HAVE ME AND HE’S NEVER COME BACK, I ASSUME THEY SENT HIM DOWN THE DRAIN

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 No.323326

Moved to >>>/b/1034513.



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 No.322915[Reply]

Based God has finally gotten around to killing Fred Brennan, who should never have been born at all to begin with
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 No.323214

>>323213
>killed himself
damn whats wrong with imageboards? looks like only m00t and hiro managed to be succesfil and an fulfilling life

 No.323299

>>323178
I didn't twist your words. You said I should go to whatever e-brothel I came from. Since I was from Wizchan, I said that Wizchan is not an e-brothel.
>raport building appeal
Cherry picking, ignoring rest of the arguments, overfixation on whores that live rent-free in your head based on your seething lunacy. (guess)
>pornhub
I already said that I don't support sex for pay. Why should I give them views?

I responded to you to promote views among other lurkers and users. Views against sexual exploitation and its support irl. Convincing rape apologists and other scum was never my intention. It's futile.

 No.323314

>>323214
moot is dead.

He basically disappeared after he went into google.

 No.323317

>>323214
Only niche boards seem to be affected by time. Centralized ones are ok.

 No.323319

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>>323214
>damn whats wrong with imageboards?
How dare you imply there is something wrong with imageboards or their users



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 No.296511[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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 No.306961

anyone know alternatives to lostallhope? They used to have that chart of methods, time, pain etc but removed it

 No.306966

>>306961
such waste

 No.306982

>>306957
>food literally is infinite
Food scarcity is a real problem, decades of fertilizers and pesticides combined with intensive farming and antibiotics have degraded the soil and put animals at risk of pandemics, we're one step away from a global food crisis.

 No.306984

>>306961
There is a website called Sanctioned Suicide which I used before I got banned. I must warn you the moderation and some of the userbase is absolute cancer and you will get easily banned if your post is even mildly "objectifying or degrading to succubi" or some other vague left-wing identity politics.


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 No.227929[Reply]

Norms, notions and behaviors they have that annoys you.

>Never argue with your critics or openly dismiss them

Their blood seems to almost always boil when you openly disagree or argue back against their point of view. They seems to just expect you to just nod along and agree(even if it's dishonestly).
Even if they deliverer their criticism rudely they expect you to still be polite with them.
Been told that snarky responses to people's criticism like
>I don't care go fix it yourself if you have a problem with it!
>Rich coming from an amateur like you, I like to see you do better!
>Who cares about what you have to say? Shove it up your ass!
>If you don't like it then do something else!
Will just ensure no one will bother to be honest with you, if they see you do something that is bad/wrong they will keep their mouth shut or lie saying you're doing great and hope you sabotage for yourself.
For a while I bought this. However, it just lead to people daring to be more rude with me. Eventually lead me to snap and revert to my old behavior. Then people started to choose their words more carefully when they talk to me.
Most of the time their criticism isn't even constructive, it's just them wanting you to cater to their preferences. So far this "antisocial" behavior haven't cause me any harm.
This is just some bollocks normies made up, because they don't like when people disagree or argues with them. They just want to be "right" without any push back.
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 No.228114

>>227929
Being very indirect.
If you want me to do something, please ask me to do it. I'm too retarded to read the psychic waves emanating from whatever you're doing with your face/body/tone.
And related, if some behavior of mine is bothering you, please let me know so I can choose what to do about it. Rather than using the perceived slight as a weapon later.

 No.228208

>>228114
I hate this at work too. I know this isn't 100% what you mention, but I think it's still related.
My direct superior and theirs too sent vague fucking emails for "things to work on" or "mistakes to avoid" whenever someone fucked up.
I was always second guessing whether they meant me or not.
So sometimes I'd just ask and they told me they had no issue with me, but they kept vaguely "blaming the whole team" so I guess the ones causing trouble don't feel singled out.
I ended up telling them I'll be ignoring these vague emails from now and they should just directly tell me if I fucked up I wont take it to heart.

I don't get why this is so necessary…
Do relate to the version you are describing as well. I hate when people are trying to make me do something with these weird cues too.
Especially if it's something I don't want to do. So then we are having a vague back and forth with them increasingly getting annoying that I'm not biting their hook so to speak…
Normies are insane.

 No.228209

I hate when normies change behavior down to tone of voice depending on the person they interact with.
succubi do this the most, but men too just differently.
My mom would have a completely different way of presenting herself. Pitch higher, "polite" tone etc. It's insane.
It was always insane to hear her be normal one moment then shift to another person when some acquaintance comes around.

I also hate it that I used to have pretty decent conversations with people one-on-one and then the second someone else comes around all of a sudden that person is gone and now I have 2 strangers that there with negative affinity somehow.
Social dynamics dictate behavior too much. Despite people claiming the world is becoming too individualistic and atomized the herd programming is still there as strong as ever.
I feel like a lot of people could have been real good friends with me if not for that.

 No.228210

>>228209
The day cum and piss gets mixed shit will come out

 No.228211

>>228209
I treat everyone with the same pan faced monotone voice with occasional sperg outbursts when I find something catastrophically mismanaged. I think it's deceitful to show anything other than my true personality. I guess this behavior is off putting to succubi because it's dangerous to be around someone who disregards social niceties.



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 No.323014[Reply]

>I hope to keep the site operating long enough for people to backup what they deem valuable and migrate elsewhere. I cannot give any specific date yet. Hopefully people can do organized effort on this, like a specific sub-section. There are other communities like this that can welcome you as long as you respect them in kind.

https://allthefallen.moe/forum/index.php?threads/about-closing-down-the-site.125821/=

The situation in the booru "seems" to have stabilized and they are allegedly getting taken under Catbox, whereas the forum is 100% gonna get nuked. If you guys have content you like posted there SAVE IT, this is your last chance.
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 No.323061

Damn just as I got the urge for a skyrim oneeshota mod too

 No.323063

Why should I care if some loli shota porn site and its forum gets shut down. Nigger, get a fucking life and do something good for yourself instead of masturbating all day to cartoons.

 No.323067

>>323063
it’s a direct attack on free speech by normal groids, if you don’t care about this you gay porn forums may be next, that’s how genocides start

 No.323083

>>323014
Maybe it's just me, but at 30 I've started to lose interest in jerking off as much.
Kinda no longer see the point of hoarding stuff like that since I just can't see myself looking back at my stash in my late 30s or 40s.
Feels like I was hoarding and safekeeping this stuff like pictures of my non-existent family memories or something.
Not sure if anyone else relates to this conclusion.

 No.323318

>>323063
atf is the last bastion of culture



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 No.323217[Reply]

anyone living in the basement? how it is like? to you live near the washing machine? (lol) is it comfy? how many times you leave your basement?
The basement seems the perfect retreat room for a wizard. it's like our ivory tower. basically, you reash the basement to your taste and make it comfy.
The Wizard's dweller..
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 No.323239

im reading a book about sunlight in human health currently, im only in the second chapter of 12, maybe i paste some highlites in a few days or weeks.

do bother to look into what an earthsip is op. it is like a basement in the sense that it is mostly underneath the earth (for temperature reasons) but it is built to be flooded by sunlight. also it has a greenhouse builtin as a zone of insulation with the result that you almost don't have to heat in the winter. completely offgrid, it produces its own electricity via solar, collects rainwater, treats its own sewage using plants, produces food in the greenhouse.

it is way better then a house.

you might also enjoy dome homes and underground tunnel houses. if i don't forget i link my favorite videos later.

 No.323240

>>323239
Sounds like an ill-advised hippie fantasy. The sewage especially. Plants can't desalinate urine and human fecal enzymes will eat through most greenery. Sewage needs to be treated before it can be "treated" by plants.

 No.323306

>>323240
shit is good for fertilizer

 No.323308

>>323306
…The feces of omnivores and carnivores contain acids and enzymes that prevent the growth of vegetation. Without these, our small stomachs and fast metabolism wouldn't be able to break down greens and seeds quick enough to extract their nutrients. If you or your dog defecates on the lawn, the grass around it dies. Your dog's piss burns the grass yellow in an hour. With their slower and less aggressive digestion, scat from ruminant animals retains uncollected nutrients from what they've eaten which can be absorbed back in to the soil to propagate growth.

No soybeans or hemp is going to sprout from your KFC and Takis diarrhea, Manuel. It's not rocket science.

 No.323316

>>323308
you are too eager to call things impossible without doing your due dilligence. yeah you can overdo it with piss on the plants but some plants can handle it. i'd much more worry about the plants being subjected to the copious amounts of pharmaceuticals that are oozing out of you because of how safe and effective they are…



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 No.47407[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

do any wizards like tea? specifically loose leaf teas? if so, any specific blends or varieties you like/recommend?


i recently got into gongfu brewing and it's pretty much the only thing i've been thinking about these days. i found this hole in the wall tea shop in the chinatown in my city and purchased a shou pu'erh tea cake that i've been picking away at.
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 No.70361

>>70360
Dead site

 No.70362

I'm into Jin Jun Mei lately. Chinese black tea with a deep, mild honey-like taste, I can't believe the garish black teas drunk in the west are made of the same plant.

 No.70365

>>70362
Cool, thanks!


Meanwhile: i've been drinking some funny teas last winter: "Polar lights" and "1001 nights" were remarkable, "Nut Tart" - almost as remarkable as the two above.

I dunno where to get them *in a bag* and not in funny ½oz jars though. Can I trust online shopping here?

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I love tea so much. In fact, I drink tea exclusively instead of coffee.
I am partial to Irish tea. Irish Breakfast with (non-alcoholic) Irish creamer slaps.

 No.70469

>>70468
I like this post, you're a cool wiz


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