>>306545Yeah to me too, it was a cope with a shit life.
I recall I jerked off all day when I was a NEET. Stressed by many things. Multiple 1.5-2+ hour sessions a day.
I'd do it till it hurt. I never viewed it as a bad thing, nor as an addiction. It was just my version of getting drunk/high I guess.
A fun way to timetravel. I might be somewhat of an outlier though.
Got the tism and abused as a kid in most meanings of the word so maybe that is the reason I had some twisted desires relating to violence and was already jerking it before I could even get hard or cum.
I don't necessarily hate that I did that. Honestly I'd say playing MOBAs and similar games for thousands of hours was much worse of an obsession.
I'm 30 now and only jerk off once a week or so, maybe less so it mellowed out for sure, but might just be because I'm an inch away from rock bottom.
I do have some significant regrets relating to gooning/porn.
Most of it currently is that the slope was indeed slippery and that hoarding became a mental burden.
Hoarding and being attached to tens of thousands of bookmarks, folders, files etc. is not healthy. It gives me anxiety that I haven't "saved" all those things yet and the ones I did save are unbrowsable unlike a booru or a doujin site.
Another thing that bothers me to be honest is something I was planning on making a /b/ thread about too. I'm not comfortable with the taste for loli stuff I developed or maybe always had.
Nothing 3D or anything like that, only drawings and mostly doujins, but it's already a point of shame for me, yet I'm still attached as I said in the hoarding part.
Makes me think that if I'm only 30 and already don't feel like jerking off that much, why do I torture myself over this attachment anyways? How many times will I need to jerk off in this lifetime anyways?
Do I need to risk having "questionable" in the eyes of normies stuff on my PC? Especially in this age of internet lockdowns and on-device surveillance?
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