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 No.303889[Reply]

>Were you emotionally neglected as a child?
I wonder if this led me to become who I am now, at least in social settings.
I have no idea if I suffered from this, although I remember times when I was told not to cry, or I got used to not crying over silly things that perhaps maybe weren't silly for a child.
I read those internet ads about caring for parents and children, and they recommended hugs, affection, and not denying children's pain and suffering, and that the best thing is to get it off the emotions of their chest or body.
but if this doesn't happen, then they build up a shell, armor, or something like that because they mask or hide these emotions automatically out of pure habit and training. and later they will have trouble releasing their emotions from their bodies. Babies and toddlers do this naturally when they cry.
>Also
I can't remember the last time I cried with all my might or something like that.
I wonder if this led me to be the way I am now, at least in a social way. I wonder if I can treat it. I read from an anon that some of these things can only be treated with love. But the truth is confusing.
Maybe my brain is already like this, although I read that the brain can change, as can one's habits and feelings.
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 No.308428

Bump. I don't know about OP, but my mother decided to neglect my emotions AGAIN so she would talk to me like I am not supposed to answer her question like a proper person.

 No.308430

>>308428
Anyway, in her defence: the heatwave got her so I should have shut up. I guess.

 No.308442

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>>308430
However, she would comment every her stap yesterday.

I got fed up with that so I had to quit.

 No.308443

>>308430
However, she would comment every her stap yesterday.

I got fed up with that. She would always speak, speak, speak, but never answer a simple question.

Besides, I got her some stuff to play music but she would keep her apartment focused on her loud voice

 No.308487

just cut off all contact with your parents if they fail to display the most basic human behavior
then you don't have to deal with their nonsense


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 No.321660[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

PALESTINE OFFICIALLY RECOGNIZED AS A STATE OR WHATEVER. U.N RECOGNIZES THE INVASION OF THIRD-WORLDERS UPON EUROPE. YOUTUBE ANNOUNCED IT WILL BE RE-INSTATING CHANNELS BANNED BY BIDEN'S ORDERS DURING COVID AND 2024 ELECTIONS. ANTIFA DECLARED A TERRORIST SECT. ISRAEL "ONLY NATION CAPABLE" OF PLANTING CELLULAR MASS-DISRUPTION DEVICES OUTSIDE OF UN GENERAL ASSEMBLY. TIKTOK TREND SHOWS PREGNANT SUCCUBI DOWNING THERAPEUTIC LEVELS OF TYLENOL IN PROTEST OF ANNOUNCEMENT THAT DOING SO CAUSES AUTISM IN CHILDREN

Previous thread: https://archive.is/JfDla
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 No.324126

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>>324093
Although Uzbekistan is significantly Mongoloid, a Tajik enclaves exist in its far east. It, together with the Republic of Karakalpakstan, should be part of Greater Iran.
Reiterating and adding on Kazakhstan, that's–
Mangystau, Atyrau, The Western Region, Aktobe, Kostanay, The Northern Region and even Pavlodar all being annexed to Russia.
Purely sealed from access to the Caspian Sea, this indeed creates a second Mongolia.

Though well, if this happens, I guess Kazakhs will probably demonstrate intense animosity toward Russians, and a covert public campaign will be underway to sabotage everything from them and embrace their 'Khan' history and speed up the erasure of the Russian language and things like that. The affection naturally ends up spreading to Kyrgyzstan and Uzbekistan. From there, all of them move over to China. "We're all Asians. We're tired of those bastard Russians." And from there, each and every mosque in Kazakhstan, Uzbekistan, and Kyrgyzstan is burnt, destroyed and replaced with some Alcohol brewery place or strip club or sex hotel or even anime studio or some such, like in Xinjiang. Anyone professing themselves Muslim goes through the usual MO. 22 hours of re-education. Organ harvesting. Get out some cotton. I guess that's how it'll be once China's in. Reacting to this with hostility will obviously be the the Arabs who, despite being retards, probably still harbor some type of lingering pride. But so what? What does it matter to a Mongoloid what an Arab says or does? Islam's alien trash to them.

Losing the core of Central Asia and having it absorbed by China… is it really a loss for Russia? No, but only assuming a dependable Greater Iran exists, to which they can share two borders.
Unfortunately, really unfortunately, for some reason or other, the will of Man and of God seemed to intersect in doing everything feasible toward blocking that, first and foremost by making Afghanistan a nation of incapacitated people. That is a country 50 million strong, all 50 million living totally impoverished, despite that their inherent potential can easily elevate them to superior standards. All these years of Saudi oil money and riches, they didn't bother doing anything for this region. Or is that because of that eschatological supposition of theirs? The one that claims some black flag will pop up from AfPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.324127

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Places where the Bantu expansion can still be reversed and policies can be implemented to the effect of minimizing them.

Despite the significant nigger numbers of Ethiopia, a massive culling can take care of them. Definitely doable in the northern most section of Mauritania as well.
Somalia can be destroyed and eliminated from the face of the earth via a tag team and obviously a shit ton of external support. Its 'territories' distributed by the two.
Egypt can annex the uppermost section of Sudan once the Arab funded militia are done with the nigger scourge.

 No.324128

>>324127
Tunisia has been annexed by Algeria, and really it would be better if Algeria annexes Morocco and Libya as well. Security can tighten therein and niggers can be locked away from the Mediterranean.

The 'belt' of 'hope' can maybe extend to Kenya and South Sudan. The former only because of its location, the latter would have to be determined by how ruthless the UAE is. How much are they willing to pour to extend Egypt? South Sudan can rejoin Sudan which'll be joining Egypt once its cleansed from all blacks.

For South Africa, to protect its status, you need first labor and create a nigger-parrying-shield, formed through an integrated Namibia, Botswana, Zimbabwe and Mozambique.
In the same way niggers are (mostly) prevented from swimming to Europe through the Egypt-Algeria-Morocco-Libya chain, you must create a chain to prevent the niggers from swarming infinitely more into the already mutilated South Africa via the Namibia, Botswana, Zimbabwe and Mozambique chain. You can have Madagascar as the apparatus in providing tech and shit and everything else necessary to cementing the significance of that chain, and can have this same Madagascar trading robustly with East Africa, and sailing north to Egypt and Israel.

 No.324129

>>324128
Add to this all some bioweapon and God knows what else. Anything to curb the nigger tide. They're stepping out of some portal to hell from Congo and some cursed Tartarus in West Africa. It's best to just eliminate everything that moves there. Recruit even magicians and implore them day and night to execute a sorcery capable of making niggers disappear from earth

 No.324130

>>324129
Let me correct that. Making them disappear from earth isn't sufficient. You need erase the nigger totally and completely from every facet and fabric of existence, across every dimension known and unknown, and make it permanently impossible for the nigger to ever materialize again, whether in suggestion, whether in actuality. The nigger will go for good.


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 No.306726[Reply]

I have a horrible mother who criticises me just as much when I do something good as when I do something wrong. I remember having a lot of traumatic experiences with her, and even today she’s still the same. For example, I started being more hygienic and washing my hands before eating, and she started using that habit as a weapon against me. She also criticises me for not going out with my ‘friends’, but when I do leave the house, she keeps insulting me Any advice on how to get free from her? makes me unhappy
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 No.306809

Normies, especially succubi just love to complain. I bet your mother has nothing of substance going on in her life either, if she was happy and had hobbies she wouldn't be so up your ass. nagging and bitching is a popular female hobby

 No.308446

>>306727
A-ha.

go stern like a gray rock
ignore her as if you are out of love for her (not true, but…)

 No.308447

>>306783
>but I can go and live with my dad because my parents are divorced


Good for you, because my father was shouting very loudly and threatingly on me when I tried that option…

 No.308459

>>306783
>>306783
Move with dad

 No.308486

mine used to love me
maybe she still does deep down
but our relationship is irreparably damaged beyond hope

she doesn't insult me or make mean comments
we mostly just don't talk beyond the necessary, or see each other much despite living together


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 No.303736[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.308478

Finished some Cisco Academy Pathway courses in hopes to break into IT and leave the call center hell but now the actual certification cost 125 bucks which I cannot afford.
Whole thing makes me feel I wasted my fucking time if I don't Pay for the cert.
Trying to break into anything at 35 just feel hopeless.

 No.308480

>>308473
>I feel like such an imposter.
Same here. It's incredible how hard it is to find a job but then when you do you get paid to do absolutely nothing all day. I'm by no means complaining, but I can't quite wrap my head around how I'm getting paid when I provide nothing of value.

Everything is just one big farce.

 No.308483

>>308480
Life is a series of playing pretend. Why else would actors be so highly esteemed?

 No.308484

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I'm fiyad, brews.
What's left for me? I have no skills, no talent. Idiotic-autistic, can't fake happiness.
Should I look into any religions before I blow my head off? I was raised christian and I'm retarded so I'm still kind of scared of eternal suffering

 No.308485

>>308484
tell mommy you love her and you need to move back in? that's what i did.


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 No.305228[Reply]

I think age 31-32 was the point where I realized I'm too autistic and weird to ever have 'normal' things in life.

I will die either institutionalized or in some shitty rental with nothing to my name. Nothing that I dreamed about will ever become true.
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 No.308435

Well, yes, but not in the specific ways I hope. I have realized that birth is a lottery and you're either born into a bustling metropolis to rich, well-adjusted parents or a piss soaked trailer in the sticks to bums. I'm somewhere in the middle of that. I don't have exceptional talent or work ethic, sadly; I'm just a normal person. We don't live in a world where normal people like me (at least, in America) can expect that hard work will save them, and so I'm still in my childhood home, working a boring, okay-paying job I hate, budgeting for a possible frugal week (or days…) long vacation soon, etc.

I'm straying off the point, but basically, I think that, my poor circumstances considered and how awful I was when I was far younger, I'm doing okay. Growing up I never once thought I could have a casual conversation with coworkers where we gripe over the boss (I don't believe in any of it, I am just making "small talk") but I do this all the time now. Sometimes I feel valued at work. These are things that normies take for granted but I cherish them, even if I generally crave more.

 No.308436

>>308435
Oh, and by 'normal person' I mean I'm likely no lazier nor more talented than anyone else. I don't think "autism" (extreme lack of experience with human beings, ugliness, etc.) really factors into that. My output is similar to other peoples output.

 No.308479

Yes. I own my apartment and make ok money. I'm 6'2 tall and fit. I have hoped to find a girlfriend since I was 18.

I'm 33 now

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>>305307
Barfdays are usually depressing, you're only aging now and they remind you of it

 No.308482

>>308479
>I have hoped to find a girlfriend since I was 18
BAN THIS MAN
>I'm 33 now
Oh.


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 No.228805[Reply]

Dear friends, how often do you wash? I’m just asking because the water was recently shut off and I need to somehow survive in such conditions. Just don’t tell me you don’t spend time taking a bath or a shower.
I know that succubi waste water all the time on all sorts of things just to ‘look beautiful’ — literally for everything. And sometimes they can easily take a bath for 4 hours and think that’s normal.
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 No.228809

>>228806

bro, you really rarely wash yourself

 No.228810

>>228808
btw I heard that AC are very expensive, but I never looked into it

 No.228811

i used to shower every day before work cuz i didn't want norms to make fun of me for being smelly or whatever, but now as a neety i try to do it every 3 days, sometimes i'm too lazy and forget and i can go a week max. eventually i start smelling even to myself and feeling all icky so taking a shower feels good.

 No.228812

>>228811
yea, i see. I think in general it's cool when you can wash yourself. Like, I wash myself every day because I don't want to get a fungus or something like that

 No.228813

>>228809
i used to do it every day
i remember even posting about my skincare routine back in 2022, think it was in a dep thread
but i don't see the point to it when i only ever see mom, and sometimes i go weeks avoiding her when we have a fight


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 No.308343[Reply]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

Previous: >>307210
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 No.308465

>>308343
I don't even have the energy to think most of the time. I begin to explore a concept, then immediately feel heavy and tired as I realise my viewpoint is worthless and almost certainly incorrect. I fill my brain with philosophy and arguments for this and that then just do nothing with them. For me reading a philosophical text is like watching a game of sports. In the arena of the book, I care about it all, but as soon as I put the book down I suddenly comprehend just how hollow it is. Symbols and ideas that another ape mapped onto their subjective hallucination of reality in an attempt to ground itself against the constant stream of horror that is sensory input. As a result I perceive myself to be a very stupid person. Surely an intelligent person would feel compelled to constantly reflect and expand upon ideas. But it just all feels null.

 No.308466

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>>308346
I've lost most of the pleasure my PC used to provide.
Often I turn away and stare at a wall or my mirror and just wonder how I used to exist before the PC.
Same sort of weird feeling you describe. I'm old, body clearly showing decades of neglect.

I'm reminded of my single digit years.
Back then despite the miserable circumstances just existing was rather fun. Stuff in my memories is so vibrant and I remember everything was interesting and enjoyable.

I remember I had a very good quality stick for years that I ended up losing in the woods.
It was a nice durable stick…
My very own excalibur I'd say.

Exhaustion is all that is left. Despite being a wizard I feel like all magic is gone from my life.
Existing wasn't a burden back in the days I think.
I really don't feel like I have much in common with the little kid in my memories. Such an odd thing feeling alien compared to yourself.

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>>308346
I know this feeling, feels like I'm a cyborg or something just pointlessly going through the motions like a flesh automaton.

The dopamine drip of screens keeps me artificially awake too long and I never sleep enough too. It's like the opposite of a bonfire at night surrounded by people, you're just staring at a light burning itself into your retinas while desperately trying to feel included until your body is too exhausted to continue every single night.

 No.308476

>>308466
>lost most of the pleasure my PC used to provide.

I'm sitting on years of video, music, and games that I'm just not going to visit again. I'm about to wipe the drives and call it, computer crap takes up a lot of desk space.

 No.308477

>>308476
>that I'm just not going to visit again.
Kinda sucks to acknowledge this at some point in life.
I've somewhat of a digital hoarder and wipe a ton of stuff both material and digital on a similar impulse.
I didn't regret it honestly.
Freed up a lot of headspace too not just physical.


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 No.41960[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

everyone thinks japanese people aren't racists and will be alright with foreigners if they respect japan. but this video shows the contrary: japanese people are like the rest of human, they know what racism is and they are also racists
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 No.44327

>>43247
Seethe nigger

 No.44329

That's a good thing or they'll end up looking like india (many generations of miscegenation) or the US after a few generations

 No.44330

>>44329
when they'll be rzcist toward you, you'll cry, don't you

 No.44331

>>44330
I'm used to you shithole transplants being racist

 No.44332

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>>44331


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 No.307767[Reply]

>phone alarm wakes you up from blissful sleep
>you're in a warm comfy bed, under a warm blanket
>you bury your head under a blanket for 10 minutes but soon drag your ass out anyway
>drag your ass out to work, where everyone is very demanding and aggressive and hates you
>get back 10 hours later, having no energy to do anything
>do the same thing tomorrow again
I just want to sleep I'm tired of repeating the same morning torture ritual every day. If we weren't ruled by greedy subhumans we'd have 4 day work weeks by now.
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 No.308375

On my weekends i dont even sleep well, cant enjoy sleeping in.

On the days i need to go to work, my bed is like it was personally made snuggly by god

 No.308376

>>308136
There's a lot of info online, just scrape off the normie mumbo jumbo they like to give. Don't trust any other homeless person either, don't make enemies but dont trust them. Often they are extremely mentally deranged or morally bankrupt and can hide it quite well.

Outside of literally surviving decently you'll need to pick up a pass time so you dont go crazy, hard to do as a homeless. Probably look on google maps where the best spots are. Ideally you want privacy but access to wifi.

 No.308383

>>307892
>For many people, freedom is only found within walls.
Freedom is only found within walls?
I don't understand what you are saying.

 No.308399

>>308375
i wish i knew a way to fix this specifically. its the hardest part of working, resisting the colossal urge to go back to sleep and forget it all in the morning. its basically a subconscious instinct to me. doesn't matter if i slept 6 hours or 12. i just dont know how normal people do it.

 No.308472

>>307767
I got work tomorrow, 6am start and it's 12:48AM.

At least I changed my alarm clock sound so I don't get that PTSD Cortisol spike as bad


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 No.308437[Reply]

Is the feeling of alienation familiar to you? Does it hurt?

"All my life, I have lived with the feeling that I have been kept from my true place. If the expression "metaphysical exile" had no meaning, my existence alone would afford it one."

~ Emil Cioran ; The Trouble With Being Born
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 No.308458

>>308438
>among my people
So not wizards I take it?

 No.308461

I comprehended I wasn't a normie a long time ago and this does not cause negative feelings.

 No.308463

>>308438
well, it’s easy doing that when you’re a 50 IQ monkey who can derive meaning and worth from supposedly belong to a pack of other monkeys, but for intelligent people that’s not a solution that’s why you can’t comprehend cioran

 No.308469

I never really understood why people like interacting with other people, like they even organize events in their free time just to meet other people as if work wasn't already too much. I just don't know how anyone can enjoy this as their free choice when it's not necessary to survive.

 No.308470

>Is the feeling of alienation familiar to you?
yes thanks to whoever/whatever i've never known what it's like to belong literally anywhere. i've never been invited twice to any group activity and i've never wanted to be invited even once in the first place. my level of socialization is basically only slightly above zero by virtue of my middle school being a survive-it-yourself shithole.
>Does it hurt?
idk not really when i'm drunk otherwise not really either idk i don't care as much as i used to i guess. well sometimes it does feel bad that i can't even connect with some retards on imageboards but i guess i don't care that much anyway after all. yeah i get what you mean but idk it's not my fault people are so insufferable


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 No.228719[Reply]

I want to talk to you about fate: does it exist or not? Honestly, I don't know. I won't claim to believe in it unconditionally, but I looked at my natal chart (Shoutout to my astrologer friend from the other thread! I know you're reading this). During this time, I've talked to magicians, psychologists, internet freaks, and even talked to AI. And, of course, I've tried to start my life from scratch many times. I've tried to find a job many times, but I've lost it. And now I'm 28 years old, guys. I just want to throw everything away. I'll be 30 in two years. I have no education, I've never really learned anything in my entire life, and I've spent half of it living off my parents. I'm literally a loser, a nobody. The older you get, the more clearly you realize: trying to start over doesn't work when you're in poor health. Let's be honest, many of us have lousy health; many of us rarely even go outside. Besides, there's no money for education, not to mention the strict regulations, the need to pass exams, and other difficulties. And I ask myself: did I even have a choice in how to live? Or was my life built from the very beginning according to some divine plan, a supercomputer, or something similar? After all, if you think about it, all my decisions have always turned out to be wrong. I constantly did the wrong thing, made mistakes out of stupidity or naivety. So, is everything predetermined? I'm still tormented by this question. If I were to get up tomorrow and say, "That's it, I'm leaving this life and I'm no longer a burden," I still wouldn't be able to change much. I won't become a doctor or a scientist at 30. External factors influence us too much. Does that mean that even my decision to change something tomorrow was already made not by me, but by someone else? And I just play out this scenario over and over again, and there was no real freedom of choice. But you know what's the scariest thing? It turns out that no matter what we do, we can't jump above our heads. As the saying goes: "Play stupid games, get stupid prizes" or "You can't teach an old dog new tricks." Actually, I want to ask you: do you believe in fate? Are we really destined to suffer our entire lives? I looked at myself: I'm 28, I haven't learned anything, and I just wasted this life. I wish I'd never been born.
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 No.228773

>>228747
All low IQ societies handwave things away with "fate". Here in Morocco fate belief is extreme. No matter how badly YOU fucked up or how many mistakes you made, people blame fate.

If governing authorities are incompetent they are not challenged, it's just something God willed. If you refuse to go to the doctor and die, it was "fate", not you being a retard.

I still don't understand why I had to be born into this poor hellhole. I'm also the only person with a uni degree within a roughly 50km2 radius. No economic or political connections = no job except maybe food delivery.

 No.228774

>>228773
Self-criticism is not an option for low IQ people as individuals but especially as aggregates.

 No.228776

>>228773
>I still don't understand why I had to be born into this poor hellhole
Fate?

 No.228781

>>228773
>
I still don't understand why I had to be born into this poor hellhole.
you were born into such a place to save it! It is your fate

 No.228804

>>228719
loooool. thanks for the laugh makes me feel better about myself.


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 No.37597[Reply]

Would this board be better if anime discussion wasn't allowed? I like anime, but this board's so slow that having any actual discussion outside of the anime review thread or the cute anime character threads, is basically pointless. The world of imageboards needs a place for niche otaku discussion, but alas, no site caters to such interest. What with the modern day youth on this site, there'd probably just be a bunch of Vtuber threads to take all the anime discussion's place. What does /jp/ - Japan/Anime, think?
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 No.42267

it is called japan anime so anything japan related would fit the bill its just up to people to muster the balls to talk about non anime manga things like Tokusatsu living in japan history religion ect

 No.42305

>>42139
it's not only justified, but vindicated. The Chinese are, as much as you may like them, a cancer, and they are huge. Their influence should be cut out from everywhere.

 No.44247

In my experience, saturation of a particular conversation theme in any board doesn't mean that the board is doing poorly. It just means it lacks enough people. If you wish to have a conversation beyond anime, manga or light novels, we all would benefit from you making a thread on the subject. Also very cool image, not sure if that is a yokai but looks cool.

 No.44252

>>44247
https://yokai.com/mumashika/?srsltid=AfmBOopkAMdHHZpyhT2D4LPTeDNNCk5iVykKHk8aKut_KQ4GeCJLeCUc

 No.44328

>>37607
saeed please


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 No.308419[Reply]

I got a very sad event and started to write things out of nowhere, like poems and short shitty ironic funny stories in my language, even some are sad or deppresive or even dramatic histories.
Sometimes i like to draw calligrams.
I shared it sometimes with randoms or people i know and they enjoyed it.
I doing this now like two weeks and i feel kind calm and in some way at times little happy after reading or laughing at my shitty work, i dont know why but i like it feels more fulfilling than doing nothing or focus much in fixing my sadness bacause sometimes i even got some smirk or laugh of people seing my art and they looks happy to me and that's everything to fill my day with their little spontaneous bacon of sunlight in this abyss.

 No.308425

that's kind of hurt reading your thoughts because sometimes I laigh at things and depression comes out of nowhere and the joy I had transform into a bittersweet emotion which is hard to carry because of how heavy depression/sadness is. your post reminds me of that

 No.308426

>Creating art
>Expressing yourself
>Making your kinsmen smile
These are all normal things to enjoy and just about every small children's cartoon has been pounding that in to kids' heads since forever.

 No.308427

>i know and they enjoyed it
i don't want to ruin your peace but i'll just feed you this thought that you should keep yourself prepared for when your brain starts returning to the baseline and thinking rationally again. maybe it'll never happen, but just in case.

 No.308434

>>308427
>>308427
>our brain starts returning to the baseline and thinking rationally again

>implying him finding enjoyment in delighting others is irrational
>implying his happiness is.. a COPE
Piss off.

 No.308468

sounds fun, you should do this more often if it makes you happy


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 No.308464[Reply]

Again, that feeling returned, wondering why there was a kind of resentment within me. Memories surfaced of why things had to be this way. And well, my ego told me what my eyes had seen: that I was superior to the one who had prevented me from being myself.

Although it was all for naught, the sinister was already looming. But how can you banish something from your mind when it has become so fiercely ingrained?

Have you ever managed to rid yourself of a resentment that seemed to have become embedded in your mind?

 No.308467

no i hate everything and everyone and feel like it's absolutely justified


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 No.227908[Reply]

It's official. Sexbots are almost* here.

Would you guys sexbotmaxx or remain a pure Wizard?
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 No.228791

>>228758
i've never experienced it. is this something only low iq people have access to?

 No.228792

>>228791
nah you gotta have a male genitalia to experience it. you only have skin down there.

 No.228801

>>227925
This isn't a stupid thread.

if we are trying to find ways to help and fix our isolating mental and physical pain away this is good directions and I like these alternatives of "fembots" or other related ideas.

if succubi want to act like they are independent then full steam ahead! may fembots be real for the men!

 No.228802

>>227908
what do you mean sexbots could "cure" wizardry?
that implies you would no longer be a wizard if you had a sexbot
>maxx
okay, that explains why you think that way
>or remain a pure Wizard?
it doesn't ultimately make any difference
it's just a fancier sex toy

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 No.8907[Reply]

Post soothing or calming BGM tracks from visual novels. It may have tones of joy or melancholy.
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 No.10820

Worms Feasting on Filth

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 No.10943

such a shame to see so many videos no longer available throughout the years


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 No.63216[Reply]

Games you played that were not as good as the mainstream masses/reviewers would had you believe.
Also games that were recommended by "patricians", that turned out to just be games that cater to their autistic taste.

While I didn't find the gameplay or aesthetic of borderlands bad. The writing is so god damn cringy, it's like a boomer trying to write something he thinks modern teens like. After 2 hour I just couldn't stand it anymore. Gearbox were veterans and they had the backing of 2K a major publisher, this was the best writer they could get?
The deigns of banished isn't bad. It just that it felt like doing homework instead of playing a fun game. Many hours of planning, trail and error. Only an autist could think about spending the weekend for this.
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 No.63553

>>63549
The creator of planetscape torment got constant emails and praise for his super deep story, and the creator was bewildered and responded with "bro read a book". He couldn't believe people took the writing seriously.

 No.63554

>>63551
With the current state of gaming, all a studio would need to do to earn praise from real gamers would be release a game with a female character who isn't a fat negro succuboss, or a male main character who isn't a goofy try-hard who gets spoken down to by said succubosses.

 No.63558

>>63216
>>63299
>I loved Mirror's edge, Catalyst is a Unfinished game.
I liked Mirror's edge aesthetic.
Frutiger Aero or Y2K, pure art and time capsule game.
I like the philosophy of faith aesthethic of making she beatiful and in some way cute but with a logical way with a working image for her world sense. Not sexualized but focused in play and charisma and colors of her image.

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>>63546
>>63548
Am agreeing with all this a lot even though I've had fun replaying HL1 several times lately. But I really mean everything from We've Got Hostiles onward (I happen to not hate Xen), and even so it's gotta be nostalgia goggles since this was one of my favorite things ever as a kid.

Pretty slow to start and really goofy sometimes, partly because of how badly it's been memed but also quite a few setpieces meant to be scary or cool are actually pretty retarded if you think about them at all, or just witnessing them. Freeman's Mind was particularly good at skewering HL1, watch it if you're interested in that!

 No.63560

Borderlands is extremely horrifically overrated. That game sucked ass


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 No.227929[Reply]

Norms, notions and behaviors they have that annoys you.

>Never argue with your critics or openly dismiss them
Their blood seems to almost always boil when you openly disagree or argue back against their point of view. They seems to just expect you to just nod along and agree(even if it's dishonestly).
Even if they deliverer their criticism rudely they expect you to still be polite with them.
Been told that snarky responses to people's criticism like
>I don't care go fix it yourself if you have a problem with it!
>Rich coming from an amateur like you, I like to see you do better!
>Who cares about what you have to say? Shove it up your ass!
>If you don't like it then do something else!
Will just ensure no one will bother to be honest with you, if they see you do something that is bad/wrong they will keep their mouth shut or lie saying you're doing great and hope you sabotage for yourself.
For a while I bought this. However, it just lead to people daring to be more rude with me. Eventually lead me to snap and revert to my old behavior. Then people started to choose their words more carefully when they talk to me.
Most of the time their criticism isn't even constructive, it's just them wanting you to cater to their preferences. So far this "antisocial" behavior haven't cause me any harm.
This is just some bollocks normies made up, because they don't like when people disagree or argues with them. They just want to be "right" without any push back.
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 No.228796

>>228794
The more people see actual sociopaths be successful, the more they'll want to turn wannabe.
>>228795
Lol you have to wonder who wants to teach shitheads in the first place. Teachers are not there to look good or entertain you.

 No.228797

I hate when they feel welcome and feel they're at home, yeah I'm talking about normalfags on 4chan. if you tell them to fuck off, they'll insult you and use their I'm white therefore I belong here card, I hate them

 No.228798

I hate when they feel welcome and feel they're at home, yeah I'm talking about normalfags on 4chad. if you tell them to fuck off, they'll insult you and use their I'm white therefore I belong here card, you can't tell them nothing

 No.228799

>>228796
>Teachers are not there to look good or entertain you
And the students aren't there to stroke the teacher's ego. If 90% of the students are snoring or lose focus when the teacher holds lecture. The teacher should just accept that he sucks and not bitch about feeling disrespected.

 No.228800

>>228799
Teachers are authority figures. You know what happens when you grow up and refuse to kiss ass as an adult right? Let teachers bitch. Nobody respects them especially not parents with children who can do no wrong.


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 No.306265[Reply]

I feel like a lot of people, especially older normies overestimate the abilities of the average guy and the problems that are out there to be solved in real life.

There is this old guy I listened to for the past decade now called Eli the Computer Guy and he often repeats this mantra that a tech professional should go out there pick themselves up by their bootstraps and solve problems for money.
Solve real world problems for money. Provide solutions using your skills. Over and over again while teaching people about making toy cars with a microcomputer or whatever.

Issue is there aren't any problems the average guy is capable of solving that people are able to pay enough for to make it worthwhile.
Maybe I'm low IQ and not creative enough, but that is the point I guess.
The average guy that got a CS or engineering degree and is now doing menial tasks at a big corporation isn't going to create groundbreaking solutions because everything worth doing, all the low hanging fruit and obvious problem/solution pairs have been done to death, patented to death or worse.

Big tech is so big that they offer a solution so refined, so solid, so cheap that no mom-and-pop shop will ever give you the time of day if those even exist.
The average normie is quite content with a phone which is basically a toy-ified computer gadget.
They don't need more.
Most even run their own little business from it using a handful of cheap/free big tech tools that if you were to offer a homebrew solution for it would cost an arm and leg to maintain without economies of scale.

What does a network tech that wants to "solve problems" do aside from running cable? You could lease a 10G fiber line from a big ISP and sublet it by wiring up a small village I guess?
Then the government gives a huge fucking grant to big ISP and they just wire up every small village themselves leaving you with nothing.
If you are lucky you can become a subcontractor doing menial tasks for the big ISP in a set region.

What does the average coder do now? Especially with the future of them limiting hardware/software access? Every app is made that a normie needs. Kinda like with websites.
Every normie uses less than a dozen of them, mostly through apps…
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>>306265
I recently dropped out of a computer engineering degree after trying to make it for five years. The coursework probably would have been manageable but I was also working part time alongside it to be able to upgrade my PC, buy games etc. It was those IT gigs that really killed my spirit for the field. I went in thinking similarly to this ideal of Eli you mentioned. I was interested in computers and inspired by the stories of the olden C-era days where a bunch of really smart guys just got together and wrote the UNIX operating system and so on. That philosophy of understanding the machine deeply and writing small but really fast programs that you can chain together to do really complex stuff resonated with me. But once you work in the field it is exactly what you describe. Even IT companies rely on big tech software packages as much as they can, and you are just gluing together various big tech APIs or hacking together shitty Python scripts that will be used for a few months and then abandoned. Everything is just about delivering "something" as fast as possible and not really worrying about how it will fuck you up in the long term because you just hope that by that point there will be a new project or you start from scratch anyways. It was so demoralizing to see that this culture of wanting to deeply understand the tech and underlying issues and creating elegant solutions for them has been completely replaced by this ugly, horrible, boilerplate-off-the-shelf-parts "just ship it" mentality. It killed my spirit for all things tech, frankly. Now I am NEETing, though I will apprentice to become an electrician with a municipality in the fall. If I can get hired on afterwards then as far as I understand it's very rare to be fired again as a public employee. So there's that I guess, even if the pay is less than private sector work. And who knows, maybe that job will fry me in some other way and make me quit, though then I'd really be at my wit's end as to how I could make a living. As for being filtered … where I live most apprentices start after school at 16-17 yo, I am a decade older than that. So economically I'm way behind what would be expected, not to mention socially. I don't really feel "culled" but perhaps that's because I'm still comfortable materially, even if I don't see much of a future for myself and most people would probably call me a loosePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.308448

>>306744
>>306273
>>306265
Eh. Really? You wanted to pursue a career in computers and electronics, but got into trouble? So did I. Tried to enroll into an uni, dropped out due to being unable to grasp the basics. Tried again. And then again. Ugh. My mom would shut me up had I tried to bring up the topic of changing careers.


Funniest thing is, I can afford my bread and butter though. But it has nothing to do with programming qua programming…

 No.308455

>>308445
>computer engineering
I'm actually pursuing the same degree. It's nice to know that someone else has the same ideals & interests.
>after trying to make it for five years
That's a long time for a Bachelor's degree. Did you at least receive a degree, even in another field?
>It was those IT gigs that really killed my spirit for the field.
Explain.
>where I live most apprentices start after school at 16-17 yo, I am a decade older than that.
Even for someone who has just left college after 5 years, that's still old. Did you take a gap year(s)?

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>>308455
>That's a long time for a Bachelor's degree. Did you at least receive a degree, even in another field?
Yes it's a long time. I started uni late because I switched schools in my final year and then had to wait for the new term to start and then redo the last couple of school years to get my diploma (that's just how it works here when you switch schools). So by the time I started uni I was almost 21 already. I did not finish my college degree, no. I basically just kept myself going through sunk-cost fallacy thinking and trying to gaslight myself into believing in that 100% remote job at the end of the tunnel.
>Explain.
Every IT gig I worked (by that I mean jobs in actual IT companies, not IT departments in normal companies, since those tend to be more tech support, office expert and what not) was some kind of demoralizing. I witnessed job cuts, outsourcing and offshoring. I saw people not working on cool technical problems but instead spend their days in Teams meetings, frustrated and exhausted like a boxer on the ropes. Most of the work is project management, clarifying and re-clarifying and changing requirements according to what the customer wants. Everyone was constantly frustrated and tired. Best case they had a kind of fatalistic humor about the whole thing and worst thing they just kept dredging along because they had families that relied on them for income. That was the future I was looking forward to if I stayed in that field I knew, but I also had already invested years into the degree so I was paralyzed and unable to just quit, making it worse semester by semester.

 No.308460

The average guy who has been successful has almost 99.99% of the time been helped by family or friends in someway. You have to make money to earn money. You typically cant just throw yourself out there and expect to succeed.

It's what you do with your resources and how you use them that make you survive.


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 No.322726[Reply]

I unironically want to join the ISKCON religion, even if mostly for "aesthetics"-but not in the shitpost sense, in the IRL practice sense
>the personal liturgy involves bathing, clothing, putting to rest\waking, beautiful marble statues
>religion itself promotes playing with cute articulated dolls
>Brahmacharya (perfect mental-bodily celibacy) is HIGHLY praised
>beautiful music + comfy autistic system (chant X rounds a day, on a specific rosary\mala, in a specific way with the fingers, etc)
>amazing cosmology and lore
>cow sanctuaries (i LIKE cows)
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 No.322732

I went there as a teenager for a free meal. They seemed like really nice people honestly.

The veganism seems very unhealthy though. That's the only thing I'd be hesitant about.

 No.322736

>>322726
>>322732
Sikh temples offer free meals called "langaar" and it's breddy gud. You just have to wear something covering your head and enjoy the meal surrounded by iconography of people being boiled alive and stuff

 No.322750

>>322730
based.

 No.324108

>>322732
Agreed, the lack of B12 vitamin as well as iron really wears one down

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Learn one of the multiple pajeet languages there and create your own religion (only works if white). The god Anonaja Wizarama will grant you a job on Microsoft and very pretty white succubus with blonde hair and blue eyes in exchange for a million rupees, oooommmm.


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