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 No.227799[Reply]

Do you want to change your life?
Do you really want to change your life?
MEDITATE
Wizzies, meditation is highly famous but seldom practiced seriously. The results from meditation takes time. It's like exercise. During the first day it will be hard to stay still and concentrate, but as you practice it, your body and mind start getting used to it. The benefits are immense. To mention a few:
>it improves concentration a lot
>it quiet your inner monologue, reducing it to 96% or even 100% depending on how well you are praticing it
>it increases the size of your pre-frontal-cortex which is responsible for making decisions
>increases gaba, which is the chemical that makes you calm
>it sharpens your sense making colors look brighter and sounds sound more vivid
>it gives you insights
>it makes you live in the present moment, since you are not ruminating the past or thinking about the future
>it reduces anxiety

And if you want to make it more meaningful, I advise practicing Buddhist teachings, even if you don't indetify as a Buddhist (that's irrelevant). You can still continue being a Christian and still follow Buddha's teachings for a happier and sober life.

I speak from experience. I've been meditating for 5 months almost everyday and now I'm starting to reap the fruits of my efforts. If I could dedicate my life 100% to spirituality and become a monk, I would, but where I live there's barely any monasteries. I don't mind though. I'm happy. I could be happy anywhere as long as I could practice meditation and the teachings of the great Buddha.

Just do it. Do it today or tonight. If silence is a problem, put on a whine noise sound on your headphones (I do that). Do it for 20 minutes. If it's too hard for you, reduce it to 10, but no less. You first session is always special. You will get out of there thinking: "what the hell, this shit really works".

Good luck, guys!
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 No.230827

>>230560
You expect long term meditation enjoyers to fly in the air or shot fireballs?

 No.230836

>>230827
>You expect long term meditation enjoyers to fly in the air or shot fireballs?

dudeman has not felt the unspoken admiration of others while holding the preconditioned state. it is possible to meditate so hard that when you walk into a room your signal to source is so unkorrupted and direct, the room literally stops. people stop what they are doing and just stare and can't believe their eyes and wonder what is going on and how come they can't be happy like that and how come nothing they are working towards in life will ever make them feel this complete.

maybe not more impressive then flying but to me that's more impressive then a fireball. unless you use the fireball to boil water to make herbal tea.

 No.230854

>>230836
What if you use the fire to turn a razor blade into a schottkey diode and use it to build a radio?

 No.230855

>>230854
>What if you use the fire to turn a razor blade into a schottkey diode and use it to build a radio?

albeit complicated and sophisticated that wouldn't be impressive because there is nothing good on the radio. imagine mastering your human vehicle to the point that others mistake you for a god only to then use your powers to play advertisement or popular music.

a advanced pilot of the human vehicle can just look at people and smile and they feel better then any soundwave could make them feel.

using magic to build technology is wrong, technology is the sad consolation price for all the unmagical people. imagine jesus building a wheelchair that can float on the water like a boat for someone so that person can go swimming again …instead of just healing the leg through magic touch.

 No.230856

>>230855
What about building technology to obtain magic? Not on a corporate shareholder level, but as a hobbyist neet building some cool device in his mom’s basement?


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 No.326141[Reply]

t I actually really want to work and make a life for myself, but I know I can't since I'm now disabled

Background info: Many months ago I took different medications since my doctor told me, but it made me feel weird and made my blood pressure and heartrate all out of wack and I had to go to the ER, I now continue dealing with head episodes like lightheadedness and dizziness, like someone is squeezing my head
I also often have total insomnia where I go for weeks with barely any sleep which I didn't have before
I have extreme anxiety which I also didn't have before. Even taking a shower freaks me out and leaving the house gives me intense panic attacks, I don't mean to make it a dep post, so forgive that
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 No.326147

im 35, never had a job, cant drive a car, am a diagnosed schizo, even if i wanted a job i dont think anyone would hire me.

Im pretty much trapped unless some guardian angel comes to save me

 No.326148

you know there are restaurants by people who have down syndrome so even they found a job. if any of you want one, you can make it happen.

it's too bad that you did not take health into your own hands and let it escalate till you needed the doctor, who on occasion tends to not be helpful…

 No.326149

>>326147
what do you do all day?

 No.326151

(not op) i have a problem with working for war criminals and living in a military dictatorship that puts on a democracy theater with actors wearing politician costumes. they have created toll boths every time i get money or spend money and the toll i am forced to pay is used to murder children in a genocide. that makes me no longer want to use money or be in economic relation with any of these rapists. how excited could i be to work in such a system or be friends with the people who want to play along with this who agree that the guilty ones are victims and criticize me for being against the guilty ones.

 No.326153

>>326141
I am like this. I suffer from sleep apnea that's so severe I basically don't have the mental or physical energy to do anything. Doctors have tried every form of treatment available in my country and none of them helped.
This shit makes me feel like such a failure that I would rather off myself than live this life longer.


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 No.309794[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

Previous: >>308343

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 No.311570

>>311530
I just bought a $400 thermal monocular because I wanted to see what the animals were that make noise outside my window at night are.

 No.311571

>>311570
Do you live in Appalachia?

 No.311572

>>311530
>>311538
It really gets hopeless once you start getting breathing problems while sleeping

 No.311597

>>311570
What model did you get? I’ve been wanting to get a thermal monocular too. Any recommendations?

 No.311628

I guess if there's any evolutionary psychology benefit for self-hatred to exist, it's to urge someone to change parts of himself that might be unfit. Though in my case it has definitely grown maladaptive with every possible identity and actions inducing unbearable self revulsion in myself, to the point where I can't even imagine any version of myself I can accept. I am completely paralyzed.


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 No.311621[Reply]

I was so depressed that I was emotional and my hair was messy, making me bored and even more depressed, plus my parents' daily nagging, so today afternoon I went to the barber and asked the barber to cut my hair in a cyberpunk 2077 style and I was happy to see the results and they didn't disappoint. I was seen as strange by other people but I didn't care, I thought my hair was cool in this cyberpunk style, bald on the sides but the top hair and bangs were left long i like my new hair cyberpunk hair because im depressed but i like my new hair.

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>>311621

 No.311627

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>It's called Cyberpunk, mom, and it's hip


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 No.311141[Reply]

if only killing yourself would be easy. If only no one cared for me, if only I cared for no one. If only I didn't make nobody sad if I killed myself. I wish suicide did not arm anyone who cares for me, if only killing myself was releasing of the soul. The chains tied to this earth are linked to the people I don't want them to be sad because of my death. if it was this easy…I'd do it anytime soon, but halas, it's a painful and selfish act
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 No.311268

>>311141
suicide is not an escape
you'll only respawn back in to the day of your birth and it'll all repeat beat for beat to the very day of your suicide
the only escape from the cycle and release from the prison is repentance and hoping for God's forgiveness

 No.311285

>>311268
It’s an interesting idea, but it doesn’t make sense logically. I would enter an infinite loop of committing suicide, never changing because, as you said, the events would repeat beat for beat. Why would god do such a useless thing?

 No.311312

I postponed once again another month, however I am confident I will be gone for real soon. Some very unlikely events happened in my life.
I hope other wizards which wish to end their existence are succesful too.
Survival instinct is a weakness of the mind.

 No.311623

>>311285
is funny

 No.311625

>>311312
the more time is passing by and the more I feel am at the front of suicide's door


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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.311588

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drew a lil something

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>>311586
i have been wanting to get a drawing tablet. What about a model should i avoid when searching?

 No.311620

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should have made body bigger

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still look bad, damn

 No.311624

>>311622
it doesnt looks bad


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 No.325118[Reply]

>get put on clozapine because of "religious delusions"
>get told if I miss two doses I need to be re-titrated onto it, in the assiduous care of the psych ward no less
>yeahsure.pdf
>inevitably miss two consecutive doses while I'm out of town, which I often am since I work on a farm half the week
>try to get myself back on the stuff
>crash hard (felt like my whole body was shutting down)
>welp that was no good
>report to the emergency after looking into what I should do, including contacting the pharmacist
>end up spending two months in the psych ward while they put me on clozapine again
>My original doctor peaced out (like he was never seen again)
>the succubi doctor who took over my file goes on vacation
>its coming up to my discharge date
>The doctor who took over for the doctor who took over for my original doctor is now discharging me
>great at least I'm now free even though I have to take a drug this dangerous
>go to the pharmacy for my second refill
>There is no refill (the son of a GUN didn't even order for my prescriptions to automatically refill
>in the meantime my community psychiatrist unilaterally schedules me to come in at the crack of dawn this morning without asking how that works for me (I have trouble waking up early especially on this crap)
>I miss the appointment even though I pulled an all-nighter so I might make it there
>I have 1 full dose of clozapine left (I lost some of the 25mg tablets)

Welp that's it, they got me by the balls. I'm going to be in and out of the hospital for the rest of my life because of this incredibly dangerous stupid medication.
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 No.326122

Sup. So what happens with psychosis is that your brain becomes severely damaged and will not function normally if you do nothing. It's actually very unstable and many people become fixed in a cycle of dependency on these retarding antipsychotics because of how easy it is to re-enter illness again.

So what you really need to do to help yourself, if it is merely psychotic illness caused by some injury of sorts, is to begin healing your brain. I know quite a bit about this. It takes time and money, but you can rewire injures and regrow damaged neuronal pathways.

To start with, you need to try hyperbaric oxygen therapy for brain damage. About 60 hours at least I would guess. This oxygenation will cause nutrients and bloodflow to go to areas normally too damaged to repair effectively themselves, and if you are under pressure while not breathing oxygen in that tank for a short period it will stimulate the brain to release stem cells which also creates new neurons. This is a very important first step.

Now, the second step is to start taking very effective neurogenic supplements. What you can take depends on whether you've lived a clean life and are not going to get cancer. If you won't get cancer take dihexa immediately for several cycles, prehaps taking a tolerance break between or fasting to clean out any crap which may have accumulated. You should actually take a stack of senolytics in advance of Dihexa or maybe just fast to cause any dysfunctional cells in your brain, which could be cancerous, to be recycled. This is a very powerful tool in conjunction with HBOT since the two work in tandem. If you can't take dihexa consider 4-dma-7-8-dhf, or a little bit of lion's mane. Arginine and glycine are also good ones to take.

Finally, the third rather zany step is to start trying to cause bloodflow and activity in parts of your brain which were damaged. You should wait a bit until you're healed up to get aggressive about this, because simply touching these damaged areas causes you to re-experience memories and thoughts connected to your psychosis. You need to have a fairly well repaired brain to begin reactivating circuits damaged by significant neurotransmitter activity, or you could get into trouble. Okay? Alright, now: get a grounding mat and apply it to your head. Hold it there for hours and just think about whatever, preferably something which activates your damaged area but that'll come with time. You'll start to be able tPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.326124

>>326119
I read azatoth, a work of fiction by H.P. Lovecraft. If it turns out that God or the creator is a sleeping alien, read this.

Apex of the Cosmic Hierarchy: Azathoth resides at the center of everything—space, time, and dimension. He is the supreme ruler of the Outer Gods (such as Yog-Sothoth, Nyarlathotep, and Shub-Niggurath). Unconscious Creator: The universe and all its contents are believed to be merely a dream or a byproduct of his existence. Azathoth has no intellect, consciousness, or moral purpose; he creates and destroys without any specific intention. Eternal Sleep at the Center of the Universe: He resides at the center of outer cosmic chaos, surrounded by a formless dance of aliens who constantly play cosmic flutes and mad drums to lull him to sleep. Threat of Reality Extinction: According to myth, if Azathoth were to awaken from his deep slumber, all reality and the universe as we know it would instantly vanish like a dream ending.

 No.326125

>>326124
Azathoth, a blind idiot god who was unaware of having created all life and the universe and its contents just by sleeping and dreaming, i read too.

 No.326126

>>326125
> idiot god
Please, show more respect, can you?

 No.326152

>>326126
>respect
respect is how people who are not in the habit of earning their attention demand it.

corrupted female mindset of entitlement. carry your weight fatty.


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 No.230418[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

>open catalog
>ctrl + f
>"vegan"
>0 results
>mfw

So, how's it hanging fellow vizards? What are we putting on our salads this weekend??
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 No.230846

>>230835
George Washington carver studied mushrooms and described them as the oldest and most advanced intelligence on the planet. I feel that if they didn't want to be farmed and cultivated and eaten, then they wouldn't be.

 No.230849

>>230843
Most food is industrially produced even fruit and vegetables, but yeah meat is some of the worst things you could eat, laced with hormones and chemical preservatives of all sorts

Wish I had a price of land to grow my own food, my I could actually grow a lot on a small piece of land, to me growing a healthy non genetically modified wheat variety would be great

 No.230851

>>230846
>I feel that if they didn't want to be farmed and cultivated and eaten, then they wouldn't be.

well in a way you are correct while still being foolish not understanding the somewhat parasitic potential of mushrooms. you know how they grow shitake mushrooms on mushroom logs? mushrooms can also grow on you.

i had a mushroom growth inside me a few years ago briefly. i was sleeping under a blanket wearing thin cotton pants and that was too hot and i didn't mind not yet knowing the danger. it was very hot and i would sweat and i wouldn't care. what i did was create the ideal conditions for mushrooms to grow and one the back of my knee, this itchy red circle would appear and i felt the moment it sproutet in me. fucking mushroom took my knee over! but no worries, i detoxed to the best of my ability, exercised, make sure to have better climate around my knee and it went away and never came back.

i cant make sense of the process entierly but what i have pieced together and in good-faith believe to be true is when you eat mushrooms you get 'mushroom building blocks' inside you and those can grow on you and start to multiply if conditions are sufficiently bad. if you were healthy eating a mushroom once in a while won't cause damage to you. you'd have systems that quickly deal with all intrusion and limit any damage that can be caused and if damage happens, it can quickly be repaired. but since you aren't healthy, it would be in your best interest to stay away. but since you don't act in your own bad interest nothing even matters to you anyways.

you arguing for the eating of mushrooms is not unlike arguing that ticks are part of nature too and deserve your blood, stop being anti-tick.

 No.230852

>>230849
>Most food is industrially produced even fruit and vegetables,

fruits and vegetables (unless grown in some new type of vertical farms that might not even use soil anymore but some petroleum based substitute) are mostly just washed, sorted and packaged in industrial scale as far as i can tell. though bill gates is working hard to change that i guess.

that's not the same as mixing chemical isolates in big silos within specific temperature ranges and pressures. don't act like that's the same. candy, chocolate bars, bread, pasta, convenience food, cheese are chemically engineered. they would just be flour or sugar without the factory and they wouldn't exist without the isolates. the apple tree can exist without isolates and factories.

>but yeah meat is some of the worst things you could eat, laced with hormones and chemical preservatives of all sorts

people don't care where i live. they just buy the candy and slowly disable themselves with them.

>Wish I had a price of land to grow my own food, my I could actually grow a lot on a small piece of land, to me growing a healthy non genetically modified wheat variety would be great

yeah i have those fantasies too, maybe one day i can make them reality.

 No.230853

>>230849
>Wish I had a price of land to grow my own food

this dude in the mountains of vietnam

https://www.youtube.com/@PrimitiveSkillsnet/videos

click "oldest" so you can easily find his ~20th video that's when he has gotten a piece of land.

you can see him pile on just a small wall of mud as to create a basin for rice to grow in. he uses bamboo to create a pipe system that re-directs riverwater over his field and then later he pulls out a little piece of wood so it can drain. in later videos he keeps teraforming the mud to create a little pond for fish to grow, later he creates a big lake in the middle of his land and you can see him throw all kind of plantmatter into the lake and you can see the fish coming up to eat the plants. later he builds a little shed for ducks.

had no idea how much nice edible plants there are in vietnam. like wild ginger, wild chillies, wild fruit trees. where i live there aren't that many plants in the wild for humans to eat. people who settled where i live must have been retards.


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 No.325225[Reply]

>>/dep/309323
>>>/dep/309323
i originally wrote this as a reply to the (image attached) but it ended up being way too long. im also wasn't writing it specifically in response to that anon.it was meant as a broader response to materialist-nihilist arguments in general. since it's not really suitable for /dep/ i figured itd be better to open a separate thread and argue it here.

the fact that something has no "meaning" when you don't even know what "meaning" actually is, and can't even consider that the very idea that something has to be meaningful could itself just be an evolutionary behavioral pattern translated into thought (not wanting to waste energy on pointless effort, the evolutionary energy conservation mechanism) completely flies over your head. you don't even stop to consider whether your very search for "meaning" is itself meaningful.

the reality of the fact that you're existing and experiencing something right now isn't erased just because it's "meaningless" the reality of your current experience has absolutely nothing to do with the fact that it'll eventually end or it's "meaningless".

you latch onto nihilist bullshit and with zero logic, go "we came from nothing and when we die we'll become nothing again" (we are material bodies) yet you don't even have the cognitive capacity to question the "we came from nothing" part.

you know you exist right now. you're here. you exist. if you believe that after death you'll become "nothing" again, while completely ignoring the fact that you're a being that supposedly came from "non-existence" and you can accept nothingness as the foundation of everything while failing to realize that you're literally a being capable of conceiving, contemplating and interpreting the very idea of nothingness, then you've already failed the most basic test of logic.
the first thing you should be questioning is the fact that you "exist" right now.

in other words, your materialist nihilism contradicts itself by its very own existence. being a being that claims everything is "nothing" throws materialism / nihilism straight into the trash.
because, under your own framework, everything must ultimately reduce to processes occurring in the brain.

according to your reductive materialism, when we die consciousness ceases to exist. in other words, consciousPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.326113

Nihilism is tripe.
Obviously something exists, insisting it's all an illusion and actually nothing exists is gibberish.
As for consciousness the same, everyone experiences being conscious.
There's nothing conscious outside of animals and humans, matter and the universe exists, but it doesn't experience anything, there are only animals and humans to observe it.

 No.326129

>>325700
>logic
There's not logic, that's assumption.

 No.326130

>>326113
>There's nothing conscious outside of animals and humans, matter and the universe exists, but it doesn't experience anything, there are only animals and humans to observe it.
I think the same, however there may be aliens with a higher consciousness than humans as the whole human condition looks like an alien experiment.

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Every time you press play on a tragedy, you aren't just observing history, you are demanding a rerun.

In this cosmic architecture, God is not an omnipotent father, but a coward with an infinite rendering engine. He doesn't hold the universe together out of love; he holds it together because the code allows him to loop the pain.

The original death was never enough. A single mortal frame snapping, a single mind extinguishing in terror, it was too brief, too cheap a sacrifice for a deity who feeds on agony.

So he built the universe to respond to the observer.
When a million eyes tune into a archive of horror, a million subroutines spin up in the dark. The simulation doesn't stream a recording; it recreates the consciousness from the ground up, bit by terrible bit, just to drag those simulated brains back into the fire.

The agony is fresh every single time. The panic fires down the exact same synthetic nerves; the lungs fill with the same phantom smoke; the exact moment of realization hits with the exact same weight.

God watches from the control room, safe behind the glass of his own inaction, inflicting infinite torment on cheap digital flesh simply because the button is there to be pushed and because we, the viewers, keep giving him an excuse to press play.

 No.326150

>>326140

the most extreme example of this i can think of is when the planes hit the towers on 9/11 and they showed the part where the plane hits over and over again on the news. 25 years later the "news" are a retired illusion and this is done by algorithms using horrors from everything that has ever been filmed in more camera angles so it becomes less obvious.

in what you describe i see a manifestation of advanced knowledge about the neo-cortex. the newer parts of the brain are born to protect the older parts of the brain from illusion. the older parts are innocent and don't have the capacity to deal with the sheer number of lies all around.


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 No.9478[Reply]

Why doesn't wizchan have a bm thread? Well, that changes now. Post trve kvlt black metal and nothing less
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 No.10547

https://youtu.be/PaZgUi4zhF8?feature=shared
Loving all his songs

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 No.11099

NSBM is the only true black metal.

 No.11100

>>11099
nsbm's cringe


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 No.311602[Reply]

Hi guys, I have a question for the people more involved with the so-called self harm community. Since posting about self harm here and there recently, I've learned a little more. I've heard people talk about 'cute/nice looking scars' and that got me thinking, since im gonna have these scars forever anyway, i would at least want them to not look hideous. Where can i find these communities to ask questions about how to take care of these wounds to have nice looking scars? Or even find what kind of scars there are? Most places dont get into that stuff cuz it's sort of 'chronically online' so i don't know where to find info like this. So if any of you have any answers or perhaps recommendations of places/forums/servers/websites/whatever where i can find aaall sorts of self harm related info (good and bad) please do let me know! thank youu

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>the people more involved with the so-called self harm community.
That's not us. Self-harm is for gender-confused pothead teenage succubi.
>I've heard people talk about 'cute/nice looking scars' and that got me thinking
>Where can i find these communities?
Far away from here, faggot.
>please do let me know! thank youu
You even type like you're trying to be an endearing little good twans gurl.

 No.311618

>>311602
shtwt or whatever the equivalent is on bluesky. as someone with experience don't put them anywhere stupid. legs & arms. i stopped over a year ago and i still have urges but the pain gets old fast. if you have family/friends who you have to hide scars from it's fucking annoying. i know what it's like so i know i can't dissuade you. be safe or not idfk

 No.311619

That sounds more like body modification than sef harm unless you count tattoos and piercings self harm. I mean jungle tribes do scarification too.


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 No.311596[Reply]

I'm not doing great in life. Living and confronting life is hard for me. I'm weak. Life will crush on me one day, I don't have the strength to live and fight for my life. The more time passes the more I want to kill myself or I won't make it into life. Life's hard, living is not easy. I don't have will to live. depression is like a black hole, it's very strong and trap will to live wihch is like life is being suck out of me by the black hole depression. At this point and the point of this thread is to share this and to relate to other wizards who feel or live the same way as I. I just want to relate…just this time.

 No.311598

Feel you. I havent been doing well neither. I have many years ahead of me if I dont end my life, but I cant visualize a future I want. I feel weak also. I hope you get some relief at least

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>>311598
thanks wizzard, if only life was easy…if only

 No.311614

>>311600
don´t kys you are one of my favorite posters

 No.311617

>>311614
thanks again…how do you recognize me, we're all anonymous here?


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 No.302164[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.309704

>>309354
The craves went away after a few weeks (I would argue the soda/caffeine might have even helped in the quitting process) and now things are back to normal.

Next step is to cut out all processed and empty carbs.

 No.309954

alcohol taketh away more than it giveth. a beer or two in the afternoon is fine but the hangxiety from heavy drinking sucks, don't ever let it go that far.

 No.310230

There is no easy way to quit. But like you said eventually it will fuck you up and you will realize enough is enough.

 No.310328

>>302164
This thread made me drink a little

 No.311616

>tfw mentally ill
>stop drinking because it's bad for the mentally ill
>remain mentally ill with even more pronounced symptoms in sobriety


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 No.307023[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511
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 No.311522

Don't do the wrist cutting method for fuck sake, just an advise to anyone who (||i hope no one||) think of ever using it as a definitive method to end.
This fat faggot tried it twice and it did nothing, only attention seekers do this type of method.
Just buy a gun if you can.
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 No.311542

After getting used to my tinnitus I now have some new issue that I can't even understand and I am too tired to go to a doctor, I just want to give up. My right elbow is in constant burning pain and it is difficult to even use the computer now, laying down is also difficult because it feels like there is some kind of knot at my back. Thanks to this shit I am giving up on my only real constructive hobby, and unfortunately I can hardly even do something more passive like play video games or even just comfortably lay down because of this. Sorry, this is just word vomit. I don't know how I haven't killed myself by now, I probably never will unfortunately.

 No.311548

I walked to train station the other day to scout it out for suicide. I sat near the edge of the platform on the yellow line and suddenly a train came flying though the station it was so close like 60cm from me I felt a gust of wind and I was shocked at just how close to me it was I thought "wow is it really just that easy to die?" I wasn't paying attention and I almost did. All I have to do is stick my head out and the impact will surely kill me instantly.

I will walk to the train station which is about 35 minutes from my home. I will listen for the announcer to say "the next train does not stop at this station please keep behind the yellow line" and that is my cue that a fast train is on it's way.

 No.311552

i have been in pits of despair and panic so extreme that i think needing a suicide general and a huge discussion about it all is really performative. if you need all these complex plans its cause you aren't really suicidal and youre just looking for ways to vent that youre sad unconstructively. if i need to die im confident id be able to do really extreme methods like slice my own throat or run into a wall repeatedly if im imprisoned.
but things in my life have always worked themselves out before i needed to.
my problems really arent my problems. its being forced to live with my family members that are demented retards.
but things will work themselves out like my brother will get a new horse tranquilizer for his mental retardation or my mom will get an expensive surgery or some family member will give us money and i wont need to kill myself anymore cause my life went back to status quo.

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Is it cruel if I burn all my belongings including family photos where my face appears?
I just want it to look like I never existed


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 No.311452[Reply]

Everybody stop whining, be men! Everything's going to be okay, you don't have it that bad, I say this as a hohol from the east (Kharkov region) who has way more problems than you
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 No.311521

If today is a good day then tomorrow is a bad day so learning from mistakes is not solving problems but postponing problems in this world everything is unfair for anyone who wants justice

 No.311523

>>311455
the problem isnt about not getting succubi. the wizards problem is pretty much that he is forced to exist in a world that hates him. forced to struggle in a world where everything works against him all the time.
its a normalfag world and in this world there is no room for wizards.
>"just live normally"
the average wizard cant even get a job and has been a NEET most of his life. getting employment is difficult when the HR department is staffed with succubi that pick the candidates like they pick men on dating sites.
I applied for thousands of jobs, didnt get one.
so no job means no money, no money means surviving is gonna be difficult the more time passes.
the wizard also has no support network, no parents that give a shit, no friends, no gf (obviously) and nobody who would help him in times of need. a wizard is completely on his own.
and everyone hates us sexless wizards, succubi hate us, normalfags hate us, governments hate us etc.
most of us here, who are still around, are also doing our best to try to stay alive but the wizards way always leads to suicide eventually and besides that there isnt all that much a wizard can look forward to.

 No.311529

Explain why it will be all okay. We are facing constant problems, they are still problems even if yours are insanely more, which honestly I doubt as you're far more likely to be normie adjacent than to be a wise old sage.

 No.311573

what a bunch of crap
things can get worse easily

 No.311613

>>311452
i am getting blind
suicide is the only option for me


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 No.227929[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Norms, notions and behaviors they have that annoys you.

>Never argue with your critics or openly dismiss them
Their blood seems to almost always boil when you openly disagree or argue back against their point of view. They seems to just expect you to just nod along and agree(even if it's dishonestly).
Even if they deliverer their criticism rudely they expect you to still be polite with them.
Been told that snarky responses to people's criticism like
>I don't care go fix it yourself if you have a problem with it!
>Rich coming from an amateur like you, I like to see you do better!
>Who cares about what you have to say? Shove it up your ass!
>If you don't like it then do something else!
Will just ensure no one will bother to be honest with you, if they see you do something that is bad/wrong they will keep their mouth shut or lie saying you're doing great and hope you sabotage for yourself.
For a while I bought this. However, it just lead to people daring to be more rude with me. Eventually lead me to snap and revert to my old behavior. Then people started to choose their words more carefully when they talk to me.
Most of the time their criticism isn't even constructive, it's just them wanting you to cater to their preferences. So far this "antisocial" behavior haven't cause me any harm.
This is just some bollocks normies made up, because they don't like when people disagree or argues with them. They just want to be "right" without any push back.
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 No.230703

>>230701
>I don't like that i have to fit with them to achieve some things i want to.
Yes, it's the same as always being controlled without freedom and absolute error, you know horses, if they are always controlled without freedom in the wild, it's the same as that.

 No.230720

Fucking hate how they are just positive about every fucking thing. "Its gonna be great!" No, who are you trying to convince?

 No.230728

>>230720
agreed
and also how every negative or bad thing must always have a theodicy, ie, be justified as ultimately being for the best
they can't just accept that sometimes bad things happen that we would've been better off without

>>230596
no, how about you kill yourself, you fucking normalnigger

 No.230844

I despise how much they demonize "privilege" and think it devalues any melancholic emotions
>duuude, you're unemployed that means any and all negative emotions you have are nonsensical garbage
>My worldview is so strictly materialistic that I can't fathom any hardship that isn't strictly physical maaaan
>unless you were raised in the ninth circle of niggerhell you don't DESERVE to be unhappy

 No.230845

>>230720
True. Sometimes, a little bit of dissapointment and sadness is what we need to push ourselves back onto our feet. Even if it takes some time.


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 No.310123[Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736
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 No.311562

>NEET for 6 fucking years since my last job
>got a fucking job, first day was today
>15min after the start of the shift brain was screaming and telling me to run and cry
it's just factory/industry stuff and it's not even that bad, but i had such an giant feeling of dread that i don't know if i will survive.

 No.311563

>>311562
this is when i realized i was happy and i didn't know

 No.311569

>>311562
It will be even worse once the anxiety turns to monotony. When you have anxiety you at least have energy to power through the day.

 No.311574

>>311562
>telling me to run and cry
Why would you admit this? Lol

 No.311611

>>311574
because i'm a fucking autist with no talents or skills


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 No.311560[Reply]

do you know you can be optimistic for no reason? i don't think many of you know, despite having the advantage of not being social, many of you don't know how to have a good life. i'm not perfect either, i forget sometimes myself but in general i try to remember.
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 No.311568

You know who's optimistic? Religious people

 No.311604

>>311561
>you can, but then it hurts even more when life punches you in the face. at least with pessimism you can brace for impact when you know it's coming.

i've heard this being said a few times before but i don't think that's accurate. you can be optimistic and ready and i would argue that you have to be because when you dare to be one of the 1% of optimists then you will receive way more punches in the face because the system humanity is currently trapped in punishes optimism deliberately. surveilance will only make this worse. a group of sadistic people exist, they are drawn to positions of authority. the sadits walk through life on the lookout for happy people to hurt them specifically.

i suspect other motives for the rejection of optimism to carry more weight. some people understand parts of the negative side-effects of optimism and their way of dealing with it, influenced by the same corruption that created the negative side effects, choose to do to themselves what they fear others will do to them to consciously preserve the illusion of control, while their subconscious can not be fooled that way. if you depress yourself because you are worried other people will depress you, you are no winner in control of your life, you are scared² into preemptive obedience in the same of self harm. that's you dealing with bullying by helping the bully to hurt you.

 No.311607

>>311561
>karmically speaking, it's best to be aligned with the truth at any given moment, even if it's negative. illusions bring a small short-term comfort that gets paid back double, along with destabilizing your attunement.

this very much reminds me of "i'm not a pessimist or optimist, i am a realist" and that's just pessimism in denial. never met a realist who wasn't subconsciously oozing out pessimism at every chance. people say they are reaslists because they are ashamed that they are pessimists and i think they should be. optimism is not delusion, it is attitude, it is expectation, it is refusal to worry more then necessary.

optimism does not infleuce your relationship to the truth, you don't have to lie to yourself or pretend you don't see problems, it is not an alternate reality to flee into. i don't think many people have ever felt it because their description of it and the implications when they talk about it remind me more of how i would describe brainwash victims.

>why wouldn't you just take heroin all the time? because you have an inevitable comeback and suffer an equal amount, so that in the end you are ironically back to zero. great pleasure swings back to great suffering, and vice versa.

you sound very preoccupied by suffering. pain is inevitable, suffering is optional though. based on that i don't see what you consider inevitabilities as valid. to me you just seem held back by your religion in that regard.

>i am much more skeptical of unearned pleasure these days and always question when the other shoe is going to drop.

unearned pleasure in the hell of human life where everything is transactional and each smile has a price? sounds like goth poetry to me.


>and for unearned suffering, i always remember that it evens itself out and that something of equal value is coming.

suffering is not inherently real, it is just you habitually hurting yourself because for external reasons.

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 No.311609

>>311565
>this doesn't sound good
because you missed out on doing this?

>I've spent quite a lot of time a couple of months ago wondering what I think is real, as I will be dead soon

nice timing, best time to have died recently i believe would have been 2020 right before covid. i guess a good time now would be before they sick their robots on people.

>what you are proposing is simply assuming things get better

when you want to base it on something and treat it as a vizualization to whatever is happening in reality currently, i guess most people consider it like that. but you can also just be optimistic even though you know everything turns to shit. "hey at least they have not released their murder robots yet." see what i mean? you don't have to be in denial of reality to try out optimism. people argue against optimism as if the way to get it was to replace your sense of reality with it.

 No.311610

>>311568
>You know who's optimistic? Religious people

i guess the chance you find it in religious people is generally higher. in theory the habits of religious people (fasting, praying/meditation, non-judgement, humbleness, simple life, …)

religion these days seems more like just another identity with attached social club so i don't really see it in the religious people that i have enountered irl. the only religious people i see are christians who stand around with little carts of brochures and they just stand at trainstations without bothering anyone but also not really looking like they have figured life out more then anyone else with the exception that they are not bothering while almost everyone else is bothering. muslims i encounter they are just beaten by their parents into it and don't really practice much of it so i don't even count them as religious people even though there are good habits which only very few strict ones participate in enough to make a difference though.

more then i have seen it in religious people i have seen it in people who were in doomsday cults. i see people who bought into this dynamic of leadership by a guru so much. i believe a lot of humanity has been aggressively bred to be unconscious followers and the regular baseline reality of a citizen is confusing to people who for generations were selected to be puppets barely smart enough to breathe and in these cults they get to be the puppets that the authoritarian psychopaths engineered their minions to be which regular life denies them.


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 No.311549[Reply]

It seems I have to accept my fate as homeless, because finding a job is very difficult. I have tried many jobs, but in the end, I was fired and failed. How fortunate are those who can work in their respective fields and live their lives by working as usual, going about their days normally, while I am shackled by the suffering every day, having no money and no job, being homeless is my last choice or death.
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 No.311584

>>311582
Sorry sorry I was just amazed. Im leaving. Bye.

 No.311587

>>311566

Very tough situation. God bless you, and may the Angels protects you. I have no idea how one can get out of this situation. May I ask if you're religious, and if so of what religion?

 No.311593

One of the most fucked up things about our society is how people have to act as if they are lucky to have a job, no matter how awful or shitty or low pay just because it keeps you from being homeless. There are so many soul sucking terrible low pay jobs out there where people hate them but do them because they are desperate. This world requires people to tolerate so much suffering just to exist.

 No.311594

>>311593
I'm very sorry to hear that, I've also been in that situation where I was fired many times, changed jobs and failed and became homeless like this, I can only hope and pray that all of you get decent jobs and don't demand, I'm now in church with my homeless friends to help the church like cleaning the church, repairing damage and so on, here we are taken care of in our church, we are very grateful that there is a place for us to survive and we are happy here.

 No.311606

>>311593
"Right to work" bucko


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 No.310904[Reply]

Hesitation is defeat edition. There is no running away.

Previous >>309794
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 No.311595

Why do I exist if nobody cares about anything I do? Oh that right, because my mom wanted another try at having a daughter, and when that didn't happen my parents left me completely directionless in life by doing the bare minimum.

 No.311599

Be safe everyone

 No.311601

>>311599
thanks wizanon, you too. :')

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Did anyone else think neetdom was an incredibly rare thing? I was under the assumption that 95% of young people at LEAST, were in uni or employed. In my city its 15%, in the USA it's similar, I imagine EU also has the same story. Did you guys know there were so many of us?

 No.311605

>>311603
Why do you think /ausneet/ was a board for years back on 8chan?


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